Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

3 January 2006

The first musing of the new year.  It will be interesting to see what the year brings.  Last year was a "Y" = 25 year with 0:Source doubled in the middle.  I don't know that I am any clearer to having an answer to the question WHY as a result of having experienced that year.  2006 is a "Z" year with 0:Source doubled in the center.  It is the final letter of the alphabet.  I have reason to expect that the next few years will be interesting ones.  Actually, it may be more intuition than reason.  However, there is something special about these years with multiple ties to Source.  It is as if spirit is more fully able to express somehow.  Indeed, the very year is coded as a time for unveiling in particular ways.

2006 = 2 x 1003 = 2:The High Priestess x 17:The Star x 59:Five of Swords

This is also 17 x 118 = 17:The Star  x  (88+30:Camelot Exalted).  Hmm ... can we really reach there from here?  That is a lot to ask for, a lot to hope for.  Yet, what good are our hopes and dreams if they don't stretch beyond our grasp?  How else do we go about building the foundations for a new and better world?  It all starts with what we can imagine.  Our imagination is a wonderful tool ... literally, a god-given gift.  In many ways, it is what separates us from other creatures.  Yet, this is a two edged sword.  We can imagine such great goods but we can also imagine nearly unspeakable horrors.  We've seen both extremes manifest in the course of history, sometimes simultaneously.  Why is that?  Why are we not able to take ownership for what we create both individually and collectively?  We are responsible for it all, everything, no exceptions.  Why are the masses not taught this simple truth?  Primarily, because it is not in the best interests of the few who control everything in the world.  One might wish to believe that we live in a democracy in this country, or at least a republic.  But, this is a far cry from Plato's Republic.  The bottom line is that there are a privileged few who wield most of the power not only in this country but in the world.  I would guess that this minority numbers in the low thousands at most.  That is a small fraction of the 6 Billion people on the planet.  Literally, it is the 1 in a million club ... maybe even the 1 in ten million club.  How can we allow this to be?  Collectively, is this really for our own good and the good of all concerned?  My sense is no, it is not.  But, then, how do we fix it?  How do we get people to understand that they are not really free, but rather are trapped within an economic system that does not really have their best interests at heart?  Further, they are not free to access information that might awaken them to a more full understanding of their present state.  Paul Twitchell's biography was titled In My Soul, I Am Free.  Perhaps that is the only place where we are truly free.  Though, there is no reason why we can't establish the equivalent of a heaven on earth, where our souls can freely express in flesh to the greatest degree possible.  Is this not something deserving of our desire and our effort?

What would I do if I were free to do anything that I wanted to do?  I would do as spirit moves me to do.  Actually, there is nothing that prevents me from doing that now except the necessity of earning a living sufficient to pay the bills to live in a style that my wife and I have become accustomed to.  But, is that enough?  It seems that my expenditures grow to match whatever income that I bring in.  I suspect that this is true for many in this country anyway.  We are a consumer nation.  We sell ourselves to buy the things that we need and that we want.  Many would call us driven.  Many might also call us fools.  For in the end, what does all of this matter.  The things that we possessed will not accompany us in death.  However, what we have learned about ourselves from our experiences will make a big difference, ultimately determining if, when, and how we return.  How can I know that?  Does it matter?  Is it not sufficient that this expression comes forth at all.  I don't know from where it comes, other than this place within that I call source.  For me, that is enough.  It is what it is.  If you must judge it, then do so based solely on the criteria of utility.  I am not an expert in these matters.  However, I am a channel for a communication that is greater than anything that I could express consciously.  How does this make me similar or different than others?  That doesn't really matter either.  I would be whom that I am.  I would express as fully as I can in whatever manner I am moved to express.  Why this manner?  Because that is the appropriate manner for me.  Because that is what I am moved to do.  And, I choose to do as I am moved to do.  But, moved by what?  For me, it is spirit herself that does the moving.  How can I know that?  Simply because consciously I have no other explanation for how all of this happens.  It just happens.  I allow myself to participate in the flow of the expression.  Why?  Because I have nothing better to do with my time and energy, that is why.  This expression is by far the highlight of my life.  It is where spirit expresses through me.  It is how I get in touch with deeper parts of myself and consciousness than I could otherwise.  If one thing remains behind as proof that I existed and made a difference in the world, it will be these very words and whatever impacts they have.  I've known this since the expression began in 1993.  Though, I have yet to encounter others that see things in the same light.  That is OK.  Those who I am meant to cross paths with will somehow find me or I will find them.  That is how reality creation works.  Until then, the best that I can do is to do what I am moved by spirit to do.

Will this be a year of massive expression or of minimal expression?  Only time will tell.  It all depends on what I am moved to do and when.  Today is a good start.  At this point, my batteries are charged again.  How long until or even if they drain I never really know in advance.  2002 and 2003 were years of maximal express.  2004 and 2005 were much slower by comparison, though not nearly as slow as 1999 - 2001.  The bottom line is that the quantity of expression varies greatly over time.  There is no sense that I am finished however.  If anything, the sense is that this is a time of new beginnings.  That is appropriate for a new year.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne


BEYOND IMAGINATION:  Creating the Foundations for a New World