Another birthday come and gone.  The years go by so fast these days.  Then again, at times, it seems like there is all the time in the world.  Oh well, we do what we have to do.  We trust that spirit knows where she is moving us in our life and we choose to go where she leads, even if that is to the edge of  the cliff and beyond.  There is something about the unknown that attracts me.  Especially the unknown related to consciousness herself.  It is her that I would serve and none other.  Straight to the source, that is what matters.  We have often said that it is our connection to source that is expressed here on these pages.  We mean that literally.  Further, there is only one SOURCE from which each of our sources spring.  Interesting, our is embedded in source.  There must be a reason for noticing that at this time.  The sense is that source cannot truly express in the singular.  Yet, we are ONE.  So source is ultimately singular ... the one composed of the many, however.  Where does this take us?  Ultimately there is only ONE expression, though within that expression, there are many points of awareness.  The points of awareness are what allow the one to experience itself ... to experience whom that it is.  The vast majority are stuck in fairly low levels of awareness.  The masters play a completely different game ... if they choose to play at all.  Hmm ... what does not choosing to play entail?  What then?  What does it take to become a master?  The first question is a master of what?  The first answer is of reality creation, one of the most exciting games around.  A line from a song comes to mind "my friend the communist, holds meetings in his office" ... "not getting what you want, but wanting what you have".  The later phrase reveals an economic secret to happiness.  If we can find a way to enjoy what we have, we have come a very long way in this world.  Enjoying what we have is primarily about attitude.  When it comes down to it, attitude is everything ... far more than we have ever been led to believe.

And, what is an attitude other than a point of view about something?  We choose our attitudes.  We also choose our feelings and emotions.  OK, not always consciously, but at some level that ultimately serves us.  You ask, but what about all of the bad things that happen?  How do these serve us?  My life has been untouched by such things, so I really don't know. Serve us sounds a lot like service, something that we are all here to provide to some degree.  This is our spiritual job.  It is for us to get with the program and figure out the unique service(s) that allow us to most fully apply our skills, talents, and abilities.

SOURCE has many words embedded in it:  ROSE, EROS, SORE, SOUR, COURSE, CURES, CURE, CORES, CORE, USE, USER, RUSE, SURE, OUR, OURS, OR, US.  Only a few of these are in letter order of the word source.  EROS and US are the only two words embedded in reverse letter order.  Eros is a form of love.  The two together form the phrase love us or love US = love the United States.  Every man a brother, every woman a sister ... that is part of what the Aquarian Age is about.

There is still a strong sense that I am not yet doing what I am destined to do.  Maybe it's a matter of time.  It must be, or my reality would already have evolved into something other than it is.  No, that does not mean that I am not responsible for what I experience.  I strongly believe that I am fully responsible.  In fact, I know that I am.  However, I also know that there are other than conscious forces at work in each of our lives.  These forces operate in a manner that ultimately serves us and those with whom we interact.  Spiritual law is at work here.  The other than conscious forces may be aligned or at odds with where we choose to be consciously.  This in turn impacts the quality and nature of our experience.  When we are aligned, everything seems to flow naturally.  When we are at odds, it seems that we have to struggle every step of the way.  This is more than a matter of perception.

Something has to give.  Struggling to stay awake is no way to live.  Interesting.  But is that not what we constantly do spiritually as well?  If it is OK spiritually, than why not emotionally, mentally, or physically?  What is the difference?  Staying awake is staying awake, is it not?  The dimensions have no hierarchy.  It is not a matter of physical to emotional to mental to spiritual.  That is but one path of many paths.  Why did I not see this before?  We have said before that the spiritual path is by definition a personal one.  What we neglected to say was that all paths are spiritual.  There can be no other type of path.  Everything is spirit enfleshed, spirit embodied in form and expressing through that form.  But what of the formless?  We can conceptualize and name it ... does it not exist?  Even so, it would still have to express to have impact in the world.  What do I need to do to fully awaken on all levels?  The sense is that I am ready to do this now.  Further, that I must do this in order to proceed on the path that lies before me.  It is not a matter of if, nor is it a matter of when anymore.  This is something that I must do and do now.

I've been at the same job for 9 years and 5 months as of yesterday.  I've been commuting to LA weekly for that entire time, mainly from a home that is 123 miles away ... too far to commute daily.  How long will I continue to have to do this?  It makes for a strange life.