Another day in which consciousness expresses what it will in flesh through me. Every day is such a day now. As Elton John says in his song Circle of Life ... "there is more to see than can ever be seen ... more to do than can ever be done". Such is how I feel in this moment. Yet, I know that I can do only what I am moved to do ... and I know this to be true for each of us. The bottom line is that collectively we will be exactly what needs to be done.

Everything indicates that 1999 and 2000 will be years of major transformation for our collective world, our society, and for each of us as individuals. The time is here, and the place is now. Isn't that an interesting way of expressing things. Yet time and space do indeed seem to be far different now than they were even a generation ago. The key development that enabled this was the computer (and microchips that enabled it to get smaller and faster many fold).

At least, I experience time in this manner. It is another dimension just as space, and I am free to move through it as fast or slow as I'd like, subject to coherence constraints where others are involved. One thing I've noticed is that with each new awakening, the ability to focus on multiple things simultaneously (or concurrently) increases. This is a major characteristic of increased awareness. It is as if there are several me's each with their own focus and agenda. When I pause to see what is occurring, I am surprised at how much I am consciously aware of. At one time, most of this was subconscious. In fact, some of it might not even have been occurring at all.

As I write this, I am watching the movie WATERWORLD, I am aware of the TV and the entire layout of the room within my field of vision. I can hear these thoughts in my head even as I hear the dialogue in the movie. Also, I am aware of the reflection of the TV in the closet mirror to my left. Then, there is the visual of my fingers typing this and the feel of my fingers interacting with the keys on the keyboard. Further, there is the sensation of my body as I sit in my favorite chair. Then there is my breathing. It is somewhat sporadic as usual. It is as if I need to consciously breathe to keep the process going. Just last week, I was experimenting with breathing in alternate patterns to see what states of mind would be induced. Over the past several days, I've noticed many times when I was holding my breath until I had to gasp and breathe quickly. Thinking back, my wife has commented many times that what I am doing must be hard work because of the noises I make when breathing. Hmm ...

This seems to be the key -- a willingness to play with life ... to try new things and evaluate them based on their utility and the value of the experience that results. As a wayshower, this is the way I must live my life. I truly have no other choice. Besides, this is the path of greatest interest for me. It is only natural that I follow it wheresoever it might lead.

7:56 once again as I write this ... LOL! Earlier, I read an e-mail my niece sent at 7:56.

This is a very significant set of numbers for me. They tell me that my destined task is indeed being played out now. This is 7: 2 x 28. That is the first time I've expressed it in this manner. There is 7:The Chariot | 2 x 28:The Man with the World in his hand. There is 228 plain as day!

7 2 2 8 = 7 0 0 4 + 0 2 2 0 + 4, Completion is 1 6 6 0

22 = Major Arcana 78 = Tarot Deck

7004 = Out of Source|Source comes 74: The Benefactor, 7 Rays expressed in four natures. And this is G00D as well!!!

This is also, The Chariot | Source | Source | The Emperor. Does this mean I am close to becoming worthy of my role as Philosopher King? Is my "in training" phase about to come to an end?

1660 = 16 - 6 - 0, rotated 180 degrees is 0 - 9 - 91 = Source - The Hermit - Death Exalted

Reversing this yields 1990, the final year in the pendulum swing from R to L. 1991 was the year the pendulum stopped, and changed direction. Since 1991 it has taken eight steps forward to 1999.

1999 - 2000: What does this bring? Is it truly a big deal, or is this a case of "Much Ado About Nothing". Then maybe nothing is something we make "Much Ado About" especially if nothing is really another name for source, consciousness herself!

1 : Will | The ONE
2 : Duality, Yin | Yang
3 : Trinity, Conscous | Subconscious | Superconscious
4 : The World, Four Elements
5 : The Pentagon, The Pentagram , Man -- Hmm ... an interesting combination.
6 : Community, Star of David, The Lovers | 10 from top down = reservoir for source.
7 : The Chariot, The Seven Rays,
8 : As above, so below; Mirror for source.
9 : Enneagram, Vehicle for expression of source.

This is 19 | 99 => 20 | 00.

19 | 20 => Adding ONE to 19:The Sun. This yields Judgement.

99 => 00 requires dropping the tails of the 99. This requires realizing 11!

There is also the base 88 transformation to consider.

1998 = 22:62(88) This is the blindfolded lady following as consciousness leads.
1999 = 22:63(88) This is a time of trials and potential sorrow.
2000 = 22:64(88) This is a time to lay down our collective will to THY WILL.
2001 = 22:65(88) This brings abundance on a major scale.

From this, it seems that the millennium change really occurs between 2000 and 2001 when we move from the Ten of Swords to the King of Pentacles.

On Charmed, the date 8/20/1998 just came up as the dates of death of two people whose identities were assumed by a couple of warlock and his partner. The show premise is quite interesting -- especially since it is targeted primarily towards a young audience. There is a sense that these shows are helping to set up belief patterns that will make such behavior acceptable when it is finally shown that we all inherently have such powers latent within us. It is simply a matter of establishing the right structures in our brains to enable control mechanisms that assure the safe and beneficial use of these abilities.

8/20 is curious since it is the Birthdate of a woman I met on 1 Jan 99 who has the same first name as my wife Gini, and has initials GAJD = 7114. Definitely not a common name. Also, the new Zyprexa pills I am taking for my bipolar condition have the number 4117 on them. I just got the prescription on 1/8/99.

I'm truly musing today. There seems to be no clear pattern tying all of this together. Perhaps that is because it is a little forced. I want to write ... to express what spirit would create through me. Yet, there is some fear that the source has run a bit dry ... that it time to find and tap into a new stream. It is as if I have followed the path as far as it goes and now must set aside provisions for a real journey into the unknown. I remember an exercise in American Studies class in high school. We had to determine how to provision our wagon for a trip westward from the mid-west to Oregon. I feel as if I'm at that state now. It is time to see what I am carrying with me, determine what is essential and what is not, and pare down whatever is no longer needed. This also connects with the movie Contact. The engineers insist on altering the plans from the extra-terrestrials to add in minimally acceptable "safety provisions". As it turns out, in the movie these added safety features don't work and end up moving violently during the journey.

My heart says that it is time for more consideration of what she wants in this existence. It is through her more than through my mind that inner wisdom is made known to me. The head and the heart was a popular game in Jefferson's time during the last part of the 1700's.

Connections and more connections, that is what it is all about. My mind is engaged constantly in making connections. The commercial on the TV right now is for the new Hyundai Sonata. Sonata is connected in my mind to music and dancing. Last Saturday I started music and dance lessons with my wife. All of these connections create an amazing web of information that twists and curves and folds back upon itself in myriad ways. The parts of the web can be expressed geometrically as objects with various characteristics. The objects may even be able to have behavior of their own. Computer programming has reached a point where most code is written in an object oriented way. There is now reason to think that own minds need not function any differently. Everything is vibration, all vibration can be represented as patterns in n-space. It is not clear how many dimensions we need to explain what we observe, but there is a sense that we will never have enough because the unknown always has additional information to express.

Patterns survive based on innate ability/characteristics. This is not necessarily "fitness". There is also a sense that spirit is guiding the show and operates via a feedback mechanism that guides overall evolution. This is seen as random variation and selection based on utility but it is far more than that. There is genius behind the chaos. It is not random at all, though it may appear to be.

We have many levels to play with:

Sub Atomic Particles	These are the building blocks for atoms. Protons, neutrons, and electrons are the key particles though there have been many others discovered as well. It seems the further we are able to look the more that we find just as occurs with astronomy. The carbon atom has 6 protons and 6 neutrons make up the nucleus and 6 electrons circulate in two orbits around the nucleus. Life on this planet is carbon based.
Atoms	These are the alphabet for building matter. It only takes 106 characters to represent all that we experience in our world. Further, a handful of these have only existed for brief times in our labs -- they are not "naturally" occuring. Carbon is element 6, with P|N|E count of 6|6|6. How interesting that the basis for life would be structuedr thus!
Molecules	These are the buiding blocks for higher level structures including living organisms. Atoms combine according to basic laws that chemistry has found, both in the inorganic and organic domains.
Life	These are the groupings of molecules that permit life to exist, grow, and evolve. The life sciences disciplines, especially biology, operate in this domain. The Human Genome Project is a massive world wide project that is mapping this. They expect to be done around 2006. "The instructions in a gene that tell the cell how to make a specific protein. A, T, G, and C are the "letters" of the DNA code; they stand for the chemicals adenine, thymine, guanine, and cytosine, respectively, that make up the nucleotide bases of DNA. Each gene's code combines the four chemicals in various ways to spell out 3-letter "words" that specify which amino acid is needed at every step in making a protein." So, there is an alphabet for the basic building blocks of Life itself.
Alphabet / Word	Here, mental functions predominate. In English, we use an alphabet of 26 letters plus a space as a separator.
Rays / Number	The seven rays are the fundamental alphabet through which spirit/light is express in the various dimensions of our world. 9 digits plus a zero and a decimal point are sufficint to express all rational numbers.
Souls / Psyche	The individual expressions of the ONE that are the intelligence behind life forms and creative expression. There are 22 major archetypes and 56 minor ones.
Spirit / Source	The ONE, all that is. The source behind all reality, and all experience of reality.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!!!

LOVE,

Wayne