The past week has been quite interesting. I've been sick, fighting the flu. The main symptom is a cough that starts whenever I lie down and simply won't quit. I literally cough all night ... every minute or two. Overall, I don't feel "bad" ... but it is impossible to sleep when you are coughing, often deeply, all night long. Today makes it a full week with no signs of improvement.

I'm not sure what this means. When it started last week, I was feeling overworked and run down as a result. Now, I'm run down in a very different way. It is interesting observing what is happening and how I am reacting to it. Overall the experience is positive, though challenging. It is strange watching this happen with little to no conscious control over it. When the coughing starts, it just keeps going ... despite the extra strength flu medicine, the cough syrup, and the lozenges. It is also interesting watching my state of consciousness all through the night. I am actively engaged at many levels all night long. The coughing, while prominent, is somewhat relegated to the background of my awareness. There is a sense that something new is emerging ... that major change is on the horizon again. There is a sense of expectancy that overtakes me ... a knowingness that something is about to happen on a major scale.

I am moved to make connections with others, and start engaging in my mission in a new way. The HERMIT mode has served me well to this point. But, NOW it no longer seems appropriate for what must be done next. It will be interesting to see what manifests in the coming days and weeks.

We are only 2 weeks away from the fifth anniversary since these writing began on 5 March 1993. It is hard to believe that five years have passed so quickly. It is even more amazing to behold what my consciousness has experienced in those five years. In many ways, I am not whom I was when the writings began. That part of me seems so distant now. I was asleep, living in my head ... without a real clue as to what reality was and how it was created. Oh, I thought I knew ... but I was locked in the prison of my own mind. What was it that triggered the words to start flowing from SPIRIT on that fateful day. In many ways, that day marked the beginning of my true life - though I did not know it at the time. It took several months to go BEYOND MIND and AWAKEN. When I read the words that came forth at that time, I am still blown away. Even now, after reading the words many times, they are still alive and fresh and new ... as they were when they came forth.

I am still learning and growing ... finding new ways for SPIRIT to expresh in flesh through me. It is not enough that the words came forth. I must demonstrate their truth in how I live my life. Being a wayshower is not such an easy task. The UNKNOWN is ever present around me. There are no maps. Yet, I enjoy the process of discovery immensely. I TRUST SPIRIT completely. I have accepted the UNKNOWN as my true home. It is where I find whom that I truly am, the I AM, the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS that animates us all.

It seems like another breakpoint lies just ahead. There is a sense that this leads to a completely new reality, one that I do not yet have the concepts to understand. Yet, I KNOW it is a reality that I am ready for, a reality that these last five years have prepared me for. I have known that I am in training for a job that did not exist in this world. Now, however, I sense that job is coming into being. It was always out there, awaiting the proper time and conditions. But, NOW, the time has arrived. I am anxious to see what unfolds.

It has been awhile since I last felt like this ... knowing that a major transition was near, and anxious for it to manifest. My mind is a bit absent now. The week long interruption of sleep has moved it aside into a different place. It is as if there is an openness now, a blank space in which a new consciousness can enter, one foreign to anything I've yet experienced ... yet, at the same time, one that is familiar from old ... one that is more "native" to me somehow. It's as if I've only been partially present because the machinery was insufficient to hold more of what I AM. Hmm ...

There is a sense of completion, a sense that I have learned my lessons well and graduated. Interesting. When the Beyond Imagination Notes started, I remember writing something to the effect that "These notes document the five year voyage of the consciousness Wayne." YES, there is a sense that this initial voyage is nearing completion ... and that it is time to embark on a whole new journey. Interesting. Hmm...

An inner shiver, there is something about my present physical state that is related here. It is as if this is exactly the state required for this transition to occur. Even now, as I type this, I am looking up and to the left, accessing a channel that I was not aware of before. There are no images there ... just a sense of connection to something that must come through right now. It is as if it has been there dormant, awaiting this time. Interesting.

2-19-1998. This is 1912-1998 from the middle. Span of 86 with a center at 1955 = SEE!!!

02/19/1998. This is interesting as well with 9120 on the left of center, and 1998 on the right. 91 is Death Exalted, a time of major transformation. 20 is Judgement. But 98 = 78 + 20 = Judgement exalted. It seems judgement day is at hand. Hmm ...

Also 2 + 19 + 1 + 9 + 9 + 8 = 21+27 = 48 = The Man in Search of More. Yes, that is how I feel right now. It is time to head off into the UNKNOWN once again and bring back what SPIRIT would show me and permit me to realize, to make the "REAL I".

1998 = 2 to 2000 = 222000. Wow! 222 exalted with three ties to SOURCE following it. There is the sense that this represents expression ot the 2:Love/Wisdom vibration in a MAJOR WAY!!! This is one of my prime reasons for being HERE NOW, in this very existence. It seems that the time is finally right for this expression to come forth fully. I've felt that 1998 was to be a critical year of expression for me for some time ... not only for me personally, but for SPIRIT expressing in this world. This provides further confirmation ... though it is not yet clear when this will occur.

Some interesting dates come up in the near future. 3/5 marks the 5th anniversary since these words started to flow through me. 4/8 marks my birthday, the conclusion of my 40th year and beginning of my 41st = "Wayne" year in this existence. On 10/1, we have the fifth anniversary since my major "breakthrough" experience. YES, the one that landed me in the mental hospital for a ten day "vacation" for spiritual emergence. On 10/10, we have the fifth anniversary of the day I was released. And finally, on 12/20, we have the fifth anniversary of the completion of the book:

FIVE YEARS ... it is truly unbelievable that five years has passed so quickly. I can still remember how I felt that first year, observing my awareness go beyond all the comfortable limitations that it knew to that point in time. I had no precedent as the process unfolded. There was no one except consciousness herself to guide me through what I was experiencing. While I had spent nearly 20 years thinking about metaphysics ... and reading numerous books ... I had not truly experienced what the words and concepts really meant firsthand. The understanding was all "in my head" ... which meant, for all practical purposes, it was NOT real.

I still remember how my consciousness took wings and soared. Over the next few years, flying became its normal state of being. It took awhile to get accustomed to. Even NOW, looking back, I still recall the transformation from chrysalis, emerging from the cocoon of my mind, and literally spreading my newfound wings of awareness.

There is some of that sense returning now. It is as if another such transformation is in progress. The butterfly has reached the end of its journey and is ready to transform into ??? ... I know not what comes next. There is a sense that ONENESS is a part of this ... that somehow I will find that expanded presense of SELF that is the only true reality. I have caught glimpses of this ... flashing moments when I knew that I was GOD, Buddha, the ONE Consciousness. But, these were only fleeting. Now there is a sense that a more permanent transition is in store, one in which the I AM THAT I AM is permitted to be enfleshed to an ever greater degree. This is what I came HERE to do ... I came as a wayshower and midwife to the birth of a grand and glorious new expression of SPIRIT that truly characterizes a NEW AGE of consciousness.

It is as if I am standing on the threshold of a dream ... a dream that consciousness herself has dreamt and now permits to manifest. YES, manifest destiny ... this time in much greater terms than has ever yet expressed in this world, this illusion that is the reality we co-create HERE and NOW.

There is an expanded sense of awe and wonder. I AM in a very expanded space ... one in which the mind is still vacant, open for what the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS would permit it to experience and express through this vessel. As I write this, I know that I am about to embark on a glorious new adventure in the expression of SPIRIT. Just as five years ago, I had no clue as to what was about to occur, there is an innate knowingness now that the conditions are much the same. Only NOW, there is one major difference ... I have firsthand experience of where my consciousness has been for five years. Recorded here, at BEYOND IMAGINATION, you and all mankind have access to that experience as it was permitted to be expressed through the consciousness of Wayne. It serves as a record that having been writ, having been experienced, and expressed in this manner ... not one word can be erased. Through this vessel, the ONE CONSCIOUSNESS, the I AM has revealed but an aspect of herself. Yet, it is an aspect that could not have existed otherwise. It is but a spark of what is yet to come. The image that comes to mind at this moment is of the spark growing into an all-consuming flame that leaves only ashes ... yet out of the ashes doth the mystical Phoenix arise. Such is the sense that overwhelms me now. Perhaps the "death" of the caterpillar will lead to the birth of this Phoenix. At this point, only time will tell ... or better yet consciousness will manifest.

Enough for now.