The final day of January 2006.  I can already tell that the year is going to fly by.  I just know it.  Heard back from Marie, the Soul Self portrait painter.  Her site is at SoulSelf Portraits. Do visit it for some samples of her work if this interests you.  It seems that the energies that came through for my portrait were indeed unique.  She has done approximately 200 portraits since she began doing these in the Spring of 2000.  So, this is still a relatively new and rare thing.  I spent over an hour trying to find other soul portrait painters last week but didn't find anything close to interesting to me.  It is curious that I should encounter Marie at this particular time.  It does indeed suggest that changes are in order once again ... and major changes at that.  That is OK.  Change is generally good.  Even large changes are typically beneficial in my life.  Then again, most of my large changes relate to being able to fly higher and further in consciousness.  This is not your typical way of being.  But, this is what excites me.  This is what drives me to excel in those things that matter the most to me.

I'm getting accustomed to the new job.  The guys have settled in to having me as their boss, and I have a much richer relationship to my boss and the other managers at work.  Overall the promotion was a very good thing.  I don't have to fight to stay  awake or to stay focused anymore.  There is just so much to do.  In fact, it seems that there is far more than I could ever get done.  The good things from that are that I am learning how to delegate and I am being more careful about the tasks that I take on personally.  All of that is good.  I am very grateful.  Now, if I could only experience the equivalent of a promotion in the metaphysical domain.  There is a sense that this work is meant to have an audience.  One way to do that is to start looking to other sites to which I might want to link.  That means taking some time to search.  But, not taking the time to do so does not seem to be bringing me in the direction that I want to go.  Not that I know exactly what that direction is.  However, I know that something is still lacking in my life.  In particular, meaningful relationships.  This has been a missing area throughout my life.  Perhaps it must be this way for some reason that I am not yet seeing.  It definitely makes for a solitary existence.  So solitary, in fact, that I still consider myself to be a hermit.  How can that be?  I live in the world.  I have been married for over 17 years.  I have two housemates during the work week.  Yet, I still spend the vast majority of my free time alone ... much of it in a 12 x 12 room.  Such is my life?  If I truly desired to change it, it would be different.  I know that we create our own reality.  This is the reality that I have chosen at some level.  Clearly, the choice is made at other than conscious levels, though the conscious plays a major role in this as well.  How can I know all of this enough to express so matter of factly?  I don't know how I know.  I simply know that I do know ... or that whatever is coming forth through me now knows.  Source is not limited by my limitations.  She knows more and is able to express that moreness through me.  Why this is possible, I know not.  I only know that I have been doing this for nearly 13 years and expect to be doing it for the rest of my life.

Speaking of life, I am not getting any younger.  This is my 47 year.  In 67 days, I turn 48:The Man in Search of More.  One year later is my first Easter birthday.  I expect something MAJOR to happen by then.  The word, earth-shattering, comes to mind.  What that might be, I know not.  That is OK.  The unknown is as a playground for my consciousness.  So, how do I find out what is to come?  The simplest way is to allow it to unfold in my life as it will.  That is my modus operandi.  There is something about doing in each moment what needs to be done in that moment that attracts me as a way of living.  However, that doesn't leave much room for planning for contingencies.  There always seemed to be something wrong about preparing for the worst for me.  It seems to waste a lot of resources.  My philosophy has been to accept the universe as a benign place and trust that we would have what we needed when we needed it.  Perhaps such is a naive faith.  Then again, does not all faith have a degree of naivety to it?

Hmm ... my 47 year is actually my 48th year of life.  My 48th birthday marks the conclusion of the 48th year, not its start.  So this year 4/8/2005 through 4/8/2006 corresponds to The Man in Search of More.  This morning, I encountered 48 48.  I don't even remember the context anymore ... even from 12 hours ago.  49 x 49 = 2401.  So 48 x 48 = 2304 = W0D.  Two words come to mind wood and dow.  04 to 32 has a span of 28, centered at 18:The Moon.  54224 = 234-235.  94224 = 236-237.  Interesting, two ticks of the clock, two steps apart.

234 = 2:78(78) = 3:00(78)  My zip code in Cathedral City is 92234.
235 = 3:01(78)
236 = 3:02(78)
237 = 3:03(78)

33 is the Master Teacher number!  Had never thought of expressing it in base 78 before.  995  words, but whose counting.