Yesterday, I got a bit carried away with the numbers.  What can I say?  That is where I find meaning these days.  As I was driving home, 228 came up in another context on a license plate just before I made the final major turn.  The final three numbers were 786 which is 14 to 8 = 14:28 = 2:28 PM.  This is not a logical connection to make ... but it is a valid one, using techniques that I have found to be very useful over the past 6 years.  I took it as feedback that I was indeed on the right track in what was expressed in yesterday's musings.  This is quite profound.  The discovery yesterday was a very powerful one about the very nature of how energy is expressed in this world.  I almost forgot ... I picked a Tarot card just before leaving work as well.  It was the 74:The Benefactor Card.  This is one of the forms of G-d and happens to be the Tarot number for my whole name. Surely this is not coincidence either.  I took it as confirmation that what I had uncovered was indeed valid.  We'll see just how valid in the times ahead.

Last night I was thinking that it was the number of cycles of 22 that is important.  1958 was 89 cycles of 22.  If we express that in base 22, it is 4:01:00(22).  That is a form of 410, the number of my address in Monterey for 7 years.  It is also 2 * 5 * 41, my ray makeup times 41:Wayne.  More connections.  The web is intricately connected indeed.  Adding 22, 90 cycles of 22 occurred in 1980.  91 cycles will complete in 2002.  This means that we are in the 91st cycle right now, about to step from 19 to 20. How appropriate that this occurs as we move from the 19--'s to the 20--s.  Actually, next year is even more interesting as step 20 to 21 is lined up with the real transition from the 20th to the 21st century.

It is interesting that so many connections are coming forth at this time.  It is as if I am somehow more receptive to them now.  Something has shifted ... the awareness is ready to literally see more than it has seen before.  I watch in amazement at  what happens.  I am aware of being aware.  I observe even as I do.  The process is still magical to me.  I sense that it will always be thus.  I need to find a way to apply this state of being to whatever I do for employment.  It is not clear how to do this in my present work environment.  There is so much that I can do.  There is so much that can come forth if I can remain in states that permit it to be brought through effectively.  Unfortunately, I haven't found a way to be paid to do what I so love to do.  This expression of spirit is what consumes my heart.  It is where I freely pour my attention and focus ... primarily because it gives me great pleasure to do so.  Further, this is what I am moved to do.  In many ways, I have no real choice in the matter.  I trust that spirit will bring forth the conditions necessary to effectively use my talents.  She gave me these gifts in the first place.  They are mine to use in her service.  Such is my will anyway.  Not my will but thine be done.  Yet, did she also not give me a will that could be used in her service as well.  Is not this the next step ... the one that actively engages my whole self in this expression?  Indeed, it is so.  My will has been trained to work with my intuition in service to spirit.  It took many years for this training to take place.  But, it has succeeded and it is time to take the next step.  The will is like a transformer in a circuit.  It can step up or down the voltage and current.  Here we need to step up the current ... to allow spirit to flow to an ever greater degree through me into the works that I am moved to do.

I'm open to change in whatever manner it is to take place.  I don't have any goals or feel any need to force things to move in any particular direction.  Perhaps this is the problem.  Perhaps spirit is waiting for me to do something to get the ball rolling in some direction after which she can come forth to provide assistance.  Hmm ... This means that I must choose something and then take action in pursuit of whatever I choose.  Such is what it has come down to.  My life will change when I choose to make it different ... not until.  I'm no longer content to be a passive observer.  It is time to be an active participant in life and see where that leads for awhile.  Why had I not seen this before?  Perhaps because I had my hands full with experiencing the observer states of awareness.  Now, these are a constant part of my being, I am free to focus on the creator aspect of my Self again ... this time without the blinders of a strong ego.  With my Self unleashed, who knows what can manifest in what time frames!  I feel powerful in a way that I have never felt before.  It is not that I have power over others -- nor do I desire to have such; it is that I have power over my self in a way that I've never had before.  I am free ... free to do and to feel in a way that I've never been before.  This is the only true power.  It is a spiritual power that comes from awareness.

Before leaving work, I picked another Tarot card ... this time I got 13: Death/Transformation. How appropriate given what has been coming forth over the last week. Immediately following 13 was 66: The Queen of Pentacles. This is the 88 completion of 22:The Fool Completed.

On the way home tonight, I noticed the odometer of my wife's vehicle was at 82828 with the two 2's slightly higher than the three 8's. This made 228 prominent again as the middle three digits. Also, the sense that I had was that 22 was captured inside a triangle with vertices 8-8-8. 22 is my Heart's Desire.  This pattern had it captured within 888, the base 16 equivalent of the final four of my Social Security Number, 2184. The sense was that this marked a level of completion that was of a very high order. I don't know what that means yet ... but it is about as clear of a sign as one could produce with a 5 digit number. Also, I noticed this mileage about a half mile from where I live during the week. The mileage stayed the same all the way to where I parked the car. To me, that indicates that this is a permanent state that has been reached. This is particularly interesting since I don't normally drive my wife's car. We traded vehicles for a couple weeks because she needed the van to carry some furniture over Christmas. Tomorrow is the last day I will have the car.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!

LOVE,

Wayne