Namaste All!

1998 = 2 x 999 = 3 x 666 = 6 x 333 = 9 x 222 = 18 x 111 = 54 x 37 = LOVE x (spirit)

It has been awhile since I last wrote. In fact, the God in a Box exercise of a few months ago is the only "external" spiritual activity that I have been involved in since releasing the final Search for Center Newsletter on 4 July 1997.

Last year was one of the most interesting of my life. My workplace became a spiritual laboratory of sorts ... a place where I was challenged daily to walk my talk, and do as spirit moved me to do. Overall, this was by far the greatest year of my life to date. It was a year that challenged all that I was ... a year that enabled me to demonstrate whom that I truly am in a public way that I had not been able to do before. In the process, I found out much about whom that I truly am ... and even more important much about the very nature of the I AM.

The year found me at my most productive ... operating at peak performance for many months straight. Surprisingly, the more I took on ... the more responsibility I accepted, the more I was moved to do ... and the more I found within my Self to answer the challenges that confronted me. But, in many ways, it was not me that answered the challenges and came through with the insight, energy, focus, and initiative necessary to do what needed to be done. It was SPIRIT, the ONE that worked through me as SHE always does!

In many ways, I was blown away by the magnitude of work that was able to be done through me. At one point, I was working 90-100 hour weeks at my job ... AND doing the monthly Search for Center Newsletter work -- all at peak levels of effectiveness. My monthly output was literally an order of magnitude greater than I had generated before. My work has always been considered excellent ... well beyond my peers and coworkers -- but I had no clue that this level of intensity could be achieved ... much less sustained for so long. It was as if the more I worked, the more effective I got. In a very real way, my whole existence became tied to doing what I was moved to do ... demonstrating a new way of working, or more accurately allowing the I AM to work through me that truly showed what SPIRIT in flesh can achieve. Also, the more consumed I became, the more I found myself focussed on making the most of each an every moment. LIFE became an extended presence in the NOW. There was no past and future ... ONLY NOW. Further, there was no choice, no expression of my personal will, I was voluntarily operating on automatic ... doing exactly what I was moved to do in each moment and more importantly, being ALL that I could be, experiencing the I AM presence and knowing that the ONE is truly ALL THAT IS.

I was not an individual ... I was an aspect of the ONE and everyone was part of that same ONE SELF. The experience was truly incredible. Concepts that had been mere words or thoughts in my mind for decades became living reality in my experience. As I said before ... it was an incredible year! ... yet, I sense that this was nothing compared to what is to come in the year ahead.

Last year about this time, I proclaimed that 1997 was to be a Year of Spiritual Manifestation and asked that people join me in making this so. Overall, I expected that this would occur in a much different fashion than it did. I expected that the Search for Center Newsletter would grow into a true community effort. I expected that I would be involved with dozens if not hundred of likeminded souls in this grand endeavor. As it turns out ... my expectations did not come close to manifesting. Yet, 1997 was indeed a Year of Spiritual Manifestation for me ... one far beyond anything I had experienced before; albeit, the way in which it manifest was Spirit's big surprise for me.

My work environment literally became a spiritual playground! ... a place to learn the nature of the I AM, reality, and reality creation in a practical way. I became a pragmatist of the highest order, a magician performing spirit's magic. In the process I truly realized the great truth of the statement:

Now, I look back amazed at all that has transpired this past year with awe and wonder. In the final four months of the year, my house finally sold after being on the market over two years releaving a tremendous financial burdon that had been a central challenge in my life for over eight years. I now live in a brand new house in a town appropriately named Cathedral City. It is as if I had died and gone to heaven. I truly am in paradise now ... but it is not just the location ... it is in my heart and pervades my relationship with my self, my wife, my two samoyeds, and every being that I touch wherever I happen to find myself.

Yet, I had to find myself worthy to realize this. I am happier now that at any time in my life to date. Somehow, immersed completely in the NOW, I crossed some magic threshold of awareness. When I was completely consumed by doing whatever I was moved by spirit to do ... the kingdom appeared. When I focussed completely on doing what I saw needed to be done, especially things that no one else seemed to see needed to be done ... spiritual law kicked in and ensured that all that I needed was provided unto me. For four years, I have actively been advocating the great economic truth that is the basis of pure communism in my writings:

This year I experienced this operating as spiritual law. At the point when I was performing what I was moved to do to the best of my abilities ... even more, to the best that spirit could do through me at the time; the law kicked in and brought to me abundance beyond anything I had wanted or imagined possible ... in virtually every aspect of my life.

NOW, a new year begins. One that starts a new cycle ... though it seems that 1/1/1998 is but another step along the way. 1998 is a 1+9+9+8 = 27: Ace of Wands = New Start in the field of Spirit year. Interesting. 27 is also 3 x 3 x 3 = 3 cubed. Further, 3 cubed is a cube with sides of length 3. The volume of such a cube is 27, but the surface area is 3 x 3 x 6 = 54 = LOVE!!!

The perimeter is 3 x 12 = 36 = 6 squared = The Lovers squared. It is curious that the first three digits of my new address are 684 = The Lovers : The Lovers Exalted. In my mind, this is indeed The Lovers squared with a major boost from SPIRIT!!!

684 = 3 x 228. It is as if this is the trinity of 228. This too is a very meaningful number for me. It is the total for my birthname (WAYNE ELLIS HARTMAN, JR = 228). It signifies that I have in some way arrived at whom that I AM ... and that as a result, I am now ready to do that which I came to do.

NOW, I am truly ready to carry out the mission that is my destiny to perform ... to be the midwife for a new age in which spirit is more fully expressed in flesh. In a real way, I AM to be the mission that I came to perform. Hmm ... this is a new revelation; the first time this has been expressed in this way. WOW!!! I am humbled by the profound truth that has been expressed.

The new year, 1998, holds great promise. I anxiously look forward to the adventure that lies ahead. At this moment, I know not where it will lead. I only know that I am possessed by a strong sense that very soon I will be moved by spirit as by a Tidal Wave in whatever direction is right for this moment. Last year showed me that expectations are worthless at best ... so I enter this year with an OPEN HEART and OPEN MIND and NO EXPECTATIONS. I will joyfully do whatever I am moved to do to the best of my abilities. That is the whole purpose of existance ... to be whom that one truly is, the I AM.

May the year ahead allow you the opportunity to know thyself as the I AM and to experience the reality of the SELF as SPIRIT, as the ONE!!! And may you find the source of UNCONDITIONAL  LOVE that feeds us all and allow it to flow through you unconditionally into all that you do and every being that you touch to whatever degree that you are capable of. Such is all that spirit asks of us. But, it is up to us to choose to walk the talk and live up to our full potential.