The winds of change are blowing. Much that I have been working on at work is grinding to a halt. It is time to start doing something new. On all fronts, the universe appears to be telling me that what has worked in the past is no longer sufficient. I must change what I am doing and how I am doing it. This message has not come across so strongly before. It is time for life-transforming change.

On the one hand, I am bored by life -- yet I see that it is my choices that determine how I experience life ... and it is time now to make new choices. On the other hand, I see the way to a whole new life, one in which I am truly involved and making a difference. I just don't know how to get from where I'm at to this new vision ... this new way of being. Yet, it seems I must do something to trigger the change.

In the past, I was content to allow things to happen as consciousness dictated ... trusting that everything that was meant to be would happen in its right timing. Now, this no longer seems to be the case. Though, there is still a voice inside that says to be patient and allow what will be to manifest. In general, this may still be true. But, overall, it seems that we need to strike a balance between THE WILL and our wills. It is not for either to have complete control. Both are to exist and our will is to bow to THE WILL. I've been negligent in exercising my will in the outer world. I exercise it a lot on the inner as you can see from the energy I put into Beyond Imagination. However, I have been reluctant to exercise my will with others.

This seems to be the source of some of my present difficulties, including the side effects from my medications. I need to decide what is tolerable and what is not. This is affecting my life ... hence is my choice to make. Though, this is simply the starting point. I need to examine all areas of my life in the same fashion and determine what I will tolerate and what I cannot. This too is my choice to make. Quality of life is extremely important when one is living in the moment. It is important that life be the best it can be ... not in terms of things, but in terms of relationships and the expression of spirit. Don't get me wrong, nice things can help, but they are no where near sufficient.

It is not clear where my work life is heading. All indicators are showing that it is time to be doing something different ... perhaps something unlike anything that I have done before. Yet, I don't know where to turn to get the opportunity. Nothing I've tried in the past few years has come close to bringing in an income; much less a reasonable income for my services. Perhaps I've not been open-minded enough about what services I can perform for whom. Hmm ... I'll have to ponder that awhile. I still lack confidence in myself around others. I don't like having to sell anything to anyone. Thus far, I've advertised my services by posting them as pages at my site ... relying on consciousness to attract others to the pages. I don't know how else to reach the kinds of people that might hire me. Perhaps that is a problem as well. It would be better if my income was derived from what I have produced rather than my time. But, people have not been forthcoming in buying my Beyond Imagination products either.

A grant would be nice, but I have no clue as to where to apply. Ultimately, a benefactor would be nice who recognizes my value to society and chooses to pay me to do whatever spirit moves me to do. So much the better if this included the funding of projects to build the foundations for a better world. I have time, energy, enthusiasm, commitment, talent, creativity ... I just need to have my needs taken care of. Then again, in a very real way, my needs have always been taken care of. More correctly, I want to be part of an environment that support an economic contract:

From each in accord with that individual's talents and abilities,
to each in accord with that individual's needs.

I'm tired of wasting my time and energy within systems that are inefficient and ineffective. Others should not have to do this either. It is time to fix the problems in the present structures.

So, what can I do in practical terms to make a difference in my life and start making better choices? That is indeed the question. Right now, I do not know. But, I am excited that at least I was able to ask the question. I've found that this is always the first step towards finding an answer. It's as if we already know the answers, but must give our Selves permission to release the answers to us by formally asking the question. It is in the asking that we apply the key that unlocks the door.

Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne