Once again I am moved to enter this space where spirit would write what she would through me. I don't know what she has to say ... I await it coming through just as you do. It enters my awareness word by word, idea by idea, line by line, page by page. The process is still fresh after over six years. This is where creativity appears most in my life. All that I know is that I am moved to express and that I must do as I am moved to do. The FORCE that moves me is consciousness herself. To me consciousness is not GOD ... it is a feminine energy or awareness that operates behind the scenes to animate and observe all that is. Words are difficult here. I have no clear concept of GOD. There is no direct awareness that I have of a supreme creator. Perhaps that is because I am blind to what is not me. Hmm ... that is an interesting way of seeing things. The last three of my SSN are 184. G0D is 704. The sum of the two is 184 + 704 is 888. These are completions of one another. If we take 704 from the inside out we get 074: The Benefactor, the numerological sum of the letters in my name. That says that who I am is God, and what I do is 184. Who I am plus what I do yield 888, infinity on three planes.

It doesn't stop there. The last four of my SSN are 2184. This is 888(16). The base 10:The Wheel of Fortune to base 16: The Tower transition brings a whole new awareness. What I am to do on one level is 184. That finds the first level of completion in the base 10: Wheel of Fortune world. Then I am to go on to express 888 in the base 16: The Tower world. 8888 in base 10 is the next role to express. This is 2184 + 704 + 6000. 6:The Lovers Exalted is on the top of my "A" Tarot card reading from 1994. This was a key reading in my life. Note that 6000 reversed is 0006 = 6.

2184 reversed is 4812 = 4/8/12 with some punctuation. This is a date ... it just happens to be the second time my birthday is on Easter Sunday in the period from 1750-2150. The first time is five years sooner in 2007. 4/8/12 is also the equilateral triangle formed by starting at the top of the clock and making lines to 4 then 8 then 12. There is a sense that this marks the end of duality as we know it. Interesting. I don't know where that came from. There is more here, yet to be revealed. Don't get to anxious. Patience is a virtue here. It will be interesting to see what else is revealed.

184 = 92 x 2 = 46 x 4 = 23 x 8 = 23 pyramid. 23 = wayne. A pyramid takes us into three dimensional space. I strikes me that I could have said 23 octagon but I've always considered x 8 to yield pyramidal numbers. Hmm ... Octagon is the shape for a STOP sign. Pyramid is a more sacred shape that has mystical connotations. Nowhere in my adventures in consciousness since 1993 have I run into a state where STOP was warranted. My mental states have been extreme at times, and even landed me in the hospital twice but this did not stop the awakenings from continuing. All along I've felt that consciousness herself was looking out after me and that because of this I was safe. She would not feed me any experiences that I did not need to grow ... to realize more of whom that I am, and to express what spirit would have me express through this form. Interesting, I have never felt that it was God pushing me or judging me. I've be the sole judge in my life ... hmm ... one might say the sole god in my life. But consciousness is real ... she touches me deeply and expresses through me as she does through all of us. I don't distinguish between consciousness and spirit. They have the same meaning to me.

Yet, I can relate to the Conversations With God books. The God that expresses there is perfectly consistent with the spirit that expresses through me. I do not create words in the same manner, but I can recognize their validity. It is as if I have a receptacle that fits with the material in those books. Perhaps that comes from the 184 + 704 = 888 nature discussed above.

Throughout these writings, there has never been a sense of real separateness or otherness between me and the originator of these words. I don't experience creating this. I just observe it happening. Perhaps that is why I have such difficulty with will. There is no sense that I am meant to apply a creative thrust to anything. It is rather an allowing of what must be to happen. And, right now, these words must be. In very real ways, I relate closely to the feminine ... I have all of my life. My nature is to be accepting, receptive, and nurturing. The force to me, the energy that animates all of existence is feminine. Such is the only way God could observe what was created. The outer, the material, and the inner, the awareness are wrapped together as hand in glove. There is no separating of the two. Neither can exist without the other. This is why all that exists has awareness as Seth so clearly points out throughout his works. Being and being aware are co-created. Humans however have permitted a difference between conscious awareness and overall awareness. This permits a reality to be experienced that could not exist without this level of information hiding. That is it, we are constantly engaged in a game of hide and seek in this existence. And, what we seek is to discover the true nature of whom that we are. At least, such is what some of us are here to do. Others seem to be wrapped up in simply being whom that they are.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!

LOVE,

Wayne