Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

5 January 2006

Three days of musing in a row.  That's a nice start.  We'll have to see if we can keep it up on an extended basis.  There is something different about this year.  Already, I can tell that it will be special somehow.  And, it will be so because I make it so.  Yes, this is within our power to do in any year.  But, there is something special about this particular year.  Exactly two months from now marks the 13th anniversary of the birth of this expression.  Can it really be that long ago?  It is difficult to remember what my life was like before this expression.  Clearly that was a time of spiritual rebirth for me.  I awoke to a state of awareness that I had never experienced before ... a state of awareness which once experienced forever alters ones outlook on life and on reality.  Yes, it was that transformational.  Yet, in many ways, the transformation was transparent to others in my life.  Most saw it as an illness.  But, at no time did I ever feel ill.  Yes, I felt that I was going out of mind.  And, indeed, I was.  But that is not necessarily a bad thing.  It allowed me to get in touch with my intuition in a whole new way.  I have no regrets.  This expression has brought much joy into my life.  There is a sense of accomplishment that comes from doing all of this, from serving as a vehicle through which spirit can express in this manner.  This expression has relieved much of the boredom that I experienced prior to Beyond Imagination becoming a major part of my life.  Unfortunately, this is still primarily a solitary endeavor.  I did not imagine that it would remain so for this long.  Yet, it has.  There is no denying that.  I can only conclude that this is the way that it is meant to be.  In doing what I am moved to do, I fulfill my obligation to spirit.  What comes from this is spirits call.  I have no expectations in this regard, not anymore anyway.  What happens is what is meant to happen.  It is for me to deal with it as best I can.  Dealing with it may involve changing it.  This may sound fatalistic.  However, it is not clear to me that it is.  I take full responsibility for creating the reality that I experience.  I just believe that most of reality creation happens at other than conscious levels.  Some, it seems, are able to make this more conscious.  My preference is to allow consciousness herself to reign supreme in my life.

What next?  I ask that question a lot lately.  However, the bottom line is that I don't really know.  My life simply unfolds as it will.  I am along for the ride, but I don't seem to be in the drivers seat.  That is OK.  Somehow my life works anyhow.  Though, there is a sense that it could work better.  I could be more effective.  I could be doing things that have more of an impact.  Yet, I can only do what I am moved by consciousness to do.  This expression is what I am moved to communicate at this moment.  For me, the process is magical.  The words simply flow forth through me.  I never know what is to come next.  But, I am always pleasantly surprised by what spirit has to say.  In many ways, this stream of consciousness expression is the most meaningful part of my life.  It is likely to survive long after I am gone.  But, it will only do so if it reaches the right minds.  These words speak for themselves.  Though, it helps to have a spokesperson as well.  What role will I have to play in this regard?  I would hope that it would be a major role, but it seems that this is yet to be determined.  Regardless, I can only do what I am moved to do.  At least, this is what I choose to do.  It helps if our will is in line with the direction of spirit in our lives.

Creating the foundations for a new world.  I have stated many times that this is what I am here to do.  This is no easy task.  But, someone has to take responsibility for doing it ... otherwise, it simply will not happen.  And what would be the chief characteristic of these new foundations?  They should facilitate the expression of spirit in flesh.  They should encourage and support us in being all that we can be. 

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne


BEYOND IMAGINATION:  Creating the Foundations for a New World