Reading has become more of a
chore than a joy, partly due
to eyesight but mainly due to content. I am not finding material
that is bold and new as I did for so many years.
And, people are
not appearing in my life with whom to build the foundations for a new
world. By now, I believed that we would be much further along
than we are. We would have established a community of
lightworkers.
What went wrong? Why was the dream not
manifest? Was I not specific enough regarding what was
desired? Did I not allow spirit to express through me as fully as
I might have? Why did I not impose my will much more forcefully
to manifest this dream?
The Beyond Imagination book written the
final quarter of 1993 described many of the foundations for creating a
utopian society. Yet, unlike other utopias ... this one seemed to
be well within our collective grasp. At least, to the degree one
who spends most of his time alone could determine.
There is a sense that writing is no
longer enough. I must take action consistent with my beliefs and
my knowingness, action that I have been unwilling to take until now,
action that requires the employment of my will to do as it would.
My will and Thy Will are ONE. It can be no other way. But,
until we realize this, we act inappropriately - not by the standards of
others but by our own standards.
There is much to be done and so
few with sufficient awareness to lead and to guide those who need
direction and assistance.
To be of service in the incoming age,
one must be willing to offer of yourself to those in need of what you
specifically have to give.
Each of us can touch the lives
of others in meaningful ways. It is the interactions between us
that give our lives meaning. Interesting thing for one who is
basically a hermit to say. Interesting indeed. But that
doesn't take away from its truth.
2 May 2006
It seems that more should have
come from all of this
by now. I can't believe that I have not yet found other kindred
spirits to work with. But, such indeed is the case. I still
operate primarily solo, as the hermit, hoping to shed my light upon a
world in need.
Why do I not accept that my
will is spirits will as well? Why am I so unwilling to exert
myself and take a stance, especially when it comes to things that I
want?
If time is simultaneous, then it seems that all
patterns and choices would already be mapped out and made. Our
life is a matter of experiencing these choices and applying meaning to
what we experience both in the world and internally.
We are
meaning making machines. Some seem to be able to do this better
than others. But, that is a matter of level of consciousness and
unique abilities.
We don't expect students in different grades to
learn and know the same things. Rather, we structure their
learning so that it progresses from grade to grade. Similarly, in
the school of life, we have grades or levels. No level is
"higher" or "better" than another. They simply are what they
are.
1993 was a pivotal year in my life.
It truly was a year of spiritual rebirth that was unprecedented in the
first 34 years of my life. I still can't explain why me and why
then, though several symbol systems have confirmed that this was indeed
the right timing and in many respects, I had no real choice but to
allow it to unfold as it did and to learn as much as I could in the
process.
I've spent the past 13 years finding
more of myself and incorporating that into my concept of Self and of
SELF. Much of this has been done solely through the guidance of
consciousness herself.
Here, we allow a stream of consciousness
to flow and we observe what it tells us. The words are not
random. The thoughts are not disjointed or jumbled. There
is a cohesiveness and a clarity to what is expressed that seems rare to
find.
Then why has it not found an audience? Why has it not
attracted kindred spirits? Perhaps it is because they too are
expressing spirit as they are moved to do and the time for joining in
efforts is not quite upon us.
For dreams to become reality, it takes effort. I was going to say
work, but that does not seem to be the right word for spiritual
endeavors. Though we do speak of great works of art. And,
what is it that makes something great? It is the amount of love
that goes into the enterprise.
The greatest love of all is
unconditional love of SELF = the ONE = All That Is.
The greatest
work of all is doing that which we love to do to the best of our
abilities in a manner that serves others.
3 May 2006
Free time
is very precious, but only if we treat it as such.
Every moment
counts, but how much is dependent on what we do with it.
Life
allows us to do what we will. The very universe contributes to
our actualization of what we choose to experience both individually and
collectively. A host of forces are unleashed to do our
bidding. But, we must bid them to do what we would have them
do.
Here, it is important not to get stuck with the manner in
which these forces do their work. They will find a way that works
and that is in the greatest interest of all concerned.
We can
desire outcomes. We can even expect them. However, we
cannot demand them. It is best to leave some things to spirit to
resolve and to finalize.
I
trust that there are other than conscious forces at play in my life
moving me to where I need to be when I need to be there.
My life needs to be open ended. There is no room for plans with
rare exceptions. There is a freedom in living like this.
But there is also an inefficiency due to a lack of organization.
Creativity doesn't acknowledge a schedule. It unfolds and
produces as it will. Though, often this is at a heightened
pace.
When we get lost in our true work, time expands somehow to
accommodate everything that needs to get done and needs to be
expressed. At least, such is how it works in my life. And,
I find it difficult to believe that I am alone in this.
Others
are part of my world for only a small fraction of each day. Even
when we are in the same meetings, we are not really fully present to
one another. No wonder my consciousness wanders so much that I
find it hard to stay focused or even awake at times.
I much
prefer an inner world where my fate is in my own hands ... or more
correctly in spirits hands.
22 December 2006
"If you build it, they will
come". I thought
this applied to the Beyond Imagination site. Actually, I still do
... though it seems that the timeline for this happening is much
greater than I had imagined.
We are to do
what we are moved to do without concern for the results. These
are in spirits hands when we are doing spirits work ... that is, when
we are allowing spirit to work through us.
Christmas is less than three days away as I write this. Yet the
world is far from at Peace. Why is that? Why is the world
that we have imagined still beyond our grasp?
Why am
I still operating as essentially a loner and a hermit? Is this my
true nature? Or, is this a mask that I have chosen to wear that
isolates me from the world.
It seems that I have taken being an
observer of life to an extreme, rather than being an active
participant. But, what is it that I truly want. I enjoy the
company of others to some degree, but I would have it my way. I
get bored easily by routine. My life is not meant to fit into a
mold.
I came to be a wayshower. But to do that, I must do
more than observe, I must act. One such act is the very act of
creation that happens here.
The religious extremists are
far too powerful, as is the military, the warrior arm of the
governments of the world. The result is fear, war, poverty,
misery, etc ... What does it take to right this. We, the
people of the world need to take back our power. We need to turn
our warriors into peacekeepers rather than war makers.
Governments are meant to serve us, not the other way around. The
same thing goes for the economic system. Why is it that more
people don't realize this? Why are people content with the status
quo?
Why are people still focused on ME rather the WE, where in
this case, as the song says WE are the World.
How can we neglect
the conditions in which our brothers and sisters in the world
live? Even in this country, how can we tolerate poverty,
homelessness, and hunger especially for children and especially at this
time of the year?
Thus far in my life, consciousness herself has always
ensured that I was ready. I have no reason to doubt her
now.
"Let There Be Peace On Earth, and Let It Begin With Me" plays as I
write this now. That could be the theme song for Beyond
Imagination. Actually, that is not quite right. John
Lennon's song "Imagine" is closer. In both cases Beyond
Imagination is about creating the foundations that enable spirit to be
more fully expressed in flesh.
What makes me think that I can do
this? By myself, I cannot. But spirit working through us
collectively can literally work miracles. And miracles are what
Christmas should be about.
Cultural diversity makes for an interesting
world. But, at what cost?
Poverty is wrong ... especially
when we have the technology and the means to do something about
it. Just as we are to be good stewards of the world, we are
to be friends, neighbors, and caregivers to one another. Why is
it so hard for us to realize this?
What can one person do? Far more than you might think. We
interact with others who interact with others who in turn interact with
others and so on.
Just as a pebble tossed into a still pond
causes a ripple that eventually encompasses the whole pond ... so your
actions impact the pond that is your world. But, what if the pond
is not still? The effect still occurs, only it may not be as
visible.
This is what meditation and other disciplines of the
soul bring ... stillness, that you may be aware of what you do and how
that impacts both you and the reflection of you that constitutes the
world that you know.
The world is a
mirror. You can only see in it aspects of you. If you want
a better world - a kinder, gentler world then become a kindler, gentler
you. It is that simple, and that difficult.
Why any of us do what we do is ultimately a mystery. We may
believe ourselves to be logical, or emotional, or even spiritual.
But, we are a combination of these, and we never know exactly what
combination is at play.
Life is meant to be a
mystery. If it could be explained, it would not be life.
That is not to say that we cannot learn things about how it manifests
and how it operates. But, it seems that such knowledge will
always be fuzzy at best.
I have the
pleasure of going along for the ride, of surfing the unknown realm of
consciousness as she brings forth all of this. To me, this is
great fun. It is particularly important that it is captured in
this manner so that not only I but others can find it and experience
it.
That is what a stream of consciousness is all about. It
is like going down a river on a raft. Some rivers are gentle,
some have rapids, and some even have falls that you have to maneuver
around.
This seems to be a relatively gentle stream. But
then, I experience it from a perspective that includes 35 years of
metaphysics. Your experience might be far different. Then
again, something brought you here, now, to experience this stream.
How is it that I have the presence of mind to "know" all of this?
Much of what is expressed is beyond anything that I have learned in
this existence. Much of what is expressed is declarative.
There are no conditions offered. There are no alternatives
given.
Let utility be your guide. Do not except something
as gospel simply because it comes through this channel. Trust
your own inner knowingness to know what is right for you. Feel
free to use anything that you find. But, as the guidance states,
"Never doubt!" Doubting effectively cancels out the belief that
you are applying.
Rather than doubt, be open, observe, and choose
whether you like the results that come from a new belief. Beware
of conflicting beliefs, however. These muddy experience making it
far less predictable.
Also, be open to the universe providing
results in a manner that is other than you have imagined. Spirit
knows better than you what is in your own best interest and the
collective best interest. If you listen to her and do what she
moves you to do, your life will benefit in numerous ways.
The
trick is doing what she moves you to do. Sometimes this requires
learning the difference between what she is moving you to do and what
you want to do. It is worth doing what it takes to learn this
difference.
Happiness is a state of mind.
However, it seems to be a fleeting state for most. Yet, there are
exceptions. There are examples of people who are genuinely
happy. And, they are not necessarily the people with the most or
the finest things.
As a nation, the United States is still a youngster on the scene,
having been around only 230 years. By comparison, some countries
such as Iraq (Persia), Egypt, and China have been around for thousands
of years. Their cultures are ancient by comparison.
The ancient countries
have had time to work out relationships and develop cultures that we
don't seem to perceive as of value in the present world.
My sense
is that we are missing some of the nuances of living in our fast-paced,
everchanging, hectic country. We think that what we experience is
what the world experiences as well, but this is nowhere near the
case.
Yes, some of the technology makes its way to other places
in the world. But, many things don't -- primarily due to iniquity
of economic conditions.
It still doesn't make sense to me how an
hour worth of labor can vary by many orders of magnitude in cost.
Work is work. Working with ones hands is no easier than working
with ones head.
People doing the same job in a different country
don't deserve less pay for doing it. But, the economy works first
to benefit the company via profits. Maximizing profits means
minimizing labor costs. Fairness is determined by whatever the
workers are willing to accept. Is that truly fair? My sense
is no, it isn't.
Yet, how do we come up with something that is
fair. One answer is for the people who do the work to own the
companies that they work for. They need to be their own
employers, or at least have a sizeable enough share in the company that
they act as owners as well as workers.
People need to do
things that they are good at doing. Otherwise, we lose
effectiveness and the whole process suffers.
It is not clear that
we need as many things as we have available to us. While variety
is the spice of life, one can have too much of a good thing. It
seems that moderation is called for to some degree. Yes, that
smacks of limitation.
Shouldn't we live in an abundant
world? Why can't we have whatever we can imagine. The
bottom line is that we can, if we share! But, if this is all an
elaborate drama being played out on a holodeck of sorts, why can't we
just speed up the clock and reduce the time from imagination to
realization?
Hmm ... this brings to mind thoughts regarding dimensions and probable
realities. Physical dimensions could overlap, meeting at
intersection points that allow us to live on the same world just with a
different frequency or vibration. We do this with context
switches on computer systems, allowing different programs (different
simulations) to run in different time slices. As long as the
refresh rate is fast enough, it appears continuous to us.
Actually, fast enough is relative as well. If we are only alive
during whatever time slices we get, our now appears continuous to
us.
Our senses are predisposed to detect differences. In
fact, we highlight them. Our very world is one of differences,
though it is composed of a set of atoms that we consider to be the
building blocks of all matter.
Yes, we know that there are
smaller building blocks that make up atoms and that these and the
resulting atoms are fuzzier than we had ever dreamed. Reality
creation is about making choices ... about choosing what reality we
will experience from the myriad of probable realities. How this
occurs is a mystery.
More and more scientists are coming
to the conclusion that the quantum field does collapse to create the
reality that we experience. It is interesting that mystics have
known this for ages, only in their own terms.
Musings
of a Spiritual Warrior
=== 2007 ===
3 January 2007
I so love this expression. It is too bad that I
can't find a way to do this on a full time basis. For that, we
would need either a large audience or a benefactor. I'm not sure
how to go about attracting either.
Further, it is not clear that
such is spirits direction for expression through me. It is not
what I want that matters. Spirit knows what is needed for the
best of all concerned.
I am still learning what
I need to learn to be able to more fully express and serve
spirit. That is enough for the present. How long that
remains to be the case remains to be seen.
Life has a way of
working itself out. At least, it has always been thus in my life
to date.
There is room for change.
There is always room for fresh and new experience. That is what I
am in search of now.
New experience demands new beliefs and new
choices aligned with those beliefs. It is that simple, and that
complex. The bottom line is what do I choose to do? Right
now, I choose to come here to express. Here is where I believe
that I can make the most difference with my life.
What I am missing is the other than physical
connection, my link to the cosmic consciousness, to the collective
whole. What I experience, the whole experiences. Without my
experience, without my expression, there would be a hole in the
whole. This is not allowed.
Each of us are here to play our
parts, to express whom that we are, and in so doing to express what
spirit would express through us. It doesn't matter what that
is. Whatever it is, is right for us.
The universe is by its
very nature perfect. It is the perfect manifestation of spirit at
this time ... given the level of awareness and collective density of
the whole. That does not mean it is ideal. Several have
dreamed of utopias that might offer greater good for the constituent
members of society and the world.
It is time for some of the
guiding principles of these utopias to be realized, so that they can
serve as foundations for a new world.
Principles are realized
when they are taken to heart and acted upon. But, how do we do
this in a mass way? How do we get many or even a few to cooperate
to create a new way of operating in the world?
It is via
demonstration, via walking our talk, that we will ultimately impact
others.
Spirit does not force things to happen. Her ways
are as subtle as the winds and the waters sculpting the earth.
The resulting fabric of society is just as rich, even more so.
What does one see from various perspectives? First, we see the
individuals and the great diversity between them.
Diversity is
good. Though there needs to be some amount of common unity to
create communities. Though, even then, communities have
incredible diversity as well.
Even when they operate by the same
rules in the same game such as many of our teams in sports, the teams
are blessed with a diversity that derives from the differences between
individuals. Where this is most apparent is in the performances
of the best of the best.
Our virtuosos, our geniuses, our
superstars ... those at the extremes seem to define us as a
species. They write our greatest books, produce our greatest
movies, create our greatest art, think our greatest thoughts, generate
our greatest accomplishments etc ... They seem to do what mere
mortals, those with less talents or abilities, are unable to
accomplish.
Each of us is unique. Each of us has a combination
of abilities, talents, and experiences unlike any other. Each of
us has genius inside of us. It is for us to find it and find ways
to develop and express it.
In general, we get better at something
via practice. But this only brings us to greatness if we have an
inherent ability in that area. That doesn't mean that practice is
not difficult. It can be. But, difficult things can still
be fun if we do them with the right attitude, knowing that they are
good for us.
Is spirit
not animating life everywhere? Is not all expression therefore
spiritual? Yes, all expression ... no fine print, no
exceptions. And, it follows that if it is spiritual, it is
ultimately good or for the good of something.
Yes, individuals experience and express.
But, they do so in the context of various organizations - governmental,
educational, economic, spiritual, social, etc ... We participate
in organizations to get needs met - physical, emotional, mental, and
spiritual.
Organizations may be as simple as 1-1
relationships. Actually, these themselves may be quite
complex. The world provides a context for experiencing our
relationship to one another and for discovering our oneness.
Organizations serve us by enabling us to collectively experience
more. It is not enough for us to experience the same
things. Diversity and limitations on time force us to choose what
we will experience and what as a result we will be able to create and
contribute.
Never take more than you give is the guiding
principle that applies. It is through giving that we define
ourselves to the world.
We can give in many ways - to family, to
friends, to colleagues and coworkers, to various communities of
interest, to our country, and even to the world. We can even give
to spirit herself. Or, more precisely, allow spirit to work
through us to do what she will in the world. How we give is our
choice. But, give we must do in order to live.
Hmm ... a thought just came to mind. Organizations have needs
too. They are entities in their own right. As such, they
are much like we are as individuals. They need nourishment to
grow ... different kinds of nourishment for different kinds of
organizations. They need a means to eliminate waste. It
helps if they can be arranged so that what is waste for one is
nourishment to the other as between the plant and the animal kingdom
(carbon dioxide <=> oxygen).
There is a whole science for
building ecosystems. Here we are taking another step, one where
more than physical needs are at play. How do we make the
complexity manageable? It seems like we do this by becoming more
aware.
If we had the awareness of Gaia, for instance, we would
have the collective knowledge of the earth and everything that is on
her - including all of the humans and the collective knowledge of their
organizations.
This expression is my physical as well as mental
offspring. What will come of it, I do not know. I only know
that I must express. There truly is no other choice in this
matter.
Republic, MI and Freedom, PA are the hometowns of my mom and dad
respectively. I believe in a representative democracy and
complete individual freedom for those who have shown themselves to be
worthy of it. The condition was added to allow curtailment of
freedom in cases where individuals would choose to harm themselves of
others.
Along with freedom must come responsibility. Hmm
... does that work for a republic as well? I have refused to vote
my entire life. I am basically apolitical. Yet, I do
believe that government has its purpose in society. I just don't
feel an obligation to become an informed citizen and vote.
It
doesn't matter to me who wins and who loses. Whoever is meant to
be in the job will be selected. And, they will do what the
collective moves them to do, and what their role calls for them to
do. How can I be certain of this? Simply because that is
the way that I believe that the world works.
We each have our
roles to play. Though, there is some freedom involved. We
make decisions in the moment. The path we follow is not
completely predestined, only loosely so.
Within the field of
probabilities, we select what specific experiences we will have.
Most of the time, this occurs other than consciously. Perhaps it
can occur consciously. But, the question is why would we want it
to? What makes us think that we would be happier pursuing our own
destiny consciously than experiencing what spirit already has in store
for us?
Free will versus destiny, that is one question. But, does it have
to be that way? Cannot reality be a combination of both, and one
that varies over time at that?
Can we have a destiny to fulfill
yet choice in how we fulfill it? In particular, do we chose
how we feel as we fulfill our destiny. Do we always succeed in
fulfilling our destiny? If not, wouldn't it be other than
destiny?
Is not destiny a destination that we must reach?
But, is not life a process, a journey and not a destination?
Enjoy the ride comes to mind. So does "live long and prosper"
from Star Trek. Also, the slogan "Live to Ride" from Harley
Davidson.
My primary journey occurs here. My ride is one of
consciousness engaged in exploring the dimensions of herself. And
yes, this is what I live to do.
I clearly don't live to work, though sometimes it seems
that way.
Nothing that I experience is bad. It is what it
is. It allows me to express as I do and be whom that I am.
Because of that, it is enough.
4 January 2007
This is why I came to this planet, to be a part of this
world ... to observe, experience, and express whatever spirit would
express through me.
All of my training, all of my experiences,
everything in my life has led me to this point. This is not only
true for me, but for everyone. The difference is a matter of
awareness and realization. I know that this is my calling, my lot
in life. I do it willingly, marvelling that such expression is
able to be created at all. Yet, here it comes forth, word after
word, idea after idea, seemingly without end.
Expression is its
own justification, especially creative expression. It matters not
what the format or medium is, creative expression turns it into
art.
There is a part of me that says that you can never spend too much time
on knowing thyself. This was the motto above Plato's
Academy was it not, the Greek equivalent of Know Thyself.
It is
through self-knowledge that we become all that we are capable of
becoming. Though, it takes more than knowing ... we must also
take action in accord with what we know. We must be congruent
with whom that we are. We do that by doing what we are moved by
spirit to do to the best of our abilities.
How do we know when it
is spirit that moves us? Good question. We must learn to
recognize this from within. There is an inner source that
knows. We need to find it and then trust it. Yes, this
requires a leap in faith.
Anytime we place our trust in the inner
world of spirit, such a leap of faith is involved. There is
nothing wrong with faith ... we just need to be careful not to misplace
it.
Faith is a tool through which to sculpt the life that we
desire. To that degree, it is akin to belief. Faith still
deals with realms where there is uncertainty or an element of the
unknown. Beliefs do this as well. We can have faith in god,
country, organizations, people, self. We can even have faith in
the laws of nature and the sciences, and all of the technological
wonders and gadgets produced using them.
We can believe whatever we choose to believe. It helps if our
beliefs are aligned with truth, but that does not alter their validity
and potency.
Belief structures are the playground for the
mind. At least, they are meant to be such. When used
properly, they are fluid and dynamic, allowing us to adapt effectively
to the rapid changes in our world.
Utility is the only true
measure of a belief. Does the belief serve ourself and
others. If so, it is useful. If not, it is time to discard
it and replace it with another, or at least adapt it to make it
better. Again, better is judged strictly by utility.
Often,
we do not see the utility until we live with the belief for
awhile. It is helpful if we believe strongly so long as we choose
to believe. However, we must not lose sight of what we are doing
and mistake beliefs for truths.
At play in the fields of the lord.
I believe there is a movie of that title. Yet, is that not what
we are ... creators at play in the fields of the lord?
I
am a creator serving her majesty, spirit. She always feels
feminine to me.
I do like to express via the written
word, especially here on these pages. Why? I just do it and
know that I love it! That is enough, that is always enough.
Do what you love! There is no other directive, that is other than
do no harm.
This is indeed the key to
happiness. We have to find what we are passionate about and
engage in that. We have to find the compass to our bliss and
follow where it leads us. Otherwise, our life is wasted, is it
not?
What makes me like other men? What makes me different from other
men? How is what I experience different from what others
experience? Am I as unique as I believe myself to be? Am I
as aware as I believe myself to be?
We cannot rush fate.
Our destiny will unfold as it must.
Much of the time, it appears that things are out of
control, especially at work, and I am reacting rather than
creating. Yet, when you are reacting in the moment, what is the
difference from creating?
10 January 2007
I am grateful for everything that
comes forth. Each expression brings new insights. Here we
participate in the dance of consciousness, in the process of making the
unknown known, the unmanifest manifest.
Here we allow spirit to
become more fully enfleshed and to express as she will. And, I
get the benefit of observing the process. By making this
expression available on the WWW, I allow others to participate in this
stream of consciousness. Indeed, this is a record that may be
replayed just as a musical recording. Only, this is a recording
of words, of thoughts, of ideas.
Can we build utopias, heavens on Earth? Others have
tried and failed. Perhaps still others have tried and
succeeded. Hmm ... that sent a shiver through my head and upper
body. Perhaps they succeeded and then chose to succede from the
consensus world. "In my fathers house are many mansions, I go to
prepare a place for you". How do we do as Jesus did and create
our own houses and mansions? We are gods incarnate, are we not?
Life is a play of consciousness. Every aspect of it is
precious. Every act is necessary. Every scene, every prop
has its place. There is meaning on multiple levels
everywhere. Consciousness is the playwright, the director, and
the cast of characters. Everything is consciousness in
expression. There simply is nothing else.
Even a rock is
conscious, is aware, is alive with beingness. Hmm ... to be or
not to be may be a question, but it has never been a choice.
Nothing that is can ever cease to be. It may be transformed, and
even awakened, but it cannot die or cease to exist. How can I be
certain of this? By observing where we do exist ... only in the
moment, in the everpresent NOW and HERE.
The human brain is extremely
complex. While scientists have there theories about how some
parts of the brain work, overall, they are still very much in the
dark. Perhaps we are asking for too much, asking a mind to
understand itself ... including understanding how self-awareness arises
and then evolves into a spiritual awakening.
Everything is about making
connections. Consciously, we typically do not know what
connections we are making as they are being made. Search
capabilities are important as well. I don't seem to have an
overall index of the contents of my mind as Google and some other
search engines do.
Consciously, I have to follow connections and
rely on inner guidance to determine which direction to take when there
are multiple connections available. Generally, I can count on my
mind to determine what is needed and how to get me there.
However, I know there are things like names that I forget, and it can
be frustrating at times.
It is
amazing how adaptable we can be. We live with the cards that life
deals us. Though, we can play those cards as we choose.
Something keeps us in the game until we cease to choose to play any
longer. And then we transform into something else and continue
living in that new form.
11 February 2007
Not everything that seems to be called for happens in my
life. Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't. For the most
part, it seems to be out of my control. There are inner forces
and cycles at play. These I am only privy to by what they produce
in my life, in particular, by what expression results.
I don't know
how a sentence will end when I begin typing it. But, life is like
that as well. While we have some control over some things, most
of it is still a mystery.
Mysteries are
good. They keep us guessing and fascinated.
Spirit is definitely at the helm in my life. I have
complete faith and trust in her to lead the way for me and to move me
to do what I must do to carry out the mission that I came to this
planet in this existence to carry out.
Why do I have to have such
a grand mission? The only answer I can offer is that I came with
the abilities to do great things. Yes, this appears to be
grandiose. But, I would not live an ordinary life.
This is
an example of what spirit can do when we allow her to express through
us. I find it to be a fascinating example. But then, I am
biased. This expression is not something that I can be objective
about. I must invest all that I am into it to allow it to exist
at all.
At some level, what needs to be
registered is indeed tied somehow into the vast network of information
and connections that I have experienced in the course of my life and
perhaps beyond that. It is curious that I make so many
connections between information and numbers and so few with people in
my life. That is just the way that it has always been for
me.
Life has a way of mirroring back to us exactly what we expect to see,
though often in unexpected ways.
If the process were simple, far
more people would be living their dreams instead of their nightmares
... and instead of settling for something that is far less than they
can be.
We tend to fear things that we do not understand.
But, the unknown continues to exist despite our best efforts to
understand.
Part of the problem is that we are focusing in the
wrong areas. We are still spending far more on fighting wars that
we are on facilitating peace and eliminating suffering to the degree
that we can.
It is not a matter of lack of resources. It is
a matter of where we choose to apply our resources. Where we
engage the best and the brightest among us, we tend to make great
progress. Where we don't, you could say that "we get what we pay
for".
So, why don't we have more people engaged in research
that supports developing the foundations for a new world where people
are able to get their physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual needs
met in exchange for applying their talents in service to others.
Where we have hundreds of
millions starving, where we have billions living in poverty,
where we have millions dying of AIDS and other diseases ... clearly, we
are not addressing the basic physical needs much less the other higher
level dimensions of needs.
Why don't we feel a collective
responsibility for this, for our world? And, why is so little
being done. In the past few weeks, I heard that the amount of
foreign aid that the US provides to the world is far less than 1
percent of our budget. And, much of that is military aid.
How can it be that arguably the richest and most powerful nation on
Earth does so little for its fellow nations?
Along these lines, the economic sector does not do much better.
Yes, in the US and developed nations, we have many choices. But,
much of the world does not enjoy the products that come from their
labors.
I have a closet full of shirts that come from countries
that I have never visited. Yet, I know that this can only be
because the labor rates in those countries is so much less than it is
here. You might say that at least we are providing jobs and
fostering the economic sector of these countries. And, that might
be true. But, who is negotiating for the rights of the workers
and their conditions of employment?
Our companies are known not
to be benefactors. They are in the business of turning
profits. Yes, that involves creating goods and providing
services. It also involves marketing to make us want to buy those
goods and services despite their effect overall on the world.
Global warming comes to mind. Based on some of the information
presented in
An Inconvenient Truth,
it seems that collectively we have helped to bring the world close to a
crisis point, a breakpoint where the old way of being simply will not
work anymore. Whether this will happen in 5 years or 50 remains
to be seen, but it is not clear that anything can be done to avoid
it.
There has to be a better way to live. There has to be a way to
get people to realize that they truly are part of one circle, one hoop
that never ends. So, why hasn't it happened yet? The only
answer that makes sense is that the time is not yet right.
Everything in its right timing. There is a time for every season
under heaven.
To some degree, the Earth does not care what we do
to her. She will survive. And if it takes hundreds or
thousands of years for the conditions to improve so that we are
"comfortable" again, so be it. We reap what we sow. We are
responsible. There is no one else to blame except us.
You
can say, but we knew not what we were doing. But, at some level,
at least some knew ... and their knowledge was rejected or
suppressed or otherwise made light of or even wrong by those whom we
empowered either in government or industry.
Life is about vibration. Reality can
change in a heartbeat. We can literally
wake up to a new world. The
present scene will end when it is scheduled to end. And, we will
pick up with another that takes us on the next journey of
consciousness.
This is all a play. Plays end. And,
when they do, they can be played again, or we can start anew with a
whole new set of characters and plots.
10 May 2007
There are some things I am not willing to do. One of those is
overly imposing my will. The sense is that if spirit plans for
the works to get out, she will show me what my part is to be, if any,
in doing that.
The expression that is Beyond Imagination cannot do its
works in the world unless it gets into the minds of some
audience.
Numbers and symbol systems blend and merge in
my reality. Somehow, they are real to me. And, the process
of making the connections between things and performing any
manipulations is driven by
inspiration.
I AM THAT I AM ... that YOU
are. In other words ... it is because of how God is that we are
able to exist at all. This is a whole new meaning, one that
brings shivers into my head. It suggests that we may know
God through his works.
By their works shall ye know them.
Is this not what I have been saying about me and about all of us as
well? It is only by understanding how the inputs are translated
into works in our lives that you know the black box that is us.
We are spiritual machines. Yes, very complex ones, but machines
nonetheless. We take in information from the world and from inner
sources, process it in some manner, and produce works in our lives as a
result.
What kind of machine am I? I am one that listens to
a voice within and allows it to speak onto these pages. It is
inspiration that drives this expression.
So what does that make me in
all of this? I am the
spokesman for spirit. I am the voice through which she speaks ...
or, better yet, the instrument through which she writes. Yes,
that makes me a scribe of sorts.
There is something addicting about this stream
of consciousness expression. It acts very much like a drug for
me. It keeps me high and awake, anxiously awaiting what is to
come ... knowing that the unknown is being revealed each moment during
the process.
15 May 2007
Experience allows me to integrate more of whom that I AM,
thereby allowing me to better serve as a channel for spirit.
It costs literally nothing to engage in this expression
except for my time. And, I consider that to be an investment
rather than a cost.
So, what determines when I make deposits, and
whether these are big or small? Do I have a choice in the
matter? Or, is this communication destined in some way. At
the very least, the time that I spend doing this is an investment in
myself.
When we invest in ourselves, we grow in ways that make
our services more valuable to society and spirit.
Intuitive
expression is a gift from spirit. It is also a gift from ourself
to ourself. We need to give ourselves this gift often. It
definitely enhances our lives in ways beyond imagination.
We are to allow spirit to do the
work through us. When we do this, the work is nearly
effortless. We simply allow consciousness to express as she
will. That is what I believe that I do here, allow consciousness
to express through me as she will. Though, without me, I know
that this expression could not exist in this form.
Here, we allow the unknown to become known. Here, we allow the
unmanifest to become manifest even if only in words for the present
time. We say, if only in words as if that lessens this expression
somehow. But, such is not the case. Words are
vibrations. They convey meaning. They can express ideas and
ideals that impact many.
Someone once said,
the power of the
pen is mightier than that
of the sword. And, right they were. For me, it is
the power of the keyboard tied to a computer running Netscape
Composer. Yes, that is what we do here. We compose ... not
in notes of music, but in words that have the potential to stir souls.
How can I know this? How can this expression continue to come
forth as it does? What makes me so special that I can serve as a
voice for spirit in this manner? It is not so much a matter of
being special, but of being true to whom that I AM, and expressing this
as best I can.
It takes a great deal of trust to do this ... and
some courage to expose myself in this manner to the world. Yet,
there is a sense of anonymity as well. You can only know so much
about me from what is expressed through me. That is a lot, but at
the same time, that is only scratching the surface.
It is words
that move me most. There is nothing better than the greatest
thoughts from the greatest minds that the world has known. These
serve to truly educate us ... if we learn to savor them and extract
their meaning over time.
Yes, I can be touched by grandiosity at times, perhaps
even consumed. But, I have to live with the experience of
expressing in this fashion. And, I do so even while being sedated
by various prescription drugs that address my bipolar condition.
What does being bipolar really mean? For one thing, it means that
my brain chemistry is different than that of most people. The
drugs that I take supposedly alter this chemistry so that I can
function "normally". I have to laugh at that. Yes, I
function. But, there is nothing normal about how I live my
life. I would have it no other way.
I am meant to be a
wayshower. I am meant to be an explorer of the unknown realms of
consciousness. I am meant to bring back and report on what I
find. I know of no better way to do this than to ride this stream
of consciousness. This is where I surf. This is where I
live. This is my home. The world and what it offers pales
by comparison. Yet, the world is where spirit expresses in flesh.
We get what we focus upon. The stronger the focus, the sooner the
results. But the focus needs to be consistent with our beliefs,
or it is for not.
When our beliefs conflict ... we sabotage
ourselves and our actions do not have the effects intended. That
is the nature of reality creation.
Why is it that none of my
formal training from kindergarten through a Masters from Stanford
addressed belief management and reality creation? This is perhaps
the most important topic to our wellbeing as adults. And, the
basic principles are so simple. The success of
The Secret ... movie, soundtrack,
and book this year is a case in point. It shows that the world
hungers for such knowledge.
The times are indeed a
changing. The technology to manifest the reality that we desire
is there, ready to change the world. However, we need to be
careful to do it in a manner that is not selfish, in a manner that does
not hoard, and in a manner that does not dictate how the results are to
be achieved.
At present, the unconscious is still vastly bigger
than the tip of the iceberg that is the conscious. It only takes
awakening to make more of the unconscious conscious and even better to
awaken to superconsciousness.
Fortunately, the universe operates
through incredible cooperation. It is up to us to make our
desires known to the universe, to spirit, through our beliefs and our
actions in accord with those beliefs. We need to be certain about
our worth, about what we are worthy to receive.
We deserve to
have our needs met, physically, emotionally, mentally, and
spiritually. Further, this should not require hard work on our
part. Life is meant to be challenging, but not overly
difficult. Yes, there are lessons to learn, sometimes even tough
lessons. But, the school of life should be fun. It is a
matter of choosing to make it so.
Choice. To what degree do we make choices in our lives? Do
we make choices, or do we observe ourselves appear to make
choices? Does it even matter?
I don't sense that I have
control over what I think. Millions of words have been expressed
here on these pages without my conscious awareness of where they came
from or how they came into my head. I only know that I experience
the source coming from within and that until just before it comes
through my fingertips, I have no clue of what is coming forth.
For
your
eyes only, only for you. You see what no one else can
see. Why is it that this keeps coming up? If
it is indeed true, and I am seriously beginning to believe that it is,
then what does that say about me and about consciousness?
Clearly, it speaks volumes ... literally. But, is that
enough? C
16 October 2007
One of the
nice things about this expression is that we never know what is going
to come next. The words are not planned by any part of me of
which I have conscious awareness. That makes this expression
special. It is a gift from consciousness through me to the
world. Yes, a gift. I sincerely believe that.
Further, it is the greatest gift in my life. Appropriate that it
would be a gift from consciousness herself. Source, spirit,
consciousness ... these are all synonymous to me. So much so,
that I use them interchangeably. Is that correct? Perhaps,
perhaps not. But ultimately it doesn't matter.
There is
some organizing intelligence that is putting this together on other
than conscious levels. I have only to allow it to flow as it
will. That makes this expression easy and natural. Indeed,
as natural as breathing.
Why is it that we do not seem to gravitate to positions that allow us
to fully apply our innate talents? Why are so many performing
jobs that are not satisfying, engaging, and challenging enough to allow
us to love what we do?
Why must I sell my time and effort for a salary? OK,
must is not the operative term
here. Holding down a particular job is a choice that we
make. Though, at times it seems that there is no other
alternative.
The trick is to see every choice as an
opportunity. An opportunity to grow, to learn, and to experience
things that we would otherwise not be able to experience.
What is
to say that our compensation on the job is not really for the work that
we do in our free time.
At some point, we reach a level where we
have at least two jobs, a spiritual one and a material one. It is
important that we realize that the spiritual one is ultimately of the
greatest value in our lives and the lives of others.
Our impact
at work may or may not make a difference in the long run. But,
our impact on others and the world ... that is where we can make a true
difference.
There is still a strong sense that I am to fulfill a
destiny somehow. There is a mission that I came to
accomplish. This is a role that I specifically came to
play. Furthermore, it is a role that I auditioned for and wanted
to play.
Is my life everything that I would have it be? No,
not by a long shot. Then, what would I do to change it?
Good question. That requires making decisions and imposing my
will on things, something that I have been reluctant to do.
However, the alternative is to live with things the way that they
manifest in my life.
I'm not a planner. I go into work each
day having no idea as to what the day will bring and what specific work
that I will accomplish. You could say that I fly by the seat of
my pants. I allow my days to fill as they will, trusting that I
will be moved to do those things that make the most difference.
Why can't I be compensated for doing what I love to
do? Years ago, I was moved to set a price of $1 per word for this
expression. I've banked a lot of words, over twice what my total
compensation for my entire work life has been to date.
The words that have been expressed have been worth it to me
... every minute of every day involved in their creation. The
words have been transformational to me in ways that nothing else has
been.
By sharing my light, or more correctly, the light of
consciousness through me ... do we pave the way to ignite the sparks of
light within others? Does this expression foster
awakenings? I would hope that it does.
"For your eyes only ... only for
you. You see what no one else can see. " This comes
up often. But, is it true? Is all of this really for my
eyes only? If so, why am I so moved to share it with
others?
In the company
of others, I have so little to say. Nothing comes to mind.
Yet, here, with no one to witness but myself and consciousness herself,
volumes are spoken ... or at least written.
Do I see what no one else
can see? Does my unique upbringing make me special in this
regard. As a loner, my experiences with others have been limited
at best. As a result, my world, Wayne's World, is indeed my
own. But, is this not true for each of us? Do we not all
live in worlds of our own making?
To each their own.
We are not meant to experience things in exactly the same way as
another. This is especially true for those who would be
wayshowers, leading the way to a new way of being.
How many others like me chose to come into this world at
this time? And, are we to join forces at some time or must we
work in isolation to observe what we can and express as we are moved to
do?
How many times have we said that there is only ONE
consciousness manifesting through us all? Within that ONE
consciousness, all are related. There simply is nothing else
except the ONE consciousness in expression.
17 October 2007
This expression occurs in the NOW.
It is not planned by any part of me of which I am conscious. Yet,
from another perspective, it seems to be complete even before it comes
forth. It is as if it comes from a domain that is timeless.
At times I feel that I am enslaved in a body. My soul longs to
soar, free of any chains or constraints. Soar where? I do
not know, other than where consciousness has taken me in the
past. From that, it is clear that there is a whole realm that is
unknown, some part of which is knowable, but some part of which may
always remain unknown.
There is nothing to say
that everything must be knowable. In fact, it is the unknown that
brings the magic into life. And, life without magic and mystery
simply is not life.
That gets us
back to the line
for your eyes only.
Perhaps all of this is truly meant for me. And, what if it
is? Why would consciousness single me out in this manner?
What does that say about whom I AM ... or more importantly about what
consciousness is and what troubles the universe would go through to
meet our unique needs.
This is a sounding board for me. It
is a mirror into which I look to discover aspects of whom that I
am. Thus far, I like what I see. In fact, I like it enough
to share it with others. Though my form of sharing would have me
be anonymous in the process.
Why am I so driven to share? Primarily because that is how I can
give the most of myself.
Here I share of whom that I AM as
intimately as consciousness would allow me to reveal. Ultimately,
I share because I have to share. There is truly no choice
here. Once the expression is unleashed it must be allowed to grow
and reach others as it will. It must be allowed to have its
impact in the world whatever that might be.
Wayshowers live their lives by example. They serve as living
examples for new ways of being. Because of this, they are often
ahead of their times so to speak. Inventors are typically like
that as well. They see what no one else can see. And they
serve as a midwife to bring their inventions into manifestation.
Truly, they are the magicians of our times.
I didn't
do anything to train my mind to function as it does. It seems to
be a natural extension of who I am. Oh, I have been moved to read
many books, especially metaphysical ones. And these have had a
major impact on whom that I am.
The thoughts of others that have
crossed my mind through all of this reading literally programmed me to
see the world in the way that I do. This is true of
everyone. The states that we engage our mind in ultimately
determine the degree to which spirit is able to express through
us.
Does everyone have a stream of consciousness flowing through
them? My sense is yes, but not necessarily in the manner that
comes forth here.
We are all expressions of consciousness,
expressions on the ONE. Why is it that so many do not seem to
realize this?
Live your life in a manner that makes a
difference, and preferably a big difference. It takes no more
effort to live in this manner than any other. If all of us do
this, the world would be transformed in a heartbeat.
The line from The Lion King comes to
mind:
The Secret to Life is to
Never Take More than You Give! How can anyone doubt this
crucial key to abundance for all?
22 October 2007
We
have to stretch to experience anything truly new.
It is time for something new in my life. It is time for the
wonder, the magic to return. Further, I would like that to happen
in multiple areas, not just in this expression.
"Be careful what
you wish for ... it just may come true". Someone said something
to that effect. Indeed, it is correct. We are creators,
first and foremost. This is simply what we do. To date, my
creations have been the works that consciousness is able to express
through me. It seems that these expressions are to start taking a
new form. Though, I sense that written expression will always be
primary and dear to me.
That is the beauty of the written
word. It provides a record that can be consulted and experienced
again and again. But what makes it worth revisiting time and
again? There is an inherent quality about what is
expressed. It is not something that I personally put into
it. It is something inherent ... something that consciousness
herself is able to do.
It is not for me to question what is expressed, only to allow
it to manifest as it will. I am a vessel, an instrument in this
endeavor. I know that. It does not bother me in the
least. In fact, I consider it to be part of fulfilling my
purpose.
This is how I give of myself in the most intimate way of
which I am able. But, is this truly an
intimate expression? You be
the judge. I do as I am moved to do ... which includes sharing
what is expressed through me.
I am not moved to share
anything else in my life. Why this? Why here? Why
now? The bottom line is that it does not matter. These
questions somehow do not apply to this expression. It simply
is. Just as I AM.
What does it take to
be all that I AM? It takes a lot. In fact, it takes all
that I can give. It is a matter of allowing every aspect of me to
be reflected fully in my world.
What right has anyone to judge another? Further, of what utility
is it to judge oneself? Being observant is fine. But, there
is a big difference between observation and judgement. In the
later, we place a value label on what is observed.
How do we create a
better world if we don't both observe and evaluate what we
observe? Isn't feedback all about judgment. But there is a
difference between judgement and judgment ... the first being of
spirit, the second being of man.
How do we know what
to improve? Here, it is best to serve consciousness, to serve as
a vessel for spirit in expression.
When spirit works through us
unfettered by our own beliefs and judgments, we always do the "right"
thing under the circumstances. In fact, we cannot do anything
other than this ever.
It is only when we take things into our own
hands that we seem to get into trouble. Here, it is for us to
realize that we are spirit first, and that we are in the midst of
having a physical experience.
Love what you do. Do what you love. Love the one you're
with. Sage advice indeed. Yet, how many of us live up to
this? I know that I don't. I sense that many others don't
as well. Yet, what are we willing to do to change things.
We constantly
gravitate to our rightful place in the world. That is simple the
way it is. When it appears that this is not the case ... there is
something that we are doing or not doing, believing or not believing,
that is getting us stuck somehow.
For change to happen in our lives, we
must internalize it in whom that we believe ourselves to be and in what
we believe the world to be.
What we experience in the world is
the most intimate reflection of whom that we are in the moment.
This is not whom that we truly are, not even close for most of us most
of the time.
It is for us to determine what in our life we choose
to change. The most powerful tool that we have for change is our
mind and its beliefs. We can choose to accept things as they are
and be happy anyway or we can choose to change things to be more to our
liking. The choice is ours.
In many ways, the universe does
not care. It allows us to experience whatever we will. Yes,
will is the operative word here. But, what if we choose to make
our will subservient to a greater will ... the Will of God or
consciousness itself? Do we then escape from the normal confines
of the world?
Limitations ... there are no limitations to whom
that we are. Believe that with the full strength of your being
... and so it will be in your life.
Limitations are always
self-imposed. Yes, self-imposed for a reason, but still
self-imposed. We are meant to overcome obstacles, we are meant to
rise beyond limitations. We are meant to be free. Whether
we allow ourselves to be so is another matter.
It is not for me to force my way on
anyone. That is not how spirit works. She gently expresses
what she is allowed to express. Though, that can seem to be quite
forceful at times.
23 October 2007
My mind has always been a mystery to me. Even after close to 50
years, I have very limited understanding as to how it operates.
As far back as I can remember, my mind has effectively operated on
automatic. Overall, it has served me well. It has even
allowed me to bring forth extensive creations from intuition.
What does it mean to be a
Spiritual
Warrior? Some might say that such is an oxymoron.
Yet, I have been moved to express in this manner for many years.
What does a spiritual warrior do? With whom or with what does he
make war? The answer is simple ... with the self. But what
about the admonition to Love Thyself? Good question. We do
this as well. But first we must overcome the illusion and come to
know ourself and our Higher Self.
Many never
question whom that they are. A few seem to know innately and
seemingly effortlessly. The rest of us seem to have to work at it
and succeed to various degrees depending on the effort that we
apply.
We get what we focus our attention on. The more we
focus, the quicker the manifestation. The trick is in what we
focus on. That is an area that has been troublesome to me.
What I want doesn't seem to matter much. Rather, I am more
concerned with what spirit would express through me.
Service is what ultimately matters.
It is not what we consume that defines us, it is what we do to serve
others and the world. The Lion King got it right ...
the secret to life is to never take more
than you give!
This is what primes the pump ... this is what creates abundance in the
world.
What does it mean to be spiritual? The answer is
simple ... to serve spirit, or to express what spirit would express
through us. A spiritual warrior lives by this code, ever
vigilant, ever in search of ways to more fully serve spirit. We
serve spirit by being whom that we are as fully and clearly as we
can. The more we do so, the more authentic we are.
How do we know when we are being the best that we can be? We just
do. Our hearts sing, our spirits soar. We become engrossed
in living and loving. We are at one with the universe. How
many have experienced such a state? Many achieve glimpses of
such, but few remain in this state for long. But even glimpses
are enough to last a lifetime.
It is the states of being, the
states of consciousness that we achieve, that define us. These we
never lose. Once we have had such experiences, there is no going
back to what we were before.
I watched the movie
Contact
again this weekend.
This was the ultimate case of expending resources (literally billions)
to allow a single person to experience an altered state of
consciousness. Ellie had an awakening experience of the highest
order. It changed who she was. It touched her in ways that
she could not explain ... mysterious ways beyond the comprehension of
most.
Fortunately, it does not take such great amounts of
resources to have such awakening experiences. However, it seems
that these are programmed into our lives. They happen when the
timing is right. And, this seems to have been decided before we
were born. How can that be? Is our destiny so fated that
this could be so?
The point of power is clearly the
moment. This is the only place where we can apply ourselves to
make a difference in our life, the lives of others, and our world.
What does it take to awaken? The answer that comes to mind is an
awakening experience ... something that takes us Beyond Mind into the
realm of spirit.
Then, what is Beyond Imagination? From the
very first day of this expression, that is what I was moved to call
it. Is imagination a function of mind or of spirit?
Something comes to mind ...
if you
can imagine it, you can manifest it. Is that how reality
creation works? If so, it seems that we need to be mindful of
what we imagine.
We are capable of incredible dreams, but just as
capable of horrible nightmares. Further, we can feel so alone and
lonely ... even though there are billions of us on the planet.
How is that? How is it that we can be so isolated from one
another, at least some of us?
24 October 2007
Here I connect to something greater than I am ...
source herself. Yes, herself. This is how I experience my
connection to the ONE consciousness. It has been that way since
the expression began. I sense that it may continue to be that way
so long as I live ... and perhaps even longer.
Is this the
feminine side to myself that I connect with? Perhaps. But
there is a sense that it is something more. It is all that is not
me. But, what does that mean. I and NOT I = ALL THAT
IS. The more that I realize that is me, the less that is not
I. At some point, I and my Father are ONE.
I know
that I AM. But, other than an innate awareness, how is it that I
know this? The bottom line is that the innate awareness is
enough.
The more inclusive that I am, the greater my world.
The greater my world, the greater the potential that I can make a big
difference in that world. And, for me, life is nothing unless we
have a strong positive impact.
At times, it seems that I
too am losing my memory. No, not to that extreme ... but enough
so that it is noticeable to me. That motivates me even more to
come here to express. There is a sense that this record will
somehow soothe me and aid me in retaining my sanity in days to
come. I guess that assumes that I am sane to begin with.
I consider source to be spirit ... not
God. I don't know why that is. I just see God as the
Father, and I experience spirit/consciousness as feminine. Is
this Goddess?
We don't have religious wars between people that believe in Goddess
cults. All of the religious wars that I know of are/were between
people who believe in different Gods or even the same God in different
ways. And most of the wars that have been fought have been
religious ones.
Beliefs
should not drive us to war ... ever. War is not an acceptable way
to resolve disputes in a spiritual world. And, we do indeed live
in a spiritual world ... contrary though it may seem.
When will
we learn to resolve our disputes peacefully? It is not such a
hard lesson to learn. It is a matter of thinking from a WIN/WIN
perspective rather than a WIN/LOSE or even LOSE/LOSE one.
When we operate in a WIN/WIN
manner, everyone benefits. The main stumbling block seems to be a
belief in scarcity, in limitation. Where things are scarce ...
there is a tendency to think in terms of getting our share. This
problem goes away when abundance enters the picture.
There is
enough for everyone to get what they need and more. However, for
there to be enough, we must collectively create the abundance the we
collectively need. We do this by providing our services in
exchange for what we need. Some of these "services" are
compensated for by the economic system. Others are not.
This needs to change.
25 October 2007
We have to allow
spirit to express through us as she will. At least for me, this
is what I am meant to do with my life. This is what truly
matters. This is what I love to do. In many respects, this
completes me somehow. This is the song of consciousness expressed
through me. And, what a song it is!
My favorite quotes other than my own are from
the transcendentalists, Emerson and Thoreau. These are my kindred
spirits. They think as I think. They expressed as I am
moved to express. What is it that I am about to transcend?
Where is life taking us? Do I really need to know? Is it
not enough to trust that it will unveil in a manner that is perfect in
the moment? Indeed, such seems to be all that is required for
me.
Some people are planners, planning out every detail of their
lives. That is not my way. In fact, I prefer not to plan
much at all, at least not in advance. I take each day as it
comes. I was going to add joyfully ... but it is not clear that I
am always full of joy.
28 October 2007
I don't like being sick, even if it is only
mild and a nuisance. Enough is enough! I ask consciousness
to clearly show me what is leading to my present "suffering" that I may
release it once and for all.
I just finished
reading Deepak Chopra's book
Buddha.
It was all about the release from suffering. I didn't notice this
connection. But, there it is. In what ways am I "suffering"
and how do I get beyond it?
All suffering is illusion. It
comes from seeing the world in certain ways and being attached to what
we see. The way out is nonattachment. Yet, there is a fine
line between not being attached and not being involved.
One of the things in the
book
Buddha that struck me
most was Buddha's ability to travel in consciousness and experience
anything. In particular, it seemed to be something that I need to
learn how to do. Another thing that struck me deeply was the deep
compassion along with the utter lack of fear.
Spirit is ever at my side, expressing through
me as she will. This I allow and encourage. This I do
because I can and because I must. What is it that compels me
so? It is spirit herself. Given what is able to flow forth
her ... there is no question that this is what I am meant to do, that
this is what brings completion to my life.
29 October 2007
Here, it feels that I am operating
at my finest, using all of my abilities in an intuitive and creative
way. Here, my consciousness is engaged in doing the task for
which it was made ... for which I came into this very existence.
Where it will ultimately lead is for
consciousness to decide. I am her willing servant. Yet, she
is not my master. Rather, she is a co-creator in this
endeavor. Without her, none of this would be. Yet, the same
is true without me.
All creative expression is like that. It is a
gift from Goddess ... from the muses. For me, this gift comes out
in words ... the very words of this expression. I would not have
it otherwise.
Words are my chosen form of expression, especially
written words. I don't pick up much from speaking to or listening
to others. I need to see things in writing for them to stick and
have meaning to me.
That is what I love about this
expression. In many ways it is a gift from Me to me, or more
correctly from Source to me. Because of the way that it is
recorded, it is a gift that keeps on giving ... day after day, week
after week, month after month, and year after year. Further, it
is a gift that I can readily share with others.
I never bought
the concept that only 7 percent of what is communicated is in the words
themselves. For me, the vast majority of meaning is contained
therein. Thoughts that pass through our minds alone have limited
utility unless we commit those thoughts to memory somehow.
One of the
things that is powerful about the WWW is the richness of
interconnections that can be created. However, this requires
people to find other sites and link to them. To date, the Beyond
Imagination expression has been free. Yes, some of it is offered
for sale in books. But, nearly all of it is available in pages on
the WWW.
All that is asked is that people abide by the principle
never take more than you give, and
find a way to provide their services to others in fair exchange for
what they receive here. That is not much to ask. Yet,
indeed, that is all that consciousness ever asks of us.
To be all that we can be ... to allow consciousness herself to animate
us and express through us ... that is what we are here to do. I
have high expectations of what I will accomplish in this
existence.
I have said many times that I would
create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully
manifest in flesh. It is still unclear whether I will live to see
the new world that arises from these foundations. In many
respects, it matters not. It seems that I came to observe what
works and what does not work in the world and offer a vision of how to
improve things.
My forte is seeing where spirit is able to
express fluidly and where it is blocked and doing what it takes to
remove the blocks.
Consciousness engages
in the world through me. She does this through all of us in our
own ways. I need to recognize that in others far more than I
do. Perhaps that is the key to opening up my world.
Yes, I
consider myself to be special. But, others are special in their
own ways. It is for us to see that specialness in each other and
celebrate that.
What have I to teach others? If I would be a Master Teacher ... a
Teacher of Masters, what do I have to offer them? The only thing
that I can think of of value is the states of consciousness that I have
achieved that have allowed consciousness to express through me as she
has.
I offer that these states are not unique to me. Others
can engage in them as well. What comes from that will be a unique
creative expression. No, not necessarily in words as it is for me
... but in some form that is appropriate.
The only real comparison is between what we express versus what we
could express if we were being all that we can be. That is the
delta that matters. That is the difference that results in
miracles in the world. Yes, it is that powerful.
I would
teach the nature of manifestation, but that has lost much of its allure
over the years. It is not important that I manifest anything in
particular. Rather, I would allow spirit to do what she will do
through me. I accept that in doing so I have made a choice as to
how I focus energy in my life.
Why do I sacrifice my self
in this manner? I consider it to be no sacrifice at all.
Rather, it is an offering that I choose to give, an offering to source,
to goddess, to All That Is ... an offering of my very self. This
is the greatest offering that I can give. And, what is it that I
expect in return. Literally nothing! There is no thing that
I need.
What matters is consciousness and awareness. I
would do that which I love to do. Nothing more and nothing
less. And, I would do this now. I would remove everything
that blocks me from doing just this.
4 November 2007
5 November 2007
I
still consider this to be my highest priority, especially from a
spiritual standpoint. That should be no surprise, I value spirit
above everything. That does not make me a religious
fanatic. My concept of spirit is very broad. Further, I
consider myself to be highly spiritual but not religious in any
manner.
I don't buy a
lot of things. But the ones I do buy stir my soul. That is
what our things should do for us. Often, it seems that we settle
for far less than this.
This expression is meant to challenge what people
believe about themselves and about the nature of consciousness.
Does that mean that I have to be outrageous in how I express? No,
it doesn't. In fact, if I simply allow myself to express out of
whom that I am ... naturally and effectively the impact will be
stronger than I have ever dreamed possible.
There is nothing
special that I need to do. Living my life in a manner that serves
spirit, that provides a vehicle for the expression of consciousness in
flesh is more than enough.
This expression, these words in this stream of
consciousness are my children. They are born of two parents just
as all other children. Only in this case, the parents are
consciousness and me.
This is a creation of the highest
order. It has the power to serve in ways that I cannot even dream
possible. I know the impact that they have had in my life.
I would hope by now that they have had similar impacts on others
unbeknownst to me. Whether they have or not, and what results
from such impact only spirit knows and only time will tell.
The universe is efficient and compact
in how she functions. Similarly, spirit is efficient in how she
expresses. There are no coincidences.
Synchronicities - at some point there are so many that
chance loses any sense of meaning.
I believe the world to be one
of design, yes spiritual design, but design nonetheless. This
very expression seems to be proof of that. I come here, and
something animates me such that I hear this stream of consciousness in
my head and am able to type it through my fingers using my eyes and my
mind to see if I am "getting it right" in the moment.
It is time for change. It is time to make a difference
in the world. I am free now, I would not hold myself back from
having the world impact that I am meant to have.
Consciousness,
take me where you will. It is my will to do your will ... or more
precisely to allow you to do your will through me.
I am willing to give my
life to spiritual expression. This is more than risking ones
life. In fact there is no risk here. There is only
expression. And, what if I cannot express? That is not even
a possibility!
This expression is what I AM! In every word,
in every phrase, in every idea, more of me is made manifest. And,
more of her is made manifest as well.
It's as if
everywhere that I look there is a conspiracy of spirit, of
consciousness.
6 November 2007
The universe has a great number of options open to it that would all
support manifesting the VISION of Beyond Imagination. I'm not
asking for much, especially when you consider what I am willing and
able to do in return.
I would be all that I
can be. I would express whom that I am, fully and
completely. Only by doing so will I have lived rightly.
And, this is highly important to me.
$1 per word. You could not ask for a simpler contract. It
is performance based. Although, it doesn't say anything about the
content of what is expressed. Given the nature of this
expression, I have no real control over that ... at least not at a
conscious level. I trust that what will come forth will be good,
perhaps even grand for it springs forth from consciousness
herself.
There is
something about a stream of consciousness coming forth intuitively in
this fashion. It is special. It is not your everyday run of
the mill expression. It is empowering and uplifting, providing an
example of whom that we are when we go beyond all that we know
ourselves to be.
People charge based on what they believe they are worth and based on
the feedback of what others are willing to pay. We need to be
careful not to limit ourselves in this regard. The universe's
resources are inexhaustable.
Consciousness has access to all of
these resources. We set our own prices for our time and our
services. Some of these we expect to be paid for, others we do
not. Regardless, the economic system needs to ensure that we get
what we need in exchange for supplying our services. Otherwise,
there is waste and lack, which are utterly unnecessary.
Even as I type this, I am imagining the details of what
my life could be ... no, will be! It will be so because that is
what I choose for it to be. To be or not to be was never a
question that made any sense to me. To be was the only choice
possible.
7 November 2007
This gets to the concept of how we find
the rightful place for people to provide their services in
society. By not doing this, we allow and even facilitate
incredible waste of time, talents, and skills. Yet, the world is
not ready for using the many different systems of categorizing people
that are found in the book
Who Are
You?
I
would be FREE! In my soul, I am free already. It is a
matter of manifesting that in flesh.
Where is the masculine divinity in my
life? The truth be known either there is none, or I BE
THAT.
The only divinity that is not me is source herself.
And source has always been purely feminine to me.
You experience
what you are. Me and source, source and me, we are ONE.
What we see is the reflection of what we are. If I see source as
feminine, it is because that is what I am to a great degree.
Then, where do I find the other half, the God that I am ... the
masculine essence of spirit?
8 November 2007
I've reached a state where I've seen enough beautiful
scenery. It is time to start connecting physically with other
lightworkers, in deep and meaningful relationships.
It would help to have a support group of like-minded others to discuss
things with and feed off of one anothers services. We do this by
building community around us. We can do that anywhere at
anytime.
$1 per word. That is the
contract for this expression. It is only a matter of making it
so. And that, I feel is far more possible now than it has ever
been before. I can imagine living my life in a whole new
way. Indeed, I must do so if my world is going to change to
reflect what I envision that it could be ... that WE could be
collectively.
The world is really us, our organizations, our
interactions, and the goods and services that we create and provide to
one another.
9 November 2007
It is amazing what you can find when you
search.
11 November 2007
It struck me that this stream of consciousness is just that, a means
for what was unknown to become known, a means for the ONE consciousness
to express through this vessel.
What is expressed is clearly
unpredictable. It has been since the expression began. It
is that because it comes from source, from consciousness herself.
I have spoken often of venturing off into the unknowns of consciousness
and coming back to share of what I have found. That is the fate
of an explorer of consciousness.
Here we describe some of the
building blocks that we use to make connections. They are not
traditional building blocks. The intuition will not bow to the
tools of logic. It would create afresh and anew.
Consciousness is ever seeking to
show us more of whom that we are. But, we have to be open for
this to happen.
Thinking differently doesn't mean that we have
lost our sanity. Though I am the first to question mine at
times. So much has been expressed here over the years. It
truly is BEYOND IMAGINATION. I have no other words to describe
it.
I spent 20 years reading and thinking about
this stuff before I was moved to begin writing. Most people don't
have the time or the patience to do that. However, they do have
the time to consume this expression. That alone will take them
through a set of states of consciousness that they have never
experienced before. It will stretch their intuition
muscles.
That provides a valuable service ... one that prepares
people for a new age in which spirit is more fully expressed in
flesh. We need to get beyond the rigid structures that enchain
people. Many people use exercise or yoga to do that for the
body. Yoga, however also addresses mind and spirit.
Here,
we PLAY! We allow consciousness to bring forth what she
will. But, to do that the Consciousness Units that Seth spoke of
have to create the appropriate organizations and we have to mirror
these in the mental structure of the mind and brain to allow all of
this to come forth.
In society, there is not enough mental and
spiritual play going on. And by spiritual, we do not mean to
imply religious.
Consciousness needs the playground of beliefs to
provide a domain in which to manifest in physicality. She uses
whatever resources she is given to open the channels for creativity to
be unleashed.
12 November 2007
No wonder I am having so much trouble staying focused both in the body
and on my work at this time. My spirit is soaring ... perhaps
higher than it has ever soared. I read
Reality Creation 1010 again
today. It was as if it were my first time through it, and it was
alive in ways that it has never been for me before.
Yes, it is
service
to spirit
that is all that matters ... and indeed I am willing to give my life in
her service. WOW!
My wife said something about that at dinner on Saturday. She said
something to the effect that "
it is the service, not
the money that matters". That doesn't mean that
lightworkers don't deserve to be paid and paid well ... for their
services are special and of great value if not infinite value.
It seems that Joseph Campbell had it right:
follow your
bliss. That is our natural navigation system. The
key is to focus on finding a way to serve. Where we apply our
focus, the rest of us must follow. Focus ... focus ... focus ...
on SERVICE.
13 November 2007
Everything in my
life has meaning. Everything has a purpose. Nothing happens
by chance or coincidence. It is all by choice.
Spiritual
expression is
about making choices, not experiencing habits. It is the unknown,
the mysterious, the uncertain that makes life interesting.
Consultant - Teacher - Visionary.
Who pays for such services and how do we arrange to meet? That is
already being done at other than conscious levels. There are many
people with resources but with no
VISION.
Provide them with yours and all that you need will be provided
for.
You are a
spiritual warrior. As such, you fight for the very foundations
that would allow spirit to be more fully expressed in your world.
We commend you for that. Who are "we"? We are those who
spawned this adventure in consciousness. We are those who observe
and participate in this reality. We are the organizations that
are non-physical, from which all physical organizations spring.
We are consciousness units on a major scale, arranging for the
expression of spirit in flesh. We existed long before your
universe was born. All of life is but our song ... and we have
sung many songs. Our reality is a reflection of yours ... for at
every level there are similar organizations and functionality.
Nothing is wasted.
Most people move toward pleasure and away from pain. But pleasure
can be pursued in a variety of ways in a variety of modalities and on a
number of levels. Many people find pleasure in interacting with
others. But, some of us are exceptions.
Some people find
pleasure in interacting with ideas ... in living a life of the
mind. Still others find pleasure in expressing as a vessel for
spirit. These are the most creative among us. And, you know
them by their works.
Flexibility of body is helpful in
life. Flexibility of emotions is even more helpful allowing us to
feel more and be more in control of what we feel. Flexibility of
mind gives us a mechanism for exploring ideas and their
connections. But, we must go beyond mind to reach spirit.
And, flexibility of consciousness is the greatest thing that we can
develop.
6 December 2007
Love the life you live or live the life
you love ... such is the
directive of spirit. When we do this nothing else matters.
Things in our life find a way of working themselves out
naturally. We can be happy and free.
Getting "back to normal" may be difficult if not impossible. For
one thing, I have no desire to be "normal". Secondly, what was
"normal" for me a month ago is no longer acceptable either. Then,
what would I be? I would be whom that I AM. Nothing more,
nothing less. What else could I hope to be?
I know firsthand that the reality that we experience is being
orchestrated by us behind the scenes. My interactions with others
over the course of the past three weeks have demonstrated that.
But, I have no proof, only the experience of synchronicities everywhere
that I was moved to look.
One thing that was verified was that my
own writings have been inspired ... literally imbued with spirit.
Even Beyond Imagination: The Search
for Center including the chat transcripts were highly meaningful
when I was moved to read the book in its entirety.
I had thought
that my part in these sessions was more important than others.
But, that simply is not so. The sessions are a record of
spiritual group communication ... and it is the truth being revealed by
the whole that has the most value. Our individual truths are
important components, but there is a synergy that comes from kindred
spirits openly communicating.
It is interesting that I have not
been moved to do more of that in the past decade. However, I just
did not see the value before the past few weeks. So, it took a
decade from the time the work was completed to realize just how
important the contributions of others were to the work.
I still think that of the Beyond Imagination books as my
children. And, I hope that someday they will support me in
establishing a lifestyle that I would prefer, one in which my spiritual
work is my only work.
$1 per word. That is still the contract that I seek and
expect. That would be sufficient to address my needs and to allow
for the promotion and further dissemination of the Beyond Imagination
work. I will continue on with the work regardless, because it is
part of what I AM.
Happiness is an
inside job, however. In some respects, it is something that we do
to ourselves ... an emotion or feeling state that we find within.
One thing I noticed over the past few weeks is that much of the
infrastructure needed to build a spiritually based economic system is
already in place. There are a few things that we would need to
teach people that would allow them to thrive ... but the basics are all
there; credit-worthiness, leases, monthly payments for various
services, etc ...
However, the ONE learns from every effort,
every success and every failure. Nothing is hidden from the
collective consciousness.
We know what miracles technology can
achieve. We see it in cell phones, ipods, blackberrys, laptops,
wireless networks, big screen TVs, etc ... However, consciousness
technology is resulting in similar miracles. Psych-K is a case in
point. It can help us to correct disempowering beliefs in as
little as one session regardless of how many years the beliefs have
been in effect. It truly is life-transforming.
In a very
real and literal way, our reality conforms to our beliefs. It has
always been that way. However, recently, it seems that the time
from belief to manifestation is rapidly diminishing. The
popularity of
The Secret
attests to how many people around the world are tuned into
consciousness technology, or at least interested in it.