Last year was one of the most interesting of my life. My workplace became a spiritual laboratory of sorts ... a place where I was challenged daily to walk my talk, and do as spirit moved me to do. Overall, this was by far the greatest year of my life to date. It was a year that challenged all that I was ... a year that enabled me to demonstrate whom that I truly am in a public way that I had not been able to do before. In the process, I found out much about whom that I truly am ... and even more important much about the very nature of the I AM.

The year found me at my most productive ... operating at peak performance for many months straight. Surprisingly, the more I took on ... the more responsibility I accepted, the more I was moved to do ... and the more I found within my Self to answer the challenges that confronted me. But, in many ways, it was not me that answered the challenges and came through with the insight, energy, focus, and initiative necessary to do what needed to be done. It was SPIRIT, the ONE that worked through me as SHE always does!

In a very real way, my whole existence became tied to doing what I was moved to do ... demonstrating a new way of working, or more accurately allowing the I AM to work through me that truly showed what SPIRIT in flesh can achieve. Also, the more consumed I became, the more I found myself focussed on making the most of each an every moment. LIFE became an extended presence in the NOW. There was no past and future ... ONLY NOW. Further, there was no choice, no expression of my personal will, I was voluntarily operating on automatic ... doing exactly what I was moved to do in each moment and more importantly, being ALL that I could be, experiencing the I AM presence and knowing that the ONE is truly ALL THAT IS.

I was not an individual ... I was an aspect of the ONE and everyone was part of that same ONE SELF. The experience was truly incredible. Concepts that had been mere words or thoughts in my mind for decades became living reality in my experience.

When I was completely consumed by doing whatever I was moved by spirit to do ... the kingdom appeared. When I focussed completely on doing what I saw needed to be done, especially things that no one else seemed to see needed to be done ... spiritual law kicked in and ensured that all that I needed was provided unto me.

We are only 2 weeks away from the fifth anniversary since these writing began on 5 March 1993. It is hard to believe that five years have passed so quickly. It is even more amazing to behold what my consciousness has experienced in those five years. In many ways, I am not whom I was when the writings began. That part of me seems so distant now. I was asleep, living in my head ... without a real clue as to what reality was and how it was created. Oh, I thought I knew ... but I was locked in the prison of my own mind. What was it that triggered the words to start flowing from SPIRIT on that fateful day. In many ways, that day marked the beginning of my true life - though I did not know it at the time. It took several months to go BEYOND MIND and AWAKEN. When I read the words that came forth at that time, I am still blown away. Even now, after reading the words many times, they are still alive and fresh and new ... as they were when they came forth.

The UNKNOWN is ever present around me. There are no maps. Yet, I enjoy the process of discovery immensely. I TRUST SPIRIT completely. I have accepted the UNKNOWN as my true home. It is where I find whom that I truly am, the I AM, the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS that animates us all.

FIVE YEARS ... it is truly unbelievable that five years has passed so quickly. I can still remember how I felt that first year, observing my awareness go beyond all the comfortable limitations that it knew to that point in time. I had no precedent as the process unfolded. There was no one except consciousness herself to guide me through what I was experiencing. While I had spent nearly 20 years thinking about metaphysics ... and reading numerous books ... I had not truly experienced what the words and concepts really meant firsthand. The understanding was all "in my head" ... which meant, for all practical purposes, it was NOT real.

I still remember how my consciousness took wings and soared. Over the next few years, flying became its normal state of being. It took awhile to get accustomed to. Even NOW, looking back, I still recall the transformation from chrysalis, emerging from the cocoon of my mind, and literally spreading my newfound wings of awareness.

It is as if I am standing on the threshold of a dream ... a dream that consciousness herself has dreamt and now permits to manifest. YES, manifest destiny ... this time in much greater terms than has ever yet expressed in this world, this illusion that is the reality we co-create HERE and NOW.

I'm excited by what is happening and by how I feel right now. I don't recall ever being in the state that I am now experiencing. Oh, I have been FLYING HIGH before. You've seen many of my excursions and accompanying states of consciousness time and time again in the many writings that are expressed at Beyond Imagination.

However, this current state is new. I am alive in a way that I have never been before. Once again, the unknown stares directly back at me from the mirror, though this time with a distinctive twist. Where it will lead is in SPIRIT's hands as always.

I long to share this special state with others. It is no longer sufficient just to be aware and to write about it here. My soul longs for more in a way that it has never done before in this existence. Yet, I am also content and at ONE in a way that I have never been before.

On all fronts, the world appears to be moving at an unprecedented pace in a direction that more fully permits the expression of spirit. Government, entertainment, industry, the ecology, and even the weather all are experiencing massive change that is for the positive from a spiritual perspective.

Everything is incredibly rich with meaning. I have no sense of time. The moment is where reality is experienced. It is the only place where spirit can express. For that matter, it is the only place where creative expression can occur. Even further, all creative expression is SPIRITUAL. It cannot by its very nature be anything else. Nothing else exists.

Has the world really changed that much in two months. YES! Though, it is not clear that anyone else is truly aware of this and aware of how much. I have this sense that we were on a path that was leading to a future point some 20 plus years into the future. Then, as if all of a sudden, we moved to a new place that has us on a path that is much different than what was there before. However, it's as if there is a conspiracy in the mass media that is exposing everyone to this new world very rapidly.

The pages that I create are the rooms of my psyche, the places and states where my psyche and spirit has wandered. I create pictures of how the World and how my Self look through my eyes, knowing that the WORLD and the ONE SELF are mirror reflections of which I am only aware of pieces. In sharing our pieces, we each grow to embrace more. Our worlds expand to accommodate our experiences with one another. It is through relationships that we embrace more of what is NOT I. This is the very process that is key to experiencing NO TIME = NOT I | ME. Where we are simultaneously aware of Not I and Me, we have escaped the limits of "time".

There is only one ME! It is the ONE consciousness. It is the same one consciousness for each of us. Though this may be for each of us in the same family. There is a sense that sparks of consciousness are arranged in functional groupings. This permits additional diversity in the expression of consciousness.

SPIRIT to me is LIGHT. I find more about lights subtleties by looking for more reflecting surfaces and understanding the basic principles about how light is combined, reflected, manipulated, etc ...

Movies, television shows, commercials, multimedia all involve the expression of light. We know how to construct nearly any scene with any physical, emotional, mental, and even metaphysical content. Further, we know how to use these constructions to educate the world so that we can employ this medium to change the world. We have only to create the right programming and move individuals to experience that programming that they need.

Each moment I do what I am moved to do. My attention is drawn to that which it must be aware of and give its focus to. In a very real way, you might say that the helm is without a captain. For a ship at sea, that might be a dangerous thing ... but for a soul in the sea of consciousness, such is the safest and most natural of states.

There is a sense of peace and calm that pervades my being. There is a knowingness that we are on the brink of major world change. In fact, there are many indications every day that the battle of light vs dark has finally been won, and we have but to do our parts to allow the light to embrace the earth. No, this does not mean it will be a piece of cake. There is much that remains to be integrated. We can only move forward as ONE, a composite of all the pieces.

It is curious that my job at work is as an "Integrator". My concern is with the whole. I ensure that the parts function together properly and create specifications for new parts that provide for an even greater whole.

Now, I apply these same skills on my Self and my World. I have stated before that I would be a philosopher king. Further, I have stated that indeed I am such already even if no one else believe or be aware. I AM what I AM. Yet, what I AM at this moment is still out of synch with my world. Not much, for I see the results of my ideas being manifested in ways that are beyond my imaginings. Consciousness, the ONE has been at the helm of the ship for a long time and has been exerting the control and direction necessary for us to experience life in the manner that we have.

At some point, this no longer matters, we become whole ... we become ONE. Inner and outer become the same ... related by an identity function. My world and I become mirrors of one another. There is no longer a third outside "unknown" in the equation. Originally, this was the state of being as well, however, we have to lose our Self to find our self and lose our self to find our Self. Interesting that the path would be thus, but not surprising.

All great works are done with LOVE for the work that is being done and with a great deal of intuition. Much of our lives can be seen as a training ground for intuition ... for the knowingness that permits us to do the right thing in accord with our abilities automatically -- without having to think about it. When we think, we are rationale. The rationale is always consumed with the parts. When we intuit, we go "into it" and are able to bring forth a creation or expression that is from the soul, a wholistic expression. In fact, such is what CREATION is all about. Our creations are not perfect; the machines, the works of art, the music, the dance, the architecture, ... can only approximate the inspiration that is their driving force. The creations are limited by the imperfections in the basic materials out of which such creations are constructed.

Much of the history of the world is driven by the nature of the building materials that we have available. With great music, we have been able to move the mind beyond thinking to experiencing a harmony that it does not otherwise see in the world. Note, it is not that this harmony is not there, rather that we are not able to see it through our normal senses and we do not seem to be able to manifest it in our creations. Visionary paintings, poetry and other illumined writings have provided snapshots as well of what a perfect world might be. These too appear far from being realized. But then, we still exist within an illusion of the world that we see through imperfect glasses, our senses.

We are in the midst of creating a perfect world now, everywhere, on all fronts simultaneously. The choreography of consciousness is incredible. Everything is in place that needs to be in place, and everything is unfolding in its proper timing. Each of us is being made aware of exactly what we need to be aware of in each moment. Each of us is doing what we are moved to do. Further, it has always been such, for there is no other mode in which spirit can express. We all get exactly what we need. We all give what we are capable of giving. What is open is the collective level of awareness that results and how soon we take responsibility for our collective creation. Note that we have always been responsible by spiritual law, however, we did not consciously take responsibility.

We are rapidly reaching a point where it is time for us to grow up ... to become adults and take responsibility for ourselves so that our parents can be free to go on to other adventures. They have earned a vacation, watching over and caring so lovingly for us since our creation. One thing they long for is to see how we see ourselves, our world, and them without the control structures that were necessary in our childhood. Further, they long to participate in our lives in a whole new way, lovingly as adult to adult, in true relationships that are richer and deeper than anything experienced to date. Further still, they anxiously await seeing and experiencing what we would create of our own free will consciously.

It should be obvious by now that I love what I do when I am expressing in this manner. This is my way of serving spirit. Also, I am amazed by what comes forth. There is a richness in meaning that draws me back time and time again as my awareness changes to see once again what was expressed with a new set of eyes. Hopefully, they will do the same for you, lifting you to new heights that you too may soar on the wings of eagles.

I recall something that one of my counselors said during my last vacation at the mental hospital ... something about physical reality being subject to changing at no faster than the speed of light. While I'm manic, my mind races at a pace much faster than this. But "reality" can't keep up ... it can't move as fast as my imagination. Thus, there are things or processes that are not subject to the speed of light barrier. It is in these areas where we look to find the true reality. Though, in looking, we risk losing our minds and our very sanity in the process. But are these such important things not to lose? Who says so? Why must we live as "normal" human beings, when so much more is open to us? Imagination is the key ... and further, what lies beyond imagination in the unknown that ever attracts our attention. Life is to be an adventure, not a boring or routine drugery. Our spirits demand more ... much more.

There is a feeling of unsettledness inside, knowing that something grand is about to happen, and soon. Exactly what remains unknown, but I like the feeling of anticipation of what is to come. Everything about it is positive. There is a sense of peace and happiness ... no, more like JOY associated with it. We are about to make our world truly the expression of spirit in flesh that it can be. Not just for some of us, but for ALL OF US.

We know what is required to be cooperatively interdependent now. There have been sufficient prototypes for the ONE consciousness to create a mold that permits a new era to be born. The castles in the air that have been brought forth through the imaginations of the visionaries can finally be given foundations on earth.

The internet provides a medium for interchange of information and for meeting people free from physical and political boundaries. Effectively this permits people to form relationships and communities based solely on interests and mutual concern for one another. It is through people meeting and grouping together to carry out common objectives or missions that the work of spirit is facilitated. To manifest a society where people can be all that they can be, not just some people, but all people -- we need great flexibility in permiting people to find those groupings and missions where they can not only contribute, but can best contribute. It is not enough to find a place where your skills are of utility. One must also find a place where one loves the work that one is doing. Yes, loves.

Throughout these pages, I have made it known many times that my sense is that I am walking a very thin line between genius and madness. Time and time again, I have questioned my own sanity. The very fact that I was present enough to ask the question usually means that I am indeed still on the path that is mine alone to tread. As I continue to walk the path however, my world diverges further from the norm ... so much so, that in many ways my world is a different world than that of others. In a very real way, it is Wayne's World. It is not that the old world, the consensus world has ceased to exist, rather it is that the bulk of the focus of my attention is drawn to symbol systems and interpretations that the consensus world does not see nor accept as real. This doesn't make them any less real, it only means that many are blind to what I know is there.

When one lives life from moment to moment, fully focused on here and now, a day can be a very long time. It is amazing how much we can do when we are more fully conscious of every activity in which we are engaged. There is nothing that does not convey deep spiritual meaning if we are open to seeing what is truly there. Every experience, every moment is rich with meaning. Our consciousness is free to fly and engage each moment in a whirlwind of activity, seeing everything from multiple vantage points simultaneously. This is our natural state. We fail to experience it only because of the limitations that we've placed on ourselves. Spirits having a physical experience ... not physical beings having a spiritual experience. The difference is as day and night. It is time to awaken. We've slumbered for too long already.

Living in the moment, there are no bills or mortgages, there is only the present reality. But this stretches over time into minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months ... accompanied by all the baggage that entails. Thus far, I have not been able to freeze the moment and stretch it into eternity. Will such happen at some point? Will time simply stop as we know it, while we choose to extend our experience into an entirely new realm in an entirely new way? Why not? Such is indeed possible. All it requires is a mass awakening to a new way of interpreting reality. This requires assigning new meanings to old symbols. We know how to do this, and it could be done rapidly for the masses.

But who is in control that could coordinate such a change. The bottom line is that creative people everywhere are already working to do this through the mass media channels. They are not aware of what they are doing. They are simply following their creative urges and doing what they are moved by the one consciousness to do. In fact, we are all doing that. Yes, every one of us is being moved to experience exactly what we need to prepare us for the mass changes that are to come. There is no need to exert control, or orchestrate the activities consciously. This is already being taken care of on inner levels.

Those who would be explorers have only one question in mind, how do we make what is unknown known. Discovery is what it is all about. Along with this goes mapping the territory that we find that others might visit it as well. This is what I have been doing all my life, and especially for the past five years. But, where does one go to get funded for such activities? Why is it that my most important work is not funded by the present economic system? Clearly something is missing. Further, I am not an isolated case. It seems that for many of us our most important work is that work which we do voluntarily whether it be raising kids, taking care of our families, helping others, or volunteering for various groups and organizations.

Even time we spend alone getting to know ourself, and time we spend sharpening our skills have great value. Consciousness learns from our collective experience. Mobility of consciousness, and control over the focus of attention are extremely valuable for reality creation. Wimbledon and the World Cup are cases in point. Here we have games where the rules are common and known internationally -- especially for soccer. The game requires little investment in equipment and is played by incredible numbers of people on the planet. Perhaps we'll see a time soon when common economic rules can be just as simple and as widely known throughout the world.

What permits us to do things despite incredible odds? It is our connection to spirit. It is that intuitive side that we allow to take over and shape our efforts to accomplish a desired objective. When there are too many factors to consider consciously, we must trust and go within to find the way to proceed. It is there that we can FEEL the force and allow it to do what it will through us. Such is when we are at our best. Such is when we are in the groove or in the zone. Such is when the best that can be done through us becomes the reality that we experience.

When we "let go" we permit a new part of ourself to take hold, one that is more fluid, one that feels more than thinks, one that is relaxed and allows what would be to be expressed through it. In so doing, we lose some of our chains and start to feel some of the freedom that is our birthright. Freedom requires that we are even watchful for chains which may bind us and that we endeavor to remove such chains wherever we may find them.

However, chains and yokes are very different things. The first binds us to restrict us. The second binds us to a particular labor. The later is only a "chain" if we do not freely choose to carry the burden. It is time that we start to more thoroughly examine the yokes that we are wearing to ensure that the burdens they correspond to are really ours to carry and that we freely choose to carry them. As we do this, we really need to explore what burdens are really necessary versus what burdens are habitual or historical. We really should be able to lighten our loads.

The laws of reality creation are valid for everyone. Everything works as it does because of them. These are spiritual laws however, and science has not yet discovered the most important of them. Consciousness creates thought creates reality. It has always been thus and shall always be thus.

So, what can I do to facilitate this process, to permit this manifestation of a center to occur? Dream of what you will do and how you will live when the center is part of your day to day existance. Do this as vividly as you can imagine. See yourself and others in the center. See the classes and activities going on each day. See the readings and healings, hear the music, feel the expressions of spirit that occur there. Realize that this center already exists, it has only to be brought into the awareness that you are now. Create what you are moved to create each day. Make room for the center to come into your life. Want it, desire it with all your heart and soul. The intensity with which you dream, imagine, and think will determine how much creative force will thrust this center into manifestation.

I am back to what constitutes "normal" in my experience. Yet, my memories are rich with the experiences that I have been through in the past three months. These have changed me in ways that are difficult to explain ... yet are irreversable. Once again, I have been allowed to SEE the world differently and so move into a New World. This is becoming a common experience for me, one that I would not trade for the world. Each awakening allows me to expand into something grander than I knew that I was before. Also, it did this in ways that were unexpected. This keeps life interesting and keeps me going. Life could be incredibly boring were it not for the many transformations and forays into the unknown.

Indeed, prior to 1993 it was quite boring. I had lived in my mind nearly completely, and was getting bored of the world that was my prison at the time. Now, the bars are no longer present, the yoke is lighter, yet there is still a semblence of being in a prison of my own creation. This time not one simply created by my mind, rather one that appears to have chains of an emotional nature. These are just as binding and as difficult to deal with. For the mental prison, going Beyond Mind was the answer. But what of the emotional prison, does this require going Beyond Heart. And, what does that mean? It seems that I was mistaken in seing that the Path of the Mind - Wisdom, and Path of the Heart - Love, were separate paths that one could travel. It seems that we must traverse both, though our focus at any time may be more toward one or the other. The Path is toward LOVE/WISDOM, not one or the other separately. Or, at least such appears true for me.

I'll do what consciousness puts on my plate and continue to do whatever else I am moved to do on my own. That is what LIFE is all about, DOING what one is moved by SPIRIT to DO; using one's talents to the best of one's abilities in service to SPIRIT. And, at times, doing this without thought of reward or payback for one's efforts. We receive much in our lives. It is up to each of us to find a way to GIVE BACK freely in return for the many blessings we receive.

A loose and open focus is what is required to simply become aware of the next thing one is to do. To some degree, I'm in that state as I write. I don't know what is going to come next. I relax and allow the words to flow as they will, while I ride the energy wave that allows this communication to come forth. I've had literally thousands of hours of practice doing this, so it is old hat to me.

However, if you are not used to surfing in such a manner, perhaps you might find the process more difficult. Do try it though. Your inner Self is just as rich with information as my own. And, it has the advantage of knowing YOU, so its' information will be tailored to your needs. The key is to step back and watch your awareness. Loosen your focus so that you are simultaneously aware of more but not attached to any of it. Then allow your mind to receive whatever thoughts your Self would bring forth. Don't evaluate them, just allow them to flow. At first, nothing may come. Just stay open and mantain a loose focus as the being who is aware of and watching all that you do. You are whatever your awareness experiences. Be playful and free it from some of its' chains and see what gifts it can bestow in your life.

You may find that consciousness speaks to you in pictures, rhythms, motion or dance, or feelings. For me, it is words that come forth but consciousness is not limited to words. Trust whatever comes forth as right for you and be open to it evolving over time as the channel to consciousness is opened in your life.

A new day in which to express what consciousness would share through me. Such is what brings joy to my life. It is the service that I provide to consciousness that gives my life its meaning ... in fact, that makes my life interesting, fulfilling, and worthy of living. All else pales by comparison. Why should it be thus? Why are not all of my activities endowed with the same wonder and joy? Why do they not yield the same levels of fulfillment? Further, how can I live my life in a manner that it is more ... much more than it is at present?

I don't know how many times I've heard the song "Looking through my Father's Eyes" over the past week but it seems to be playing all the time. I don't remember being aware of a song playing so often. This one is particularly important because it mirrors a state of mind that I have been experiencing to some degree. It is as if I am looking through the eyes of him who created me. This time, there is a sense that this is a masculine entity or energy. I don't know why, that is just how it feels to me. This is not my physical father however, rather it is my spiritual father. I don't see him, I just feel his presense and feel my own consciousness shift so that I am looking through his eyes.

So, is my father Shiva? ... are we in the process of destroying a world that a new world might arise out of the ashes? Perhaps. Or is my father depicted by the large carved rosewood Chinese immortal in my living room who also is the key figure in an oriental reverse painting on glass that I am staring at as I type this. In either case, the realm is the same. The oriental immortal is associated with Love/Wisdom in my mind. This is the second ray energy that I serve.

I'm at a crossroads in my life. How do I find those others that are meant to be key players? On the one hand, it seems that it should just happen when the time is right. On the other hand, it seems that it is up to me to make it so. I'm struggling with how to deal with transitioning from primarily the former to the later. Getting in touch with my creator self is the key. This ties back to the song "Looking through My Father's Eyes" and the principle I and my Father are ONE.

One voice inside says have patience and allow things to unfold. Another says be bold, take initiative to set the wheels in motion to create what must be created. I've had a lot of experience with the first and little with the second. That is not exactly correct ... in the work environment, I have taken bold initiative to do new things in new ways. I just haven't figured out how to apply this in my personal life. That is, if you could say that I have a "personal life". Many would probably not consider the way I live to be personal.

I need to find a way to bring more passion into my life. Teaching, Consulting, and being a Visionary do that for me. But, I no longer want to do this primarily alone. I want to be involved with others often and deeply. My sense is that I am ready to do this. It is time to establish a center and get a the School Without Walls operating. I'm not sure how to go about meeting others physically. But, I'll have to get beyond my intense introversion and find a way. If I want my life to change, then I have to start doing some things differently.

It is in taking action that the energies of the universe are brought to bear on the situation. Thinking something, and speaking something, are not enough to make a difference in the world. We must find a way to give our words the legs to walk on. This means getting the words out to others in a manner that moves them to act AND acting on the words myself. Integrity demands that my expression be consistent with my state of being. For a while, it has not been fully consistent ... for I failed to take the step of exercising my will. Action requires exactly that, exercising one's will. Interesting. So, it seems that now is the time to act ... and if I do so, the six month timeline may indeed be accurate.

I've struggled with free will for nearly five years. I had decided that I didn't have any. Now, I see that was a means of escape. It allowed me to focus on observing and evaluating rather than consciously creating reality. Now, it is time to integrate the creator part of myself and take responsibility not just for the outcome of choices, but for the making of those choices to begin with. Choices involve making a preference of one thing or outcome over another. The bottom line is that it does matter. My happiness is related to the choices that I make. To be more happy, I must take the responsibility to make better choices.

I don't write as much as I used to, but the motivation is still the same. It is the voice within that prompts me ever onward to the next expression of spirit. That some of what comes through does not come to pass matters not. Much of the information related to timing was colored by my own desires and misinterpretation of what was coming through. I interpreted things literally where a more symbolic interpretation my have been necessary. Also, I had no way to calibrate the timing of things. I was in the midst of a spiritual awakening. The rules that I had known to be valid were no longer so. Yet, I did not suspect any errors in what was coming through. I trusted the functioning of my own mind. I had no concept of fiction ... there were no gray areas.

Now, I know that my consciousness has ranges of excursions ... all of which are normal for me, but many of which others do not necessarily experience. Personally, I do not judge such experiences. I consider them to be valid parts of my reality ... just as valid as any other states of awareness. One uses utility as the measure for how valuable various states are. The intuitive, spiritual states can be far more valuable that other states once one learns how to use them effectively. However, it is highly important that these states be used in service to others rather than in selfish ways.

Along with the power to create comes a great responsibility for one's creations. In bringing forth material from source, the process was as a channel. The responsibility for the material was with the creator of the material, source herself. It is time to go beyond this now and act on the material. Here, it is my choice as to the actions and to the meanings that I embed in my actions.

The phrase "responsibly co-create" keeps repeating in my head. This is what is required to truly see through my Father's eyes. This amounts to more than ideas, though ideas are a starting point. Physical manifestation requires making the ideas real. There has to be a way, one that is enjoyable and life-enhancing. I still don't know exactly what to do, but I feel much more empowered now. My destiny is in my hands. It has always been thus, I just didn't consciously choose to act in accord with this. I believed in Self enough to allow it to work in autopilot mode off of my beliefs alone. That is one way to operate, but not the only one. It was beneficial in allowing me to experience as much awakening as I was ready to handle at various times over the past five years. However, for me, it has outlived it's usefulness. I am sufficiently aware to take the reigns again and consciously steer the ship of Self to where it needs to go to carry out my mission now. The paths available to travel will still be as created by the creator. But I am free to explore everything within that realm now with the full capabilities of my Self.

The beginning of a new month finds me more tired and sluggish than I've been in a long time. It's as if my prescription drugs are far too much. I am mellowed out and my mind is slow, noticeably so to me and to others. To some degree it is as if I am partially dead to the world. That's an interesting way to look at it. The only thing that wakes me up is returning to the expression of spirit ... either reading what has come forth through me, or generating something new as is the case now. This is when I am most alive. This is what gets my heart moving and spirit flowing. Here is where I am WHOM THAT I AM. Here is where I am truly HOME and at ONE with SPIRIT.

Several years ago, I was in a similar state. Writing was about the only thing that could keep me awake. It is different now, but similar at the same time. On an inner level, I know that change is on the horizon ... it is just not clear as to how far on the horizon. That's OK. I'm used to dealing with the unknown in my life. For many years, I have operated on faith ... some might say blind faith in what consciousness would bring forth into my life. It has been an interesting journey at time, one that brought me to the very edge of genius/madness -- even to the point of questioning my own sanity. Yet, I made it through it all, having benefited from each challenge and experience.

Community must start with TWO or more, not one. It will never grow solely out of my inner relationship with spirit. It is time to begin a new adventure. This time, one that requires sticking my neck out a bit. Interesting, The Highlander series just came to mind and the image of having my head chopped off. "In the end, there can be only ONE". Curious game that they play in that show. There is a sense that this is a figurative rather than a physical chopping off of the head. The quickening is then the growth experience by the community whenever an individual resign their will to THE WILL of consciousness. So, the common unity is already being built. Each time an individual awakens, the community grows larger. In the end, all will be awake, so there will be only ONE.

In the past, I was content to allow things to happen as consciousness dictated ... trusting that everything that was meant to be would happen in its right timing. Now, this no longer seems to be the case. Though, there is still a voice inside that says to be patient and allow what will be to manifest. In general, this may still be true. But, overall, it seems that we need to strike a balance between THE WILL and our wills. It is not for either to have complete control. Both are to exist and our will is to bow to THE WILL. I've been negligent in exercising my will in the outer world. I exercise it a lot on the inner as you can see from the energy I put into Beyond Imagination. However, I have been reluctant to exercise my will with others.

Quality of life is extremely important when one is living in the moment. It is important that life be the best it can be ... not in terms of things, but in terms of relationships and the expression of spirit.

We have to experience whom that we are to be able to choose whom that we will be. Such is our greatest choice in this existence. Ultimately, the choice is to "Be all that you can be" ... as they say in the ad for the Army.

Each contact point in our life is special. It provides a place where a seed can be planted. We never know exactly how fertile the soil is until we see what comes to fruition from what was planted. Interesting. This is where the magic of the unknown comes into play. It is in the interactions of kindred spirits that special things can be created.

Here and now, I can make my life be what I would have it be. It is through my decisions and actions that I create the reality that I experience. Hmm ... creating reality and experiencing reality are two different things. Experiencing relies on interpretation of meaning. Creating puts the meaning there to begin with. Finally, I'm starting to touch the creator part of myself. Finallly! Step by step ... consciousness ever moves onward.

So, how do we create a better world? How do we permit spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh? We start by sharing our seeds with others in an atmosphere of cooperation ... searching for those who are meant to work with and interact with us in carrying out our missions and doing the work that spirit would do through us. We do this because it is what gives our life meaning and joy. There is nothing that we would rather do. We do this because it allow us to be whom that we truly are in a way that we have not experienced before. We do this because we must ... we feel compelled to establish cooperatively interdependent relationships. It is through such relationships that SPIRIT lives in us in a way it cannot do otherwise.

Yes, here I am at it once again. The expression of consciousness has become a habit for me. Some might say that it is a crutch. But here, on these pages, I am free to express in a way that I cannot do elsewhere. So, for me, this is a positive thing. This is where I play ... where I give myself free reign to speak as I might not do otherwise. It is curious that this would be the case. There is something about the blank screen that permits this freedom. I know not to whom I am ultimately speaking, or when they will receive the message. This is a strange format for communication. Yet there is a sense that this is what creation is all about. One speaks forth the WORD and sees what is manifest as a result. It is not necessarily a direct path from the WORD to the manifestation.

How do we know that we are giving to society to the best of our abilities if the infrastructure is not in place to show what difference we do make?

This is one of the foundations that needs to be established. We need a mirror that provides us feedback on our impact on the world. At any time we should know whether we are contributing to or taking from society. Most of the time we are doing both simultaneously.

There is a time for taking and a time for giving so long as we strike a balance and never take more than we give. If all of us do this, there will always be enough ... or better yet a surplus.

Sitting here, I am one voice. I don't even know how many others hear me. But consciousness does hear me. And, because I take the action to write this down, it becomes part of the information that is available to the mass consciousness. Not only the collective unconscious ... but to the conscious mind of anyone who is drawn to this page. Such is how reality is created. Our thoughts are the key, but they must get to the right places to have effect. One place is in the general collective, the other is in specific minds of individuals. Ultimately, however, it is the individuals who must take action to bring anything about in this world. It is not enough for the subconscious to dream it ... though that may indeed be how individuals are reached. Ultimately someone has to turn the dreams into actions -- real actions that make a difference.

As I write this, there is a growing sense of being the creator of my life ... and of my world. I take full responsibility for all that I experience AND for all that I DO. Hmm ... that sent a shiver through my head. I have often said that spirit does these works through me. It seems that this is only a partial truth. At some level, I AM the spirit that does these works through me ... and it is my choice to do them. Whether I was conscious of this or not is not relevant. The truth is that I do indeed choose to do these works and make the works available to the world. That doesn't take away from the magic of the process. It is still automatic. I know not what will come forth even as I write. This truly is an example of living life in the moment. I permit each letter and word to come through one by one, using my touch, vision, hearing, and inner knowing to make it right. The bottom line is TRUST, letting go and allowing spirit to flow through me and express as she will. It is as if I am an instrument, and these words are the tunes that comes out as spirit plays my keys. Curious. I haven't used this analogy before, but it is very appropriate. The music that spirit is able to play though me is limited only by whom that I AM. This is the best expression that is capable of being played through me at this time. It has been true since these writings began over five years ago. WOW!

The past few days I've been moved to re-examine my life to date to understand the deeper meaning behind what I experienced and how I experienced. The sense was that the review was necessary to come to closure so that I could proceed. There was a sense that the cleansing fire of spirit is about to consume me and that I needed to somehow come to an understanding of all that is about to be burned away. As I write this, I feel ready for this process. On the show Babylon-5, Delenn restored the rightful government of her people away from the warrior class by being able to enter a circle of spiritual light. This was the test of her spiritual purity and worthiness of leading her people. It was curious that she chose to leave the job of rulership to a council of nine: 2 warrior, 2 religious, 5 worker. Formerly this had been 3-3-3 with the religious and warrior classes having differences that resulted in civil war. In changing the constitution of the council, Delenn made both the warrior and religious classes subservient to the workers.

This highlights a key transformation -- the need to switch from control to serve. This is a quantum shift in how one looks at the world. Government should serve the people. Religion should serve the people. The economic system should serve the people. But, what does it truly mean to serve? To me it means to help / facilitate meeting the needs of the people who are being served. To do this, you must (1) understand what the needs are, (2) have the ability to help, and (3) have a means to make the services available to those who need them.

In general, we seem to have two scarce resources ... money and time. For most people, money seems to be the tightest constraint. It seems that time only becomes a critical factor once one has sufficient money to live a comfortable life.

I am here to see how spirit flows within the world. I am here to see firsthand what ideas are manifest. In a very real way, I am the eyes through which spirit is able to observe these things. A big part of what I observe is the working of my own mind and the expression of spirit through me. It is amazing how often what I find inside is mirrored in the world and vice-versa. As above, so below is a deep spiritual truth.

It is one thing to observe what is. It is quite another to discern what the meaning is associated with the observations. It is especially difficult to do this without passing judgement on the meaning. One thing that makes this difficult is that it is almost impossible to verify whether the meaning one finds is indeed correct. It is not like there is some master record to check to see if one got it right. Much that we deal with is uncertain. Here we are free to venture out and explore the unknown and bring back our experiences and the things that we find. The unknown is a special place and special state of mind. It is particularly curious to consider our findings from the perspective of ONE consciousness creating and experiencing it all.

As an individual, I am only responsible for doing what I came to do. This requires realizing whom that I am to a sufficient degree to be able to carry out my tasks. Of course, I am free to enjoy the process to the degree that I am able. What is true for me is true for all. Though, what we came to do is extremely different from one individual to the next.

We've raised a whole generation of kids on video games that have resulted in special hand eye coordination and mental training. At the mundane level, the complexity of the video games made them interesting, challenging, and fun. However, at the meaning level, this was orchestrated to ensure certain talents were in place that will be needed and useful in the times ahead. It is not necessarily the obvious skills that will be more useful. It is the stuff that happens in the background while one is playing the game that often has the most value.

I guess this is no different then life. We work and we live our lives spending so much of our time on a variety of tasks and activities that are on our to do lists. Often, we are unaware of what we are truly learning in the process ... it catches us by surprise. In the end, it is our understanding of whom that we are that counts. What have we become aware of ourselves to be?

On my way to my room tonight, I heard the song The Power of Love by Celine Dion in a way that I had never heard it before. Literally, the meaning was different. I realized that at a higher level, when Celine sings "I am your lady and you are my man" and "whenever you reach for me, I'll do all that I can" for me, she is speaking as if she were consciousness herself. That is the only way the song can truly make sense. It is for male and female to complete one another. Yet, my completion cannot be another individuated consciousness ... it is all that is NOT ME. For both males and females, this is that part of the individuated consciousness that balances one's own; in fact, it is one's very soul.

This can be reflected back and experienced with a physical mate, but it cannot be demanded or even expected for that matter. Love is unconditional and places no such demands. Its only prerequisite for couples is the desire to be in the full presence of one another. This can be very tough to do ... hence seems to rarely occur.