A new day in which to express what consciousness would share through me. Such is what brings joy to my life. It is the service that I provide to consciousness that gives my life its meaning ... in fact, that makes my life interesting, fulfilling, and worthy of living. All else pales by comparison. Why should it be thus? Why are not all of my activities endowed with the same wonder and joy? Why do they not yield the same levels of fulfillment? Further, how can I live my life in a manner that it is more ... much more than it is at present?

I've lived for 40 years ... yet in many ways, I have yet to truly live ... to walk my talk among others and be the example of spirit enfleshed that I have written about year after year. It is one thing to bring forth ideas. It is quite another to embody those ideas in flesh. Oh, we have done much in five years. But, that was only the beginning -- a beginning that prepared us to embark on the next phase of the endeavor in which we can materialize the circumstances necessary to make the ideas a living reality in this world. Today marks the starting point for this new adventure. It will lead to a new tomorrow. Or, more correctly, it will bring the planned tomorrow to fruition as here and now at the designated time per the Plan.

There is a sense that doing the same old things in the same old way is not appropriate any longer. It is time for new things and new ways -- though it is not yet clear what these might be. The saying comes to mind "keep doing what you're doing and you'll keep getting what you've been getting." Personally, that is no longer sufficient. I want more ... I want to be able to more fully use my talents and abilities in service to Spirit. I want to remove some of the walls and chains that have bound me in the past and take the expression to a whole new level.

It is not clear that this is compatible with being a Hermit. Yet, in many ways, that is still precisely what I AM. Perhaps it is only my conception of Hermit that is causing the difficulty. I'm looking for others to work with to start creating the foundations for a new world. Not a lot of others, just a few ... and maybe even just one. My preference is to remain behind the scenes, on the mountaintop coming down to observe and assist from time to time by sharing my light. Something that came through in the notes long ago comes to mind, about the order that I come from working alone. We see where spirit expresses and where it does not and help to bring light where there was darkness. If this is indeed correct, then my life as a Hermit will always be such. It will be my burden to endure that I can observe what spirit needs to see and assist in shining light where it is needed. As the Mit of Her, I am the glove that she wears to touch the world. As I write this, my vision is drawn to a statue of the female water bearer that is in my back yard. It is curious that the water bearer for Aquarius is a male figure, while this statue is most definitely female. Also, she carries her water jug on her shoulder making the water level above her head. The water in her jug is consciousness itself.

There is a pain in the middle of my back. It has been there for several days now. There is a sense that it is there because I have taken on burdens that are not mine to carry. When I lighten the load and relieve myself of the burdens, the pain will naturally be relieved as well. So, what burdens are we talking about? What load have I taken on that is not rightly mine? The answer that comes back is that I have taken on the weight of the world again. When, in reality, it is for each individual on the world to bear their own weight. I can only do what I am moved to do. My happiness should come from doing my best in each moment at whatever my attention is drawn to in that moment. But, this is still expressed as a "should" -- not experienced as a living reality.

I have made myself responsible for bringing forth the new age. In reality, it will take a cooperative effort of many to carry this out. Yes, I am here as a midwife to assist in the birth ... but, I am not the only midwife ... and there may be doctors and nurses participating as well. The birth of a new world is a massive undertaking requiring extensive cooperation.

I'm still struggling with establishing relationships with those whom I am meant to be cooperatively interdependent. To date, there have been very few others in my life. There is still a sense that this is to change in major ways in the near future with Uranus seeing the light of day in my natal chart. However, the change is not happening very quickly. I guess that after operating 40 years primarily alone, this is to be expected. I see myself working with a few others closely, not with masses. Further, there will always be a need for quiet time to process what I see and permit Source to express through me as she would.

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Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne