"I am WOMAN, hear me ROAR, in numbers too big to ignore ... as I spread my loving arms across the land. While I'm still an embryo, I have a long, long way to go ... until I make my brother understand. Yes, I am wise, but it's wisdom born of pain. Yes, I've paid the price ... but look how much I've gained. If I had to, I can do anything. I am strong. I am invincible. I am W-O-M-A-N."
"You can bend but never break me. For it only serves to make me more determined to achieve my final goal."
Hmm... that's as much as I can remember. The song is "I Am Woman" from Helen Reddy.
I can still feel how much it moved me from the time I first heard it in the mid-70's. It is interesting that it is occupying my mind so forcefully right now. It is as if a seed that was planted over 20 years ago has finally burst forth. It compelled me enough to get up from bed and write this now. Literally, I had no choice in the matter. Such is how spirit chooses to express. And I am but HER dedicated servant.
Yes, SHE is the one whose voice speaks so loudly now. It was spirit all along though the social conditions at the time also gave the song meaning in the context of Woman's struggle to be free and equal. But spirits struggle is even more difficult and challenging. For few truly sing of her glory, and even fewer act to express her glory. Interesting. Yet, it seems as clear as day to me at this moment. Also, it is no coincidence that early in the song it says "hear me roar". It is enough to make me Laugh Out Loud, it truly is. For, as "lion", is this not what I am doing NOW? Is this not what most of these pages are about? The "lion" roaring ... no more and no less. And, it is the ROAR of the WOMAN, the feminine spiritual source, that speaks through me. I am overcome with a "big smile" and overwhelmed with a deep emotion ... for it is LOVE that fills my HEART and captivates my SOUL. I Am That I Am. I Express That I Am.
There is a deep sense that a hidden door has been unlocked ... perhaps more like a Pandora's Box. I look forward to the wonders that will flow out of it with great anticipation. Consciously, I don't know what is in store. But, at another level, it is as if I know exactly what is happening ... to a large degree, because in a very real way I somehow made it happen. It is a weird feeling. Knowing yet not knowing at the same time. But, it is also extremely empowering. I KNOW that their is a greater part of me than I am yet aware of that is able to take control and act through this vessel that I Am. Further, there is an innate trust that goes with this ... a TRUST in spirit, the ONE spirit that we all are part of ... the ONE spirit that expresses through us collectively. It is only on conscious levels that we perceive all the separation. The true reality is that the ONE spirit creates everything. It is only our partition that allow us to perceive the limitations and create such suffering. This need not be the case. It is only there so long as we allow it. And, we only allow it so long as it serves us in some manner.
There is something very special about the year ahead, 1997. The Sun Exalted Year in the Century of the Sun. WOW. The Sun represents SPIRIT. It seems we are in for a very good year. Also, 19 97 is the clockwise span from 91:Death Exalted to 97:The Sun Exalted. The span is 6:The Lovers years and the center is 94:The Tower Exalted. It will be very interesting to see how this manifests in the world. Yes, INDEED!!!
I feel very good about the seeds we have planted here at The Search for Center. And about the LOVE with which we have nurtured those seeds. What will grow from them remains to be seen. But harvest time is literally only nine months away. Yes, we still need to care for and tend the garden, but the real work is done by the unseen forces of spirit. We have only to allow it to manifest its magnificence. The forces of Light are on the move. And soon, the forces of Darkness will be no more ... for the battle of light and shadow is about to end.
It's interesting that in the show Babylon-5, the year recently became 2261 and the War with the Shadows is fully engaged. 2262 is next. 22 is my Heart's Desire. 62 is my Personality. So in a very real way 2262 is whom that I am. All the signs say that this state will be reached in 1997. Furrther, 22 + 62 = 84 = The Lovers Exalted. The card has Male looking to Female looking to Angel in the Rider Tarot Deck. It is the only "right" way for Self to operate. It is also the card at the top of my "A" Tarot Reading from 1994. Further, my SSN ends in 2184 indicating, my "work" involves bringing this realization to the World. There is a KNOWINGNESS, a realization that I am rediscovering Whom That I AM. There is also a great urgency to get on with what I came into this incarnation to do. What you've seen expressed through this vessel to date is but the tip of an iceberg. It literally blows me away to even think about the possibilities that lie ahead.
The key is to stay focused HERE and NOW ... and to DO each day what I am moved to do. It is only through such expression that the PLAN of SPIRIT is made MANIFEST. I choose to do my part. I hope with all my HEART that YOU are moved to do the same.
E-mail: Wayne Hartman