Long time no write. It has been a
month and a week since the last musing. It is about time.
So much has changed over the past month. Besides taking a long
deserved vacation for a week, I was promoted to management. So
far, that has meant doing more work, being more tired after work, and
having less free time. However, there are signs that this may be
changing. And, thus far, the work is more challenging than it
used to be. That is enough to keep me hopping and awake
anyway. The new responsibilities force me to interact far more
with people than I have had to before. That is OK. I can do
that. In fact, I'm excited about many of the changes.
Where am I going? What do I want to do next? I seem to just
be allowing my life to unfold rather than being in control of my
destiny. There is no real way that I want it to go. It
seems that spirit knows more of what I need than I do, and she will
move me to exactly where I need to be when I need to be there.
But, is that really true? Is it not my responsibility to take
control of my own life and create the reality that I would
prefer? Yet, this is not a solitary endeavor. There are
others in my life. They have a voice and needs as well ... in
particular, needs that pertain to me. It is high time that I
shared more of whom that I am, and not just here on these pages, but in
person. That too could be a challenge. But, it is one that
I am open to accepting.
This is a bit of a struggle after being away for so long.
Sometimes it is like that. Sometimes the expression flows far
more easily than at other times. I accept that. This is not
to be forced. It is simply to be captured as it comes.
There is something about the freedom of this expression that makes it
special. Its intuitive nature is special as well. So is its
surprise. I am even surprised by what is able to come
forth. Though, it seems that there may never be much of an
audience for it. However, is there some part of it that would be
suitable for a book? ... in particular, a popular book? The
bottom line is I don't know. It will happen if it happens.
I am still content to simply allow my life to unfold as it will and to
make the best of it, looking at what happens as the feedback that I
need to see from the world to truly know whom that I am. Live the
life you love or love the life that you live. Either way, the
result is the same.
I still have a sense that I am wasting my life to some degree. I
am not being all that I can be. I am not doing all that I could
do. Yet, at the same time, I do a lot. I don't ask for
much. I am willing to accept things as they come. Why is
that? Why am I not more active in setting my destiny? Part
of the reason is that I trust the other than conscious portions of my
being more than the conscious portions. I was reading part of The
Nature of Personal Reality by Seth last night. It is amazing that
Chapter 2 was written just over 33 years ago. I was introduced to
it a few years after that ... close to 30 years ago. Yet, what
difference has it made? How am I better as a result? How is
the impact that I have on the world impacted by this?
Lately, the importance of making a difference with my life has waned
somewhat. Yes, there is a role that I came to play, and I will
play that role. Though, I may never consciously fully know what
that is. Hmm ... it seems that there will always be an element of
the unknown in my life. Further, it will be an important element
... perhaps the most important. Does it matter where I am
going? Is it not enough to be moved to go where I am moved to go,
when I am moved to go there? I can only be what I AM. But,
that is far more than I yet know myself to be. That is true for
each of us. What does it mean to be aware? How do we become
more aware? It seems this is something that we must work at,
something that we must focus on and pay attention to.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne
BEYOND
IMAGINATION: Creating the Foundations for a New World