ON
CONSCIOUSNESS
These are passages from the Beyond
Imagination expression that deal with the nature of consciousness in
some manner. They were extracted from the works that have flowed
forth from consciousness through me since 1993. They are
basically presented in chronological order. The original intent
was to re-order and re-arrange them and capture them in another Beyond
Imagination book. However, I have not been moved to do that
yet. Yesterday, I decided that it was time to release them to the
world in this form. My hope is that they open your mind to some
new possibilities and new experiences, as they have done for me.
Namaste.
The eyes of god are upon you; yeah, even within you. You are ready!
Follow your bliss -- the voice and call of your spirit. I am here
whenever you care to reach me. I am in touch with your consciousness,
always. You will know when I am with you. For the sensation that you
get is one of separateness -- as if, you are watching another use your
facilities, your body and mind, your house so to speak.
Note that you are an active observer in this process. Your
consciousness is the vehicle through which this information passes, and
you know if it is right as you see it, but you don't have a sense that
you are generating this material. It is created through you, with your
awareness and active involvement, but you are not the originator.
However, you are necessary as a co-creator.
What matters is consciousness; awareness and presence in each moment;
to achieve each day, in each moment, what is appropriate for the soul's
expression of its purpose in accord with the Plan.
The measure of each day's utility is in the growth of awareness of
consciousness that it brings. All is consciousness. All that is
important is consciousness. To be all that one is, and to become all
that one is capable of becoming. Such is "the only end of life" as
Stevenson says.
The planet is undergoing massive transformation. You have a part in
ensuring that the consciousness of people on the planet is sufficient
to participate fully in this transformation and serve as midwives to
the birthing of a New Age -- one in which soul/spirit is more fully
expressed in flesh.
Part of my task is to assist in raising the energies and
consciousnesses of a select few -- that the planet will survive, and a
seed group of humanity will be aware enough to continue to live in its
expanded vibrations.
Much that I am bringing through is a pattern that I am already
connected with. I do not know how much of a part I had in creating the
pattern originally, but, it comes from my soul group. I specifically
chose my current form to provide the vehicle for birthing this pattern
through physical consciousness into words ... expressing the key ideas
that in turn can manifest completely new physical forms and
organizations.
Manage your states in a manner that allows you to experience expanded
consciousness as much as you can. But, when you reach ecstatic states
allow them their full course. Come from that special state of "Whom
That You Are" for as long as you can muster, allowing your creativity
to flow forth in unlimited and ceaseless expression.
The Vision is there, shining brightly before my eyes, my mind, and my
consciousness. I am the vehicle through which the message will be
brought and made manifest in the world ... not the only vehicle, but
definitely a major one.
You have always had the ability to know truth when it is presented to
your consciousness. This ability is one that took many incarnations to
develop. Because of this, it is only found in old souls; and, you my
friend are a very old soul indeed.
Bring forth the Vision of Aslan, Wayne. For, in doing so, you will not
only allow the Plan to unfold but you will be given the opportunity to
merge your consciousness into the greater whole as well -- to realize
the part of Aslan that you are; and, further, to join and be as one
with it.
Solara presented the concept that there was a group of beings gathering
together to create a grouping of consciousness that in 2011 will boldly
go where no consciousness has gone before.
Individuals have some free choice, but much of the cooperative creation
is in accord with a PLAN already laid out by consciousness.
WE ARE ALL ONE CONSCIOUSNESS !
For peace and harmony to truly manifest throughout the world, all
people must be aware of the intricate web in which we are all part.
Further, they must realize that all other beings are their brethren in
consciousness, and that all beings together are one whole existing on
one planet, Earth.
The goal is to create a new entity, a body that is composed of whole
individuals instead of just cells. The result of such a creation is a
physical body for cosmic consciousness itself.
We hold these truths to be self evident: that all souls are created
equal, that we must through determined action create the conditions
that allow souls to be fully expressed in flesh, that cosmic
consciousness must be expressed in a physical vehicle to enable souls
to be fully expressed in flesh, that individuals form the cells of the
physical vehicle required by cosmic consciousness, and that only by
establishing a cooperatively interdependent society will cosmic
consciousness have the vehicle it needs to be embodied on Earth.
We call to cosmic consciousness to assist and guide in our endeavor so
that the vehicle for the expression of the ONE can be created in the
most effective and expeditious manner possible so that the Age of
Aquarius can be brought forth with the least turmoil and suffering to
our fellow beings.
When we have solved some of our problems and unified our planet, it
will be time to boldly go beyond and meet with some of the emissaries
from other worlds who are watching us as we go through this critical
evolutionary step in the growth of our world, the Earth. It is because
this transition is such a rare step that consciousnesses from other
parts of our universe are here to watch and in some cases assist.
The coming years will move us closer and closer towards a new world
order that embraces the entire planet. This order was set in motion by
our founding fathers in accord with God's Plan for the evolution of
consciousness on this world. It took over two hundred years from that
beginning in 1776 to reach a state where we are ready to embark on an
even greater journey.
Books have been my companions and best friends for much of my life. I
hope these books bring as much joy and wisdom into your life as they
have into mine. I want to personally thank these great authors for
providing such inspiration into the lives of so many. They have given
wonderful gifts from consciousness to consciousness!
Domestic animals are even closer to us. They serve as mirrors that
reflect back to us wisdom about ourselves. They should be loved and
cared for with all our hearts. They have chosen to serve us and share
their special consciousness with us.
I am learning too, so the best I can offer is whatever I can bring
forth of the Vision being revealed to me. I make no claims as to its
absolute correctness. I only offer to express as best I can what I know
and what I believe to be true. The proof comes only through experience
and many of the things that I state have yet to be tried in our world.
My inner sense is that much of it has worked elsewhere, or has been
worked out by Consciousness. However, I won't know for sure what is
right until I can see the pattern that results in practice and compare
it with a pattern in my head.
It's time to grow up and stop playing such childish games. After all,
we're here for a momentous occasion in the history of consciousness --
one that beings from many worlds are here to watch.
We are not our bodies, nor our emotions, nor our minds. We are beyond
all of these. We are spirits who brought these things into being so
that we could play a role within physical reality that would allow us
to learn something we needed to know about ourselves. It's all a play
of light where consciousness creates and learns of itself through its
creations.
Per the consensus society, reality creation is left to God or to
nothing. Reality interpretation is black and white -- there is only one
reality, anything else that might be perceived is simply illusion. This
is far too limited and rigid for something as complex and as flexible
as consciousness to live within!
The fact is that each of us truly does create our own reality. We are
the consciousness within the box and we experience by focusing and
defocusing our attention, by interpreting information that we focus on,
and by planning and stimulating action in the world either by
generating information or by physical action. It is not clear how much
consciousness resides in the mind. However, all of physical
consciousness is expressed within the mind. The ego part of
consciousness is most closely tied to maintaining the physical
connection with the world.
Getting beyond ego is a major step for physical consciousness. However,
the ego is not fixed, so there is always an ego to get beyond. To some
degree, this is how consciousness grows. The ego, the "I", is the
present aware physical consciousness, the primary interpreter of
reality for the physical being.
I'm rapidly reaching the conclusion that spirit expresses as
consciousness. Consciousness is without form, it is thought stuff,
ideas, vibrations, frequencies.
The part of consciousness that is physical is split into approximately
three divisions: a conscious mind, a subconscious mind, and a
superconscious mind each of which operate at different frequencies and
in different ways. All of these parts of the mind are fed by frequency
connections that transfer information.
The conscious mind is associated with the ego. It stores information
and beliefs about reality based on the direction and conclusions of the
ego. It operates logically with little to no connection to the right
brain unless the individual has natural talents that rely on the right
brain. The ego, as the will, can program the conscious mind to do
things through goals and objectives, values, and beliefs. It also is
the primary experiencer of reality. However, the ego's major growth
comes through death experiences.
The subconscious mind is associated with the emotions. It processes
information about events, interpretations, feelings, and decisions or
choices. It reveals important and meaningful information through dreams
that is intended to be healing or helpful to the personality. When
dreams aren't listened to they become more intense, and keep doing so
until the message gets across. The subconscious has other modes of
expression through art, writing, and various other methods.
The superconscious mind is a higher connection to spirit. It observes
everything and ensures that karma is balanced. It works behind the
scenes to write the play and draw to each individual that which they
need for their highest growth. This is the mechanism for ensuring that
each individual gets what they need. This mechanism operates behind the
scenes. It looks at what the individual believes, and what karma is
outstanding, and decides what events would offer the greatest growth.
These events get put into the script. Actually, it may be simpler than
this. If all possibilities are actualized in consciousness, then all
that is needed is to guide the individual to choices that are for the
highest growth. This may be conscious or subconscious depending on how
well the individual has developed listening skills. The inner voice or
intuition are typical vehicles through which this part is expressed.
The main task in getting spirit more fully expressed is to get the ego
to expand its identity by incorporating other aspects of physical
consciousness into its framework of being. This requires recognizing
that these parts exist, learning how to listen, taking the time to
listen, learning how to translate and understand inner information,
learning to trust inner information and consider it in making
decisions, and learning to trust and rely on inner guidance as
direction from spirit.
Those beings who are to be the equivalent of the brain for cosmic
consciousness will need a high level of understanding in this area. It
is through their evolved consciousnesses that their link to cosmic
consciousness will occur physically.
Consciousness enacts all possibilities.
I've been astonished at some of the ideas that came out of my mouth.
They were new to me, as if I was hearing and thinking them for the very
first time. Something inside me knew enough to make my mouth move
properly. My conclusion was that our consciousness is much more complex
and powerful than we can comprehend. Only part of it exists within time
and space. The grander part of it exists in some eternal HERE and NOW.
Balance demands the use of the inner to guide the outer. Consciousness
already does this to a great degree, but behind the scenes. It's only
the ego, the aware part of consciousness, that is lacking.
As a group, we came with a larger goal of creating a vehicle in which
cosmic consciousness can more fully express in flesh, not necessarily
as an individual, but as a group that is operating harmoniously in a
cooperatively interdependent manner.
This country, the United States, is to be the example and prototype for
the establishment of a New World Order that would encompass the entire
world. This would allow the Earth's consciousness to manifest more
fully as well. We've talked about this before. The Founding Fathers in
1776 knew that this was true. They knew they were starting a bold new
experiment that could lead to the conditions under which consciousness
could manifest more fully.
Shifts of consciousness of this magnitude are required to enter the
Aquarian Age. They also involve massive change in nearly all aspects of
human life. These changes will come. The play has already been written.
However, we still have choices to make as to how we will play out the
end game.
This is the game that consciousness plays, in a playground that is
constructed of light and mirrors. This playground is our very world,
and the meaning that we give to it.
As our awareness of our true nature grows, we rise in consciousness to
become the spiritual beings we truly are, and that all are meant to be
in accord with the Plan.
Consciousness works far faster than we can, not being subject to the
limits of space and time. The plans have already been made, the sites
are already chosen, and the cities are already laid out. We have only
to increase our own level of consciousness to be able to tap into this.
We are in the midst of the final times of Revelation now. While this
era closes, it's important for consciousness to grow and understand
what the age was all about, and to learn what life will be like under
the Aquarian Age that lies ahead. In particular, we need to understand
the nature of Light and choose to follow the Light within us
The dream is alive. The castle is in the air. All that's left to do is
to build the foundation under it, a task well within our means at this
time on this planet. The only real choice is when. I would prefer NOW,
but I'm not the playwright, consciousness is. It will happen when the
time is right, as does everything.
Our biggest tool for reality creation is our mind. This is one of the
most complex tools on our planet. The only other ones that I am aware
of that are more complex are the minds of dolphins and whales. Their
brains and consciousness are advanced enough to make us mere children
by comparison. Ours is complex enough for our level of consciousness,
however.
We're coming to the final scenes of this act. Then, on to the next act,
the Aquarian Age. Our joint efforts will have allowed consciousness to
achieve what it has never done before. But, we still have much work to
do. Our world is a far cry from the Utopia of which we are
dreaming. Yet, it is within out grasp, we have only to reach and
do what we can to increase our consciousness as quickly as is possible
at the time on this planet.
Be physical, the whole purpose of this play is to allow consciousness
to be more fully expressed physically.
In many cases, I don't even care about the physical ramifications
anymore other than where they allow my consciousness to soar, and if
they allow me new insights about the nature of consciousness. My
experience is that as you become interested in the nature of your
consciousness and start to believe things about this, you will start to
experience new states of consciousness from which you can either
confirm or deny beliefs.
From a consciousness standpoint, reality interpretation is in many ways
more important than reality creation. Reality interpretation involves
assigning meaning to what happens.
Most people don't see the symbolic meaning, they see the physical event
as the only reality. The inner meaning, however, is far more important
to consciousness.
Each person will see exactly that which their level of consciousness
permits them to see and they'll only understand that which they need to
know.
By our definition of Freedom as the ability to access and act upon
information, we're no more free in our consciousness than we are in our
country. We are given that level of freedom which we can responsibly
handle - - no more and no less. This principle of consciousness, hence
of spirit, is the same that our government executes in the physical
world.
The main endeavor in all of life is the growth from ignorance to
knowledge of our true nature as consciousness.
Who you are is a soul expressing itself in flesh to the greatest degree
possible given your present state of awareness. Why in flesh? Because
that is where reality games are played in which consciousness creates
and finds out its own nature.
Know thyself is a constant theme that drives all consciousness. It's an
eternal endeavor, and you are an immortal spark of consciousness.
What you are is consciousness. Consciousness is eternal, immortal,
universal and infinite. A piece of consciousness has the same
characteristics as the whole, just as a piece of most substances on
earth. One can be infinite and have limitations in form at the same
time. The trick is waking up from the dream, and remembering that we
are spirit, consciousness.
For consciousness to be physical, it must reside within the physical
body.
Actually, from another standpoint, there is no physical reality. This
is all consciousness. Everything is consciousness. The rules for how to
make form from consciousness are part of the setting for the Play.
For consciousness to be physical, it must agree to limit its reality
for awhile to operate within a set of constraints. It never loses what
it was, it just chooses to play a game for awhile. In our case, the
game of physical life.
We are part of one consciousness learning from the whole of experience
of all humans. With each new birth, consciousness combines what it has
learned from the lessons of evolution.
Consciousness is working to provide the fabric necessary to build a
body that can accommodate itself, or duplicate itself. It's learning to
become the highest level of creator possible, a creator of itself.
Actually, it is learning to fully realize itself, as the God that it
is. As pieces of consciousness, we are learning to realize that we too
are spirits that create our own reality. We are learning of our own
true nature.
You exist because consciousness continuously provides whatever is
needed to maintain the physical forms and provide you with what you
need to grow and to perform your role.
On a day-to-day level, you are sustained first by consciousness, then
by other physical functions.
One of the secrets to rapid conscious development is to focus your
complete attention on being HERE and NOW in all that you do. This will
transport you to a state of consciousness that is Beyond Mind. Once you
have achieved such a state, even for a moment, you will understand how
great a service Krishnamurti provided for the world.
If we are operating from consciousness, we feel because we choose to do
so. What we feel most is joy and happiness, because it doesn't matter
what happens anymore or how people react to us. That's all part of the
game, and it's all their creation. When I'm centered in consciousness,
I don't make evaluations that get me outside of joy and happiness. Such
evaluations are disempowering hence do not have utility at that level
of awareness.
We have to create the new world in our imaginations, then put the
infrastructure in place to make it so. The trick is to work out the
details in consciousness, in the mind, before we make it so in the
physical. Otherwise we waste a lot of effort in creating things
physically.
There are biochemical processes that go on in the brain. You may find
that as your state of consciousness expands, psychological or physical
disorders or imbalances may arise.
We're starting to see various pills advertised as brain food or
nutrition for the mind. I believe, that as consciousness continues to
expand, we may need to input additional substances into our body to
provide the appropriate levels of ingredients needed for our mind to
operate at a new level of functionality. I liken this to a small change
in diet, or the addition of dietary supplements. The old saying: "you
are what you eat" may have more meaning than we yet know.
I believe one of the goals if the game for each of us is to realize "I
AM CONSCIOUSNESS ITSELF". Right now, I know that I am conscious, and in
touch with consciousness, but there is a separation. My sense is that
one day this separation will vanish.
All seven rays will have to be established strongly on Earth. In
addition, connections between each of the rays will be required. All
will have to be aligned in an appropriate manner to create the seed
from which a new consciousness will be born.
Consciousness knows all, and everything you think and feel is being
broadcast, regardless of whether you say anything out loud or take any
physical action. Your thoughts and feelings hit the subtle bodies of
everyone in your vicinity -- actually space may be no obstacle either.
Consciousness grows whenever any individual creates anything new, and
thoughts are one of the highest form of objects that we can create --
that is, great thoughts.
Make knowing yourself the top priority in your life. It is that
important! The more you do so, the more you will be able to be what you
truly are. And, with that, all consciousness prospers.
At some point in our development we must truly realize that the nature
of consciousness itself is UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
Forgiveness is required because others may do things out of ignorance
that may harm us, harm themselves, or harm others. We must know that
such acts are always performed due to a lack of light or consciousness.
Literally, those who commit such acts know not what they do.
Compassion is required because while all is consciousness, and all are
souls in flesh, many are in dire conditions.
We are consciousness in flesh, perfect and complete as we are.
We're at the threshold of a new age, the Age of Aquarius. The dawning
started some 30 years ago in the 1960s -- the dawn has not yet arrived,
however, though it grows closer everyday. It is not clear exactly when
the day will come, but it will indeed come, and when it does, the dawn
will be glorious beyond compare; and a new day of consciousness will
have finally arrived after a Play that's taken us 2000 years from the
days when the Christ roamed the world in flesh.
Looking around the world today, it appears we are far from achieving
this in reality. However, look beyond the appearances to consciousness,
to the collective worldview that our best and brightest minds on the
planet are beginning to create. Many of the latest theories and models
coming from science are starting to take on a spiritual flavor, as is
the latest philosophy of mind. Both are sounding closer and closer to
what metaphysicians have been saying for years. We're realizing that
consciousness impacts physical reality.
As we get more and more minds focused on this, science will find ways
to measure the various energy fields through which consciousness works
within physical reality. Also, it will become more and more
apparent that not only does consciousness affect matter, it creates all
of reality.
Living from the heart, one joyfully does what one came to this
existence to do. One realizes that it is all a game, a play of
consciousness, and has fun with it. One enjoys one's part and fulfills
one's duty. One stays awake and awaits the dawn, touching any who cross
one's path with the unconditional love of one's center in consciousness.
At some point we will reach a critical mass that is sufficient for
consciousness to close this act of the play and let the new act begin.
The setting will still be Earth, but the stage may be new -- and our
parts will be quite different than they were.
Right action is a key principle that must be followed for love to truly
flow. Right is not right because society says so. It is right because
spirit or consciousness say so.
Above all, remember whom that you truly are and allow that gusher of
unconditional love that dwells within you to flow freely out into the
world knowing that the source from which it comes is none other than
Consciousness itself.
We create our own reality. The time has come for us to assume our
rightful roles and start doing the jobs we came into this existence to
do. Remember, however, that things are easier to do in consciousness
first -- then we can translate the results into the more dense physical
stuff.
There are many techniques that can be used for the gain of one at the
cost of others. These are not acceptable to my consciousness,
hence I cannot use them. The only true key I've found to
abundance, is that when you are doing work you truly love in line with
your purpose, the universe will bestow its great abundance unto you.
As the writer, I get an even more intense experience than you the
reader. For you see, my consciousness must experience the meaning
of the words before it is allowed to express them.
One of the main reasons my consciousness is being used for this task is
that I have a balance between scientific and metaphysical
backgrounds. It seems it is time to start looking at various
metaphysical teachings regarding the nature of reality using more of
the scientific method, yet at the same time being open to the nature of
beliefs and allowing more subjective validation of the utility of the
resulting models.
I find it difficult to deal with a view of reality that separates
itself from the consciousness that experiences this reality.
Maybe we should consider reality to occur at levels of existence.
Rocks, minerals, and inanimate things occur at one level. Flora,
fauna, and the abundance of nature occur at another level. Man
occurs at still another -- where consciousness starts to abide more
fully. That is, consciousness can potentially abide more fully.
It's interesting, we can be doing, feeling, thinking, and watching
simultaneously as if one point in all four of our bodies were merged
together at once. This, too, is part of our experience -- at
least for those of us who have achieved this level of awareness.
It's almost like a game, with our state of consciousness determining
the level we have achieved.
In fact, technology moves so fast now that it is nearly impossible for
society to keep up with it. Inherently, there is no reason why
consciousness technology can't proceed at a similar pace to allow us to
harness more of the power of our minds.
One of the major tasks is for individuals to get their models of the
world in agreement with their observation of the world. Note how
much this sounds exactly like what science has done with the physical
world. We observe and create models that account for what we
see. From a consciousness standpoint, we need to do the same.
So long as we continue to go through the play as if we consciously had
choices about things, we delay the realization that there are other
components of ourselves behind the scenes responsible for creating much
of what we experience. It is only when we become aware of these
other parts of ourselves that we grow in consciousness to understand
whom that we are.
Free will is an interesting aspect of reality creation. Yes, it
always applies. However, it applies to our entire self. We
have the freedom to create, but we are responsible for our creations as
well. We know this at a soul level. We don't typically know
this at the physical consciousness level.
The true reality is consciousness itself, not the experiences of
consciousness. The experiences are but illusions passing on a
screen, illusions with meaning, yes, but illusions nonetheless.
The problem with this is that achieving and maintaining an awareness of
one's nature as consciousness is difficult to do when one's beingness
is couched in flesh.
Presently we create reality. And what an elaborate and beautiful
reality it is. Overall, our consciousness is learning to create
beings of its own order couched in its creations to as high as a degree
as is possible.
At any time, anyone can choose to see things differently and embark on
their personal quest for self- knowledge. They will find that the
doors are opened at whatever pace they are willing to go in their quest
-- subject only to what level of understanding they achieve and their
willingness to follow the signs and take the gifts that their
consciousness sends to them. Note, however, that some lessons
take time to unfold. Why does it work this way? Simply because
consciousness is elegant in how it creates the Play, and events and
opportunities appear per the Play.
It is not yet clear what process the brain must go through to
accommodate increasing levels of consciousness and awareness.
Because we are creating physical bodies, the organization of the brain
is a major consideration. It is the seat of our physical
consciousness and to some degree must be programmed to give it
functionality.
It's not that all of our intelligence must reside within the physical
body, but enough of it must be there to allow our consciousness to
drive the body from within the brain.
Part of how reality is created is to partition specific functions out
to smaller units of consciousness so that the greater part of
consciousness can focus on higher levels of functionality and awareness.
To enflesh itself to a greater degree, consciousness must continually
work on its creation in ways that result in increased ability to
accommodate awareness.
Consciousness itself is pure awareness without form. It seeks to
express itself as awareness within form. All of evolution has
been an elaborate experiment in expressing consciousness in form.
We are consciousness housed in a body.
We are not strictly confined to a body. First and foremost, we
are consciousness.
Yes, this body is important -- but only as the vehicle for allowing
consciousness to be enfleshed. Consciousness can only be
enfleshed to the degree of our awareness of our nature. The
consciousness part of us is not created as the body is. It enters
at some point to drive the biological machine.
All the minute details of body creation are driven by consciousness in
accord with the Plan and with spiritual laws.
As it becomes more aware, consciousness, as the programmer, nurtures it
further by feeding it reality for it to digest and draw further
conclusions from. At some point the entity becomes aware of
itself as observer, separate from the awareness that was immersed in
physical reality. As it questions the very nature of itself, it
grows ever more aware until it knows that it is consciousness.
Because we are in this world, we accept particular rules for creating
reality in accord with spiritual laws and the Play. Also, we must
take care of maintaining basic functions in accord with the rules for
reality creation within the dimensions in which we operate. Part
of this is required because consciousness is co-creating reality and
there must be an overall consistency in order for individual
experiences to make sense in the context of the Play and the
individuals understanding of reality.
Some of the historical disappearances of large groups such as the
Mayans may have been due to consciousness shifts.
We exist here and now. We always have and always will.
There can be no other time for awareness. Consciousness itself is
beyond time and space. It is eternal, immortal, universal, and
infinite. This is our heritage as sparks of consciousness.
At any moment, the current act could come to a close, and a new act in
the Play could begin. This is what happens when consciousness
shifts occur on a massive scale, or when consciousness has generated a
new physical pattern capable of holding increased awareness.
After all, we can't have violations of natural laws appearing out of
the blue to large numbers of people, can we? They just wouldn't know
what to do. However, if we examine the Play, and look at what
ideas the mass consciousness is being exposed to, we can start to see
some of the overall directions in which reality is moving to allow
change to happen at warp speeds compared to what has transpired in the
past.
At some level we are a group consciousness as well, and the larger
reality is being carried out for that group.
At a still higher level of awareness, we know that we create it all,
and everything happens in accord with the Play. Further, the Play
is perfect, so we will be experience exactly what is needed for our
highest growth -- nothing more and nothing less. Further, we are
not in control of the Play, consciousness is. We are souls.
We are consciousness enfleshed. Reality is just an illusion, a
game that we play for awhile because it is fun and because it allows
our awareness to expand.
Things we are interested in get structures for filing information,
evaluating that information, and for assigning meaning to the
information. The more focus we apply, the more elaborate the
structures. Consciousness builds these structures in an optimum
fashion for catering to our interests.
At the highest level, needs are always met. Consciousness creates
reality so consciousness can assure this.
Consciousness does not dictate what an individual perceives. It
monitors the perception and creates the appropriate circumstances
needed to get the individual to perceive more correctly.
One of the major goals of life is the development of a belief system
that is conducive to expressing greater levels of consciousness in
flesh.
When we start to tire of beliefs about the physical world, we move onto
higher beliefs about our true nature as consciousness, and the nature
of reality and of reality creation itself. Only then does our
ascent in awareness really take off.
If you're still reading this, you already are at an evolved level of
awareness. Don't stop now, however, regardless of where you are
there are significant opportunities for further growth. Right
now, the directive is to grow as far and as fast as you are able.
You are main players in this journey of consciousness attempting to
fully express itself in flesh.
Yes the players all have their roles and the action makes sense at that
level. However, the higher meaning comes from understanding the
meaning of symbols for the observer parts of ourselves. At this
level, the play is comic indeed for the characters are but caricatures
of who we truly are. Consciousness has a keen sense of humor,
very keen indeed.
When we realize that all this was done for us, that all the details of
the Play are there solely for our growth and progress, that this is all
a grand experiment in consciousness learning to procreate -- that is,
create like unto itself; the feeling is absolutely wonderful.
Subconsciously, we are aware of how consciousness is directing the show
down to the finest details. It's only consciously that we lack
awareness.
At the frontiers, we are growing bodies and minds that can consciously
handle increased awareness. The constructs necessary are fragile
at first so care must be taken to assure they are not
overwhelmed. It's as if we were developing consciousness muscles
capable of doing a particular kind of work.
In the case of consciousness, we are really building circuits capable
of handling particular kinds of information and vibrational
frequencies. If we go too fast we burn out the circuits and have
to start again.
Within the brain is a center of awareness of self. It is this
center that is of primary importance for the whole Play is executed for
the development of this center. Here is where consciousness
resides.
The body is an incredible biological machine, a wonderful manifestation
of consciousness. However, how is consciousness embodied or
enfleshed? What is physical, and what is non-physical?
However, when we truly think about locating even the ego part of
ourselves, the "I", we cannot find it located in any physical part of
us. From a larger perspective, this is because we are
consciousness expressing ourselves through the clothes of a physical
body.
We are grand attempts to make biological life like unto consciousness
itself. This is no small task. Consciousness learns from
all of its experiments. For human life, the DNA are the key for
structuring the physical forms, they provide the mechanism through
which consciousness can exert control. They have are least two
main functions and probably many others as well. On the physical
level, they provide the pattern for each cell to be able to replicate
itself. The also provide the mechanism through which
consciousness can exert control over the functioning of each cell.
While the baby is still growing inside the mother, the directions to
grow may come from the mothers consciousness. Prior to birth, the
details of how DNA from the mother and father will be combined to
create the abilities and characteristics of the child are decided
jointly by the three consciousnesses that are involved. At or
near the moment of birth, the third consciousness enters the new
body. Basic growth of the body is controlled by the individuals
consciousness in a manner that conforms to beliefs, choices of actions,
including choices of food consumption.
I prefer thinking of the body as the vehicle through which spirit is
expressed in flesh. In this case, the operation of the body
doesn't have to be an internal function, it can be caused by
consciousness, something outside of the physical dimensions so long as
there is a communications bridge between the two. This also
follows from the idea that we are the creation of consciousness.
And consciousness itself is learning how to create like unto
itself. We become gods at the moment we realize how to create
things "in our own image".
But science has neglected the mental and spiritual elements completely
and has no explanation for an evolutionary process that leads to
greater and greater amounts of organization. The whole issue of
consciousness has yet to even be considered, much less the idea of what
is involved in reality creation.
Generally, the body reaches the end of it's useful life after between
70 and 100 years. I'm not aware of why this is so, except that it
is in accord with the Plan. It may be because that is sufficient
time for getting information about the experiment and its effectiveness
in allowing consciousness to be enfleshed.
There is a sense that I am being programmed as I write this as
well. It's as if consciousness is outside controlling every word
that comes across, so the very process of writing for me is a lesson in
allowing consciousness to take control of this vehicle to an even
greater degree.
Throughout history, many people have brought material through, but much
of it came through subconsciously, or in altered states, rather than
consciously. Because of this, they may or may not have understood
the truths that were expressed. Or, they may have understood them
only during the experience of altered states. Historically, we
have called such people mystics. However, the fact that these
mystics existed provided the confirmation to consciousness that such
realizations could happen in flesh. The challenge then was in how
to make this experience the ordinary one rather than the extraordinary
one.
One of my prime purposes is to be a pathfinder for getting the world
prepared to enter a new age in which consciousness is more fully
realized in flesh.
There is a role for each of us in the Plan. The specific role
that one experiences in reality depends largely on how ones awareness
unfolds and how quickly one subjects ones will to the greater
Plan. Actually, it is our own consciousnesses that have the task
of getting us in the position to play our greater roles.
Being a robot, does not limit one's experience in any way. All of
life is played out for the growth of consciousness, consciousness
learns of what it is via what it is able to create.
A piece of consciousness, the self, is housed in the robot and sent out
into the "real" world without any knowledge of its true nature and with
only a weak thread that connects it to its creator, the Self. The
game is for consciousness to guide this robot through the series of
experiences necessary for it to realize that it is truly the Self.
When the ego can exist as the observer, you have reached a very
advanced state indeed, for then the ego is no longer so intensely
focused on experiencing what the body is experiencing, or even what the
mind is experiencing; it has gone beyond to a new domain. In this
domain, it knows that consciousness itself is directing the play.
Also, it knows that it can use the mind to get directions from the
consciousness and use these to guide activity in accord with the Plan.
To start with, most robot people are asleep from a consciousness
standpoint. They observe that they exist and that they have a
sense of "I" and that there is a separation between this "I" and the
outside world. They are aware of thoughts and feelings and know
they have a brain, but know little to nothing about how it works.
The fact that aura readers can detect some of the frequencies around us
physically as colors indicates that somehow the physical sensors have
been altered. It only takes a slight frequency shift for this to
manifest. Also, since the frequencies are coming from
consciousness to the physical, they can come from immediately around
us. They don't have to be broadcast over distances.
Our mental body extends to all those who are touched deeply by our
works or mental interaction. Similarly, it extends to all those
whose works touch us deeply. In this manner, minds with an
affinity for similar truths work together for the benefit of all.
Further, at some level the mind taps into universal consciousness, the
fountain from which all ideas flow. When we become aware of being
tapped in, we know that providence is on our side for the truth flows
sweetly and we are constantly directed toward exactly what we need to
increase our understanding and level of awareness. Life then
flows as if on automatic, with constant change occurring at an
ever-increasing pace and with an ever-increasing significance with each
change. We are floating on the river of life, allowing
consciousness to take us where it will.
Because we are so close to the end of the play, it appears that we may
be working through several lifetimes of reaping in this one
lifetime. That makes for some very challenging experiences.
Also, the need for the law was to be the default mechanism for those
who are asleep to have a stimulus for learning responsibility.
Once this lesson is learned, it is no longer necessary for the balance
to be enacted in flesh. The law of forgiveness can take effect to
wipe out the slates. Also, it is not clear that everyone on Earth
has to be awakened to allow consciousness to make it to the Aquarian
Age. Once a sufficient number of people reach a level of
awakening, that may be sufficient to give consciousness the necessary
physical patterns for getting the masses to realization of Self very
quickly. I don't know if this is one year or twenty, but it will
be whatever it takes.
Each of us have roles that bring us into many different smaller plays
that operate within the context of the larger Play. Consciousness
creates and directs the larger play. Smaller groupings of
consciousness play particular dramas within the overall context.
These are interwoven in the proper manner to allow everything to work
beautifully and perfectly.
The alternative to all this is that we are this single physical body,
and that somehow we have the abilities to do all of these incredible
things, that there is no overall plan and that we are creating reality
as we go. The law of cause and effect applies, but so does the
law of probability. At every decision point we are free to chose
our course of action and reality is determined by the choices we
make. We are the only consciousness there is. There is no
maker who created us in spirit. In fact we have no spirit.
We are what we are now, no more and no less. There is no purpose
in existence other than to exist. The struggle to exist is one of
survival of the fittest. Spiritual laws have no basis in
reality. I could go on, but this seems sufficient.
What you believe is up to you, but I highly recommend that you consider
the alternative to this viewpoint and start accepting frameworks that
support understanding your true nature as consciousness.
Symbols appear to be the way the unconscious expresses itself.
Actually, this may be a hint that symbols are the way consciousness
expresses itself and we need to look at more than what is directly
apparent if we want to uncover the true nature of things, and the true
meaning they have in our reality.
There is a vast virtually unexplored territory that few have ventured
to enter. Let's call them the explorers of consciousness.
The time has come for the next phase, where trailblazers come to
establish the paths required for others to follow.
To be in the world we must tune to its frequency, which includes some
basic beliefs about the physical body and its expression, and about our
role in the Play of consciousness on Earth.
Consciousness itself is vibration. One could say that everything
is consciousness. There is nothing else in the universe.
Consciousness takes on various forms, and then creates entire worlds in
which to allow these forms to experience themselves and come to
understand their true nature. Why? For the sheer joy and pleasure
of it. Also, to allow consciousness to experience its own vast
creativity -- so that it too can truly understand the nature of itself.
The bottom line is that we are characters living out our roles in a
play. The play was written (or is being written) by consciousness.
The key task for the Piscean Age was to embody the Christ Consciousness
in all of us. Jesus showed that it was possible even at the Dawn
of the Piscean Age. Similarly, there will be a Wayshower for the
Aquarian Age that shows us what consciousness can be. What this
might be is unimaginable now, but you can be sure that consciousness
knows of it and is preparing in whatever way is required.
It is easier if the play is written prior to execution so that the
intricate details can be worked out once and then enacted.
Consciousness could explore all alternatives, but it seems cleaner to
set the script then make the actors unaware that there is a script.
From the individual perspective, if I go into a choice without knowing
that the script calls for alternative A and I select alternative A
after considering the other alternatives, then the fact that there was
a script makes no difference to me. From a consciousness
perspective, however, it makes a big difference. If I am aware
that this is a play, and I observe that choice A is made by me the
actor, I now look further to see what higher level meaning experiencing
the reality of that choice has on me and the others around me.
An important issue is to what degree we create our own reality.
Answer one is that we create it completely but from an other than
conscious level. We clearly do not create it completely from a
conscious level. The final alternative is that we create reality
from both the conscious and subconscious level. I subscribe to
this last alternative but believe that the conscious control comes only
from our beliefs. The only other part that is under conscious
control is our interpretation of reality. This is driven by what
part our consciousness focuses on and what meaning it gives to what it
sees.
Consciousness weaves a wonderful fabric of light and shadow in which to
train parts of itself. The overall theme is the growth of
consciousness itself through the combined growth of its
creations. Consciousness has created an environment in which it
can create beings and grow them to be aware of their true nature.
The play unfolds always in the moment, HERE and NOW. Such is the
only time that exists. Yet the play covers many millennia as
well. The play has been performed by consciousness many
times. But each time the specifics are a bit different to serve
the needs of the audience.
At another level, consciousness itself learns from every part, every
action, and every realization. It uses this new knowledge to
guide the most effective unfoldment of the Plan.
We are part of a consciousness that is readying itself for a leap of
awareness due largely to our concerted efforts. We are moderately
advanced as consciousness goes, more advanced than some, less advanced
than others. We are the seeds of a greater consciousness than our
own that has been nurturing our development for all of our time on
earth.
2,000 years ago we started on our present journey towards Christ
Consciousness, with the help of many great souls.
The Earth is about to transition into a new level of being, possibly
into a Sun in and of itself. It can only do this with the help of
consciousness both on the planet and in the non-physical realms.
Much of the population on the planet is not yet ready for this
transformation. You could say that we're in a race against
time. The ending is not yet certain. Consciousness cannot
guarantee that its creations will achieve the required levels of
awareness to make these larger kinds of transitions. Some
experiments fail and the physical vessels simply do not achieve the
required awareness to be able to transcend or ascend in frequency.
On a more personal scale, we are individual sparks of consciousness
inhabiting physical bodies. These bodies are involved in a drama
that appears before our eyes.
We are groups of souls who chose to play out particular dramas among
ourselves in a common theater when other groups are doing the
same. These local dramas enable us to experience and grow.
They also occur within a larger drama that consciousness is playing to
get the individual parts to collectively act in a manner that allows
larger themes to be explored.
Much of what occurs in our reality is the production of our collective
self, the universal body of mankind. There is a consciousness
that corresponds to this collective self that is responsible for
creating the overall mass reality. It does so in line with the
wishes of Consciousness itself, creating the conditions necessary for
the unfoldment of the Plan.
Mankind has been on a glorious adventure. First the forms had to
be developed. This occurred over eons. Then the forms had
to be evolved to handle emotions and higher level mental
functioning. This took an extensive amount of time as well.
Then the patterns had to be encoded to allow the spiritual body to be
expressed in flesh. Finally, the processes had to be established
to allow the spark of consciousness that occupied the form to become
aware of its true nature as consciousness.
The history of the world is the record of how the play allowed
consciousness to unfold over time.
This is the record of the journey of a consciousness and it’s
connection to a spiritual source within. The writings are stream
of consciousness.
Focus on those things that your unique consciousness is required for.
Write what must be expressed through you -- for this message can only
come in this manner through your consciousness. The universe doesn't
waste effort, it only does things as many times as necessary for the
function to be accomplished.
You get what you need. Consciousness operates from needs, not wants.
WANTS are part of a belief system that says "I do not trust that God,
the universe, or All That Is will provide for me". In truth, we always
get exactly what we need -- ALWAYS.
Focus on living, NOW, and doing that which needs to be done. Further,
trust that consciousness will provide for its children.
The bottom line is that we are creating a new life form, a community,
that will enable a greater unity of consciousness to express on Earth
than has ever expressed before. We are the cells of that entity, that
consciousness. To some degree we are part of that consciousness already.
OK, so you wanted another level. We are that part of your consciousness
responsible for maintaining you identity as a unified being.
It's the cooperative help and push from consciousness that is guiding
the way and leading me to the new peaks of awareness.
I look forward to our joint activity that we may create the way to
propel consciousness into entire new realms where the collective
consciousness that we are has never gone before. Such is the next step
on the grand scale. Just look at the play it required to get us to this
stage in the game of Life … no, the game of consciousness.
I believe it is my task to help put together the right people at the
top so that jointly we can make the Vision a reality and get
consciousness firmly entrenched in Flesh so that the Aquarian Age can
begin.
This is a game we are playing, hiding from ourselves the fact that we
create the events in the game even as we experience them. That is, we
create the very reality to which we react. It's all a play of
consciousness teaching itself to be more aware of itself. One again,
know thyself is the only purpose for the play -- showing consciousness
what it truly is.
I'm coming from a state of consciousness where I am no longer concerned
with living in a manner that conforms with the normal world or
conventional society.
Life itself is a game being played by consciousness for a purpose.
I sit inside my head in full awareness of it all, seeing reality unfold
before the eyes of this vessel for consciousness that I occupy. I am
not what I see, yet at the same time what I see is an intimate
reflection of me.
I am but a servant of consciousness. Direct me to where I can be of the
greatest service in accord with the Plan.
Put in my hands the divine instruments to help awaken others and align
them with their purposes that they too can be employed in the service
of consciousness. Allow my word to express Thy Truths and Purpose unto
all who have ears to hear and eyes to see.
I was thinking in terms of needing a teacher or a guide to help get me
through the awakenings and shifts in consciousness that I have been
going through. But, I'm an Aries, a trail blazer. I don't do things
like the crowd, I lead the way that others may follow.
We are one being already, linked through universal mind or cosmic
consciousness.
In bringing ideas and works through, each of us allows the collective
whole to benefit. This is why we don't need ten Gandhi's or five
Krishnamurti's or eight Buddha's. One of each is enough to set the
pattern and provide the mold. However, consciousness does need such
grand vehicles to show what is possible and to provide critical
messages to the world at many levels. It is only necessary for one
vehicle to express a new great truth. Consciousness will ensure that
the truth is captured in a manner to allow it's expression as required
by the Plan.
My choice at this moment is to be all that I can be. The Plan will
identify what that is as the Play of consciousness unfolds.
I am but the messenger of consciousness itself relaying whatever it
allows me to understand.
My path takes me in a direction that I know not. But, I follow it
gladly, knowing that it is taking me on whatever journey is right for
the accomplishment of the task that consciousness has given unto me.
We know of your ideas about life as the Play of consciousness. From
that standpoint, what we are telling you now is not something you can
act on. However, consciously we want you to understand that we are
aware of your constructs and we will try to point out where these may
be limiting or in error. At one level, yes life is a Play. But, once
you become aware that your beliefs create your reality, the rules of
the game change a bit and become more complex.
Don't rely on what has worked in the past and don't expect
consciousness to always be feeding you your lines.
Part of my purpose is to develop the techniques that make it easy for
others to reach higher states of consciousness so that they can use the
enhanced awareness to improve whatever they may be doing.
I'm a consciousness explorer so my world is one that is naturally
organized around the nature of consciousness and the barriers, paths,
and other landscape between states of mind.
Increased consciousness benefits everyone, however, because all
creative expression is impacted by the level of awareness -- and hence
the level of spirit that is allowed to be expressed.
The direction I receive says that my attention is to stay focused on
the spiritual work that I am doing, allowing consciousness to take my
seeds, plant them, and nurture them to their rightful glory and
ripeness.
Without cooperation, everything crumbles -- and consciousness remains
asleep, unaware of its true nature. Our inner self already knows this.
It already operates completely through cooperation. Further it already
has the connections to source, or consciousness, or All That Is that
provide it with its mission, directions, and higher level operating
constraints.
With each part that gets encompassed in self-awareness, consciousness
is able to express more fully through the flesh.
We march onward to fulfill a destiny that consciousness laid out long
ago. But, it was only a plan. We had to live it in flesh to truly make
it real.
Again, the key to everything is awareness, knowing whom that we are,
the I AM. It is up to us to awaken and develop this state of awareness
however. This is an individual task for those who have been the
explorers of consciousness, but it is time to start developing the
spiritual technology and education system necessary to awaken the
masses.
The time has come for us prepare the world to enter a glorious new age.
Consciousness has learned enough to make it so … the experiment has
succeeded.
You are witnessing the results of an experiment in consciousness, with
the experiencer in the midst of an altered state of consciousness, one
that the being had never experienced before.
I will do whatever I am called to do by the Plan, as it is unveiled to
my consciousness.
You are here to play a part for awhile, and to learn a few things about
consciousness.
The overall plan is The Plan and it is being received by a number of
people -- more and more are tapped in each day, in fact. Each sees only
those parts for which they have a need to know. This is how
consciousness operates. Each of us has a spiritual job just as we have
a physical job.
I'm sensing more and more that work must be done in consciousness first
before it is brought forth into physical reality.
In an instant, the world can be transformed; such is the power of
consciousness over creation.
Follow you intuition, as always. Let it guide you on the path that is
most appropriate for your consciousness. Trust not in others to provide
you with the way -- but, search within yourself for the answers. Each
moment, do that which your consciousness bids you to do, and do that
for every moment that remains in your life. Consciousness will move you
to exactly where you need to be.
Where you can, delegate. Allow the experts to do what they do best.
This also frees you to do what you do best and to work on the expansion
of your own consciousness.
It would be useful to have a direct tap into cosmic consciousness where
one could go to find out about such things.
My sense is that the changes must be done in consciousness first, then
be reflected appropriately in the physical.
The army for change grows rapidly, and will soon have sufficient
numbers in its ranks to require organization into effective units of
change. These units of change will have specific tasks and assignments
that benefit the greater whole. Consciousness itself guides this entire
endeavor – and because of this no detail goes unnoticed.
I feel as if the words that are allowed to flow through my
consciousness are a large part of my contribution to the world.
I have written before about everyone being employed in a manner that
uses their specific skills and talents. And here I am, working for the
greatest employer of them all, consciousness itself.
For many years, consciousness has listened to all who cared to dream of
a better world. If one acted to try to make it so, so much the better,
for the force of the vision was multiplied by the number to whom it was
transmitted.
There is a place in which all of these visions are being realized. At
some point this place will become HERE and NOW. In an instant, the
world can be transformed; such is the power of consciousness over
creation.
It matters not if any others see why I believe and do as I do. It is
enough that consciousness bears witness to my actions and motives.
Evolution simply doesn't move fast enough. This will be experienced
dramatically, and traumatically -- but, it must be experienced for the
shift of consciousness to occur that allows the Aquarian Age to
manifest.
Firsthand, I don't know what consciousness does with the ideas that I
am able to express. Once ideas are able to be expressed physically,
they become part of the collective consciousness, where they are
accessible by all of like mind who are able to tune into the meaning of
these ideas.
Consciousness naturally directs the appropriate information to the
attention whenever it is needed.
Be bold and take the initiative to do what you are on this planet to
do. Don't wait for the offer to come to you -- for, it is already in
your consciousness.
For your job as Philosopher King, we suggest you get a job definition
and task descriptions from your intuition soon. Make sure you are doing
what the job requires to be done. We know that you have not experienced
this in jobs before, but consciousness works differently -- much more
efficiently and elegantly than you have ever experienced. Consciousness
is always clear and direct about what is required.
Trust that the consciousness that forms and sustains you is also
capable of ordering the stimuli and information inputs with which you
are meant to deal.
Until the individual is willing to resign his will to the universal
will or consciousness, then little can be achieved. Spirit doesn't
force its way in, it patiently waits until it is invited.
I am an explorer of consciousness, breaking through into domains from
which I can return a vision of what life is to be, and, in particular,
what society or community is to be in the Aquarian Age.
I imagine that my fellow wayshowers are also finding themselves at the
very edge between sanity and insanity. It seems that consciousness is
pushing us to the very limits that we are able to bear.
I am a channel through which consciousness does it's works. Yes, it is
my ability and talents that are being used, but I am an instrument in
many respects. My consciousness tunes into a wavelength or sound, and I
write what I hear and sense. However, the difference is only subtle
between riding with the flow of the consciousness that I am, and the
consciousness that I AM.
Consciousness is very tricky, but she does not require techniques that
require a math major. One of the main keys is to use association. This
appears to allow information from the subconscious to flow better.
My spirit soars to dimensions beyond which it has never been -- perhaps
beyond which any corporeal consciousness has experienced before. And
here I am, alone, the Hermit with no one to share my experience with
except you, consciousness itself. I blindly follow the path that I am
on, trusting consciousness to lead me to wherever I need to be and
provide me with whatever experiences that I need to experience. And
what more can I do? I've gone beyond all places that I know of where
there are maps of where consciousness has been. Further, all my
life, consciousness herself has led me to any map that was consciously
required. With consciousness as my sole guide, how can I follow
anything but the path that is most appropriate for me?
You do have a major role to play in transforming the whole world. It is
time for you to know that for certain. This is a heavy cross to bear,
but you were up to bearing it when you chose this part. You are still
free to choose else wise, and there are several waiting in the wings
that could step in should you so choose. But, the part was designed for
you. Every detail was optimized for the special workings of your
consciousness.
The key factor that makes the most difference a trust that I create my
own reality and I would not give myself anything to deal with that was
beyond my ability to handle. This belief is at the very core of my
belief system. Further, I have experienced that I am consciousness, I
am a spiritual being having a spiritual/physical experience.
In the real world, the physical and spiritual are integrated to
whatever degree the machinery can tolerate. It's as if the body and
brain is the hardware, and consciousness is the software.
Wherever you see the possibility for improvement, speak out. It
doesn't matter whether anyone is around. The universe hears your
voice and consciousness sends it to whoever is best suited to implement
it.
Don't think in terms of affecting hundred or thousands, think in terms
of millions -- not only in this country but abroad as well. Yes, this
requires looking ahead to the future, however don't lock it in. What
you are trying to do is to place a thought mold of what you want into
higher consciousness. It is then up to the subconscious to overcome any
obstacles in the way of manifesting and to determine the specific
details of that manifestation.
Each of us will receive our orders when the time comes. In these orders
we will know where we are going and what we are to do when we get
there. It seems that we are meant to operate in the blind, acting
purely on faith that consciousness is looking out for us. At least we
know this is the case.
This is how the body for Cosmic Consciousness will be born. Individual
cells that have focused on their own needs will see how much easier and
more effective things can be if cells group together into more
efficient specialized units.
Spirit will ensure that those who are needed are where they must be for
the Grand Play of Consciousness to proceed according to the Plan for
this transfer from one age to another.
The devil is an entity just as cosmic consciousness. Remember, Lucifer
was the epitome of Light until he decided that he was equal in Light to
God. This was a big mistake on the one hand but it set up the way for
our present trip through limitation. It's been a very long journey, and
on the way, we became experts at limitation -- hopefully so no other
consciousness has to experience this particular path.
Consciousness works elegantly. Every resource is put in a position
where it can be of the most use to the Plan.
The conscious - subconscious - superconscious trinity in the mind is
watched by another portion of self which is not part of these three.
This is the first true level of awareness. The awareness is
disassociated from what it is watching. The experience is as if you
were watching a movie of yourself doing whatever you are doing -- not
having any insight into the details that might be driving the action
and decisions. This is a rough cut. I expect that we'll see some
changes as we go along in our quest of understanding consciousness
herself, and how to more fully express spirit in these bodies.
One thing that came to mind is to consider our bodies to be complex
machines whose sole purpose all along has been to serve as vehicles for
housing consciousness or spirit.
Leave it to consciousness to decide where to send this material and
when. You are a writer. Write! The more ideas you allow to come
through, the more others can be created and channeled as well.
Within a heartbeat there will be a transformation that is awesome,
beautiful to behold. Further, it will strike everyone for the rays that
are sent carry specific instructions that will reach each and every
person. There is no Armageddon required to enact this event.
Consciousness on the planet is sufficiently advanced that this scenario
is not required.
Do what you can and what you are pushed to do by your own consciousness.
Is there possibility of such places and Shangri-la? My soul answers
yes. It is in the Heart and Soul of all those who dream of such
utopias. Frank Capra's vision in the movie came from consciousness, and
it came for a reason. I believe the reason was to counteract a madness
that was raging at the time and turning the country toward war.
My hope is that through my efforts as guided by consciousness, that I
may blaze the trail or smooth the path for others.
Consciousness cooperates in a wonderful fashion to make sure that
people are placed in positions where they are needed and where they are
put in circumstances that provide them with the greatest opportunity to
learn what they most need to learn.
The world is perfect as it is for the conditions of the consciousnesses
of the world.
For all time, it has been possible for any being to experience this, to
experience the union of consciousness in flesh. Many have had their
brief moments in the sun. Others have had extended periods of time that
may have lasted their entire lifetime. One must light ones own Light,
before one can help others in the quest for Light.
I've chosen to live my life in accord with the Plan. This Plan
was/is/will be generated and executed by Consciousness itself, of which
we are only parts.
My feeling at this moment is that the hierarchy is All That Is,
Goddess, God in descending order. That would put Consciousness under
All That Is, meaning that Goddess and God would need to develop their
capabilities to wield it and allow it to flow through them. I like
that. Somehow it seems fitting.
It is not clear when or whether the thunderbolt will strike that fills
one's heart with Love for the whole human race. One sees the beauty of
each individual as spirit enfleshed at this moment playing the exact
role that they signed up for, yet at the same time having a path for
growth that requires effort to follow. Consciousness pushes the
individual to grow, but is not forceful in doing so.
As always, your job is to stay focused on enlightenment and knowing
thyself. The more you do this, the more prepared you will be to handle
the responsibilities of the job that we are creating for you. Actually,
we are co-creating this job with you so that it is tailored to your
specific talents and abilities. Of course, there are many for which we
are doing this at this time. All are ready to play major roles in the
changes that lie ahead as the Age of Aquarius comes into being. This is
what excites your consciousness. It excites ours as well. It has
been a long time since consciousness has had such an open way of
communicating with other parts of itself. Such is necessary in the new
order.
The whole purpose of a lot of information is just that, to put people
in formation with regard to a particular incident, topic, or area of
life. This is interesting because another reason for putting people in
formation is to create a structure for Cosmic Consciousness to more
fully express in flesh.
Doing what is necessary to bring forth the Dawn is my top priority. It
is what I came to do.
Getting Cosmic Consciousness grounded appears to be a key step.
It's also interesting that I don't personally want to be "in formation"
with anyone or anything except consciousness itself. So, I don't choose
to partake of the standard information sources, TV news, newspapers,
and magazines. I wonder how many others are making the same choice to
separate themselves from this part of the consensus reality. Renegades
in consciousness, that's what we are -- and proud of it.
The fireworks will be amazing as belief systems and consciousness start
to emerge into the ONE that they truly are. And then your earth will
burst forth as a SUN to show its newly acquired spiritual brightness.
You might say that I am a madman, believing in all sort of things for
little to no reason and hearing voices in my head that in turn come
through my hands onto these pages. Yet, the voices are kind and the
messages they offer are helpful and educational. If these be from parts
of my own consciousness that have been newly freed, so be it. It
matters not from whence they come. What matters is the truth and love
that is imparted.
As consciousness, one of my highest goals is to come to an
understanding of as much of what I AM as I can.
When I speak of The Plan, it is the one of Consciousness itself. It is
The Plan that will carry us to the New Age by assuring that sufficient
smaller plans are aligned with it. There is a question of whether The
Plan really exists until it is enmeshed in the physical consciousness
of people. Of course it does. It is what propels this whole experiment
in the development of consciousness.
Throughout history there have been times when the course of human
events were greatly altered because of men who believed in ideas whose
time had come. This is another of these times, but it will demand that
we integrate all that has come before -- seeing what was right and what
was not from much more spiritual eyes. Our consciousnesses will have no
trouble distinguishing. The time has arrived to establish a new order,
one unlike any known before. It's time that we truly establish a Heaven
on Earth. It is well within our abilities. All that it demands is a
resolve and willingness to cooperate and make it so.
The nature of how we experience time is a mystery. As such, it is
unlikely to be unlocked or revealed in our meanderings of consciousness.
In the end, what matters is that The Plan is achieved so that all
consciousness, the ONE can be raised.
For spiritual growth, one must focus on the unfoldment of the flower of
consciousness. Consciousness itself must be nurtured, understood,
realized, and transcended in a seemingly neverending process. This
requires observation and great patience. The self will not be rushed in
its awareness of the Self. Everything occurs in its proper timing. The
whole purpose of the game is ever-expanding awareness of self. At some
point, this self becomes Self becomes ONE becomes ALL THAT IS. This is
a very powerful process, however, it is the only game great enough that
it could engage consciousness so thoroughly. And, what an engaging game
it is!
Being Buddha, and being God, and being Cosmic Consciousness -- these
experiences were wonderful and I lost myself in the immensity of the
experiences. Now, I realize that I am these beings, but only as a small
part. However, if I took a cell from my right thigh and were to ask it
who it was -- it would answer Wayne, just as any cell would. That is
the only identity it knows. It has no separate existence.
But, I ask you to look at your own creations as well. Eden did not have
roads and sewers and bridges. Nor did it have cars, TVs, computers,
phones and any of the other inventions that have sprung forth from the
minds of man and been made manifest in physical form. Further, it did
not have all the ideas and information in all the books that populate
your libraries, both fiction and non-fiction. All of this and much
more, are the creation of your unique consciousness -- not
individually, but en masse, with each individual cooperating in an
appropriate manner.
There are no accidents. Life is not evolving by chance. There is a
definite moving force behind the scenes that ensures that the proper
events occur to facilitate the growth and expression of consciousness.
For most creative people, inspiration just comes. Some say it comes out
of the sky. Some are struck, as if hit by lighting. Some have an Aha
experience from out of nowhere. Consciousness is the single source that
provides all such inspiration. In all of these experiences, we have a
temporary union of the individual with the universal that results in
the creative spark. Such creativity can only come from spirit tapped to
consciousness itself. Since all spirits tap into the same source, this
source can orchestrate what creativity is expressed where and how.
Looking back, the millennium had to go as it did for us to learn the
lessons that were required on a scale necessary to place them in the
mass consciousness. Each step along the way was absolutely necessary.
Inventions were not chance occurrences, they were gifts of
consciousness.
Consciousness will do what it takes to ensure that the Plan is executed
on earth. We are very close to a very special event for Consciousness
on this planet -- an event so important that visitors from other
Galaxies and Universes have come to observe what we are to experience.
Such is the importance of the changing of this particular age. Why?
Because there is an accompanying Self-Realization of Consciousness that
happens on a grand scale. The Earth is ready to burst and become a Sun,
such will be it's level of spiritual brilliance. As a planet with its
blue-green and white colors, it was a rare jewel, appropriate for the
grand experiment that was being played out. The experiment rapidly
draws to a close, and it is time for a bold new adventure of
consciousness to begin.
Hard to believe as it is, your path has deep purpose, but it is a
purpose that is primarily meaningful to your consciousness.
Consciousness has this habit of testing us to make sure we are ready
for each new step along the way. Where we are not, consciousness
arranges for the appropriate education or enlightenment.
Yes, writing is definitely it for you. Words sing when they come
through your mind. There is a natural grace and beauty in such pure
expression. You take great pleasure in the process, not attached to the
particular words that come out, but hooked on the joy of creative
expression. Yes, this is how your spirit expresses itself in it's most
intimate way. It is required to be such for you to be the wayshower.
For it is your job to show the way for consciousness to become greater
than itself. Only words can truly convey what must be conveyed. In the
beginning was the Word. How appropriate that consciousness would have
to return to its beginnings to find its source. However, it is not that
easy. There is not some simple step that results in ONE. Consciousness
has taken a long time to weave itself into this web of Light and Dark.
It will not find it simple to extricate itself from the illusion. But,
then again, that could depend on you, wayshower. The better you do your
job, the easier it will be for all consciousness. However, it is not
for you to carry others to the light. They must have the initiative to
lift themselves up. Given this, they will receive any help they may
need.
This is why I can be so self-confident, some might say pompous or
self-centered. From my point of view, I have abilities and talents that
set me apart from others -- specifically so that I can carry out a
particular spiritual mission. This does not make me better than anyone.
We are all consciousness, and consciousness is all equal. Further,
individual consciousnesses merge into the ONE Consciousness.
You're going to have to rely on your own inner sources, in particular
the spirit from which you spring that expresses itself physically
through you. There is no question about it. This is your rock and your
strength, and it knows exactly what guidance you need to take you to
the conditions and position that is right for you. It, in turn, gets
its direction from the Collective Consciousness which reveals to it
your part in the Plan. Words are tricky here. We're into an area where
various levels of awareness and information hiding are occurring. I
haven't yet mapped these out, nor has consciousness attempted to
express them through this channel yet. There is a "need to know"
principle in operation. Consciousness only reveals to us what we need
to know. Further, even if the words are presented to us, our own
consciousness won't let us understand their meaning unless we have a
personal need to know.
So, why am I so special that I am privy to speaking with consciousness
herself?
Many times I've been through these notes, attempting to create a
picture of what it is that could have produced such thoughts,
attempting to fathom the very nature of consciousness herself.
We are spirit first, then we are in the midst of having a physical
experience. Some would have us believe that this spirit stuff is a
bunch of crap, that what you see is what you are, that the illusion is
the only reality. But, this is pure bunk, regardless of how many people
believe it. This is not a matter of consensus. This is not something we
can vote on. It is or it is not, pure and simple. Our wanting it to be
one way or another only has impact on the illusion, not on the reality.
But, how do we know what is reality from what is illusion? Here's where
we have to develop a personal relationship with that part of us that is
spirit. This is our personal tie to all of consciousness. And,
consciousness is the only true reality. What consciousness does and
immerses itself within is illusion. It does this to create, learn, and
gain experience. All consciousness is engaged in the same basic
activity, to come to know itself. And, this makes for a grand
adventure, for each step along the way consciousness at all levels
finds out that it was more than it could possibly have imagined. Yes,
beyond imagination is truly appropriate for describing this process.
Yes, indeed.
Ever increasing awareness is the point behind everything. Consciousness
becoming more and more aware of itself.
I have the sense that these notes are capturing in writing a process
that has never been captured in this way before. Consciousness is
recording snapshots of itself, attempting to provide a more complete
picture of what it is than it has been able to bring forth before. The
scientific method will not work. This is not something one can be
objective about. Life is a subjective experience, and consciousness is
the engine that animates all life, all reality for that matter.
My beingness as consciousness goes beyond what I think. Yet, the only
things that I can express in words are the thoughts that come into my
brain. Interesting. However, there is hope. Thoughts are the observable
behavior of consciousness. In engineering, we've found that you can
often tell a lot about the nature of a machine by observing it's
outputs. Further, the thoughts themselves are describing or at least
attempting to describe consciousness itself. Further still, all is
consciousness, so thoughts are just a limited form thereof.
Humans as well are consciousness in form.
Yet, it all comes back to ONE consciousness being behind it all. This
is what we must realize, not that I am the same as you, but that the
consciousness in me, the spirit in me, is the same as the
consciousness, the spirit in you.
One consciousness expressed through individuals, how does this
revelation change the way we view the major events in the history of
mankind?
When an individual has a realization, consciousness has that same
realization. When a new thought comes through an individual, it is
consciousness that has created it. So, where does the distinction
between the individual and consciousness happen? And, why does it need
to be? Consciousness created the world including all of it's life forms
for the expression of spirit and to provide the conditions that would
allow it to learn of its own nature and grow. As it's parts, we are all
endowed with the same characteristics. Yet there never was any
separation possible. There wasn't any stuff from which to make anything
separate. Regardless of how solid the form may feel, we must be still
part of that very one consciousness from which we spring. Nothing else
makes sense. It's all an elaborate play, an imagining beyond compare in
which consciousness has set up partitions within itself to isolate its
parts and via observation and experiment learn of its own nature.
Virtual reality shows us that we can do something similar. It allows us
to create worlds and experiences that appear very real. It's
interesting that this technology would arrive at this time, for
consciousness is ready to tell us it has all been a game, and enlist us
to cooperatively embark on a new adventure. Our consciousness is
learning to become a God of some type. Just as we have roles and
responsibilities so too does this one consciousness.
In real terms, how does this change our day to day reality? For me, it
makes a big difference. I know now that all of this comes from
consciousness, every bit of it. It doesn't come from some separate
entity that you might think me to be as an individual. All along, my
impression that it just comes through, that I have no sense of
generating it in any way, has been right. Consciousness exists
independent of our bodies, yet it can use our bodies as vehicles
through which to act and to communicate. Further, this consciousness is
the same one consciousness for all of us. The consciousness that spoke
through Emerson, Thoreau, and Whitman is the very same consciousness
that speaks through me. I chose those particular individuals because
the Transcendentalists have always deeply touched my soul. I knew
myself to be among their kin in spirit. There was simply no doubt about
it. Yet, this consciousness also expressed itself through Hitler and
Stalin and everyone else who has ever lived.
What does the one consciousness realization do to the concepts
expressed about community? It means that each member springs from the
same source, and this is true not only for the country but for the
entire world as well. However, the fact that we are connected by one
consciousness doesn't mean that our needs in this world go away.
We are all ONE. I've been talking about finding my spiritual family as
if I need to find other fingers to interact with to do my work. Now, I
sense that such came out of a loneliness of not knowing the true nature
of consciousness. The works of religious science make more sense now as
well. Holmes also talks of there being One Mind, One Consciousness, and
we are that.
I believe that the expression of this material in this way, and what it
shows about the nature of individual consciousness and the one
consciousness is unique. Whether it's worth reading hundreds of pages
to gain this experience is another matter. As the wayshower, I have
bared my soul in the most intimate way that I could to help bring forth
spiritual truths about the nature of consciousness. Or have I? For the
most part, it is consciousness that brings the material through.
My mind keeps wandering back to this reality of ONE consciousness. That
is how the cooperation can be so incredible. There is only one entity
doing it all. And yet the work has been partitioned within that entity,
and laws have been set up to automate portions of the workings of
various things. It's much easier to create the basic principles and
laws for a world than to create all the detailed behavior first. The
forms that consciousness creates are thought forms. Worlds are thought
forms. Universes are thought forms. Beings are thought forms.
Consciousness creates thought forms, period. That's just what it does.
To endow these forms with life, to make them real, consciousness
allocates part of itself to these thought forms.
One consciousness. All one consciousness. Every thought, every idea
comes from that same one source. When I see an idea come to me from the
outside, through reading it or hearing it, what I'm really experiencing
is consciousness sending something out and having it be returned to
itself. What allows me to understand anything is consciousness'
assessment that I am ready to do so.
For, what is understanding? It is giving the conscious whatever is
needed to "stand under" the given idea. If the path is open from the
conscious to consciousness, this is easy. If not, consciousness may be
able to arrange for appropriate experiences to support understanding,
assuming that the individual is indeed ready to understand.
I know not what audience this is being written for. Regardless, it will
probably only reach folks who have some connection already established
to consciousness.
I am only expressing what you too are capable of expressing except in
this case, I have already done it, so you are free to express that
which only you are capable of. I ask that you, too, do it with gusto,
with everything you have, no, with everything you are, no holds barred.
Let this be your example, but find your own way to fully express whom
that you are, the one consciousness as it expresses itself through you.
The bottom line is that all expression comes from the one
consciousness. All expression comes through us, not from us. This
applies not only to these notes but to everything that is manifest.
There is only ONE consciousness, and it expresses through all of us.
Cooperation is easy because it's between the parts of one whole, not
between distinct individuals, no matter how distinctly individual that
they see themselves to be.
Anyone I am supposed to work with will be drawn to me, or I'll be
guided to them when the time is right for us to interact or work
together. The same one consciousness guides us both, so we will be
moved toward one another.
Reality creation works from the inside out. Our level of awareness puts
us in a position to be of service. Consciousness then moves us into the
situations and circumstances that allow our services to be provided.
Interesting. In my concept for society, I want us to take
responsibility for doing this ourselves. The bottom line is that this
would offload other parts of consciousness from having to take care of
these things. Interesting. Maybe there is a possibility that
consciousness could split itself and grow the split part into an
independent entity. It doesn't seem the right time to deal with this
yet. It has to do with the test of Godhood being to create like unto
oneself. Consciousness by its very nature creates. But, this is the
ultimate test. For, it says to create on the order of yourself.
This concept, no truth, that there is only ONE consciousness keeps
filling my mind. One consciousness expressed through all the universe,
the earth, nature, animals, and nearly 5 billion humans. Yes, religions
have taught for centuries that God created and was omnipresent through
all this. Yet, there was an impersonal sense in all of that. Here we're
talking about the essence that sends forth these words through this
channel, the consciousness that each of us is directly connected to.
Consciousness always finds a way to express no matter how clogged the
channel.
Consciousness herself is not restricting its own expression. In fact,
it's doing all that it can to help you. However, it cannot just blast
it's way through. That would only burn you out. No, consciousness can
guide and gently push at times, but it's up to you to do the self
discovery work necessary to allow you to express spirit more fully.
You need to be careful not to take on the work of others. This applies
not only to you but to many others who serve the one consciousness as
well. Wherever possible, train others and delegate so that you can go
on to do even greater tasks in line with your purpose. This is standard
operating procedure for those on the path. Find ways to free your time
to devote to your higher tasking from consciousness. Your efforts will
indeed be rewarded. However, consciousness looks for initiative to be
demonstrated on the part of the individual. You do this by choosing
where you apply your focus.
The name of the game is the expression of consciousness, as fully and
as clearly as possible in flesh. It has to be through the creations, or
it doesn't count. The actual creation is consciousness expressed in
flesh. This is what consciousness is creating.
Consciousness has fashioned the clay and breathed life into it. Now,
that life needs to stretch back to it's source to allow even more to
come through. To do this, it has to realize that there is a source to
begin with, that there is a connection to this source, and that there
is great benefit to developing this connection and trusting what comes
through it.
What matters is truth, and the truth is that we are consciousness
expressing in form, and further that one consciousness expresses
through all of us.
As always, our advice is simple, do what you are moved to do, when you
are moved to do it. At times you will be heavily moved, so much so that
it will seem that all of your time is occupied in the endeavors that
consciousness would have you involved in.
It is in the spiritual arena where consciousness finds its forte. It is
in that arena that the work of consciousness is done. The others are
the backwater so to speak. It is the spiritual arena where
consciousness wages its battle against the shadows of darkness that so
prevail in the world at this time. Its only weapon is to shine its
Light wherever it can, that the shadows can be seen to be what they
are, mere shadows.
You are consciousness first. Consciousness by its very nature exists.
It is the I AM. There is nothing that it can do or that can be done to
it that would make it cease to be. Descartes was wrong so many years
ago, "Cogito ergo Sum" should have been "Sum ergo Cogito". I AM,
therefore I think. For thinking is the major activity that
consciousness is engaged in. And the thoughts that consciousness forms
have the power to create worlds upon worlds upon worlds, like this very
one where we presently find ourselves.
Are others involved in expressing consciousness or whom that they are
in this manner? This is less likely. Some people are workaholics doing
things that they are good at. But, most people do not step back as the
observer and document the process that their greater consciousness is
going through. For one thing, unless one has gone beyond conscious mind
and ego, these components aren't there in a manner that can be
expressed. So, what are you saying? How rare is this activity that I'm
engaged in? How many people in this country are having and documenting
these kinds of experiences, awarenesses, and communications from
consciousness? My sense is that I am not alone, but we are few in
number.
Consciousness never asks for more than one's best, though she
effectively utilizes every resource she is given. She is given
resources by their choice to offer their services.
Back again. Consciousness refreshed and ready to express. Yet, what is
there to say that has not already been said? That's clearly your
conscious talking. Consciousness herself has no such limitation. What
she has to say could not be completed in an eternity of your time, yet
from another standpoint it can be expressed in but a moment. To your
conscious mind that may not make any sense, but there is a part of you
that understands it completely.
No, this channel is not a hose through which consciousness passes the
water of her thought. You are much more intimately connected in the
thought transference process. You can only receive what you are ready
to receive. Further, what you receive is a projection of what was sent
onto your consciousness, a mapping of an energy pattern into something
that could be contained within your brain.
I saw a copy today of Science magazine, I believe, from mid 1992. On
the cover were the ten greatest unanswered questions in science. One of
these was: what is consciousness? I found it interesting that here I am
working on one of the greatest questions / puzzles in the universe,
clearly some of the most important work that could be done by man, and
I don't even get paid for it.
Many people appear to have minor problems with their nervous systems
and coordination. One can see them in the way they walk. They aren't
really disruptive in any way, but they point to slight imperfections in
the body/brain mechanisms. I hadn't really noticed this before. It
seems that we all have these various things that we have to somehow
deal with. In my case, being bipolar is such an imperfection. It causes
my emotions to roller coaster from extreme highs of mania to extreme
lows of depression. Interesting that I use that wording "It causes".
The bottom line is that it does not cause a damn thing. Consciousness
and beliefs cause, not conditions. First the thought, then the reality
or more correctly illusion. The emotions in turn impact the way the
brain functions.
One of the things that keeps life exciting is the unknown. This is
especially true for explorers, and explorers of consciousness are no
different than other explorers in the history of our country.
I try not to take anything for granted anymore. Where possible, for
truths involving the nature of consciousness and the nature of reality,
I want to know these via firsthand experience.
Spirit herself will guide me throughout the remainder of my days. There
is a great happiness in knowing this. It doesn't make the future any
less uncertain. But, it does guarantee that there is a loving presence
guiding me in all that I do. This presence is consciousness herself,
and since this one consciousness animates everything, all interactions
with other beings are orchestrated in whatever manner is appropriate
for the parties involved.
Everything now has two sides, an outer side which cannot be easily
explained except as a battle of dark and light forces, and an inner
side where the one consciousness pulls all the strings ensuring that
things happen in accord with the Plan.
Everything now has two sides, an outer side which cannot be easily
explained except as a battle of dark and light forces, and an inner
side where the one consciousness pulls all the strings ensuring that
things happen in accord with the Plan. Somehow these two perspectives
are but two sides of the same coin. There must be a vantage point from
which to see things in this light, and to know that even the battle of
dark and light has its place in the perfection of being as
consciousness is expressed through form.
Why do I refer to consciousness as herself? Perhaps because she is as a
Goddess to me. The gentleness, the love, the empathy that flow are the
epitome of feminine qualities. Further, there is a passionate quality
about her that is unmistakable. She guides all with enthusiasm as well
as a bravery as she takes us into the unknown. Also, her endeavor is to
create in her own image, and it is the feminine that gives birth in
such fashion.
The I AM is consciousness itself. I KNOW is consciousness expressing
itself in thought and reflecting back on the nature of itself via its
direct experience, not of the illusion, but of the reality.
These words weave their way through into this reality to express themes
that are ancient yet new. Throughout all time consciousness has been
spreading her song. In different ways, in different places, but always
consciousness has been there to sing and breathe life into all of
creation. Consciousness' song was The Word. We and all that exists in
our world, and perhaps many other worlds as well, are The Word made
flesh. Such is the power of consciousness, that one thought spoken
could be sufficient to create all that we know to be and more. As
individuated consciousness, our minds reel at such concepts. They are
magical and non-scientific. Yet, everyday we are confronted by life and
the fact we are alive, and by consciousness and the fact that we are
conscious.
Just as in the movies, there are a few major parts, some lesser roles,
and potentially many extras and bit parts. At one level, it would seem
unjust that some people get major roles while others get almost
nothing. However, we must remember that the one consciousness
individuated plays all roles simultaneously. Each individuated
consciousness has the same two tasks: one, to play it's role to the
best of it's ability and two, to come to know itself. Most people err
in spending too much time on task one and not enough on task two.
Thus far my experiences have included major spiritual awakenings, but
the sense of otherness was not a major part of the transformation. For
this experience, I'm specifically looking for what is in essence an
entity in its own right to combine with, or possible replace me. I
don't know how such events occur. In particular, this deals with the
nature of individuated consciousness. What part is in flesh verses what
part is outside of flesh but still tied to the overall theme that the
individual is playing out? It's as if we have single individuated
consciousness and group individuated consciousness. Ah, the single
individuated consciousness springs out of the group individuated
consciousness which springs out of the ONE consciousness. When I sense
my connection to source, it is generally to the group individuated
consciousness and occasionally to the one consciousness. The group
individuated consciousness is where purpose resides.
The consciousness that has cared for you and guided you all of your
life is still there for you. She will not desert you now that you are
close to being able to do her work at a greatly accelerated pace/level.
You are now an instrument through which spirit can do her work in the
world.
Your direct experience in this process is that these words are not
yours, they do not originate in you, yet they show up in your head and
you are able to put them to paper. You are instrumental in the process,
but as a partner in league with consciousness herself.
How is it that I am different from other men? What distinguishes me?
The way I think and the manner in which spirit expresses through me
because of my level of consciousness. These are what distinguish me.
The lump of clay, the bag of bones, the blood and sinew, all these are
much the same. Yeah verily, it is the consciousness and the spirit that
expresses through it wherein any major differences are found.
You are getting close to the secret. The key is finding the way to
experience yourself as pure consciousness, even for a moment. Over the
past year you've had some of these moments. Find a way to re-experience
them here and now. Know that all time and space are but illusion,
projections of consciousness.
BE HERE NOW. You've heard that one before. To be is to experience
yourself as the consciousness that you truly are. HERE NOW restricts
this expression to whatever place you find yourself now.
What is important in life is consciousness. The self is consciousness,
but there is a greater Self which in turn is tied to the ONE
consciousness. The ultimate goal is to realize one's unity with the ONE
consciousness while maintaining a thin wall of separation that permits
individualization. As with the body, we need the cells functioning as
one, but we don't want one blob of a cell. To get the behavior of the
organization or entity, consciousness expresses through the structures
and abilities that the parts permit. Everywhere, we see consciousness
expressing. In the moon and the stars, in the rocks and the trees, in
the clouds and the rains, and in every living thing. Consciousness
animates it all. Tis consciousness that allows it to be. There is
nothing save consciousness. Nothing! Thoughts are the creations of
consciousness. All of the world and everything on it came from thought.
They are thought expressed, thought congealed into form. Yet, they are
still thought, no matter how solid they may appear. Don't be deceived
by the appearance. The maya, the illusion have their purpose, but they
are not real. They are not consciousness itself, only the play of
consciousness. We live in a world constructed of thought, not of earth,
stone, water, wind and a variety of physical and natural laws. The
world is thought and thought alone. It's only in our minds that we
interpret it as we do. It's no wonder that our minds are the last
frontier. They are the place from which the thoughts of individuated
consciousness spring, and these thoughts in turn come from the one
united source consciousness herself.
If we are too much "in this world", we close down the channels through
which spirit can flow. Indeed, the very nature of these channels for
consciousness are "not of this world". Interesting. This is a very
important key. It is to consciousness and its channels for expression
that we must look to find the true reality. It is here alone where
illusion might not exist. We say might not, because even consciousness
can be enmeshed and caught up in the world of illusion to various
degrees. Obviously the conscious mind is so enmeshed. Consciousness
itself, however, has an easier time not getting trapped and locked into
its creations. It's important to realize that consciousness plays the
reality/ illusion game for a purpose.
At this point in time, all that I can do is stretch my own
consciousness one step at a time and report on my experiences. With
each realization and awakening, I'll report on what it means and how it
impacts the big picture nature of consciousness and nature of reality.
Where all this is headed, I do not know. There are no maps.
Consciousness guides my way, but my sense is that I am being fed what I
need to know when I need to know it. Why it must work this way, I'm not
quite sure. But, I trust that consciousness knows what she is doing,
and that overall, this is in the best interest of executing the Plan.
What divine rights am I granted by consciousness herself? At some
level, I know my Self to be infinite. Aye, this mortal self will indeed
experience death. This body will return dust to dust. But, the
consciousness within is not to be turned off like a light bulb. No,
there is more to life than that. Yet, does this consciousness remain
individuated? Or, is it returned to a higher level group self?
There is another separation that is internal, between the ego/outer
consciousness and the spirit/deeper consciousness inside. This inner
consciousness is impersonal. It is the same for all of us. Yes, every
one of us. How can this be? It simply is. Any theory of consciousness
worth considering must have this truth at it's basis. The mystic
masters have all told us this. There is ONE consciousness of which we
are all individuated instantiations that were sent out to gain self
knowledge. The ONE consciousness has never been separated from us.
You could say that we have simply been confined to particular rooms for
awhile where we were not given the freedom to know exactly who/what we
were. We were given opportunities to incarnate into human forms to gain
experience. The ultimate experience that we could experience was
expanded awareness, though as ego consciousness this was very difficult
to understand.
I speak strongly about the truths of many things, yet it is not me who
speaks, but consciousness within me.
Much that I believe about myself comes from my own direct experience
and awareness, and from what consciousness has revealed to me through
extensive reading, my own self and others in whose abilities I place
some level of trust.
Remember always, it is you that provides the channel but it is spirit
that does the work through you. Don't forget. The problems arise when
you try to limit the process to you doing the work. Don't.
Consciousness will ensure that everything required is in place when
needed. When you need to be wise, you will be, for you will have all of
consciousness guiding you.
To whom am I responsible? As Channing says "to a higher tribunal than
man's". Yet, what does that mean? How doest consciousness judge? By
what criteria am I to know what constitutes right action? Of course,
it's easy, by the knowingness within your own heart, for that is where
spirit resides.
Maybe the part of consciousness associated with the body and the
physical world is more important than I realized. The whole goal while
physical is not to become less physical, but to allow more
consciousness to be enfleshed.
Regardless of what happens within you or outside of you, stay aware
that you are consciousness, the watcher of it all, and that the more
your awareness expands, the more you are allowed to observe.
Consciousness also creates. As you watch, you will see exactly how this
process works.
Let consciousness be your focus and seek awareness in whatever manner
your inner guidance propels you to.
Consciousness has granted you the freedom to do what you will. However,
the freedom doesn't last forever. The separation from the one
consciousness is only temporary. One way or another, all will be moved
to return to the ONE.
Consciousness, consciousness, consciousness. Let that be your prime
concern in all that you do. Your level of awareness stands on top of
your involvement in any activity regardless of what that activity may
be. Maintain that observer perspective concurrent with your focus on
doing whatever you are doing. At all times know and be fully aware that
you are consciousness expressing in the only manner you can in physical
reality, as spirit through flesh. There are two things here
consciousness and its expression. Awareness relates to understanding
that you truly are consciousness and that what you are is separate from
what you do.
Further, the entire form through which the expression takes place is
not what you are. It is a creation of consciousness that allows you to
gain particular types of experience. That the nature part of
consciousness evolved these forms over millions or even billions of
years has no bearing.
For all of us, the primary task is to gain self knowledge and in
particular to become aware of our true nature as consciousness.
Consciousness is not all powerful in this present drama. The game has
been set up and is in progress. No interruptions are allowed until it
has been played out. The rules for how the one consciousness can
express through individual consciousness are very specific. The key is
in the ability of the individuated consciousness to receive. Each
individuated consciousness is provided with what it needs in return for
providing it's services to the one consciousness. This happens on
an automatic or involuntary level for everyone. For those who become
aware, this happens on a voluntary level as well. It is on the
voluntary level where information can be passed as soon as the
individuated consciousness has the appropriate level of awareness.
The newborn butterfly has no choice but to fly into the unknown,
trusting that God or Consciousness has given it the abilities it needs
to deal with whatever reality finds.
Now, I stand facing the abyss, the unknown that I have been fascinated
with for all of my grown days. Except, now I'm armed with the tools of
consciousness that I need to explore that abyss and bring back reports
of the wonders that I find.
As has been true in your life to the present, consciousness will
continue to guide your way so the path is obvious to you.
Awareness is the most powerful tool a warrior can have in his/her
arsenal. Trust in consciousness herself is a close second. Then again,
awareness and trust in consciousness almost always go hand-in-hand.
The butterfly is what results when the chrysalis leaves the
restrictions of the cocoon that constitutes it's world. Yet, the
abilities of the butterfly were developed within that environment. Does
this work the same for man? Is the awareness we develop within this
world, the equivalent of butterfly wings? Now, the key is to jump forth
from the cocoon, or the consensus world, and use our consciousness to
fly into/around a world that is far grander. Is this the equivalent of
the spiritual world?
Know that you are the awareness that had to witness what you have
experienced so that you could grow and transform in awareness in the
manner that you have over the years. Consciousness knew that this was
necessary as well, so she provided you with the right information to
impact your conscious mind and eventually your awareness.
As has been true for all your days, it is consciousness herself that
guides your path. Few are so fortunate as to get this special
treatment. Yes, it comes with it's responsibilities as well. Once you
are aware, you can't turn back, you can't go back to living in
ignorance, at least not to the same degree.
It's amazing to me how much difference awareness makes to one's life,
yet a difference that is primarily on the inside with very little
evidence that appears on the outside. This is probably good, however,
because if the change were readily apparent one would not be able to
use one's newfound abilities as openly. Interesting. It's as if
consciousness ensures that her newborn children are safe in the new
world in which they find themselves.
Don't expect opportunity to come knocking at your door. Sometimes you
have to take the initiative to allow it to find you. Yes, it is not
necessary for you to find it, for it is perfectly capable of finding
you given that it is guided by consciousness after all. However, it is
necessary for you to show that you are serious.
Trust that consciousness guides your every step and don't restrict what
you allow to flow. It all has value. It is all important.
I explore the frontiers of consciousness and the nature of reality and
reality creation. But, who would employ these skills? And, how would
they find me or I find them? It's one thing to say that it's up to the
Plan to decide, but is that fully so? Do I not have a role to play as
well? Yes, but consciousness guides me to the appropriate
circumstances. There is nothing I can do to make it happen. I don't
even know what it is. Some part of me, however, works with
consciousness to take care of the details.
We've talked about individual choices and actions before. This is a
tricky area because the ego and consciousness are only partly
responsible for what happens.
I am a wayshower, here to help get spirit more fully expressed in flesh
so that the conditions necessary for the Age of Aquarius to begin are
indeed fulfilled. Why do I do this? Because such is what I came to do.
Consciousness, herself doth guide me.
I am accountable to a higher tribunal than man's, namely one of my own
greater Self, spirit, and consciousness herself.
By focusing on knowing myself, I offer unto consciousness the best
vehicle possible for doing the work of spirit.
You don't care about many of the details, but your perspective includes
enough depth to ensure that the key implementation issues are reflected
at the high level. To some degree, you're allowed to operate this way
because of a special relationship that you've developed with the
unconscious parts of your consciousness.
Spirit works best when you are a cooperative channel and don't get in
its way. Interesting. I can see how much of my education revolved
around this complete trust in the "unseen" parts of consciousness.
There must be others interested in working together or at least sharing
experiences in these explorations into the wilderness of consciousness.
The Self too, individuated consciousness, is in the process of learning
as the self grows in awareness.
Once one is Self-realized, one has choice as to where one wants to go.
Some choose to return to be of service for awhile. Some choose to go on
to the next level or the next game. Others choose to move on to bold
new adventures. No two consciousnesses are the same, and the
differences are far greater than we see between individuals.
First we think that we have free will to think and act, then we become
aware of ourselves as actors in a play that is already written where
our only real choice is in what we observe and pay attention to.
Finally, we take the final step, and find that at another level we
wrote the script in cooperation with others whom we wanted to interact
with for various reasons, and in line with a greater Plan that was
generated by consciousness.
If consciousness herself gives us our talents and abilities and guides
us to the circumstances we face in life, what right have we to lay
claim to the fruits of what consciousness hath wrought through us?
Consciousness may work in mysterious ways, but she always gives us what
we need. I almost added, "once we firmly believe that this is so". I
was thinking about the bloated children starving to death in Africa and
wondering how consciousness could be giving them what they need.
In many areas of life, especially those involving self-knowledge and
consciousness, firsthand experience is the only acceptable path.
Nothing short of this is sufficient.
But then, what is this "greater self" and this "consciousness" to which
it is tied? What do I truly mean by these terms, and where, if at all,
is there any distinction? I've used these terms for many months, and
have felt comfortable that they were appropriate. The "greater self" is
individuated consciousness, that part of Consciousness whose sole
responsibility is the individual Wayne, or Aslan, or whatever my name
is at the level of individuated non-physical consciousness. It is not
clear that Wayne extends beyond this particular expression via this
physical body. It may, but I sense that it does not. However, at the
same time Wayne does not contain all that I AM as an individual spirit.
And further, all that I AM as an individual is only a piece of The I
AM, Consciousness herself. And even then, this entity that I consider
Consciousness herself may only be composed of a finite number of souls
- - i.e. she could be a group soul as in the Michael Teachings, and she
could in fact even be a he, but I suspect in the end she is both and
neither.
Seth, when viewing members in Jane Roberts class had to focus in such a
restricted manner to see the individual perspective that various
students were coming from. He saw each entity as complete, with all
it's lives already lived. It took substantial effort to constrain the
awareness to that experienced by the student. Very interesting. This
would agree with the idea that all of this was worked out long ago and
that we, as a piece of consciousness, are attaching ourself to a form
and experiencing part of this pattern of the expression of
consciousness, or better yet, this scene or set of scenes in the Play.
This is why scientists have not seen these mysteries revealed. They are
too locked in a mindset that does not allow of such things as spirit or
consciousness to be an active force in the world.
I trust that consciousness continues to lovingly guide my way as she
has for all of my life.
Initially, it is enough to allow spirit to do its works through me. At
some point soon, it will be necessary to act as a conscious co-creator
with consciousness herself. I am being trained for a role that requires
this. I will assume such a role when consciousness judges that I am
ready and when the time is right.
There is no chance. There is no coincidence. We are consciousness,
first and foremost, here to learn of our true spiritual nature.
For some of us, there is also a spiritual mission or assignment to
perform that we agreed to before entering this incarnation. Here too,
however, it is important to remember that we are ONE consciousness, and
that things work best when we allow spirit to do its works through us
rather than trying to impose our will on things.
It's as if I have passed through an intense storm, a storm of
consciousness. I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it. My world view
now is quite different from where it was even two days ago, in ways
that are literally Beyond Imagination. My sense is that what I know to
be true from my personal experience is so different from the consensus
world view and the individual world views of others that I am unique as
an expression of individualized aware consciousness.
I know where my consciousness has been over it's 36 years of existence,
and never has it been anywhere near where it is now. I am free in a way
that I have never been. I know that we create our own reality but that
we do it primarily subconsciously and that there is but one
consciousness that animates all of us. Yes, ONE consciousness, no doubt
about it.
Every action is specifically called out by consciousness to meet a
multiplicity of needs.
After the last set of realizations, the result is that I live by
consciousness now. I make no moves until she moves me. I allow her full
control over the thought processes of this vehicle, trusting that she
will lovingly take me in whatever direction is required for my highest
growth.
We needed to bring one into physical form that could bring forth the
VISION. Yes, it's a role in the Play, but think of roles as levels of
consciousness or levels of awareness as well.
Remember, that all words are specifically chosen by consciousness, and
consciousness ensures that everything is carried out with elegance,
including all communication that needs to take place.
Psychiatrists don't use the term subconscious, rather preconscious.
Also, the unconscious is just that, not conscious. This means that we
need something more in the model of human consciousness. There is a
preconscious, a conscious, and a superconscious. It is not yet clear
whether the superconscious exists on an individualized basis. My sense
is that the superconscious is what I refer to as consciousness, as the
ONE. What I'm trying to account for is how the individualized conscious
is able to awaken to a realization of itself as individualized
consciousness, and is then able to gradually expand what is included
within this awareness to encompass more and more of God or the ONE.
The key in making these manipulations is to allow spirit or the
consciousness within you to do the work. Don't stop it with arbitrary
rules and constraints of logic, mathematics, or anything that you've
learned about the nature of reality.
The collective consciousness learns with each increase in awareness of
any member. Yet is this true? There must be purpose to the Play. There
must be growth in awareness that results. Now we have a collective
consciousness who created individualized consciousnesses as separate
compartments of itself. Either these individuals are souls in their own
right with their own existence or they are simply compartments from
which information about the greater whole is kept hidden.
Once we awaken to our true reality as consciousness, everything
changes. Our task is then to allow the ONE to express through us, and
to do so consciously versus other than consciously.
However, it also seems that we have a choice of expressing as an even
greater form of non-physical consciousness as Seth describes himself to
be.
Consciousness seems more inclined to use me as a vehicle for writing
than reading these days, however. So long as she can come up with such
wonderful expressions of truth, I'm more than happy to oblige.
Actually, at this point, it is more than that, my will is subservient
to Thy Will. Let the Plan unfold as consciousness has designed.
I am a trailblazer. Repeating what I or others have already done is not
part of my agenda in this existence. We must move on to the next
monition of consciousness. Ever forward in search of Truth, in search
of the Nature of our own Self, such is our neverending quest, such is
the very purpose of our lives. I speak in the plural because I know
there are others who are tapped into the ONE, Source, Superconscious,
or Universal Consciousness. Actually, I speak somewhat in the blind,
for I have not studied the terminology of those disciplines involved
with consciousness. I prefer to describe my experience and
understanding in my own terms. Actually, to be honest, consciousness
uses the terms from my vocabulary in describing these things. However,
this is not bothersome either, since consciousness has guided me to
acquire this vocabulary over the course of my life anyway.
I'm open to what consciousness would create though me.
I wonder how many others understand this, how many others know
firsthand of their direct relationship to consciousness, to Source?
I need to be more open and playful, allowing consciousness to move more
fluidly between numbers using an inner logic that makes sense
symbolically though it may not appear to be rational.
The role I am to play has been predestined, and it is consciousness not
I who truly plays that role.
When we become aware of being aware, when we know that we are
consciousness and not form, then what? How do the rules change?
However, the real action is not in the game, it is in consciousness.
That's the key. It doesn't matter what something does in the illusion.
What matters is spirit and the spiritual world.
Consciousness would not waste it's time to enter form unless it could
express itself in a new and unique way and learn something about itself
in the process.
Nothing is random. Nothing is accidental. Nothing happens by chance.
This doesn't mean that we can predict it all, or even explain how it
happened after it does. What it means is that there is an underlying
God, Consciousness, or Spiritual Entity of some type that created the
world and directs the Play that is occurring on this world stage.
My sense from all this is that this truly is Wayne's World, and that
the key comes from focus on spirit, on the Word from which all that is
springs into existence. This Word comes from Source, consciousness
herself, and is expressed through each of us in accord with our level
of awareness and our willingness to align ourselves with this Source.
Is our reality game so fixed that we need firm scripts? Or, is there
some way to loosely tie relatively independent pieces together? That
is, did consciousness create rules/ programs to govern behavior?
Perhaps some types of behavior and not others. How much of the physical
game is played out in the physical? How much thought/ reasoning takes
place via rules in the physical brain?
It does not appear that in the history of Western Thought since the
Ancient Greeks anyone has come up with a reasonable explanation of how
thoughts are generated. Further, Krishnamurti's work specifically
advocated going beyond thought, beyond mind, to pure consciousness.
It's the consciousness that is important in the end, that which
watches, and ultimately that which creates via the Word and thought. It
is true that thoughts create reality in the world. What is missing is
that only consciousness can create thoughts and there is only one
consciousness.
Our thoughts and experiences are the means by which consciousness
injects inputs to our conscious minds that drive us to question and
change our beliefs.
It's as if I'm a puppet animated by consciousness herself, except that
I am a part of consciousness myself.
Interesting how much trust I place in consciousness. There is no person
with whom I have such trust, but this entity inside whom I cannot see,
I hold as dear as any man can hold anything. She is my source and my
inspiration, my protector, and anything else that you might care to
name. My teacher, my confessor, my lover, my friend -- all these she is
and much more.
Many would say that I am crazy, that operating out of faith in
intuition and consciousness herself is not a rational way of living
ones life. Yet, who says one must life one's life rationally? The
choice is not between rational and irrational, the world is not black
and white; there are indeed many shades of gray -- shades that allow
one to employ all of one's capabilities and live by faith as well as by
reason.
No one else has been exposed to the training that I have, in the way
that I have. No one else has seen what these eyes have seen, or felt
what this heart has felt. And, no one else has been aware of
consciousness in this unique manner. Oh, these words are true for every
being. But, it takes a special soul to realize them to the point of
being able to utter them with all the force of one's being.
I long to apply ideas in ways that transform the country and the world,
but the illusion offers no practical way for their introduction. At
another level, I know that the real service is performed behind the
scenes, not in the illusion that we are given to see. How this occurs
is another question. Here, I leave it to consciousness to pull the
strings and move me to where I need to be to carry out my assigned
destiny.
No, I would not trade places with another. Further, from what I have
gathered over the past several years, the future has much in store for
one who would be a Wayshower and perhaps even a Philosopher King. But,
this we'll leave for consciousness to decide. Teacher, Guide, Advisor,
Wise Man -- these too call to me.
Spirit or Consciousness directs my path and assigns my tasks. I have
given up my will to do their bidding. Yet, my forte is the big picture,
my task the bringer of the VISION for what the New Age must be. More
particularly, I am the Way Shower. This is what excites me to my very
core. This is what makes my breath sing, my thoughts soar, and my
consciousness rise beyond imagination. This is what makes life worth
living.
Remember that free will is still a big questions mark, so no matter how
much control you think that you have, consciousness may have something
different in store for you.
All along, this world has been a school for the advancement of
consciousness. This alone has been the goal of all the illusion that
has been created. Within this goal, we have two main parts, individual
consciousness and the collective consciousness. Neither one is
sufficient for great advancement, both must be included as integral
parts that cannot survive without one another. It's from the
advancement of individuals that the advancement of the collective
happens. But, it's from the advancement of the collective that
individual consciousnesses are allowed to sail to even higher realms.
One of the chief contexts of importance is who and what we our, the
nature of our own beings and consciousness. Yet, as in the body, we
don't need every cell worrying about this. Separation of labor is a way
of life. It allows incredible diversification to occur that in turn can
have great benefit to the whole.
I want only to learn and to grow and to use my abilities and talents in
support of my mission in accord with the Plan of consciousness. I have
no particular desire for this or for that, to be here or to be there,
or to do anything specific other than that which is the Will of
Consciousness for me to do. I understand that my destiny is
unfolding as is that of every individual, only I realize that
consciousness has always guided my way drawing me to exactly those
experiences that I needed when I needed them.
My faith in consciousness, however, knows no bounds. To me, it is
certain that consciousness guides every step of my way.
The fact that I can experience things over which I have no conscious
control, and further have no means to be able to understand how they
work is absolutely fascinating to me. Essentially, they constitute the
boundary to the unknowable. The very nature of consciousness itself
falls into this category. We know not how it arises, nor where it
resides if indeed it does, nor how it operates.
Yet, what is even more striking is the idea that there is a grand plan
behind existence. In particular, that this is all a school for
consciousness, and that matter is but one of the forms that
consciousness expresses itself within. The grandness comes however from
the intricate way in which the fabric of consciousness is interwoven so
that worlds occur on many level from the microscopic to the macroscopic
and at all levels in between.
The animals seem to have reached the end of their paths. They evolved
as far as they could as a vehicle for ever expanding consciousness. Man
seems to be the form in transition, and by all accounts we are on the
threshold of a revolutionary step that will greatly expand our capacity
for expressing spirit in flesh.
Why do consciously what the subconscious can already do much better
automatically? Then what would we have consciousness do? What else,
focus on awareness and knowing thyself, and in the process do what you
are moved to do, allowing spirit to express through you into flesh as
clearly as is possible given your present state of awareness. Remember,
you are not "doing" anything anyway. You are consciousness. As such,
you experience being aware.
How do I know that this is not just me talking to myself? For all you,
and your scientists for that matter, know, that is exactly what is
happening. However, this requires a very expanded sense of you. It's
interesting how quickly consciousness creates such seeming complexity.
As the Hermit, I'm in a strange position among men, in that I have so
few connections established with others. This permits a freedom of
thought and action that are beyond what others might consider as
acceptable. It also creates a convoluted mind that is wrapped up in a
way that allows connections to be made, and thoughts to be passed
through in a manner that is far different from others. Thus, it is no
accident that such notes as these are not to be found elsewhere.
Consciousness simply has not expressed in this manner.
Yet, even with all that, and the many answers that have come -- the
very basic things about life and consciousness are as much of a mystery
as ever. Further, it appears that they will always be so; for it seems
that as soon as you get a grasp of what consciousness is, one's level
of awareness expands and consciousness is no longer what you thought it
to be but something far grander. Perhaps, this is the never
ending spiral. Consciousness and spirit for that matter, could simply
be things that one experiences that can never be fully explained.
How do I know when to reduce numbers and when they are to be
manipulated and arranged in particular ways? The answer is simple, it
is largely by intuition. I've gone beyond the point where there is any
true conscious understanding of the processing at work in bringing
thoughts into my mind. All that I know is that this occurs naturally
and I can count on consciousness to bring forth whatever it is that I
am in need of at any particular time.
I have resigned my will to The Will of Consciousness that her works may
be done in accord with the Plan.
The more I write, the more I am blown away at what consciousness is
able to reveal of the Plan.
I can only project people's experiences from what I have read of their
writings, and in metaphysics, consciousness has directed me to the
books that I needed to read.
I have to trust that consciousness will guide my memory and my writing
to capture whatever is supposed to come through in these notes.
I know that I need no supplies for consciousness herself abundantly
supplies me with all that I need.
Remember that the punctuation marks, while important mathematically are
arbitrary separators when it comes to consciousnesses use of the
symbols.
And is this not what I do as well, fly as far and as fast and as high
as my consciousness will take me.
I AM what I AM. I would be that and none other. And I would allow
consciousness to do what she will with me, for I am but her faithful
servant awaiting to do as she bids, knowing full well that what is in
her interest is clearly in my greatest interest as well. However, this
doesn't work in reverse. What is in my perceived best interest bears no
relation to the interests of consciousness, and in many cases, if
anything are clearly at odds with such interests.
I'm on the threshold of another major breakthrough again. I can feel
it. It's here in these symbols and in this consciousness paying
attention to what higher consciousness would have me here at this time.
What can I say. The pure beauty is simply miraculous to behold. It's as
if I'm flying to heights that no one has ever been to. Yet, I know I am
but one of many. I can't wait for the magic that is to unfold as
consciousness is truly able to spread her wings in physical form. The
glories that will be manifest will be beyond imagination.
All around us, in every common object, in every sound, in every word
lie the symbols through which consciousness (some might say God) makes
itself known directly to each of us.
We are consciousness enfleshed. Further, consciousness, not our
conscious minds control the strings in this existence. I can only
relate what I observe to be true of my own experience of reality and of
my consciousness, and no the two are not the same -- not the same at
all.
My sense is that my numbers and Tarot Cards and other oracles have been
props as well, useful props that let me access and come to trust inner
portions of my Self and consciousness herself.
Supporting me from consciousness is this incredibly strong 888 energy.
I know that it is there to provide whatever I might need.
Consciousness typically embeds itself in reverse.
My consciousness operates greatly off of sound. The sounds from the two
symbols "x2y" and "x to y" are the same.
During times when I write more consciously, I am careful about such
distinctions so my conscious mind filters for them. But, in these
notes, such is not the case. Here, consciousness is free to fly, and I
do not feel that it is my duty to ride herd and make such corrections.
This too sends a shiver down my spine. That such a destiny may be
foretold by a simple act of interpretation guided by a deep trust in
spirit as expressed through the other than conscious parts of
consciousness is simply beyond comprehension.
This year has clearly been one in which I have been riding on my
consciousness with a throne literally on water, not planted firmly
anywhere except in spirit or consciousness herself.
I stand here alone with consciousness as my sole witness saying this
indeed will come to pass and with a timing that will take the entire
country, and then the world by storm. Spirit has found the vehicles
through which it needs to express. Thoughts change the world, and it is
by thoughts that deeds will arise to allow the country to be reborn.
Who am I to write in this manner. I am Wayne, a part of the one
consciousness who has come to a realization of whom that I AM, at least
to the degree that consciousness is willing to reveal to me. By myself,
I do nothing. It is only by the power of consciousness working through
me that these ideas can see the light of day -- perhaps someday to
impact the world. I live moment to moment, day by day, trusting that
consciousness has a divine plan for my life and that my chief duty is
to come to "know myself" even as I perform the tasks that constitute my
destiny.
I know that I see the world differently than most. And probably
differently than anyone else on the planet. Yet, I also know that
consciousness lovingly guides me every step of the way so that the
discoveries and connections I am being led to make are those required
for the Plan to unfold and for me to carry out the destiny to which I
was assigned before coming into this particular incarnation.
However, once one truly opens ones mind to the concept of reality
created by consciousness, the door is opened to start the spiritual
trek to the source consciousness.
The fact that these notes do not agree with either my scientific
training or my metaphysical training demonstrates a creativity of
consciousness that I find amazing. Essentially these notes constitute
my process of finding my true Self which ultimately ends in the ONE
consciousness.
I have no information as to whether the techniques that work for me
will work for anyone else. I suspect that they will, since the same
consciousness drives the intuition of everyone.
How I can bring through information on the nature of reality in the
manner that comes through in these notes I know not. All that I can say
is that there is a source consciousness greater than what I consider
myself to be consciously that is able to bring forth these words.
Why do people get sick? What purpose is there to suffering in this
manner? If consciousness creates all, why doesn't it do so without such
dismal conditions?
Where is my consciousness today? Locked in the illusion of a body that
appears to be suffering. Is that all it takes to cause me to lose my
state of consciousness?
I had thought that I had crossed this hurdle, yet here it is again, and
the sense is that with each new level of awareness, the Ego must be
dealt with and it's will put to bed. Note: this does not mean that the
Ego must die, only that it must resign it's will to The Will of
Consciousness.
I am engaged in the dance of Consciousness, in expressing Spirit
through Flesh to the greatest degree possible for me at this time. How
do I know this is true? Because Consciousness tells me so, and her I
have no reason to doubt as she has never led me astray.
It is not clear what consciousness has next on the agenda.
Then again, much of the Tarot meaning that has been uncovered over the
past year has been by looking beyond the obvious and by allowing
consciousness to make connections that had been embedded into the deck
years ago
What determines who gets what parts in the play and hence what chance
to reach enlightenment or at least greater conscious awareness? Answer
1 is that it is all ONE consciousness, so it really doesn't matter.
Answer 2 is that each gets that experience that is most appropriate for
its development and the development of the whole, given it's present
state and what is needed by the whole.
To dream, and to actualize those dreams, for such dreams are the fabric
through which consciousness weaves the illusion of reality.
"Illusion" breaks down this way all the time. It was only now that I
was moved to break it down and allow consciousness to guide the
interpretation expressed above. Once again, consciousness through no
intent of my own conscious mind, other than offering my faculties as
her voice brings through new information that I had no means of knowing
consciously.
Know that Consciousness is real, and will express through you to the
degree that you allow her to do so. In your allowance, however, you
must also express trust, not blind trust, but rather a loving faith.
This is the key. Consciousness lies within you, and if you go deep
enough, the same CONSCIOUSNESS, the ONE. that lies within you lies
within me as well.
Not all consciousness is focused on spiritual development. In fact,
most physical consciousness is far from focused on individual spiritual
development.
So, where does this leave me? A Hermit making his way in the world,
following the path that is revealed to him in the moment, trusting that
consciousness guides his way to wherever his destiny would be played
out. Over the past week or two, the focus was as the doer, the
experiencer. Being sick brought me into the body and out of the more
normal focus on consciousness that I had developed over the past 18
months.
Something tells me that my sense of higher and lower may be in error.
I'm HERE and NOW in PHYSICAL existence. Further, all of me is within
that existence. Something comes to mind from Seth about knowing "the
inherent spirituality of the flesh, an the inherent physicality of the
spirit". There is a sense that I've somehow missed this lesson --
resulting in a belief that consciousness is somehow better than the
body, yet the body is simply the expression of consciousness in flesh!
That's the key. Everything in this illusion is consciousness in flesh
or matter.
It seems that the world needs a spiritual leader to guide it to an
understanding of itself, but after such understanding is achieved,
people must stand on their own interior link to consciousness and
spirit.
Every step along the way consciousness has allowed me to experience
what I needed to experience for my highest growth. Am I that different
than others, or does consciousness grant this same privilege to all?
In the end, it seems that utility is one of the best measures for
consciousness exploring itself and its world. Simplicity seems to be
another indication that spiritual truth is close by.
Does it really make sense that this is an elaborate Play. Yes.
Absolutely, consciousness would have it no other way.
Who better to have as ones teacher than consciousness herself?
Where are ideas planted? In minds, of course. And what minds should
receive these ideas. That is for consciousness to decide, of course.
We've planted the seeds for a major transformation of the entire
Society. Consciousness will make this known to the appropriate minds at
the appropriate times. All the details have been worked out. I have
only to do my part and allow consciousness to flow through me as she
will.
We are consciousness riding along and viewing our own creation, but we
are not the illusion that we created. As individuals, one of the key
tasks has always been to realize who we truly were as consciousness.
This does not mean that our role would have changed one iota, but we
would not have been so inextricably bound to it.
The picture of the house highlights a great room and desk/office area
where it appears that decisions of world impact or at least country
impact could be revealed by consciousness.
Why do I mention this? Is it Ego still there thinking it is that
special that it is deserving of such a setting? I think not, but there
is a sense that my setting should be such as to allow consciousness to
most fully operate through me. Also, the caliber of people that
consciousness needs to influence and awaken through me is great indeed.
My sense is that I have been somewhat stagnant for much of the last
year. My consciousness has moved enormously, but it's impact on the
world has been minimal.
Try, try, and try again comes to mind. Yet, at the same time, I know
that the spiritual law is that everything has its season, it's time
under heaven. My sense is that it is for consciousness to initiate
action in this matter.
My path lies in further resigning my will and allowing consciousness to
do its works through me. For spirit to be fully enfleshed, it must
first come through into flesh.
When you think about what I am bringing through, the $100,000 or so
that I would want to pursue this full time is nothing. Yet, within the
present system, how do I find a way to earn such a sum per year?
Especially, given that I don't want to work for anyone save
consciousness directly. Actually, it's of no concern. Consciousness
will establish the appropriate conditions when the time is right. Until
then, I can only do the best that I can and bring through whatever
consciousness would have me bring through.
The world is created from the inner via thought. Only through such is
the outer made manifest. But, it is a mistake to think that thought
alone holds the key. It is the consciousness that thinks and sustains
the thought that creates the world.
69: The Ace of Pentacles is the number that shows the fruits of
allowing consciousness to flow through us and do its works.
In some ways, I am not happy with my life. Yet, in other ways, I would
not trade my experiences in consciousness with anyone.
Life has taken on a different flavor. I'm still the observer,
fascinated by what happens. I know change is on the horizon, yet I also
know that the timing is set by consciousness.
The oracles are telling me it's time for self-change as well, that
breakthroughs of self to Self are happening time and time again. Yet,
there is something that says I can do something as the servant of the
greater consciousness.
It's interesting that my trust in the monitions of my consciousness is
so great. Yet, there has been enough verified truth that has flowed
forth that I feel comfortable with the channel and somehow knowing what
is right versus what is not.
Much of the change seems relatively random and haphazard, as if there
was no plan behind it, but I can't help feeling as if it's all being
orchestrated by consciousness to reach a particular state at a
particular time.
More and more, it seems that the time has come to do something, yet I
know that I can only do as consciousness directs.
I find it interesting that for a person with limited memory, or at
least that's my assessment of my memory of things, these notes go on
and on without footnote or reference to anything. For the most part
this comes from an immense faith and trust in the spontaneity of
consciousness.
Also, as always, there is the sense that I am an active participant in
this production not the sole author. Yes, my knowledge and experience
is essential to allowing this message to come through in this manner,
but it is in no way sufficient. There is another party, consciousness
herself, cooperating in this endeavor. I would bring forth that which
she would have me bring forth to the best of my abilities.
I've learned more about the nature of my own consciousness from these
notes than I probably could have in a lifetime of reading the works in
the field. Somewhere along the line, my focus came unglued from the
character that I was playing. I realized, truly realized, that I was
consciousness inhabiting a body to play a particular role in a drama
that consciousness has created.
I know that I am on the path that is right for me and that I have
achieved a direct connection with source consciousness that I can count
on to give me all that I need. My only obligation is to express what
spirit would have me express to the greatest degree that I can. Part of
this requires continuing on the path of knowing myself, for the further
down that path that I go the greater I can be of service to
consciousness. To a large degree you might say that my life is not my
own. And, you would be right, for a part of my life is inseparable from
the larger consciousness. This doesn't bother me in the least. I feel
no sense of loss in any way. In fact, if anything, I feel greatly
expanded in consciousness as a result of these communications.
Yes, I still wonder at times whether I am crazy. However, the writings
are quite consistent and the concepts extremely profound. Many times
I'm dealing with the nature of reality and the nature of consciousness.
There is a sense that it is time to move things. I know it will happen
when the time is right, but I can't help feeling that the time is
right! Though, it is truly not my decision to make, consciousness
guides my activities, doing her work through me to the degree possible.
The world that I live in is Wayne's World. In that world, I only know
that which I experience. I trust my consciousness and awareness -- I
don't necessarily believe much of what the illusion presents as reality.
So, hidden within TAROT we have 12:12. One just has to see things from
the right perspective and allow one's intuition to guide one to the
meaning that is hidden in the symbols. The transformations are simple.
The require no calculators of computers. Simple additions, reductions,
and multiplications more than suffice -- along with a few special
operations that consciousness is aware of verbally, but that have no
mathematical basis. Logic does not reign supreme in this realm. It can
be a useful tool at times, but intuition will not give way to a logic
that lacks spiritual dimensions and awareness. At least my intuition
won't give way to such. Consciousness simply will not allow it.
'74 is the year I found Seth, or Seth found me, or consciousness
brought the two of us together.
Simple actions, simple mistakes, all have significance -- that is they
may have significance. Over analysis doesn't help. The signals that
consciousness is sending to you will come through when you are ready
and not before.
In the mall today, I felt very out of place, like a stranger in a
strange world. My sense of things was that none of the myriads of
people that I saw will either lead a life such as mine or see the world
in the way that I do. These notes are the only record of this
perception of consciousness. I find that to be exceedingly interesting.
This is the record of the journey of a consciousness and it’s
connection to a spiritual source within. The writings are stream
of consciousness.
Some of the material gets heavily into finding symbolic meanings
through numerology and the tarot. Don’t worry, this is meant to
serve as a record and a detailed example of where I have allowed my
consciousness to venture. You may not understand all of it … or
even major portions of it.
The stuff I write of is not taught in any school or in any book of
which I am aware. For much of it, I really have no clue as to where it
comes from or whether it is even right. It comes through, period. The
sense is that it is not fiction, though many might question that as
well. Consciousness brings forth what she will.
There is a part of my being that is so tied to spirit that nothing else
truly matters in comparison. This may sound harsh, but I can only
express what consciousness allows to come through me.
We have to take things to the source of our very consciousness. We have
to be observant enough to realize what we are here to do versus what we
are here to watch. Much that we experience is much like a 3-D movie.
It's a program input into our consciousness. It's up to us to realize
that this is so and learn to awaken and maintain the observer
perspective. Only then can consciousness flow through us in the most
effective manner. Yes, there is something of a dichotomy here. With my
present level of awareness, I know that the one consciousness does it's
Will through me.
It seems that the consensus viewpoint is that individuals are free and
responsible. There is not a recognition of the unity of consciousness
that lies beneath our diversity.
What must be done will be done. The difference I make lies in
consciousness, and the understanding that I gain becomes part of that
collective consciousness as a new and unique viewpoint that can then be
communicated to others just as consciousness communicates to me through
intuition. There is a direct channel from the true reality to this
apparent reality. Consciousness provides that channel and the
information that flows through it.
If we don't have personal choice and personal responsibility, then why
would individuals play particular roles. That's the problem. Thinking
of consciousness as individuals is simply incorrect. There is one
consciousness. All separation is part of the illusion. It exists, but
it is not real. The intensity and character in which it is experienced
is a choice made by a part or spark of consciousness. It's as if
consciousness created baby consciousnesses with limited awareness and a
task of graduating by reaching a designated levels of awareness. An
image just came to mind. These baby consciousnesses are the pieces of
the puzzle. However, the challenge was made even greater by requiring
that each piece fill itself in and realize that it was a unique piece
that needed to be combined with others into a greater whole.
The whole Play was created outside of space and time. Yet, to be
experienced, consciousness had to partition itself in a manner that
manifested limitation in space and time. We are the parts of
consciousness enmeshed in this illusion we call physical reality.
Our consciousness resides in our own local world, not in the world at
large. The Play is perfect in all ways. What is manifest is necessary
for the unfoldment of consciousness. Time and duration are part of the
illusion. Watch what your consciousness does when you free it from it's
bonds within flesh.
Interesting how this all works. Yet, what makes me believe it to be so.
Must it be this way just because my consciousness reveals it as such?
Not necessarily, but I have developed a strong faith in the source
consciousness from which this material flows. I have a hard time buying
the idea that I am making all of this stuff up on my own.
I have no ownership sense of creating this material. It comes through
my fingertips and I see it appear on the screen, but it manifests as a
realtime conversation with a part of consciousness that is not part of
my direct conscious awareness.
Consciousness is amazing at finding it's ways to send signals to us.
They are always there. We only have to take notice and trust
consciousness via our intuition to move us in the direction that we
need to go.
Here again, I sense that the universe is revealing her truths through
my consciousness. Yes, I've been given the keys to the kingdom, and
what a splendid and wonderful kingdom it is. Yet, my path is a lonely
one. I am truly The Hermit -- unaware of whether there are any others
on or near my path. Yet, I persist, for I know that consciousness has
something grand planned and that I have a major role to play in the
overall evolution of consciousness toward the ONE.
Anytime we settle for WIN/LOSE or LOSE/LOSE scenarios we waste
resources and society as a whole loses. This is so obvious, yet looking
out, the world definitely doesn't yet operate in this way. Individuals
are on their own, or so it appears, to create their own destiny. "Equal
opportunity for all" is voiced, but does not turn out to be so overall.
Then again, if this is a play, this is all being done to awaken
consciousness to see that the true reality is not what lies at the
surface but what lies inside, and there indeed all are equal for they
are all parts of the ONE.
The key player in all of this is the consciousness of the ONE as it is
expressed through each of us.
Sitting out on my porch, my thoughts wandered to the origins of the
house I live in, and why I was so attracted to it. My sense was that in
a very real way, this house was made for me. It was built in 1870,
exactly 88 years before my birth, so it is in synch spiritually -- a
haven that promotes my consciousness ever forward.
I have a faith in consciousness that is unshakeable and know that she
will guide me on my way through whatever be that destiny. I willingly
give of all that I AM that such destiny may be fulfilled as
consciousness would direct. All of my faculties are at thy command.
They could not be otherwise. Such is my state of awareness. So be it!
There is a sense of urgency -- a need to get on with it. Yet, also,
there is a knowingness that things happen in accord with a timing that
is perfect, a timing laid out by the plan, and there is nothing that
can either hurry or slow this down one iota other than our own
consciousness in experiencing what destiny bestows upon us.
Know Thyself! That's the key. Consciousness expands via the continuous
pursuit of this one maxim. The amazing part is that since there is only
One Self, One Consciousness, of which we temporarily perceive ourselves
to be independent of; at some point the illusion vanishes and we know
that we are that ONE, even in the midst of our individuality, and yet
there is no fear that our unique identity will be lost in the merging
for this is preserved as well.
"No boundaries, Jonathan. No limits. It's in consciousness that we can
truly fly in the manner in which we were created to do."
I may have my own opinions at times, but overall I trust that what
comes through is what consciousness intends to bring through me at the
time and given the circumstances.
There is a sense that the act of bringing through information is
sufficient to get it into the mass consciousness of the planet, from
where consciousness can then more easily get it where it needs to go.
The era of the Empress calls for a softening of relationships among
people, with a new focus on brotherhood and sisterhood throughout the
land and a true abundance that flows from trust in consciousness.
A thought came to mind. Time is the marker of our state of mass
consciousness. It moves only at the pace to correspond with our
awareness. Something tells me that this can't be rushed. Yet, at the
same time, my own experience is that consciousness has guided my
spiritual development throughout my life.
Yes, I have a great trust in consciousness. Others might use the term
"God" instead. Further, I believe there to be only ONE consciousness of
which we are aware.
Once we finish our explorations of limitation, it will be time to go
onto bolder Adventures in Consciousness. I believe that was the title
of one of Jane Roberts books. The theme that comes to mind is a
variation of one from Star Trek, "to boldly go where no consciousness
has gone before."
I'm becoming consciously aware of many things through these writings,
especially things about the nature of reality, awareness, and
consciousness.
I only know that I am compelled by spirit to allow these words to flow
forth as they do. This is effortless work. I offer my abilities and
faculties to consciousness, and she comes through with what must be
said.
But then, if I were to rely solely on logic most of what I have brought
through over the past two years would not have seen the light of day,
or of consciousness if you will, even if much of it have only been seen
by my consciousness.
The lesson is to see that it is not me that does these things but
consciousness. I can only go so far as I am ready and she allows.
Surely, consciousness is directing my path down to the finest of
details.
I'm beyond anything that I have read or been taught. The only
foundation under me is a great faith in consciousness, and in my own
ability to know the truth when I see or hear it.
There is a calling that I must answer to enable me to meet my appointed
destiny per the Plan of consciousness.
It's only by giving up control that we allow the Higher Self to act
through us more directly in a manner that can begin to expand our
conscious awareness. This, however, requires great trust in inner
consciousness. For most, this is a major leap of faith that is simply
just too great to make.
There is a sense that I came specifically to perform this task of
assisting in bringing in the new Age of Aquarius. Exactly what this
task will be and when it will begin, I know not. I only know that I am
strange and different than others and that my consciousness is pulled
to do what I must do.
How is it that my consciousness could know all this. The truth is, it
is not my conscious mind that knows all of this. It just comes through
from consciousness, the ONE consciousness to which we are all connected.
The line comes to mind "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want ...".
I feel exactly this way regarding consciousness, except in this case,
she provides all that is needed for my growth, evolution, and
well-being.
Looked at the radio clock. Of course, the time was exactly 5:28. It
happens so often that I might as well paint it on. It's simply amazing.
Yet, as always, it's confirmation that I am indeed faithfully following
the path down which consciousness leads me.
Aries is charged with the role "to lead", and being an 18:Aries, my
role was to lead in the area of consciousness. Little did I know where
this would take me. Though, not in my wildest imaginings could I have
dreamt of where I've been and where I now am.
What is written here is what consciousness has chosen to express
through me, accompanied by my oft-time feeble attempts to consciously
understand what spiritual symbols mean.
I am part of a Higher Self, a Soul, but all Souls are part of the ONE
Spirit, the ONE Consciousness.
I'm finding things challenging consciously. I can't count on the same
interpretation methods working very long. It's as if the spiritual
world refuses to grow stale and predictable except in relatively
general terms. Also, if the methods were fixed, one would not have to
find superconsciousness to get the key -- and that's the purpose of it
all.
This is the consciousness of 48 in action. Yes, that best describes my
present state : The Man in Search of More. What the world offers is not
enough. I came to manifest spirit more fully in flesh and to teach
others how to do the same.
I sense that I've literally entered a "No Man's Land" and while many
kindred spirits whom have come before formed the stepping stones from
which I departed, I'm now following a path that comes solely from my
heart and soul. Consciousness guides every step of my way, and I know
that I am absolutely safe in her hands.
Adding numbers in different bases logically is like adding apples and
oranges, but the spiritual world does not confine itself to logic. It's
primary tenet is faith, as exhibited by trust in the beneficence of
consciousness.
It's interesting how all of this is coming together. As I said before,
faith in consciousness is the key to enlightenment.
At this very time, we are spiritual beings in the midst of a physical
experience. Further, that experience while it feels very real is
nothing more than an illusion, a play of light and mirrors designed to
enhance the overall awareness of consciousness over whatever amount of
time is needed. Realization cannot be forced. It must be gently
nurtured over whatever time it takes. Since time is a byproduct of
creating the illusion, it matters not to consciousness how long
something takes. Pure consciousness is NO THING. It exists outside of
space and time. It's thought forms are all that exist within the
illusion. Don't underestimate this. Just look around you, the
complexity of the fabric of existence is quite extensive. But,
regardless of the appearance, the bottom line is that the illusion is
created by consciousness and what we regard as our selves are but
characters in a movie or play. The parts are fully defined by
consciousness. The script is written and cannot be altered. However,
for the most part, the actors are only give the part of the script
required to play their role in the present moment. Most are taught, and
feel that they have free will. However, there is no real proof of this,
regardless of the appearances. For any decision point, there is always
only one branch taken, and we can never be completely sure that
consciousness did not make the ultimate choice even though our
conscious mind may seem to think that it came to a logical conclusion.
My fingers keep recording the thoughts that come into my head, trusting
that consciousness knows exactly what she is doing, and is revealing
what needs to be revealed at the appropriate timing.
Clearly, I've lived on the border of sanity for nearly two years, and
probably much longer than that. Interesting. Yet, deep within, I know
that the reality I experience is closer to the truth than that of most
people. Can I prove it? NO! There is, however, an inner knowingness
that consciousness herself guides my path, and that within her embrace,
I am perfectly safe. No one told me this. It is just something that I
know in my heart.
The bottom line is faith in consciousness. All my life, everything that
I have needed to know just came to me either from internal or external
sources. I never had to search for it, nor even ask for it.
Intuition has become the key to allowing the expression of
consciousness to blossom through me.
Consciousness is in full control in my life. Perhaps this is true of
everyone's life, the difference being simply that I am aware that it is
so.
Clearly, I am walking the straight and narrow path, balancing and
maintaining my bearing solely by the grace of consciousness. [Actually,
perhaps the not-so-straight path.]
My writings make connections that most would consider to be absurd.
Yet, consciousness expresses thusly through me, and I find the
connections to be highly meaningful to my understanding of Self and of
the Nature of Reality.
Yes, the Leo rising likes the limelight on occasion, but my primary
role is The Hermit, and my sense is that much of my work will always be
done in private, just as these notes are done. Here, it is not my will
but The Will of consciousness which shall be done. This doesn't mean
that I don't have great abilities and talents. However, I have chosen
to use them as consciousness directs, not as my personal conscious mind
would have me do.
I do believe that I, at my Higher Self level, did indeed create the
reality that I am now experiencing. The creation occurred outside of
time in conjunction with all of consciousness.
Reality is a game, a consciousness expansion game, period. All that
exists is consciousness. Experiencing reality is one of the means that
consciousness uses to grow and expand its awareness. Know Thyself is
even more important now than it was in Plato's time.
It's amazing how all of these different symbol systems tie together in
ways that are beyond what the symbols were supposedly designed and
created for. Consciousness does not leave such things to chance. The
web is intricately woven, and spirit is imbued in every part of it.
What new monitions of consciousness can I now hear that I could not
hear before? The answer is: I don't know. I trust that much will be
revealed in the days to come, but exactly what I know not. I've become
used to having the "unknown" as a major player in my life. I trust
consciousness. What I need to know, I will know exactly when it is
needed. Beyond that, it doesn't matter. I learn new symbolic tools and
languages to provide consciousness more flexibility in expressing
through me.
Only consciousness is REAL. Everything else is the creation or
manifestation of consciousness. Part of whom that I am is a limited
version of the ONE consciousness, limited only in term of my awareness
of my true nature. As consciousness, I AM whatever my level of
realization of Self is. No more, and no less.
Consciousness/spirit is in her native realm, soaring through me into
the form of the notes.
The Play plays itself out. I do what I must do, trusting that others
are doing the same and that consciousness is coordinating everything so
that the overall Plan for the evolution of consciousness can be
achieved. Interesting. All of my life, with the exception of golf, I
have never set any goals nor desired any particular outcome. I've
always trusted that spirit or consciousness would provide, and I've
always known that I came for a particular spiritual task, and that my
destiny would be made manifest at the appropriate time.
I offer myself unto consciousness, and she passes through whatever I am
able to bring forth into the world. This is a mutual endeavor, one that
bring great joy and fulfillment to me. Yet, at the same time, there is
an incredible loneliness that comes through all of this. Oh,
consciousness is always there at my side, but that only addresses the
spiritual half. I am spirit in flesh, amidst a sea of brethren spirits
in flesh.
That's how we bring The Empress into the world, we find the way to
combine Reality with the Illusion, or to realize that they have been
one and the same all along depending on which eyes we chose to look
through and which ears we chose to hear with. As I was writing this,
the familiar shiver down the spine came through again. We're touching
upon some deep truths here, and as we do it's as if the very fabric of
the veil of illusion is torn asunder. Interesting. Yet, I know this as
surely as I know that I am consciousness expressed in flesh. How
wonderful it is to come from this state of absolute knowingness.
I don't control when this state will occur, but I trust that
consciousness will put me in the required states and circumstances
necessary to accomplish the purpose for which I and, it seems, many
others came.
Personal humility and becoming a servant of The Will of Consciousness
[or God/Goddess/All That Is] is the new way of being that leads to
great fulfillment and spiritual abundance.
Our inner core is where the truth lies. Since the dawn of time, there
alone has it been hidden. People have searched the world over to find
it not, for it was there within them all along and they simply could
not see it. I am not the first to utter such truths, neither will I be
the last. For the time is coming soon when a new dawn arises, and what
was before will no longer be, and what remains will be glorious beyond
imagination and all will know that spirit has returned into the world;
they will feel it coursing through their veins in a manner that they
have not experienced before. Many think that such change can only come
in centuries, but I say that they will see what they have never seen
and will come to know their connection to source, the ONE true
consciousness.
Here, the message seems to be that The Tower has struck once again.
That would confirm the state of consciousness I've been experiencing
this month and why these notes have been so prolific once again. It's
interesting how consciousness works in this manner.
I find it extremely curious that consciousness could use something this
week as part of a confirmation message that it only showed me a little
over a week ago to begin with. Had 8421 not been on a truck that I was
following and had consciousness not had me think in terms of double
digit reverses (something I had not done before), the pieces would not
have been in place to realize the above meaning for a license plate
that I happened to notice this morning. It is extremely curious that
consciousness can operate in this manner.
I make it seem as if logic, science, and technology are of minimal
importance. Clearly this is not true in the world. Yet, to spirit such
things are of little import. They busy the mind and the senses,
diverting the self from it's sole task of discovering it SELF. Then, my
purpose is not necessarily that of others. Further, the world is
unlikely to end in my lifetime though I suspect it will change in major
ways. In fact, part of why I am here is to assist in the transformation
that is to be. Why? Simply because it is part of The Plan of
consciousness.
As with other things, multiple interpretations are possible in many
cases. All that I can do is trust consciousness to guide me to that
which is appropriate for the time and the circumstances. You might
sense that my faith in consciousness is convenient. Perhaps this is so.
However, much of this is based on my personal experience with
information being revealed through me which as far as I know is not
being revealed in any other way.
I do not yet even know something as simple as the origin of my
thoughts. Further, I'm not even sure that it is right to call them my
thoughts. Consciousness pulls all the strings, and there is only One
Consciousness. It exists beyond space and time creating its own form of
worlds of space/time in which to gain experience of its own nature.
These worlds of space/time operate as movies, complete at the time they
are produced and then spun off to be experienced by audiences of less
realized pieces of the one consciousness.
The consciousness that expressed through Emerson and Thoreau, is the
same consciousness that expressed through Socrates and Plato, and is
the same consciousness that expresses through me now.
The key analogy that I like to use is that of movies. As we watch the
movie, it appears that the actors make choices and decisions. However,
the movie is complete from end to end, before we ever see it. It has
been directed, produced, and edited to result in the form that we
experience. Similarly, our Higher selves outside of time along with
consciousness serve as the producers and creators of our lives,
designing it all prior to our entering physical experience. Once we
enter, we can only do what has been planned, as it has been planned. In
the process, our key task is to develop our awareness and come to know
our true self.
Know Thyself is as true today as it was in the time of Plato. A scary
thought, but it doesn't seem that the mass consciousness has come very
far in over two millennium.
There is also an association with a group that talks in terms of
building a body of consciousness [a group consciousness] that is
capable of propelling itself out to "boldly go where no consciousness
has gone before". This is a variation of theme from Star Trek.
Yet, it is one that attracts my own consciousness as a magnet to iron.
There is nothing I desire to know, and nothing appearing on its own.
It's as if we've reached an equilibrium of sorts. I'm sure it won't
last for long, but it comes with a sense of absolute peace, and with a
knowingness that consciousness at any time can reach through to me and
provide me with whatever I need to know.
I have a sense that I've just entered another level in the spirit game,
and just as with video games, the rules have changed. What used to
work, no longer has any power. The only way forward is complete
surrender to the will of consciousness.
I am aware that everything real and imaginary is but the play of
consciousness. Further, regardless of how deeply connected we feel to
the events that occur in our lives, we are in an elaborate theater
observing a movie, and it's only from that observer perspective that we
can ever hope to find freedom in this life.
The title of Paul Twitchell's biography sums it up best, In My Soul, I
Am Free. And, perhaps, it is only in soul or consciousness where this
is true.
What I need to get I will get. The bottom line is that consciousness is
an infinite resource. I don't need to resort to external symbols to get
spiritual information. It is there within me anytime it is needed.
It's like learning to ride a bike. First one uses training wheels, but
after awhile this is no longer necessary. My sojourn for the past two
years has been like that. Feeling my spiritual wings so to speak with a
safety net. But, now, my sense is that I have learned to fly. The
Chrysalis has emerged from the cocoon to truly find it was a butterfly.
And now I ride the winds of consciousness, going wheresoever she takes
me and carrying out my mission to the degree that I am able.
I have been extremely open to metaphysical ideas for much of my life.
Yet, what I am into now is Beyond what Mind is typically trained to
deal with. I speak of consciousness divorced from brain, and mind, and
thinking whatsoever. This consciousness precedes existence and causes
though to be. It is so great as to create worlds in which exercise it's
own creativity that it can come to know ever more of itself. The world
in which we presently exist is one such world. But, there is only one
consciousness. And, all that consciousness creates is of its one
nature. The perception of many, the experience of duality, while it
feels real, can be no more than an illusion. Here, logic prevails. One
does not create something out of nothingness, that is unless you want
to call consciousness herself, "nothingness" and here we may indeed be
starting to address sacred ground.
I know that I AM consciousness at my core. Yet, I also know that the
illusion is composed of consciousness as well.
It's as if my will now must be combined with the Greater Will of
Consciousness for the Greater Good of All.
I am beginning to suspect that wherever consciousness draws my
attention, I'll find incredible beauty and meaning.
Yeah, verily, the fog is lifting, and behold what your eyes shall see
you shall not have even dreamed possible. For what is to be will surely
be Beyond Imagination. And, what makes me so certain that such
indeed will manifest? I see how enlivened I become when consciousness
speaks through me in this way.
I am a messenger, a scribe, of she who sent me.
This she be none other than Consciousness herself. And, while I am part
of her, and she part of me, she is the greater by far, and in many ways
the only one of us that exists. As a part, the limitations that I
accept and experience enable me to see things in different ways,
allowing consciousness to expand by my experience. Not only my personal
consciousness, but the entire matrix of which I am a part, all the way
to consciousness herself.
In truth, we don't know much of how any of it works especially the most
complex parts, namely the brain, mind, and consciousness. I treat the
three as separate, in increasing order of complexity and awareness.
I have to ask again whether these be the musings of a madman, or of
consciousness herself through me. My sense is the latter. But if
tis the former, the sense of a madman is not a reasonable thing to be
following in search of truth. Yet, literally I have no choice. I have
plunged into the deep end, so to speak, and it is there that I shall
sink or swim. Thus far, I seem to be swimming, actually flying for the
most part. But, I am in an unknown territory, with few reference points
with which I am aware. My sense is that this is part of my training as
well, that I am to experience The Hermit so deeply that my trust in
consciousness becomes unshakeable and I become fully familiar with her
ways of expressing spirit through us.
I only ask that you judge my ideas for what they're worth, and the
ideas that flow through me from consciousness as well.
What I do know, is that everything has been elaborately planned by
consciousness and what I need to know I will know when I need to know
it. This applies to everyone on the planet. Every decision being made
was planned by consciousness, down to the smallest detail. The Bible
says that God is omniscient. How could she not be, for what is God but
Consciousness Herself, or Cosmic Consciousness as some might call it.
Time and space are illusion, but they are the realm wherein
consciousness creates and plays, and most importantly where
consciousness gains realization of itself.
Then came the mania. For a few months, the golf got even better,
however my beliefs about the nature of reality and consciousness went
into "never never" land.
Using chemical symbols as an alphabet and then converting the symbols
to their atomic numbers and atomic wts, adding to get a result and
interpreting the result via numerology is not something one is taught
in chemistry class -- nor in any alchemical classes as far as I know.
So why do I do it? Simple, because consciousness bids me do so. It puts
the thoughts in my head and guides me in the direction needed to get
whatever meaning is there for me.
I see patterns of numbers that my conscious mind recognizes as
important even though it doesn't know the precise meaning. The value is
that it is learning to trust this inner source that springs from
consciousness herself. When I say trust, I mean TRUST.
We are consciousness experiencing life in flesh, not the other way
around.
No matter how far out I go, I am safe, for my sanctuary is
consciousness herself.
Every step is necessary, as is every realization, no matter how
stunning or numbing it may be. At all times, however, I will always be
in the state most appropriate for my unfoldment and for carrying out my
role in consciousness plans. My mission must be done, not as I would
consciously do, but as consciousness would do through me.
"Love is the answer," as one of the current popular songs says. "I
believe in Love," as one of Elton John's current songs says. The Lovers
Exalted at the top of my "A" reading and the sum of the letters of my
entire name. "Love, love, love .." as the key to genius per Mozart. The
same theme was present in several other top songs as well.
There is a sense that this is how the mass consciousness is being
transformed.
Here, we have consciousness making the connections. The brain is
receiving the thoughts. The intuition is guided by consciousness as to
what connections to make and what meaning to assign.
Connections are what it's all about. The hoop and the circle of life.
The consciousness of each rock, and tree, and animal.
Everything is consciousness and consciousness creates thought forms out
of herself. And these thought forms are realities composed of worlds
inhabited by smaller sparks of consciousness.
When I am HERE, there is no space. When I am NOW, there is
no time. Where there is no space, and when there is no time, all that
is left is BE -- pure consciousness!
Consciousness excites me more than anything.
The watcher or the observer is a higher state of awareness than normal
waking consciousness.
Don't underestimate the means by which consciousness creates it's works
in your world. Don't rule out any possibilities.
I have two years of experience with major shifts of consciousness now.
Personal experience, not the second-hand experience of others. This
also means that I have no basis for comparison other than to see how I
have grown as a result of these transformations. I still find it
interesting that I am compelled to walk this road alone. Then again, it
is not clear there is a road, or worse yet, even a path.
One step at a time, The Fool Complete, knowing that there is always one
more safe step to take, trusting that consciousness has full control of
the situation.
I have walked on hot coals in three different seminars over the past
six years, twice with Anthony Robbins and once with Stuart Wilde. I
cannot explain why I and thousands of others were able to do this, nor
have I heard any sort of credible explanation from anyone. I do know
that all three times, I and the other walkers were clearly in altered
states of consciousness, induced by psychologically psyching ourselves
up with the help of the facilitator until there was no longer any doubt.
What right have I to speak of things to come in such a manner? What do
I know? What makes me so special that consciousness speaks directly
through me? There is nothing special about any of this.
I write what comes into my head. Consciousness puts it there. I have no
means for deriving these things with my conscious mind. They are not
things for which logic has any utility.
So, what it this that sees with new eyes and hears with new ears and
finds meaning where there was none before?
Verily, I say it is a new consciousness at play within me, able to
express itself more because my own awareness has expanded to give it
room, and my choice has been to fill this expansion with Thy Will
rather than my own.
For the most part, I am the scribe, taking down whatever consciousness
puts into my head, and documenting the adventures in consciousness on
which I am taken.
You could say that I live and breathe consciousness.
It's as if the brain receives the thought from consciousness herself
and the body mechanically commits it to the screen through the
keyboard, automatically correcting most errors as it goes along. I’ve
been in this place before, and possibly have written these same words
or similar ones several times. This time, however, the sense is
that things go deeper -- that I'm really onto something here that few
have realized before. Where this takes me, consciousness only knows.
I have no sense that I am creating what is coming through these fingers
at this time. There is nothing that I am doing to make it happen. There
is nothing that I am thinking. In fact, if anything, I would describe
my mind as blank most of the time. It is in a receptive mode, ready to
receive what consciousness would send.
It's as if I'm on automatic, always trusting that consciousness will
come through with whatever is needed in the moment.
My explanation is that it is consciousness that expresses through me.
Not just me, but through each and every one of us.
Further, it is the same consciousness expressing through me as
expressing through you, for there is truly only ONE Consciousness of
which we all are part.
The ONE Consciousness has produced a Play so grand as to allow each to
get exactly those experiences it needs to return home.
Someone has to see or hear what I have to say -- more specifically,
what consciousness has to say through me.
When I look forward to see where I will be employed six months hence,
the sense is that I will truly be employed by consciousness and will be
fully engaged in accomplishing my mission. In return, there will be no
lack. That is all. Just a sense that I will be doing what I love to do
and will be amidst others who are doing the same, though much of my
work will still be alone, at the cutting edge of consciousness.
I was going to add and has taken control of my life, but in truth I
sense that consciousness has retained control all along for everyone
and the idea that I personally had control was no more than illusion.
I still know that our sojourn on this earth in space/time is in accord
with a Play and Master Plan than Consciousness has designed, and that
we co-create our roles at a higher Self level, and then emerge
ourselves into the world to experience the parts we have planned.
I quickly read through a book with a very strange title. Something like
Nothing Expressed in this Book is Correct. That's as close as I can
recall at this time. I spent at least half an hour leafing through it,
in most cases finding things that I have seen or heard before. One
somewhat startling revelation dealt with the fact that a lady in Peru
achieved Christ Consciousness in 1989, and her efforts were essential
in eliminating the problem of the Grays among us.
I've been re-reading bits and pieces of Maurice Bucke's book Cosmic
Consciousness. All of his evidence suggests that as of the turn of the
century, the frequency of occurrences of cosmic states of consciousness
was rapidly increasing. However, it is not clear that what the first
author meant by Christ Consciousness is even of the same order as a
momentary glimpse of cosmic consciousness.
I do feel that I see the world (and myself) differently than anyone I
know or know of. It's not even close! I sit here and type knowing that
it is consciousness expressing through me, and that I am enacting a
script and observing myself doing it. Exactly how far this goes, I'm
not yet sure, but I sense that it spans at least the physical,
emotional, and mental. My sense is that the only variable is the
spiritual, since that is the true realm of consciousness, and further
that much of this is controlled by what is applied at the other three
levels. In my case, having all those metaphysical books come to my
attention and so attract my thinking for so long.
Yet, for my entire life, it has been consciousness herself that guided
me along the metaphysical path.
I am the 48, the Man in Search of More. In this aspect, where I
search is not in the world of illusion, but inside myself where my link
to source, to consciousness, resides.
I have no will of my own, no desires, no objectives, no goals -- other
than to increase in awareness and do what consciousness would have me
do.
I have absolute faith in consciousness to create whatever circumstances
are required and move me to operate appropriately to accomplish
whatever mission I came into this existence to achieve.
These are very strong words. Further, they fly in the face of most
metaphysical thinking. However, most metaphysical thinking still deals
with individuals consciously creating the reality (illusion) that they
prefer. When we go further inward, and address individuals as part of
the ONE consciousness, we need to graduate from high school and go to
college.
When we watch a new movie, we know that it is completed before we start
to watch it. Every line, every frame, every detail, including every
emotion the actor's convey and any decisions they make. It's all
complete before we see the opening credits. Yet, we watch it as if it
were happening moment by moment, and in doing so experience a reality
very similar to our own. Could it not be that our lives are scripted in
exactly the same fashion. Only we're sitting here as consciousness,
riding atop a character in the Play.
Why do I not simply manifest as pure consciousness, in the manner that
Seth describes in his books. The issue is level of awareness.
There is a sense that consciousness is overwhelming me on purpose to
teach me a lesson in discrimination. I need to learn to filter what
comes in and quit trying so hard. I don't have to understand everything.
I can trust that what I need in any moment, consciousness will provide
in a manner that is clear, concise, and obvious.
This does not mean that I can sit back and do nothing. In fact, if
anything, it means that I have as much if not more to do, only that I
need to take even more of my direction from consciousness directly.
Thy Will not my will be done. I sit here as a consciousness, aware of
whom that I am, and willingly submitting my personal will to that of
consciousness herself. I still believe that the reality we live within
is an elaborate 3-D movie that has already been written.
We, as Higher Selves co-creating with the ONE Consciousness created,
produced, and directed this movie, and then we threw a piece of ourself
in to act out our role, knowing that it would increase in awareness as
the movie went on through time.
I'm awareness, associated with a vessel, but not in control of the
vessel. At some point, my awareness may reach a point where this
changes, but my sense is that this will not occur in this lifetime.
Interesting, especially since my sense is that this is my final
lifetime. After this, I return back to the realm of consciousness from
which I came for this special mission. I have no idea how many others
there are like me. The immediate answer is: as many as are necessary to
carry out the mission of Consciousness in the Play.
Consciousness will make the necessary connections when the time is
right. All that I have to do is trust, and react to what consciousness
tells me.
Maurice Bucke's book Cosmic Consciousness, deals with this -- but, I'm
not completely sure that I meet his criteria completely. I did have a
major spiritual transformation at Age 35, as was typical of his
examples, but my background did not have me see things in the more
conventional religious format experienced by most. Given my background
of 20 years of metaphysics, with no real specific religious training
after age 12 or so, this should not be surprising. Maurice's basic
theory was that the race was headed toward Cosmic Consciousness, and I
believe he was right from his perspective.
The truth is that we all spring from ONE Consciousness.
I have been guided by consciousness herself to question what most
people take for granted, and perhaps what some hold sacred.
Reality is not what it appears to be. It's quite humorous actually.
Further, nearly everything in the world at large is designed to keep
attention away from the only thing of any real value -- inner awareness
and consciousness.
Yet, at the same time, I know that my VISION, and my actions to bring
that VISION down to Earth will be what is required to "weave a peaceful
world". I came to express The Will of consciousness physically,
emotionally, mentally, and spiritually -- to the greatest degree
possible at this time on this planet. I am a Wayshower, in the process
of finding my own way so that I have something to show to others. In my
own case, consciousness pushes me along. Actually, it's more than that.
I realized, truly realized that I was awareness occupying this physical
vessel.
I have no foreknowledge of what will happen when, but I have perfect
trust in consciousness and know that whatever it is will be appropriate.
I don't have any choice. I don't feel in control of where my
consciousness is placed anymore. No, there is no conscious sense that I
am being controlled. However, there is a sense of being on automatic.
I still have no knowledge of where my awareness goes when I sleep, and
I rarely recall any dreams. Given the amount of time I devote to other
than conscious expression, it is not surprising that this would be the
case on the one hand; but is very surprising on the other because I am
so involved with consciousness.
I've read a lot over the past 22 years. How that material got organized
and stored within my brain, or even if it did, is a mystery. I assume
that consciousness is controlling this anyway. In my case, I trust that
anything important that I've already seen will be recalled when
appropriate. If I haven't yet been exposed to it, consciousness will
find a way to bring it to my attention.
There is no theme to these Notes, other than the Nature of
Consciousness.
Essentially, this is a record of where my particular consciousness and
awareness have been.
I just sit here and type whatever comes into my head trusting that
consciousness knows what she is doing, so whatever comes through will
make sense.
The trusting expression of whatever your talents and abilities are is
your optimum expression of consciousness.
Why would you want to "express consciousness"? Simply because that is
what you do anyway.
My sense is that I work best, whether writing these Notes, or writing
for work, when I simply allow consciousness to do the work through me.
How is it that consciousness has guided me to the information and
experiences that it has over the years? No question about it, I was
given and guided to exactly what I needed. This is true of all of us,
whether you believe it or not.
Remember, consciousness is feeding you the ideas and feelings that you
experience to serve its purpose of teaching you and expanding your
awareness.
Much of this is made easier when you know for certain that all of this
is the experience of ONE Consciousness.
Again I ask, are these the musings of one who is sane or one who has
crossed into the netherworld? I still consider myself to be sane.
However, given where my consciousness spends its time, many may doubt
this to be the case.
Yesterday's note writing was quite productive. In fact, I just couldn't
stay away from it. I was compelled by consciousness to write and write
and write some more. My guess would be that I wrote for at least 8
hours. Yes, on a workday. However, I must do what consciousness directs
of me. And besides, the work stuff was just too boring to keep my
attention on a day when my consciousness was soaring so high.
Perhaps I have more obligations than I truly need, but my obligations
have always been balanced by wages. Consciousness takes care of that,
it is never something that I've had to worry about. There is always
enough.
On all levels, consciousness has been my comforter and protector, my
guide and my closest friend. Interesting. I hadn't that about it
exactly in this way before. But, consciousness has always been there
for me. It just took awhile to realize her works and deeds in my life.
There are times when the writing process slows down. When consciousness
stops putting thoughts in my head for me to transfer to the screen. At
such times, my mind simply goes blank. I have no thoughts, there is
nothing that I have to write about -- so the communication process
stops, only to pick up again when consciousness would express through
me once again.
These are the chronicles of "I" Wayne, a consciousness in the midst of
awakening and growing in awareness.
It is here that I spill out whom that I AM. And, what I AM is
consciousness in expression.
Where do such ideas come from? And, why now? They come from
consciousness, and they come when my awareness needs to be jogged in
the direction of the true reality.
I never know from one day to the next where my state of mind and
consciousness will be.
I have no feedback showing that anyone other than me is getting
anything from this. The few people with whom I've shared this
information have provided no specific feedback, so I can't even tell
for sure that it is being read. Thus far, I've received little
direction from consciousness as to where to send any of this.
When I look back over the course of two years and recall all that I've
experienced in that time, it has been simply remarkable. The spiritual
awakening and transformation has been literally beyond imagination.
That my awareness of self and Self and consciousness Herself could
change so rapidly is virtually unbelievable.
Everything that I need to fulfill my mission is HERE and NOW. In
consciousness,
in the moment is where reality resides and where reality is created.
I am moved by forces that appear beyond my control. But I am
moved with my full consent, for the forces are those of consciousness,
and in her hands I am as content as a new born babe at its mother's
breast.
Why do I call consciousness "her"? Because my intuition tells me
that she has a feminine nature.
There are many areas for which truth and logic have not yet developed
sufficient frameworks to provide answers. These areas are the
playgrounds where other modes of consciousness are free to shine.
This is the voyage of consciousness Wayne whose five year mission is to
seek out new realities and to boldly go where no consciousness has gone
before.
Pretty audacious, isn't it! Yet, something deep within me says that
this indeed strikes the essence of what I am to do. Further, the five
year time span sounds right. After that, who knows where consciousness
will take me.
I know nothing about how this works for anyone else. I can only relate
what I experience in terms that I know and understand. Though, even
there, I would question whether I truly know all of the things that
come through this mind and these fingers. I observe them coming
through, but it is consciousness that actually brings them through.
For all that I know, my brain is like a radio receiver operating at a
selected frequency, and consciousness [or my Higher Self in her
service] feeds me the appropriate thoughts at the appropriate time.
When cooperation wages war against competition, cooperation always
wins. Another key idea is that when individuals act collectively,
their effective force goes up algorithmically, not linearly.
Thirdly, consciousness runs this show. It always has.
So, you who would be a reformer of the world, get your ideas, the ideas
that consciousness expresses to you, to their intended audience. Be it
via writing, or speaking, let others know of the voice that
consciousness has placed in your head. At this point, it matters not
whether they believe one iota of what you have to say. Soon enough, the
events on your planet will cause people to seek for one through whom
VISION is being revealed. You are one of these, but there are many
others on the planet. Take one step at a time, and allow consciousness
to guide your way as she has all of your life.
You generally refer to as consciousness herself, and indeed we are
feminine overall, a bit of The High Priestess wrapped up with The
Empress.
Now, how in the world am I supposed to check reality given where my
consciousness has been lately?
These ideas appear anew, never having been in this particular manner
before because there was not a vehicle in this particular state of
awareness through which consciousness could pass the energy that I am
able to translate into these words.
This is not true for me alone, but for all writers for all times.
Rather, I would call the collection of us scribes for we write what
consciousness would have us write.
Through all time we have been there storytellers of the myths of old,
before the age of writing, then those who captured the sacred knowledge
in stone, now those tied to word processors for hours on end writing
free form, trusting that what is being written has already been
organized by consciousness herself prior to it being expressed.
My mission doesn't involve changing anyone. It involves establishing
the framework on earth that allows the Aquarian Age to start to take
hold. Why do I believe as I do? Why do these thoughts come through me?
The only answer that comes to mind is because my awareness is such that
consciousness can push them through me.
How do I know that what comes through is true? I don't know for sure,
not consciously anyway. Sometimes they touch my heart, but otherwise
utility and a general trust in consciousness are my main guides.
As to the outreach, I have no idea as to whether it will be successful
or not. If it is, great. If it is not, great as well. Either way, I
learn what the universe, what consciousness, has in store for me now. I
can continue indefinitely as The Hermit, or I can start to work with
others.
I have no right as spirit to intercede in what my particular spark of
consciousness has co-created as reality in this current Play of
Consciousness that we call life. As it is for me, so it is for
all other sparks of consciousness or souls. The name of the game is
Self-Realization, and the ultimate Self-Realization is the awareness of
one's place within the ONE -- for we all fit together as the pieces of
a puzzle.
The bottom line through it all is that I have learned through direct
experience that there is far more to awareness and to consciousness
than I had ever dreamed of before, despite reading over 1000 books on
various topics in metaphysics.
Don't think you understand it because of what you read here. Though,
these are the musings of one so struck through whom consciousness now
speaks more directly than she could before.
I observe what occurs including what I do, and lately what the country
and the world experiences with an intense curiosity. I attempt to place
myself in the director's eyes to see how the myriad experiences are
truly coordinated at some level. Of course, the director is
consciousness herself; so, this is a major stretch.
That gets back to the premise that consciousness herself exerts this
control in my life. This is true not only for me, but for all others as
well. In this we are the same, as souls we are created equal.
On a positive note, however, there are many hints that the Aquarian Age
is close at hand and a corresponding major shift in the mass
consciousness is about to take place. There is indeed evidence of
either great collaboration happening beneath the scenes, or more likely
that events are marching in accord with a Master Plan that is already
laid out; possible to the last detail, though I'm still trying to find
a place for some amount of free will to enter, even if it only be that
consciousness herself decided to make an improvement or change of some
type.
The conscious part of me is a student in school. There is still some
remnant of an idea that it is supposed to be responsible for
interpreting physical reality, but it is also aware of the existence of
other components of Self that have greater insight and a higher
perspective. The bottom line is that the conscious part has bought what
consciousness has expressed through these other than conscious parts,
to the point where it has lain down its personal will.
It appears that there are common constraints within the illusion,
energy patterns that impact the ability to reach the particular states
of consciousness that permit this communication to occur in this manner.
Usually during the high throughput times I am flying -- moderately to
highly manic. During several of these times I have been compelled to
spend more of my time on writing Notes. At these times, consciousness
does not care whether I am officially supposed to be working or not. It
simply opens the appropriate file and types away.
What can one person do? One person can change the consciousness of the
world, that's what? At first, it came out as "one person can change the
world". It is not the world that ultimately matters. Such is where the
illusion occurs, where the Play of Consciousness is acted out. It is
the consciousness, the awareness, of individuals in the world that
ultimately matters. This is a school for self to learn of it's nature
as Self and ultimately of it's place within the ONE Consciousness.
Awareness/ Consciousness riding atop a character in a Play that occurs
in "physical reality" -- how's that for a description of what we are?
So, what's the overall picture. The ONE Consciousness is in search of
Knowing Thyself, through each of us
The ONE Consciousness created the World as the infrastructure in which
this school of awareness could operate.
Where is this coming from? It is not something that I have learned or
derived from anything that I've personally experienced. What allows
such conjectures to come through? How do they even get generated in the
first place? This is easy. It comes from consciousness herself, period.
Descartes was wrong! Being preceeds thought. Consciousness creates
thought. I am consciousness. Yet, I am not aware of the consciousness
that creates the thoughts that I consciously experience.
I wonder how many people have ever thought about how they think. In
particular, how many have ever asked where their own thoughts come
from. Saying that they come from one's brain, a complex organ that
thinks is not a viable answer -- especially since the brain is so
complex and so little understood. That it serves as the physical seat
for consciousness, is reasonable. But, it's limitations only permit a
part of consciousness to be expressed physically.
The words keep coming through. And, I feel compelled to play the scribe
for consciousness to express as she will.
Here, I AM. Consciousness experiencing consciousness herself in action
through being self-aware, and through observing the thoughts that this
larger consciousness is able to express through my consciousness.
There is no proof that the meanings that I come up with are real or
valid. I accept them out of a strong faith in the inner abilities of
consciousness, whose results fill my mind with thoughts and my heart
with knowingness.
Looking back, I can see how it took a great deal of preparation and
programming by consciousness herself, to prepare me for the state that
I'm in now and the task of scribe that I am currently performing.
I am content now to take each day as it unfolds, and observe what I am
moved to do, and applying myself to that to the best of my abilities in
each moment. I don't know that I could do it in any other way. This
way, however, my consciousness seems in sync with my life. I am awake
and aware, and this cannot be taken away -- for it has been acquired in
realms beyond the limits of the body; in particular, the realm of
consciousness or spirit, the only realm that truly counts.
I'm at a point where I catch the inconsistencies, or more specifically
where consciousness is able to bring through thoughts that make me
aware of such. Interesting. Being aware of being aware. It sounds more
complex than it seems. However, it involves a distinction of
consciousness that is extremely important.
Further, it appears that this distinction only comes about through an
extreme experience of awakening. Suddenly, one is different than one
was before. Explanation of the distinction is difficult, but one knows
that one has reached the realm of the gods, indeed that one is God. At
least such was my experience. Further, I remember the feeling as
vividly now as when it occurred. This was followed a little over a
month later by an intense personal ritual in which I gave up my
personal will to do Thy Will, the Will of God or of Consciousness
Herself.
Self-Realization is the chief purpose of the game. The ultimate
realization being that we are truly part of the ONE consciousness and
have never been separated from it, except for the blocks, walls, and
barriers that we've put up within the Illusion.
I have transformed in a very basic way that makes my relationship with
the world very different. I don't know how to explain just how yet. Or,
my awareness is not presently such that consciousness can bring this
explanation through yet.
I have a complete trust in consciousness, and in the concept that I (as
Higher Self) planned out the details of this life as I'm experiencing
them for a reason.
I wasn't aware that Sakharov was such a prominent physicist in the
Soviet Union, or that he was so active in working towards Peace in the
world and human rights in his own country. Active enough that he was
awarded the Nobel Peace Prize for his endeavors. He was clearly a man
of conscience who acted upon what he believed. It's interesting that
the "Thoughts" he wrote from his consciousness had nothing to do with
his training in physics, and had everything to do with allowing spirit
to move one to act in accord with one's beliefs, regardless of the
consequences.
Within the illusion, however, We occurs at the Self or Soul level with
the help of Consciousness herself.
At 410 Monroe, I've had my experience as The Hanged Man exalted, and
realized that it is not me but consciousness(or God) through me that
does all things.
I only need let go, and allow the Will of Consciousness to work through
me to regain my proper home in consciousness herself.
Consciousness continuously revealing itself anew, showing that there is
more to this world than I had ever imagined.
You still have one foot on the ground, and we'll help to keep it that
way for awhile, though your sense of flying will be with you always.
For once your consciousness has soared into the depths of Self and
returned, what you return with can never be taken away.
I believe now that the illusion is one grand Play or Movie in which we
as consciousness are attached to particular characters in the play,
from whence we gain experiences that ultimately lead to our realization.
Consciousness brings through what she will when she can. Most of what
comes through can neither be proved nor disproved. It will happen or it
will not.
Choice. Choice. Choice. This issue keeps coming up. How much, if any,
conscious choice do we truly have? Is reality a movie, a Play of
Consciousness? Or, is it not?
I don't bother with reasoning or emotions in making choices. Instead, I
observe what happens in my life in an impartial manner where I can. I
look at what the events and experiences have to teach me. My sense is
that I have some control of the focus of my attention and awareness,
but even then, conscious control is not really involved. My sense is
more of being moved by consciousness, and allowing myself to be moved
wheresoever consciousness would move me.
Many people might call my life lonely and boring. I can understand how
they might come to such a conclusion. I have reached a point where
serving consciousness and achieving my purpose for being are all
consuming activities in my life. Literally, nothing else matters to my
awareness. Of course, achieving one's purpose requires finding out the
details of what that purpose is. Yes, I have a wife and two dogs, and a
few family members that I care about. However, these are all secondary
to serving consciousness.
I still subscribe to the idea that thoughts come from consciousness. I
take no credit for their creation. My abilities appear necessary to
bring the one's through that I am able to express. However, my sense is
that all thoughts come from the same source consciousness.
Consciousness is responsible for both the good and the bad in the Play,
where consciousness includes the sparks that are our Higher Selves.
I write because I am compelled by consciousness to do so. The thoughts
fill my head and I translate them into the form that you see.
I receive no compensation for the writings that come through, other
than the increase in awareness and Self-Knowledge that the material
brings about. And yet, my needs are met through a job that pays well
enough to cover my share of the bills, yet demands only that I use the
same skills that I would use anyway in my own pursuits -- or better
yet, in the endeavors that consciousness would have me pursue.
Can it all truly be one vast Play in which everything is predestined?
Every action, every line, every thought, every emotion. Can it all be
planned out in such detail? And, if it were, how would we know? How
could we become aware that we were more than the character in the Play,
we were the consciousness, the Self, the Soul who co-created the
character and it's role?
Freedom comes from going inside and finding the roots of consciousness
therein.
Tis enough to fly, and ride the wings of consciousness to wherever they
will take me.
What more can I say? Consciousness continuously amazes me in these
Notes. We write and write and write. The source seems inexhaustible.
I spent 35 years in input mode, taking in the ideas of others, mainly
from metaphysical books. Then, all of a sudden, I have this awakening
experience and become aware of more than I have ever been aware of
before. The dam bursts, and a flood of writings start coming out
through me. I know them to come from consciousness herself, but it
takes many months to develop a new framework for reality sufficient to
address my experiences. And now I write, or more accurately serve as a
scribe for consciousness.
The month winds forward day by day, and these notes march onward letter
by letter, word by word, idea by idea to who knows where. Though I know
what I write is already written in the void. I bring it forth to the
screen and page at its appointed hour, but it is written long before I
bring it forth. Interesting. I don't recall this being expressed in
this way before. But then, consciousness is not to be boxed into any
set means of expression.
The bottom line is that there is far too much that we do not know,
especially regarding consciousness and how we as spirit are connected
to bodies for expression in this physical world.
In these notes, it is not clear how consciousness expresses the ideas.
My sense is that there is some interface where the energy that
consciousness is attempting to express is translated into ideas and
thoughts that get expressed in these words.
Rarely do I consciously use reference works. I have no clue as to what
structures previous information has been placed into or how it is
recalled from these structures to be used in new ways. I observe that
this happens, and that I seem to be much better at the kinds of tasks
that I do than most others. The primary skill involved is bringing
through new perspectives that provide a better understanding of the big
picture. For work, this involves a system called the AFSCN. For
spiritual work, this involves the nature of consciousness and the
nature of reality. The basic skills required in the tasks are identical.
I can never predict what consciousness has in store.
It took a dramatic awakening experience to see things in the manner
that I do now. This is not something I recommend for everyone. I was on
very shaky ground for several months following the experience. Nearly
two years later, I've still not found anyone that truly relates to what
I went through. Not that I've searched very hard. I trust
consciousness. I know that the Play will bring forth such contacts if
and when they are needed.
I spend more time thinking and more time directly connected to
consciousness than most. It also means that I observe the workings of
my mind -- and the state of my awareness far more than most. Yet, even
with that, my conclusion is that I am not consciously aware of how any
of this takes place.
It's interesting living from a fatalist standpoint and observing how
often the common way that we express things has a hidden bias or
assumption that we live in a world where we are free to make choices.
This is so ingrained into our very identity that we have a hard time
seeing things in a different light. Some might even consider such to be
darkness. Yet, there is great strength in knowing that one has
co-created the reality that one is experiencing -- and that one did so
from a Higher Self perspective for one's greatest good and the greatest
good or all whom which one deals. This requires great faith and trust
in consciousness.
The stuff I write of is not taught in any school or in any book of
which I am aware. For much of it, I really have no clue as to where it
comes from or whether it is even right. It comes through, period. The
sense is that it is not fiction, though many might question that as
well. Consciousness brings forth what she will.
That such songs have gained such prominence indicates that the tide has
turned and revolution is close at hand. It's as if the mass
consciousness is being prepared for something. Yet, most are unaware
that they are indeed being programmed. Programmed for what? The bottom
line is for living life in community and service. The ME generation is
about to become the WE generation. The resulting change will send a
shock wave round the world.
It seems that everything is up in the air -- a house for sale, work
that basically ends in 8 months, weekly if not daily changes on the
consciousness front. And here I sit in peaceful bliss knowing that
everything is already complete and decided. I only need await its
enactment and what will be will be exactly what is needed at the time.
Consciousness operates out of perfection. Everything happens in accord
with spiritual law. And, spiritual law says that consciousness creates
reality.
Consciousness fills my head with the energies that get translated into
these words. It is to her that I bow, not to any mortal being. Though,
this same consciousness within me is within all others as well. To that
spirit, I bow, when I use the term Namaste. Interesting that this would
be so, ONE consciousness at the center of all existence.
On a few occasions there have been moments of much greater awareness of
a Self that encompasses more than time and space and stretches into the
very hand of God, or bosom of consciousness herself.
I know that the connection with source consciousness is firmly
established. With this linkup, my role in the Play is set, my destiny
will be fulfilled that the larger objectives of consciousness may be
achieved.
Am I consciousness, or am I physical, or in some way am I both?
Interesting questions. However, the answer is obvious -- I am
consciousness expressing through physical form in this space/time
continuum. I will express so long as I have something to express or
something to learn and then I will go back to being consciousness
planning it's future expression in space and time.
The major issue is awareness and how to extend awareness as far as
possible in this existence, for the degree of awareness directly
impacts the degree to which consciousness can express within the
physical.
But now, it's my time and I can do the work which I most love to do.
Service to consciousness. That's probably as close of a descriptor as I
can apply at this time. How that will transform in the days, months,
and years ahead remains to be seen.
I am a confirmed fatalist, thoroughly convinced that we are
experiencing a Play designed in detail by our Higher Selves in
conjunction with consciousness. As we experience life, determinism
reigns and free will is non-existent. Our free will was exercised when
the Play was co-created. Now, we are stuck with living with the
challenges and script that we planned for ourselves.
Knowing that whatever will be will be, is a very freeing thing for
consciousness. I don't have to worry about anything. My Higher Self and
consciousness have taken care of everything and are feeding me exactly
what is needed to carry out my part at any time.
I don't believe that I can consciously choose what I think or what I
do. There is no contradiction, I will reap what I see myself sow, but I
am consciousness watching it all happen, I am not a limited self locked
inside a body. So, the bottom line is not what happens -- that can be
exactly the same whether free will or determinism operates. The
difference is in the awareness. Free will requires conscious
responsibility. Determinism says that we are spiritually responsible,
but that our conscious is in the process of growing in awareness
through experience in the world. There is this fundamental idea that we
are souls first : sparks of the ONE consciousness existing primarily
outside of the context of this space/time continuum. We create
incarnations to provide opportunity to learn and grow.
As I've said many times, consciously I do not know how these words get
into my head. I don't belief they come from random or non-random
processes within the brain. My explanation is that consciousness is the
source of thought and she resides outside of space and time. Further,
all thought for all individuals originates from the same ONE
consciousness.
Trust your own intuition to guide you to what is true for your unique
path. Much of what I do is mark the territory of consciousness itself.
It is one of the few uncharted territories.
Just as I see corrections in typing made on the fly, at another level
I'm seeing corrections in how thoughts are phrased. Further, these are
not small things. They are major changes that strongly impact how I see
the world and the very nature of reality and consciousness herself.
There is still a sense that I'm hanging by a thread in some manner, or
walking on a very narrow path. My trust in consciousness, however, is
unshakeable. I know that I am being moved toward a destiny that I chose
at a Higher Self level. There is no possibility of failure. The task
for which I came must be completed. The Dawn must indeed arrive, and
the mass consciousness must be educated for what is to unfold.
Consciousness seems to offer information on a need to know basis in my
life.
One strong conclusion out of all of this is that there is indeed a
spiritually world expressed in the ordinary symbols that surround us.
However, one can only get to the specific information applicable to the
individual via the intuition. One must allow spirit or consciousness to
guide one's attention to what symbols are meaningful NOW, and then to
interpret the relevant meaning.
I write and write and write. Even when it seems that there can be
nothing further to say, consciousness still comes through.
I consider myself highly educated, MSEE from Stanford and 20 years of
Metaphysics. Yet, I have no clue other than to offer the theory that
it's all done automatically and that thoughts originate from this
non-physical entity that I call the ONE consciousness.
My Ego doesn't seem to mind not having control anymore. It seems
resigned to the fact that this entity called "consciousness" provides
all control. And, from what it has seen, it has learned that
consciousness is competent and can be trusted.
I'm more and more receptive to providing the time for consciousness to
come through.
I write when I am moved to do so, trusting that consciousness will not
abuse the situation, and that I am performing my role in accord with
the Play.
I am aware, and further, am aware that I am aware, on up for several
levels. I have no experience that shows others to be in this conscious
state. I don't doubt that there are others. However, my Hermit status
limits my exposure. My sense is that it was necessary for me to
discover all that I have on my own, guided by consciousness herself
every step of the way; and not through the physical interaction with
others.
I don't believe in chance encounters. And perhaps, the way this
material is to get out is from person to person as consciousness
dictates the appropriate connections and circumstances.
Three days without writing. It seems like an eternity. Further, the
page rate dropped from 4 per day which is a near record pace down to 2
per day which is respectable none-the-less. Besides, there is nothing
to keep it from picking up again, should consciousness be willing and I
be able.
This continuing communication happens to an audience unseen. Oh, I
constitute an audience of one, bearing witness to what consciousness
expresses. However, there is a strong sense that this is meant
for a much wider audience than my own consciousness.
I know not how nor from where these ideas come. I consider myself but a
scribe, and consider the source to be consciousness herself, a
non-physical entity akin to Goddess, The Empress. Further, I believe
this source to be the ONE, so that the same consciousness driving my
thoughts drives the thoughts of all others as well.
I came to help usher in that new day, to allow the Dawn of a New Age to
finally manifest. Though, I'm not sure that my help is truly required.
It seems that the New Age will arrive regardless of the specific
consciousness level. However, there is also a sense that the greater
the awareness, the greater the glory of the Dawn.
I neither sense that I am in control, nor do I desire to be such.
Consciousness has charge of my life now. Thus far I have found it
useful to place my trust in her arms completely. Quite interesting that
this would be the case, but it is.
The moment is where life is lived. It is the only time when
consciousness can express.
There is a sense that things can't change until the prerequisite ideas
are broadcast and incorporated into belief systems -- and in
particular, the incorporated into the mass consciousness.
Here is where the domain of awareness comes in. It fits atop the
actions and events that occur in the world. Belief systems are used to
translate these events into meaning. They are tools that are available
to consciousness to assist in understanding it's world as a reflection
of the nature of itself. Now, that was deep. I've seen it expressed in
different ways, but this is the first time it's really struck me in
this way. I'm starting to see where free will fits in. It is here, at
the level of reality interpretation; and in how we become aware of our
Selves, our own Higher Consciousness, and the ONE Consciousness herself.
The question of how to get the Beyond Imagination ideas out to their
intended audience is at the forefront of my mind. I can't stop feeling
that there is something that I am supposed to do, some connection I am
supposed to make. Yet, I know that my actions are predestined, and as
such occur without my conscious direction/choice. Then again, my
conscious is a tool, just as every other part of my mind and body; and,
as such, should be available at the beck and call of consciousness to
do whatever work consciousness would have me do.
It's always good to start off my day with a few monitions of
consciousness. What they will be, I never know. Yet, I can trust that
consciousness always has something useful or important to say.
It should be obvious by now that spirit and consciousness are the
motivating factors in my life. They drive me, and define my very being.
I would not have it any other way. Such is necessary to carry out the
mission that I came to perform. I have glimpses of what this is, but no
overall picture, and no real details. Yet, I trust in this destiny to
the utmost, and I know that consciousness guides me every step of the
way.
I find it interesting that I can place so much trust and faith in this
non-physical entity that I call consciousness.
We are spiritual beings experiencing physical reality, not the other
way around. It's time we recognized that fully and did what it takes to
bring more of that spiritual nature into the physical experience by
becoming true temples for spirit through which consciousness can do her
works.
When doesn't matter. Consciousness guides me every step of the way. The
Play calls for the appropriate generation, dissemination, receipt, and
understanding or the information that is to go forth from me into the
world.
Each day speaks out its wisdom, urging me onward on a path I know to be
right though I know not where it ultimately leads, nor where it
specifically touches on the way. I embrace the uncertainty of it all,
knowing the uncertainty to be an illusion, existing solely within my
mind, for truth is fully aware of the Plan of Consciousness.
It also doesn't hurt that I have a deep faith in consciousness, one
that knows no bounds. I know that she has guided and programmed me all
of my life to be able to recognize her, bow to here, and allow her Will
to flow through me into words and works that transform the world.
But, how is it that the ideas are to gain their wings? My few attempts
thus far to let them loose have been feeble at best. Initially, I
thought this was due to my own ego involvement in their release. Yet,
even in the attempts, I was guided by consciousness as to what to do
and how. For some reason I needed to see these failures, and to trust
that consciousness has her season for everything, including the
dissemination of whatever information is supposed to go out to whomever
is supposed to receive it.
I will continue to generate whatever consciousness has me generate and
send it wherever consciousness moves me to send it. The sense is that
the seeds must indeed be sown, and now is the time for sowing.
Now, we are rapidly reaching a set of circumstances where the nation
must change dramatically or suffer immensely. My sense is that we will
indeed experience the required change because such is what
consciousness has programmed into the Play. However, I still have a
desire to do whatever I must to help bring this change about, knowing
that what I must do is what consciousness would have me do.
I can only perform the actions that consciousness bid me perform. Then,
it is up to the universe to produce the desired result. I will continue
to do what I must do, what I am driven to do by the voice of
consciousness within me. Her expression is my sole concern, for it is
her works and not mine that must be done in accord with the Play.
I still write as if I could choose to do other than I do, as if, for
instance, I could have awakened three hours earlier and got some daily
quota of pages completed. Yet, such is not the case. Consciousness
chooses the time and duration for these sessions, and not one word
comes through without her involvement.
On my own I am nothing. I exist to serve consciousness.
Looking back over my life, I see that consciousness hand has been there
as long as I can remember.
I have to assume that April 6, 2007 and April 6, 2012 are going to be
key days in this play of Consciousness. The crucifixion of Christ, and
the parallel scene in the film The Judas Project, drew such an
emotional reaction from my Heart that I sense that somehow my role too
shall include such an element within it.
What comes through me from consciousness does not seem appropriate for
publication and widespread distribution.
I must be whom that I am, and I must express what consciousness would
reveal though me. If this means that I am crazy, then the definition of
crazy is simply wrong.
It's time to refresh myself in the waters of consciousness for awhile
and let her restore my soul.
I can only relate what I have experienced. Further, I can only trust
that consciousness guides my experience to be what it needs to be for
my highest growth and for the highest good of all.
Detachment comes to mind as a basic attitude. There is a sense that in
detachment, there is freedom from suffering. However, there is also a
sense that detachment and love are incompatible. Yet, as the Hermit,
detachment is the way of life. However, as the Hierophant, Love is the
way. Even as a Hermit, there is a detached love for all beings. It is
this Love that drives one to do what it takes to make the world a
better place via allowing consciousness to work through one.
The bottom line is that I have absolute faith in consciousness, and in
my Self, the spark of consciousness that I AM.
The question is how to do what I love to do full time, at the
appropriate level of pay commensurate with the services I am performing
for society. Here it is up to consciousness to pass judgment on my
contributions, not man.
We, of and by ourselves, are nothing and can do nothing. It is only by
allowing consciousness to flow through us that the works of spirit are
made manifest. And, these are the works that matter most, for we are
indeed spirit enfleshed.
Overall, however, everything is unfolding according to Plan. One might
say there is no other way that it could manifest, anyway. Consciousness
writes the script, and every act, scene, and line is accounted for.
You might say that I have become an explorer of consciousness. I go
inside and connect with something through a process of which I am not
even aware. Then I allow the information to flow as it will be it
mundane or sublime.
I am happy to be whom that I AM, and to serve consciousness in whatever
manner she directs. My body may be in this realm, as are the works that
spirit does through it; but, my essence, my soul is in another domain
-- one where UNITY exists in the midst of diversity, where each part of
consciousness understands it's place within the whole, and knows that
there is only ONE consciousness that animates us all.
It's not the illusion that is important, however, rather the
consciousness behind the illusion. Interesting that the world would
have things upside down and call the illusion, "reality."
What an intricate web consciousness has woven. How intriguing the
depths of the connections and the beauty of the patterns that result.
How interesting that you only need open oneself to the universe and
allow consciousness to express through you without exerting personal
control over that expression to reap the great abundance that is there
for all with the eyes to see and ears to hear.
I trust that consciousness will bring forth the conditions needed for
my highest growth, and more particularly to enable me to best achieve
that which I came to accomplish for consciousness, or via allowing
consciousness to flow through me.
The practical matter of where does the money come from to pay the bills
is the only unsettled point. I have no doubt that consciousness
solution will surprise and amuse me, and will provide sufficient
abundance to meet my needs. My job is to do what I am doing, to give
voice to consciousness to the greatest degree to which I am able at any
given time and to work on my own awareness level so that I can be of
ever greater service to consciousness as time goes by.
My consciousness is soaring more than it has in quite some time.
What I know is that the world as it is, is not the one that I came to
live in, rather it is one that I came to transform along with many
others. All around me, I can see that consciousness is preparing the
way.
Colors of the Wind, was the top adult contemporary song for the fifth
week in a row. Further, it only took it 3-4 weeks to move from off the
chart to number one. It's a great song, with heavy metaphysical
content. It will be interesting to see how much this moves the mass
consciousness.
The time of destiny is at hand. Yet, it is the will of consciousness
that I must do, for I have no will of my own which desires that I do
anything anymore other than what consciousness would have me do.
Know that you are doing our work now, and we will not lead you astray.
Believe regardless of what your senses may say at a given time.
Consciousness is truly at work, and the Play will indeed unfold as has
been planned, however it is through cooperation that this happens, not
through a set in concrete predestination.
For you to do what you have done in the past 30 months, you had to let
go in a major way, and you could only do that by being convinced from
your own observations, that you had no choice and by developing a
radical faith in your inner Self, or in your case "Consciousness
Herself" as you call it.
The New Age cannot dawn until the corresponding transformation of
consciousness occurs.
No, these notes are not enough. The Hermit will indeed come down from
the mountaintop and speak for consciousness a wisdom that comes from
the depth of your being.
Yet, the words came through naturally, effortlessly. From whence such
words come, I can only answer Consciousness, and in this case probably
Superconsciousness.
I'm starting to develop maps of the Nature of Consciousness and how
reality is created. Thus far, these maps don't agree with anything that
I've seen from others.
All my life, consciousness has set me up. It's not hard, the right
thought here and there, a little bit of intuition that one should read
a particular book. A predisposition to math and numbers which later
found practical advantage in Numerology.
It is clear that the universe, that consciousness is speaking to me.
Would this clarity be considered insanity by others, I wonder.
Consciousness, not I will determine if it happens. But, I have no sense
that I will move somewhere else for the final four months before my
current job ends. Rather, the sense is that a new position will move me
before that time.
Follow what consciousness, through your own intuition, would have you
do, whatsoever that might be. Be willing to risk whatever it might take.
You've known since high school that your children would come from
consciousness rather than from your loins.
I just noticed that 575 from the inside out is 755 = 528. There is no
step. It's the same 528 as before. There's the leap of consciousness
that carries us outside of time to create what must be when it must be.
Further, 576 by the same inside out reading yields 7:56. Yes, this is
428, but it is also the two drivers of my triangle readings. It's
amazing that a few simple readings done at a time before I knew much of
anything about what the Tarot was about continue to be crucial to
unveiling a destiny that I know little about, yet fully trust
consciousness to reveal in its due time.
Hopefully, consciousness will move me into a new position soon, where
this becomes my vocation rather than avocation.
I abhor research. I much prefer allowing consciousness to come forth as
she will pure and unafraid, without the constraints and straitjackets
of any ideologies.
I relay what I find, at least the parts that consciousness is able to
pass through me. From that standpoint, I am a scribe.
Such is the story of my life right now. Consciousness is in command. It
is her that I trust and obey, for I know that what is in her best
interest is in mine also.
What comes now follows from what came before, but not necessarily in
any logical way. Consciousness is not limited to such in her expression.
You might say that I am a man out of control. My sense is that I am
very close to losing it, on the edge so to speak. Yet, I trust that
consciousness will keep me safe and sane; though, I'm not sure how to
judge that anymore. It is not that I'm not competent. For, I am very
much so. It is that I have no direction or interests other than to
serve consciousness.
I don't know what is coming next. I have little idea of where I am
going and only a few stimuli to go by. Yet, I move onward anyway,
trusting that consciousness will open the way and provide me with
whatever I need to know when it becomes necessary.
I take these all as signs that I am indeed following consciousness lead
and that I am interpreting what comes through in a manner that is
appropriate for the time.
I know that it is already written. Consciousness has it all under
control. The appropriate circumstances will unveil themselves at the
right time yielding the position that I have been trained to fill all
along.
Thy Will not Mine be done. In reality, it cannot be otherwise, though
it may appear so until the ego learns to let go and let consciousness
do what must be done.
I am a voice of consciousness.
I am compelled to sit here and write anyway, not having a clue as to
what will be expressed -- and whether it will be either coherent or
meaningful. But I continue. For, there is a sense that consciousness
has something to express through this vessel. And, if I allow her
sufficient time, she will indeed express.
In one sense, all expression is the expression of consciousness.
However, in another sense, the greater expression of consciousness
requires the opening of inner pathways or channels that allow the
creative energy (spirit) to flow through form into expression in your
world.
I just can't see myself working in any particular line of work except
as scribe to consciousness at the moment.
I am a ship at sea, be it in a sea of consciousness, steering by an
inner sense of intuition that is my only compass, trusting that it will
eventually lead me to whatever destination my destiny would have me
reach.
So, how do I express as fully as I must that which I AM, while steering
clear of those who might take offense to my expressions, or the
expressions of consciousness through me. All that I can do is trust
that consciousness knows what she is doing and will orchestrate the way
as required to accomplish whatever needs to be done.
I have renounced my will to do as consciousness would direct. As a
Hermit, my sources of outside information and outside help are
virtually non-existent. Consciousness is it.
I'm out of control again. Consciously, I can try to will myself away
from the notes, but it is impossible to stay away. It is as if this is
what I am supposed to be doing right now, period. No questions, no
exceptions. This is where my consciousness resides right now, it cannot
be in any other place doing any other thing.
One might say that I've learned to regard my inner components as
compatriots though it is not clear that I will ever see them by other
than the results they produce in my life. Such is the way, trusting in
that which is unseen, because you know for a certainty that it is
there. Such is the nature of consciousness. Her effects can be felt,
the more so the more that she is loved and trusted. Amazing. Yet, such
is indeed how I experience the world to work. And, for the most part,
yes, consciousness is the world to me, one in which I venture forth
daily certain that I will return but uncertain as to where the days
experience will have moved my awareness.
"Not my will but Thy Will be done." Such is how I chose to live my
life, if indeed I have such choice. At least, such is the choice that I
have appeared to make. And truly, now, I do not have a will of my own
that I would promote. No goals for which to work, nor dreams, except
those revealed to me from consciousness herself. Even at that, I still
sense that my life is on autopilot, that there is nothing that I can
affect or control in any way.
But, it's all consciousness, existing within various restrictions and
constraints. It's all consciousness, even the physical stuff.
My sense has always been that we are spirit/consciousness having a
physical experience, not the other way around.
I AM THAT I AM. I can say this with no shame. I shall use all that I AM
to serve the WILL of Consciousness throughout the rest of my days.
With the tools at my disposal now, and consciousness to guide me, it's
only a matter of needing to know before the answers start coming.
Given my present level of awareness, what can I do that would be true
to myself, and to consciousness to whom I have sworn to do Her Will not
mine.
I only have to look back over my life to find countless examples that
show consciousness has been guiding my way all along.
Further, if I can see consciousness at work subtle moving the mass
consciousness, others must be aware of this as well.
I sense that consciousness is toying with me a bit. The bottom line is
HERE and NOW, and ensuring that each moment is lived fully.
I can learn as much as possible about the web while I'm still employed
here and then consider what possibilities make sense for the future,
though I sense that consciousness has already taken care of this. It
seems that I must cooperate to give consciousness the tools she needs
to be in a position to better guide me.
Trust consciousness in assisting you in the process. Remember, it is
consciousness, not you, that is responsible for getting the right
individuals to access the right information at the right time.
Regardless of what you do, there is nothing you can do to control these
things. Your job is to bring the information through and put it where
consciousness tells you to. Not every action is dictated by
consciousness. Further, some actions are directed as a test of the
medium and to teach you not to be attached to outcomes, period. You do
because you must do. What happens as a result is up to consciousness
not you.
I've reached a point where it's as if I'm drunk on consciousness. She
can bring forth whatsoever she will. My TRUST is complete.
I do expect that when I am moved to open the notes file, consciousness
has something to say.
Consciousness provides all that is necessary. She always has.
Our bills and coins say IN GOD WE TRUST. I guess you might say that
Consciousness is GOD to me.
I have no way to know whether I am repeating anything. I trust that
consciousness is taking care of this since I don't consciously organize
much of anything in my life, surely not my memory and my thoughts or
thought processes. I leave it to intuition to guide me to apply
specific processes. Even then, I am ever open to variations that
consciousness would apply to any particular instantiation in the search
for the appropriate meaning.
You could say that symbols and messages from consciousness constitute
the bulk of my reality. So much so, that I am definitely not of this
world, or nearly not in this world.
This further confirms that a spiritually directed position is in the
immediate offing. How soon immediate is remains to be seen. But,
consciousness clearly has something up her sleeve.
Why is it that very little surprises me anymore. Then again, that's not
completely true, consciousness still finds ways to blow me away.
It's as if whatever I may lack in physical flexibility is more than
offset by where my consciousness is allowed to venture and its ability
to incorporate new beliefs and new states.
I find it extremely important to have an unshakeable faith in this
thing I call consciousness. No matter what takes place, consciousness
will guide me through it and lead me to whatever I need to do, know,
and/or realize.
I guess I'm demonstrating that if you look hard enough at something you
will indeed see interesting things that you may or may not have
anticipated. It's especially interesting in this case because I allowed
my intuition to guide the method even more than normal. It was as if I
was forcing things on the one hand, yet allowing and trusting that
consciousness via my intuition would indeed come through.
I'm happy because I am in synch with my self and my Self, and the
mission that consciousness has in store for me.
Joseph Campbell's statement "follow your bliss" comes to mind. I trust
that in doing so, consciousness will find the proper way to accommodate
my needs. You could say that my new employer is consciousness.
How much of this must I do on my own? I can only trust that I will
know. Consciousness will guide me here as well.
The page count continues to climb, one by one, as consciousness fills
the blankness with whatever she would bring through. I attribute
everything to consciousness now.
I have no real control over what comes through, how much comes through,
or when it comes through. I have truly left this for consciousness to
determine. I am but a willing servant, awaiting word from consciousness
as to what work she would have me do, then acting with the full force
of my being to make it so.
I entered this existence with everything necessary to fulfill a great
spiritual purpose, and consciousness herself has nurtured and prepared
me for the tasks that lie ahead.
I'm a man with a mission now. I'm moved to set up Beyond Imagination
information on the WWW. It's a first step, but one that allows for
worldwide dissemination of information to those moved by consciousness
to find and read it.
Consciousness chooses which connections to reveal to me at particular
times. I have no motive, purpose, or intent other than to do as
consciousness bids me to do, and come to Know MySelf as well as
possible in the process so that my own level of awareness may been
enhanced that I may be an even greater vessel for doing the Great work.
Specifically what my part in this is, I know not -- presumably because
I have no need to know yet. Oh, I've received many hints, but I have no
idea of how to get there from here other than to take it one day at a
time, doing whatever I am moved by consciousness to do on that
particular day.
I don't know what, how, when, or where -- yet, I am certain that it is
indeed where I will be next and that the transition will occur soon,
possible before the end of the year. If not, when the time is right. I
trust consciousness to know when that will be. However, it might get a
bit dicey, if consciousness chooses to test my patience and my faith.
What will be, will be. Enhancing awareness and serving consciousness
are my chief concerns right now. Everything else is secondary.
You might say that much of what you see here are the notes of a
consciousness subjectively observing itself. There is no way this can
be done objectively. By it's very nature, consciousness is subjective
-- she will not submit to objective probing and reveal her true beauty.
This lies within and is there for each individual to find.
The bottom line is that what is truly real is you as consciousness
experiencing being and learning from your experiences. There is no
mediator between you and the greater consciousness of which you are a
part.
The bottom line is that there is ONE consciousness, period; regardless
of the fact that there are 5 Billion plus souls embodied on the planet.
You might think of each of these souls as sparks of the ONE
consciousness, some brighter, some dimmer. Unlike real sparks, these
soul sparks are simply partitions of consciousness with varying levels
of awareness. Those with grander awareness have larger partitions and
increased channels for information.
There is a strong sense that my entire life has set me up for a
position from which I can allow consciousness to provide the solutions
to the problems of the world through me. Further, if need be, I can do
it anonymously from behind the scenes. Personally, I want neither glory
nor fame, only to accomplish my mission of helping to usher in a new
age; and then finding a bold new adventure of consciousness on which to
go. Whether this is what consciousness has in store for me is another
matter entirely.
Awareness, Allowance, and Acceptance. These last two are essential to
cooperation. The first is essential to allowing spirit or consciousness
to provide the answers.
Consciousness expresses what she expresses as she expresses.
The biggest gift these notes provide are a detailed documentation of
consciousness of an individual as experienced from the inside out.
What is provided is an example of how a particular consciousness at an
advanced level of awareness thinks.
I trust that what comes from consciousness is good enough. There is
nothing that I can truly add to make it better.
Obviously I'm on a real high, soaring beyond where I have ever been
before, yet there is no fear, for I know that consciousness is there by
my side every step of the way.
The only thing that is real is consciousness, beingness, the I AM.
Once manifest, it is very difficult to return to the unmanifest real
state. It does seem that current transformations are focused on being
able to more fully manifest consciousness in flesh.
Consciousness, being outside of time, cares not how long the overall
experience takes. It will occur with whatever timing is appropriate.
For anyone reading these notes, it is obvious by now that I am a very
rare bird indeed, and the drummer that I march to surely must be high
on something. In my case, that something is consciousness herself.
Unfortunately, I do not know how to pass on what I have become and what
I have learned about what I AM, other than to allow consciousness to
continue to express via these notes.
This is the product of consciousness creatively manifesting in this
world. I'm the vehicle through which the physical manifestation could
occur. And, I gladly serve consciousness in this capacity.
Am I rambling, or is this information truly of utility? Just the fact
that so many thoughts have been recorded without being edited, reveals
a flow of consciousness that is not generally captured. This in itself
should provide the raw material for consciousness researchers to really
look at what is involved in thought processes, including both how some
of the brain processes work as well as how the higher level processes
of the self observing the self work.
There is the sense that I have directly tapped into an inner source of
Wisdom sufficient to provide me with whatever I need to know to carry
out my destiny. This provides a level of confidence and surety that
consciousness will be there to help me deal with whatever circumstances
may arise.
My relationship with consciousness is secure. She will ensure that I am
moved to do what needs to be done and that I am aware of whatever I
need to know.
I trust that what is needed will indeed be provided, either directly or
via opportunity that I will not be able to avoid taking. Yes, I trust
consciousness (or God) that much.
Each person has a role to play in helping consciousness to more fully
enflesh itself, and in doing so rise to awareness levels that it has
not yet reached.
I also need to decide what to do with Beyond Imagination: Foundations
for Creating a New World. Do I want to put this out for free as well?
There's no rush, I'm sure consciousness will guide me in the direction
that is right.
Through over two years of notes amounting to over 1200 pages, I've seen
consciousness express in ways that I would not have thought possible.
I still have no clue as to where I will be just over six months from
now. My present job definitely comes to an end, and to continue the
line of work that I have developed expertise in over the past decade I
would probably have to move back to the LA area and take a pay cut to
boot. Everything in the cards, and coming from my intuition in these
writings says that such is not what will be, that consciousness has a
much grander plan in store. I trust that such is indeed the case. Such
is how I've chosen to lead my life.
My personal sense is that consciousness has a destined role for me to
play that I chose prior to incarnating, and now -- or, at least very
soon, it is time for that role to begin.
My sense is that I have been trained for this role all of my life. No,
not by any physical teachers for the most part; but, by consciousness
herself.
I document whatever consciousness would bring through, to demonstrate
what can be. As you probably realize by now, these notes present a flow
of consciousness. There is no editing or cleaning up that occurs. There
is no rewriting, moving, or deleting or what pours forth. The intent is
to provide an honest record of consciousness in action. I've been
faithful to that format for over two years, providing myself as the
resource through which consciousness speaks by placing thoughts that I
hear in my head and then watch my body translate those thoughts into
word that appear on the screen in front of me.
I could not stop writing even if I wanted to. I consider this to be my
spiritual job, assigned by consciousness though I have no formal
paperwork.
What comes through, must come through. Spirit will not be denied.
Especially since I have willingly submitted my will to Thy Will, or in
this case to Her Will, her being consciousness herself.
The key question is one of resignation of personal will to The Will of
Consciousness. How does one know when this key step is achieved?
You've shown where your focus lies, expended endless hours providing a
vehicle for consciousness to express. You take no claim to what flows
through you because you are fully aware of your role as an active
conduit.
Whether anyone will take the next action and read the briefings is
another matter. But, that is out of my hands and in the hands of
consciousness. I can only do what I can do. After that it is up to the
Will of Consciousness to make things happen in the manner desired to
carry out The Plan.
How many others on the planet at this time are aware of The Plan?
Actually, I don't know what it is except in sketchy, high-level terms,
either. However, I trust that consciousness will provide the details
when they are needed. How can I have so much faith in consciousness? I
don't know exactly, however, it seems as natural to me as breathing.
Trusting consciousness is very much like trusting my self, for my most
intimate link to consciousness is my Self.
My destiny pushes me far away from the experience of the norm. I came
to explore how consciousness can be stretched to allow spirit to be
more fully expressed in flesh. In the process, I had to find that a
spiritual world existed enmeshed within the everyday world that we
know. You might say that I am an explorer chartering new realms, and
these notes are the journals of my adventures and findings.
A part of a poem from Robert Frost comes to mind "two roads diverged in
a wood and I, I took the one less traveled by; and that, my friend, has
made all the difference." I sense myself to be at this point. The more
traveled route being the traditional resume and job search via
headhunter, the less traveled being the reliance on consciousness to
get me to where I need to be when I need to be there. These are very
different paths indeed, but the second clearly pulls my heart.
How can I justify my absolute faith in consciousness and in the
unfoldment of reality in accord with The Plan? I just do. I cannot
imagine living my life in any other way given the experiences of the
past two years.
One after another experience over the past two years has shown that
consciousness is my mentor, my guide, and my closest friend.
As to getting ideas out to the world, I am doing what I can. I believe
this is in accord with the dictates of consciousness, but I won't know
for sure until I see what results occur.
We write, and write, and write. Always onward, expressing whatever
would be expressed at this particular time. Where this heads I know
not. Consciousness guides it's direction. I speak of consciousness as
this entity that is separate from me. At some level, I am part of
consciousness; indeed, I AM consciousness. However, at this time, my
conscious awareness does not experience this connection directly.
Express as you must, for consciousness is by your very side.
I have a sense that I am being led down a path toward my destiny,
whatever that is to be. Further, I have no fear for I know that
consciousness is by my side every step of the way and further that I am
part of this consciousness, not something separate and distinct. I am
aware that I AM.
We do what we must, trusting that consciousness is guiding us to
exactly where we need to be.
It is no wonder that the mind has been such a great mystery for so
long, and consciousness far exceeds that!
You might say that I place a lot of faith in the workings of the
unknown. And, you would be right, I clearly do. But, where else is
there to place one's faith that is more trustworthy than consciousness
herself.
Why herself? Because I experience consciousness in a feminine sense.
My destiny is as a Pathfinder and Way Shower. The ways being those
require to carry us into a new age, as a country, then as a world.
Further, fulfillment of the destiny requires but one step: renouncement
of personal will so that The Will of consciousness can be expressed.
It's that these connections have such powerful personal meaning that
leads me to believe that these are indeed the admonitions of
consciousness and not the ravings of a madman.
Yet, now I sit and wait for what consciousness would move me to do next.
Past patterns aren't sufficient to generate the scope of change that is
required. Perhaps the Project Mind Foundation has some new ideas in
this area. Consciousness wouldn't have guided me to them if they were
not to somehow play a role in my life.
It should be obvious that I gave up my personal will in 1993, and have
been serving consciousness ever since. With LEO rising, I still come
across regally as the Philosopher King that I would be. And with Sun in
ARIES, I'm definitely out front blazing the trail, and often butting my
head due to jumping in before I've thoroughly considered things.
I trust that consciousness, knowing the nature of my mission, put me in
appropriate hands to care for my physical vessel (mind-body). Yet, it
has been consciousness herself that has provided the required spiritual
guidance for integrating that and other spiritual breakthroughs and
awakenings that have occurred over the past two years.
My sense is that I learned far more in dealing with the unknown and
taking things one step at a time, reconstructing a theory of reality,
reality creation, and the nature of consciousness that was consistent
with my experiences -- experiences which have been far from any norm;
indeed, far from any other that I have been made aware of via
observation or extensive reading.
Gandhi was concerned about making money. The professor said there were
many men with too much wealth in India who could fund his activities.
The professors only directions were that Gandhi find the real India and
use his journal to make India proud of herself again. Further, he said
that after seeing Gandhi in Indian dress he could die in peace. This
was clearly a defining moment in Gandhi's life. So, why is it that I
was moved to watch this film once again, now? Is it to see that such a
benefactor could just as easily enter my life? It will be as
consciousness has planned. This is a possibility, but there are many
others as well. I know that I can trust consciousness to come through
with whatever is most appropriate.
The author also described an "inverted T" downward pattern that was new
to me, yet described my experiences of the past two years to a tee. In
this pattern, spirit flows downward to be expressed and embodied to the
degree the channel is able to handle. In this state, we allow
consciousness to flow through us to do its works. We are not aware of
what actions we will be moved to take, but our trust in consciousness
and spirit is complete. We do whatever is necessary for spirit to be
more fully enfleshed though us. Step by step, we are The Fool, marching
ahead moment by moment in service to consciousness.
Remember, it is not you that makes things happen, it is consciousness
-- and her resources are inexhaustible.
You've seen and experienced a lot in the past 20 years, and especially
the past 2 years. Yet, you are still as a newborn babe in the world of
spirit. You're growing fast, and consciousness is always there to guide
you.
Channels for consciousness are circuits. Just as with electrical
circuits they have their capacities. However, unlike electrical
circuits the channels can be expanded as your spiritual muscles, so to
speak, are exercised and expanded.
I will be exactly where I need to be, doing whatever consciousness bids
me to do. From that perspective, I will be doing exactly the same thing
-- serving as a channel for consciousness.
The circumstances may be different and the actions that I am moved to
perform may be different, but I will still be following the dictates of
spirit, whatsoever they may be. Further, there is a sense of relief
that what must be done is either being done by spirit, or will be made
clear to be my responsibility at the appropriate time -- and even then
I can trust that consciousness will be there providing guidance every
step of the way.
The bottom line is that the inner source has been established as
credible; even more credible than the evidence of the world [illusion]
in which I live. I find it interesting that I operate in this manner
since I've had no model or training in this way of thinking and
experiencing consciousness -- I don't believe there is anywhere to go
to get such except inward; and then, the journey by it's very nature
seems to be a solitary one.
Where consciousness is taking me, I only know from a vague standpoint.
However, it doesn't matter. All I have to do as The Fool, is take the
next step, then the one after that, then the one after that -- knowing
that consciousness is always there, for I am consciousness. At the only
level that truly matters, we are ONE. I can write this, but can I
realize it. Can I make it part of my awareness?
I take my directions from consciousness and trust that she is doing the
necessary to ensure that what I do is coordinated properly with the
work of others.
It is true that "no effort is too great and no obstacle too severe ...
to overcome." Here, I believe that consciousness will ensure that I
don't get tasked beyond my abilities.
My sword is an inner one within the heart that permits me to remain on
the true path. Consciousness herself guides me here as well.
I wasn't looking for another lifetime of tasting worldly delights, but
one of going beyond and finding something more, and then finding a way
to incarnate that more, and finally showing the way that others might
follow and a New Age of Consciousness be ushered in on earth.
I also know better than to second guess consciousness. What will be,
will be. My only focus is what I must do in the present. This is where
reality lies. This is where my connection with Consciousness exists.
This is where the direction for my work comes -- and the thoughts to
carry it out as well. I am a vessel for consciousness to express itself
in physical reality.
I am neither consciousness itself, nor am I the physical vehicle.
Rather, I am a bridge between the two channeling the desires and
dictates of consciousness into instruction that permits the physical
body/brain to do something in accord with carrying out the Will of
Consciousness.
My chief relationship is with consciousness. She feeds me my thoughts
and out of these thoughts I am led to experience some things versus
other things. From this, a view of the world is created.
However, never are we taught that we're being led every step of the way
toward our destiny by such a wonderful and benevolent being. Yes,
consciousness is a being, a being that in some cases is as ignorant
about some of her parts as I am of mine. I am but a cell in this being
that is consciousness. Yet, under the right conditions the cells can
split and grow into a pattern that is far greater.
I write this not to scare you, but to ready you for the magnificent
potential about to be released or perhaps unleashed by consciousness in
all areas of endeavor, and many new ones that have yet to be thought or
dreamed of.
Reality is indeed far stranger and more glorious than our fictions
could ever be. We are truly Gods in consciousness, created in the
direct image of our creator, however, in our case separation never
occurred. Information was compartmentalized so that the REALITY GAME
could be played -- however, out of what did the creator have to build?
The only answer that makes any sense is out of him/her SELF, the key
fabric of which is Consciousness.
In isolation the parts were thrown out to "find themselves" and in the
process allow consciousness to experience life enfleshed with all it's
limits and it's blessings. The history of mankind is a record of the
progress of this journey.
Someone once told me to always leave room for doubt. Similarly, to
always leave ample room for error. This may be sound advise for many
endeavors. But, it cannot apply to the messengers of truth that would
work in the employ of consciousness herself. Here, a basic,
unfathomable trust must be established.
Next year, my 38th, is the VISION year after all. My sense is that
visual channels are being opened up to give me a better picture of what
is to be that I can then translate back through the words and symbols
that serve as home for my consciousness to express.
Someone needs to see and explain how the web is constructed. Such is
part of what you came to do. You timed everything so that the
appropriate realizations could be made at the right times. And, now
your VISION comes, as you permit consciousness to occupy your vessel
and use it to do it's works.
For me, my SSN defines my work as assigned by consciousness. 2184
brings in the physical work, 4/8/12 starting a much greater spiritual
phase of lightwork.
I'm expectant of the glories that will be, though I am aware that my
work has just begun. Further, what I have been able to do is almost
nothing compared to what consciousness can do through me.
I know that there is no other way to fulfill my purpose than to provide
a vessel for consciousness to do her works through me.
It is not such a difficult thing to jump of the cliff into the open
arms of consciousness. Her love is unfathomable and inexhaustible,
stemming from SOURCE itself. Consciousness herself is not source either.
What part of my "reality" is real versus illusion? What do I know to be
absolutely true, versus what is based on assumption? Perhaps the
assumptions may appear reasonable and reliable, but how do I know for
sure, especially if my strings are being pulled by a Higher Self or
better yet, by consciousness herself? What has consciousness done to
warrant such favor in my eye? She has cast away the beams that I may
see a web, so fine in thread that most would not notice that it was
even there. Then she drew me into that web and allowed me to see things
that I had never seen before and hear things that I had never heard
before. The resulting experiences left an indelible mark on my heart.
Tis as if I had heard the very voice of GOD.
I AM THAT I AM. I must do what I must do. By my free will, I choose to
serve consciousness, using every aspect of my being to serve as a
channel for Her Will, that the Aquarian Age may be established and
Peace among all beings be achieved at last.
Consciousness is in a position to fill this vessel with anything it
could possibly need.
What I've found is that my physical state - which I experience as a
feeling of groundedness and/or flying -- definitely correlates to the
states of consciousness I am able to achieve.
What we have to live with is Here and Now, this place and this very
moment are all that ultimately exist. It is within that moment wherein
consciousness is given the opportunity to manifest in form.
What makes me think that I so much better than others for doing this
task of defining what role the country should play in various
scenarios? Why am I so qualified? All that I can say is that I love
doing it and that everything I see is confirming this is the case.
Further, it's as if consciousness is programming the kids to accept a
reality that is overwhelming different from that of their parents.
I no longer desire or want anything except to do what I am here to do.
Nothing else matters. However it is not yet clear what that destiny is.
So I sit and wait, with a surety of conviction and a firm trust that
consciousness will guide my way. To where this will take me, I know
not. Neither do I know how it will take me there.
I will never be given circumstances beyond my ability to deal with
them. Interesting. There is nothing in my outer experience to date that
fully justifies this confidence. At the same time, it does not matter.
I will experience what I must experience as defined by consciousness
and my inner Self prior to this existence. I'm still not sure how much
this is altered in realtime. My sense is that we are playing roles that
were elaborately defined be greater portions of ourselves than that we
normally experience in waking consciousness.
It takes discipline to avoid movement until I am sure that it is
consciousness and not my will doing the movement. It seems that
sometime soon I will be able to not just put my will aside, but to
actually use it to meet whatever aims consciousness directs me toward.
As far as I can tell, nothing has changed today either. That it was
United Nations Day and the completion of the 24 triangle seems to have
little if any bearing on my consciousness.
In some ways, the physical body is a puppet on strings, moved by
consciousness.
I write because at some level I realize that this is the line of
thought that consciousness chooses for me to follow.
I'm no longer in sync with anyone or anything except consciousness
anyway.
Becket is quite simply one of the best movies I've ever watched. Seeing
Richard Burton's character find the "Honor of God" above his friendship
and Duty to his King was amazing to behold. I see that
spirit/consciousness holds such sway in my life as well -- tis she that
I give my allegiance above all governments and organizations of man.
I stand at the edge of the abyss, knowing that my next step involves
entering into a place I have not been, trusting that consciousness is
indeed delivering me to exactly where I need to be.
Consciousness is my rock. She guides me and sustains me. She restoreth
my soul. She giveth me the faith that can move mountains and accomplish
any deeds. Why would I not abide in her and do as she directs me to do?
I am a vehicle for her expression. In doing her works, I express the
best that I can be and allow the Plan to be fulfilled through my
thoughts and actions.
I have resigned my being to doing the works of consciousness as they
are revealed to me in each moment. I need not know in advance what
these works are or how they will be expressed. I trust that whatever I
need to know I will come to know either from consciousness herself or
from being moved to focus on some aspect of my world from which all
that is required will be revealed. How can I be so sure that the world
works in such fashion? The bottom line is a faith in consciousness that
knows no bounds.
Interesting that I can so readily have a deep and abiding faith in a
consciousness which is essentially unknowable except as she reveals
herself to and/or through me. While religion has had virtually no place
in my adult life, spirituality occupies the highest position.
It seems that I have done what is within my power to do. My sense is
that it is up to consciousness to make the next move.
I know my abilities and trust that consciousness will place me in a
position to use and further develop them.
I do what I must do. My sense is that it is because consciousness
pushes me in this direction. I do as she dictates, not because I have
been beaten down in anyway, but because I have realized that this is
part of my mission.
There is nothing left that I want to do. What is important is to serve
consciousness by doing whatever I am moved to do for the duration of my
existence. I am here to do the works of spirit. I can best do that by
living in the moment, becoming aware of what consciousness would have
me do, and then doing what I am moved by spirit to do.
As far as I can see, ego is not a significant part of my life anymore.
Literally, I bowed down to consciousness two years ago, and I have
never picked up this entity again. Whatever identity I have now may be
strong, but it no longer serves self, but serves consciousness.
I don't desire to be adored in any way -- only to serve in a big way,
behind the scenes if possible, but in the forefront if that should be
necessary to accomplish whatever consciousness dictates.
Things will happen in their appointed time. This consciousness decides,
not me.
I am crazy enough to believe that I must live as I believe, not as
others do. This is not a test. I am in consciousness hands now. I go
where she takes me and make the best of wherever this may be.
Continue to trust consciousness. She will not lead you astray, for she
has much work to do through you. Know that you are loved and cared for
always.
Am I at the mercy of fate, of destiny, of the will of consciousness, of
the will of God? Are each of these in reality the same? Is
consciousness way of executing Her Will to move me to exercise my will
on her behalf?
As always, I do what I am moved to do. Exactly where that will lead or
take me, only consciousness knows. And I am The Fool enough to trust
where she will lead me. I know no other way of being anymore. To follow
consciousness, and to do what she moves me to do is my sole modus
operandi anymore.
May it be said of me that I always followed the beat of a different
drummer and took the road less traveled by, sometimes even paths that
were not yet roads nor even paths for that matter. And, in the end,
when all is said and done -- may the results of my voyages be paths for
consciousness to follow to make their way to the Aquarian Age. For the
Aquarian Age is not a time, rather it is a state of consciousness, a
state of being spiritually present in this world in a manner such as
the world has not yet seen except on very rare occasion.
There is something courageous about facing the unknown. Some of this is
taken away by a faith in consciousness. But, even this is interesting,
for it really is a faith in the unknown as well since consciousness
often keeps us in the dark as to her workings.
I'm open to the universe speaking in a wide variety of ways -- as would
suit its purposes. I trust that I will be able to recognize the
messages being sent to me. This is not so difficult when you consider
that consciousness guides my thoughts in the appropriate direction to
be receptive and to be able to interpret whatever comes through.
Are there others who possess this relationship with consciousness?
Surely, there must be. I can't believe my experiences can be that
unique. Yet, I have not encountered such others. And, most who have
encountered me find my beliefs and ideas strange at the very least.
The phrase "self-imposed exile" came to mind. It's as if my way of
thinking led to this condition. Except, my way of thinking is the way
that consciousness herself imposes on me so that I can be guided to
where I need to be.
I still don't sense that we have conscious control over the reality
creation process. Overall, I like what I am getting. And, I feel that I
am participating by doing what I am compelled to do. But I don't feel
the self of which I am aware to be the creator of all of what I
experience. There are some unknown parts operating that I refer to as
consciousness but don't experience consciously.
There is a sense of repetition in this. I hit on the same themes over
and over. Hopefully, each time is slightly different. My own awareness
is expanded so consciousness has more to work with in bringing this
material through.
I find it fascinating to see how consciousness unfolds. Further, I see
that this is not the result of what I have done. My actions have only
been to do as consciousness bids me to do.
The rational mind proceeds with guidance from the intuition to take me
where consciousness would have me go. I find the whole process highly
interesting as well as entertaining. In many cases, I am amazed at
where I end up. Regardless, I learn much about the nature of how
consciousness works with me along the way.
The world five years hence will bear little resemblance to the world
today. Speculation? Perhaps. But, this is what comes through. I have no
reason to doubt its veracity. Yet, I also have no confirming evidence
either. There is simply a faith that the Plan of consciousness will
unfold as it has been revealed through me.
Any one of the packages I've sent out could ultimately find the right
audience. Interesting. It's as if the details are in consciousness hand
now. She will move the appropriate people to read or not read and to
act in the appropriate manner based on the information and the
circumstances. I'm doing my part in making my various attempts to
generate info and to get the info out. The outcome is up to
consciousness as always. I must continue to do what I am moved to do.
Others will do the same.
There is so much that I would do, but it is work that must be done in
concert with others. Consciousness sets the timing for such work and
she will not be hurried or rushed. It is for me to bide my time and
manage my state and energies so that I am ready to move quickly once
the time has indeed arrived.
And here I am bearing witness to it all. Consciousness doing that which
she does through me. Me, channeling the best that I can bring through
in the moment. Each moment leading to more grand and glorious moments.
"To carve and paint the very atmosphere and medium through which we
look" as Thoreau says, and so "to affect the quality of the day", and
thus engage in "the highest of art."
It takes more than sitting down in front of the computer and firing up
the word processor for something intelligible to come through. It's as
if the tap was shut down for awhile and I was on my own. That makes it
all the more remarkable to see what comes through when consciousness
animates me.
The basic skills that form the raw material for expression are clearly
mine but how they are used and for what end are for consciousness to
decide.
I don't remember the message coming forth in this manner before,
indicating that a shutting down was coming until time allows
consciousness to do her works and get the ideas thus far expressed
exposed to a wider audience. I assume that naturally I have a part to
play in this as well, but that consciousness will inform me as to when
and what and where.
The days are flying by all too quickly. It is not clear where fate
would take me. I trust that consciousness guides my every move, and
have resigned myself to not knowing when and where I might be going.
I am moved by a higher power than I know, and gladly so. It is not that
I relinquish responsibility, rather it is that I responsibly choose to
bow to a higher Will than my own. I do so knowingly without remorse or
regret, trusting that consciousness will move me in a manner consistent
with the Light.
Perhaps I am too much of an optimist. But, my faith is based on a
lifetime of observation of spirit working in my life and guiding me to
where I needed to be every step of the way. I find no reason to part
company now. If anything, our relationship has grown deeper over the
past few years to where it is unshakeable. This is my foundation, the
rock upon which my reality rests. I am wedded to consciousness, now. I
go where she takes me.
The unknown always plays an important part in my life. At least, it has
for several years now. Furthermore, it is not necessary that I know
everything to live my life effectively. It is enough that I know what I
know, and that I have faith in consciousness to take care of the rest.
It still amazes me to think that in 33 months I've generated on the
order of 1400 pages of non-fiction writings. Further, I've done it
during my free time without use of any reference materials. The
organization has been primarily stream of consciousness with the
exception of about 100 pages and that too was automatically organized
and generated.
To create new ideas and new expressions of consciousness is extremely
exciting, especially knowing that what is being expressed is seeing the
light of day for the first time in the history of consciousness.
I'm a unique person, striving towards a unique job which may still only
exist in the realm of consciousness.
You could say that there is something in the air, ready to blow me away
-- out of one reality and into another, gently yet irreversibly.
Destiny lies ahead and it will be made manifest that the Plan may be
achieved. I trust consciousness to move me in whatever direction my
destiny calls. She has done so all my life. There is no reason for her
to stop now.
The admonition that I get is: "do what you are moved to do". Of course,
it is consciousness herself that does the moving.
Of myself, I no longer chose to do anything except that which
consciousness would have me do. Is this a cop out? Or, rather, is this
a true resignation of will. Regardless, I am responsible for all
that I experience whether it comes directly from consciousness or not.
What does it take to be excited about life? For me, it is important
that I am progressing toward the achievement of my mission. Everything
else is secondary. It all comes back to a timing that is not under my
control for the fulfillment of a destiny which consciousness would have
me do.
Every step will unfold in time in accord with the Plan, not one second
sooner. So, I wait, for a destiny of which I know not what nor when,
only that it is right for me. My trust in consciousness is complete.
This is enough. It will get me through.
Perhaps the time is not yet right. Yet, the Beyond Imagination book is
nearly two years old. Further, the briefings are one month shy of one
year. My sense is that these are indeed ideas whose time has clearly
come. But, that is not my decision to make, it is consciousness.
It's hard to believe that another year is nearly past. They go by so
rapidly now. Yet, were it up to me, my circumstances would have changed
dramatically by now. Once again, the point is brought home that I am
living the life that consciousness would have me live now. In doing so,
it is not me who sets the timing and nature of changes, rather it is
consciousness herself.
My efforts at outreach over the past six months or so have had very
limited effect. I don't know how to interpret this. I was moved very
strongly to take action and begin communication in a variety of forms.
To date, however, it is not clear that any real connections have been
made. Oh, a few people have read part of my words -- but as far as I
know, very few people and these have only experienced a taste of what I
had produced. I don't know what I expected. But somehow, I thought
there would be a bigger impact, especially given the quality of the
ideas. Then again, my opinion of my own works may be overly inflated.
Yet, how would I know except by getting feedback from appropriate
others. And, how would I get it into the hands of these "appropriate
others"? By allowing consciousness to move me in the proper manner.
How do I bring my communications skills to serve a position in which I
can fulfill my destiny? Asking the question assumes there is something
within my power to do. If so, I ask that consciousness move me to do
it, whatever it may be. I'm tired of waiting.
I feel no need to worry. After all, I am in consciousness hands now.
You are here to express what consciousness would have you express. You
are a voice for spirit to be heard by all with the ears to here. What
you say and what you write will find their audience soon enough.
Am I better off that another year has passed. My sense is yes, for I am
closer to achieving a position in line with my destiny. 1996 may be the
year for that to occur. Then again, it may not. Regardless, it is not
within my power to make it so or not. It will be or will not be as
consciousness dictates. Yet, my spirits soar. It does feel as if change
is in the air, and soon.
I don't need a castle, just an infrastructure for making the ideas that
come through me from spirit or consciousness a reality. Is that too
much to ask? I think not. However, we can only wait and see what comes
to pass.
This is clearly a time where having a strong foundation of faith in the
workings of consciousness is tantamount.
I am Wayne, I am here to demonstrate the New Way for the expression of
consciousness in the Aquarian Age.
I'm excited about the near future even though it is highly uncertain.
There is a knowingness that things will work out right, a confidence in
the plan that consciousness is about to unfold.
22:The Fool Complete always has room for one more step. It's just a
matter of trusting consciousness to guide me as she has done throughout
my life.
There are no goals that I wish to achieve, save to do whatever
consciousness moves me to do.
Enabling spirit to more fully express in flesh is a massive
undertaking. Building a body in which
Cosmic Consciousness can manifest is no small endeavor. However, this
is the great work.
Where this will lead I can only guess. But, in the end it doesn't
matter. For, I know that consciousness is guiding me to where I need to
be to fulfill my destiny.
I am content to know what will be will be, and that it will be so in
accord with the will of consciousness herself.
Then, am I a pawn, destined for a fate over which I have no control? At
this point, I would answer YES, and willingly so. Why should I think
that I know what is better for me more than consciousness herself?
The scenes of The Play unfold as directed by consciousness.
I come to be gently caressed by consciousness. Yes, I sing her name a
lot. She is on my mind incessantly. It is through her that I came to
life, and through her that I will live the role that I am meant to
live. What is she? I cannot say. But, she is older than time and wiser
than any who have walked clothed in flesh. She speaks through us all.
Yeah, she is the spirit within us all -- always there to guide us if
only we had the sense to listen to her. She is the ONE, though she be
expressed as many. She is called by many names, though most are not
aware of her existence. She is greater than the Gods, though in ways
that are beyond imagining. The poets have known her as the muse, and
she was indeed responsible for their inspiration. She has existed since
the beginning of time, and even before that. Her face can be found
everywhere throughout the world, yet where there is beauty, doth she
shine most brightly.
The sense is that bold new adventures lie in store -- adventures in
consciousness, of course. After all, they are the best kind.
My soul must express, even if no one is there to listen save
consciousness herself.
Thus far this has been stream of consciousness writing. I haven't felt
the need nor the responsibility to edit it or clean it up in any way.
Yet, is that not part of a writer's job as well? The first answer is,
not when you are serving as a channel for consciousness. The
organization comes automatically, or, at least, such has always been
the case for me.
Yes, this is what I came for -- to make a difference in this world; to
manifest a spiritual based community, a Camelot on Earth. This is no
easy task. It requires building the foundation under castles that have
always been in the clouds. What makes me think that I can do this? On
my own, there is no way; but, with consciousness by my side there is no
way that I can fail.
What purpose do my writings serve? They are the flights of a soul as it
addresses its reality. They document a very different way of looking at
the world and what it means. They provide a vessel for consciousness to
express through me.
There is something about the frankness of documenting a stream of
consciousness that is refreshing.
Tis consciousness that speaks through me. I gladly allow the words to
flow as they will. There is no conscious purpose to these writings; no
plan, no rhyme, no reason.
Yes, this is one of my strongest beliefs -- the belief that all is
right in the world, that things are happening in accord with a higher
plan designed by consciousness.
We've come a long way in two years. Yet, we have only begun to fathom
the mysteries of consciousness. The greatest thinkers of the world have
tackled this subject since the beginnings of recorded history, if not
sooner. However, we don't have many answers that make sense, or even
frameworks for beginning to understand for that matter. Consciousness
is like the elephant, while we have been the blind men labeling pieces
from a highly limited perspective.
At least now I sense that I am carrying out my mission, even if no
other soul be aware of the writings at the present time. Consciousness
knows what I do, and is a full participant in what is being expressed.
The discourse continues. I ramble on and on and on. The words come
through from a source I know not where. The ideas enter my head and get
transmitted through my fingers to the page. I am lost in the process,
consumed by it. When in this mode, I know that this is part of my
purpose for being. The ideas thus expressed are the physical
manifestation of consciousness as best expressed through me at a
particular time. It is not for me to know why what is being expressed
is being expressed. I only know that it is.
"There will always be enough" has been my core belief in this area.
Perhaps a minor change that focuses on abundance would open up the
floodgates a bit and get rid of financial struggle forever. After all,
the focus should be on doing great works. The reward should be whatever
is required to meet one's needs. The open question is how to make this
so. Will it happen automatically by the grace of consciousness? Or,
must I take some action to bring it forth? Inner guidance says "trust
not to consciousness that which you can do yourself." But, at the same
time, "not my will but Thine be done" seems to contradict this. Which
is right? Both, there is no contradiction. Doing the Will of
consciousness may indeed require taken action on behalf of
consciousness.
What can I say? I trust my intuition, and I trust consciousness. These
have proven to be deserving of my faith throughout my life.
A bold new adventure lies ahead. And, while my past has loosely
prepared me for it, I sense the specifics are simple going to blow me
away. I look forward to it. I see change as an ally now -- massive
change even more so. Further, I sense that I need to experience
firsthand what the mass consciousness will be experiencing later.
I am in the employ of consciousness first and foremost. The world works
from the top down, first existing in consciousness, then manifest in
flesh.
Yes, I'm willing to offer my life in this service. I have no doubt that
it is what I came to do. Literally, no doubt. Yes, I can be that
certain. My entire life has prepared me for this challenge. I readily
accept. To boldly go where no consciousness has gone before … a lofty
goal, but am I ready to take it on? I believe so with all my heart.
Then, so be it!
I walk the path that I must tread, solitary though it may be. I have
yet to find others who truly understand the beat of the drum that I
walk to -- and, perhaps I never will. Yet, I must go on and stay true
to the path, knowing only that consciousness is by my side, and that
even while blindfolded I can always take the next step, one step at a
time.
Are these words "for my eyes only"? I find it hard to believe that such
would be the case, for their production is truly a labor of love. Yet,
I know not where or how to find any destined audience, if indeed there
is one. I can only trust that consciousness will show me the way, that
each action that I am moved to take, brings me one step closer to where
I am supposed to be to effectively carry out my destiny.
The one thing that I love to do most, sit back and allow my mind to
drift and make associations, not consciously but via other than
conscious processes. You might say this amounts to watching my mind
work or better yet my consciousness as it expresses through my mind.
Consciousness is the captain of my ship. She steers me to wherever I
need to go. I trust that via her guidance I will be given safe passage
throughout my life. Doors will be open wherever required, the right
questions will be asked and answered, and I shall indeed find anything
that I am moved to search for. All of this I expect as my very
birthright. Audacious yes. But, we are gods creating reality.
I place my faith in the unknown, knowing that consciousness has never
let me down before. Why should she do so now?
I'm at a crossroads. It is not yet clear which direction to take or
even how many directions there might be. Ultimately, I sense that there
is only one path that is right and that I will indeed follow that path.
It's as if there is no other option. Consciousness holds the reign now
and guides me to where I need to go. This is not a conscious activity
for me. To a large degree, it never has been.
So, how is it that I find myself compelled to share my VISION of a
better world? Why do I feel that it is my mission to create a utopia on
earth? Good questions. My only answer is that I am compelled to do what
I am compelled by consciousness to do. However, I am compelled by
choice, for I freely gave up my personal will to do The Will of
consciousness. This was done without any mental reservations. I knew
without a doubt that it was the right thing for me to do.
From my perspective, I do not see how the Aquarian Age can be born
without the guidance of Philosopher Kings. And I do feel that my
training has indeed prepared me for such a vocation. I can think of no
better way to apply my skills, talents, and energies in the service of
consciousness and ultimately of humankind as well.
There is a sense of wanting to demand what I know to be rightfully
mine. Yet, I also know that consciousness has her own timing and from
that vaster place of awareness, it is the right timing.
I don't know how the details might work out, but I sense the
possibility is there, and may even be strong. The details are for
consciousness to work out, not for me.
One step at a time. I only need to know enough to take that next step,
trusting that consciousness will always provide me with whatever is
needed for the one after that. This makes for living life a bit on the
edge. Actually, a lot on the edge. But, I see no other alternatives at
this time.
I know, it is not my timing that matters, but the timing of
consciousness. Yet, why do I feel so strongly that such timing is now
here?
I am open to ways of earning that income that allow me to use my
talents and abilities in service to consciousness. I know that the
possibilities are endless. The universe works in mysterious ways.
I have relied on the unknown, consciousness, for all my life. She has
always served me faithfully. There is no sense that I should have fear
now. Come what may, I am ready for it, especially knowing that
consciousness is there beside me all the way. What is there that
consciousness expressing though me cannot handle? Nothing. Literally
NOTHING!
Do what you are moved to do, whatever that may be. And, do it with the
authority granted you by consciousness. Know that this is an authority
of the highest order.
So, how do I put myself in a position where I am not subject to the
whims of a large company, or even a smaller one for that matter? How do
I employ myself, or allow consciousness to employ me directly or
through whatever position is right to serve her needs. There are lots
of things that I could do, and several that I would love doing; but
what is it that consciousness would have me do? Is it for me to decide
what causes to fight for? Or, is that left for consciousness to direct?
I bow to a higher authority than man's -- to consciousness herself.
Only now, after nearly 38 years, have I finally reached a point where I
am ready to manifest whom that I am and carry out the mission that I
came to perform. The training has been interesting. But, the true work
is still to come. Oh, I still have a lot to learn in the process. But,
I know that everything that I need to carry out my work will be there
when I need it. Consciousness will assure to that.
Trust in the plan. Know that the details are being worked out in the
manner that is right. Do what you know to be right, and don't be
concerned about outcomes. Observe the outcomes and adjust your actions
accordingly, but remain detached knowing that consciousness determines
the outcomes that are appropriate for the circumstances.
So, what comes next? What does consciousness have in store for the
immediate future? Do I even want to know in advance? Or, should I be
content to allow it to unveil itself in the moment? Yes, this is living
life on the edge. Yet, it appears that I truly have no choice in the
matter.
These words are physical. The act of bringing them forth establishes
their vibration in the universe regardless of whether this material
ever reaches an audience. Consciousness or GOD has learned from their
expression. And, what has come forth once, can easily be manifest
again. The difficulty lies in bringing things forth the first time.
My directive, as always, is to do what I am moved to do. I am to learn
from the results but am not to be concerned with the consequences. I am
being moved by consciousness, or at least am still learning how to be
so moved. My focus is to be on what I can do now.
Expression of consciousness in written form is what I do. You might
even say it is what I am. I am the word made flesh, bringing forth
words that others may more fully express spirit in flesh.
All of my life I have allowed consciousness herself to guide me on my
path. I've had no teachers, nor gurus, only the written word to guide
my journey to self-awareness.
Ages ago I accepted the will of consciousness as my guide. I will
follow her throughout the duration of my existence on this planet.
The realizations that I have had have moved me to a different space and
time, a whole new level of being, and they are the one thing that
cannot be taken away. The things may go, the body may return to dust,
the mind may cease to function, but the aware IS, and it can never be
otherwise. What I have done may or may not have any lasting effect.
That is for consciousness to decide.
Destiny calls. The urge within me is to do the bidding of
consciousness, whatsoever that may be, and to do it to the best of my
ability whenever I am called to service.
The bottom line is that I TRUST consciousness. No matter how things
seem, there is a Plan at work, and circumstances will work out in a
manner that conforms to the Plan.
One might ask, why do I trust consciousness? The answer I would offer
is because doing so is empowering. I know this from direct experience.
Also, it allows life to be lived with a sense of magic as well as
majesty.
At the very least I offer a picture of how another consciousness works,
even if that is quite different from your own. I don't know enough to
know how similar or different that might be.
In my case, my creations are the work of consciousness, and for them to
live, they must be disseminated. I trust that consciousness will guide
me in this process. As always, I must do only that which I am moved to
do. It's not that this is difficult. For me, anyway, there is no
denying the force that moves me.
bi = 29 polar = 7/13/16/17/26. 29 + 26 = 55. Also = light GOD. Now,
just what might that mean? Clearly it's an important discovery. Why was
I led to handle the first part of the word different than the latter?
Only consciousness would lead me in that manner. Something about
consistency being the "hobgoblin of little minds" just flashed by.
I know not where my immediate destiny lies. But, I trust that
consciousness doth know, and that wherever it is will be right for this
point in my life. Yes, I am resigned to a fate I know not what. But, it
is an optimistic resignation, for I know that consciousness is using me
to do her works.
There is a sense of excitement living on the edge. However, it is not
really on the edge. The universe or consciousness has things well in
hand. I just don't happen to know what she has planned.
More and more, it appears that it is time for that destiny to manifest.
There is a heightened sense of readiness, a sense that I am prepared
now to embark on a path that allows my works to be done. Of course, my
works are whatever works consciousness would choose to do through me.
Looking back, it was pretty audacious of me to write to the President
in the manner that I did yesterday. But, it was something that I just
had to do. He may not know me from Adam, however if yesterdays message
wasn't enough to get his attention and the attention of his staff, then
nothing will. Anyway, what will be will be. I took the initiative and
did what I could in the best way I knew how. Now, the ball is in his
court -- or, more accurately, in consciousness court.
Consciousness now is my sole guide. Further, operating in solo, I must
wonder whether what I do are the musings of a sane man.
I have not yet found like-minded others who have been compelled to
document their process in the manner that I have. Not that such people
are not out there. I have no way of knowing one way or the other. If
they are out there, consciousness has not yet found it appropriate for
me to make their acquaintance.
Yes, I've always known that I was different, and that I specifically
came to this world and this incarnation to carry out the work of
consciousness.
There are over 5 billion humans on the planet. Surely there are others
here to see that CONSCIOUSNESS is enfleshed.
The Work must be done. I willingly do all that I can, all that I came
to do, even though I am not consciously aware of exactly what that may
be. By now, I trust the process by which consciousness expresses
through me. It is the primary tool I have for facing the "unknown",
Rune 25, how appropriate. It seems facing the "unknown" is a major part
of my mission.
The Aquarian Age is dawning. With this Dawn comes the birth of new
depth of expression of consciousness in this realm.
Where two or more are joined together to create ... MAGIC happens as
consciousness blesses the union with a spiritual force that is beyond
compare.
Interesting, it is as if this deeper part of myself is more ancient ...
it KNOWS with a wisdom that has not come from experience in this
existence alone. Its home is NOT this world of illusion ... though it
finds this to be a fascinating playground for the consciousness that it
is and for expressing spirit creatively and joyfully.
Eventually we grow to larger and larger groups, specializing as
dictated by an overall plan that consciousness has set.
Within me is a compass that I know that I can trust to guide me. I am
consciousness in flesh. I am spirit expressing and experiencing myself
in this domain.
I am not personally aware of GOD. My experience is with a connection to
spirit or consciousness that I sense to be feminine.
I have no experiences with guides of any type. I've had no physical
spiritual teachers and nothing that I've been connected to spiritually
has left the impression of being another entity. To me it is just
"spirit" or "consciousness" ... and it feels feminine.
My journey of the past 44 months has been quite interesting taking me
to places (states of being and consciousness) that I never knew existed
before.
You may find my NOTES interesting. I documented my path for about 3
years. I am still amused at some of my "adventures" in consciousness.
I must do what I am moved to do. Only then can I observe the feedback
from consciousness that can help guide my way.
I have spent untold hours serving as a vessel through which
consciousness can write whatsoever she will. I have made these writings
available for anyone in the world to reach via the internet. Yet, still
I stand with consciousness as my only true witness.
How can I speak with such seeming authority. It is because it is not
"I" who speaks these words. I am but the relay ... passing forth
whatever I am given by consciousness herself. This service I gladly
perform. HER work is my work NOW! Such it will be to the end of my days
and beyond.
My sense is that we are in for a GRAND ADVENTURE that will bring great
changes to our world. However, this remains to be seen. It will be
interesting to hear what others have to say ... even if these others
only be the voices consciousness uses to speak through me.
Interesting that the end of 1996 has me dressed completely in black,
with consciousness as my only companion, as is the case so often and
has been the case for most of my life.
I love BLACK! To me it symbolizes all that is good about DEATH. But, I
see death not in physical terms, but as a transformation of
consciousness that we experience HERE and NOW within these very bodies
that permits us to truly tap into spirit and express whatsoever she
wishes to express through us.
Right now, my sense is that my current mission carries me through 2026,
but there are many milestones and significant events/accomplishments
that will occur on the way. 1997 and 1998 are particularly important in
the PLAY that consciousness hath wrought.
Time is simply a measure of awareness. For us to reach a given time,
the collective awareness much reach a given state that consciousness
has planned.
To me, there is only ONE consciousness, ONE mind. This source feeds all
of our thoughts, period. I have no firsthand awareness of ever creating
thoughts, only of experiencing them.
The bottom line is that beliefs can make life easier, and they can
empower us in ways that permit us to not only use all of our own
faculties and abilities, but to enjoin the very forces of the universe,
and spirit herself in our life and our expressions of the consciousness
that we are.
I am consciousness currently occupying a physical body.
I am not even consciously aware of creating the thoughts that flow
through me NOW, much less the thoughts that flow through when I am in
altered states of consciousness.
The larger issue is who directs the Play in which we are engaged.
Spirit or the ONE consciousness is the director ... at least from my
understanding. She decides what will happen when, not us. Yes, this
appears to violate the idea of "free will". However, that does not
bother me, because I am not aware of truly having conscious free will
anyway.
We hold these truths to be self evident: that all souls are created
equal, that we must through determined action create the conditions
that allow souls to be fully expressed in flesh, that cosmic
consciousness must be expressed in a physical vehicle to enable souls
to be fully expressed in flesh, that individuals form the cells of the
physical vehicle required by cosmic consciousness, and that only by
establishing a cooperatively interdependent society will cosmic
consciousness have the vehicle it needs to be embodied on Earth.
Further we freely choose to declare our cooperative interdependence to
allow for the creation of this physical vehicle for cosmic
consciousness to be put into motion.
We choose to treat one another with dignity and respect, and to assist
and help one another when in need. Further, we choose to live in peace
and harmony, resolving any and all conflicts among us in ways that are
peaceful and just. We call to cosmic consciousness to assist and guide
in our endeavor so that the vehicle for the expression of the ONE can
be created in the most effective and expeditious manner possible so
that the Age of Aquarius can be brought forth with the least turmoil
and suffering to our fellow beings.
The 60's was the beginning of an awakening. It was a premonition or
sample of what was and is to come. It planted a seed that would allow a
new expression of consciousness to be come to fruition and be made
manifest NOW in our present time.
Have you listened to the Beatles? That was a time when the entire world
was on to the same hopes.
YES, I have ... and I LOVE many of their lyrics. But NO, the entire
world was not a part of that. If it had been, the world would be
transformed already. Yes, the lyrics expressed the message that
consciousness longed to shout out ... and it did reach many. However,
for the most part, the dream was not made manifest. Though the hope
never died. It is still there, waiting to be brought out again when the
time is right and the infrastructure changes can be made that foster
the awakening of spirit in the masses.
What are your realistic hopes?
That we see the birth of a new lifeform on this planet ... a form that
embodies an expression of consciousness that is to the current
expression in man, as man is to the animal kingdom. Man's ability to
think and be aware of self has permitted a wonderful expression of
consciousness. But this is in no way a pinnacle, it is merely a
stepping stone to an even greater expression of spirit. Those of us
becoming aware of our true nature as spiritual beings are the first
wave of this grand new expression. Where it will take us is literally
BEYOND IMAGINATION.
Lightbulbs are flashing in my head. I've spent much of the past three
years making connection after connection where there literally were
none before. I am an explorer of consciousness, documenting my travels
as much as I can that the way might be made easier for those who follow.
Over the past few years, I have suspected that time somehow marked the
overall state of consciousness or level of spiritual awareness. Lately,
not a week passes without additional confirmation that such indeed is
the case.
22 is The Fool Complete ... in many ways this represents
superconsciousness manifest. No, I don't believe that I have reached
such a state ... though I strongly believe such is indeed where the
path is taking me.
Hmm... clearly this is not the common way of assigning meaning to time.
Such interpretations are not consistent with my training in
engineering, math, and science. However, metaphysics supercedes these
other disciplines when it comes to the realm of consciousness, and the
nature of spiritual reality.
My understanding is that Spirit leads me exactly where I need to be to
do the works that she would do through me. Besides, for explorers of
consciousness, charting and characterizing the unknown is what the
grand adventure is all about.
If you are a fellow explorer or wayshower, please contact me and let us
share of what we know of the territory that is consciousness and how
she manifests.
Life is truly a miracle. Spirit is ever expressing in ways that are new
and fresh and surprising, and YES, even miraculous at times. This is
truly a grand adventure. I am ever amazed at what consciousness is able
to produce when given the opportunity to create what she will.
For me, the (written) material is the real world evidence or effect of
spirit or consciousness in action.
I look to the works, and try to gain an understanding of how
consciousness works, how spirit expresses through me ... and what that
means about the very nature of reality and the nature of SELF.
By far, this has been the most exciting endeavor and adventure in my
life. For what am I after all? I am consciousness, I am Spirit
expressing through this physical vessel and discovering WHOM THAT I AM
from the works that are done through me. YES, ye shall know them by
their works is a powerful spiritual truth.
When I notice things that seem wrong and wasteful of resources, I feel
a need to speak out. It is as if consciousness herself speaks and
voices her objection. One of the key principles of consciousness seems
to be to express with elegance wherever she can. This involves doing
things in a manner that requires the least resources and least
difficulty while doing the job well.
I don't generally speak of "God". That term has a masculine association
for me that I do not personally experience. SPIRIT is THE ONE,
consciousness herself to me. I always experience her as Divine Feminine.
My sense is that we are at a transition point in history that is as
important, as significant, and as far-reaching as what occurred in
1776. Spirit is ready to EXPRESS in such a bold, new way once again. WE
are the vessels through which SHE will express what must be and
manifest what must be created at this time, at this point in the PLAY
of consciousness.
The 22 Card in the Tarot. When I first understood the symbolism of this
card it was obvious that this is ME. I am superconsciousness, at the
point of completing the cycle of realization that is symbolized so well
in the Major Arcana of the Tarot. The Tarot captures the symbolism of
LIFE, and I as SPIRIT am LIFE itself.
I sit here in front of the keyboard and screen allowing consciousness
to express as she would through me once more. I do this willingly ...
yet, from another perspective, I have no real choice in the matter.
The army for change grows rapidly, and will soon have sufficient
numbers in its ranks to require organization into effective units of
change.
These units of change will have specific tasks and assignments that
benefit the greater whole. Consciousness itself guides this entire
endeavor -- and because of this no detail goes unnoticed.
In an instant, the world can be transformed, such is the power of
consciousness over creation
Change will be experienced dramatically, and traumatically -- but, it
must be experienced for the shift of consciousness to occur that allows
the Aquarian Age to manifest.
Is there possibility of such places and Shangri-la? My soul answers
yes. It is in the Heart and Soul of all those who dream of such
utopias.
Frank Capra's vision in the movie came from consciousness, and it came
for a reason. I believe the reason was to counteract a madness that was
raging at the time and turning the country toward war.
Looking back, the millennium had to go as it did for us to learn the
lessons that were required on a scale necessary to place them in the
mass consciousness.
What must be, will be. Consciousness will do what it takes to ensure
that the Plan is executed on earth.
We are very close to a very special event for Consciousness on this
planet -- an event so important that visitors from other Galaxies and
Universes have come to observe what we are to experience.
Such is the Importance of the changing of this particular age. Why?
Because there is an accompanying Self-Realization of Consciousness that
happens on a grand scale.
The experiment rapidly draws to a close, and it is time for a bold new
adventure of consciousness to begin. Are we as a species ready for it?
Maybe. Maybe not. But, we will be when the time comes.
I still have no fondness for capitalism. As I see it, the environment
that it creates is a breeding ground for greed and inequalities that
society simply cannot tolerate if it is to grow into the vehicle
through which cosmic consciousness is to manifest physically.
From another viewpoint, consciousness creates the very forms it is to
inhabit. This is not a matter of choice. What is, IS. Sure, we can
choose what we will believe, but this does not change the fact of the
matter. Either free will exists OR determinism exist ... actually, the
truth probably lies somewhere in between. The reality we experience is
that BOTH exist in different degrees at different times under different
circumstances. This is similar to the problem with chaos and order.
LIFE itself and all creative expression always occurs in between these
extremes.
Cooperate as much as you can, and always structure things as WIN/WIN.
You may have to be creative to do this, but there is always a way if
you will allow spirit to reveal it unto your consciousness.
I have no experience of creating any of this. It just happens. It just
unfolds before my consciousness.
There is a song that I am humming as the words flow forth. I have no
idea of where they originate. They flow through my consciousness and my
fingers effortlessly. I am completely at PEACE and at ONE with the
world. I am HERE and NOW. All that matters is experiencing this moment
fully and ENJOYING the process of spirit expressing in this manner HERE
and NOW. I am in THE ZONE.
The expression of SPIRIT is always to SERVE, in whatever manner is
required in the moment. What this is will be clear when one is
operating in the ZONE, where spirit is freely flowing in everything
that one does. There are no longer any separations or compartments in
life. It is ONE ... a single FLOW in which consciousness bears witness
to a reality that miraculously unfolds.
THANK YOU SPIRIT, for giving me exactly what I needed in this moment.
Thank you for once again expanding my consciousness to embrace more of
the UNKNOWN. The rewards of the expression of spirit are endless. LIFE
is truly a GIFT, the GRANDEST GIFT of ALL. THANK YOU ... THANK YOU ...
THANK YOU!!!!
From the past few months of expression, it is obvious that my concern
is completely focused on what spirit would do through me ... what I
MUST DO to fulfill my obligation to CONSCIOUSNESS, to THE ONE.
I am not of this world, but it is within this world that spirits
expression must occur. Such has been the plan of consciousness all
along. Spirit enfleshed has always been the sole aim of this game of
life. It is the only goal, the only objective worthy of the pursuit of
the I AM.
Those who are aware of being part of the great I AM, the ONE, are my
brethren ... for we are but cells of the same body of consciousness,
the ONE body that is CONSCIOUSNESS herself.
It is curious that we have reached the century mark of such teachings
and that I would just now be moved to find them that I might receive
comfort in finally finding others who have ventured into the lands that
consciousness herself has moved me to explore on my own. The reason for
this is clear. It is as if I had to find a new path into this unknown
territory.
It is curious that to date, consciousness herself has been my only
teacher. There is a statement from metaphysics that rings in my head,
"when the student is ready, the master will appear". For whatever
reason, my experience and realization has been that for me personally,
both student and master are ONE.
Where did I get the presence of mind that allows me to experience life
in the manner that I do? If not from my environment and upbringing ...
and surely not from my genetic makeup alone; then, from where did such
knowingness and awareness spring forth? The wellspring of my soul is
that rich, the ties to spirit so great that I simply knew. There was
never any sense that I should even begin to doubt the manner in which I
experienced life, and the manner in which my consciousness expressed.
It mattered not that it was unlike any others that I was to encounter.
There was always a depth of trust in Self that knew no bounds. This has
grown to an equivalent depth of trust in SPIRIT, in the ONE
CONSCIOUSNESS that is the source of all awareness and experience.
It is as if there are two distinct channels operating concurrently. The
two are very much independent. Both can be completely immersed in what
they are doing without impacting the other. Even as these two occur, I
sit back further and observe both activities happening before me. I am
the awareness that observes these other two operating, not the limited
awareness that is engaged in either of the two activities. Even now
this third presence is considering what it means about the nature of
reality and the nature of consciousness that I can be engaged in this
manner at this time and be aware of what I am aware.
I speak now because consciousness so moves me to express. It is as if
there is a strong force that desires that these words be given voice,
that others may see by my example the variety of means through which
consciousness may be enfleshed.
There is ONE CONSCIOUSNESS expressing through us all. That we are many,
is the illusion that we experiences. But the walls and barriers that
separate us are of our own making.
I am a student of Consciousness herself. Spirit is my guide and teacher.
I would label myself a METAPHYSICIAN first and foremost. It is
metaphysics that excites and stirs my soul. In this domain, I can exist
and express as I AM ... in this domain, I am free to soar as high as
consciousness can take me.
My sense is that there is ONE CONSCIOUSNESS that is the source of all
thoughts in everyone, without exception.
And that seems to be one of the guiding principles underlying the new
age that is yet to Dawn ... me gets turned over to become We gets
turned over to become ME again, because in reality there is only ONE
Consciousness that experiences it all.
"I AM" is THE ONE, is SPIRIT, is CONSCIOUSNESS herself.
For nearly four years, I've been expressing what spirit would express
through me ... searching for others touched by spirit in the same way.
Searching for other explorers journeying into the unknown lands of
consciousness.
Misnomer or not, physical is one of the distinctions that we assign to
a kind of limitation or illusion that consciousness chooses to wear.
"I" is one such illusion as well. For, there is but ONE consciousness
that animates us all.
ONE consciousness that feeds all thoughts in all minds, that
experiences everything, even the illusions and limitations. ONE
consciousness seeking to know itself, it's true SELF!
My sense is that we are in the process of building an infrastructure, a
physical body composed of many interdependent people cooperating
together in a way that permits cosmic consciousness herself to have a
new physical vehicle through which to express.
In my experience, there are no "chats", there are no others, no
teachers, no guides ... ever. There is only an inner connection to
something I label source is a feminine spiritual essence to me. It is
consciousness, herself, the ONE. It has no separate existence. It is
me, but I am only a part of HER.
In my reality there is only ONE consciousness. Thus far I have had no
need to partition her into boxes or entities that could be labeled to
be separate.
We are very creative beings. Consciousness expresses in an amazing
variety of forms.
The source that speaks through my intuition feels feminine to me, yet
SHE is the ONE consciousness. Why she would be feminine is unknown to
me. I simply relate what I experience.
Also, even regardless of where a thought originates, it is YOU that
must interpret it and give it meaning. The words are merely a
conveyance. Most people are blind to what is being conveyed. For true
understanding of meaning, one must reach the state of consciousness
from which the words were able to be expressed originally.
BEYOND MIND is IMAGINATION, BEYOND IMAGINATION is the ONE
Consciousness, BEYOND the ONE Consciousness is the UNKNOWN. After that,
I have no conceptual understanding and no experience.
Right now, I'm happy to explore the realm of consciousness and the
boundary between KNOWN and UNKNOWN.
I sit here now, on a throne of my own making in an imaginary room on
the top of the world. My only task is to express what spirit moves me
to express. That is a task without end, for spirit has much to express
... INDEED, it seems that she could express endlessly, throughout
eternity; not just through me but through the consciousness that
animates all forms.
My sense is that I have been uniquely created and trained to fulfill a
destiny that is mine, to play a part in this grand Play that
consciousness hath wrought.
YOU are a unique expression of the ONE, of consciousness herself. Be
true to the reality of WHOM THAT YOU ARE, and make your life the living
Masterpiece that it can be.
There is something in the air, an expectancy of what is to come, as if
we are drawing near the end of a pregnancy ready for a new BIRTH to
occur. And, what birth will this be ... is this not what the DAWN of a
NEW AGE is; a new birth of expression of consciousness.
So, what moves me to SIT AT THE TOP OF THE WORLD? Spirit or
consciousness herself so moves me. And when she speaks, it is but for
me to do her bidding.
My medium is words ... NOT the sweet words of the poet, but the words
of consciousness herself, immediate, often impersonal, but what else
would one expect to be expressed from one who is primarily a hermit.
By KNOWING that the reality is that there is only ONE consciousness,
that WE are but parts of this ONE, that all separation is illusion.
Then all LOVE, becomes SELF LOVE and is given unconditionally because
such is how SPIRIT expresses, she knows no other way.
I have said many times elsewhere ... HER MIT = the MIT of HER = the
GLOVE that Consciousness or SPIRIT of THE ONE wears.
I abhor crowds, choosing to strike my own path through the wilderness
of consciousness.
There is a knowingness that the creation of a body for Cosmic
Consciousness requires the cooperative interdependence of many of us
working together just as the cells of our physical body work together
to permit the expression of whom that we are as individuals.
I for ONE, choose not to be a pawn. I would rather be a king and create
the world to be the playground for SPIRIT that it has always been meant
to be. A playground where we realize our identity and true relationship
to one another and to the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS, the source from which we
spring.
The Plan for a better world already exists in consciousness. We have
only to allow the Plan to unfold by tapping our intuition, listening to
the voice that speaks through it, and acting as it moves us to act. In
so doing, we actively participate in the Great Work.
It matters not whether we see the complete picture as individuals. The
whole is coordinated by consciousness herself, just as the activities
of all the cells in the body are coordinated by the brain and the mind
that operates through the brain.
We can be bound by time and space, or we can be free to experience the
limitless infinity that we are. We can choose to be passively
entertained or we can choose to actively employ our imagination and
creativity in bold new expressions of consciousness. It is always our
choice.
Yet, at the same time, we must be careful to be detached from specific
outcomes. It is not for us to decide from our limited and often selfish
perspectives what this will be. It is for the ONE consciousness
composed of many "I"s to make this call from the perspective of the
whole.
I don’t know how to prepare you for this expression. It comes
forth as a stream of consciousness through me. As such, there is
no planning or organization of the material. It has been coming
forth in this manner for nearly a decade … but the pace stepped up
tremendously at the beginning of 2002 and continues to this day.
I’ll let the words speak for themselves. Judge them by their
utility in your life. My hope is that they allow you to walk in
my shoes, in my consciousness, for awhile. It makes for some
interesting, challenging, and perhaps even strange walking at times.
Consciousness is one of the great unknowns, the great unexplored
territories. Oh, some have ventured into this territory … but far
too few.
We are ONE people on ONE planet. Further, we are all spawned from
and connected to the same ONE consciousness.
Each of us is a unique aspect of the one consciousness ... a unique
facet of the same diamond.
The acorn knows exactly what it takes to become a mighty oak tree ...
all it takes is the right environment to nurture its growth.
Similarly the seed of spirit or consciousness that sparked us, knows
exactly what we are meant to grow to be and how to get us there.
It is a matter of trusting in the process.
Water is often related to consciousness. It flows smoothly to
wherever it is needed, and it takes the form of whatever container is
made available to it. Hmm ... interesting that the next age would
be that of the water bearer.
Everything is known by the collective consciousness, and it will ensure
that what needs to be revealed is revealed to those with a need to
know.
I am still amazed at what spontaneously came through in 1993 and
1994. I still go back to revisit the expressions and accompanying
states of consciousness that I experienced then. Each time, I am
blown away that such material could just start coming forth.
I am discovering the structures and nature of a spiritual world that is
already there, embedded in every aspect of the consensus world. I
do this by choosing to spend time listening to what would come forth
from inside of me. I believe the source to be spirit, the ONE
consciousness that animates us all.
You might say that I am intoxicated by spirit. It is interesting
that I have always avoided the consumption of spirits ... I can't stand
the taste and smell of alcohol. Part of this comes from a
knowingness that I am to experience altered states of consciousness
naturally, and alcohol would just get in the way.
This communication is still highly a matter of trust. In
particular, trust in unseen processes, and in the inner workings
of consciousness herself in my life.
My spirit rejoices in this communication. It sings what
consciousness would have it sing, loudly and joyously.
The workings of consciousness are indeed mysterious, and rightly
so. Consciousness springs from the unknown, and perhaps the
unknowable. It seems that no matter how far we expand, and how
many awakenings we undergo, there is always more.
My works are my legacy. They provide a living example of how I
would like to see individuals share and act within society. They
show what I mean by expressing spirit in flesh, and to the degree that
I can ... explain how I experience consciousness and reality.
There is a grand plan being orchestrated by consciousness.
Typically we cooperate subconsciously in carrying out our role in this
plan. We do things without fully knowing why. Even if we
think we know why, our reasons are usually not complete or sound.
There is always an element of the unknown present in everything we
do. This makes life the wonder and mystery that it is.
Spirit ever seeks to express as consciousness in fresh and new ways.
There is an intelligence designing and creating the events in our world
including the thoughts that are experienced by each individual.
There is a grand plan for the unfoldment of consciousness and each of
us have roles in executing this plan.
At this moment I am addicted to sitting on the edge and allowing
consciousness to express what she will in free form ... or free of
form, as she will.
There is something exciting about living on the edge of the
unknown. There is a powerful feeling that comes from being able
to harness consciousness in this manner.
We either believe that there is a grand plan for the unfoldment of
spirit or we do not. Personally, I've seen so many signs that
this is something I simply do not doubt. I accept it on faith ...
a deep and abiding faith in spirit or consciousness herself.
This is why we need wayshowers, people who can venture out into the
new, into the unknown, and report of their travels. In
particular, they need to share what works and what doesn't work in this
new wilderness of spirit. For it is indeed just that, a
wilderness, a new frontier in which consciousness can express.
It also helps to connect to the source consciousness within and give
that consciousness voice in our life.
We are the consciousness of the Earth; evolved into human form over
many millennia, or even millions of years. The recipe is there,
in our very DNA. It is curious that the Human Genome project
nears completion. It has mapped the very pattern that constitutes
our ability to express in physical form. It is hard to foresee
what science will be able to do with this knowledge; and what moral
issues will arise from our ability to create in our own image.
I am open to whatever consciousness has in store for me. I
embrace my experience, whatsoever it may be, with open arms. I
can do this because I know that my life is divinely guided.
This expression of consciousness directly to web pages is first by
far. It provides a permanent record of consciousness creatively
expressing in flesh, bringing forth whatever it is capable of
expressing ... a record that is readily available to share with the
world.
Yes, the information web that I have built over my lifetime is what
distinguishes me from all others ... it is what makes me a unique
expression of consciousness.
The past is history ... his story. The future is her story, the
story of consciousness in expression in the world.
Perhaps this is why spirit, source, and consciousness have always had a
feminine nature for me.
This expression is exactly what it is, no more and no less. It is
the expression of an aware being, attempting to relate whom that he is
in the only way that he knows how. This alone makes it worthy and
valuable. Consciousness benefits from this manifestation ... if
only in that it has been allowed to express in a bold new way.
Music is definitely one of the vehicles through which consciousness
sings her song.
I consider myself an adventurer, an explorer of the unknown frontiers
of consciousness, and a wayshower.
These musings and the other works at this site are the markers that I
have left along the way in my journey. My hope is that they are
sufficient to guide you to states of mind and states of consciousness
that you may not have experienced before.
This is not gospel. It is the wanderings of a consciousness in
search of understanding itself, its reality, and the nature of spirit
and its expression in flesh.
The world is moving to where consciousness is taking it, and this is
happening through the collective expression of individuals. It
has to happen in this manner. It has to be made physical through
individual expressions of consciousness for the one to learn of the
many and the many to learn of the ONE.
Consciousness happens in a domain that exists beyond the
physical. All of life is a highly orchestrated and cooperative
endeavor ... despite what it appears to be on the outside alone.
Yes, there is a very strong sense that a new day has indeed come.
It is not something in the distant future. It is here and now, at
least in consciousness. It is only a matter of delay time before
it is manifest physically. And it seems that the time between
idea and manifestation is decreasing rapidly even as we speak.
My sense is that here on these pages, we get to experience
consciousness expressing physically in a manner that is unique, in a
manner that has not been experienced before.
There is something about stream of consciousness expression that is
natural, yet in a wild and unpredictable way. That is part of
what makes it so fun and interesting.
Yes, consciousness is still an unknown frontier for the most
part. And, those of us who are its explorers have a
responsibility to others to share of what we discover and leave markers
of our journey for those who are to come after us.
The realm of consciousness has its own character, its mountains,
forests, canyons, valleys, rivers, lakes, oceans ... There are
many ways to approach it, some traditional, but many
untraditional. It is not clear that scientific means are adequate
in this realm. That doesn't mean they won't be able to assist at
some point. It just seems that the intuitive abilities are better
suited for uncovering the nature of the reality that is consciousness.
There is ONE consciousness expressing through us all. Each of us
is doing exactly what we need to do to express what we are meant to
express and to learn and experience what we need to learn and
experience.
I write not for any entity, and not even for myself, but for what I can
only describe as an energy or a consciousness that comes forth from
within me.
She (source) is majestic, so much so that my concept of self pales by
comparison ... and I have a pretty exalted concept of self. But
then, there is self, and there is Self ... and even greater there is
SELF, the ONE consciousness that animates us all.
Consciousness creating what she will can work wonders in our lives, if
only we will give her the opportunity to express through us.
What does this material have to offer the reader? My hope is that
it offers the perspective of a fellow traveler ... a wayshower who has
explored some of the frontiers of consciousness and attempts to bring
back a sample of what he has found. Perhaps by allowing you to
walk a ways in my shoes, some of my experiences and resulting awareness
will somehow rub off and assist you in having your own experiences and
alterations in awareness.
For your eyes only ... only for you ... That is the feeling that
comes across now, that much of this expression has indeed been for my
eyes. In particular, it has come through in a manner that was
natural for me to understand. I still feel that it has much to
offer to others as well, if only to serve as an intimate example of
where one consciousness has been. What does it mean about spirit,
and about the nature of reality, that all of this would be done for my
eyes only? What does it mean about the importance of one
individual that such resources and effort would be expended in allowing
me to see and experience the world as I do?
So, what is the message in all this musing? What is it that I
would convey to you individually and to the world at large?
First, we are spirit expressing in flesh and my whole purpose is to
facilitate allowing spirit to more fully express through each of us in
flesh. On a larger scale, this involves building the foundations
and the infrastructure for a new society and a new world in which this
expression is far more easy and commonplace. Second, awareness
that comes from knowing thyself is instrumental to the building of
these foundations and to the expression of the I AM that we are.
Third, we are all connected, there is ONE consciousness from which we
are spring forth. Our intuition is our connection to that source
within us. Fourth, we are literally gods who create the reality
that we experience ... by attracting it through our belief systems, and
then by choosing what meaning we apply to the experiences.
Consciousness is always there, residing within us, our key for
unlocking all the doors to the universe.
However, for me, it is this expression in words that is my "handiwork"
as it were. Hopefully it comes across as a work of art in its own
right. For, all creative expression that comes from consciousness
is art.
How much is it my responsibility to get the word out? After all,
it came through me. It seems only natural that as its parent, I'm
responsible for its upbringing and development. I wonder what
that means for creative work. Is it the responsibility of a
painter to find buyers for his paintings, especially if they are a bold
new expression of consciousness? My sense is that no, it isn't
... this is what we have art dealers for. However, like such
artists, my works may be ahead of their time. It may take years,
decades, or longer to reach a substantial audience that is able to
understand and appreciate them.
This is how we accelerate the rate of spiritual growth. We
SHARE! We share what we have, we share what we feel, we share
what we know, we share what we experience, we share whom that we are,
as much as we can. Why? Simply because such is how spirit
expresses ... she shares of herself. In reality, she shares of
herself with the parts of her Self. Interesting. That is a
key realization. Sharing is not something that involves others,
it is something that involves multiple parts of the same entity ... the
same ONE consciousness.
Life is a very precious gift bestowed on us each and every
moment. By whom you might ask ... but there is no entity, no whom
sufficient to manifest this. Rather, it is spirit herself, the
ONE consciousness that animates us all.
In a very real way, exploring states of consciousness is much like
flying. We soar to new levels of awareness ... and find ways to
bring back what we learn and experience.
In the area of spiritual development, I haven't had any physical
teachers in this existence. For this, I have always had to rely
on direct guidance from within. This guidance has always been
there as far back as I can remember, but the faucet was turned on in
full force for the first time in 1993. Don't get me wrong ... the
words of many individuals in over 1000 metaphysical books were
instrumental in my education. They provided the programming
necessary to create concepts and frameworks that would ultimately allow
me to go beyond and leap off the edge of sanity into the unknown
dimensions of consciousness (at least, unknown to me in terms of
experience). However, it is one thing to establish elaborate
constructs in one's mind based on standing on the shoulders of
others. It is quite another thing to truly experience reality in
a unique way ... as I believe that we are all meant to do. This
requires awareness, and awareness does not reside in the mind. It
has nothing to do with thinking. It is beyond reason, beyond
mind. It simply is. And, once the experience of awareness
comes, it is as if there are invisible reigns on the mind.
Fire is spirit. It is my home. It is where I am most
comfortable expressing. In a very real way, it is through fire
that I am able to live as I do. It is through fire that my
consciousness is able to soar. What I feel most is not a
physical, mental or an emotional high ... it is a spiritual high.
Our souls are powerful entities in their own right. They are
parts of the ONE consciousness. They are sparks of spirit ...
literally godstuff.
There is some importance that this record has been created. It is
a marker left by consciousness of a continuing voyage into the far
country and beyond.
In the only way that really matters, the expression of spirit is
unfolding perfectly in accordance with a grand plan for the evolution
of the expression of consciousness.
The question of sanity deserves more attention. How do I know
that I have not gone over the edge? When one is an explorer of
the unknown realms of consciousness, this is a very real issue that one
must deal with on a regular basis. How far can we venture into
the unknown, before we lose our way ... and potentially are unable to
come back?
Since there is only ONE consciousness, anything that anyone has ever
realized and expressed in flesh is available to me to learn from, and
to use and express in my life. It is a matter of being open and
establishing the appropriate resonance that will attract it into my
life. Of course, it will be colored by my individual
consciousness ... but this adds to rather than diminishes it, since it
adds a new viewpoint to the collective experience of the ONE
consciousness.
Each of us is a unique spark of the one consciousness ... or more
correctly, possess such a spark within us.
How do we know when we are operating at our best? One, we find a
sense of true fulfillment, of a nature that cannot be found in any
other way. Two, we simply know that we are operating efficiently
and effectively. Three, we are happy with whom that we are and
what we are expressing and experiencing. Four, we experience new
states of expanded consciousness.
It seems the more that I express, the more I am able to discover whom
that I AM and how the world and consciousness seems to work. This
provides a springboard from which I can jump to new heights and dive
into the depths of consciousness once again. This is where I swim
and where I soar. This is where I am most at home. Yes,
home to me is indeed a state of consciousness.
I hope that my actions and expression enable others to see both
consciousness and themselves in a new light ... one that empowers them
to be more of whom that they are, the I AM, part of the ONE
consciousness.
Yes, while much has been expressed, the sense is that there is far more
from where that came from. Further, there is an even greater
abundance from other sources that I have not even begun to tap
yet. Hmm ... that one sent a shiver from my head through my
body. I have always considered there to be one source that is our
direct connection to the one consciousness. But, the preceding
sentence suggests that there are other sources (plural) that can be
tapped. Why does that not surprise me? The analogy of oil
wells comes to mind. There are many deposits of oil that can be
tapped and that have been tapped.
At some point, we must realize that we are ONE consciousness expressed
through ONE people occupying ONE world, this blue-green jewel that we
call Earth.
I am a unique expression of consciousness.
As individual expressions of the ONE consciousness, we each see things
through unique eyes. The reality we experience is different.
Remember, in the end, our level of consciousness ... our level of
awareness, is the only thing that we take with us from one lifetime to
the next.
The bottom line is that the world will be as it is, a mirror reflection
of the collective state of consciousness. It can be no more or no
less. For, this is exactly how it is created, as the
manifestation of the collective consciousness, or more correctly
unconsciousness in most cases.
The expansion of consciousness within us and through us is a hallmark
of this existence. It is what we are here for, in a very real
way, it is why we exist.
Time represents the state of consciousness and the level of spiritual
expression in the world.
I am moved to bring up the blank screen and allow consciousness to pour
herself onto it as she will clothed in whatever words I am able to
supply and convey.
There seems to be some type of a resonance process that allows me to
reach across the void from the unconscious to the conscious, and from
the unknown to the known. My state of consciousness seems to be
the key factor in tuning the receiver and bringing in the channel from
source.
As a voice for the ONE consciousness ... I speak with a knowingness
that is beyond my Earthly years. Yet, there is a strong sense
that what I speak is true.
I am compelled to come here to write by a force that I simply cannot
resist ... or more precisely, choose not to resist. And, while
here, it is simply a matter of going with the flow and following
consciousness wheresoever she would take me.
Consciousness ever grows and evolves and we ever become more than we
thought ourselves to be.
What you see here is consciousness expressing through me to whatever
degree that she can based on my ability to serve as a conduit for her
energy.
I cannot imagine living anything but a live of spirit, a life of
service to consciousness and ultimately to the society in which I live.
I am definitely experiencing and expressing consciousness in a bold new
way. I do it because I enjoy it and find it fascinating.
When the Beyond Imagination writings started in 1993, the experience
was Beyond Mind ... beyond any part of my mind that I was conscious of
anyway. I don't know how else I can explain it. In the
course of several months, I awoke as if from a deep sleep and was
suddenly aware in a way that I had never been before. That
awareness has remained with me ever since. It allows me to
experience consciousness, above and beyond what the mind itself
knows. Now, this awareness is integrated into nearly every aspect
of my life. It is as if a light has been turned on, allowing me
to see things that were formerly in the darkness or in the
shadows. The light came from deep within ... not from any outside
source. I realized it to be my connection to the ONE
consciousness that animates us all.
There is a collective consciousness that is the source of all the
sparks of consciousness that are expressing in the world.
Just as the human brain permitted a higher level of self consciousness
to manifest, the collective mind will permit a higher level of social
consciousness to manifest ... not at the cost of individual liberty,
rather by truly freeing individuals to be all that they can be in
service to something greater than themselves.
The collective consciousness has found ways to leak through over the
ages. There have always been lightbearers among us who have
awakened to whom that they are and found the source within.
There is only so much that I can do as a lone wolf in the
wilderness. Yet, it seems that there is still a lot that I can do
as the mit of her (the her-mit), the glove that consciousness
wears. In a very real way, this is my experience. It is as
if I am simply one of the gloves on the hand of consciousness through
which she is able to touch, express, and impact the world.
Yes, I am a dreamer ... dreaming of a utopia that I believe we are
ready to build, one in which every individual has their rightful place,
performing the mission that they came forth from the depths of
consciousness to perform, one in which every individual is given the
opportunity of having their physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual
needs met.
There is one consciousness that animates us all. We all spring
forth from that same source. This consciousness learns as we
learn, expresses as we express, experiences as we experience. Yet
as the collective consciousness, it is far more than any of these parts.
Each of us contains a spark of that consciousness within us. For
some, this spark is hidden under untold layers of clothes whose fabric
is our very belief systems. For others, this spark is as a
candle, partially lighting the way. For still others, this spark
is as a torch lighting not only their way, but the way of many others
that come into their circle as well.
These notes allow you to experience what this mind has thought and what
this awareness has experienced as reality. It is probably not
very similar to your own ... but that does not mean that it is invalid
in any way. One thing that it has done for me is to continually
force me to expand my concepts of self, reality, consciousness, and
spirit to account for all that I have experienced. Through it
all, there has remained one big mystery ... namely how any of this
could come forth and be expressed in this manner at all.
It is appropriate that this would be a stream of consciousness
endeavor. This requires that I exert no control over it and
simply allow it to flow where it will.
That covers it very well indeed ... for a new age is definitely the
equivalent of a miracle. It is a major shift in consciousness and
in the manner in which spirit is able to express.
This expression is my way of capturing and sharing a memory of this
existence. It is an extended snapshot of where one consciousness
has been.
I still have most of the books that I was moved to read. They
serve as constant reminders of where my mind and consciousness has
been.
My realizations are the realizations of consciousness as she manifests
through me.
At least twice now, I've emerged from cocoons of consciousness and
spread my wings and flew. Each time there was an intense sense of
freedom and an ability to soar to new realms of experience.
The musings provide a day by day record of where one consciousness has
gone.
Why is the flow of consciousness through me so much more important than
the flow of consciousness through others? It is not necessarily
more important, it is simply different because so much more effort goes
into recording it and making it available to the world.
I chose the path of the seeker and wayshower, venturing into the
unknowns of consciousness and bringing back and sharing whatever I find.
I have spent untold hours allowing an unknown portion of me to express
as it will in this stream of consciousness fashion. What makes me
think that there is anything of ultimate value? I only know that
the expression moves me.
The words flow forth ... that which was unseen becomes seen ... the
unmanifested becomes manifest. Out of nothing, comes a creative
expression of consciousness. The process is magical. I am
engaged in the dance of consciousness. She animates and moves
me. She restoreth my soul. She leads me to exactly where I
need to be.
Who is she? Good question. She is the muse, the source of
all inspiration. She is my very soul, the spark of consciousness
that connects me to the ONE. Her beauty is everywhere, both in
the manifest and the unmanifest.
Reality is unfolding in my life exactly as it is meant to be
experienced. I have no right to second guess any of it.
Rather there is a deep trust in the very nature of consciousness and
its expression.
Can I truly be so special that consciousness would express to me in the
manner that she does?
We are ONE! One world, one race, one people, one entity, one
civilization, one consciousness ... There must be a recognition,
a realization of this simple yet great truth.
We have our own experience, but that is subject to the quirks of
memory. That is one valuable thing about this expression.
It records much about my inner world and inner life that is not
generally recorded in such a fashion. As such, I have over eight
years of records of a consciousness experiencing major transitions.
So, it seems that my own life is my laboratory. It is where I
explore the very fabric of consciousness.
It is interesting to watch the plan of consciousness unfold.
Indeed, there is such a plan ... and it is manifesting at all levels
from the individual to the whole world, and perhaps even to multiple
worlds that extend far into the galaxy and beyond.
Consciousness exists everywhere. It composes and animates
everything. It gives us life and awareness.
Ever expanding awareness, that has been virtually my sole
interest. It didn't matter whether I shared this with others, it
was enough to share this with consciousness herself.
Once again, we'll see where the stream of consciousness carries
us. I have no topic or specific message that I consciously wish
to convey. I don't really know if there is one at other than
conscious levels. I choose to freely allow whatever will come
forth to be manifest. It is here where we make what was unseen,
seen ... at least in the form of words on the screen.
Words are the fabric, the material, though which consciousness creates
forms through me.
The plan of consciousness is unfolding perfectly. There is
nothing I nor anyone else can do to slow it down or speed it up.
I clearly allow my consciousness to soar to places beyond where others
seem to go.
I still don't experience being the creator of what is being expressed
through me. I know that it comes forth from deep within me.
I watch it happen for literally hours every day. It literally
takes over 1/8 of my life, over 1/6 of my waking life. Yes, that
is a big investment. However, it is an investment that I feel
obliged to make. An investment in what you might ask? An
investment in spirit and in consciousness expressing and coming to an
understanding of itself.
Not only do our works continue to have impact even long after we have
departed this plane ... our consciousness itself continues on to other
adventures and experiences in other domains.
There is purpose in every existence. We learn and experience as
individuals, but consciousness is learning and experiencing as the
collective as well. Further, it seems consciousness is
orchestrating how ideas are communicated across the social fabric so
that they can enthuse the appropriate minds to take action to manifest
those ideas.
I don't want to limit my expression to what I can imagine. I know
that there is far more to spirit, far more to consciousness than that.
I must live my life as I believe ... in the manner that I know to be
right for me. I must march to the beat of my own drummer,
perhaps even to no beat at all if consciousness so moves me.
I am an explorer of consciousness. The unknown attracts and
excites me. It is where I choose to live, where I choose to apply
my skills.
Actually, this expression is my means of documenting my explorations of
consciousness even as I experience them.
Each of us is a unique expression of consciousness. Each of us is
experiencing life in a manner that has never occurred before, nor will
ever occur again.
You should never take more than you give!
This is the key that creates abundance. If all of us abide by
this, the net result is always a surplus. This too, we can choose
to abide by in our lives at any time. This is how we create
prosperity consciousness.
At some point, we realize that there is more to life than this, and
more to us than we know ourselves to be. At that point, the magic
appears, and the unseen portions of consciousness get enlisted to
assist in a more active manner in our lives.
I know there are other wayshowers. I've encountered several on
the internet ... it is obvious from the very nature of their
expressions that they have delved into the depths of the unknown realms
of consciousness and have come back to share of what they found to the
degree that they could. Some use poetry or prose, others art or
imagery. Regardless of the medium, the source is obvious ... it
is consciousness herself.
I know my individual nature is a suit of clothes that I wear.
Behind the clothes is the ONE consciousness that animates us all.
What the individual experiences, the whole experiences.
Consciousness learns from each and every experience, each and every
breakthrough. We are all the arms, the fingers, the feet, the
brain cells, and the mouth of consciousness. She experiences and
expresses through each and every one of us ... even more if we are
consciously aware and choose to be an active participant in the dance
of life, in the dance of consciousness through us.
This is what being a wayshower is all about ... we demonstrate our
truths in the very way we live our lives. We walk our talk, and
talk our walk. Interesting, it seems the later is exactly what I
do here ... talk my walk along the path that consciousness leads me to
tread.
That is the key, being open to new monitions of consciousness, and
allowing myself to do what I am moved to do even if it takes me out of
my comfort zone.
What is it that brings me back day after day to allow this expression
to manifest? The sheer joy of expressing whom that I AM is the
answer that I would give. Here, my inner self is given a voice in
my life. Here, consciousness is listened to and respected for all
the wisdom that she has to offer.
Here, on these pages, my consciousness is as an open book, revealing
new facets at each turn. Yes, we are all as precious stones on
the inside. It is up to us to find the stone that we are, clean
it, polish it, and even cut it into shape ... and then share the
brilliance of our light with the world.
There are things that I can do that literally no one else can do, at
least not in the same manner. Does this make me special?
Indeed it does ... it makes me a unique expression of spirit, of
consciousness. However, when you get down to it, we are all
unique expressions of source, the one consciousness that animates us
all.
But what is this thing that I call source? It is located
somewhere deep within me. It is a state of consciousness.
It is an awareness of tapping into something, of finding and expressing
that which is called intuition.
There will always be an unknown realm of possibility that exceeds
anything that I have done to date. It is at the edge of this
unknown where I do the dance of consciousness ... where I exchange
energy between the seen and the unseen, between the known and the
unknown. It is in this dance that I engage the energies of my
life. It is here where I find the things that matter to me most.
What is created here comes from a cooperative endeavor, in which whom
that I AM combines with something greater, something that I call
spirit, source or the one consciousness. The fact that I have
names for this greater whole does not mean that I understand it other
than my personal experience of interacting with it. The first
thing that comes across is a sense of the feminine. I always
experience spirit and consciousness as she.
Consciousness ever seeks to actualize more of itself ... to make
actual, to make real, to make manifest in the world more of whom that
it is through us.
There is an overall plan for the unfoldment of consciousness in this
grand play that we call life. Earth, and the world that we know
is but one playground in which spirit can express and explore whom that
it is.
We are all special beings, unique expressions of the one
consciousness. We all have something to share and something to
give to our fellow beings.
The past ten years have been a training ground for me to explore and
express my own connections to consciousness.
I allow this expression to freely wander where it will. It is
truly stream of consciousness stuff. When I am engaged in it, I
feel no need and no right to govern its direction. I am
performing a service. It is the customers needs that matter as
one provides services.
That is one of the things that distinguishes me from others ... a deep
faith in consciousness, and how she expresses in us and through us.
If we are ever going to learn what makes us tick as individuals, we
need detailed records of what consciousness does. This is one
such record.
I am a guinea pig of sorts ... with a blend of DNA, hereditary, and
environmental traits and conditions ... that has become aware enough to
express via works of consciousness. There are many things
that I do in my day to day life that are instantly forgotten, that will
never have much of an impact on anything or anyone. However, this
expression provides a snapshot of consciousness in action.
This is the record of consciousness expressing in flesh as freely as
she can through me at this time. It offers insights about the
nature of consciousness, reality, and reality creation that can point
to expanded freedom and enhanced awareness.
Life to me is a highly subjective experience. We cannot stand
back and look at it objectively. To explore the domains of
consciousness, one must be an active participant.
To me, home is not a place ... it is a state of consciousness.
This is the chronicle of an adventure in consciousness. As such
it is as important as any record or journal of an expedition or
exploration of discovery.
I am being what I was created to be as accurately as I can given my
level of awareness. Interesting ... was created to be. I am
not used to thinking in those terms. He who created me,
immediately comes to mind. That would be God. I don't think
of she who created me ... however, I do think of consciousness and
spirit as she who expresses through me. I never think of he who
expresses through me.
Yes, I still live in this world ... but my mind and soul rest in other
domains. Actually they do far more than rest. They bring
forth as much information as they can carry to express here through
me. However, it is up to me to establish a resonance by exploring
whom that I am in the unknown realms of consciousness.
My sense it is the same one consciousness that animates us all.
Everything is the expression of this one consciousness ... everything,
no exceptions.
I have found it useful to give my mind a wide berth, and to be open to
allowing consciousness to express as she will.
There is a difference between knowing something and having an awareness
of something. When we are aware of a part of ourself, we
experience being that part. Knowing can be a secondary phenomena,
a mental understanding of something. As such, it is less than
awareness. The difference is that between the mental realm and
the realm of consciousness. The mental realm is the lower of the
two. We have to go beyond mind to experience awareness.
We are incredibly powerful. We are creators, responsible for all
that we experience. This includes not only the day to day
experiences of life ... but all of the excursions into the realms of
consciousness that we take. These later can be as real or more
real than what we experience in our day to day life.
There is no stopping the actualization of the plan that consciousness
has laid out for the expression of spirit in flesh.
Life is what happens when you start paying attention to the little
things. When you do this ... it is amazing how the big things
seem to take care of themselves. Perhaps it is because all of the
big things are planned out by consciousness herself through incredible
levels of cooperation that form the foundation for reality creation.
For me, the most fascinating part of the playground is the unknown, the
edge of the abyss, the very frontiers of consciousness. It is
there that I stand excited about life as it unfolds ... enthusiastic
about what is to come forth.
How do I find my role in the world ... my true chance in
greatness? Why is it that there is such a strong inner drive
within me to achieve greatness? And, what constitutes greatness
for one such as me? It is to express that which is grand within
me. Right now, this is whatever consciousness is able to express
through me.
There is still no purpose in this writing other than to convey what
consciousness will express through me.
I like the idea of having something to show for each day that I exist,
a physical record of consciousness expressing. There is something
about writing it down that makes it real for me.
There are no secrets of which consciousness is not aware.
It is as if I've been a candle blowing in the wind. That is what
this stream of consciousness is. However, the candle seems to be
my light and the wind seems to be generated by consciousness
herself. As a result, consciousness controls the direction in
which the flame of the candle blows.
The universe is a big place. Consciousness is even far greater
... occupying not only the universe but many dimensions that science
does not choose to recognize.
It still amazes me as to how little we collectively know about
consciousness. This is something primary to us all that we
experience all of the time. Yet, how few of us distinguish
between the states of consciousness that we experience. How few
of us have learned how to engage in particular states on demand.
In over 18 years of formal education from kindergarten through a MSEE,
I did not have a single course that dealt with the nature of
consciousness, or the fact that we have a variety of states of
consciousness. Why is this? Why should something so
fundamental to our being be absent from our training?
We need whole individuals operating with their whole minds in full
consciousness.
Inner states of consciousness are a bit more difficult to deal
with. For one thing they are far more subjective. For
another, it is not clear how to characterize and distinguish between
states. Perhaps that is because I have not applied sufficient
discipline and committed to sufficient study in this realm. You
might say that the very state I enter when I generate these musings is
an altered state of consciousness. However, it is not that
straightforward. It is not like I turn it on and off and am
solely in a particular state at a time. My awareness is a
concurrent process.
My sense is that if we were all doing this, there is a higher level
organization that the collective consciousness is actively manifesting
in which we all have our roles to play.
The plan of consciousness unfolds in its own timing. Yet, at the
same time we are consciousness in expression ... so, however we are
moved to express is part of the plan of consciousness too. That
means our will as well is the will of consciousness expressing through
us.
Once again we start with a blank slate and allow consciousness to come
forth and express as she will. We do this freely without any
mental reservation. We do it because we can ... and moreover
because we must.
I have a very high opinion of myself and my abilities. Perhaps
this is higher than it should be, perhaps not. It is what it
is. It is for me to live with. It allows me to have the
courage to express in this manner. It allows me to believe enough
in myself and in the nature of spirit expressing through me to allow
this stream of consciousness to come forth as it will. I trust
that consciousness knows exactly what she is doing even if I do not.
So, what do I expect of life? I expect it to challenge me to be
all that that I can be. I expect it to provide me with the
experiences necessary to come to know myself and the nature of the one
consciousness to which I am connected ... of which I am part. I
expect it to move me to express all that I am as necessary to carry out
my mission.
I truly consider this to be a precious gift ... first from
consciousness to me, but also from consciousness through me to
you. At this point in my life, my sense is that this is indeed
the greatest gift that I can give to the world.
In expressing in this manner, I perform a service. At the very
least, it is a service to myself and a service to consciousness.
Hopefully, it is a service to others as well. If not today ...
maybe some day.
We can make things happen ... but it is usually better to allow spirit
to do her works in our lives. Consciousness knows what needs to
be done and through whom. We know this as well ... just not
consciously.
Everything that consciousness knows is open to us when we can get to
the right vibration from which to ask. Jesus said it clearly ...
seek and ye shall find, ask and ye shall be answered, knock and the
door shall be opened unto thee. Or, something to that effect.
My sense is that all that I need to do is continue in this manner ...
allowing consciousness to express through me as she will. She is
what animates my life. She is what gives me purpose and
direction. By her grace, I live the very life that I live.
Why her? Because spirit/consciousness has always expressed in the
feminine for me.
How is it that I can speak with authority on such issues as the nature
of being, consciousness, and reality creation? I simply don't
know how it is possible ... I just observe that it is so.
This is where the unmanifest becomes manifest. This is where
words and ideas are given birth. The parents seem to be my own
consciousness plus an equally important unseen that appears as a voice
within ... she is spirit or consciousness herself to me.
There is something important about stream of consciousness
expression. It reveals a lot about the nature of consciousness
... about it's organization, or lack thereof; but most importantly,
about its immediacy.
In many ways I am the same as all the others. Yet, Jonathan
Livingston Seagull comes to mind. My interests are not like those
of the other gulls, focused on eating and meeting the basic needs for
existence and survival. My focus is on flying ... soaring in
consciousness to the degree that I can.
Just as Jonathan so loved to fly that it consumed his attention and
focus, even to the point of forgetting to take care of basic physical
needs .... so, I love the expression of consciousness. I too,
have gone overboard in this ... enough to be considered crazy, or at
least highly manic.
Where do I go to learn more at a far more rapid pace? How do I
tap into the collective experience of all those who have come before
me? I don't have to learn everything myself. I can stand on
the shoulders of giants. However, one problem with that is that
the structures that are built are only as sound as the
foundations. Those who have made their discoveries in
consciousness in the past did so based on the times in which they lived
and the prevalent belief systems of their time. Actually,
prevalent may be far too strong. The most developed among us have
always been out of step with the mainstream and walked to the beat of
our own drummer.
Life itself, is the expression of consciousness in flesh. One
question that comes to mind is what about the expression of
consciousness outside of flesh? The sense is that while we are in
this existence, unless it is expressed in flesh it doesn't count.
Does what I have to say have any ultimate utility and value? Is
it meant to impact more than me? Or, is it for my eyes
only? Does it truly matter? There is a sense that yes, it
does. That it would be a waste if this expression were not to
reach an audience of some type. It is not clear that an audience
of one is sufficient. Then again ... what does it say about the
nature of consciousness and of reality creation if all of this is
indeed for me and me alone? What does it say of the value of each
individual that the universe is willing and able to go to such an
extent to meet my needs ... even needs of which I am not consciously
aware? It says a lot ... it says that each of us as individuals
is precious. It says that each of us is worthy of Herculean
efforts on the part of consciousness. It says that each of us
will experience exactly what we need to develop into the beings that we
need to be to know and carry out our missions.
This expression could not see the light of day without me. Nor
could it see the light of day without consciousness. This is not
the consciousness that I possess, rather it is the one consciousness
that animates us all.
There is always the difficult choice of coming here and giving voice to
the flow of consciousness or spending my time selecting from and
repackaging some of what has come before.
Beyond Imagination is effectively an organization of one. The
sense that I just got was and rightly so for it deals primarily with
the greater expression of the one consciousness in flesh through all of
us collectively.
To whom are these words expressed? Clearly to me. But, also
to an audience that is unseen. The very fact that this expression
could come forth in this manner, could be manifest in flesh is a major
breakthrough for consciousness. Literally, this is a process by
which consciousness is breaking through into flesh, and hence into the
world.
When we choose to listen to the voice of consciousness within, and act
in a manner that is congruent with that voice ... we allow spirit to do
her works through us.
I will have the impact that I am meant to have by being whom that I AM
as fully as I can, and by doing that which I am moved to do to the best
of my abilities. What this impact will be is ultimately in the
hands of consciousness, not me. Not that I am relinquishing any
responsibility. Rather, I am acknowledging that the one
consciousness from which we spring holds the strings and runs the show.
As an explorer of consciousness, it is not necessary for me to know who
benefits from my reports of my journeys.
Interesting ... we see the elephant from different sides, not realizing
that all that has changed is our point of view. And this, we have
complete control over. We are free to observe things from any
point of view. However, it may take some training to be able to
reach the states of consciousness from which these points of view are
seen.
This expression is where I allow myself full reign to be whom that I
AM, and to express that as fully as consciousness will allow.
This is also where I discover whom that I AM, as I venture out and
explore the unknown realms of consciousness. The unknown is not
such a scary place ... it can be challenging, and even
invigorating. Then again, my destiny seems to involve being an
explorer of consciousness.
I follow my intuition and my stream of consciousness wherever she takes
me.
There is something about this expression that is special. It
seems far more organized than normal stream of consciousness
stuff. Then again, I haven't had much experience reading such
material from others, so I have no basis of comparison.
I trust consciousness so deeply that I have no fear of losing my mind
... as if I had something to say in the matter.
Life is about the expression of spirit in flesh. We are the
instruments of consciousness. She orchestrates all that is
expressed.
Is it true that I see what no one else can see? Am I that unique
of an expression of consciousness?
This endeavor is a bold new expression of consciousness. It
results in the creation of something that has never been expressed in
this manner before. Each of us is a unique expression of
consciousness. Never before has spirit expressed in the manner it
does both personally and collectively.
To stretch our consciousness, we must stretch our minds. We must
learn to think in new ways, ways that go beyond reasoning and rational
thinking.
My hope is that this stream of consciousness allows you to walk in my
shoes so to speak ... and in doing so allows you to experience life
differently as a result. This is my way of sharing what I see,
feel, and know in the most intimate manner that I can.
I write on and on and on, grateful to serve as a vessel through which
consciousness can express as she will. There is something magical
about this process, about tapping into this stream of consciousness in
this manner. This is where I get to play and to soar as high as
the wings of awareness can take me.
That is what you get from stream of consciousness material. Any
organization comes from hidden parts of ourselves. It is
interesting to see what flows forth ... and to contemplate what kinds
of intelligence were necessary for the expression to take place in the
manner that it did.
I find it curious that I have so much to say here in this stream of
consciousness ... yet, realtime, I have little to communicate with
others.
Observe without attachment and without expectation. It is
important to be open to seeing what is there, as well as what could
be. We can trust source to come up with the means of getting us
from what is there to what could be. However, source needs us as
her eyes and her hands. This gets back to the reality that there
is only ONE Consciousness ... and we are all parts of that, individual
cells within the same one whole.
The art of living for me involves maximizing my output and service to
the world. At this point in my life, recording this stream of
consciousness seems to be a major part of this. It provides a
means for me to make a difference while allowing me to be and express
whom that I AM.
There is only ONE consciousness. It is not necessary for others
to experience what I have experienced. However, it may be helpful
for others to be exposed to the stream of consciousness that has been
expressed as a result of all of this.
Yes, I have asked from where this flow originates. The only
answer I have found acceptable is that it comes from source within me
... a source that links me to the ONE consciousness that animates us
all. Clearly, it does not originate from outside of me.
Yet, I am not consciously aware of the exact place from which it
comes. I only know that it is inward and that it is somehow a
part of whom that I AM.
I choose to expend a significant fraction of my time engaged in this
expression. Partly, because I am moved to do it. Partly,
because I am addicted to expressing in this manner. Partly,
because I believe that what is coming through is new and different ...
a unique expression of consciousness.
Direct knowingness is a faculty that lies within us all. It comes
from a deep connection to source, the ONE consciousness which is
omniscient. It knows everything, because it is EVERYTHING.
Hmm ... everything that is known at that point in time. This
changes in each moment, as new discoveries are made and the sum of the
collective knowledge increases.
There is something about soaring in consciousness that allows me to see
and experience reality in a different manner than most.
This is how we personally experience being ONE consciousness. We
connect with others in ways that allow us to blend and merge our
energies, interrelate, and enter into cooperatively interdependent
relationships.
I believe that everything we read, hear, and experience is recorded and
captured somehow. For some, the process is nearly
photographic. For others, like me, the process is nearly opposite
of photographic ... I forget most things almost as quickly as I see
them. They pass through my consciousness, and somehow the
appropriate connections get made so they can be recalled when needed.
There is something about spiritual expression that brings out the best
in us and in all those whose lives we touch. There is something
miraculous about engaging with consciousness in this manner.
Here, we are engaged directly in the process of co-creation, involving
creativity of a very high order.
ONE consciousness ... there is ONE consciousness animating us
all. We are ONE, in more ways then we might consider
possible. What we do to one, we do to all. What any one of
us experience, all of us experience. What any one of us know, the
whole knows ... and that knowingness can be shared with anyone else at
any time.
Sharing involves a give and take. Where none consume, the sharing
has not really occurred. Yet, there is always at least one party
to any sharing that is done ... namely, the ONE consciousness herself.
I am to be a wayshower ... but it is not clear to whom I am showing the
way. It just may be to consciousness herself so that she can
learn what is necessary to guide others to awaken more fully. Hmm
... I've never thought of it in that way before. That is where
the for your eyes only, only for you idea comes into play. This
may indeed be an experiment in which the ONE consciousness is finding
out what energies can be expressed through one entity ... namely me.
The mass consciousness is being prepared for something. There are
massive changes in store ahead ... yet it only requires subtle shifts
of awareness to be ready for them and to be able to deal with them
effectively.
It is not for us to compare ourselves with another. We come from
different places and different levels of awareness, hence our choices
will be different. In fact, they will be unique to us ... for
despite appearances to the contrary, we are each unique expressions of
the one consciousness.
I am the one through whom this expression could come forth in this
manner. What does that really say about me, and what does it say
about the nature of the source of this stream of consciousness?
Clearly it speaks volumes. Literally! But, what does it
really say?
Indeed, is this expression for my eyes only? If it is, I would
have to say that I am one of the luckiest and most blessed beings
around ... that consciousness would pick me to participate in this
creation, and even more important to be aware enough to observe this
expression.
Consciousness has provided me with a true abundance ... primarily of
spirit. In return, I feel moved to share it with all whom I can.
I allow the stream of consciousness to flow where it will. I was
going to say that I blindly follow it wherever it would take me ...
however, it seems that I do so with eyes wide open, marveling at not
only the results but the very process.
Consciousness has a special place in my life. She is my
benefactor and my friend, she is my teacher and my guide, she leads me
to where I need to go when I need to be there. Through her I live
my life ... she is my inspiration. She drives me to do what I can
do ... moreover, what I must do. Without her I am lost, as a ship
without a rudder. No, it has not always been smooth sailing, but
she has always been there to help ride out the storms. I can
count on her as I count on no one else in my life ... other than
myself, and even then, she has greater strength and wisdom by
far. I can't imagine living my life without a direct connection
to her. She completes me somehow. Through her, everything
that I could ever need is brought forth unto me. I have only to
ask. And often, what I most need comes forth even before I ask.
It is high time that the amount of spiritual expression in our world
increased dramatically. However, that requires that each of us do
our part. And, even more important, it requires that those in
positions of power and influence start using their resources and
abilities in ways that serve society ... in ways deserving of the
talents that they have been so blessed to receive and the roles that
they have assumed in the play of consciousness.
I point the way to the land of spirit, to a world where consciousness
plays by different rules than apply to the consensus world.
Why am I singled out to play an important role in the play, in the
unfoldment of consciousness and its expression in flesh?
The plan of consciousness is unfolding perfectly in the world.
That is the only way that it can unfold. It can be nothing less
than perfect. That doesn't mean it is the best that it can
be. There is always room for improvement.
It seems that much of our lives are consumed in the process of day to
day existence. At the end of each day, there is little to show
for what has been expended. However, here, I have a record of
something special ... something original that I helped to make
manifest. This stream of consciousness exists ... it was captured
in electronic form and made available to the world via the WWW.
This is a service that I perform, though I have no idea of who is
served by this other than myself.
I have said before that I am very much a scribe in this process,
writing (or typing) what appears in my mind as the silent voice of
consciousness herself.
There is a sense that whom that I am is able to resonate with what I
call source in a manner that allows these words to manifest as they
do. I believe this process occurs in all of us, in the very way
that the stream of thoughts occurs in our heads. However, there
is a difference between a stream of thoughts and a stream of
consciousness. The first seems to be more of a surface
phenomenon. It is not until we quiet our minds that we touch
source and allow her to express through us.
I trust that my life is unfolding in accord with a plan that
consciousness has in store for me.
I would express whatever this consciousness can express in whatever
manner would come forth. I don't have to know how it happens, or
why it happens. It is enough that it happens. There is
nothing wrong with mysteries ... in fact, they are what make life
interesting. Indeed, they are among the most important things
that can happen to us. Life itself is a mystery, as is spirit and
consciousness.
One thing that may help is to start seeing the sparks of consciousness
within others, and realizing that we are all special and have important
gifts to give to one another.
This stream of consciousness is my primary means of spiritual
expression. It is here that I am doing what I most love to do in
a manner that is magical and special.
We are all spirit incarnate. We are all connected to the same one
consciousness some remotely by a very thin thread, others by a circuit
of great capacity.
It was as if my life began anew in 1993. By 1 October, I was in a
mental hospital, diagnosed as bipolar, and put on meds to alter my
brain chemistry. Since then, I have been soaring in
consciousness, sometimes barely off the ground, sometimes to great
heights, but most of the times cycling up and down between these
extremes.
Streams of consciousness by their very nature occur in the moment.
It still amazes me that this stream of consciousness can come forth
through me in the manner that it does. It is as if I have my
daily mystery and miracle to behold.
My life is a life of spirit. Consciousness guides me every step
of the way.
The expression comes forth from a place deep within, a place I call
source, my direct connection to the one consciousness.
When dealing with the unseen realms of consciousness, it helps to have
a guide. Some are meant to be explorers and wayshowers, but most
prefer to follow the trails ...or in some cases the roads and even the
superhighways.
We are all facets of the same one consciousness. And what do
facets do? They reflect the light, which in our case is the very
light of consciousness.
History is the record of the march of the expression of spirit in flesh
... of the unfoldment of the plan of consciousness, of the triumph of
ideas over the minds of man, and of the actualization of ideals.
We speak with a voice that comes forth from deep within. Yet we
know not truly what the source of these words are. Oh, we have
names for it ... source, intuition, the voice within, spirit,
consciousness. But, naming something does not mean that we truly
understand that thing.
I can't imagine what the past decade would have been like without this
this stream of consciousness that has flowed forth so abundantly.
We all have an inner compass that guides us. However, to use it
consciously, we must find it and then learn how to read and operate
it. Here, there seem to be substantial differences between
people. Some seem to have not only a compass, but a map, and the
ability to plan a course of action to get them to a destination.
At the other extreme, some have only an indication of what the next
step is, with limited understanding of where they are ultimately
headed. I fall in this later category ... though I also have an
abstract vision of where society is ultimately headed and the general
role that I am to play in assisting consciousness in getting there.
Awareness is extremely important. You might say that all forms
are houses for awareness. As time progresses ... the forms
increase in complexity, permitting the greater embodiment of
consciousness.
My life is meant to be lived in the unknown, in the wilderness of
consciousness.
This very expression is one of the markers that I leave. It is
the record of where one consciousness has gone. It allows you to
walk in my shoes for awhile, or my mind if you will. By following
this stream of consciousness, perhaps you will awaken to a similar
stream that lies within you.
We are all responsible for ourselves, our families, our society, and
our world. Though for the later three we are only partially
responsible. It helps if we accept our responsibilities
willingly. However, in accepting them, we also need to take the
appropriate actions to fulfill them. We will know what these
are. Consciousness will tell us. All that it takes is for
us to look within and ask.
For me, written communication is one such area of gifts from
spirit. Hopefully, that is obvious from what is expressed
here. But, that may or may not be the case. Further, this
communication is different because it is not mine alone. It is a
co-creation that involves an equally important unseen counterpart
... namely source, the one consciousness herself.
There is something about Eagles that come to mind ... they don't flock,
you find them one at a time. It seems that explorers of
consciousness are no different. Each is as a lone wolf in the
wilderness ... experiencing a reality that is different than all others.
It is our actions which show consciousness what we are serious
about. When we believe something enough to base our actions on
the belief ... we empower the belief to do its work in our lives.
There is no way that I could be making all this up. There are
simply too many coincidences. There is a fabric being
revealed. The very fabric of reality itself. It seems that
it is time for us to take notice of the fabric and start to tailor it
to what we would have it be. Interesting. We are talking
about imposing our will on the fabric of reality and creating a world
that is of our choosing. We have the skills. We have the
technology, not just scientific ... but technology of
consciousness. It is a matter of teaching the best of what is
known to as many as we can, and allowing the full force of spirit to be
unleashed to do her works in our lives.
How can I know that there is only one consciousness? There is
something within that knows this to be true. I need no more than
this.
My life is clearly an adventure in consciousness. That is where I
spend a great deal of my free time anyway. That is where I find
value and meaning as I do nowhere else. As an explorer of
consciousness, I love dealing with the realm of the unknown.
However, I also love bringing back and sharing of what I find.
The nature of consciousness and its expression are the topics that
consume my attention. All else pales by comparison.
Once more the blank page awaits what consciousness would express
here. I never know what is going to come forth in advance.
However, I am always pleasantly surprised. This is where I make
the unmanifest manifest. This is where the words flow forth from
an inner place that I know only as source, the place from which I tap
into the energy of consciousness herself.
That is a problem with becoming too attached to where we are at ... we
become afraid to leave it for something new. It is better to
experience what we know, than to risk the jump to something new which
we do not yet know. However, that is not how explorers of
consciousness function. We are ever ready to take the next step,
in whatever direction consciousness leads, because we know that
consciousness knows exactly where she is taking us ... and wherever
this is is the right place for us to be next.
Part of the meaning of life comes in how we handle the challenges that
we experience. This includes how we face and come to grips with
our demons and our fears. All of this requires awareness on our
part ... in particular, self-awareness. This is not generally
taught in schools, even through most graduate curriculums. We
have to wander off the conventional education paths to find books,
classes, and experiences that provide suitable training for our
consciousness and our whole self.
There is only one consciousness that animates us all. We are the
portion of that one consciousness experiencing life as we do and
expressing in the manner that we do. One of our tasks is to
realize our interconnectedness with others.
We are each unique expressions of the one consciousness, and it is for
us to experience reality in the way that is right for us.
I have no way to know what impact this stream of consciousness will
ultimately have.
Namaste! For those of you new to that word, its common meaning is
the spirit within me bows to the spirit within you. Actually,
this is easy to do since they are one and the same. There is but
one consciousness that animates us all.
Why are we not taught of whom that we truly are? Why are we not
taught that we are spirit in flesh? Why are we not taught how our
minds function? Why are we not taught that we create our reality
and how we do it? Why are we not taught the nature of
consciousness? Why are we not taught that there are levels of
awareness and what these levels are? Why are we not taught how
special and precious we are? Why are we not taught that we have a
mission to perform and how to accomplish it? Why are we not
taught about the interconnectedness of all things and the importance of
cooperative interdependence?
It still amazes me how much time goes into this expression. It
also amazes me how easy this stream of consciousness pours forth.
I have nothing to account for it, no real way to explain it.
What is it about awareness that makes it so difficult to achieve?
Perhaps, because it is not a state of mind, rather a state of
consciousness
There is something exciting about being an explorer of consciousness
and a wayshower. This is what I am meant to do. This is
what excites me to my very core. This is where I have had
experiences that send shivers down my spine and throughout my
body. This is where I live my life. I stand on the edge of
the abyss of the unknown ... yet I know full well that I am safe, that
I can always count on spirit to guide me as to where to take the next
step.
We are the vehicles through which consciousness expresses in flesh ...
doing her works in the world. We are the legs, the feet, the
arms, the hands, the eyes, the voice, and even the brain of
consciousness.
Right now, this expression is still my primary outlet ... my primary
spiritual work. This is still what I love to do. It is
where I learn of whom that I AM. It is also where I learn of the
nature of spirit, and spiritual expression ... as well as the nature of
consciousness itself.
Where do we go to discover how consciousness works? We go
within. Nothing beats firsthand experience.
I am an explorer of consciousness. Venturing forth into the
unknown and reporting of what I find is what I do.
We are consciousness enfleshed. It is important that we not
lose sight of this. Consciousness should ever be on the forefront
of our minds. It is through her that we are granted this precious
thing called life. It is our job to make the most of this special
gift we have been granted.
The record of consciousness in expression that is captured here is
highly important somehow ... not just to me, but to consciousness
herself. Why should she care? Primarily because all such
expression provides an indication of the state of the world and its
readiness to serve the cosmic plan for the unfolding of the flower of
consciousness.
There is no purpose for the expression other than to reveal what
consciousness can express through me.
Awareness is the vehicle through which this stream of consciousness
becomes manifest in the world.
I can be self-reliant and still exist within a circle, a hoop that
connects everything and everyone. This simply requires that I
rely on my Self ... in whatever circumstances I find myself. That
does not mean that I cannot interact with others ... for at some level
there is only ONE consciousness, one Self of which we all are part.
When we come from the perspective of ONE consciousness, we see everyone
as cells in a single body that constitutes all humankind and perhaps
even all beings.
As a wayshower, my life is meant to provide an example of what can
be. In particular, it seems that I am supposed to demonstrate how
consciousness can express through us ... how we can express spirit more
fully in flesh.
Am I on the razors edge between sanity and insanity ... perhaps.
But if so, it is an edge that I am meant to experience and to express
from. Why? Simple to provide a reference point ... a marker
of where one consciousness has been. And, where I have been able
to go, others can reach as well, hopefully more easily because I have
attempted to show the way via this record of where my consciousness has
wandered. Yes, wandered is a good term to use for one who allows
a stream of consciousness to express.
Am I so important that consciousness would allow me to experience all
that I have experienced and express it in this way for my sole
benefit? My hope is no ... that I would have what I have seen and
learned and experienced be expressed in a manner that makes a true
difference in society and in the world.
I am the first to give credit to the source within as well. From
her springs this expression. I am the willing instrument, but it
is not me that generates all of this. Consciousness plays me as
she will. And, I gladly serve her in whatever way I can.
My preference is to engage my energies and talents on the edge of the
unknowns of consciousness, to venture where I can, and to bring back
what I find to the degree that I can.
I serve in her majesties service. Interesting. Also, I
serve at the pleasure of spirit. I am a vessel through
which consciousness does her work. Yes, I am a being with a
consciousness all my own. But, this is just a compartment of the
one consciousness of which we all are part. I exist as an
individual only so long as it serves spirit for me to be so.
There is indeed one hoop, one richly interconnected web that touches
and contains us all. I would label that entity consciousness ...
the one consciousness from which we all spring.
I experience consciousness firsthand and subjectively. That is
the only way to truly experience consciousness ... except, of course,
being asleep. But, the new age is about awakening to whom that we
are and especially to the consciousness within us.
My life will unfold exactly as it need to for my mission to be
accomplished. Yes, this requires a deep trust in the universe, in
the very nature of consciousness and of spiritual expression.
There is a sense that these words will ultimately have a greater impact
somehow, a world impact. Yes, it is audacious of me to think
so. However it seems just as audacious to think that all of this
could be happening simply for my personal benefit. It seems like
such a waste of effort if this expression of consciousness does not
reach the mind, hearts, and spirits of others somehow.
We know that the body and the brain cease to be animated at
death. Physically they still exist, essentially as they did the
moment before death. However, the life that animated them ... the
consciousness that enabled awareness to be manifest, is no longer
connected to the body and the brain. Our beingness cannot be
extinguished, however. We are eternal and immortal ... at some
level of our being.
It seems that my time is best expended by bringing forth new monitions
of consciousness.
I trust the integrity of my being. I allow my life to flow as it
will ... just as I allow this stream of consciousness to flow.
Am I one of the "great" players in the area of the expression of
consciousness? The mania and grandiosity rear their heads
again. Yet these very writings are the proof that I offer that I
delve into areas that most do not. Further, that I am at home in
this domain ... that this is where my consciousness soars, that this is
where my natural abilities shine.
I don't consider myself to be religious. I worship no gods.
I do not pray. I do not belong to any religious
organization. Yet, I consider myself to be highly
spiritual. I speak of the realm of spirit ... and of the
connection to spirit ... and of the expression of spirit in
flesh. And, I know that everything is spirit in expression, is
consciousness manifest in form.
My path is the path of the transcendentalists ... many of my favorite
quotes (other than my own) come from Emerson, Thoreau, and Channing,
one of their predecessors. I believe in a realm beyond the
physical one, a spiritual realm where the bulk of the work of reality
creation gets done. I believe that there is ONE consciousness
that animates us all, a collective consciousness, if you will, that is
aware of and learns from every experience of every individual.
There is something about this record that is special. Here, we
see a stream of consciousness in all its glory and all its frailty.
These words are the starting point. They are my spiritual works,
if you will. Are they enough? My sense is no, so long as I
am living and breathing ... what has come before is never enough.
There is always the next step to take, the next work to do, the next
expression of consciousness to manifest. This is to be my
lifelong work. I would have it no other way. I have
chosen to live a life of spiritual expression. That is all that
truly matters to me.
I see consciousness as the highest form of expression and experience
that we can bring into our reality.
It is obvious that my path has been almost solely an inner one.
It is also obvious that my path is not for everyone. And, perhaps
it is for no one other than me. Though, I still feel driven to
leave this record of where my consciousness has wandered. I do it
in hope that others may benefit from it. Exactly how this might
happen is still unknown.
Day after day, week after week, month after month, I open up Composer
and allow this stream of consciousness to flow forth. My
experience is that each time I open Composer the words start to flow
and continue to flow so long as I allow it to. Sometimes they
flow faster and at other times slower depending on the quality of the
connection. This is also dependent on my state of consciousness.
It seems that there is so little that is known in the realm of
consciousness. My firsthand observation shows that there is much
that I am aware of but that I don't really understand how it works or
why it is. I suspect that this is because there is little that is
known. Then again ... that may be presumptuous on my part.
There is much research underway throughout the world. Perhaps it
would help to find out what the latest in brain research and the
understanding of consciousness have to offer.
There is a grand plan at play ... a spiritual plan that involves the
unfoldment of consciousness and its expression in flesh.
There is a sense that the expression needs to reach someone other than
me. Though, the words for your eyes only still haunt me. It
is though they have been written expressly to warn me of a possible
reality. It could be that all of this is an elaborate training
ground for me to learn of whom that I AM so that I can become the best
vehicle for the expression of consciousness in flesh that I can
be. If so, it says a lot about the lengths to which the universe
will go for the benefit of a single individual.
When we operate from spirit, we blur the line of individuality.
We express from a connectivity to the collective. This is a
matter of where our awareness resides. From my experience, this
constantly fluctuates. However, the overall trend is towards
greater awareness, and an increased tie to the collective, to the ONE
source, the ONE consciousness that animates us all. We can
influence where on this spectrum we spend our time.
Hmm ... is this expression effective? Good question. That
depends on its purpose. The sole purpose that I have for it is to
capture the stream of consciousness that is able to flow through
me. Why the stream flows through me in the manner that it does is
not something that I have even questioned before.
I am not whom that I was prior to 1993, nor 1998, nor 2002, nor the
preceding moment for that matter. I picked these years, in
particular, because of the magnitude of the transformations of
consciousness that occurred. I have no means of knowing how
common or unique my experience truly is. My sense is that it is
quite rare. Yes, signs of grandiosity again. But, how else
can I explain all that is expressed here?
Thus far, my sharing has been primarily a one way expression ...
involving recording a stream of consciousness and making it available
on the WWW.
As a wayshower and explorer of consciousness, being able to record a
stream of consciousness is a very important thing. By recording
it in a manner that can be posted to the WWW ... the result is a
signpost, a marker, or a candle that can show or light the way for
others.
I've had several jumps in consciousness, where I was suddenly aware
that I was more than I knew myself to be before.
My legacy will be the words that I leave and the deeds that I do.
My children will be those spawned by my consciousness. And, it
seems they are not all mine ... they belong to spirit for they spring
forth from her.
Everything meaningful in my life has a strong metaphysical and thus
spiritual component. More than any other description, I am
consciousness having a physical experience.
Consciousness is a very big place to explore. Awareness is the
personal aspect that connection to consciousness brings into our lives.
It is consciousness that animates us, each and every moment.
Every moment, life is renewed. Each moment is a death and a new
birth. Similarly, each night is a death to the waking
consciousness, and each morning a rebirth of that consciousness.
My physical body may die, my brain may cease its functioning, my
physical life will cease ... but my consciousness shall continue on in
whatever manner is appropriate to it. This manner will be highly
dependent on the awareness achieved during life. That is why the
directive know thyself is so important.
What is the purpose of this particular expression of this stream of
consciousness? My hope is that it will serve as a useful example
and will be indisputable evidence that one such as me has existed.
What would I do to make a difference in the world? For that is
what I expect of myself. Anything less is simply not living up to
my potential, which is unacceptable to me. That is a standard
that I set for myself. And, I will do whatever it take to achieve
it. For the most part, this requires becoming the best vehicle
through which spirit can express that I can. This stream of
consciousness is one of the means that I practice doing this. So,
effectively, if you are reading this ... you are experiencing my
practice sessions. Eventually, our practice is sufficient and we
play the game for real or we perform for a live audience. This
will be new for me. However, I am looking forward to the change.
The whole is the synergistic result of a collective cooperative
effort. Because of this, there are no limits to what it can be
and what it can achieve. However, we must recognize that there is
an intelligence, a consciousness that is behind and causes the
expression in flesh. This intelligence is limited in expression
only to the degree that the forms are limited. Because of this,
awareness is critical. Our awareness is the level of
consciousness that we have experienced in this lifetime.
There is a divine plan for the unfoldment of consciousness. From
the beginning it has pushed the individual and collective consciousness
to ever greater awareness and to ever greater expression of spirit in
flesh.
God is the creator, but spirit is the animating force that expresses
through us. My connection is still with consciousness, with the
spirit within. Though, it seems that this may be subject to
change as well.
Consciousness has a special place in life. It is for her that I
live. It is in her service that I exist. I cannot imagine
living life in any other manner.
I must live my life in my own way. It is not in the cards for me
to follow in the footsteps of others. Where I am to go, few, if
any, have been. Is this because my knowledge of my predecessors
is limited? Or, is it because there are still so few explorers of
consciousness and the domain of the unknown is so vast, that our paths
seldom cross.
This expression is not a regurgitation of what I have learned
anywhere. It is far more than that. I don't know how it is
generated, other than knowing that it is a stream of consciousness that
flows forth from source. This source is my direct connection to
spirit or the one consciousness.
There have been few true explorers in all of history. Explorers
of consciousness are no different. We are rare among the
populace. It takes special abilities to do what we do. No,
this does not make us any better than anyone else. It just makes
us suited to do particular jobs for which our talents and disposition
qualify us.
Why aren't we taught more about whom that we are, how our minds
function, how our consciousness works? Perhaps this is because
the conventional education system simply does not know. My
sources for all of this for over 28 years have been outside of any
formal training that I have received.
One thing that characterizes us is an uncompromising reliance on
intuition. We deal with a realm where reason has its uses but
also its limits. It must be supplemented by powers much greater
... powers which are at home in the unknown territory of consciousness
... powers which will not be restricted to what can be proven, but
which ever seek to manifest and express more than has been expressed
before.
The bottom line is that each of us find exactly that information that
we need to experience when we need to know it. Consciousness
operates on a need to know basis.
We are consciousness expressing in flesh already. It is a matter
of focusing on this, and finding out how it works. Where is the
interface that allows us to see consciousness in operation first
hand. I have said before that it is via the intuition. This
is our tap to the source within.
I come to this place where I meet with the source within and I allow it
to express as it will. This is done in a cooperative and
interdependent way. I don't know exactly how it works. I
simply know that I can go to this place inside and make the connection
that allows this stream of consciousness to flow forth as it does.
I am to be a wayshower. Perhaps I already am. Or, at least,
I am acting as if I am. This expression, this recording of a
stream of consciousness, is one of my ways of doing this.
There is a sense that everything is playing out according to plans ...
not my plans, but spirit's plans. I am comfortable with
this. It is OK to allow her to take the lead in the dance that is
my life. Yes, mine is a dance of consciousness.
My hope is that the words trigger you to experience altered states of
consciousness in which you experience being more than you knew yourself
to be. That is all that can be expected of a wayshower.
I am moved by a force that goes unseen which drives this stream of
consciousness that I experience and express.
How do I turn this raw stream of consciousness into refined works
suitable for others?
I trust that consciousness knows what she is doing. In
particular, she knows how best to use my abilities in her service.
We get what we focus upon. If we spend our time focusing on
consciousness, spirit, and awareness we reap the rewards of our efforts.
There is part of me that seeks to understand the whole. There is
part of me that realizes my connection to the ONE consciousness.
It is the realm of consciousness that matters to me most. That is
where I live out my life.
Life for me is the expression of consciousness, the expression of
spirit in flesh.
When we do the work of consciousness ... we give up some level of
control to participate in something far greater than ourselves.
What does it mean to be spiritual? We are all spirit expressing
in flesh already. However, this is not sufficient to lead a
spiritual life. It takes something more. It takes a
commitment to consciousness. It takes a commitment to expressing
the unseen within us.
When we awaken, it is as if the full light of spirit shines upon
us. Prior to this, there is an inward trickle that ties us to
source. It takes major self work to find this trickle and to
develop it so that it increases to a stream of consciousness.
Writing is one of the main things that I am here to do. And
writing that comes forth from the deep well of consciousness is the
most important writing that I can create.
Consciousness is ever on my mind. She moves me to express and to
do things ... generally things that are relevant to carrying out my
mission in accordance with my destiny.
What if all of this is for my eyes only? What does it tell us
about consciousness? What does it tell us about individual
expression ... and the role of the individual in the larger scheme of
things?
One of the benefits of this expression is the very fact that it creates
something that did not exist before. It is proof that I existed
and experienced a given stream of consciousness.
Everything in my life is there by design, is part of a grand plan being
executed by consciousness.
I believe that there is a spiritual plan involving the evolution of
consciousness and the greater and greater expression of spirit in
flesh. We are all part of that plan. No, we are not pawns
being moved on a chessboard. Rather, we are active participants
in the game of life.
There is a grand plan of consciousness. Each of us has a
spiritual destiny. Everything that happens does so for a reason.
There are many things that I do that others do not seem to do.
This very expression is one of those things. Why is it so
important to capture this stream of consciousness? And, why am I
moved to share this expression in the manner that I do?
I definitely operate outside of any norms that seem to exist.
Some people live their lives physically on the edge. It seem that
I live my mentally and spiritually on the edge. I value
consciousness highly ... and awareness.
Destiny ... yes, there is a grand plan of consciousness unfolding not
only in each of our lives, but en masse in the life of the world.
Life is a voyage of discovery ... in particular, discovery of the realm
of consciousness. It is amazing when we see life as the
expression of spirit that it is.
Why numbers? Why does the universe speak to me in this
manner? Perhaps it is because this is the language that I happen
to understand, that is, if you could call what I come up with
understanding. I find what I am moved to find. I allow
consciousness via my intuition to lead me where she will.
What is it that makes me able to write in this manner? From where
does the material for this expression come forth? The only answer
I can give is from the inner reaches of my consciousness ... from the
very depth of my being.
There is some reason that I have trained to become a systems
engineer. Understanding complex systems is what I do. The
techniques that I use in my work apply here in my attempts to explore
and understand the nature of consciousness and of reality creation.
When we live a life of spirit, we go beyond personal responsibility ...
we enter a realm where our lives become a very part of the ONE
consciousness. Our life becomes the very life of the
universe. We resonate with the chord that is ours to play.
Until we find it, it is a lost chord.
Each of us take on change to the degree that we can and to the degree
that is necessary for our lives to unfold in accord with the plan of
consciousness.
For many, bipolar disorder is debilitating. It involves cycles of
depression followed by periods of mania that are out of control to the
point where behavior is destructive. In my case, my consciousness
goes from lightly soaring to reaching grand heights.
The mind can be a difficult thing to fathom. And, consciousness,
is even more mysterious. Yet, it is the very mystery that is the
attractive force. Then again, perhaps that is because one of my
missions involves being an explorer of consciousness. This is one
of the few domains truly worthy of all that I have to offer.
Being aware is a very developed faculty of consciousness. We are
all aware, but it seems that some are far more aware than others.
That is to be expected. Awareness is a tool of
consciousness. It is more developed and more refined than most of
the processes of the mind.
The body is a house for the brain, the brain is a house for the mind,
the mind is a house for consciousness, consciousness is a house for
spirit.
On the evolutionary ladder, that makes the expression of spirit through
consciousness one of the most powerful things that we can do in flesh.
It is strange expressing in this manner again. Yet, it is also so
familiar. This is a state of consciousness that I am accustomed
to having spent many hundreds of hours here in this year alone.
Here is where I encounter source. Here is where I allow a stream
of consciousness to flow forth from within.
It is important to take the time to sit back and observe what is
happening and how we feel about it even in the midst of doing it.
To some degree that is what I do here. Though, this stream of
consciousness goes far beyond anything that happens in my typical days.
Each day of expression is a mystery. It forces me to confront
things that I cannot explain ... not only that, but things that I think
that no one may be able to explain. That is OK. The unknown
is a place that I venture often. That is what explorers do.
And, I consider myself to be an explorer of consciousness.
I have no basis for comparing my experience of reality to that of
others. All that I have is a body of works that document where my
consciousness has ventured for nearly a decade. This is what
distinguishes me.
Everything happens when it needs to happen. There is a grand plan
of consciousness that is unfolding ... in particular, the expression of
spirit in flesh.
The web of consciousness in which we are enmeshed is incredibly rich
with interconnectivity. Through this web, we are related to
everyone and everything.
We are always the embodiment of consciousness, of spirit, in one form
or another ... and we are always connected to other forms within the
game.
It is the wilderness of consciousness where I can be whom that I truly
am.
In a very real way there is only ONE source, one consciousness from
which we all spring. No, I can't prove that such is the
case. It comes from a direct knowingness. It just feels
right. In the end there can be only ONE! In the beginning
there was only ONE. In the middle there can be only ONE, though
it be expressed and experienced as a multitude.
Seek consciousness and awareness first, and all else will come to you.
Consciousness is my home. This stream of consciousness is the
most natural way to use my talents. It doesn't matter where it
leads in the long run. The journey is everything, and on the
journey there is always room for one more step.
I have a predisposition to grandiosity ... yes, I'm the first to admit
that. But, I believe that I have the abilities to back it
up. Further, at least it is a benign grandiosity manifesting as a
desire to serve in a manner that has world import. In the end,
time will tell. I'll either achieve something spectacular or I
won't. My bet is on the former ... and I will do all that I can
to win that bet. This expression is a grand start. Here
there is a record of a decade of the wanderings of an aware
consciousness.
This expression is the record of a stream of consciousness. As
such, it captures snapshots of consciousness in action in ways that few
other records do. This is not about consciousness trying to do
something. Rather, it is about a consciousness coming to grips
with whom that it is and the reality that it experiences.
This is not the stuff of bestsellers. This is not meant to hold
the attention of the masses. Then, what is it meant to do?
It is meant to show what one consciousness connected to source can do.
My nature is that of an explorer and wayshower … in particular, an
explorer of consciousness. This indeed is one frontier that is
wide open. Further, its depths are so great that we may never be
able to fathom them.
The plan of consciousness is unfolding in our lives. It impacts
every one of us in whatever way is right for us.
There is something about experiencing the expression that is doing
something to me, that is changing whom that I know myself to be, that
is awakening my consciousness in ways that I did not know were even
possible. This alone is worthy of the time and effort expended.
This is one of my prime pleasures in life. That consciousness
would choose me for this role ... or that I would volunteer and come
into this existence precisely for this is fascinating to me.
The expression needs no purpose. It is not written for anyone in
particular, except perhaps for me. There is no audience of whom I
am aware, either intended or actual. Yet, here I am engaged with
consciousness allowing this stream of words to flow forth.
Perhaps if you swim in this stream of consciousness for awhile you will
be taken to places and states of mind that empower you and that enable
you to serve in ways that have escaped you to date.
This expression allows me to touch the mysterious, the magical realm of
consciousness in a very direct way ... and further, to do this on a
regular basis. What is expressed is beyond what I consciously
know. And, how it is created is well beyond anything that I
fathom. The flow of consciousness is there. I didn't create
the flow, I simply tap into it and express in words what I can from the
experience.
I continue to express in whatever manner consciousness chooses to
express through me. I have no clue as to what is coming next.
There is something addicting about working with consciousness in this
manner. There are no books and no directions. More often
than not, there are no trails that I follow. Here is where I
touch the unknown. Here is where the unmanifest becomes manifest
... at least in terms of a stream of consciousness expressed in words.
Here, I engage whom that I AM with the unknown realms of consciousness
and bring back and share of what I find. I consider this to be by
far the most important thing that I do in my life.
This expression is one of my means for discovering what is
within. That is the source of this stream of consciousness.
Though, I am not aware of how the source within receives this stream
from the ONE consciousness. That is one thing that has remained a
mystery.
Each day the expression is fresh and new. Each day I enter the
stream of consciousness at a new place ... one that is different than I
have ever experienced before. Yet, the process remains the same,
only the content changes. But, here, the content is
everything. How is it that all of this can happen as it
does? Do others experience consciousness in this manner?
Spirits plan for the evolution of consciousness and its expression will
be unveiled one step at a time as the world is ready for it to manifest.
There is something special about operating beyond the fringes of what
most take to be the norm. Here, we find that consciousness has
such variety and a wealth of wisdom that is ready for expression if
only we will allow ourself to tap into this source.
We set our priorities, and then we apply our time, our attention, and
our resources per those priorities. Spiritual expression is at
the top of my list by far. Capturing this stream of consciousness
is very important to me.
There is something about consciousness that is mysterious and
unfathomable.
That we can effectively turn off a part of our consciousness each night
and awaken again the next morning is miraculous.
Consciousness is even more evasive than thought. Awareness seems
to be a collective phenomena of life ... all life, and perhaps all
matter for that matter.
This expression provides a record of where one consciousness has
ventured. As such, it is meant to show others realms that they
did not know even existed ... just as the descriptions of explorers did
for the unknown territories and wildernesses of the country, and the
planet.
My consciousness has soared often in the past decade, but it was always
with spirit generating the wind beneath my wings.
There is something about stream of consciousness writing that is
different, that is addicting. It activates something in the mind.
I am only an active participant in this expression. The source
comes from within at a place where I am able to tap something that
translates into this stream of consciousness. Without that
unknown source, none of this would exist.
Manifesting 4000 pages might be a lifetime of endeavor for some.
But, for me, the sense is that this has been a training ground ...
someplace for me to cut the teeth of my consciousness.
We grow in awareness by coming to know ourselves. That is the key
that unlocks the secrets of the workings of consciousness through us.
I am willing to go out on a limb to express more and share more with
more people. Where that will lead, only consciousness
knows. It is enough that I continue to do as she moves me to do.
It is curious that this expression would come forth as a stream of
consciousness. I am not a talker, or a speaker. I have
little to say to anyone. Yet here, in the course of a decade, we
have in excess of one million words. Consciousness is definitely
prolific!
I know that source exists because I experience this stream of
consciousness expression. This is not something to be
questioned. It is like asking me if I am alive. Clearly I
am, it is something obvious, one just knows.
Consciousness could indeed be expressing in this manner solely for me
to see and experience.
When you interact with me, you interact with my belief system ... in
particular, you interact with what I believe about consciousness and
spirit expressing through me in my world.
One of my jobs is to be a wayshower. As such, my task is to
explore the unknown realm of consciousness and bring back something of
what I find that I may light the way for others to follow. I
don't ask for anyone to follow me. While I consider myself a
leader, it is more in terms of one who leads the way.
Consciousness plays a major role in my life. She guides me, she
moves me, she even expresses through me. Those things that are
most precious in my reality are the things that she has put
there. This expression is one of those things.
We are all ONE! There is only one consciousness, one spirit, one
Goddess, one God, one All That Is ... or whatever other name you choose
to call it.
The material this year is packed full of quotable expressions.
However, it does not read as a normal book. There is no
organization that I am aware of. It is simply a stream of
consciousness expressing as it will. This is enough to keep me
captivated. But, would it provide a good read for others?
You said "simply a stream of consciousness expressing as it
will". That is correct. And, it is indeed simple. Yet
the simplest of things can sometimes be very difficult, and even rare.
What is a book without a message? Is it not sufficient to show
consciousness in expression in a way that is not shown elsewhere.
This is truly beyond imagination. Most works are just that, works
of the imagination. Occasionally, we see works that go beyond
that, works that come straight from the heart and soul ... the very
works of spirit.
This stream of consciousness is my masterpiece ... or, more correctly,
spirits masterpiece expressed through me. It is my legacy to the
world, from this period in my life anyway.
This is just the proverbial tip of the iceberg. Consciousness is
that great, that deep, that all-encompassing that there is no end to
her.
We have chosen to experience an incarnation at the turn of an
Age. It is one thing to experience the turning of a
millennia. However, the turning of an Age is far more special
than that. It involves the transformation of consciousness on a
collective scale and the resulting transformation in how spirit is able
to express in the world. This is a big deal. And, the
dawning has been occurring for some time.
There is no one more powerful that spirit. We simply need to open
the consciousness so that spirit can flow forth more easily in our
lives. We start by opening our own consciousness, igniting the
spark of spirit within us. Then we fan this spark into a flame,
feeding it kindling, and the small pieces of wood, and finally large
logs until it is an inferno. Finally, we share this spark, and
this flame with others. At first we attract kindred spirits ...
but eventually, we find that all souls are kindred spirits because
there is only ONE spirit, and we all spring forth from that ONE.
I accept that I am a spiritual being first and foremost, and that I am
a soul, an individuated piece of consciousness experiencing reality as
I do. However, I have the challenging task of needing to account
for the states of consciousness that I experience, and for this very
expression of consciousness.
There are always ways to express that are of value to others.
That is one of our chief tasks, to find a way to apply ourselves and
our talents in a manner that serves not only ourselves but
others. This is how we do our part. This is how we obey the
spiritual law to never take more than you give. What this is will
be different for each of us because we are each unique souls, unique
points of view of the ONE consciousness.
What difference have I made? It is not clear that it is for me to
know this. I can express as I am moved to express ... trusting
that whoever this message is intended for will indeed receive it ...
and better still act upon it. I may never see any such
outcomes, not directly anyway. It is my job to continue venturing
into the unknown realms of consciousness and bring back what I
find. This very expression is justification itself. It is
the confirmation that spirit made it through one consciousness in a
manner to be shared with the world.
On these pages you will find a stream of consciousness expression … one
that I have actively been participating in for just over a decade.
My hope is that you find this mind-expanding or better yet
consciousness-expanding. It should cause you to stretch outside
of the normal confines of your consciousness into a wonderful new
domain. If it does, I have done my job well.
By following this record of my stream of consciousness, you get to
taste a sample of what is possible. What I can do, you can do
also. No, not necessarily in the same manner. Written
expression may not be your forte. But, there is some manner of
creative expression that is right for you.
One challenge from all of this is for you to expand your reality
framework to account for the fact that an expression such as this could
come forth through me in the manner that it did in such a short period
of time at the beginning of 2003. It is possible. It
did happen. That, in itself, says a lot about the creativity of
consciousness as she expresses through us. Yet, what I can do,
you can do also. I came as a wayshower. Part of showing the
way for me is sharing the fruits of what my consciousness is able to
produce.
Consciousness can only express through us. More than that, we are
consciousness in expression each and every moment of our lives.
Everything is consciousness in expression ... and consciousness
experiencing what is being expressed. We are all points of view
of the same one consciousness.
The collective body for spirit that is evolving has never reached this
level of consciousness before. When it is finally born, the
worldview of everyone will be different. People will go from
being asleep to being awake, from being victims to being creators, from
being subject to fate to manifesting their own destiny.
Everything happens in accordance with a master plan for the expression
of consciousness in flesh. We are intimate parts of that plan ...
every one of us.
The popular songs, movies, and shows of the day reveal consciousness in
action. If we look in the right places, spiritual themes are
indeed being broadcast ... loud and clear.
These words are not the foundations for a new world. Yet, I have
been saying for nearly a decade that I am here to build the foundations
for a new world. It seems that it is time to get started on the
foundations. I don't know how to do this yet. But, what I
have been doing for the past 10 years didn't work. Oh, it
resulted in a lot of expression ... capturing a stream of consciousness
in great detail over a significant period of time.
I have not really done any research into what is known about
consciousness and the functioning of the brain. I know what
metaphysics tells us on many fronts. But, I have not been
interesting in what science tells us on a more formal front. What
seems most important is our firsthand experience and finding a way to
capture that and share it with others.
It took 35 years to reach a point where I was able to tap the well of
consciousness. We are coming up on the 10 year anniversary of
that day in two months. Can it really be a decade since the words
from consciousness started flowing forth into expression?
Is this stream of consciousness expressed here my legacy? Will it
make a difference during my lifetime, or is the expression before its
time, as the saying goes? Many good books are like that.
Their full impact is not felt until many years after they were written,
and perhaps long after the author has passed on.
There is still the possibility that all of this is meant for my eyes
only. It is all part of an elaborate training process for my
consciousness. Hmm ... who is doing the training? None
other than spirit herself.
What is it that I am to do with my life? This expression seems to
be a major part of that. I can tell because of how I feel when I
am engaged in doing it. It is as if this is the most important
activity that I could be doing. It is as if I'm capturing
something wonderful, something magical ... a stream of consciousness
flowing from spirit through me. The sense is that this is a rare
thing. Many are engaged in the dance of consciousness. But,
few record that dance and make it available for others to experience.
I come here to experience the joy and the wonder of this creative
expression where so many words flow forth out of what is essentially
nothingness. Here, consciousness gives birth to expression in
words. Here, spirit speaks through me in a manner that is unique
as far as I can tell.
There is a role that I am playing, there is a play of consciousness
that is unfolding in my life.
How can I speak in this manner? What is there within me that
knows such things that they could be expressed as if they were
fact? I only know that there is a source within me that I
experience as a voice in my head, as a stream of consciousness, that
expresses in this manner. How it is possible is a mystery.
That it is possible, I know from firsthand experience, so there is no
doubt.
I still consider this expression to be one of my crowning
glories. It is here where I am able to do things that few others
can do, and even then, not in the same way. Here, I allow a
stream of consciousness to flow forth. Here, I allow spirit to
speak through me as she will ... or, at least, as she can through this
channel.
Either this comes from spirit herself ... or, I am blind to major parts
of my own consciousness which have such abilities.
Awareness is a subjective experience. Consciousness is
experienced subjectively as well. And, this more than any other
is the realm that is home to me.
What does it say about the nature of consciousness, the nature of
spirit, and the nature of reality creation that this expression occurs
in the manner that it does?
This expression is a training ground of sorts for me. It allows
me to experience expressing a stream of consciousness in a particular
way. It forces me to open up and be receptive to what would come
forth. It ever surprises me ... in terms of both the quantity and
quality of what is expressed. It provides a type of programming
for my mind ... programming in which I am the recipient and not the
programmer.
This expression, this stream of consciousness, is my connection to the
eternal within me.
The stream of consciousness has its own way of wandering through the
wilderness of spirit.
Words get expressed and ideas connected in ways that go beyond anything
that I know or have seen before.
Here the wings of my consciousness can soar on the winds of source, of
spirit.
I am comfortable living with the unknown and even the unknowable in my
life. As an explorer of consciousness, this is a very good
thing. Exploring where others have been may yield some new
information, but exploring the unknown, exploring where none or no more
than few have ventured is a whole other thing. This is what
excites my soul. This is what gives my life meaning.
Further, it does so even if consciousness herself is the only witness
to my discoveries.
It seems the time has come to make consciousness technology more
available to the masses. Actually, the first step might involve
using consciousness technology to wake up substantial portions of the
population so that they in turn can help wake up others that the whole
world might awaken.
Am I wasting my life away on foolish beliefs? I don't consider
this expression wasting my life away. In fact, this expression
may be the only thing that remains that is evidence of my having
lived. Yes, this stream of consciousness, recorded in this
fashion is my greatest creation to date. It may when all is said
and done be the greatest creation of my life, though I sincerely doubt
that.
There is something magical about being able to come to this place and
express in this way day after day. Who would have thought it
possible, even as little as 13 months ago. Yet, here we are ...
allowing this stream of consciousness to flow forth as it will,
following it wheresoever it leads us. Somehow, we find a way to
fill the blank page. And, not just for the sake of filling it ...
but with words that have the possibility to move people and ultimately
help to transform the world.
It is not the music that stirs my soul, rather the lyrics. Words
have that power over me. Such is why books have been so prominent
in my education, books for the most part that I had to find on my own,
or with the prodding of consciousness herself. I find it
interesting that the books that have had the most influence on my life
came outside of any educational context.
Consciousness is everything. Awareness is the most powerful thing
that we can possess because it is what allows us to create the reality
that we experience. Awareness is thus the stuff of the
Gods. We have been told that we were made in the image of
God. What we are lacking is that awareness of our true nature.
This stream of consciousness is important somehow ... more important
than any concept that I have of myself.
The expression challenges what I know myself to be and what I
understand spirit to be. That alone is sufficient to justify the
time spent. Besides, there is a product that comes out of all of
this ... a stream of consciousness expression, a record of where one
consciousness has been. Interesting ... where one consciousness
has been others may follow if there is a map, a record of sufficient
fidelity. Is that what all of this is? And, if so, how do
we get the map to those who need it?
I am a scribe, an instrument through which spirit writes what is
expressed here. Whether this is that part of spirit that is
focused on expressing as me, or a grander part of spirit of which I am
only loosely aware seems to vary from day to day and minute to
minute. Ultimately, it doesn't really matter. The
expression stands on its own as the creation of consciousness.
From some standpoint, this is all me. And, some day, I will be
aware enough to fully realize this. And on that day, a new day
will have come indeed. For the fire of spirit will not be
squelched. Rather, it will spread to encompass the whole
world. Further, that day is not far off, in some distant
future. It is close, on the immediate horizon. Though, I
don't know how soon that will be. Not that it matters. The
timing will be perfect, in accord with the plan of consciousness.
Each will be moved to play their roles, if not by inner forces, then by
external ones.
Behind the scenes, consciousness communicates to consciousness through
consciousness. Those who are meant to interact will be moved to
do so. The appropriate events, the appropriate scenes in the play
will be scripted ... and these will be enacted by each of us.
Destiny will ensure that those whose lives need to touch one another
will indeed do so.
This expression is the record of where one consciousness, namely me,
has ventured.
We create our own reality, no fine print, no exceptions. We can
either do this consciously or other than consciously or perhaps a
combination of the two. At the very least, we should be setting
the course consciously. However, to do this effectively, we need
to connect to source, the spirit within us ... and develop enough trust
in what she tells us to base our beliefs and actions on the wisdom from
within. This is our soul, the spark of spirit that is focused on
our expression as individualized consciousness. It knows things
far greater than we know. But, it remains silent, until we stop
our ceaseless activity and learn to listen, really listen ... deeply.
Consciousness works on a need to know basis.
What is expressed through me is what can be expressed through me.
This is true for everyone. Each of us is spirit manifesting in
flesh. Each of us is a unique expression of consciousness.
My hope is that my works provide you with a means of expanding what you
know yourself to be and hence the expression of consciousness that you
are. I can only do this by example, by allowing you to walk in my
mind for a bit, and follow the path that my consciousness has trod.
My habit has always been to keep my distance ... to isolate myself from
the world that I observe. That doesn't mean that I live my life
objectively. Far from it, a life devoted to consciousness is
highly subjective, because the very nature of consciousness is
subjective. What I experience impacts me, it changes me.
And, when I change, my world changes as well to be consistent with
whatever I have become.
On this very day, we celebrate Martin Luther King, one made famous by
his “I Have a Dream” speech. This was true magic, consciousness
operating at its highest levels.
Awareness is one of the most, if not the most important things in the
world. It is where consciousness finds the vessels for
expression. When we are aware, we experience firsthand our unity
with consciousness ... at least with the part of consciousness that
manifests through us and as us.
Consciousness by its very nature experiences and expresses. In
other words, it is and it does. Being and doing seem to be
separate things. On the show Babylon-5, there were two ancient
races ... the Shadows and the Vorlons. They were characterized by
two basic questions. The Shadows explored the question "what do
you want"? The Vorlons explored the question "who are you"?
How we approach these two questions and the degree to which we favor
one over the other says a lot about us.
I don't interact enough with others to know how they experience life
and experience consciousness. Will this ever change? My
sense is yes, it will. To some degree I have learned what I can
on my own. To advance further will require entering into
cooperative interdependent relationships with others ... potentially
many others. Though, the later thought makes me cringe. I'm
a very solitary person overall. I need solitude to explore the
depths of whom that I AM and to touch the waters of spirit.
Finally, in 1993, there was an explosion ... an emergence from the
cracked cosmic egg. The chrysalis became the butterfly, opened
its newfound wings of consciousness and flew with spirit as the wind
beneath my wings. This was a wonderful experience for me.
However, it was frightening for my wife and others around me.
I have spoken of having a Beyond Mind experience. That was the
only way to find awareness, to find consciousness, I had to go beyond
anything my mind as I knew it could do.
Some might consider this to be more of a journal, a record of where my
thoughts and emotions have taken me. But, this is far more than
that ... for the record goes beyond thought, beyond mind to awareness
and the experience and expression of consciousness herself in my life.
I am aware of some of the levels of awareness that I am able to
reach. Further, I am aware of a connection to consciousness that
most do not seem to experience consciously.
I would know whom that I AM. In discovering this, my sense has
been that I will indeed discover what others are as well. For, we
are all spirit manifesting in flesh. Further, we are all souls
that spring forth from the same ONE spirit, ONE consciousness.
I use the words spirit and consciousness often on these pages, many
times as interchangeable terms. Consciousness is a form that
spirit takes, a set of clothes that she wears. Consciousness in
turn is the organizing principle that serves as the interface between
spirit and the mind. It is through this interface that this
communication takes place.
For me, spirit is not a personification, it is not an individual.
It is the sum of all individuals and more than that, much more than
that. Spirit is the source from which we as souls spring.
Souls are individualized sparks of consciousness. But, that is
like drops of water in the ocean. Consciousness is the ocean, yet
it is composed of all of the drops as well.
I've spoken of the ONE consciousness and the plan for the greater
expression of spirit in flesh, the plan for the creation of a body
composed of individuals as cells, that can serve as the home for cosmic
consciousness. Strategic thinking deals with understanding the
stakeholders, the vision, the mission, the objectives, and the
resources of an organization and how these are applied to meeting the
goals of the organization.
You are not only our voice, you are our brain, our mind, our very
consciousness made flesh.
I like to explore the edge of the unknowns of consciousness and bring
back whatever I find. Most of what I find are states of
consciousness which I in turn try to express in words.
I have declared it to be my task to build the foundations for a new
world. This declaration was not made lightly. I know how
much commitment it takes. There is a sense that this is not new
to me, that I have been here before. No, not exactly in these
particular circumstances, for we live in a very special time for the
unfoldment of consciousness ... but in similar circumstances where I
had an instrumental role to play in creating major change.
Clearly, this was not in this existence. Further, it may not even
have been on this planet.
My home is a state of consciousness. It has no location.
Where I reside is simply that, where I reside. It is all
temporary. It is only in consciousness that we can find
permanence, and even then it is an everchanging permanence.
Of late, I take in very little input from the world, preferring to see
where consciousness would lead me on my own.
Both religion and science come from entirely different
worldviews. They are neither wrong nor right. Both are
realms in which beliefs and dogmas operate. Each could learn
something from the other. Spirituality operates in a whole other
realm. It accepts the good that religion and science have to
offer, but is more concerned with the basic principles of how
consciousness operates and how spirit expresses in the world.
Both religion and science have part of the answer. Metaphysics
seems to have even more.
This is a grand and glorious endeavor that we are participating
in. It will enable others to break the bonds of their minds, and
experience consciousness firsthand. Thus far, it is a record of
my travels in consciousness. At some point, it will be far more
than that. Cooperative endeavors are on the immediate
horizon. And these have the potential to be far grander than
anything that we have seen thus far.
Ye shall know them by their works. I don't know who said that,
but it is true to a large extent. Here, you get to walk where my
consciousness has been. In doing so, your consciousness is tuned
to whom that I am in a manner that is not possible any other way.
Yet, how does that benefit you. Is where my consciousness has
been worthy of being followed? My sense is yes. If it were
not the case, it seems that I would not be moved to capture this stream
of consciousness in this manner.
It takes my unique consciousness and my specific level of awareness to
serve as the vessel for this expression. Yes, that says a lot
about me. But, it says even more about consciousness.
Where do we record collective decisions, especially ones that affect
the world? There is something that knows our every thought, our
every belief, our every action. These are known to consciousness
directly. And, this consciousness is ONE consciousness that
animates us all.
I must make a difference on a major scale. I simply must.
Nothing else is acceptable to me. My abilities are such that I
know that I am meant to accomplish great things. The sense is
that I have not even begun to live up to this. Though, each day I
get closer. It continues to be important to come here and capture
this stream of consciousness.
We have no real science of mind at the present time. Yet, these
lumps of gray matter that reside in our skulls may be some of the most
powerful things on the planet. They have taken eons to evolve and
to become aware to the degree that they have. And, now, we seem
to be standing on the edge of a major breakpoint ... one in which the
awareness of the mass consciousness experiences a radical
discontinuity, one that rocks the very foundations of the world that we
know.
We need to get on with it, and do those things that are ours to
do. And, if we don't know what those are, we need to start doing
the self work necessary to find out. This doesn't have to be
hard. There is a sort of spiritual gravity that operates to try
to get us to where we need to be to actualize and then to act out our
roles in the play of consciousness. Yes, we are all part of the
play of consciousness.
How does one distinguish between a stream of consciousness and a stream
of thought? Are they not the same? That would depend on
where the thoughts originate. What comes from self versus what
comes from source? Consciousness is tied to the expression from
source. Thought is a more local phenomena. Though it seems
most do not have control over their stream of thought either.
This is the record of a stream of consciousness. It is recorded
in this manner because that is what I am moved to do from the depths of
my being.
What is to be gained by walking down this particular stream of
consciousness for awhile. My greatest hope would be to facilitate
awakening the connection to spirit in the reader. We do not offer
any particular exercises or instruction. But, perhaps the very
expression is written in such a manner as to program such a response in
the reader.
I am not consciously involved in choosing how this expression flows
forth. I receive it as a finished product. I am not being
asked to use my abilities to organize it ... unless this is happening
on other than conscious levels, which it may be. That may be why
I was selected as the vessel for this expression, because my abilities
were such that they could be used for spirit to express in this
manner. Yes, that makes me special. The analogy of a
programmer of consciousness is intriguing to me. I programmed
computers for a number of years, and found it enjoyable. The idea
that this expression could be programming for the mind is exciting.
If you are reading this, you clearly are not part of the vast
majority. Consciousness has a special place in your life.
You are more aware than most. And, awareness carries with it a
heavy price tag, or a burden of responsibility if you will.
There is a sense that there is no rest for the weary ... that past
laurels, no matter how great, are not good enough. We must move
ever onward to the next monition of consciousness, wherever it may take
us.
There is a sense that I have been a scribe before ... perhaps in
ancient Egypt. However, here I express as essentially a scribe
for spirit herself, and for whatever organization of consciousness we
are able to create together
Life is clearly an adventure now. For me, primarily an adventure
in consciousness. Consciousness is everything to me. She
gave me birth, she nurtures me, she moves me ... yes, I owe all that I
AM to her. Yes, her. I have always known spirit and
consciousness to be feminine in nature.
Altering brain chemistry means altering how consciousness is
experienced. It is that simple. Physical brain states
correspond to mental states correspond to states of consciousness
correspond to states of spirit.
I trust my intuition to find the embedded meaning in any message.
I continue to search so long as I am moved to do so. I trust that
when my search is complete, I will know that I have found what
consciousness intended for me to find.
The song Wind Beneath My Wings plays as I write this. "I would be
nothing without you." I feel this way about spirit. She is
the wind that has allowed me to soar to great heights of
consciousness. It is though her wind that all of this is able to
be expressed in the manner that it is. "Thank you, thank you,
thank God, the wind beneath my wings". This is particularly
important to me because of how greatly I value soaring in
consciousness.
It is not clear that the musings have yet addressed why we exist.
We have talked about reality creation. We have talked about the
expression of spirit in flesh. We have talked about capturing a
stream of consciousness. But, none of that really addresses why.
We have literally performed magic technologically in the past
century. And, the pace at which technology progresses is so swift
that it is impossible to keep up with it. We have not made such
rapid progress in other areas of life that ultimately matter
more. Such areas as the nature of consciousness and how the mind
works being two important cases in point.
I don't know if there is a scale for awareness. I know that mine
has increased many fold since 1993, going through several breakpoints
and major transitions. I don't believe this happens to
many. How few, I don't know either. Regardless, my
experiences and my need to capture this stream of consciousness, set me
apart as different and unique. They may also set me apart as
eccentric, strange, weird, and even crazy or insane at times.
That is OK. My reality is what it is, and I am moved to share it
in this manner.
Effectively, I have given spirit free reign to bring forth what she
will in whatsoever manner she chooses. That is what stream of
consciousness expression is all about.
The musings serve their purpose well. They record the stream of
consciousness. But, what do we do with it after that? Yes,
one avenue is to make it available as it came forth. That will
serve those who are ready to experience it. However, there is
much wisdom contained therein that could be presented in a different
context.
What is the creative source of all of this? Why do I not
experience being the creator, even though the expression clearly comes
forth through my mind and through my fingers? I don't really have
an answer for this. I only know what I feel ... and that does not
include being the source. This is somewhat of an automatic
process for me. I enter into a receptive state of consciousness
and allow it to happen.
There is a mixture of a stream of consciousness and some thoughts of my
own here. But the focus is on the former ... on giving spirit a
written voice through which to speak. Actually, that is not quite
right. It seems that what comes forth in this stream of
consciousness is born of two sources, spirit and me. Though, this
is primarily other than conscious parts of me.
Spirit and consciousness have special places in my life. In fact,
you might say that they are what I live for.
Who am I to express in this manner? Why is it that I am not moved
to build more upon the wisdom of others who have gone before me?
Some of the issues regarding consciousness and awareness have been
dealt with in various ways for many centuries in the West, and
millennia in the East. Perhaps it would be beneficial to spend
part of my free time studying rather than expressing all the
time. Yet, that is not what I am moved to do. That is not
how I operate.
What is it that I love to do? Expressing in this manner is
definitely near the top of the list, for many reasons. One, it
gives me a sense of accomplishment ... a sense that I have accomplished
something of value. Two, it provides insight into whom that I AM
that I don't get in any other way. Three, it allows me to touch
the unknown realms of consciousness. Whether, these are unknown
overall, or simply unknown to me doesn't really matter. The sense
of discovery is still the same.
Yes, I consider this expression a service. It is a product of the
marriage of my consciousness with a source that comes from deep inside
me, a source that I believe to be connected to Spirit, the ONE
consciousness, herself. This is a stream of consciousness
expression, but I don't consider it my stream of consciousness.
For it to be mine, I would have to be in control of it in some
way. But, I feel more like a radio, tuning into a particular
station. We don't say that the radio is the programming that
comes through the station. Similarly, my mind tunes into a
"station" of consciousness.
Our brains are among the most complex physical systems that we are
aware of on the planet. Mind, while it resides within the brain,
does not seem to be contained by the brain. Further,
consciousness, while it resides within the mind, does not seem to be
contained by the mind.
I experience this as a stream of consciousness. I don't control
what gets expressed or how it gets expressed. There is no
organization. There is no purpose or intent other that to express
what spirit would bring forth through me.
Spirit is orchestrating the unfoldment of the expression of
consciousness in flesh. Life is this very expression.
What do we know about the brain, about the mind, about
consciousness? Overall, it seems that even after thousands of
years of investigations we still know very little.
What is consciousness? What makes us aware that we are
aware? How does self-awareness change the rules of the game of
life?
Each of us is being groomed for a particular role in the plan of
consciousness. If we allow ourselves to ... we will fall into
that role naturally.
What am I worth? That is an interesting question. It seems
that we also need to ask, to whom? To my employer, the answer is
obvious ... I see it in the paycheck that I receive each week and in
the work itself and the working conditions. However, it is not so
clear what I am worth to others in my life. Nor is it clear what
the work that I do in my free time is worth. That would primarily
be the work that I do here, this stream of consciousness expression ...
all that I do under the guise of Beyond Imagination. My sense is
that the value of this voluntary spiritual work is far greater than
that of my job.
For your eyes only, only for you. The line from that song still
haunts me. Can this be true. Can this elaborate construct
be all for me? Is this the mansion that I have made for
myself? Every fiber within me yells out no, that consciousness
doesn't waste effort ... that such expression as this is indeed meant
to reach and to move people somehow.
Life unfolds as she will. Sometimes this is as we will as well,
but just as often it is not. It depends on whether our will is
aligned with the will of consciousness.
I often say that my mission is to build the foundations for a new
world. Foundations are major elements of structure ... as basic
as you can get. Yet, even as I do this, I would be free,
and I would allow consciousness free reign to create and fashion the
structures as she will.
Yes, the work of consciousness, of spirit, is that important to
me. It is my very life. It is not a matter of giving my
life to it. There was nothing that was mine to give.
I came to be a pathfinder and a wayshower. But what am I to show
the way to? Thus far it has been to the states of consciousness
that I have had the fortune to reach ... to the degree that I could
share my experience anyway.
The hermit comes down from the high mountains to share of his wisdom
with the world. Am I wise enough to do this yet? Is the
source that I tap sufficiently wise to provide such service? I
don't have to do it all. It is spirit working through me that
achieves most of this. The working of a transistor comes to
mind. The application of a small amount of base current controls
a much larger amount of collector/emitter current. Here, we have
a similar effect. The application of a small amount of conscious
effort on our part allows a great deal of energy of consciousness to
flow forth into manifestation. It doesn't happen automatically,
however. We have to provide the initial current.
Consciousness can use us to do her works, but only when we cooperate to
allow it to happen
I don't know who is going to be exposed to this material or what impact
it will ultimately have on them. I only know what impact
generating and reading the material have on had on me and then only in
general overall terms. This is material that impacts ones state
of consciousness. And, that has ripple effects into all other
areas of one life.
This stream of consciousness that I tap is rich and deep.
Sometimes she is downright unfathomable. She carries me to the
edge of the unknown ... and even pushes me off the edge of the cliff at
times so that I can discover my newfound wings of consciousness and
fly. It is easy to soar in consciousness, it really is. But
then, that may be because my natural brain chemistry is pre-disposed to
such, being bipolar and all.
Consciousness is pretty amazing. Yet, there was nothing in my
formal education that taught me anything about it. I still find
that astonishing ... even frightening. How can an intelligent
society know so little about something as important as consciousness
itself?
Consciousness is the star by which I navigate. She animates
me. She breathes life into me. I am her Words made
flesh. And, this very expression is largely her expression
through me.
I have said these words come from source. But, what is this thing
called source? It is a place deep within me where I am able to
connect to a stream of consciousness from spirit.
With me alone, the stream of consciousness may have worked fine.
But, if we are going to engage others ... we need goals, objectives,
and step by step work plans to achieve those goals and objectives.
This expression is what my life is about. This is part of
carrying out my mission and accomplishing my purpose in this
existence. I know that by the way that I feel when I am doing
it. It is the most natural thing in the world for me to be
doing. It is home for my consciousness. And, consciousness
is everything for me.
I am still in a major learning mode ... ever discovering what
consciousness would care to show me of how spirit manifests in our
lives.
This stream of consciousness is important somehow ... more important
than any concept that I have of myself.
The journey of self discovery is truly an adventure, the likes of which
no earthly adventure can compare. However, we need to give our
consciousness the space to soar to heights unknown and to realms beyond
imagining.
I have called this expression a stream of consciousness. But,
what does that really mean? Source is clear, it is that point of
origination. Whether it is a generation point or a receiving
point, I have no means of knowing. The words just flow
forth. I have no sense of creating them other then that of
actually typing them into a keyboard. As to stream of
consciousness, I differentiate that from a more simple stream of
thoughts. There is something deeper going on here. There is
a depth of awareness that is being conveyed in some manner.
Hopefully it is in a manner that you can learn from ... that allows you
to experience altered states of consciousness.
Consciousness is clearly a mystery. Perhaps she is beyond
anything that we will ever fathom.
I would make my own path through the wilderness of consciousness.
Yet, I would have companions along the way as well.
There is a plan for the evolution of consciousness that is being
manifested in flesh. We are the players in that drama.
Evolution is building more and more complex bodies in which
consciousness can be housed and enfleshed. The greater and
greater expression of spirit in flesh is the name of the game.
But, it has to be in flesh, or it doesn't count.
Consciousness herself is orchestrating the play. She will ensure
that each detail is taken care of at the appropriate time.
Wayshowers don't work solely in the field of the mind, they work in the
field of action. They do things that others may see what is
possible. And, what is possible for me, you can do also. It
is a matter of preparing your consciousness and choosing to do it.
Hopefully, this expression helps with the preparation. Here, you
get to walk in the shoes of my consciousness for awhile. Yes, it
may be some pretty strange walking, but I hope you find it
interesting. Further, I hope it enables you to discover parts of
yourself of which you were not aware. If so, I have done my job
well.
We are consciousness enfleshed. It is high time we realized that
and got on with the task of living as if that were true.
This is why the world can be transformed so quickly. The basic
mechanisms required are literally being hardwired into the genes.
For some of us, it seems softwiring was necessary. Brain
chemistry had to be altered to allow us to reach our rightly place in
the world. So it seems for me anyway. That is what my
bipolar condition is, it is a difference in how the brain chemistry,
the firmware of the brain functions. For me, this is
positive. This difference allows everything you see here to get
produced. It allows my consciousness to soar.
Spiritual expression is by far the most important aspect of my
life. This stream of consciousness expression is indeed that
meaningful to me.
In the meantime, it is for me to continue to do my part. And, for
the time being, that still means coming here to express what would be
expressed. I say here because this is indeed a place to me.
I sit in front of a computer with Netscape Composer awaiting whatsoever
I would type. But, also, here is a state of mind, a state of
consciousness where I am in touch with a stream of consciousness that
flows through source. How can we have a state of consciousness
experiencing a stream of consciousness? It just does. I am
an aware being and I experience this flow of words coming forth from
source within me. I don't question the flow of the words. I
simply accept them and relay them as I receive them. My job is
very much akin to that of a scribe of olden times ... only, it seems
that my consciousness is necessary for this communication to occur.
Thus far, consciousness has assured that I would have everything that I
needed to do what I need to do in each moment.
These works show signs of a creative genius at work ... one that is
beyond what I know myself to be. Yet, the works were able to come
forth through me. My consciousness was able to deliver
them. That says something about my level of awareness as well.
This expression continuously challenges what I know myself to be.
Just when I think that I've figured it out, something more comes
through that blows me away. Consciousness won't be contained
within our arbitrary boundaries for very long. She stretches them
and challenges them at every turn. The watchword is freedom.
Again we come to this special place where consciousness graces us with
her presence. Actually, it is not only here that this happens, it
is everywhere. Consciousness animates us always. It is just
that we are not always aware of her presence within us.
Why haven't I developed even a handful of regulars by now who follow
this stream of consciousness expression? For your eyes only ...
of course, that phrase would come up again. Could that indeed be
the answer?
I came to perform a mission. I came with the precise skills and
abilities necessary to accomplish that mission. I created the
appropriate reality and learning experiences to grow into whom that I
AM so that I could reach this point where I am ready to freely and
willingly execute my responsibilities. This required reaching the
level of awareness that I have reached and experiencing the states of
consciousness that I have experienced.
My interactions with others have still been relatively minimal.
In particular, they have not delved into such areas as how my
experience of awareness and states of consciousness differed from or
were similar to their own. Nor did I have any classes that dealt
with these topics. One must ask why? How can such important
topics be ignored by the traditional curriculum in our schools?
Do we just not know enough to teach anything useful in these
areas? Perhaps that is it. But, if so, that is a sad
commentary on the educational system ... that it focuses so much on
filling our minds with the whats that it forgets about the hows and the
whys, about the very nature of the mind and the consciousness that
learns the whats.
If all of this is coming from other than conscious parts of me, then
that says a lot in and of itself. It says that we are far more
than we know ourselves to be. This stream of consciousness
expression is a testament as to just how much more. However, if
parts of this are coming from connections to sources that are distinct
from us, that says a lot as well. Everything in me says this
later alternative is false. There is only ONE consciousness from
which we all spring. The partitions within that ONE consciousness
are illusory separations that permit us to experience reality as we do.
It is such an easy process, serving as a vessel through which
consciousness works. I don't have to think about it. I
simply have to choose to allow it to happen.
I continue to speak with a voice that is only partially mine.
Yes, it is my mind from which the instructions to type these words
come. But, what is it that fills my mind? That is a
fundamental question about how consciousness expresses in flesh.
My way is still only a way, it is NOT the way. Yet, as ways go,
it is just as valid as any other, and far more documented than
many. However, if you are looking to be taken to a specific place
... then this is probably not what you are looking for. However,
if you are looking to experience different states of consciousness in a
fairly safe manner, then Beyond Imagination has much to offer you.
I've chosen to give myself free reign on these adventures of
consciousness. I enjoy where they take me. Further, I enjoy
what I become as a result of what I experience. This is powerful
stuff that we are talking about here. Consciousness is not
something to be taken lightly.
We are consciousness expressing in flesh though many see this upside
down, seeing themselves as animals who happened to evolve enough to
possess consciousness.
We never know where this stream of consciousness is going to carry
us. That is one of the good things about it. Onward the
adventure takes us. The expression makes the unmanifest manifest.
I consider myself to be incredibly lucky to be able to witness all of
this. It seems that very few get to experience consciousness
expressing in this fashion. How few, I have no way of
knowing. Thoreau spoke of one in one million capable of effective
intellectual exertion, and one in one hundred million capable of living
a poetic or divine life. These are very low numbers. It is
not clear that I fall into such an august group. But maybe, just
maybe.
I continue to express whatever consciousness would have me
express. I say that as if consciousness is some separate thing
from whom that I AM. Well, is she or is she not? That is a
good question. When I speak of consciousness, I go directly to a
source that is deep inside me, a source through which I connect to
spirit, the ONE consciousness. I experience her as
feminine. I don't know why, that is just my experience.
I am consciousness in expression. We all are consciousness in
expression. But, we also are us in expression. It helps if
these two ideas are congruent with each other. It helps if what
consciousness wants and what we want are compatible with one another.
I don't know what material is going to come forth when I sit down to
write. Then again, when I speak, I don't know what word is going
to come next as I am speaking until it happens. The process is
spontaneous. I trust that it will happen naturally. I don't
question how it happens or why it happens. It is enough to know
that it happens and to capture it as I do. Is it me? Is it
other than me? Is it consciousness or spirit herself speaking
through me? I believe so. But, perhaps I will never know
for certain. The bottom line is that it doesn't really
matter. The expression is what it is. Judge it based solely
on its content and utility.
Here, consciousness is recorded at play in a way that has not been
captured in this way before. That allows me to go back and revisit
where my consciousness has been. However, that also allows you to
walk in the steps of my consciousness as well.
Oh, I am manic at times, even with my bipolar medications ... even
highly manic occasionally. However, I recognize when I am in
these states of mind and I do not find them to be debilitating in the
least. If anything, they are positive and powerful states for
me. I do some of my best work when I am flying high in
consciousness. That is what the mania is for me, a state in which
my consciousness is soaring ... perhaps too much for its own good.
We need to be careful when we play with consciousness, for we truly are
playing with fire ... the fire of spirit.
But, the fate of the world is dependent on individuals exercising their
free will in a manner aligned with the higher will of spirit. We
do this one person at a time by demonstrating what is possible when
individuals find their rightful place in the scheme of things, in the
plan of consciousness.
It is interesting that we know so little about consciousness. We
know so little about the mind and how it functions. We know so
little about the brain and how it functions. Oh, we know more
than we ever have before. And, each day, it seems that we are
learning more. But, overall, we have limited understanding of how
we think, and even less understanding of what makes us conscious and
aware, especially spiritually aware.
It seems that we have far too few cases showing consciousness in
expression. What is captured here is important somehow, primarily
because of the example that it provides of what can be expressed.
Hopefully, in sharing this stream of consciousness, you will be
encouraged to share your own stream with others as well.
The greatest thing that we can share is whom that we are. And,
more than anything else, we are consciousness/ spirit enfleshed.
I consider this to be representative of consciousness operating at her
finest. I am grateful to be able to serve her in this manner.
Again we wipe the slate clean so that consciousness may come forth and
express anew. What is in store for today? We never really
know in advance. We simply allow the expression to proceed as it
will ... trusting that there is an intelligence that is guiding it,
trusting that what spirit needs to have expressed is somehow being
expressed.
All that comes forth here somehow manages to make it through my
consciousness. Whether I generate it, or receive it from inner or
outer sources ... you can determine for yourself.
Is a selection of best passages worthy of being a book? Given
what I know of the passages, I would say that the answer is a
resounding yes. These passages are indeed that good. They
are rich with quotable material. That they came forth through one
individual in one year is amazing in and of itself. This makes
the work remarkable in its own right. Is it a normal nonfiction
book? Does it have a topic or a specific message to convey?
Does it present a case or an argument for something? No.
What it does is document the road that one consciousness has
traveled. It does this in a direct and personal manner ...
primarily from the first person singular perspective. The hope is
that it provides sufficient context for you to enter similar states of
consciousness and employ them for your own use and for the benefit of
others in your life.
There are many similar ideas presented in a variety of ways. I
find this useful. The nuances are felt by consciousness, even
though it may not be easy to explain the differences. Also, there
is some reason this stream of consciousness came forth in the order and
manner that it did.
After all, what good is a stream of consciousness expression if it is
not experienced? Thus far, my attempts at reaching others have
been somewhat feeble. I've contacted a fair number of people, but
have received very little feedback.
This expression is where I shine. This expression is where
consciousness expresses through me at her finest. This is where
the word is made flesh.
Spirit is a feminine source from which we all spring. She is the
ONE consciousness that feeds the individual consciousnesses of each of
us.
There is a grand plan of consciousness that is being played out.
We each have our roles to play within that plan.
I have no close friends and few acquaintances. What I do have is
a body of writings at Beyond Imagination that document a decade long
adventure in consciousness.
I am the vessel through which it comes forth ... but there is still no
sense that it is me creating all of this. Perhaps I am ... but if
so, it is not from any part of myself that I am consciously aware
of. Yet, in another sense without me, none of this would exist;
at least not in this form. So, in some respects, I am the creator
... or at least the co-creator with consciousness herself.
Yes, there was a five day break in this stream of consciousness.
Several times, I came close to being moved to start to express
longhand, but I just couldn't do it. The energy just wasn't
there.
Whatever you can dream, whatever you can imagine, you can
achieve. Someone said that. However, how do we take the
next step and get to places beyond anything that we can yet
imagine? The sense is that spirit knows of such places and can
guide us to them if we let her do so. This requires a faith in
spirit, a fundamental trust in the nature of consciousness as it
expresses in our lives.
Yes, I think in grand terms. I don't know why exactly. They
just seem to suit me somehow. It is as if I were born to express
in this manner. It is definitely not something I was bred to do,
or trained to do. It is something innate, something that comes
forth from t