So, let us continue this ongoing dialogue with consciousness. Indeed, that is what this is, is it not. We write what would come through us and interact with the energy of consciousness to see what would resonate in our mind. We ask questions and search for answers. But, more importantly, we ALLOW what would come forth to come forth. There is a sense that the stream is endless. However, it is blocked until it is allowed to come through. We must recover it in the order in which it is organized. Interesting. Expressing permits the blockages to come down and allow even more to flow through. Such is now and has been the process. There is a sense that this need not be fully the case anymore. My inner vision is opening up allowing me to see images when my eyes are closed. This is a new format of input for me. I am still learning how to use it and how to exert control in manipulating through the visual images. This is not something that I am used to doing, but the potential is enormous since vision has so much more bandwidth associated with it. That is, the potential is enormous if the bandwidth is used effectively. Hmm ... we'll just have to see on that one.

The physical world feels very heavy and constraining to me now. Mentally, I long to fly ... but my feet feel as if they have lead bricks holding them down. Perhaps this is needed now so that the energy can be grounded. Or, is that just an excuse? My own weight is far higher than it should be. Perhaps it is this that must be adjusted for the feeling to change. It is time to take control of my own body. I've allowed it to pretty much do as it will most of my life ... eating whatever I was moved to eat, not really paying much attention to the impact of what I did on the body. I trusted that the body was taking care of itself, naturally, and that it did not need my conscious attention for it to do so. As a result, I was generally healthy, but have been overweight by 10 to 50 pounds for years. The past five years have been particularly stressing ... bringing me from a weight of 185 to nearly 240. Perhaps this accounts for why I am so tired lately as well. An extra 50-60 pounds is a lot to carry around all the time. I'm starting to eat better and exercise as a means of addressing this directly.

What else is there in my reality that I have been ignoring and need to address? There is not much FUN in my life anymore ... not that there ever was. But, it strikes me that life should be FUN! Oh, I enjoy things about my life. I enjoy this expression of consciousness that I am so engrossed with. But, this is not enough. There must be more to life. There must be a way to express this moreness in joy. I also enjoy watching movies. They are one of the primary ways I gather information on what the mass consciousness is expressing. Movies indeed are vehicles for the expression of this consciousness. They literally impact millions in ways that most have not yet begun to expect. It matters not that the movie is fiction. When it is experienced, it is REAL! It is only our conscious filters about "reality" that prevent the same experiences from being real.

I'm watching the movie "Inherit the Wind" at the moment. It is truly a wonderful movie. I've seen it before ... but it is new as I watch it now. Yes, I'm watching it as I compose this now. Movies have the power to move us deeply ... and large numbers of us. In the mail, I got an Enlightenment magazine from the group founded by Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. I hadn't received anything from them before so I was surprised that they had my address. Also, it is interesting that many centers and literally thousands of people are involved in the work the Maharishi has started. In practical terms, he has done what I have only envisioned to be done. I was initially exposed to Transcendental Meditation in 1974 via a book by the Maharishi on the Science of Being. You might say that this was the opening of my interest in consciousness. The seeds were planted early, in my mid-teens. The magazine is a means for seeing the fruit of seeds planted long ago. Maharishi has been teaching Transcendental Meditation for 40 years ... since the time I was born. Interesting. So, what am I to realize from all this. ONE, much that I have envisioned is already in place. People have been awakening and organizing for many years. My destiny does not appear to be intertwined with these. I have other work to do. Part of it deals with how the Hermit energy can express transcendentally. I desire no following nor do I follow any person or any defined path. What I AM, I AM. This is enough. I am the awareness of whom that I AM expressing in flesh in this manner.

So, am I always to be alone in my expression? ... or will I be allowed to experience the Unity of many combined together in a common endeavor? Who knows. What will be will be and I am happy with that. Or am I? What is my will in this matter? There is a sense that my will is THY WILL now. Yet there is also a need to be wary of exercising it too strongly. The meek shall inherit the earth. They just passed a point in the movie where the Rev Matthew Brady is broken down on the witness stand. Here is a case where a man let ego truly get in the way ... there was a major character flaw that was exposed. And in exposing it, credibility was lost. The lesson to me is to take it easy, moving one step at a time and seeing where that leads, then taking the next ... and the next.

I feel on the verge of another breakthrough. I don't know where or how, but the feeling is strong. My mind is clear, ready to receive whatever would come forth. I am open to change on a major scale. Hmm ... perhaps such is what allows change to come. "Who else would defend my right to be lonely" ... was just uttered by Gene Kelly to Spencer Tracy. Is this my fate as well ... always to be alone with consciousness as my only guide? Hmm ... that doesn't seem right, but in many ways is true now.