Got another progress report on my soul portrait.  It is in the mail.  Also, the descriptive information that came through was different than for any other portrait that Marie has done.  Not that this surprises me, in fact, I suspected that such might be the case.  I'm anxious to see the twin soul portrait and read the accompanying information.  At this point, I probably won't be able to do that until Friday evening.  Something to look forward to anyway.  It feels good to be excited about metaphysical things once again.  Overall, things come in spurts for me ... periods of intense activity and then significant down times.  No, not down in terms of being depressed.  Rather down in terms of not being elevated in spirit.  Will the twin soul portrait provide a new mirror that allows me to see a new facet of my Self?  My sense is yes ... yes, indeed.  It will do so because that is precisely what it is designed to do.  Further, it is appropriate that it is a twin soul portrait.  I have always experienced spirit as feminine and as that which completes me.  In this existence, my wife plays that role in some areas of my life, but source, spirit herself plays that role in other areas, such as here in this expression.

Marie    Cecile     Gargano
41995  353935   7197156

The first thing that pops out is the 1995.  This should have been a significant year in some way.

28        28           36  =  92 = 78 + 14:Temperance Exalted.

Though, the two 28's: The Man with the World in His Hand = God comes out as very special as well.

PMEI breakout is:  14  30  031  24  = 5 3 4 6, highly intuitive in a way that serves humanity!

The letter breakout is interesting as well 56  7.  This is a tie to the drivers of my triangle tarot readings.

IN ALL CAPS:  46 + 37 + 63 = 146 = 78 + 68:The Page of Pentacles Exalted.  68 is also WAYNE.

Everything that I am seeing points to major changes being in store in the immediate times ahead.  Today, leaving the dental office parking lot, I saw a large lone black crow.  It was so large that I did a double take and looked at it twice.  As I saw it, CHANGE flashed across my mind.  Crows signify change in the Medicine Cards.  It is possible to life a far more intuitive life.  You might say that my life is already far more intuitive than most.  After all, you don't see too many people expressing in this manner.  33 days short of 13 years and counting.  In many ways, my present life began at that time.  That was when the expression that is Beyond Imagination began coming forth.  It has been a highly productive 13 years overall ... with some years far more productive than others.  But, out of all of that, I have yet to develop any close personal contacts.  Perhaps I never will.  Though, I am open to changes in this aspect of my life.  My sense is that there is only so much that I can do alone, that to do more requires synergistic relationships with others.  There is a sense that I can indeed develop these.  Part of it is a matter of the will to do so.  Part of it is a matter of learning appropriate social skills.  Such skills can indeed be learned.  But, am I open to learning them?  Hmm ... that means changing who I am to some degree.  Is that what I really want to do?

How do I find those whom I am meant to touch in this existence?  How do the Beyond Imagination works find their intended audience?  Yes, that assumes there is such an audience.  That assumes that these works are meant for more than my eyes only.  I have to believe that this is the case.  It just seems too impossible that the universe/spirit would go to such extremes to educate and enlighten me personally.  Though, 13 years seems to confirm that with rare exceptions here and there over the years.  Not one person to whom the books have been given have ever come back to discuss what was expressed.  Of the thousands who have visited the Beyond Imagination site, only a dozen or so have written back with significant feedback or asked questions.  Why?  I do not know.  Maybe the expression is ahead of its time.  Maybe the expression just doesn't make any sense to anyone but me.  Maybe ... maybe ... maybe.  But, what do we really know?  We know only that we are moved to express in this manner, and that somehow what is expressed is accurately captured.

Less than three weeks until the big move at work.  I'm not looking forward to losing my window office and to the challenge of finding a parking space.  I'm not really a morning person, so getting up two hours earlier is not much of an option.  Wait and see ... it can't be that bad.  The worst case scenario through April is about a half mile walk.  I can deal with that.  However, after that who knows what is in store.  We'll play it as it comes.  Worrying about things doesn't change the reality and doesn't empower us to deal with them.  Further, in my experience, things have never turned out as bad as I may have imagined that they would.  That seems to be a rule of life.  Then again, some peoples glasses are far more rosy than mine are.  I tend to be optimistic but not overly so, in general.  Though some might question this and judge me to be on the pessimistic side.  However, one can't dream of utopias and truly believe that they will manifest without having some degree of optimism.

What will the end of the 13th year on 3/5/2006 bring?  35 + 26 = 61:Achievement.  It's tarot completion is 17:The Star.  Hmm ... 2005 brought us 60.  2007 bring us to 62 by the same calculation.  The 88 completion for 60 is 28: The Man with the World in His Hand once again.  I keep looking at 60.  It begs to be rotated 180 degrees to become 09: Source tied to The Hermit.  That above all else is what gets expressed here.  Hmm ... 2006 = 1003 + 1003 = Death tied twice to source, two times.  So, how will that manifest this year.  Already, we have passed the 1/13 point in the year.  It is amazing how fast the month has flown by.  And, there is no sign that things will slow down anytime soon.  What am I supposed to realize from all of this?  Will I ever know?  Is it not enough to continue to do as I am moved to do ... to continue on the path that I know that I am meant to follow.  Whether others join me on the path or meet me along the way has no import over what it is that I am to do.