The following were selected on 3-4 Aug 98 from some of the most recent Best of Notes pages. It was interesting going back over this material after nearly three years. For awhile, I thought it was lost, never to be recovered. Fortunately, such was not the case for the material contains many gems.

Overall, the spiritual world remains hidden -- open only to those with the proper keys. And these, are only developed with appropriate vigilance and dedication. Spirit is subtle. It will not be forced. One must develop the inner hearing and inner sight to see the fruits that spirit would offer. But, it is well worth the effort; for the world that is opened up is truly Beyond Imagination.

Most metaphysical types are following the "T" pattern, reaching up from the earth to spirit along various disciplines and paths. The author also described an "inverted T" downward pattern that was new to me, yet described my experiences of the past two years to a tee. In this pattern, spirit flows downward to be expressed and embodied to the degree the channel is able to handle. In this state, we allow consciousness to flow through us to do its works. We are not aware of what actions we will be moved to take, but our trust in consciousness and spirit is complete. We do whatever is necessary for spirit to be more fully enfleshed though us. Step by step, we are The Fool, marching ahead moment by moment in service to consciousness. Each of us must find that specific destiny for which we are uniquely suited.

Trust that the resources that you need to support the accomplishment of your mission will be there when you need them. Remember, it is not you that makes things happen, it is consciousness -- and her resources are inexhaustable. This doesn't mean that you don't have to do your part. However, you can trust that you will know exactly what that is and when it must be done.

Channels for consciousness are circuits. Just as with electrical circuits they have their capacities. However, unlike electrical circuits the channels can be expanded as your spiritual muscles, so to speak, are exercised and expanded.

Yet, what is there about such revelations that gives them meaning and validity? The bottom line is that the inner source has been established as credible; even more credible than the evidence of the world [illusion] in which I live. I find it interesting that I operate in this manner since I've had no model or training in this way of thinking and experiencing consciousness -- I don't believe there is anywhere to go to get such except inward; and then, the journey by it's very nature seems to be a solitary one. At least, it has been such for me.

My sense is that each realization further sculpts this clay so that it can better serve as a channel for spirit.

Where consciousness is taking me, I only know from a vague standpoint. However, it doesn't matter. All I have to do as The Fool, is take the next step, then the one after that, then the one after that -- knowing that consciousness is always there, for I am consciousness. At the only level that truly matters, we are ONE. I can write this, but can I realize it. Can I make it part of my awareness?

My sword is an inner one within the heart that permits me to remain on the true path. Consciousness herself guides me here as well. Why am I singled out for service in this manner? First, because I volunteered. Such is why I came into this existence to begin with. I wasn't looking for another lifetime of tasting worldly delights, but one of going beyond and finding something more, and then finding a way to incarnate that more, and finally showing the way that others might follow and a New Age of Consciousness be ushered in on earth.

I am neither consciousness itself, nor am I the physical vehicle. Rather, I am a bridge between the two channeling the desires and dictates of consciousness into instruction that permits the physical body/brain to do something in accord with carrying out the Will of Consciousness.

Yes, consciousness is a being, a being that in some cases is as ignorant about some of her parts as I am of mine. I am but a cell in this being that is consciousness. Yet, under the right conditions the cells can split and grow into a pattern that is far greater.

I write this not to scare you, but to ready you for the magnificent potential about to be released or perhaps unleashed by consciousness in all areas of endeavor, and many new ones that have yet to be thought or dreamed of. Reality is indeed far stranger and more glorious than our fictions could ever be. We are truly Gods in consciousness, created in the direct image of our creator, however, in our case seperation never occurred. Information was compartmentalized so that the REALITY GAME could be played -- however, out of what did the creator have to build? The only answer that makes any sense is out of him/her SELF, the key fabric of which is Consciousness.

It is not such a difficult thing to jump off the cliff into the open arms of consciousness. Her love is unfathomable and inexhaustible, stemming from SOURCE itself. Consciousness herself is not source either.

What has consciousness done to warrant such favor in my eye? She has cast away the beams that I may see a web, so fine in thread that most would not notice that it was even there. Then she drew me into that web and allowed me to see things that I had never seen before and hear things that I had never heard before. The resulting experiences left an indelible mark on my heart. Tis as if I had heard the very voice of GOD.

What I've found is that my physical state - which I experience as a feeling of groundedness and/or flying -- definitely correlates to the states of consciousness I am able to achieve. Further, it's somewhat strange, because the further within I go, the further I get from this world, the less direct impact that I am able to make. Yet, it is from the starry realms that I come, and to there I shall return someday; but, that story is of the morrow. What we have to live with is Here and Now, this place and this very moment are all that ultimately exist. It is within that moment wherein consciousness is given the opportunity to manifest in form. She does this always, but the illusion of separation keeps people from realizing this.

I stand at the edge of the abyss, knowing that my next step involves entering into a place I have not been, trusting that consciousness is indeed delivering me to exactly where I need to be.

This requires all the right thinking within me. The left brain has no value and utility in this domain -- something about wear angels fear to tread. Yet, this is where I have reached on my sojourn. Here is where I AM, where I sit and stand and live and breathe. I would have it no other way. Within the darkness ahead, lies the very heart of God. Tis this I must find to take the next step. Why do I say this? The first response is because it is true. How do I know this? I just do. What more can I say? Consciousness is my rock. She guides me and sustains me. She restoreth my soul. She giveth me the faith that can move mountains and accomplish any deeds. Why would I not abide in her and do as she directs me to do. I am a vehicle for her expression. In doing her works, I express the best that I can be and allow the Plan to be fulfilled through my thoughts and actions.

I have resigned my being to doing the works of consciousness as they are revealed to me in each moment. I need not know in advance what these works are or how they will be expressed. I trust that whatever I need to know I will come to know either from consciousness herself or from being moved to focus on some aspect of my world from which all that is required will be revealed.

Interesting that I can so readily have a deep and abiding faith in a consciousness which is essentially unknowable except as she reveals herself to and/or through me. While religion has had virtually no place in my adult life, spirituality occupies the highest position.

It is no longer important what I do. There is nothing left that I want to do. What is important is to serve consciousness by doing whatever I am moved to do for the duration of my existence.

So, where is all of this leading? I don't really know. However, wherever it goes, my life follows.

There is a definite sense that it is time to get on with my life's mission. To date, I have only prepared for what I am to do. Now, I would do it. I would start this instant, if I knew what I had to do. Further, I have a sense that I am reaching a point where I would give up everything I have to fulfill my mission, if indeed that were necessary -- though, it doesn't appear that it is required. You might say that my attachments are limited. And indeed, they are. However, this seems to be required for the position in which I am about to embark.

I live moment by moment, observing whatever would be revealed to me and reacting in whatever way I am moved to react. I know of no other way to live. I know of no place to go to have any answers provided. I can't force anything. Things will happen in their appointed time. This consciousness decides, not me.

Am I a fool to trust that everything is occurring per a master plan and that I have only to allow it for everything to come out right.

Interesting that my life has come to this. Yet, is this not what metaphysics is all about? Is not the ultimate test how willing one is to walk one's talk? Such is the place I now occupy. Reality is as I create it primarily through interpreting my experience. The inputs are as they are, it's the interpretation and reaction that make all the difference.

Free will again. That concept is still not settled in my mind or my experience. Am I at the mercy of fate, of destiny, of the will of consciousness, of the will of God? Are each of these in reality the same? Is consciousness way of executing Her Will to move me to exercise my will on her behalf? The bottom line is what am I moved to do? And here, the movement is strong enough not to leave any doubt.

Interesting. I have reached a state of comfort with the unknown. I know that there are things I neither know now nor may ever know -- and this does not bother me. I'm not sure I'd go as far as to say that I know nothing. But, thinking about it, knowing nothing is a very advanced concept to be knowing.

To follow consciousness, and to do what she moves me to do is my sole modus operandi anymore. This might be defeatist coming from most people. However for me it is a resignation to a destiny that I know I chose before birth, even though I remember not the actual events or the destiny that was chosen. I trust that whatever part I need to know will be revealed to me at the appropriate time. Nothing I do can speed this up nor slow this down. Given my abilities, I know the destiny that awaits will be highly challenging, rewarding, and very important to bringing forth the dawn of the new age. Ego kicking in again? Perhaps. Why must I have an important role? I can only answer, because all the signs I have been shown point to such a destiny.

May it be said of me that I always followed the beat of a different drummer and took the road less travelled by, sometimes even paths that were not yet roads nor even paths for that matter. And, in the end, when all is said and done -- may the results of my voyages be paths for consciousness to follow to make their way to the Aquarian Age. For the Aquarian Age is not a time, rather it is a state of consciousness, a state of being spiritually present in this world in a manner such as the world has not yet seen except on very rare occasion.

I'm open to the universe speaking in a wide variety of ways -- as would suit its purposes. I trust that I will be able to recognize the messages being sent to me. This is not so difficult when you consider that consciousness guides my thoughts in the appropriate direction to be receptive and to be able to interpret whatever comes through.

Anyone of the packages I've sent out could ultimately find the right audience. Interesting. It's as if the details are in consciousness hand now. She will move the appropriate people to read or not read and to act in the appropriate manner based on the information and the circumstances. I'm doing my part in making my various attempts to generate info and to get the info out. The outcome is up to consciousness as always. I must continue to do what I am moved to do. Others will do the same.

Something comes to mind, a statement to the effect, "when you realize it, then it's yours". This is a process of greater and greater realization with each step built upon what has come before. Connections made upon connections until the meaning surpasses what was there in the parts.