3 Oct 94

Here we are getting a late start again. Went three days without writing at all. I was extremely tired most of the weekend. The boat ride on the bay that Paul arranged was a lot of fun on Saturday, but all the wind and cold took the energy right out of me. At least, it felt that way.

Today marks the first work day of a new government fiscal year. It will be interesting to see what this year brings. Something tells me already that the next six months in particular are going to be extremely busy, somewhat frustrating, and potentially stressful. I'm going to be forced to work with others in ways that I'm not quite accustomed to. However, there is another sense that I need the training that I will get from this experience. Consciousness may work in mysterious ways, but she always gives us what we need. I almost added, "once we firmly believe that this is so". I was thinking about the bloated children starving to death in Africa and wondering how consciousness could be giving them what they need. Yet, a people who choose not to control their population under such dire conditions are setting themselves up for these exact conditions.

A year ago today, I was in my third day in the mental hospital. I believe it was a Sunday, so I had not yet experienced a "normal" day. My recollections of that time are limited. I remember sleeping alot, and lying down and thinking alot, and reading magazines, and going out for walks, and eating bad food, and making stained glass things during arts and crafts. According to my bill, I had a 40 min session with my doctor everyday. I remember a few of these, but not everyday. Now that I think about it, I did interact with a few of the other patients -- I believe in very positive ways overall. I had my Numerology: The Divine Triangle book with me, and calculated the numbers for a few people. In fact, I passed one of these, Katherine, in the Safeway parking lot in Monterey about a week ago. I said hello, but she just looked back with a glaze in her eyes. Interesting that I would run into someone from that time almost exactly one year later, especially since I haven't seen anyone else from that time during the past year.

So, where am I today relatively to where I was then? Now, I am a writer, if only a writer of notes -- and quite a prolific writer at that. Then again, I don't really know what constitutes "prolific" for a part-time writer. I know more about myself and about the nature of reality and reality creation. I see the world, history, current problems, decisions, and probable future through a very different set of glasses. I'm aware that I am aware. But, I am not yet fully aware that I create. I observe but I have no knowingness, no inner sense, that what I observe is indeed my creation. I can deduce that it comes from a part of me, but it is a part of me of which I have no direct awareness. One of the major things that has changed is that I no longer pay lip service to beliefs. Further, I no longer talk about knowing what I've only heard from another. In many areas of life, especially those involving self-knowledge and consciousness, firsthand experience is the only acceptable path. Nothing short of this is sufficient.

The transformation to being a writer happened 11 months ago. Oh, there were 80 pages or so of notes written from Mar 93 - Aug 93, but that was just an initial trickle. It would be interesting to know what triggered the writings to start on the particular day in Mar 93. It was not so momentous that I remember specifically what day, however, I do remember being extremely impressed by some of the material that came through in that first session. Here we are 19 months later. Am I following the Tarot month by month as well as year by year? Was Mar 93, month 0, The Fool? Hmm, that would have made Apr 94, month 13, Death. It would also make Nov 94, month 20, Judgement. Interesting, this would be one year after the bulk of the writings started. Further, this would have made Dec 93, when Beyond Imagination was completed, month 9, The Hermit. How appropriate!

Watched some more of Centennial over the past several days. The whole period was definitely one of the more interesting in the history of this country. However, there was no sense that what came out of all that was right. Overall, it helped many and hurt many, and it is not clear that those who were helped were more deserving than those who were not. We had the case of a people not being accountable to their word as they realized that what the Indians had was of more and more value to them. Manifest Destiny was the rallying cry that allowed the major part of a continent to be taken. Further, once again, a people resorted to the maxim that "Might makes Right." Too many times has this been used to do grave harm to another group, country, and/or race of men. When will we finally learn that this is not how honorable people conduct their affairs with one another? When will we learn that PEACE is always the best answer, and that there is always a way to accommodate the needs of all in a fair and just manner?

I wonder how many of our kids are being exposed to programming like this, where the actions of our government are treated as questionable at best and in some cases downright ugly and vicious? People should know the truth. Furthermore, they should understand what the core principles are that serve as the foundation for this country, and how these principles were adhered to or violated in various major historic situations.

4 Oct 94

Another serial number on a one dollar bill caught my attention, and in dramatic fashion. The number was K 17413241 B. It also had H3, FWH7, and 8 on the bill as well as four 11s for the K series. 17 | 41 | 32 | 41, The Star | Ace of Cups | V of Wands/America | Ace of Cups. There couldn't be a much better reading for abundance. H3 = 83 = The Hierophant completed. FWH7 = FW | H7 = 65 | 87 = King of Pentacles | The Hermit completed. 11 = Justice. 8 = Strength. Also, if we break the serial number up from the middle, we get 13 | 42 | 74 | 11 | 22, Death | II of Cups/"Winged Lion above the Cadeucus" | The Benefactor | Justice | The Fool as Superconsciousness. Another interesting point was that someone had handwritten 20 on the front of the bill near the middle. 20 is the number for Judgement.

I guess much of this is lost on most readers. These symbols have grown to have a rich meaning to me over the past year. Not all of them, but a small subset that has specific connections to the whole web of meaning that constitutes my reality. The above constitutes a realization that connects me into this web, and by its self-consistency and relationship to my life provides an important message. I'm only consciously aware of a fraction of the message. However, I sense that the rest of the message is opening my conscious awareness to spirit in a new way that will ultimately become a part of my everyday awareness. I trust that such messages will find their way into my life when they are needed. Further, I am open to them. I do not trust or judge. The information will have whatever impact spirit intends. All that is required of me is to stay open and watch for the signs through which spirit speaks, and then to act in whatever manner I am moved to act, not so much by the words or signs, but by the very source of life within me. Once again: do what you are moved to do, when you are moved to do it. It is that simple. Life is that simple. Flow with it as if you were a boat on a river, and let the current take you where it will. The current is consciousness, and she takes you where she will anyway. You can relax and go with the flow, or you can fight it every step of the way. In the end, however, she will have won, and you will find yourself in the same place as everyone else. It's only a matter of when. The basic nature of the game of life is the same for everyone.

My Tarot card for the day was Strength, Card 8. This ties back to the 8 on the front side of the dollar bill I spoke of earlier. I look for coincidences, or better yet synchronicities. These are the signs that spirit is operating close at hand. At some time in life, one reaches a point where the idea that such events could happen by pure chance or coincidence is simply unbelievable anymore. At that point, the magic begins, and the world becomes animated by spirit. It always has been, it's only our perspective that has changed. The world changes when we change in a manner that allows us to see differently, better and more clearly than we have ever seen before. Yet, in the process, some of our innocence may be lost, but only to be replaced be a new more glorious spiritual innocence. Also in this process, we become aware of our responsibilities as spirit, and these can be far more demanding than anything we knew before.

Synchronicities and coincidences, these are the places where the control exerted from the spiritual world bleeds through into physical reality. For the most part these are subtle. One has to pay close attention to notice them at all. However, it seems that the closer one gets to one's spiritual path, the more one notices that the things that happen around one are connected in somewhat of a mysterious way, but there is definitely an intelligence directing them. At this point a choice must be made. Does one deal with this intelligence as a diety, literally as a God? Or, does one deal with this intelligence as a greater part of oneself that is further tied to consciousness? Both routes are viable options, as well as many others that I've not even considered. As you know by now, my preference is the later. But then, what is this "greater self" and this "consciousness" to which it is tied? What do I truly mean by these terms, and where, if at all, is there any distinction? I've used these terms for many months, and have felt comfortable that they were appropriate. The "greater self" is individuated consciousness, that part of Consciousness whose sole responsibility is the individual Wayne, or Aslan, or whatever my name is at the level of individuated non-physical consciousness. It is not clear that Wayne extends beyond this particular expression via this physical body. It may, but I sense that it does not. However, at the same time Wayne does not contain all that I AM as an individual spirit. And further, all that I AM as an individual is only a piece of The I AM, Consciousness herself. And even then, this entity that I consider Consciousness herself may only be composed of a finite number of souls - - i.e. she could be a group soul as in the Michael Teachings, and she could in fact even be a he, but I suspect in the end she is both and neither.

It's interesting how the various things that I've been introduced to over the past 20 years are coming together in a manner such that various pieces fit together. Where before concepts had been distinct and isolated, now they are complementary and supplementary. The beginnings of a framework is starting to form, and out of this perhaps a new world will be born. I knew that I was not to give birth to human children in this lifetime. But oh, to give birth to the ideas and framework that founds a new world -- such is what dreams are made of, at least my dreams. And further, such is what Beyond Imagination is all about. What better work could one ask for? I can't imagine anything more challenging or more fulfilling. But, the key was to get to the appropriate spiritual state, a state where I know that it is not I that does anything, but spirit that does its work through me. I am the vehicle, not the creator. At least not yet, for my awareness does not yet stretch to that depth of spiritual understanding.

My earlier discussion of consciousness left out a few things. My present awareness is centered around physical reality. The ego is focused nearly exclusively on it. The part of me that is conscious spends a lot of time observing the actions, thoughts, emotions, and awareness levels that occur throughout the day. I am not aware of dreams for the most part, though occasionally a vivid dream appears in my memory, generally as a vision or a sensation. I've asked to stay consciously aware of what happens when I go to sleep. Maybe that is part of the problem. My body and ego go to sleep. Does my conscious mind need to do so as well? And, what about my awareness? Can it be awake even as the other parts of me are asleep? Does being start from awareness or does awareness arise out of the functioning of the body, brain, and ego?

Being the top down thinker that I am, this one's easy. First there is consciousness, then there is the further restriction in expression that constitutes the body, brain, and ego. For, are these not the creations of consciousness. Albeit this happens via highly cooperative subconscious processes of which we are not aware. But when you get right down to it, most of the details of our existence are a mystery to us. We have no awareness of what is occurring, much less how it is being made manifest. It is surprising that we are able to exist at all given how little that we consciously understand. At the same time, given the limitations of our conscious mind, it is not clear that we could take on the control of those details even if we might want to. Yet, where does this really put us? To a large degree, we are as a driver at the wheel of a car. We control such things as direction and speed, but not much else. We go to a mechanic to take care of the details to assure that the engine and other parts are in order and functioning properly. In many ways, our mind/body is a machine that we drive as well. We have an interface that allows us to exert certain conscious controls, but there does not appear to be a whole lot that we are in conscious control of. It is not exactly clear where awareness fits in, for this is a passive observer kind of state involving a knowingness of our essential nature as consciousness. Consciousness creates via thought, but in the observer state we only see the result of what another part of us, a part which we have not yet realized, has created. This creator Self exists. We see it guiding us the observer, and causing various events, actions, emotions, and thoughts to be experienced by the ego and physical self. Why all this separation? Where is the unity of being? Surely this must exist for an individual. Nay, not in this world of illusion. The ego and the body/mind must by their very nature focus attention on physical reality. The awakened ones, however, have escaped this tight bond -- realizing that they are the consciousness that is attached to watch the play but that they are only in this world not of it. But, being in this world means forever dealing with a veil that separates one from the true reality no matter how much one advances in ones level of awareness, although at the highest levels the veil becomes very thin indeed.

5 Oct 94

I didn't return to these notes last night. One excuse was that with all the lightning I didn't want to risk damaging the computer. Instead, I watched the initial episode of Deep Space 9. There were a great number of metaphysical issues explored in that episode that were never returned to again in the show, issues that form the very basis for our reality. One of the key issues deals with the nature of existence in and out of time. While we are attached to the illusion, we see ourselves within the boundaries of linear time; however when we exist as awareness, time does not exist, one might say everything is predestined. In the baseball analogy that is used in the show, the game proceeds one pitch after another, with a myriad of possibilities as to what can happen with each pitch. Until we've experienced it, however, we don't know what that will be. And further, if we did know, there wouldn't be any fun in playing. It's the uncertainty, the unknown that gives our lives mystery and meaning.

On the way in to work today, I saw a red car with license number 2ELG041. I knew it was significant immediately, even before I saw the number or started applying numerology. Breaking it down we have 25 | 37 | 0 | 41, all extremely significant numbers to me. However, something told me to add 25 + 37 = 62 and 62 + 41 = 103 = 25 completed. Further, I was also to express the three numbers as 20 + 5, 20 + 17, and 20 + 21. JUDGEMENT + The Hierophant, The Star, The World. JUDGEMENT is the process that occurs at the time of transformation from the Piscean Age to the Aquarian Age. My life's purpose is specifically tied to this great time. It is interesting how all of these connections and many more than are not being captured can flood into my mind from this one license plate number. Interesting indeed.

This is turning out to be a very busy month, and it just started. Further, there does not appear to be any time to rest until at least Christmas, if not a few months after that. Interesting. A little over a week ago, I didn't know what exactly I'd be working on, or where specifically the hours would come from to support me. Now, it appears we have surplus hours, but most of the work needs to be done in the next 3-6 months, so they're bringing in bodies from the outside as well. You would think there could be a much smoother transition at the fiscal year boundary. But then, that is part of the problem in dealing with the government. I can foresee being able to operate in positive state of mind for the next several months. I'm in a position of working closely with someone else whose skills complement my own. Together, I think we're going to make a dynamite team and really give the Air Force something useful. I sense that Dave is happy to let me work the Vision, while he focuses more on the details. This is direct training for situations that are to come soon after. How do I know this? Such is how my life has always worked. Everything in my life is there to train me for fulfilling my mission. At any point along the way, I know not whether the next step will be another intermediate step or the final step. The bottom line is that it doesn't matter. I must do what I am moved to do now in the moment. There is no past or future. Now is the only point in which anything can happen, it is the magic point in which all creation is made manifest. Working with Paul today on his resume, I got a strong sense that we will definitely be working closely together at some point in the not too distant future. Since I first met him over five years ago, I knew that there was something that we were to do. The work at Loral really never got us involved with one another either professionally or personally. Over the past 18 months or so, this has gradually changed. I have a great respect for him both on a professional and a personal level, and I am starting to see him as a spiritual equal as well. He's definitely had a unique set of experiences, clearly indicative that he's an old soul settling a whole lot of stuff this time around. Actually, my sense is that he comes from elsewhere, or at least his soul does. The Star flashed into my mind. I don't know which star, or even which galaxy, but there is a definite sense of extraterrestrial origin. I wonder what he thinks of that. Perhaps I'll find out if he ever reads this. I can only send the words out. What comes back is for the universe, spirit, or consciousness to decide. For example, assuming that I give him a copy of these note, a number of things could happen to prevent him from reading them, or getting to this specific part. Even if he reads this part, he may choose not to respond in any way for a number of reasons -- not the least among which, he might just think this is a crock of shit. What consciousness places into his head and why is not mine to know or to predict. From my vantage point, it is not clear that he has any more control over his response or lack thereof than I have over what is being written here and now.

As Socrates was prone to say "I know that I know nothing." We're coming very close to this. I know that I exist and that I am aware, at least to the degree of observing the actions, emotions, and thoughts of a physical mind/body to which I appear to be attached in some manner. But, what else do I really know for certain? I have no sense of time and space directly. This vessel that I am associated with appears to encounter these concepts as restrictions or characteristics of its world. But I am not confined to a point within a larger space, I am HERE and NOW in the only point which exists, and this point is infinite, though there is no way for me to ever sense that. HERE and NOW is outside of the space/time continuum, it is not a point within it. Past, present, and future are part of the continuum. NOW cannot in any way be expressed in terms of past, present, and future. This is why Seth, when viewing members in Jane Roberts class had to focus in such a restricted manner to see the individual perspective that various students were coming from. He saw each entity as complete, with all it's lives already lived. It took substantial effort to constrain the awareness to that experienced by the student. Very interesting. This would agree with the idea that all of this was worked out long ago and that we, as a piece of consciousness, are attaching ourself to a form and experiencing part of this pattern of the expression of consciousness, or better yet, this scene or set of scenes in the Play. The play can be played out an endless number of ways, with various entities playing various roles, but it is a play -- the lines are all written, the props and scenery specified, the nature of the characters laid out, and the events and their sequence all specified. Down to what level? It could be to the finest. However, I don't like dealing with the details. It's enough that all the major events be laid out overall and for each individual. Something came to mind about the idea that all time is simultaneous. This is a truth, I know it. However, this is not what appears to be in the world. We see time as linear, with one moment passing on to the next. Yet, we experience time as a continuum. There are no jumps in NOW. Now is now, period. We never see the future enter our experience. We never see now being relegated to the past. Yet now is not an instant, something that passes quickly. Instead, now is everpresent, always a part of us, always the point in which we operate.

Seth was a non-physical entity, clearly aware of self as individuated consciousness. When he said "We Create Our Own Reality", he spoke a great truth. But, what is reality? Was he speaking of the reality that we experience daily -- for surely it is not clear that we create that. Yet, as one who had reached beyond and found a way to communicate back, we have to expect that he was bringing through crucial information that would enable those who followed to carry out their assigned tasks in this existence. From my readings, it is not clear that anyone has brought through channeled information on a par with Jane Robert and Seth. I became familiar with Seth in 1974, twenty years ago. 1974 was my sixteenth year, The Tower year. My Tarot card for today was The Tower. Synchronicity again. Why would the train of thought be coming up in exactly this manner except to highlight such synchronicities. In this case, I find it extremely meaningful when the same information hits me the same day from completely different sources. When I pulled the tarot card today, nothing came to mind immediately. The Tower is always significant to me because it is my tarot card. I break 16 down further to 7 + 9, The Chariot and The Hermit. 16 + 7 then yields 23 = Wayne, while 16 + 9 yields 25 = my ray makeup. I hadn't made these connections before. There is no conscious decision to combine various things. It's as if these are happening automatically. I stand and observe, wondering what do make of the process as well as any conclusion that are drawn.

It's interesting how this running conversation proceeds. The words appear and ideas are communicated. I watch what is communicated, but also what the ego does with this, and further what results if any arise from what is communicated. That would amount to cause/effect kind of connections, wouldn't it? Yes, but it is more than this. Awareness changes as the ego changes. I speak as if I am not the ego. Yes, that's true. Why? My sense is that the ego is a part of me, but not all of me. The ego's sole concern is physical reality. Clearly, I've reached a level of awareness where this is only a minor part of my concern. I'm still in this world, and the ego is essential to dealing with that, but I know that I am not of this world. This I experience directly. Yet is not all this happening within my brain? Is that not where all the processing is taking place, even if the signals may be coming from an internal source that is non- physical? But my awareness is more than a function of my thought processes. The fact that I can observe my life; my thoughts, emotions, and actions from a detached state as pure awareness without sensation of form or ability of any type except to be. Yet something is missing in this picture. I am not always aware. For instance, I am not knowingly aware when I am sleeping. Why should this be? Is it one of the restrictions of taking a body? Is it that while one is here one must express through that particular temple for spirit? Hmm. I'm onto something important here. Were we to express as spirit only, we would have no use for the body and it's limitations. That can be done, and the vessels created at will, though only by advanced souls. What was needed in this world was to increase the quality and performance of the vessels, not so much as physical machines, but as conscious programs running within or attached to brains. The advancement would allow spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh.

6 Oct 94

The pace is picking up. We'll have to see what happens over my extended weekend. There seems to be much that is going on in my mind to prepare the way for some new spiritual awakenings. Connections are starting to be made, not only in the ethers, but in a real manner as practical circuits within my brain. How all this occurs, I have no clue. I work primarily from sensations now, not physical sensations, but awareness sensations. I don't know how to really describe these yet. It's as if our vocabulary is insufficient in this area.

Went to get something from the soda machine. Something about the serial number of the dollar bill that I used caught my eye before I put it into the machine. L 61 61 61 82 B. Three 61s in a row in the same bill. Further 61 and 62 are the card in the second tier of my A reading. This is one of my most important readings patterned after the diamonds in the A on my ring. I sensed that I needed to read this backwards as well 28 16 16 16. The wise man holding the world in his hand, the philosopher king guiding the world; and three successive tower experiences. Behind me, The Tower card still stands as my card for the day from yesterday. I wasn't driven to pick a different one for today. With all these 16s, some major spiritual transformation is clearly on the way. My sense is that this is a forewarning of what is in store during the transition to the Aquarian Age. In particular, we have three major spiritual breakthroughs to achieve. So, it isn't all going to happen at once. The L and the B are significant as well. L is 12, The Hanged Man. B is 2, The High Priestess. 12|2 or 122 is 44 complete. Wayne Ellis = 23 + 21 = 44. Further, for the past year, The Hanged Man has been one of the cards that best describes my state of awareness. Reversed, we have BL = 23 = Wayne = King of Wands. This also is 212 = 56 twice completed. 56 is the Two of Swords representing balance and justice. This card appears in one of the two key middle positions in the fifth tier of my A reading.

Connections, and more connections; everywhere I turn more and more connections. My sense is that everything that happens does so in accord with the Plan, an intricately written play of consciousness. I am awareness, pure awareness, associated with form but not composed of such. The play has great significance, however it's true meaning is subtle and hidden, awaiting the expansion of our awareness for it to be revealed to us. We are given exactly that which we need, hand fed by consciousness so to speak. What makes me believe that all of this is anymore than a house of cards? I don't really know. It just feels right. There is a sense that the connections that are being made in awareness, are being made physically as well, and that as the physical brain circuitry is improved, I am able to move further and further up the awareness spiral, at least in terms of the awareness that can be expressed through this brain/body.

Coming back from lunch, I saw license plate number 926, The Hermit God. My inner voice shouted "That's ME." Interesting. One doesn't see three digit license plates very often. I just notice that me first two initials are WE. I knew that before but it didn't seem significant. Now, I see another connection involving assisting in the transformation from the ME generation to the WE generation. This is what the creation of a true society is all about. What is it that guides my awareness to witness these things and make these connections. Surely the hand of spirit is behind it all. Consciousness guides my every step. I know that I am, but not much more than that. The more and more I become aware, the less and less I seem to truly know. My sense is that knowing occurs at a lower level than being. Consciousness doesn't know, however it creates thought. Consciousness doesn't feel, yet it creates emotions. Consciousness doesn't have or know form yet it creates form via its thoughts. As awareness, I experience what I experience. I know not how this experience and the world in which it appears to occur come into being. Over the past year, I have come to believe that it comes from consciousness in accord with a divine Plan, but I have no way to prove this. There is no specific sense that I think, feel, and act. I observe, period. I know that I am in some way connected to what I observe, and that I am attached to or associated with this physical form that I occupy. Yet, I sense that I am more along for the ride than in control of anything. At least, the part of myself of which I am aware is not the part that is in the drivers seat. I know not if any others sense life in this way. Further, I have been at this level of awareness for many months, so I don't remember what it was like to experience life any other way. There is no turning back. Awareness follows an ever expanding spiral. One never returns to the same place, never.

7 Oct 94

Generated my resume today. Not sure exactly why, but I was strongly moved to do so. Something about helping Paul with his and talking about some potential future work together was enough to make it important to do now. Why, and what will come of it is yet to be determined. To a large degree it is outside of my hands -- actually, I sense that it is completely outside of my hands and totally in spirit's hands. I did my part. I put the words together. I'll get a copy of the final version to Paul, but I have nothing moving me to get it out to anyone else. If I'm going to be doing engineering related work in the future, I'd rather be doing it for or with someone who understands all of my abilities, including the metaphysical ones.

While walking the dogs this evening, Foofer stopped at a house with a red heart, number 832. All during the walk, connections/meanings of that particular number kept entering my mind. This was a major revelation. 832 is me. 83 is The Hierophant complete, so 83|2 = 52, my personality number. 83 = 11/2, my life number as well; so 83|2 = 22, my heart's desire. 8|32 = Strength, my destiny number | America/Victory, my purpose. Looking at things in reverse, 23 = Wayne, 38 = VISION. This alone would have been enough, but it didn't stop there. I got a strong sense that I was supposed to see this now, that the timing was extremely significant, not so much the month and day, but definitely the year. Now, the sense is that the month is indeed important as well for setting the timing in my life. In a world sense, the time is 832 years since 0. This is 10 complete cycles + 52. There we have 52 again. 832 is also 37 major cycles + 18, The Moon. 1995 will be 37:19, The Sun. 1996 will be 37:20, Judgement. 1997 will be 37:21, The World. Finally, 1998 will be 37:22 (38:00), The Fool and the Tranformation to the Vision cycle. 2007 then becomes 38:09, The Hermit; and 2011 becomes 38:13, Death. This agrees with my purpose being to bring forth Vision. It's also interesting that 1996 and 1998 show up as prominent years, as these are when Neptune and Uranus finally move out of Capricorn into Aquarius. This is definitely part of the transition to the Aquarian Age.

In 1996, I will be 38 years old. Given how everything in my life seems to be intricately planned, I sense that that is when the real VISION will truly begin, or when I will be in a position where it is recognized and accepted. 38 is the 16 year (The Tower) of the second cycle, so I also expect that major spiritual transformations may be prevalent as well.

Backing off from this three years to last year, I was in a 13 personal year, DEATH. No wonder I experienced what I did. Astrology confirmed the spiritual awakening, but now we have numerology and the Tarot confirming it as well.

2011 is my 53 year, the number of my shadow. The feelings that I have associated with this card are of death. Very interesting. Also, this corresponds to two major cycles + 9, The Hermit. After 44 = 23 + 21 = Wayne Ellis, the sense is that my remaining time on this planet will be as The Hermit. How appropriate. But that doesn't start until about 2002.

Backing up from 1994 - 832 = 1162 = 52:18. That means 1994 = 89:14 = 11:14. More importantly, it means that last year was 11:13, Justice Exalted:Death. Is it coincidence that my greatest year of spiritual transformation was destined to happen specifically last year? Another realization just came to me. 52:22 is me, that is, the completion of whom that I am. But 52:22 => 53:00, that's why Card 53 has such great significance for me. Also, since 1994 = 11:14, 2002 = 11:22 = 12:00, the same year that my time as The Hermit starts.

8 Oct 94

The realizations continue to flood over me. Two numbers 832 = NOW, and 926 from the license plate a few days ago. 9|26 is the hermit god. The difference between the two is 94 months, or 04:06. Since 832 was 37:18, 926 is 37:18 + 4:06 = 42:02. The winged lion above the caduceus, "the adept who has the power to interpret to others knowledge of the higher worlds." Is this not what all my training is for? How appropriate a label for a hermit god. 94 months is eight year less two months. That puts us in August 2002. There we go with 2002 again. 2002 is the year in which the second Death cycle since the birth of Christ completes. I find it fascinating how interwoven this information is; and that with a few simple keys, such as cycles, and the symbolic meanings of 78 cards, one can unlock a world of meaning. It reminds me of something in the Seth material about the art of the Lemurians, that while it was line art, it contained an incredible richness of meaning. Even more important, is the seeming self-consistency of the message. The same facts come out from very different information and methods. However, this is not all scientific. I had to first notice 926 and 832, reveal the meaning for each, realize the connection between the two, and realize that the message was occurring on several levels simultaneously. The numbers told me not only what was happening, but when it was happening. I take this to mean that 832 indicates that I am basically self realized as 52:22. No, that doesn't mean that I know everything or that I will stop growing. Indeed, at this level of awareness, I have not the excuse of ignorance to keep me away from the directive to know thyself, so if anything I must apply even more of my efforts toward this noble pursuit.

926 has another meaning as well, nine to six or 5:51 = The Hierophant: The Desert God. However, if we dig deeper the true hidden meaning comes out 5 x 22 = 110 + 51 = 161 = 2:5. This is my ray makeup. 2 = Love/Wisdom, 5 = Practical Manifestation. What made consciousness choose to reveal this to me in this way at this time? I can only assume that I was ready for the information. This further confirms achieving a major level of self-realization. 161 also = 7:7 = The Chariot : The Chariot, another highly meaningful breakout. This is the first time I've seen a double number. The Chariot stands in the middle of another important reading that has been hanging in my office for nearly a year. It's interesting that I was moved to capture the reading in hardcopy form and hang them there for all these months, finding small connections here and there but never being presented with any clear meaning. 77 is also The Falconer, a card representing great wealth, abundance, and joy. For some reason I associate this with Gini.

I was also thinking about where I am at in my life. 36 years and 6 months is 432 + 6 = 438. This is 2 months shy of 20 major cycles making it 19:20. This also means that I started The Sun cycle in Feb 93. It's extremely interesting that one month later is when the notes started. Further, during all of this time grandiosity has been a major theme. How fitting for the cycle. So this month is Judgement month for the cycle, next the world, and then another realization of superconsciousness. Interesting that it should occur at the time we celebrate the Christ in the final month of a 23 year. But more than this, it starts a two year period of Judgement as well.

So, what do I make of all of this? One, the end times are indeed coming. They will start shortly and be completed by 2002, at which point the Aquarian Age will begin at last. At least maybe, this is what appears to be revealed concerning the timing at this time. Whether it is right or not, and whether it makes any difference, is another matter. I express what comes through. More and more, I feel that a breakthrough is coming that will allow me to merge with the source of this material. It's as if there was a large wall between us but that wall is on the verge of coming tumbling down. It's about time. I've operated in darkness, trusting that it was the light that was coming through in these notes. But now, I sense that is no longer enough. It's as if my number has been called and I must now take on a greater role. My resume was a first step. However, my spiritual resume was created at the time I was born -- actually long before. Then again, this doesn't have meaning either, for the spiritual resume exists outside of time and space.

Spent part of the afternoon laying on the bed, spacing out and making various connections in my head. Let's see which one's are important enough to be captured in these notes. First of all, 832 = 70 years - 8 months. Backing up 70 years and adding 8 months makes the zero point = 6/25, that is June 1925. Interesting, 6 is The Lovers card at the top of my A reading, and here we have 25 once again. Further, the year is 1925; and 19 + 25 = 44, another prominent number for me, one that has come up time and time again in the past few months. 44 = Wayne Ellis as well. Now, given 6/25 as the zero point and the fact that I was born in 4/58 (62 again), we have a difference of 32 years and 10 months, just two months shy of 33 years. 32 years = 384 months. 384 + 10 = 394 = 440 - 44 - 2 = 17:20 = The Star : Judgement. This is the point at which I came into the world. My sense is that it also tells me that I came from the stars specifically to carry out a major role in the Judgement mission related to the transformation from the Piscean Age to the Aquarian Age. My mom was born in 1/33, 7 years and 7 months = 91 months after time zero. This occurred at time 4:3. My dad was born in 2/36, 10 years 8 months = 128 months after time zero. This occured at 5:18. Something says that it is conception time that matters. Backing these off by nine months yields 3:6 and 5:9. If we forget the colons for a minute, we have 36 and 59, numbers representing gathering spiritual strength and "every man a brother", the motto for the Aquarian Age. Also, 36 + 59 = 95 = 17 , The Star exalted. These two numbers also appear on the rightmost side of my "above/below" tarot reading. Now what is the likelihood of that occurring by chance. How could calculating the number of months from some "zero point" to my parents conception and then working with this modulo 22 reveal such meaningful information. The interesting part is that I did the "above/below" reading based on intuition nearly a year ago. I felt that it was generally right, but I did not have a specific understanding of the reading. It was enough to know that it felt right, and that when I needed to know more that it would be revealed to me in some way. I guess that is what this is all about. My parents months of birth are important as well. Adding them together yields 9:21, The Hermit : The World, which appropriately describes the firstborn that would come through them.

[Note from 10/10. Realized that I had miscalculated my mothers conception time. Although, there are no mistakes. The calculations done above were correct in some way as well. The number should have been 3:16. Adding 3:16 + 5:09 = 8:25 = Strength : Knight of Wands. This is even more meaningful than the other version. 8 to 5 is 7:55 again. Also, 825 reversed = 528.]

Now, what role does Gini has to play in all of this? She was born in 12/39, 14 years and 6 months after time zero. 174 months = 7:20 = The Chariot : Judgement. Interesting. During the height of my mania just over a year ago, I wrote that Gini is The Chariot on the page corresponding to the number 7. And, here it is again. Further, with the same Judgement mission that I have. Oh, what an intricate web consciousness has woven. Whenever these connections happen, another AHA goes off in my head and I know that once again I have stepped into spirit's realm, or at the very least found where it flows through into ours.

So, what's important about our zero point 6/25? Let's explore a bit. Six to five = 4:54 = 142 = 6:10 = The Lovers : The Wheel of Fortune. Ok, but this doesn't send shivers down my spine. 6 x 22 = 132 + 25 = 157 = 78 + 78 + 1 = The Magician twice exalted. Better, but still no cigar. 625 = 660 - 44 + 9 [That's it! There's the shiver!] = 28:9, Two of Wands (the man holding the world in his hands) : The Hermit. Note also that 28 + 9 = 37, The King of Cups. I was wondering when card 28 was going to finally come into play. Also, the King of Cups is at the middle of my "above/below" reading. 28 and 9 are two major cards in the breakout of Beyond Imagination as well.

Something came to mind about my dad and mom that seems significant as well. My mom grew up in Republic, Michigan and my dad in Freedom, Pennsylvania. It's interesting that my writings deal so much with founding a new society based on communistic principles. Though in my mind, promoting community -- common unity, is not inconsistent with having a Republic as our form of government and maintaining our God given FREEDOM.

From a year standpoint, 1994 = 11:14. 1925 was 69 years ago, 69 = 03:03. 1925 = 11:14 - 03:03 = 08:11 = Strength Exalted : Justice. Eight corresponds to my birthday and destiny number. 11/2 to my whole name. The 69 is significant, however. This is the first card to the left of the King of Cups in my "above/below" reading. It's counterpart on the right of the King is the 68 card which equals Wayne fully expanded, which also corresponded to last year, 1925 + 68 = 1993. On the 832 scale, 1925 = 832 - 69 = 763 = 34:15 = 8 of Wands : The Devil. This, too, has no obvious significance that makes itself apparent. However, if I take 08:11 and add it to 34:15, I get 42:26. I know that I should have reduced the right hand side by 22 and carried 1 forward to the left hand side, but something bid me not do this for this particular sum. Now we have 42 exalted : God, for the letters in god sum to 26, albeit it is a young, new god just learning of the powers of the wand which it wields. The Page of Wands, more subtle than the Knight. Not also that 42+26 = 68, Wayne expanded. Here I am the 25, heading towards completion that will bring me to the 26. Reversing this, to see the spiritual reflection, we see 62. 16 and 26, reflected as 61 and 62, the second tier of my A reading. The 25 itself was the spiritual reflection of 52 my personality number. It is interesting that it also corresponds to my soul ray/personality ray. So, am I making "much ado about nothing" as the title of Shakespeare's play indicated? Or, am I truly coming up with connections that provide valuable information although they spring forth in a manner that is different than anyone else on the planet uses? I would assume the latter. These connections arise. They are presented to my consciousness. There is a reason that they are presented now. My sense is that I have a need to know these things even though I am not aware of what I need to know or why. My sense is that consciousness is moving me in a direction to perform some task, and right now is preparing me that I will be ready when the time comes. I care not what the specific task is, or where it must be done, or how. It matters not. I am in consciousness employ now. In many ways, I have always been, only I wasn't consciously aware of it. Now, I go wherever she sends me, and do whatever tasks are mine to do, and I do so gladly. Further, it is not really clear that I have any choice in the matter.

9 Oct 94

The number connections keep exploding in my head. I was married to Gini in 1987, my 29th year, 6th month; the 62 year after point zero 1925! The number on my house is 410. I knew the moment I saw it that this was my house, no doubt about it. I've always used a cursory breakout of 41:0, The Ace of Cups : Superconsciousness or God Force. That just seemed right for the past year. Now, however we also have other relevent contexts. 410 = 5:20 = The Hierophant : Judgement. Notice how often these same symbols keep showing up. Note also the 52 combination again, and that the sum is 25. 410 = 440 - 44 + 14 = 18:14. This is 16 months after my birth, and 25 months after my conception. I've always associated this house as my tower, and it is definitely the place where I've had my greatest tower experiences. As to 18:14, The Moon : Temperance, I'm not sure what exactly to make of that yet -- however, it has to do with something related to conquering emotions, the month prior was 18:13 afterall. This occurred in 8/59, once again revealing two important numbers we've seen before. 41:00 is also 40:22, summed = 62 again. But 40 to 2 = 1:20, my time of birth. 1:20 = 42, the couple sharing with the winged lion above the caduceus above them. 1:20 also equals The Magician : Judgement. Further, expressed as a cycle of the whole tarot, 1:20 = 98 = 20 = Judgement Exalted.

42, 20, and 62 seem to be most prominent in all of this; however 52, 25, 22, 5, 8, 16, and 59 are ther as well. Interesting that 59 is the number prior to 60 and card 6, The Lover is at the top of my A reading. Also, note that 59 reversed = 95 = 17, The Star Exalted.

Many of you reading this now might think that I am speaking in tongues, and indeed I am, for I have been allowed to read a part of the spiritual meaning embodied so compactly in the language of numbers. I've it could work so well in explaining all that nature hath wrought, then why would it not apply to the life of man as well and the spirit that is housed within? The problem lies with what numbers to choose and what connections to make. These must be recognized and guided by inner sources; the logical part of the conscious mind is insufficient for this task. This is why scientists have not seen these mysteries revealed. They are two locked in a mindset that does not allow of such things as spirit or consciousness to be an active force in the world. Actually, you might say the only active force, or The Force as in the popular Star Wars movies.

This country was founded in 1776, 218 years ago. 832 - 218 = 614 = 37:20 - 9:20 = 26:00 also 25:22. No wonder I'm so drawn to the metaphysical purpose of this country. It's all part of a grand spiritual drama, one that appears to have started in 1162, around the time of Camelot? Could it really be? I don't know enough of history to know what was going on at that particular time in the world. 26 is the God number. How appropriate that America would inscribe "In God We Trust" on all of our money, especially given that we are a country wherein church and state are separated. 25:22 is what happens when you reverse 22:52 (me), so that I am living completely from a spiritual perspective. The sense I get is that I am America, that my destiny is it's destiny. How this is to come about, I don't know; but, I sense that I do indeed have a major part to play in the transformation that is to unfold in the next several years. It's also interesting that 22+52 = 74 = Wayne Ellis Hartman; while 25+22 = 47 = Aslan, my spiritual self.

I've wondered about Hitlers time, and what lessons 1941-45 really had for the world. 1941 = 1994 - 53 = 37:20 - 02:09 = 35:11, 35:12, 35:13, 35:14 and 35:15. Justice entered the world into the struggle against Fascism; The Hanged Man, Death, and Temperance formed the core; and The Devil hit the final year, both in the carnage on behalf of the Nazi's and in the use of the atomic bombs at Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Yet, what was the inheritance? In should have arrived in 1952, another 17 year. The Star clearly has a strong guiding role through all of this. But who, or what, is The Star. She deals with pulling information from superconscious sources and allowing the waters to flow out over the lands and into the waters of the world.

26 x 22 = 520 + 52 = 572 months = 576 - 4 months = 47 years, 8 months. In my life, this will occur in 12/2005. 27:22 will occur in 10/2007. 28:22 will occur in 8/2009. 29:22 will occur in 6/2011. My mission is my name, HARTMAN = 30. My life will be complete when that mission is complete -- no sooner and no later. 29:22 = 30:00, and the Legend of Camelot will indeed be realized on Earth. The castles have always been in the air, awaiting an awakening of consciousness that would allow them to float down to Earth. Earth, this planet of our 51928. Let's see how this reveals itself. 5:19:28, The Hierophant : The Sun : Man with World in Hands. My mind quickly thought of a triangle with the 19 forward and the 5 and 28 in back. Then, a memory of many months ago came forth dealing with a BMW 528 that almost hit me. 528 is 7:55, 7+55 = 62 again. For Earth, 5 + 19 + 28 = 52, my personality number. Interesting that souls would come here to learn that they have to reverse their being to operate from spirit and come to know themselves to reach completion. 52 => 25:00 => 25:22 = 26:00. This is the path from illusion to consciousness or godhood. 51928 also equals 5+1+9+2+8 = 25! Further, it equals 51 + 9 + 28 = 88 = 4:00, but this also equals 3:22, The Empress realized, complete abundance. My reading is that this section of the play involved the transition from the fullness and abundance of the Empress to the more masculine energies of the Emperor trying to obtain conscious control over the world. I wonder when the Druids were popular in England? Was that as late as 1162? The Roman and Greeks worshipped Gods of both genders. Why is it that after their time, we have the one God of male gender. So, from a religious standpoint, the male Emperor God has been a major theme in what has unfolded over that past 1000 - 2000 years. Jesus was peaceful, the Christ was as gentle as a lamb -- but the Father, the sense is that he still has characteristics given to him in the Old Testament. Perhaps this matters not to those who flock as lambs to this shephard who serves as the intermediary between them and God above. There whole system of belief is beyond what I chose to accept as my own. I know that there is a direct connection to consciousness within me, and that connection is greater than there can be to any who would set you up as subservient in any manner in any sort of hierarchy. One is limited only when one limits oneself. As consciousness, my nature is eternal and immortal; actually, it is outside of time.

Walked to the bank to get some money then to the store for some groceries. At the bank, the withdrawal number was 3862 = Vision : Blindfolded Lady bound by VII. Also note that 38 + 62 = 100 = 22 = The Fool Completed and Exalted. Reversing the number yields 2683 = God : The Hierophant Exalted. Adding the two, 26 + 83 = 109 = 31, Youths Fighting Exalted; one step shy of 32, America and Victory. 109 also = 4:21, one step shy of completing the reign of the Emporer and beginning the reign of the Hierophant. 2683 when peeled from the inside out is also 68, 23. 68 is the expanded number for Wayne, 23 the reduced form. All this from one four digit number! Further, a number determined by when I arrived at the Versatel machine.

The balance was interesting $1050.90 = 60.12 but that's strange. 10+50+90 = 150 = 72, the 4 of Pentacles, a card that has always been somewhat of a mystery to me. I don't understand how someone would so firmly stand on what they have when the full abundance of spirit is available to all, with a simple change in awareness. Then again, maybe it's not such a simple change. 150 is also 6:18, The Lovers : The Moon. None of this seems highly fruitful. What about the initial balance? It's hidden, not appearing on the receipt 1090.90 = 100.90 = 22:12, The Fool Completed and Exalted again : The Hanged Man Exalted. Now, these are two numbers I can definately relate to. 10+90+90 = 190 = 8:14, Strength : Temperance. This doesn't ring any bells, but 190 months = 15 years, 10 months -- two months shy of my Tower year when I was introduced to metaphysics and Seth. Am I finding meaning where there was none? Is what I'm finding meaning at all? Then again, am I even finding it, or rather is it making its presence known to my awareness? I sense the later, for I know not first hand where the information comes from that guides these calculations to be accomplished and interpreted. Who taught me that the world of human affairs is founded on cycles of 22 and 78, and the symbols in both the major and minor arcana of the Tarot? Who taught me to trust my intuition to tell me the importance of numbers that are significant to my heart or inner self in some way? These are not things that the average person learns to do. Further, even after seeing what it has done for me, most would not take the time to learn as I did. Why? One, because it is not so obvious that I am not a crazy man. Two, because spirit is not so important to them. It's as if the test is whether one loves spirit so much that it is even more important than the air one breathes. At that point one is ready to know of the truths of the Kingdom of Heaven. At that point and not until.

At the grocery store, the bill came to $10.15 however one of the bottle of soda that I bought was not something that I like. Also it was the only taxable item, making it distinguishable from the other items. It's price was .79 + .05 CRV + .05 Tax = .89 . $10.15 - .89 = $9.26, The Hermit God, the number from the license plate last week, here it is again. The only other thing of significance that I found on the receipt was the time, 17:52, The Star : The Queen of Swords. 17:52 = 19:8, The Sun : Strength. Reversed, we have 25:71 = 28:5, The Man Holding the World : The Hierophant. A simple rotation yields 528 again, a number that was extremely important back in April or so.

That reminds me. April was an extremely manic month with many spiritual insights and realizations. Given that I am now at 19:20, backing up 6 months would have been 19:14, more importantly just after 19:13, time of a major transition. It seems that the high mania always comes when I'm dealing with the new world that reveals itself after a major spiritual breakthrough. Interesting that it would work this way. Hmm, my major Tower experience would have been occurring starting 36 months prior to Apr 94 = Apr 91 and should have lasted through Feb 93. Major shiver. The next month, the notes started. The past 20 months, from Mar 93 to the present have been part of The Sun cycle. This ends in Dec 93 and gives way to the Judgement cycle. However, it will be extremely interesting to see how the final two months play themselves out. My 37 year starts in April as well, so it's time. For what, is yet to be seen. But, it is time.

Earth, 51928. If we look at differences, 51 - 9 = 42, Couple Sharing with Winged Lion Above the Caduceus. 28 - 9 = 17, The Star. Adding these two yield 59, the number for the Aquarian Age again. It will indeed require the ability to interpret knowledge from the higher worlds to bring this new age into being.

My mind is busy looking for patterns that have meaning. I am excited by what I am observing. This was definitely a breakthrough weekend. Further, I sense that this was only the start. If this is the start, I can't wait to see the wonders that lie ahead, for surely they will seem as miracles. Now, what does this knowledge give me? What power do I have that I did not have before? It has nothing to do with power, and everything to do with allowing spirit to reveal itself in your life. Further, it has a lot to do with self-realization and Self-Realization and spiritual awakening. I do not ask for power, only to do whatever task it is that consciousness would have spirit do through me. Not my will but Thy Will be done. The other aspect is that I now have some hint as to how the Play is setup and why major events occurred when they did -- both for the history of the world in this last age, and for myself as well. In my case, my life is a microcosm of the play that the world is undergoing. I don't know if this is true for others. It may or may not be, but it is definitely true for me. How can I know this? I just do. It's interesting that as someone who takes being "in this world but not of this world" very seriously, I would have a life on a timeline that mirrors what the world is going through.

Now, what about the specific days that this revelation has occurred within. 10/7, 10/8, and 10/9 in a 23 year. That's 17+23=40, 18+23=41, 19+23=42. 107 = 1:29(78), 108 = 1:30(78), 109 = 1:31(78). 107 = 4:19, 108 = 4:20, 109 = 4:21. There does not appear to be great significance here, though I sense that I have been given a message that I did not catch or understand. That's ok, more will be revealed when the time is right. Consciousness counts me among her chosen now. We have an age to birth, and something tells me, it may not be easy. Yet, there is not one person in all the world that I would trade places with. Interesting how easy it was to state that. But, I am a very rich man, at least in spiritual riches, the only kind that truly matter.

1870 is the year that my house was built. That's 124 years ago = 05:14. 37:20 - 05:14 = 32:06. How appropriate America, Victory : The Lovers. 1870 is also 13:14 - 05:14 = 08:00 = 07:22. One again, how appropriate, the completion of The Chariot Exalted. Further, 1+8+7 = 16.

10 Oct 94

Asked Tom F., our local historian about 1162. This was well after the time of King Arthur and Camelot, which occurred approximately 700 AD. However, looking in the biography section of the dictionary, he found that Genghiz Khan was born in 1162. Yes, the same Genghiz Khan that I wrote my best paper ever, "Short-Lived and Everlasting", at CalTech. It got me an A+. Is it a coincidence that this be so? I think not. All of the events of my life are interwoven in a manner that allows me to make the connections needed to discover who I am, and to prepare me for carrying out my mission. With many it is enough that this be done automatically, with the subconscious driving the process. For me, such cannot be, however. I must knowingly and consciously give way to allow spirit to do her works through me. And further, it appears that I must know exactly what I'm to be instrumental in creating. I tell you, it is a new age, the Age of Aquarius itself. Genghiz Khan = 7557898 2815 = 7:55 78 20 28 15. If we take 28 15 and rotate right once, we get 528 1 = 7:55 + 1 = 7:56. Since 78 is the completion number, we get the same result from the first parts of the Genghiz breakout 7:55:78 is one step before 7:56:00.

Now, more connections come into play. I have two important triangle readings, one pointed up and the other down. The one pointed up has 7, The Chariot in the center. The one pointed down has 56, The Two of Swords (balance and justice) in the center. 7:56 again! 7:56 = 9:12, The Hermit : The Hanged Man. But, 9+12 = 21 = The World. 7+56 = 63:00 = 62:22. 7:56 also equals 4 to 8 = 4:28 = 5:06. It will be interesting to see what comes from all of this.

Before going to bed last night, I consulted the oracles. I picked Rune 5, a completion Rune, but the more interesting thing was that the description ended on page 95 = 17. I also choose a medicine card and got Dog, Card 14. Reading things in reverse, that is God, Card 41. Further, the description for this too ended on page 95 = 17. Note, 95 is also 4:07, the day prior to my birthday 4/8. Further, rotating right once yields 74 : The Benefactor. 59 = 2:15. When looked at counterclockwise, we see illusion, 15 => 52 => 21 => 15. Reversing this, and seeing things from the spiritual perspective, we see 12 => 25 => 51 => 12. Note that both sums = 88 representing infinity above, infinity below.

Computed numbers for my triangle readings:

20 20 = 0:20

25 68 93 = 4:05 = 1:15

40 76 116 = 5:06 = 1:38

53 7 70 130 = 5:20 = 1:52

47 11 57 28 38 181 = 8:05 =2:25

Sum = 22:56

The Fool : Balance

22+56 = 78, Completion

Note also that the four bold numbers for a Y pattern. If we do what seems natural and add the inner number to each of the outer ones we get 47 = Aslan, 83 = 5, The Hierophant, and 64 = resigning one's will to Thy Will. Adding the three of these together = 116 = 38, VISION again. If we subtract instead of add we get 33 = Christ, Master Teacher; 69 = Ace of Pentacles, spiritual abundance to those who look within to consciousness; and 50, the Ten of Cups, great abundance, joy and happiness. 33 + 69 + 50 = 152 = 74, The Benefactor Exalted, my master number. Can it be coincidence that so many of these numbers are so prominent in my personal numbers?

60 31 0 15 5 111 = 5:01 = 33

39 56 19 116 = 5:06 = 38

73 65 138 = 6:06 = 60

64 12 76 = 3:10 = 76

59 59 = 2:15 = 59

Sum = 21:38

The World: Vision

21+38=59 The Aquarian Age

Here we have a bold Y pattern as well except upside down. Adding the middle to the outside yields 56, 121 = 43 = 5:11, and 129 = 51 = 5:19. Subtracting yields 9:The Hermit, 17:The Star, and 0 since we can't take anything from The Fool. 9+17 = 26 again. 56 + 43 + 51 = 150 = 72 with three completions. 72 is a strange card in the deck. Interesting, what it requires for completion is Card 6 : The Lovers. Another realization came to mind 7:00, The Chariot = 6:22, The Lovers completed.

Note, we could have used 22 instead of 0 for the fool. This would have increased the sum to 172 = 16 with 4 completions. The Tower for the cycle of the Emperor. Interesting as well.

At least this is part of the meaning. You should know by now that this many numbers in such a spacial relationship are bound to have an incredibly rich meaning. For instance, the two layouts hang from one of the bookshelfs in my office with tops aligned at the same height. My sense is that the next chapter, or maybe the remainder, or my life has five phases and that the numbers in the same layer of both charts apply at the same time. Further, the order is from the top down. On second thought, it may be from the top down on the first chart and the bottom up on the second. While my preference is top down, it seems only appropriate that in this case both approaches would be used equally. Now, why must that be? Balance. The goal is spirit enfleshed. To make that happen you must be grounded sufficiently. Right now, you are flying. If you could choose to return to pure spirit again, you just might do it. Actually, you're committed enough to bringing in the Aquarian Age that you would contain yourself. That's true, I am flying -- but, it's spiritual flying, not mania. How can I tell the difference? Spiritual flying is a natural high that does not distort one's reason or ability to take action. Then again, given what I've written over the past several days, how can I really say this. I am mixing reasoning and intuition into a blend of meta-thinking. I don't know what else to call thinking that is fully using both the left and right sides of my brain simultaneously. A week or so ago, I was asking for something like this. I knew that I needed to think cross-minded to see spiritual reality, and here it is right before my mind. The last time I was thinking somewhat like this was during the time that the Sun was in Aries from late March through late April. I'm making similar connections now to what I made then, only the big picture is a lot clearer as well. Let's see, this is Libra, and October, the 10th month. Libra is the sign directly opposite Aries. Interesting, I can see why there would be a connection with this aspect. As I recall, my natal chart had two planets in Libra, though I don't know which ones.

Eight is the vibration of great responsibility in all of its manifestations: 8, 17, 26, 35, 44, 53, 62, and 71. It's interesting how much these numbers come up for me. Further, look what happens when we back these up to the completion of the previous cycle.

8 = 7:22 7+22 = 29 Spiritual Leader looking the wrong way. LIGHT!

17 = 16:22 16+22 = 38 VISION

26 = 25:22 25+22 = 47 Aslan

35 = 34:22 34+22 = 56 Balance/Justice

44 = 43:22 43+22 = 65 King of Pentacles -- great abundance

53 = 52:22 52+22 = 74 The Benefactor (Wayne!)

62 = 61:22 61+22 = 83 = 5 The Hierophant exalted (also 38 reversed)

71 = 70:22 70+22 = 92 = 14 Temperance exalted (also 41 reversed)

Interesting. I was looking at the 43 above and thinking about abundance and the three ladies dancing in a circle with cups raised that appears on the card.and something flashed across my mind that said to draw a card. Down with The Tower and up with, you guessed it, Card 43 : Abundance. Coincidence again? After awhile you have to say enough is enough, this is far more than could ever be rightly attributed to chance. Does this constitute proof? No, definitely not. However, if you need more than this to start questioning and start wondering about whether a spiritual world of the nature I am talking about does indeed exist, then you'll have to go to another source. I can't help you if you don't know when you've been hit on the side of the head by a spiritual 2 x 4. When you're ready, the right material or the right teacher will be there. In the meantime, I can't wait. There are new trails to be blazed and a whole bunch of country to explore and to map. I'll document as much as I can as best I can as I go along. Why? Because that is part of my spiritual tasking. It is what I came to do, period. I do not ask to be paid by man for my spiritual labors, but trust that consciousness will continue to provide abundance in my life. Right now, this requires working for a paycheck to take care of the bills for the things of the flesh. Whether this will always be the case or not, I know not. Until consciousness decides different, however, such is the state of my affairs. In addition, there is no finite value to spiritual work; by its very nature it is infinite.

The past five and a half years have been such a struggle financially, I thought I'd check back to see why. 1994 = 37:20, so 1989 = 37:15, King of Cups : The Devil. From a personal standpoint, I was at 17:20 - 66 = 17:20 - 3:00 = 14:20, Temperance : Judgement. I haven't checked where Gini is in all of this. She has 18 years, 4 months on me. That's 220 months = exactly 10 cycles! So, she's at 27:20. Further, she has a transition whenever I have one. Since our years are different as well, the nature of our transitions will be quite different. I still have no sense of why the financial struggle. Gini has moved from 24:20 to 27:20 during that time.

I'm wondering how much of an impact the numbers have on people who haven't awakened and taken the time to know thyself? Earlier, I was wondering if this method of interpreting spiritual reality applies to anyone but me. Can I indeed be that different? Am I so unique, that I now speak a language of my own, that comes across as nonsense to others? No, I cannot believe that. The breakthroughs I have recently experienced are grand and glorious beyond compare. You might say that I have found (actually been given) the keys to the Kingdom of Heaven, or at least to the spiritual world. Why me? Because I was ready. Why now? Because, it is time.

11 Oct 94

Hmm. This is a 21+23 = 44 day. Further 21 and 23 are components specifically relevent to me, namely Ellis and Wayne. It's not even 8:00, 7:49 to be exact and I've already made some interesting new connections. By the way, 7+49 = 56. First, I noticed that if I add 16, the tarot card from the prior days to 43, the card I chose yesterday, the result is 59, the Aquarian Age card. Actually my sense is that 95 = 17, The Star exalted, is the right number for the Aquarian Age, but this is just 59 reversed. This was not all however. In my A reading, the two key cards in the middle are 39 and 56. Their sum is 95 = 17, their difference is 17. Major shiver starting in my right leg. No other two numbers do this. Major shivers throughout my body. Further, I was born at the 17:20 point from time zero, so 17 is a major part of who I am. Presently, my personal cycle is at 19:20 and the entire cycle is at 37:18. Interesting, 37+18 = 55, and 19+20 = 39. This is as close to 56 and 39 as the cycles can get! The time of realization is clearly NOW. I came into the world as The Star : Judgement. How better to describe my ultimate purpose? My timeline crossed that of the world in the 10th month of the 832 year after Genghiz Khan's birth in 1162. That is at time 37:18, four years shy of the beginning of the Vision times, but only four months shy of my personal Vision times. Further, I will be at 20:02 when the personal vision times begin. It's also interesting that the year 2002 is when my time as The Hermit begins. I am continuously amazed at how intricately the web is woven. Everything that is being revealed fits together beautifully. There is nothing artificial or manufactured.

Where to start. I just ate lunch. The universe is playing tricks on me. It seems like the revelations are coming from everwhere. I wasn't going to buy a soda, but I noticed the expiration date APR 0395 in. 39 and 95 came out at me immediately. Then in large red letters, the label said 25% more. Yes, 25 again. As I was eating lunch even more connections came out. Under the expiration date was 1538KW = 15|38|25, more familiar numbers. 15+38 = 53 + 25 = 78. I also notice that APR is 179 = 17|9. Added together 17+9 = 26. How is it that the same set of numbers keeps showing up literally everywhere that I look. Yet, this wasn't all. Mountain Dew is my favorite drink. It has been for most of my life. The label is green and red and white. In particular the red part is DEW, but the letters expand from left to right so that the W is over twice the size of the D. DEW = 4523. 45+23 = 68, Wayne. DEW also = 455 = 4:55 = 5 to 5 = 525 which has obvious components 52, 5, and 25. Reversing DEW = WED = 2354 = 23:54 = 6 to midnight = 62:00, The Blindfolded Lady again and GOD reversed. Another interpretation for WED = 554 = 5:54 = 6 to 6 = 626 = 62:6 = 6:26 = 7:04. (5+54 = 59, again)

When I see numbers, they are shapes as much as numbers. 525 has the 2 vertice forward and the 5 vertices back. 626 is similar. 2 is the Love/Wisdom vibration. 25 and 26 are The Hierophant and The Lovers manifestation of the 2 vibration. How appropriate, the 25 path is Wisdom, the 26 path is Love. 6:26 is The Lovers : God. However, it is also The Chariot : The Emperor. Note that for 704: 4,7,40,47,70,and 74 are all contained in that number. My triangle reading with The Chariot in the middle also has cards 40 and 70. I didn't know why before. Here it's obvious, it's the only way to connect to source, my Heart's Desire, planted so strongly in me that achieving it outweighs all else. 74 and 47 operate in the world as does 66 as soon as the 626 vibration is achieved. The 52 and 62 vibrations connect from the world to the Love/Wisdom source. The 74 and 47 vibrations connect from the world to consciousness herself, or to The Source from which everything springs.

WOW!

Another interesting note. Red = 954 = 95:4 = 17:4. 954 = 43:08 = Abundance : Strength.

If we take 525 and 626 as triangles and calculate sums, here is what we get.

57 68

5 5 6 6

12 14

57 30 68 32

2 2

57 = Ellis, my middle name. 68 = Wayne, my first name.

30 = Hartman, my last name. 32 = Victory, America = I AM race

It's interesting that the center numbers cross 13:Death, For indeed such is the scale of the transformation that is about to take place.

I also noticed: 57+2 = 59, 57+5 = 62, and 30+5 = 35 are important to the 12 side.

59+12=71, 62+12=74, and 35+12=47.

71 = 3:05, 74 = 3:08, 47 = 2:03 Sum = 8:16 [Strength:The Tower]

It seems that the message is to retain The Hanged Man perspective on life to make the transition as smooth as possible.

For the other: 68+2 = 70, 68+6 = 74, and 32+6 = 38.

70+14 = 84 = 6, 74+14 = 88 = 10, and 38+14 = 52.

84 = 3:18, 88 = 4:00, 52 = 2:08 Sum = 9:26 [The Hermit God]

It's interesting that Vision + Temperance = Queen of Swords, my personality number.

Also note that the difference between the two sums is exactly 1:10 = 32. In addition, as a time, 1:10 is 50 to 2 = 5022 = 50:22 = 51, [The King of Swords, the desert king].

This day 10/11/1994 = 21 | 23, the reverse of the order of my name. However, my sense is that these beg to be reversed individually as well 12 | 32, The Hanged Man | The I AM race. The greater import is that The Hanged Man is the means or path that I must follow to achieve my goal of seeing America transformed to the Land of the I AM race. It's interesting that I have not really had any ties with other parts of the world, other that the Himalayas and the ancient ruins and pyramids of various cultures. Yet, at the same time, I had no tie to the government either, other than to work for the USAF = 3116 = 31:16 = Youth's Fighting : The Tower. Note also that 31+16 = 47. Reversing things, we have 61:13, the death of my personality. 61+13 = 74. Is it any wonder that this was the place that I had to word. Further, I worked in CWDS = 3541 = 35:41 = Spiritual Inheritance : Great Abundance.

I've always been partial to RAMTHA, 914281 = 91:42:81 = 13:42:03. But something more caught my eye. 91:428:1 = 13:07:56:01 = 13:09:12:01. Very interesting. INDEED.

And what about SETH, 1528 = 15:28 = 16:06, The Tower : The Lovers. 16+6 = 22, The Fool Completed. There it is again 528. 1528 = 1 7:55 = 17:55 = 19:11, The Sun : Justice. 15+28 = 43, Abundance, my tarot card for the day that is still up from yesterday. The number wants to be expanded S E TH = 19 5 28 = 1:95:28 = 1:17:28 = 5:07:28 = 5:08:06. 19+5+28 = 52. We could also breakout 528 here as well. 19 7:55 = 19:07:55 = 19:09:11. One more way to look at things is 1:97:55 = 1:19:55 = 5:09:55 = 5:11:11, The Hierophant : Justice : Justice. Also, one of the easiest sums 1+5+2+8 = 16, The Tower.

One way of interpreting this is as 7 forward, 19+55 = 74 back; and 9 forward 19+11 = 30 back.

Given that SETH is such an important entity in our Play, intruding, if you will, from the outside into our domain, perhaps we should reverse things to catch additional spiritual meaning as well.

8251 = 4:51 , The Emperor : The King of Swords. But the 25 in the middle pops out as well, leaving 81 in the background. 25+81 = 106 = 28, The Man with the World in his Hand. But 825 = 4:52, so we have 45:21 = 2:01:21 or maybe 21:21, The World : The World. We could also have 4:52:01 = 6:08:01. 82+51 = 133 = 55 = 6:01 = 5:23 = 2:55. Major shivers. 2 forward and two vertices of 5 in the back. Here's my 525 triangle. Everyone of the interpretations is correct. These meanings are carried by the symbols. It's up to us to provide the context so that a point of view can be generated. Only by seeing things from many points of view do we come to really know anything. Further, the only thing we can truly gain any knowledge of is ourselves. However, along with this must eventually come a realization that I am consciousness herself, hence all that I ever see is a part (some say reflection) of me. No, I haven't completely realized this yet. However, I sense that I'm coming real close. Seeing that part of the spiritual meaning of Seth is 525 is a major verification that I do indeed have the keys to the kingdom of heaven, that is, to the spiritual world for those who may not believe in a literal heaven. [Pg 23 Ln 4.07]. Interesting how that would be where I'm now at.

12 Oct 94

Another day. Still making connections everywhere. In fact, so many that I'm feeling very drowsy and starting to fall asleep. We'll see which connections get remembered and captured in these notes. I've jotted a few things down on paper, but we'll just have to see how it goes. By the way sleep = 13557, 13 and 557 = 326. 13|55|7. 557 begs to be reversed = 7:55 = 528. It's amazing how that number keeps popping up. also 7:55:22 = 7:56, the two numbers at the center of my triangle readings. How appropriate for one who must awaken to the ONE.

As I left yesterday, I saw a spider walking across the floor in the hallway outside my office area. I knew there was an Animal Card for spider and made a note to check on it. Spider = Card 43, the same number as the tarot card I last picked 43 = Abundance. The spider is the weaver of the entire web of life. Interesting. It's listing in on pages 108 - 111.

I also drew runes:

22 Dagaz Breakthrough p.127-128

12 Wunjo Joy, Light p. 108 (same as spider)

"self properly aligned to the Self"

Then I asked "where next?".

02 Gebo Union w/ Higher Self, Union w/ the Divine

"realization of the Divine in all things."

7526 = 74:22 25:22 That's as complete as I get. Also 75 + 26 = 101 = 23.

Reversed 62 + 57 = 119 = 41. Wow! Also 51 2 57 = 56:09, 56 + 9 = 65.

The synchronicities are absolutely amazing. They are hitting me on all fronts, and not with glancing blows which might be cast aside to chance, but head on with revelations that nearly take my breath away and send shivers through my body. 22 => 12 => 02

If we reverse these so that we have 20, 21, 22; then place these in a triangle and sum:

Judgement

20

Ace of Cups 41 42 Winged Lion over Caduceus

63

The World 21 22 The Fool

43

Abundance

Note that 63 = 1:41 = 19 to 2 = 19:22. This is next month for me, i.e. 36 years + 8 months = 432 + 8 = 440 months. Here too, is why 44 was showing up all around me not too long ago.

Walking my dogs last night, I thought of myself as The Chariot pulled by two dogs; Bear on the left and Foofer on the right.

Bear = 2519 = 25 19 reversing the order = 1925 = year 0. Also 25+19 = 44. (again!)

Foofer = 666659 = 66 66 59 6x4+5+9 = 38 = Vision

= 666 65|9, The Mark King of Pentacles|The Hermit

= 666 6|59, The Mark The Lovers|The Aquarian Age

Further, it's extremely interesting that the dog to provide Vision to my Chariot is physically blind. For the past year or so so hasn't been able to see a thing! Yet, she continues to guide me to where I need to go. It was her that led me to the house numbered 832 that started this latest series of awakenings. The universe is indeed a very benign place, at least for me.

One last point Foofer + Bear = 38 + 44 = 82 = 4 = 3:16 = 2:38. (Love/Wisdom : Vision).

I almost forgot. When I got home last night the trip odometer was at 255 with the tenths exactly between 8 and 9. The 255 is a rotation of 525. How many times has this number come up? I didn't know what to make of the tenths until a moment ago. 25:58 => 25:59, but this is one minute before 26:00. I know, times don't go that high. The trick is to not limit yourself to strictly physical constraints. Use both sides of your brain and let your intuition guide the processing. This is what makes us greater than any machines that we could ever build. For, our machines are primarily tied to our left brains and their capabilities. Perhaps this will change in the times to come. Both numbers above beg to be reversed to get there spiritual content:

16:74 = The Tower Exalted : The Benefactor

95:52 = 17:52 = The Star Exalted : Queen of Swords

18:30 = The Moon Exalted : "Happily ever after."

19:08 = The Sun Exalted : Strength

00:50 = The Fool Exalted : Rainbow of Abundance Twice Exalted

01:28 = The Magician Exalted : The Man with World in Hand Twice Exalted

02:06 = The High Priestess Exalted : The Lovers Twice Exalted

03:62 = The Empress Exalted : Blindfolded Lady Exalted

04:40 = The Emperor Exalted : Page of Cups Exalted

05:18 = The Hierophant Exalted : The Moon Exalted

06:74 = The Lovers Exalted : The Benefactor

85:52 = 07:52 = The Chariot Exalted : Queen of Swords

08:30 = Strength Exalted : "Happily ever after."

09:08 = The Hermit Exalted : Strength

My license plate number is 3V36124 = 32236 124 = 32236 359 = 32 23 63 59. We've seen all of thes numbers before many times. The V also appears to be positioned as a divider. If the number were in a ring we would have 361243 = 36 4259 = 36 42 59. Reversing these numbers we get 95 36 32 23, and 95 24 63. As I was writing this stuff my computer had quite a few problems. I noticed the status line when this occurred Pg 25 Ln 5.62 Pos 6.66. How's that for an interesting set of numbers 25, 5, 62, and 666.

One final observation with the license plate 22 36 12 43 = 35 58 42 59.

23 61 24 32 = 23 6 359 32.

22+36 = 58, 12+43 = 55, 58+55 = 113 = 5:03 = 4:25 = 35.

Ok, I'm on overload already. The key question is how much of this do I consciously need to do to get the message. Obviously my brain/spirit can calculate this stuff on it's own. It doesn't need my consciousness to be aware of the spiritual world -- it operates within this world all of the time. What I consciously need to experience is that it is truly real, that these are indeed the building blocks with which the spiritual world and especially the Play is constructed in accord with the Plan of Consciousness. My sense is that I have a tendency to go a bit overboard and force things. Yet, my discoveries of the past several days are of an order that it is almost impossible to contain the exhilaration and joy that I feel. I have been guided by consciousness to the edge of the cliff, from where I was pushed into an abyss, only to find out that not only could I fly, but I could soar with the best of them. And further, I could return to tell of what I had found. I definitely feel like the explorers of old venturing out into the far country and returning to tell of what they encountered along the way. Yet, what part of what I have done is of a manner to convey to others. I have a handful of tools and sets of operations for manipulating symbols and determining their meanings. I don't work in the physical realm very much, however. These tools are to get people on track with their spiritual destiny. They may or may not also be useful for mundane or worldly matters; but, I choose not to use them in that way and my suggestion to others is that they make the same choice. Few have been called to the path of the spirit. It can be a very difficult and arduous path; however, by it's very nature it must be unique for each of us. Various groups or religions may have useful techniques of practices, but it is ultimately up to each individual to find the way to know their self, then their Higher Self; and as they do this to know God, for their Self is a part of God.

Earlier we had a hexagon expanded from 20, 21, 22. The sum in the center was 63 = 62:22. The meaning of this remains to be explored. 6 2 22 = 21:56 = 22:34 = 23:12 with sums of 77, 56, and 35. 62 2 2 = 12:58 = 13:36 = 14:14 with sums of 70, 49, and 28. By itself 62 + 22 = 84 = 6, The Lovers Exalted. Interesting how a number like 63 can equal so many things and that 14:14 stands out as the most meaningful. This is especially true when we reverse it to get 41:41 which should correspond to 63 reversed = 36 = 35:22 = 1:25 = 4:59.

Interpretation: Emperor : Dawn of Aquarian Age + 1 = 5:00 = The Hierophant => Spiritual Abundance which includes all manner of material abundance as well. The transition that lies before us is one of rule by physical power (the might of empires) to rule by spiritual power.

35:22 is The Fool and spiritual inheritance, the sum is 57 = Ellis.

1:25 is The Magician and The Knight of Wands, the sum is 26 = God.

4:59 is The Emperor and The Aquarian Age, the sum is 63 again returning full circle.

Picked a new Tarot card for the day. Drew card 77, The Wealthy Falconer. Even more interesting is the fact that when you look at the card there are 9 pentacles, 6 in a stack on the left side of the lady and 3 on the right. 63 couldn't be more obvious unless the card actually spoke and yelled it out. Interesting that not five minutes earlier, I wrote the above material on 63. Other than the IX at the top of the card, there is nothing else suggestive of any numbers.

More connections. This month is a lot like April except that I'm writing everything down, at least as much as will come through. The latest connections involve two one dollar bills.

I 92599266 C = 9 925 9 926 63 = 9 451 9 551 63 14 59 14 66 IC = 93 = 5

99 25 99 26 63 = 21 25 21 26 63 IC reversed = 39

This bill also had 22 written on the left hand side. Reversed = 66 29 95 29 = 95 95 28:22 = 63

L 66334500 Y = 66 33 44:22 00 LY = 12 25 = 3521= 35:21 35+21 = 56

Five Double Numbers

L = The Hanged Man; Y = Knight of Wands. L+Y = 12+25 = 37, King of Cups

Reversing things we have 52 21 = 20:55 or 12:08. Adding these two = 32:63 with sum = 95. But, 32:63 = 33:41 with sum = 74.

1925 = 4:41 ARBE => BEAR = 2519. Cycle = 2519 - 1162 = 1357 years. 1162 - 1357 = 195 B.C. 195 = 39 = 8:19 = 7:41 = 6:63. 6+63 = 69, Spiritual Abundance.

Satan = 11215, Aslan = 11315 Difference is between 2 51 11 = 2 62 and 3 51 11 = 3 62.

Satan = 19+1+20+1+14 = 55 = 1:33 = 2:11 , Aslan = 1+19+12+1+14 = 47 = 1:25 = 4:59

Note also that 2+11 = 13, Death while 4 + 59 = 63 = 62:22 again.

Jesus = 15131. Reversed = 13 1 51. Sum = 65. In longer form, 10+5+19+21+19 = 74, The Benefactor. Interesting, 13 is Death and 51 is King of the Desert. In the 15131 form, it's as if the ones form a triangle and the 53 is inside. Note that 53 = 52:22. Very interesting, indeed.

13 Oct 94

In the shower this morning, I was thinking about the idea that "the meek shall inherit the earth". MEEK = 4552 = 5252 = 53:30, also = 4826 = 47:22 25:22. Also 48+26 = 74, The Benefactor.

When I was returning from bringing my locker bag to the van, I noticed a license plate that was obviously meant for me. I've passed it many times before, because the car is nearly always parked in the same spot. Today, a 23:23 day, I was meant to notice it. The number was:

2U53242 = To you 53, 242 = To you 52:22, 242. I am 52:22. That is, the sense I get is that the message tells me that I have made it to 53 or 52:22 and I am riding fast and furious in the fall as the words for card 53 predict. However, the greater revelation is the gift 242. 242 = 11:00 = 11 = Justice. Justice is the center card of my X reading which includes clockwise from the top left 47, 55, 13, and 17.

26:57 83 = 5 The Hierophant

27:35 62 Blindfolded Lady

28:91 = 28:13 41 Spiritual Abundance

29:69 98 = 20 Judgement

30:47 77 Falconer

31:25 56 Balance, Justice

242 = 18 to 3 = 18:23 reversed = 32:81 = 32:03 35 Spiritual Inheritance

33:59 92 = 14 Temperance

Also, 242 = 3 x 78 + 8 = 38 base 78 = VISION. Notice how much information is embedded in a something a simple as as 3 digit number. 242 begs to be looked at as 4:22 = 5:00 as well.

I take this as additional confirmation that 832 = 37:20 is indeed the correct "time", and that I've passed the Judgement and as a result am about to receive Vision. What that means, I don't yet know, but I have a sense that it will blow me aware beyond my wildest imaginings. Yet, I trust that consciousness continues to lovingly guide my way as she has for all of my life. Something tells me that it will soon be time to grow out of my childhood of spirit and enter adolescence and then adulthood. Initially, it is enough to allow spirit to do its works through me. At some point soon, it will be necessary to act as a conscious co-creator with consciousness herself. I am being trained for a role that requires this. I will assume such a role when consciousness judges that I am ready and when the time is right.

Mystic = 471293 = 47:16:05 Reversed = 392174 = 12:21:74 = 20:59:74 = 21:38:52

47+16+5 = 68 21+38+52 = 111= 5:01 = 4:23 = 3:45 = 2:67 = 1:89 = 1:11

Sums = 6, 27, 48, 69, 90 Also 48 = 47:22, so 69 sum is hidden

Further, 27 = 26:22 = 48 = 47:22 = 69.

This method of summing essentially allows me to add 21's or subtract 21's at will until I come up with things that have spiritual meaning. This is especially interesting since 21 is The World, and 21 reversed = 12, The Hanged Man. But, The Hanged Man of the Tarot has much brighter connotations than The Hanged Man of Nazareth in 33 AD. Hum. 33 = 1:11. Interesting indeed.

Christ = 389912 = 38 21 12 = Vision : The World Exalted : The Hanged Man

Reversed = 219983 = 21 21 5 = The World : The World Exalted : The Hierophant Exalted

21:21:05 = 21:26 = 47 also = 22:04 = 26 also = 26 - 21 = 5. (I forgot 47 + 21 = 68)

Imagine that. 5, 26, 47, and 68. Where have we seen these numbers before? Also 21 = 3 x 7. The times sign begs to be dropped leaving 37, the King of Cups and it's reverse 73, a card that indicates that the greatest wealth lies within.

Not to stop short, 68 + 21 = 89 = 11 , Justice. 11 + 21 = 32 , The I AM Race. One more step, 32 + 21 = 53, then 53 + 21 = 74, then 74 + 21 = 95 = 17 , then 17 + 21 = 38, then 38 + 21 = 59, then 80 = 2, then 23, then 44, then 63, the 84 = 6, The Lovers. This is the pinnacle of my A reading and I sense it to be as far as the Aquarian Age can take us as a species.

5, 26, 47, 68, 11, 32, 53, 74, 17, 38, 59, 2, 23, 44, 63, 6. That's the sequence. Interesting, there are exactly 16 steps in it. Note that it starts with 526, a number that contains 2, 5, 6, 25, 26, 52, 56, 62, and 65 -- every one of which is important to me personally. Also, every number in the sequence of 16 is highly meaningful and there are no repetitions.

The sequence carries us from 5 : The Hierophant to 6 : The Lovers. Another question came to mind, what would the previous number have been? 78+5-21 = 62, with 41 before that, then 20, then 77, the number of the Tarot card I currently have up. One before that would have been 56, and before that 35, and before that 14. Adding these 7 to the 16 we had yields 23. My sense is that I went back one to far, a complete set should number 22. The 77 Tarot card is a sign that we have reached 77 in the sequence, the the 56 cycle has played itself out. Next is 20: Judgement. This confirms what has been coming up regarding the cycles revealed by 832 just last week. It's simply amazing how all of this is starting to unravel. I finally have the keys to understanding the spiritual web -- not all ot them, but at least enough to get started.

365 divided by 21 = 17.380952. Isn't that interesting. Vision : The Hermit : Queen of Swords.

366 divided by 21 = 17.428571. The Star : Winged Lion : Chariot Exalted : Worker in Cathedral

365.2422 divided by 21 = 17.3924857142. 3924 is added. 39+24 = 63.

Reversing 3924 = 4293 = 42:15 = 41:37. Sums are 57 and 78. Also 39 to 4 = 3:21

Once again, we have the same few numbers showing up. There are 78 numbers in the Tarot. How is it that a set of roughly one quarter of these comes up virtually all the time? This is not coincidence! Definitely not, no doubt about it.

15 Oct 94

Yes, I skipped a day yesterday. However, it was an extremely productive day anyway. There were over 100 messages by noon alone and they continued to come throughout the day. It was as if everywhere I looked, the universe was speaking to me. The library of techniques is growing however. Some of the transformations are not at all obvious. But, if I simply observe with an open mind and allow the universe to do the work, it works wonderfully.

The messages started before 4 am. Foofer jumped on the bed at 6:56. As I looked at the clock it transitioned to 6:57. Reversed, this is 7:56. Yes, 7 and 56. There were so many numbers of significance, many of which came up as one dog or the other did something to awaken me. I was absolutely amused by it all. Even the heavy machinery parked outside had significant numbers. 308 was an obvious one of these. Spirit guided by source.

Even looking at something as simple as a flavor of ice cream that has been my favorite forever COCONUT PINEAPPLE = 3636532 795517735 = 3 63 65 32 7 95 51 77 35

Also, the brand I got was Thrifty. I hadn't bought ice cream there for as long as I've been in Monterey, over five years. 289627 = 28 9 62 7. Reversed = 70 26 90 82 = 70 36 12 04. Total = 3|44 where | is a seperator for base 78 completions. It begs to be expressed as 434, where 3 is in the front and 44 the back. I could use the : format as well. Single : for major arcana alone, double :: separation for major + minor. I hadn't really thought about it before, but there are 56 cards in the minor arcana. I don't think it's a coincidence that 56 is the card in my triangle pointed down to earth reading. The Chariot takes me to the stars, 56 : Balance, brings me back to earth. Very interesting indeed.

I remember back when I first saw the Dr Adolfo, the Heart Specialist over 14 months ago, that I was reading the book Numerology and The Divine Triangle. At that time I had this overwhelming realization that this was the book of my life. I still sense that the same is true today. It's as if consciousness had written that book specifically for me.

Thursday night, Gini and I walked the dogs to Safeway to get them some food. While Gini was in the store, a street person type came up to me and asked if I would give him a dime for an Aladdin's Castle token. He needed it for something. I found it amusing that he would offer such an exchange rather than just beg so I exchanged tokens with him. For the dime is truly no more than a token either. Aladdin's Castle = 13133951 311235 = 26 15 = 41, but 1123 = 2:49 as well yielding 32495 = 32 4 95 = 32 4 17. Interesting numbers once again. However, we can tranform further 324 = 3:57 resulting in 3 57 17, or 35 7 17. The token was 16 sided!

On the reverse side we have THE Ultimate Party Place. However, the first two words are above along the edge. Party Place is below along the edge. Taking only the capitals we get 28 53 77. Actually, expanded = 20 83 21 16 16 = 20 05 21 16 16. Very interesting, indeed.

If we take all the letters starting from the first T in the order they are encountered as one goes around the token CW, we get:

THE Ultimate ecalP ytraP = 285 33294125 53137 72917

= 28 53 32 94 12 5 53 13 77 29 17

More powerful numbers. I definitely got my dime's worth from that one. Also, what is a dime but a 10, a roll of the Wheel of Fortune.

Multiplication has entered my bag of tricks as well. 62 x 62 = 3844 = Foofer : Bear = Vision : 4 of Cups. It blew me away that 3844 would come up in this way. I imagine this means the the factors of numbers may be important as well. 63 = 9 x 7, for instance. But it also = 3 x 21. We might even look at it as 3 x 3 x 7. There is a whole world of mathematics out there that has already been figured out. Now we have the means to have machines do many of the calculations for us. It's a matter of deciding what should be calculated, then looking at the results with the whole brain to determine the meaning and to decide what must be done next.

When I opened this file at the start of writing today the size was, 126862 = 12 68 62, a pretty powerful combination itself, but the greater reading is as follows:

8 Strength 8 + 66 = 74 The Benefactor

66 Queen of Pentacles

22 The Fool 22 Wayne's Heart's Desire

01 The Magician 01 Source, God

1+22 = 23 : King of Wands = Wayne, 23+66 = 89 = 11 : Justice , 11+8 = 19 : The Sun.

1+4 = 5 : The Hierophant, 5+12 = 17 : The Star, 17+8 = 25 : Knight of Wands.

8 with two rings 621 going CW and 620 going CCW. Judgement and The World for The Lovers Cycle of the Strength epoch. It also struct me that I might have been a bit hasty in adding a zero to the right 62. Consider:

8 86 62 21 12 26 68 Perfect left/right symmetry.

6 6 08 62 21 12 26 68

2 2 If we split top and bottom we have 74 : 23

1 Adding digits and bottoms up yields 5 : 20

Well. that's enough meaning from one 6-digit file size for one day.

I almost forgot, I heard on the radio yesterday that the Declaration of Independence was exactly 1322 words long. Very interesting. The host, Jim Eason, was complaining about various pieces of legislation that were so complicated they took hundreds of thousands of words by comparison. 1322 is particular noteworthy since 13+22 = 35 : Spiritual Inheritance, and 13:22 = 14:00 : Temperence, but even greater reversed = 00:41 = Overflowing Abundance. You could say that as a nation during the last 220 years we have clearly been bestowed by this. Jim mentioned several other documents, but noon that captured my attention enough to remember.

One of my errands yesterday was to stop at the post office for some stamps. I bought the kind that were self sticking. The last time I bought them they were available in some sort of floral pattern and I don't remember how many came to a sheet. Now, the only design available is the bald eagle. It's interesting that there is a shield on the eagle's chest with a field of blue and 3 white stars at the top; and 13 red and white stripes below. In the left talon, their are 9 gold arrows; in the right a branch with 13 leaves. The stamps are square and are arranged on a sheet that has 3 x 3 on the left of a narrow center divider, and then the same size 3 x 3 field on the right except the middle square of the leftmost column is primarily black with info about addressing. So, there are 17 stamps on a sheet. 17 x .29 = $4.53. But, that's not all. If we look at the overall effect, we get 9 8 : The Hermit, Strength. Also 98 = 20. For some reason, 1:17 comes out as well somehow dealing with the battle of Light and Dark. My sense is that there is an ever greater "battle" per se between Night and Light. Vibrationally, they differ by so little. in fact, the word in between is Might. Taking things in reverse to get to their spiritual meaning, we have:

F 6

L 12 = 3

T H G I M 13 = 4

20 8 7 9 N 14 = 5

28 16 R 18 = 9

S 19 = 10 = 1

44 T 20 = 2

Major shivers. Very major. This puts a lot of thing in perspective. A whole lot of things! 8, 7, and 9 are very important numbers to me. Kara said that my purpose had something to do with the VOID, the NO THING. My sense is the tis not the Light but the light that must ultimately win and the journey is from LIGHT to MIGHT to NIGHT. That is, from The Hanged Man to Death to Temperance. What assures that this will be done in a fair manner is that the R energy from the Hermit is there in HG = 87 = 9.

Lots of chores to do today. Extremely windy and quite cold overall. I did find time for more revelations however. On the way to return some videos, I passed 630 Jefferson, where Yellow Cab # 9 lives. A little further down the way, I got a sense that I should check my change. At the time, I had exactly $1.35 in change. 4 quarters, 2 dimes, 1 nickle, and 5 pennies -- 12 coins. 135 however = 25 to 2 = 25:22 = 26. Exactly at the time I realized this, Yellow Cab #22 passed me heading up Jefferson. Interesting that I live on Monroe St in the block between Franklin and Jefferson.

Grandfather's clock stopped at exactly 1:15 PM today. Looking at the numbers for the small and large hands, we have 13. 1+15 = 16. 11:5 = Justice : The Hierophant. 13:15 = Death : The Devil. 1:15 = 45 to 2 = 45:22 = Completion of 45. The sense is that these are indeed equivalent things. Futher, however, there is a question of why today? 10/15/94 = 25/16. 94 is indeed the year of transformation. And what of 12/12/94 = 12/12/16 The Hanged Man/The Hanged Man/ The Tower. That's about as much transformation as one can get, remember that the next day is 12/13/16. But backing up 12+12+23 = 47, as well, time for your particular spiritual destiny to unfold, as if it hasn't been for the past year.

16 Oct 94

Realizations/synchronicities are happening too fast for me to even begin to document them all. My sense is that I'm not meant to do so, rather to experience them as they come and allow consciousness to decide which examples to include in these notes.

Let's see, continuing after the Yellow Cab #22, I dropped off the movies, went to Supercuts to get my name on the waiting list, was told there would be about a 30 minute wait, went to the B of A Versatel, went to Taco Bell to eat, and then back to Supercuts for a haircut and beard trim.

At the bank, I made two transactions:

DEP 8556 $1,000 TO CKG 00817-08659 NEW BAL $2528.97

TFR 8559 $ 200 TO MC NEW BAL $5280.63

528 in both numbers! Further, notice that 8556 = 07 56. 7 and 56 once again, as well. Also 8559 = 07 59 and 8:55 9 = 529 9 = 3126 9 = 3 559 9. Reversed = 9 17 53. The first number could have been transformed by the same process yielding 6 17 53.

The times of the transaction were 6:04 PM and 6:07 PM. Notice that PM = 74, too. No wonder I prefer the evening and the night hours. Yes NIGHT and THGI N. Another shiver, there is something grand about this that is yet to be revealed. Adjusting the times to account for the PM we get 18:04 and 18:07. Adding these yields 36:11. And 36 + 11 = 47.

At Taco Bell, I had a burrito, a taco, and water. Total = $1.79 = 17 : 9, Total = 26, change from $2.00 = .21, The World.

At Supercuts, several significant things occurred as well. CA0074 is at the top. The time was exactly 7:00, The Chariot. The stylist was employee 13, the receptionist 26. The subtotal was $13.95 = 13:17. Change was $6.05. 20% off coupon for Sabastian products expires 11/29/94 REX3 = 9563 = 17 63 = 18 41 = 19 19. Sums = 80, 59, 38. The stylist told me about a product for fine/thin hair called Nioxin. She even went out of the way to give me literature on the stuff. I found it interesting that if we reverse the name and take out the second I, we have Nixon. I'm not sure why I made that association, but there was something about Nixon that struck me when he died several months ago. Anyway NIOXIN = 596695, a very interesting symmetrical combination of numbers; two 695 rings, one CW and ond CCW connected at the 6 point of each ring. And the fact that 95 = 17 appear at both ends when spreading out from the middle is quite fascinating as well. 59 66 95 = 59 66 17 = 125 17 = 47 17 = 64. It's interesting that 125 = 47 = the balance point between 62:11 and 62:12. Reversed = the Justice of God and the World of God? Major shiver, down to the core of my bones. Definitely onto something extremely important. NIOXIN Research Laboratories, Inc number was 628-9890. Address is 6206 Hotel St, Austell, Georgia 30001. NRLI = 5939 = Sum = 98 = 20. 5+9+3+9 = 26. Hotel = 8 62 53. Austell = 13 125 33.

Counting my change when all was complete, I had added exactly 26 cents for a total of $1.61 = 85 = 05, The Hierophant. Looked down at the stats, Pg 33 Ln 5.23 Pos 3.12. I broke for a lunch break, to run some errands, an to do some chores. Once again, it seems that everywhere I go, the universe is speaking to me.

Before going into some of that however, I just noticed that the NIOXIN brochure that the styist gave me yesterday has SCALP THERAPY displayed prominently. Let's see what it's trying to tell us, particularly since the stylist seemed so moved to have to give the information to me.

13137 2859177 = 13 13 07 28 59 17 07 Very powerful numbers indeed. Further, the receipt number was 6349425 = 63 4 16 25, also 6 1124 456 = 61 12 44 56. There we go again. The same group of numbers keep coming up though I'm starting to be convinced that my bag of tricks is sufficient to enable this to happen virtually all the time.

The tab at lunch with tip came to exactly $19.00. The meal + tax was $16.28. When I got back to the car, I was moved to look at the odometer and tripmeter. The odometer read 2028 with the 5th digit exactly midway between 5 and 6, 56 again. The other significance lies in the fact that my mission is to help with the transition from 5, The Hierophant to 6, The Lovers. The tripmeter read 443.2 = 44 32. Reversed = 23:44 = 25:00.

Let's see where the money count is now. $22 in bills, one twenty and two ones. $1.76 in coins, 5Q 3D 3N 6P. Total = $23.76 = 25:32. Looking at type counts we have 1002 5336, summed equal 6338. Note also 53+36 = 89 = 11, and 10+02 = 12. 176 = 98 = 20. So we have 22.20. And of course, the sum would be 42.

Yesterday, I found a marble, a blue cat's eye. At the time it didn't have much significance, though I got the image in my mind several times of a cat's eye. 312'1 575. 575 rotate is 755 = 528. That's it! My mission is to make the transition from 5 to 8. The sequence from last week. The 5 point is in a few years, the 8 in 2013 or so. But 5 to 8 = 5 26 8 as well.

Another confirmation. The city has been working on our road for the past two weeks using heavy equipment. I noticed that some of the numbers on the equipment were interesting last Friday but only noticed 305 in front of our house. A couple of hours ago I was taking a little nap whn I was startled awake. The time was exactly 3:59, and the song on the radio was Al Stewart's The Year of The Cat. Cat => cat's eye => caterpillar = chysalis of a different form. I am the caterpillar transforming to the butterfly. When I resaw 3:59, I wrote down 421, the reverse of the equivalent 1 to 4. 421 is the number of the house across the street, the only house number that I can see from my balcony! 421 = 12:56 = 55:59, reversed = 17:55 = 19:11. Also, 12+56 = 68 and 12:56 reversed = 65:21. 16 65 52 21 and 12 25 56 61.

Walked down the street to find the numbers on any Caterpillar equipment. There were only two 515 and 526. From above, note that 526 = 5 "to". However, more importantly note the numbers that are prominent in this triad: 2, 5, 6, 25, 26, 52, 56, 62, 65, 256, 265, 526, 562, 625, and 652.

256 = 2::100 = 3::22 265 = 2::107 = 3::29

526 = 5::136 = 6::58 562 = 5::172 = 7::16

625 = 6::157 = 8::01 652 = 6::184 = 8::28

Interesting, initially I had thought 515 to be the less interesting of the two numbers. It figures. Now I see that 515 is 526 - 11 and so 515 = 6::58 - 0::11 = 6::47. It's interesting that 15 = The Devil while 51 = The Desert King. 55 is the Ace of Swords that shows up in the upper right corner of my X tarot reading. Adding the two we get 66. One more 6 and we have the mark of Satan = 666. 666 = 652+14 = 8::28 + 0::14 = 8::42. Interesting. There is nothing evil or sinister in this number. Yet, the Bible refers to it as the mark of the Beast. Now beast = 25112 = 25 11 2 = 25 1 12. Sums = 38: Vision in both cases.

I have these chills running throughout my body. It's as if I'm in the process of discovering some sacred wisdom that is there for all to see, hidden in the midst of everyday events. It's been awaiting the time when those "with the eyes to see and ears to here could find it". Yeah, verily, the Kingdom of Heaven lies on this very world in which we live, however to find it we need to reverse ourselves and live from the inside out. The conscious mind is not the inside, but it is not an enemy to be vanquished either, it must be loved and shown that the way to spiritual freedom is in it's best interest also. Further, there is no freedom save spiritual freedom. In all other forms, those who speak of freedom simply are unaware of the chains that bind them.

There is still a sense that at least some of these numbers correspond to verses of the Bible. I'm sure I'll be moved to find out the specific connections when the time is right.

030301 04310306010204 0053500 30441710270027 28000477024 0000031706 16212179 38

These numbers were on my vehicle registration form. Note that they were not copied onto the parts of the form that the customer gets to keep. $535 was the fee amount.

There were also significant numbers on my property tax bill, but we'll leave that for another time. Somewhere today, VFP showed up as important. I believe it was at the gas station, though I don't remember the specific context. On the surface, this is just 467. However, let's expand each of the letters and split things where the V suggests. The result is 26162, a palindrome number whose digits sum to 17. All the more interesting, depending how things are split, one either gets 26 and 16, 61 and 62, or 26 and 62. Just got an intuition. The one in the center is the Master surrounded by two groups of 6 Disciples each. One group of disciples address the earth below, the other heaven above. Each group has 2 sources from which to pull the energy and resources required to do their work. This was taken from my ring.

More inspiration. Two pillars of 5 each guided by 1 are brought together, so we have the 51 meeting the 15 to form the lower 12 of the A. To this two sets of eyes are added, Vision above and Vision below bringing the total to 16, the Tower. From the Tower, two of Heart can be added one from above and one below, bringing the total to 18:The Moon, however 9 : The Hermit are focused in each domain. Finally, the ONE can return and take its place at the top of the A resulting in 19:The Sun.

This sequence 5, 6, 12, 16, 18, 19 could just as easily have been 5, 6, 12, 13, 17, 19 or 5, 6, 12, 16, 17, 19. The only difference being at which point the top stone of the A is placed. Bringing the pillars together results in 51 15, the sum is 66 but having The Desert King : The Devil next to each other is something else. The message is clear, however. They are part of the ONE, their battle is part of the Plan.

I just remembered something. When I got gas at the Exxon dealer, I noticed that the pump was mainly black and that there was a message on the pump in big letters that "This is NOT Exxon Fuel." Not was in All Caps just as quoted. I've been starting to take capitalization as a sign that the letter should not be reduced so NOT = 14 15 20 = 141520 =1414026. Reversed = 6 20 41 41. That's about as powerful as you can get, and out of a simple word like NOT. Now let's take this one step further. These are NOTES. This has all the power of NOT + 519 = 4126 = 4559. Reversing this we get 9554 6 20 41 41 = 52104 6 20 41 41 = 5 21 04 06 20 41 41. Also note how close SETON sounds to SATAN. But, these are clearly not the numbers of one who rules from ego. Not the difference in sums is EO versus AA = 5 15 versus 1 1 = 20 versus 2. Two is the High Priestess, 20 is Judgement. How appropriate. Note that 5 15 are the leftmost cards on the top row of my inverted 56 pyramid. 20 is the top of my 7 pyramid. This sequence of three 5 15 20 is what you get when you put the two pyramids side by side. The other noteworthy difference is that 2 has power and some wisdom, but no alignment to Source, 0.

Also note that SETH is of this lineage as well. However, we have to start with the reversed version to get original numbers that we can then reverse for spiritual meaning.

HTES = 8 20 5 19 = 8 20 41 26 = 23 52 45 59. Ok, now we're ready to reverse. 95 54 25 32 = 5 21 04 25 32 = One of the meanings of Seth. All familiar numbers once again.

12 55 04 25 32 = 1 25 50 42 53 2 = 1 2 5 50 42 28 26. There are a lot of interpretations that are possible.

Before I retire for the evening, I'd like to capture a basic sequence that I uncovered last week:

1992 32 35 44 37:20

1993 15 56 61 37:21

1994 76 77 78 37:22 = 38:00

1995 59 20 17 38:01

1996 42 41 34 38:02

1997 25 62 51 38:03

1998 08 05 68 38:04

1999 69 26 07 38:05

2000 52 47 24 38:06

2001 35 68 41 38:07

2002 16 11 58 38:08

2003 77 32 75 38:09

2004 60 53 14 38:10

2005 43 74 31 38:11

2006 26 17 48 38:12

2007 09 38 65 38:13

2008 70 59 04 38:14

2009 53 02 21 38:15

2010 36 23 38 38:16

2011 19 44 55 38:17

2012 02 65 72 38:18

2013 63 08 11 38:19

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2014 46 29 28 38:20

2015 29 50 45 38:21

2016 12 71 62 38:22 = 39:00

17 Oct 94

Started the day with file size at 158205 = 15 82 05 = 15 04 05. Devil : Emperor : Hierophant. What an interesting combination! Total = 24. Reverse = 50 28 51. Total = 129 = 12 9 = 51. Splitting the number as 158 205 = 2::02 2::49. The total is 4::51. 158+205 = 363. 6:33 = 7:11. 3:63 = 5:19. Once again, interesting numbers.

I was just copying a document for someone when I noticed an listing posted of the Top 10 contractors in terms of 1993 sales. Loral was 9 with $1.7 billion. Further, 9+17 = 26. Also, the whole line was highlighted in Yellow = 2553363 = 2 726 363 = 27 2 63 63. The card I picked today was 27, The Ace of Wands. There's alot of stuff buried in the symbology of that card. 13 and 31, 14 and 41, 33 and 44, 34 and 43. But 27 = 3x3x3 = 36363 = 3 63 63. Interesting how two loosely related thoughts result in sequences ending in 63 63, especially since this number is such an important one. In fact, if we substitute 3 63 63 for the 27 in the sequence for Yellow, we get 3 63 63 2 63 63. Reversed, we have 36 36 20 36 36 30. 20 = Judgement, 36 = gathering spiritual strength, 30 = happily ever after and my last name Hartman. Note that Hart man = 20 10 = Judgement man, and further 2010 refers to the year of the 38:16, The Tower Year of the Vision Cycle.

1307.31 is my weekly pay. 3113 and 1331 have already come up in other contents related to 27. Note also that my hourly rate is 32.6827.

07

20 38

51 51 x 2 = 102 = 24, or 42 reversed.

13 31

44

On the stub in bold red is 640305. 35, 53, 364, 564, 643, and 645 seem to fall our naturally. Also the sum is 72 = 71:22 indicating that the work on the cathedral is completed.

364 = 6:34 = 7:12, 564 = 6:54 = 7:32, 643 = 4:63 = 6:19, 645 = 4:65 = 6:21. I chose this way of representing these numbers because the middles of the triples seemed like they were forward of the number made of the two outer digits. The numbers are fascinating anyway.

Have I gone completely overboard? Are these the writings of a man trained in engineering for more than five years at USC and Stanford? Or, are these the writings of one who has gone mad? For, my claim is that I have found a new world, a spiritual one, that is embedded in the very same space as the one in which most people exist consciously. Science does not yet recognize this spiritual world, and religions are so inept and hungry for power and control that even if they know of it's existence, they do not find it in their best interest to reveal it. My sense is that they simply do not know, or we would see it in their works. But, who am I to speak thusly of both science and religion? What proof do I offer that there is truth in this words? I am Wayne, the Wayshower and I offer no proof. If you have doubt, go to your own source in consciousness and see what it tells you -- there are no miracles that I would do for you. The Christ, who performed the miracles came nearly two millennia ago. My sense is that this great entity will return, but we still have many years until the time of the Sun = the time of the Son. Perhaps at some time we'll be able to calculate this. Anyway, to continue, I've discovered that we are in the middle of a Play and that there are symbols all around us hidden in all of the props that offer us evidence of the spiritual world and how the physical is created from the spiritual. As you've seen above, I've used some of that hidden information to create a timeline for a part of the Play that has not yet occurred. The reason I could do this is that the Play is already written. It is only the current performance that limits itself to time as we perceive it and the nature of physical reality that our science tells us is real. One thing that contradicts most people's perception and belief is the nature of free will. My sense is that there is none, at least not from an ego/physical consciousness standpoint. Choice is an illusion, though it appears quite real to the one experiencing it. However, appearing real and being real are quite different things. The bottom line is that we are embodied consciousness here to learn of our true spiritual nature so that more of it can be expressed through flesh. Our beliefs are where we store information about our level of awareness. While physical, we have two key tasks:

1: Accomplish your mission or play your role.

2: Know Thyself.

Actually, only the second really matters. The first will take care of itself since consciousness herself will ensure that it is done in the appropriate manner. The acts in the Play have already been specified. We only carry out what has already been written. Though the writers employed may indeed be the superconscious and subconscious parts of ourselves.

20, 38, 44, 51, and 42. Very important numbers indeed.

Out of curiosity let's see what the hourly rate says as well:

68

22 17

49 49 x 2 = 98 = 3::20, or 89 reversed.

32 27

59

Once again, major numbers related to the transformation to the Aquarian Age.

Checked the Pocket Astrologer for positions of planets. In December, Saturn:Uranus:Neptune will be at 07 Pisces, 25 Capricorn, 22 Capricorn. Further, Pluto is at 29 Scorpio heading within a month or two into Sagittarius. The 25:22 blew me away, especially since these two planets square my natal Sun at 19:19 was what "caused" much of the spiritual tranformation experiences. Actually, not so much caused but "timed". In April, the last time I was highly manic except in a spiritual sense, the planets were at 26:23. Right now, the planets are at 22:21, so the energies are as close to square as they will get. That's fairly close, both are within 3 degrees and they stay there for weeks to months. It's very interesting that these energies would have this impact on me. All of the occult knowledge is accurate. It speaks of a viewpoint of the VOID from which all is created. Because my life has been so isolated, I know not of any others who have experienced awakenings in the way that I have. My concept of the world is far different than that of anyone I know, or any other concept that I have heard of. I'm definitely being led by a MASTER to uncover sacred knowledge. Actually, my sense is that I'm being led in a manner that allows the appropriate thoughts and experiences to occur that are necessary to further expand my awareness so that I can be of greater service to consciousness. I realize this is all a Play. It is not for me to write any part. Rather I willingly and consciously accept that which consciousness would have spirit do through me. I am a vehicle through which the Plan is executed that the Aquarian Age may be established on earth.

I got an interesting dollar bill in change from lunch, L 75311304 T. Reading from the outside in we get 32 74 50 33 11. This also begs to be read from the inside out in reverse. Doing this we get 11 33 05 47 TL = 11 33 05 47 2012. The number on the back of the bill was 126 = 5:59. Reversed = 95:5 = 9:55 = 5210. (also 17:05) Reversed = 0125 = 4:59 Reversed = 9:54 = 6210 (also 17:04) Reversed = 0126. Interesting how that set of transformations and reversals went in a ring that returned to the starting point. 126 = 5:16, 125 = 5:15. Does this sequence refer to days in December? If so 12/7 = 5:17, 12/8 = 5:18, 12/9 = 5:19, 12/10 = 5:20, 12/11 = 5:21, and 12/12 = 5:22 = 6:00. The tarot card for today was 27 = 5+22. 6 is the card at the top of my A reading. 12/12/1994 = 24/23 = 47. The whole thing is a Hanged Man Day in a Hanged Man Month in a King of Wands Year. Note the sequence from the dollar bill comes close to saying the same thing. 11:33:05:47 = 12:11:05:47 = 12:11:06:25 = 12:11:35:27 = 12:12:13:27 = 12:12:06:47. That is 05:47 on 12/11 and 06:47 on 12/12. Note how I was moved to use a variation of the transformation that I did on the simpler number 126 to get the information hidden in the serial number. That information about an event nearly two months away would come to me from the numbers on a dollar bill that I got in change from a place I haven't eaten at in nearly six months is more than chance. Further, that different numbers on the bill, the serial number and a three digit number on the reverse side used independently would provide the exact same information about the nature and timing of a future event simply blows me away. There is no chance. There is no coincidence. We are consciousness, first and foremost, here to learn of our true spiritual nature. We observe, and we alter our beliefs and awareness based on how we react to what we observe and see experienced. Oh, while physical we are attached to the body, and it is our interface to the outer world. But, the focus must be on the inner world. That is where heaven is. That is the realm of the spirit. Enjoy the physical as much as you want, but realize why your here. KNOW THYSELF! Throughout your life, every moment that you can, keep your focus on this one pursuit. It's one of the hardest things to do in a world full of attractive and engaging illusion. Yet, the only thing you take with you from each existence is the awareness that you have achieved. From that standpoint, literally nothing else matters. For some of us, there is also a spiritual mission or assignment to perform that we agreed to before entering this incarnation. Here too, however, it is important to remember that we are ONE consciousness, and that things work best when we allow spirit to do its works through us rather than trying to impose our will on things. Not my will but THINE be done. Let this be your motto, and abide by it. At some point, conscious co- creation becomes the order of the day. I haven't yet reached that level of awareness. When it becomes necessary for me to do my work, it will be so. Until then, I'm more than content with seeing what spirit is able to accomplish through me. The more I see, the more blown away I get. Right now, I wouldn't trade places with anyone else in the world, even if I could. I'm at a point where all life has spiritual meaning. I literally live in a spiritual universe. I know that thoughts and vibration create form. Further, I have some of the critical keys that can blow this wide open, that can show others that the spiritual world exists here and now intermeshed with the physical world. Our random process are only random because we've limited ourselves to see only half of time. Synchronicities are the events around which the whole structure will tumble. Too many, and our beliefs about chance and coincidence are brought to the ground. When open researchers start applying their whole brains to seeing and understanding the symbols and structures of the spiritual world, a truly New Age will be born on this planet. What is require is the spiritual eyes to see and spiritual ears to hear. Hearing is extremely important, for the spiritual world is built upon sounds and vibration. Note: It is only our conscious mind that has been deaf and blind to the spiritual world. Our reality is created by subconscious processes that are highly aware of all that they need to know to function in the world.

Ok, a bit grandiose again. More like a lot grandiose. However, look at what's come through in the past two weeks and look at all the realizations that have been made. And, this is all original stuff. Yes, I don't originate it. However, I am at a state where my brain can receive it, and I (this consciousness that I am here and now) can understand it.

A voice inside my head said draw a card, any card. I generally don't draw two in the same day, but when consciousness speaks, I listen. The card was 66 : Queen of Pentacles. It's been awhile since I got this card. Something says that rather than reverse it, I should rotate it 180 degrees. The result is 99 = 21. Given that we are moving from 5 to 6 in December, that would be 666, the mark of the Beast = 6:66 = 6::198 = 8::20. Rotating this we would have 999 = 9:21 = 10::219 = 12::63. Reversed = 36::21. No bells ringing. Although we do have the 126 pattern again, and 129 as well if we reverse the first one. 6x6x6 = 216, 9x9x9 = 729. I sense that I'm forcing things, trying to do it myself versus allow consciousness to show the way.

Nothing else in the card seems significant except for a rabbit which is hidden in background so that you could easily miss it. Now rabbit is 912292 = 91 22 92 = 13 22 14 = 14 14 = 28. Hmm, now 28 is midway between 27 and 29. If we look at the number 729 and consider that the 2 is in the foreground, then there is a hidden 8 between the 7 and 9 that is masked by the 2. If we apply the same thing to rabbit, at first there appears to be no elegant number to put between 91 and 92. But 24 lies half way between 19 and 29, so reversing it seems to be appropriate. 91 42 92 with 22 in front of 42. Our trick earlier of collapsing 22 with 13 should have yielded 14 42 14 = 70. Reversing this yields 7 : The Chariot. Bunnie = 235595 was a wonderful Samoyed that I had a couple of years ago. 23 55 17. Huggie = 837795 was her mate. 83 77 95 = 05 77 17. By our hidden rules, 59 was behind 55 in Bunnie and 11 was behind 77 in Huggie. Note: The Chariot triggered a context switch, picturing myself being pulled by my present Samoyeds on our walks, Samoyed and rabbit brought up Bunnie and Huggie.

By the way, rabbit also = 9+1+2+2+9+2 = 25. Expanded = 52. I'll have to check the animal cards on this as well. Bunnie = 29, Huggie = 39, combined = 68. Also, both had The Star Exalted. As you can tell, my life to this point has been an incredible gift from consciousness.

The Chariot calls to be spelled out as well. 285 3819962. Right off the bat we have 285, a simple rotation of 528. Every time anything with -eth is pronounced, we get a vibration that moves us on the path of 528. Wow! Seth was clearly part of the path, S = 19, The Sun. As to the rest, we have 38 19 9 62, once again powerful numbers.

It's 9:29 Pg 41 Ln 2.9 on 10/17/94. Look at that, I didn't even notice that card 27 came up on a 27 day. Then again, it's probably just coincidence, now isn't it? As to the 29's, perhaps Bunnie's being given a stroke for helping me so much. She was the strongest example of unconditional love and of courage that I've had in my life. Ok, a hug for you too, Hug. Hope you two are doing well, and that you don't regret the time you spent with us.

18 Oct 94

The day has just started and already the messages are rolling in. I started the day with 91 = 13 cents. After buying my Mountain Dew, I was down to 21 cents, 3 nickels and 6 pennies. What came to mind however was that I had the world in my hand. When I put down the date above, I noticed it was 10/18, a 28 day, the man with the world in his hand. Further, adding 23 for the year we get 51, The Desert King. Major shivers running primarily down the right side of my body. Also 3N 6P = 35 67. Added together = 102 = 24 = 23:22. 3+6 = 9 coins = the Hermit. copper/nickel = 63, nickel/copper = 36, sum = 99 = 21 : The World Exalted.

Taking my shower I noticed that my shampoo is spelled I vor Y with a symbol that looks like a stylized L above the vor and a fainter additional squiggle that makes the entire symbol look like a characature of a face. As I looked at it further, the L could just as easily be a C or a U at a slight angle upwards. This is the same symbol I have on my van windshield except slanted downward at about 45%. Further, the symbol on my windshield is more clearly a C.

The meaning that just came to mind was "I see why!". 9325 = 15 25, reversed = 52 39. Summed = 91 = 13. If we rotate by one, we get 32 59, reversed = 95 23 = 17 23. Something says to peel the number from the center out 32 95 = 32 17. Sum = 59. The Aquarian Age. TAA = 2011. WOW! This also links to my graduation speech in 1976, finding the answer to the question why.

My ring. earth 21 1 12 heaven As above, so below.

33 As outside, so within.

[5115] 2112 Christ is hidden within!

Note also that the reverse of 91:Death Exalted is 19:The Sun = The Son, The Christ?

Got $10.00 from Tom L (Note: TL = 2012) as payback for lunch yesterday. E 53588251 A. Back = 492. 55 35 88 25 11. 492 = 5::102 = 6::34. Reversed = 294 = 2 94 = 2 16.

Tilting everything CW, we have 90 above and 36 below = 9 above and 9 below. The Hermit. But inside, lies the greatest of all, the double infinity. Hmm.

If we rotate CCW, we get 63 above and 108 = 30 below. Interesting. Sum is 93 = 15. Reversed = 51 and 39. Very interesting. These reversal processes are not logically or mathematically valid as far as I know, but there is an intuitive validity that gives them meaning.

Paid Maria the $5.00 that I owed her for Tori's Run/Walk last week. Got back L 50094259 D.

125 09 42 59 4 = 12 50 94 25 94 = 12 50 16 25 16.

The number on the back was 5. I don't know what else to make of this yet, but seeing the Hanged Man, the 10 of Cups, The Tower, The Knight of Wands, The Tower. It appears that something is in for a whole lot of transformation. The 50 seems to point to the US. Interesting that we would consider our country as the US, the WE, the 235. Hmm, is this also VVE = 445 or 22 22 5. Reversed = 5:44 = 1626. WHOA! Also, 5:22:22 = 5:23 = 6:01. Reversed = 106 = 28. I'm shaking almost beyond control. Things are connecting so quickly. My spirit is definitely soaring. Yes, the butterfly has found it's wings and is soaring into a world whose beauty is absolutely beyond compare. I've finally made the leap into the void, the unknown, only to find myself in a way that I had not even suspected. IT IS DONE! The chysalis has become the butterfly, and has spread it's wings and flown away. Wendy's Beauty Shop, Metamorphosis. That is what I've been through in the past two years -- yes, that's it, metamorphosis.

Pg 42 Ln 6.2 at 11:16, just transformed to 11:17 on a 28 day in a 28 year. Enough for now.

After lunch, down to 12 : The Hanged Man pieces of COPPER = 36 77 59. Am definitely feeling like the hanged man, seeing the world upside down, only I'm the one who has it right, or left, or whatever is most aligned to spirit. Went to Pizza Hut. Sat at a corner table where I noticed L U C K Y in big red letters on the Lucky grocery store. 33327, but also 333 11 25, and 12 21 3 11 25. LUC are the same three letters from the shampoo bottle this morning. Amy Grant's song "Lucky One" just went from number 1 for several weeks to number 2, replaced by Elton John's "Circle of Life". I had a sense that I should reverse ONE, yes, the same ONE that appears on the dollar bill. But, I also sensed something was missing ENOCH is what we need to complete it. That is we need: to reverse the ONE, i.e. bring spirit back into expression and add CH = 38 = VISION! WOW! Enoch = 55638 = 42 6 38. That's it! That's what it takes to complete the pyramid that our founding fathers started 218 years ago. Reversing Enoch we get 83655 = 83 655 = 05 527 = 8 3527 = 8 625. Reversed = 526 8. AHA! 52 68 52+68 = 120 = 42. Reversed = 86 25 = 08 25. Sum = 33.

Two license plates caught my attention, one going and one returning. 2VXP716 and 3HBB895.

VXP is very similar to VFP of two days ago, since both F and X reduce to 6.

My sequence before was 26162. Now we have 261671622 = 26 16 7 16 22 = 42 7 38. Look how similar this is to ENOCH. The six in the middle has transformed to a 7. I'll bet the final step must take us to 42 8 38 in a similar manner. The sums go from 86 => 87 => 88. I can't imagine a more appropriate final sum, double infinity. Also, The Wheel of Fortune Exalted = 10. God expressing SOURCE. Further, it's reverse is itself, so the spiritual is being expressed in the physical, as with the other Master numbers.

3822895 = 3 82 28 95 = 3 04 28 17. Reversed = 5 98 22 83 = 5 20 22 05. Sum = 52. Another breakout = 38 22 89 5 = 38 22 11 5. Sum = 76. It strikes me to treat the letters separate in some way. HBB = 822 = 8:22 = 9. Now we have 39895 = 3 20 17. Reversed = 59 89 3 = 59 11 3. Sum = 73. Note: 39 = 38:22 = 38 2 2 = 1:22 = 2. This is a very strange transformation. Reversed we have 20 = 93 = 15. I'm not sure what to make of this yet. At first, I though it dealt with cards and their shadows. However, these happen around card 78/2 = 39. I'm sure it will make sense soon enough. Ok, the significance is adding thirty seven does not alter things on the outside. The same with the opposite, 73. You can keep adding these to the world and not change the illusion for people who have not turned inside to SEE the Light that comes forth from spirit. Ok, sometimes I'm dense, even now. The King of Cups rides atop the sea of consciousness, but that does not bring the gifts to the world. It's for the Queen of Cups: Vision, and the Knight of Cups: Peace to carry the message to the world.

Our purpose is to BE = 25 so that we can SEE = 1955 = 5220. In two more years we reach 52:22 = 53. Reversed = 35 : Spiritual Inheritance.

The BE and SEE were in larger bold type on a United Way brochure. For filling out the form they gave us a raffle ticket. I got 82 06 10, sum = 98 = 20. Reverse = 01 60 28, sum = 89 = 11. So we have 20 11. Very interesting.

Note that when I was born on 4/8/1958 there were only 49 states. Reversed = 94 = 16. Hawaii became the 50th state in 1959. Reversed = 9591 = 17 13. Note how 1995 is embedded in there. Leave the left half alone and reverse the right half. Interesting. Left => right brain, intuition; right => left brain, logic and reason. The half we are asked to reverse is that most revered by science and western society for the most part. Interesting, indeed.

Just figured out a few things. Yellow is at the core of the Bull's Eye on a target not red as I had thought. Or, at least that's how it is on a poster near my copier. As I was leaving the parking lot at lunch, I was slightly moved to look at the license number on a yellow van, but I didn't go out of my way to do so. The first part of the numbers seemed interesting but I don't remember them. The copier has extensions posted for service personnel. 7525 and 7526, of course.

The most important revelation was the meaning of my SSN 575-68-2184. Interesting that SSN is 19 19 14. Reversed is 41 91 91 = 41 13 13. Anyway, mine breaks down as follows:

575 68 = 4 x 17 2184 = 104 x 21 = 26 x 21

Eye = Vision Day God World

The one with vision during the day of God's World or the spiritual world. Not bad. I do indeed feel as if I've received spiritual vision. The blindfolds that had been there are now removed, and I can finally truly SEE, in a way that I have never done before, and possibly in a way that no man has ever done before. Can this truly be so? Is this virgin territory that has not been crossed in this manner? If this is anything like what is to come, I can already tell that my life from here on out will be beyond compare, truly Beyond Imagination; and we will indeed build a better world faster than anyone could ever dream. And, it will be a "land of ashes" for such is what will be left of flesh burned out and renewed by the fire of spirit.

Note: It's interesting that I wasn't given this interpretation of my SSN until I'd already realized that meaning in my life. We're given what we are ready for, when we are ready for it. At least, that appears to be how things work in my life.

Drew a new tarot card. The V of Cups, card 45 came up. There are 3 empty cups and 2 full cups, but that didn't seem significant. When I looked at the card as a whole, the only thing that jumped out was BLACK ROBE = 23132 9625. Reversed = 526 9 23132. Once again, 526.

At the copier OUTSTANDING was highlighted in yellow. 63212154957. Reversing this yields 7 59 45 12 12 36. My ratings had been "outstanding" until last year when I was downgraded to "excellent" = 563533592, reversed = 2 95 33 53 65 = 2 17 33 53 65. It looks to me like I was upgraded not downgraded.

I got my five year service award on 8/3/1994. 83 = 5. At least that's when the letter was dated. It was signed John A Mann. He slants his writing as much to the left as I do.

Service Award = 19594935 15194, reversed = 4 91 51 53 94 95 91

4 13 51 53 16 17 13

SA = 191 = 13. Very interesting. Reversed AS = 119 = 41. In the world we get Death, while in the spirit we get Unlimited Abundance. Interesting indeed!

19 Oct 94

Got a call on my voice mail at 1:59, reversed = 9:51. 1:59 = 15:9 sum = 24, reversed = 42. 1:59 = 122 = 44 = 5:12 = 4826. Reversed = 6284 = 7544 = 7 16 26. That's definitely it! Reversed = 626 17.

At lunch, I got inundated with 222 twice within a couple of minutes. 222 = 1:58. Interesting, this is only one minute before the phone call above. 1:58 = 222 = 10:02 = 58211 = 12 02 1 = 12 0 21. Interesting, indeed. 1:58 reversed = 8:51.

Got a ten dollar bill from the grocery store yesterday H 00460978 *, E1, E142, 529. It was printed in St Louis, Missouri in 1990 signed by CVV and NFB. The two 10s in the top corners have larger S shapes figures under them.

As of 9:34 PM = 262 10 74, I have the following money in my wallet.

20 E 19074319 A H4 H113 44 1988A with black Standstill mark over 0 H4

20 G 77676074 D E1 E123 11 1988A with blue Standstill mark over FED

10 H 00460978 * E1 E142 529 1990 9011 = 12 11.

01 L 28260833 Y F2 FVF325 281 1988A CVV, NFB

01 L 86833084 C C3 FWC42 319 1993 MEW, LB

01 L 34192544 C F3 F258 236 1988 KDO, NFB

01 I 88823259 C E4 FWE267 216 1988A CVV, NFB

01 L 34917520 A G2 FWG7 7 1993 [17 95 42 30] LA = 121 = 43.

01 L 05487134 X D4 FWD306 258 1988A

01 L 27838499 A D2 FWD5 8 1993

Note this exactly 57 dollars, the same as in the middle bottom row of my upward pointing pyramid tarot reading. I also have $12 in my left pocket and 27 cents in change in my right.

10 L 10926586 A G3 G141 525 1990 CVV, NFB

01 L 39914038 X H1 FWH333 231 1988A

01 H 22203556 D H2 FWH146 86 1988A 3052526248 Also, note 222 again.

$57 + $12 + $0.27 = $69.27 Ace of Pentacles and Ace of Wands.

Saw a license plate this morning, II M JJ. 29 4 210 = 29 1 22 1 210 = 92 1 22 1 2 10. This might also have been interpreted as 0909 13 1010.

Actually the final $1 bill with 222 was part of my change for lunch at Fresh Choice, address 222, where there was a car in the parking lot near the entrance with 222B on it's license plate. I noticed all three within a ten minute period. Actually, I noticed two and received the other in change. Fresh Choice prices are $5.99 for the meal and $1.10 for a drink = $7.09 total + tax. While I was eating I noticed that there was a sign above the cashier for Fresh Squeezed Lemonade. This struck me as interesting since I had stopped at safeway to get more limes for limeade. They had been on sale for 25 cents for weeks. There were only 3 left and they didn't look very good so I got 12 lemons at 3/$1.00 instead. The net transformation was .25 =>.33 .

Lemon = 35 13 65 = 125 13 1514 = 12 51 3 41 51. I sense that I'm forcing things. My body and brain need some rest. Until tomorrow.

Just pulled a Tarot card. 32 came up. The wands on the card have a 231 pattern. It's interesting that one one the dollar bills had this pattern as well. Total number of leaves/branches on all 6 wands is twelve, 3 with 3, and 3 with 1.

20 Oct 94

Yesterday they opened Highway 85. In yesterday's paper, the had a big upward pointed triangle with slightly rounded sides and 85 in the middle. The title said something about "The Last Highway". Highway to Heaven also came to mind, especially when I realized that 85 = 07. That this would happen on a 29 day in a 19 13 year is highly interesting. All along, writing these notes, I never noticed that I always use only the last two digits of the year and 94 = 16.

Slept well overall last night. Woke around 4 for some lemonade and a pit stop. Major revelation occurred just before the alarm went off at 6:00. BEAUTY. I envisioned the letters standing one atop the next with the B at the bottom and Y at the top. Y = 51 = The Desert King. Clearly, it is Roman numeral V over I. Another view is 22 over 9 = 9:22 = 10 = J. This ties in with the fact that the High Priestess, Card 2, has the left pillar with B and the right with J. Actually, it seems the spiritual interpretation needs to reverse things to go back from Y up to B, where we then have a 13 experience and do a 90 degree rotation again to get W = 23, from which we can commence the transition to the next age. Note, the HP is also 8 16 = Strength: The Tower.

I also observed that the A on my ring could be imagined to be formed by starting with an H, then bending the two sides until the tops aligned, then adding a large diamond to the top. Actually, in this case large = 0.25 carets. There are twelve smaller stones in the body of the A. If we count the top stone as 1, we have 13. If 10, because of its size, we = have 22 = 0 = Source = superconsciousness itself. Ramtha talked about this. The Next Step, Superconsciousness. Interesting, I believe Bill Gates and Microsoft were working this at one time. Note that when we reverse Gates, it starts out Set! 19 5 20 = The Sun : The Hierophant : Judgement. On the physical side, this takes us from the 1900s to the 2000s via application of knowledge. From the spiritual side, this involves the Hierophant taking us from the death subcycle of The High Priestess. Note that B J = 2 10 = High Priestess : Wheel of Fortune. Reversing this we get 01:20 (note = my birth time) = 40:22 = 41 = Abundance.

At 7:55 AM on 10/20/94, I had another major revelation. The clock ticked to 7:56 before I could start writing this down however. Note that 7:55 = 528 once again. The revelation is that I had been reading VI as 6. It is actually the 51 Card : The Desert King, and the VI of Wands : I AM Race, Victory which is the tarot card that I drew yesterday.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 1 6 12 20 30 42 56 72 1 7 19 39 69 111 167 239

Sequences from the flower of life stuff. # on side, # on nth ring, total # through nth ring. These are simple patterns that anyone could draw, and counts that anyone could make.

21 Oct 94

Spent about 3 hours with Jim B talking about astrology, yesterday, so was too busy to write. It was interesting that I could use numerology on the symbols/words and numbers used by astrologers to come up with additional information or the same information in a different way. Viewpoints again. We're dealing with the basic nature of symbol systems. I'm sure that consciousness could write a book on this through me now that I've had the intence training of the past 7 months.

This morning rather than my usual Mt Dew, I got a Jarritos Sabor Pina, 13.5 FL OZ (400 mL) and a code of 0 90478 21214 2, backwards = 2 41 21 28 74 09 0. Very interesting. Note: I've noticed these before, but never was moved to get one. Also, the price was $1.00 exactly. By the way Sabor Pina is Pineapple Soda.

Change from the truck:

L 62 91 44 12 Y C4 FWC368 229

K 04 95 50 08 B A4 FWA6 309

L 16 48 91 82 V C3 FWC303 251

Change from before:

L 28 26 08 33 Y F2 FWF325 281

Current Money situation is $48.35. Sum = 83 = 5. Reduced sum = $12.08. Interesting, I hadn't seen this used before. Also 4+8+3+5 = 20. Important realizations last night again, but I just don't remember them now. Pg 47 Ln 4.07 Pos 3.38. Interesting. This appears to be a reference system which lines up what's already been written. Time is 11:55 = 5212. Reversed = 2125 = 35222 = 82422 = 825. Reversed again 528. Everywhere 528. The man with the world in his hand, Card 28, the 6 of wands is GOD. But 528 = 606.

5 2 8 Hierophant : High Priestess : Strength

6 0 6 The Lovers : The Fool : The Lovers

Actually it's 825 that's the problem 8 to 5 = Work Hours as well.

Strength based on technology and science blind to any moral or spiritual sense enforced as the "religion" of the times just as strongly as any religion was in earlier times. Who says the logic and reason have any more validity that intuition and other subconscious processes. (12:12)

What do we get as a result?

528 => 606 [Note 528 also = 3226 = 46 reversed = 64. 3226 reverse = 6223 = 73]

From 528 perspective we see 56 = blind justice/balance, 20 = Judgement, and 86 = Strength.

From 606 perspective we see 65 = Abundance, Wisdom tied to Source, and Wayne

File size = 200441, last saved at 12:20PM = 200074. Difference = 367 = 407!. Interesting.

At 12:25, my computer stopped working. For the past hour or so, it has been stuttering. By the time I got things restored and looked at the clock, it was 12:33 PM. 12:25 reversed = 5221 = 61, reversed = 16 = The Tower. 12:33 = 2721= 2253, reversed = 3522 = 36.

10:05 PM File size = 200744. Didn't note the time saved from early this afternoon. I'm continuing to see messages everywhere. My theory that there is a symbolic spiritual world embedded within the physical one is no longer a theory. Everywhere I look there is an orchestration or synchronicity of information that is undeniable. The spiritual world exists, it is here, one only need have the eyes to see and the ears to hear. I believe eyes to see deals more with appropriate I's to see, and ears to hear deals with the fact that the subconscious works with vibrations. If one allows the ego to get in the way, the connections simply don't come.

On the way from my van to the house, I picked up a Fair Receipt for The Bus, 0B001 18:38 17OCT94 ZONE 1 = 26 11, reversed = 1162. That's the Year 0 = 1994 - 832 that I discovered several weeks ago.

Picked up Eskalith 51 21 39 28 at Longs. CoPay amount = $6.80 = $6.02. REG # 38 21 5. NDC # 00007-4010-20.

I got three letters, from my sister Maria, my niece Jamie, and my friend Greg, all dated on 10/17/94, the same date as the fare receipt. This is interesting because I typically don't get more than one letter every two or three months.

I've noticed that capital letters seem to speak to me as well. Military acronyns, or even capitalized words in personal letters have a special significance. It's absolutely amazing how much hidden meaning is embedded everywhere. My sense is that I'm starting to learn the building blocks, the symbols, that compose the spiritual world. And, it is the symbols in this world that created the physical one. It's absolutely fascinating. Thus far, I'm still in the observation mode, however, I sense that at the pace consciousness is moving me in my education, it won't be long before it is time to apply what I have learned. In the meantime, writing about it will have to suffice. The intent still is to capture as much as I can about the realizations that are occurring and what they mean. For what, and for whom remains to be seen. But I am moved to write whatever consciousness would allow me to bring forth. It is up to consciousness to provide the guidance necessary to get the works to whoever is in need of them. In another time one might have said from a religious standpoint that there is a God, and he knows and supplies for your every need. However, with the exception of the Garden of Eden, this condition doesn't appear to exist. But, the appearance is illusion. Among physical forms, all sorts of injustices occur all the time. Illusion is not reality, however, spirit is. And, at the spirit level, each individual is given exactly those conditions that provide a challenging opportunity to learn, given it's awareness level at time of entry.

Further, all time is simultaneous. It's only our viewpoint into the illusion that gives it the linear perspective where we are focused on a now with memory access to a past but limited means of reaching into the future. (primarily via occult and ordinary sciences).

24 Oct 94

Yes, I went 2 days without writing. However, realizations were occurring so swiftly that I no longer had time to write them down. The questions and answers were moving so fast in my mind that even with a tape recorder, I would have not been able to keep up with them. It's as if I have passed through an intense storm, a storm of consciousness. I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it. My world view now is quite different from where it was even two days ago, in ways that are literally Beyond Imagination. My sense is that what I know to be true from my personal experience is so different from the consensus world view and the individual world views of others that I am unique as an expression of individualized aware consciousness. I am definitely The Hanged Man, and The Fool as well.

One of the license plates I saw near my home was on a VW Rabbit, 2BBB228 = 222222 8. Six two's and an 8. Maybe it means 628 or 52 28 or 5:22 8 = 68 or reversed = 8:22 5 = 95 = 17. Also note that VW looks like VVV = 22+22+22 = 66 = Card that the hidden rabbit was on only a few day ago.

Watched "Knights of the Round Table" on Sunday. I definitely have some connection to that time and to the themes being expessed. Arthur Pendragon. AP = 116, reversed = 6:11. I have two dragons on my ring. Pen = 755 = 528. How many times has this number shown up? Who said that the pen is mightier than the sword? Arthur, Guenevere, and Lancelot played a trio that had to be played. 173 = 37 71 13 and 31 17 73. No! Suppose the 7 is in front of 123, then what? 123 = 45, the figure with the Black Robe. Guenevere was sent to the convent for her treason against Arther. In on of the final scenes in the movie, she was either dressed in or being led by someone in a Black Robe. 7:29 = 8:53, reversed = 3:58 = 224, reversed = 4:22 = 5.

AL = 13 Death AG = 17 The Star LG = 37 = The King of Cups

= 11/2 Justice 127 = 49 = Nine of Cups

I've been weary much of the day, and am particularly weary now. My spirit soars, but it is not yet clear how that manifests in the specific creation of the condition of the body. For the past year, my body has been operating at less than it's best. Elimination functions, in particular, seem to be under the most difficulty. Interesting that this would manifest in the sewer system of my house as well as that of my body.

I know for certain that we live in a spiritual world. I have been allowed to see some of the symbols embedded in that world and interpret their meaning. Knowledge of these symbols in turn has further verified that the web is already completed as fashioned by consciousness and that this web is intricately woven, so fine as to almost be beyond belief.

I'm rapidly coming to an understanding that this is indeed Wayne's World, that everything within it is meant to be a reflection back unto my consciousness. No, I don't own the world. I am not God, however, my awareness is such that it is as if everything were done or written specifically to provide me with information. Even the Sports Section of the Sunday Mercury News had all sorts of hidden information that has nothing at all to do with sports contained within it. How could this be? How could the writers write in such a manner to make this so, and further what's the likelihood that I would come in contact with the section? It was in the bathroom stall at work, and some of the messages were so obvious that my attention was attracted like a magnet.

I'm in the process of flushing a lot of old beliefs in a very rapid time period. I am a butterfly soaring in a new world and I haven't yet seen any other butterflies in the territory that I have covered. However, I've only had my wings a little over a week. I know where my consciousness has been over it's 36 years of existence, and never has it been anywhere near where it is now. I am free in a way that I have never been. I know that we create our own reality but that we do it primarily subconsciously and that there is but one consciousness that animates all of us. Yes, ONE consciousness, no doubt about it. The physical world hasn't changed one bit. However, my understanding of how it is created has shifted 90 degrees so that it is completely orthogonal to the consensus reality. You might say that is the transformation that I just went through, a 90 degree shift. Even better, an i shift. By laying down my ego, my I, an imagination breakthrough came in that allowed me to see what had been hidden. Everything is the word, everything is vibration, everything is symbol -- yes, everywhere symbol. Whether it's in the Medicines of the Animal Cards, the Tarot, the Runes, Numerology, Astrology, Auras, or even the Symbol Systems of Modern Sciences; the bottom line is that it's all information, information with meanings at several levels. Every word, every name, was specifically chosen. Every action is specifically called out by consciousness to meet a multiplicity of needs.

What I don't know is how many others have similar awareness to mine. Am I truly The Wayshower as has come through in these writings? Or, is that ego, and a sense of grandiosity rearing it's head again? One thing that's changed is that my mind is constantly filled with questions now. Questions and answers fill up much of my days and evenings, and sometimes my nights. And, when it's not questions and answers, it's observations and the search for meaning. Then has definitely been a major spiritual transformation. But, it is spirit who works through me, who fills my head with questions and their answers. Yes, I'm a willing student, with an unquenchable spiritual curiosity -- but consciousness guides my step every step of the way. I know that even if I would want to, I of myself can do nothing. This is true of every man and woman. Consciousness does it all. Every action is taken for the greatest good of all concerned. Not on think is overlooked. The world is perfect as it is, here and now. It could be no other way in the moment. Every job, every situation, every action, every relationship -- everything is occurring exactly as consciousness has planned. As awareness, we are the watchers seeing what WE the ONE as consciousness has wrought. We as individuals can't go in to change what WE created. The Play is the Play. We just have a very focused way of watching it. Even more interesting is the discovery of spiritual building blocks. It all revolves around time. It's as if encoded within the timeline is the nature of the script itself.

After the last set of realizations, the result is that I live by consciousness now. I make no moves until she moves me. I allow her full control over the thought processes of this vehicle, trusting that she will lovingly take me in whatever direction is required for my highest growth. Further, the sense is that this is already completed. While my experience is still linear, I know that time is not, yet I also know that I came to bring forth VISION.

I'm wondering why I needed to come forth in this manner. What couldn't be assured is that a given level of awareness would be reached at a given time. Aha. But that could be assured as well for it is the level of awareness that marks the time. After all, what one achieves, all achieve. On the surface, however, the rules for change call for a more gradual evolution. We needed to bring one into physical form that could bring forth the VISION. Yes, it's a role in the Play, but think of roles as levels of consciousness or levels of awareness as well. Each person is therefore perfectly suited to their role.

Is there any free will at all in the Play? No, of course not, it's a play. But, is there not some latitude, some tolerance for error, some level of local autonomy? Not really. Remember, consciousness creates every event, including every thought. My sense is that the tightness with which the web is weaved does not allow any departure from the script. Interesting. Another sense is that this is the nature of our reality/illusion not that of all.

Something about the answer to the question WHY came into my head again. At it's first level, why = 587 = 8:57 = 328 = 32 2 4 = 4004. At its next level Why = 23 8 7 = 22 23 7, reversed = 7 32 33 = 7 33 00 = 8 11 00. At its highest level, we have 23 8 25 = 2 38 2 5 = 2 4 22 = 2 5 00. Also, reverse = 528 32 = 7 55 32 = 7 28 2 56 = 7 53 2 56 = 7 56 07 = 4 28 07.

We can also look at it more simply. 5+8+7 = 20. 23+8+7 = 38. 23+8+25 = 56. Judgement, Vision, and Balance/Blind Justice. The reverse of these are 02, 83 = 05, and 65. The High Priestess, The Hierophant Exalted, and Abundance. Very interesting, indeed!

W also begs to be looked at as VV. This increases the first sum by 3, the second by 3, and the third by 21, yielding 23, 41, and 77. Once again powerful numbers.

VV H Y = 22 22 8 25 = 22 22 33 = 44 33 = 77. Also, we have 55 8 51 = 8:106 = 8:28. Note that 8 and 11 have been mixed up in the Tarot deck. Given that 8 in numerology always includes great responsibility, it must mean Justice. So 8:28, the answer to the question why was within the English phrasing of the question all along. The answer is Justice and the Man with the world in his right hand. Oh, there are a bunch of other things hidden there as well, but the bottom line is that the one consciousness pulls all the strings, the rest is just illusion.

It will be interesting to see what comes in the week ahead. My appointment with Dr Greene got moved to 9:00 on 26 Oct. It's especially interesting since that is a 299 = 13:13 day in a 94 = year. Also October is a 33 month. Very interesting. The last time I had a dosage/drug change was when I saw Dr Greene in April after I had flown for a month having just really discovered the spiritual world. Actually, the first time was during August 93 when I got an intense sense of the connectedness of all things. This time I've been flying all month as well, only higher than ever before, but it's a controlled high, a spiritual one not an emotional one. It will be interesting to see what Dr Greene has to say. Now I know for certain that, at least for me, the world is definitely Wayne's world. It speaks to me personally on all fronts. It's as if I'm in a holodeck. I'm not sure yet whether the other beings are real or are like me, but they appear to be. It's very much like some of the computer games where a city, a country, or even the world are manipulated by controlling various factors. In my case the game now is maximal spiritual realization. The universe is sending to me the exact experiences, messages, and symbols I need to grow at the fastest rate possible. The end is in site. The Aquarian Age is there, just out of our grasp, but the VISION will soon be here in full force. And, the vision of PEACE that it brings will bring every army and militia to it's knees. For the ways of spirit are Mighty indeed, and an army of spiritual warriors prepares to do battle in a war not of hardware but of ideas.

I know not why these words need come through as they do, except as confirmation to me of a level of awareness that has truly given me spiritual eyes and ears. Also, they instruct me at least, and perhaps others if and when the time be right. Had these writings not occurred as they have, I would not be where I am. Yet, in another sense, these words were meant to come through me just as surely as a TV show plays at a particular time. My sense is that people who are blind to the inner will have to be guided to a new age through means and terms that they understand in the outer. Further, I have come to be a Bringer of such Words, words that would transform a country and a world to a greatness based on a deep spiritual foundation. Note, not a religious foundation, but a spiritual ONE.

So, where does conscious co-creation enter the picture. This is it, reaching a point of giving up your conscious will so that the spirit within you can flow to do it's works to the greatest degree possible. All you really had to do was get out of it's way. That's it. But, it's also one of the hardest tests there is in physical existence. The personal will can be quite strong but only in giving it up can the true strength of spirit by brought forth. Interesting that this would be so, but the spiritual law is not my will, but Thine be done.

I'm reaching burnout again, it's time to sleep and regroup. So much inner change so quickly, yet to the outward observer, very little is different. My world has changed completely in many ways, yet the physical world remains the same. As to the issue of free will, that too will come to fore before too long, and I sense that a surprise is in store in the lesson that will manifest. Interesting. The way in which language is being used is different than my normal voice. There is another who speaks through me, yet this other is me as well, only a me that has not had such physical expression before. I bid you well. Happy to have you in our company of friends. Hmm. Yes, that's what we are, friends in consciousness.

I've been thinking about my high school graduation, and about where some of the people that I knew then are now. People like John Carey, Sandee Hobbs, James Mastt, Vicki Lloyd, Bernd Lucas. Were their destinies written in their names as well? Are all of ours? James Mastt, in particular, has come to mind several times, as if at some point we are to do battle. Interesting. How does a Spiritual Warrior with a focus of Peace do battle? Yet, indeed the Light and Night must clash before spirit can reign freely throughout the planet and Love can rule the stars.

25 Oct 94

Too busy today to find any time to write. Still finding hidden meaning everywhere. I take this to mean that I am awake, never to return to the same level of spiritual slumber again. It's as if I've passed through a threshold or gate, and now I'm here in some exalted state that I had no clue even existed before. It's absolutely amazing. Yes, amazing indeed. I sense that I am extremely close to another major death/birth experience. The signs say tonight and tomorrow, but I've been wrong with timing before. It will be interesting to see what Dr Greene has to say. But the way, they called to change the appointment from 9:00 to 8:30. The Hermit to VISION. Very interesting. The forward version is Strength : Happily Ever After. That's not bad either.

Two fortunes at lunch today:

You are the master of every situation.

Your talents will be recognized and suitably rewarded.

The first, I was going to draw until I deferred to the person I was with. The second was left over. It is interesting how such seemingly random choices occur.

My conversations with people have taken on a new level of meaning. There is the ordinary meaning relevant to the common worldview, and there is a more subtle yet powerful spiritual meaning that rides atop all conversation. Remember, that all words are specifically chosen by consciousness, and consciousness ensures that everything is carried out with elegance, including all communication that needs to take place. It's strange knowing that just two years I was much like others, at least much more like others. I have never truly been "like others". Stranger still is to know that as short as two months ago, I had experienced the spiritual world and was primarily operating from my subconscious, but I was not awake and flying; I had not transformed from chysalis to butterfly. Now, I fly. I know not where or how, but have some idea as to why. Further, I know that this was all designed. It was planned to the nth detail. Further, it seems that time itself moves as my level of awareness does. It's as if time is the marker of the awareness of the world. Interesting. Time marks my awareness as well, but this is primarily as a piece of the world.

26 Oct 94

Had my visit with Dr Greene. No changes to the prescription. He actually asked me if I wanted to change anything, and twice at that! He did say that he wanted to see me at least quarterly. He found it odd that our last visit was on the summer equinox on Jun 21. Half jokingly, he suggested that we plan our meetings for the solstices and equinoxes. I found it highly amusing that he would even say such a thing. Our meeting went closer to 40 than to 25 minutes. He clearly finds me to be an interesting patient. He grins for most of our interaction, primarily at the nature of the things that I tell him. I did find a few things. Psychiatrist don't use the term subconscious, rather preconscious. Also, the unconscious is just that, not conscious. This means that we need something more in the model of human consciousness. There is a preconscious, a conscious, and a superconscious. It is not yet clear whether the superconscious exists on an individualized basis. My sense is that the superconscious is what I refer to as consciousness, as the ONE. What I'm trying to account for is how the individualized conscious is able to awaken to a realization of itself as individualized consciousness, and is then able to gradually expand what is included within this awareness to encompass more and more of God or the ONE.

COMPUTER = 36473259 = 3 64 73 25 9 IBM = 924 = 9213 HAL = 813 = 8112

364 732 59 = 364 2828 59 = 3 64 28 28 59. A very interesting combination of numbers indeed.

36 428 28 59 = 36 7 56 28 59 = 36 75 628 59 = 36 75 75 4 59 = 37 16 15 4 59 = 37 16 15 125.

OK, I'm forcing it. There is something about the computer that is bringing the whole information revolution about, and with it the very way the entire world infrastructure is organized. At some point, it will be obvious that the infrastructure is not serving individuals well, and as a result there will be a new awareness that change is needed and further, that it is possible quickly. IBM has a central to vibration that physically takes us to 94 = 16 = The Tower, and spiritually takes us to 49, relative abundance. I also see the Hermit and Death behind with the 2 in the forefront. 9 + 13 = 22 = The Fool. Further, a simple 1 place rotate left results in The World : The Knight of Cups = Bearer of Peace.

By the way, The Tower was the card I drew today, and already it has shown up at least ten times in various places. As I write this, I don't even remember what they were, only that they did occur. Also, 16 is the reverse of 61, the card that was there before it.

Actually, I just noticed on the bottom of my dinner receipt from TOGOs, the change was $4.94. Viewing this from the middle, that is 94 = 16 both ways!

Two license plates really caught my attention. The first was yesterday going home, 2VJR666. It stayed in front of me for at least half an hour. 222 JR 666. Getting two triple numbers on a license plate is extremely rare. In fact, with the exception of 222 222 8 last week near my house, I don't think that I've ever encountered this. Seeing 666 is a major flag because of its association with the Beast. However 222 has also been showing up all over the place. My first interpretation was that JR revered to me and to fold the 222 under the J and the 666 under the R. Then we have 26 = God showing up on three levels. The JR can then be decoded to 19 or better yet to 1018. My eyes see this as 0 forward with 1 and 18 back into the screen. We still basically have 222 1018 666. Splitting things from the middle and going outward in each direction we get 2002021006. Interpretation = 600 from 2002 to 2021. Also = 620 from 2020 to 2100. Very interesting. Here we have a timing of overall experience revealed in a way that is completely different than anything seen thus far. Further interpretation, spiritually we'll experience this as 006 having spirit (superconsciousness) flow through us directly as The Fool. We have no real control, only awareness of this greater power operating in our lives. After 2020 however, we become the 026, god with nearly acquired powers still learning of who and what we really are.

Speaking of 26, the same TOGOs receipt mentioned above had a time of 18:08. Adding the two number 18 + 8 = 26. Reversing the time we get 80:81. We can think of this as a click of time from 80 to 81. Expressed as a triple this is 081. This is the step that takes us from The High Priestess Exalted to The Empress Exalted. It is not clear why that would show up, other than to demonstrate that the way was for Strength to give way to The Moon.

Back to license plates, I just thought of a third as well. The second was FRE MRKT, obviously significant to one who expouses communism. But, the economic system and the market it employs should be whatever works, whatever gives people the goods and services that they need in the most effective and elegant manner. Obviously, the free market has been conducive to making the economy and hence the goods and services offered one of the best in the world. However, it would work far better if it served the people better, and if decisions were not made for the good of one versus another, but for the overall whole. 695 4922 = 6 17 5000. Clearly, the free market is the way it is destined to be. Also, however, The Lovers and The Star Exalted brings a Rainbow of Abundance across the country if not the planet.

The time is 8:48. No tick, just stuck on 48, or 84 = 06 if you view things backward. 48 is the mystic who walks away from the 5 senses and the 3 minds in search of something more, the meaning that lies behind everything. 06 is The Lover's Exalted, where the conscious looks over to the subconscious (or preconscious) which looks up to the superconscious. Interesting, I just noticed that my birthdate was 4/8. The year was 1958. 19+58 = 77. 19+13 = 32. It's amazing how much about one's destiny is encoded in a few simple numbers. My birth time was 13:20 signifying both Death and Judgement. The difference is 7, the sum is 33, and the product 260. No wonder Card 62, the Blindfolded Lady with Bounds that form VII is so important to me. Further, the card under her in my A reading is none other than Card 33, Saviour/Christ. Also, note that 62 + 33 = 95 = 17 = The Star Exalted. 95 and 59 show up everywhere related to the coming of the Aquarian Age. Death also shows up in my A reading, Judgement is at the top of my Triangle reading and 59 is at the bottom of my Inverted Triangle Reading.

61 was yesterdays card. It has a figure with 2 swords over his right shoulder, 3 over his left, and leaving two behind stuck upright in the ground. The numbers 23, 32, 52, 25, and 232 are readily apparent. Yesterday, I picked 232 as the meaning. 2:32 = 28 to 3 = 2823 = 2 8 to 3 = 2 252 = 22:52. Reversed = 25:22 = 26. How interesting. It was there to find all along!

The key in making these manipulations is to allow spirit or the consciousness within you to do the work. Don't stop it with arbitrary rules and constraints of logic, mathematics, or anything that you've learned about the nature of reality. Look for the hidden meanings in symbols. At first they will seem very hidden, but the more attention you pay to finding them, the easier it gets. Let your intuition be your guide, and let it be a glorious adventure. Literally, what you are uncovering is the spiritual world, or at least some of the pieces out of which it is constructed. Every symbol and symbol system in your world has at least a second spiritual meaning and maybe several such meanings, if only you learn the language and gain the eyes to see and ears to hear. Everything has such meaning, even the seemingly most mundane of things such as your gossip rags. The world is perfect for the level of awareness that exists at this time on this planet. This has been true always, and will be true always. Time is not a physical dimension, rather a collective level of awareness dimension. The collective consciousness learns with each increase in awareness of any member. Yet is this true? There must be purpose to the Play. There must be growth in awareness that results. Now we have a collective consciousness who created individualized consciousnesses as separate compartments of itself. Either these individuals are souls in their own right with their own existence or they are simply compartments from which information about the greater whole is kept hidden. Know Thyself! We only need to express as individualized compartments so long as we are ignorant of our true nature, or so long as we have tasks to do as individuals in this world. Without this compartmentalization, it would be too difficult to focus on keeping it physical. Once we awaken to our true reality as consciousness, everything changes. Our task is then to allow the ONE to express through us, and to do so consciously versus other than consciously. So long as we are learning and enjoying the process of incarnating and helping others we are free to do so. However, it also seems that we have a choice of expressing as an even greater form of non-physical consciousness as Seth describes himself to be. Perhaps now I'm truly ready to understand what he had to say after 20 years of reading and thinking about his words. Consciousness seems more inclined to use me as a vehicle for writing than reading these days, however. So long as she can come up with such wonderful expressions of truth, I'm more than happy to oblige. Actually, at this point, it is more than that, my will is subservient to Thy Will. Let the Plan unfold as consciousness has designed.

One more license plate to report. I saw it just before I got to my exit and didn't have time to interpret it, but something caught my eye about it and I've learned to take such hunches or occurrences seriously. PVS0935 = 74 10 9 35 = 7 41 25 210 = 74 12 52 10. These are OK, but the sense is that it's not right yet.

16 22 19 25 21 0 = 17 00 1925 210

THAT'S IT!!!! The Star The Fool 1925 = Time 0 210 = 6x5x7 = 657 Click 56 to 57

This is the activation.

The expression includes: The Tower The Fool Completed The Sun Knight of Wands and The World. Wow!!! All that in one license plate that I almost didn't notice.

Interesting, I just looked down at my clock and it clicked from 9:56 to 9:57. Given that The Hermit is so prominent for me, I wonder. Did the 210 leave off an assumed 9 in the front? This would make the tick from 95 6 to 95 7. 6 to 7 is from The Lovers to The Chariot.

Backup, let's read the surface message first before we dig deeper. I should have known by now that information is being passed on several layers.

PVS = 7 41 The Chariot (The Center of My Triangle Reading) : Wayne

09 The Hermit

35 Spiritual Inheritance (4+8+ 1 9 5 8 = 12+23 = 35)

It's also interesting that this is being written on Page 56, very close to the transition to Page 57. There are no coincidences. This is part of what I mean by how everything is intricately layed out in ways that simply blow one away when one starts to see how many synchronicities occur in a given day in a confined local. Consciousness runs the show, and there is only ONE consciousness in charge of this Play. All of us are part of that ONE consciousness. We are not separate beings, we only appear to be because of the limited information we have access too. All is not lost however. The challenge is to become more aware. We put the barriers up ourselves and entered the Game willingly, perhaps even exceedingly so. Now we have to find our way back HOME. And home is in consciousness, in the ONE. Let's see home = 8645 = 8 1527 = 81 6 55. Summed = 142 = 64. Thats it!! Exalted submission of the will to The Will. Very interesting that it would work out this way. Very interesting indeed!

It's exactly 11:00 PM, Pg 57 Ln 1.93 The Hermit: Death. Enough for today.

27 Oct 94

Another day. Actually, I worked to nearly 00:30 on a letter to Dr Greene explaining what I got solely from a few pieces of information on his bill. I'm not sure what transpired during the night but it passed quickly and I awoke fully rested. An idea crossed my mind that it really is Wayne's World, that everything that I've felt was specially written for me, was indeed so written. But, there is a transcendental meaning in this. Things were written by consciousness to speak to people at particular levels of awareness. The question that comes up however is how much awareness is achieved in different roles. For instance, to reach the 28 experience and see that this is Wayne's World, does an individual consciousness have to play the role of Wayne in this particular time sequence from 1958 through 2012? It seems that elegance demands limiting duplication and redundancy. The other perspective is that the Play only need occur once for the entire cast of individuals involved so that the ONE consciousness can get the overall experience it needs. How large is this group? And, are there multiple groups involved in multiple plays simultaneously? For instance, nations seem to have identity that persists over long periods of time as do ethnic groups. I do feel different, renewed in some manner. It's not exactly clear what has changed, but the change is subtle yet major. Hmm. When I started typing the notes today the clock was at 7:37, that is exactly at 37 in my way of seeing level of awareness. Aw, that's the meaning. Dr Greene's bill showed that I had reached 68 = WAYNE. Now it seems we have moved on the center of my H reading, Card 37 : The King of Cups with his thrown riding on the sea of the unconscious. Interesting. Clearly, I am relying more on this source consciousness than ever and am enjoying it greatly. Next in line is The Ace of Pentacles, Card 69; however, we'll see what The King of Cups brings first.

It will be interesting to see what Rob Ryan says about the Pluto square natal Pluto aspect coming up starting in December. Once thing I know is that I chose a lifetime of great spiritual transformation over relatively short time periods. My sense is that these serve as awakenings as to whom that I AM and what I came to this planet to do. Unlike many, I have always sensed that I had a great purpose to fulfill, at least since my high school days. It was something I just knew inside, trusting that details would be revealed as the need to know arose. As a quick look, Pluto = 16 33 26, The Tower : The Christ : The new god. Very interesting. Reversed we get 61, 33, and 62; three cards near the top of my A reading. The only ones missing are 6 at the very top and 22, immediately below 61 and to the left of 33.

If we take Plu, we have 22. If we take lu or the o at the end we have 6. So, these numbers are embedded as well. 16+3+3+2+6 = 30 = Hartman. 16+33+26 = 75 = HARTMAN.

PLUTO = 16 12 21 20 15. Summed = 84 = 06 , The Lovers Exalted. There's the real 6.

The Tower, The Hanged Man, The World, Judgement, The Devil

The Desert King, The High Priestess, The Hanged Man, The World, The 25:22.

It seems that no matter how I look at things, the same conclusions come up. I do indeed have a great spiritual purpose, but it can only be done by allowing consciousness to express it's Will through me. Yet, by giving up my personal will, I have gained the whole world or at the very least greater awareness thereof. How's that for an exchange?

Just crossed the 57 to 58 page break at exactly 8:25, one of the key numbers that led to the breakthroughs that have occurred since April. On to 8:26 and 8:27 only to stop dead at 8:28. NOW. 28 = The Man with The World in His Hand. 82 = 04 = The Emperor exalted.

This is a good place to stop. No, 8:29 and then 8:30! Reversed = 038 = Vision from Source!

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