11 Apr 94
Wow! It's been nearly two weeks since I last wrote. I don't really know what to say. I've discovered that we live in two worlds concurrently, a physical one and a metaphysical one. The metaphysical one consists mainly of symbols and their meaning. This meaning is directly related to our level of awareness. It's not clear how much information from our symbol systems is enmeshed in the everyday world. Thus far things like credit card numbers, license plate numbers of cars that are significant in some way, and serial numbers from paper money all seem to have a personal significance that is far more than chance. However, the intuition must be relied on to decipher the meaning from the raw code. Consciousness is very tricky, but she does not require techniques that require a math major. One of the main keys is to use association. This appears to allow information from the subconscious to flow better.
12 Apr 94
Now that I'm in this state of being between worlds, it is tough to associate with the slowness with which things change in physical reality. My spirit soars to dimensions beyond which it has never been -- perhaps beyond which any corporeal consciousness has experienced before. And here I am, alone, the Hermit with no one to share my experience with except you, consciousness itself. I blindly follow the path that I am on, trusting consciousness to lead me to wherever I need to be and provide me with whatever experiences that I need to experience. And what more can I do? I've gone beyond all places that I know of where there are maps of where consciousness has been. Further, all my life, consciousness herself has led me to any map that was consciously required. With consciousness as my sole guide, how can I follow anything but the path that is most appropriate for me. It's hard to contain the excitement within this body. Yet, at the same time, I feel sluggish and weighted down as if by the sorrows of the whole world. Perhaps you are. Such is your challenge. But, your gift was commensurate to match. You do have a major role to play in transforming the whole world. It is time for you to know that for certain. This is a heavy cross to bear, but you were up to bearing it when you chose this part. You are still free to choose elsewise, and there are several waiting in the wings that could step in should you so choose. But, the part was designed for you. Every detail was optimized for the special workings of your consciousness. There are many who would like to see you succeed in what you all set out to do. No, they are not in a position to communicate or even be aware of this yet.
25 Apr 94
Fear not, every experience that we are taking you through is necessary either for your personal development or the development of others around you. Besides, you said that you wanted to teach -- and you can't teach what you do not know firsthand yourself. As to why now. The answer is just as simple -- because that is what the plan calls for in this particular scene at this time.
What is yours will indeed come to you. Let us worry about the timing. You are simply to go with the flow, so to speak. Do only what you know to be right. Trust your knowingness. Listen for our guidance as you go about your day. Turn the scanners down a bit, and quit trying so hard. Your tiredness is the result of too much work too quickly. The signs that you are meant to see will reach your awareness. Also, even if you miss one, another will come to take its place. Relax, knowing for certain that you are spirit and you are in Spirit's hands now. Nothing can befall you that is outside of the Plan. Think about this until you fully know its truth. Life has great purpose, and human life even greater purpose.
27 Apr 94
Focus on the HERE and NOW, not where and how you will be living in six months, or even in the next week or two. Do the work that must be done today, and do it to the best of your abilities. This is Dharma -- right action. When we focus on the day, it is amazing how much change happens how quickly. You more than others will find this easy to take. You've already given up most of your will. When one focuses on here and now, one can't get caught up in all the complexity that arises from so much action in pursuit of unrealistic dreams. Make each day count 100 percent. Remember to work in a manner that allows you to joyfully look back on your life and say that you are happy with how you lived and what you were able to accomplish.
27 Apr 94
Note: Had a realization earlier this evening. Christ had to come to forgive our sins. The Karma balance program was in error. The penalties were too severe. Because of this, no one was able to awaken sufficiently to be the example for the coming Age. The programmers got it wrong. Forgiveness constitutes a resetting of the Karmic balance.
28 Apr 94
It's very interesting being the observer of this experience. For the past seven months, I've been watching my mind unfold like a flower. I am constantly amazed at what I'm finding in side. Thus far it's still an exciting process -- though it can get lonely and scary at times. Nothing has really prepared me for this. The key factor that makes the most difference a trust that I create my own reality and I would not give myself anything to deal with that was beyond my ability to handle. This belief is at the very core of my belief system. Further, I have experienced that I am consciousness, I am a spiritual being having a spiritual/physical experience. In the real world, the physical and spiritual are integrated to whatever degree the machinery can tolerate. It's as if the body and brain is the hardware, and consciousness is the software.
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I trust that I am being led spiritually down a path that is most optimum for getting my brain able to channel more spiritual information/energy through it. Each step is guided, down to the specific M.D. involved and the particular drugs and dosages. To the M.D., I am a highly intelligent patient who is bipolar. He does not have insight into the spiritual aspects of the transformation. It's as if I were a butterfly in transition, going through the stages from larvae to chrysalis to butterfly. I'm about ready to spread my spiritual wings and fly. Disruption -- how appropriate. This is indeed a time for a radical discontinuity. I am at a point in my life and in my understanding where what has come before is of no import. What matters now is what happens from this moment forward. I forgive any who have done me any harm known or unknown. If you cannot accept my forgiveness then discharge your balance by helping others in need. Peace be with you always and forevermore.
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I don't feel particularly inspired to write at this moment, but something inside pushes me forward. The current swells inside me until it is about to burst. So many ideas and such a small channel. But, we'll use whatever we have until we can help to make it grow. We are who you are in the process of becoming. We come from a place outside of your world system, no not the Pleides as you might guess, though we did visit their race as well. No, we come from a Star in the central part of the Galaxy. You came from there too. We can't really tell you where our home is because it is outside anything that has yet been mapped. Further, since your Astronomy background is zip, you wouldn't understand even the basic terminology. We can continue to help you bring through information on social structures, education, and the foundations for creating a new world. You naturally resonate to these ideas because you have lived them for a very long time. Further, you know what it takes to preserve these ideals. The earth was in need of people to seed these principles into the minds and hearts of the people within a particular window when the baton was being passed from Neptune to Uranus for the rulership of an age.
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OK, so what specifically am I expected to do?
1. Follow your intuition and learn to detect when it is correct vs when it is in error. (error usually comes from ego getting in the way)
2. Do what you are moved to do. Regardless of the source of direction, don't act until it is congruent with whom that you are in the moment.
3. Whenever there is a spirit/physical choice to make, choose spirit if you can. (It makes life much easier.)
4. Be patient. Wait for the right timing. If it's hard, then either your timing or method is wrong.