2/2 = The Master Builder = My Heart's Desire.  Wow!  This is also the 33 = The Master Teacher day of the year.  That makes this day quite special.  I expected last night to be as well.  But, though I could not sleep ... neither did I have any dream experiences that I remember.  I watched the movie The Matrix before I went to bed.  I caught many details that I didn't remember from the several times that I have watched the movie before.  Though, at the moment, other than the number on the door being 303 at one point in the film, I don't remember any specifics.  My mind simply doesn't work like that.  303 is The Master Teacher guided by 0:Source in the center.  Wow!  The 303 day of the year is October 30 = the day before Halloween = the day before All Souls Night = the day before I got married.  Day 304 would be Halloween.  This is 34 = 22(16) with 0:Source in the middle.  This ties to my present zip code in Cathedral City as well - 92234 = 9:The Hermit  22:The Master Builder  22(16): The Master Builder in The Tower base.

20  8  5        13  1  2  9  9  6   =  33    40  =  The Master Teacher:  The Emperor guided by Source.   Something about Genghiz Khan comes to mind.  There was an article that I saw yesterday claiming that he had 1.5 million descendents genetically.

33(16) +  40(16) =  51 + 64 = 115 = 78 + 37, the C-G  element in DNA exalted.

The car that I drive happens to be a Matrix as well.  In particular, a 2003 Toyota Matrix XR.  Somehow there is a connection here but I am just not making it.  My average gas mileage is very close to 30 MPG.  30 is the 4 of Wands = Camelot.  TM = 2013.  XR = 2418, a variation of 2184 = 888(16).

       40 = 4 = humanity's movement through time.

"Just a fool to believe.  She's like the wind." plays on the radio as I write this.  What does that mean?  A fool to believe what?  Surely, we must believe if we are to achieve things in the world.  But, is that really true?  Are beliefs empowering or limiting.  Perhaps, they are a combination of the two.  Perhaps all beliefs are limiting to some degree.  Perhaps the only real freedom is the freedom FROM beliefs, not freedom OF beliefs.  But, what is left when we remove our beliefs?  The bottom line is what we know.  And, what do we truly know?  We know that we exist in each moment.  Though we have limited conscious awareness of the nearly one-third of moments when we are asleep.  Not that we are much more aware when we are awake.

What does it take to become aware?  After over 33 years of searching, I still don't know.  It just seems to happen when we are ready for it to happen.  The universe takes care of its own.  And, to a great degree, we take care of ourselves.  We are each powerful souls enfleshed to learn lessons about who we truly are and what we can do to serve.  Note that service is not servitude.  The later comes with a much different attitude.  We serve out of love, not out of necessity or captivity.  Otherwise, what we do is not service at all.

Now, I'm on my time again.  I'm doing a fair job of finding time to muse regularly.  In many ways, this is what keeps me sane.  Though others reading this might doubt that statement.  Sane does not necessarily mean grounded.  Lately, I've been flying and flying high.  I like that.  Soaring in consciousness is the most fun activity that I engage in.  You might think that this means that I lead a dull life.  And, in some respects you would be right.  But, in other respects you would be dead wrong.  I experience the world in my own way.  We all do to some degree, but for me it is to an extreme degree that is different than others.  I don't consider myself to be a part of any groups with the exception of the organizations at work.  I live my live in a solitary manner for the most part.  Interesting, it didn't strike me that my family was a group.  I wonder why that is.  Relationships seem to require a give and a take, a fluidity that I have not learned to effectively manage with people.  Though, that seems to be changing with my new responsibilities as a manager at work.  That is good.  Actually, I have learned that everything in my life is good overall.  At the very least, it serves where I am at in the present, motivating me to greater and greater heights and forcing me to learn the lessons that are mine to learn.

Where do we go from here?  There is no where to go.  There is no place that we must be.  There is nothing that we must do save that which we are moved to do by consciousness herself.  I'm tired today.  I didn't sleep well last night, not well at all.  Yet, I find it difficult to stop expressing anyway.  There is something special about this.  There is something magical. 

Went exploring again.  Learned some things about 88, infinity above : infinity below.

88 is the number of keys on a piano - harmonics - tones of creation

Mercury orbits the Sun every 88 days.

I've often used base 88 in my calculations.  My birthyear happens to be 1958 = 22:22(88).  Somehow this seemed to be a more special number than 78 = Tarot Completion.  Mercury has a prominent place in my chart.  It is very close to the midheaven making it very powerful.  Communication, especially via writing is extremely important to me.  Now we tie this to music as well ... to the ebony and ivory keys of a piano.

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