Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

17 August 2005

A blank template once again.  Or, nearly blank anyway.  From the date to the closing "I AM THAT ...", is the open space where this expression is allowed to come forth.  Here is where what was not written becomes manifest in written form.  Here is where the spark of creativity is fanned into a flame.  How is it that this is possible?  It does not really matter.  That it happens is more than enough.  We do not need explanations for everything that happens.  Magic and mystery have a part to play in life.  Though, it does not hurt to come up with explanations where we can find them.  Though, we need to be careful that the explanations are truly explanations and not limitations based on partial knowledge of what is going on.  Our models are useful.  But, we must remember that they are only models.  As such they only account for part of the behavior that we see and the experiences that we have.  When we need more, either we increase the fidelity, or we build a new model.

Everything that we know about the world comes through our perception of it.  Though here, perception is not limited to the five senses or even to a sixth sense.  Here, the mind itself is an instrument of perception.  This includes all thought conveyed through all of the symbol systems of the world.  Where does what I am end and what another is begin?  Is it at the physical boundary.  Does it include shared experiences, shared feelings, and shared thoughts?  What part of us is individual versus what part springs from a more holistic whole?  Vibration and tone, arranged in endless variations.  This is truly the music of the spheres.  Classical music reminds of us of that in a way that nothing else does.  Though, music can also contain lyrics ... sometimes of profound meaning.  And these touch literally millions, sometimes multiple times per day.  There are several popular songs out dealing with views through different eyes.  In my fathers eyes, in my mothers eyes, in my daughters eyes, in the eyes of a stranger ...  It is curious that how each sees the world is completely different.  Further, each of these viewpoints of us is a reflection that provides feedback.

The very world that we experience is the "living feedback" we experience in our lives.  That term "living feedback" comes from Seth in the first chapter of The Nature of Personal Reality.  Quite an excellent book it is.  Well worth reading.  It is truly a classic in the occult or metaphysical genre. 

How does this expression differ from what came forth in the early days in the mid-90's?  We are well into our 13th year of doing this.  The process remains much the same.  We sit at the computer, open Composer, and write whatever would come forth into our mind and through our fingers.  We know if it is right in the moment that it comes forth.  Errors are corrected in realtime.  There is virtually no editing.  The sense is that not one word is to be erased, that there is an intelligence that is ordering the material even if it is happening on other than conscious levels.  I can't say whether other writers write in this fashion.  I only know what works for me.  And thus far, stream of consciousness is definitely it.  Yet, how do I get what I love to do to support me?  How do I live the life that I am truly meant to live?  I ask this not only for myself but for others as well, others who feel stuck or trapped in work situations that are not optimum.  At some level, my world provides the very feedback that I need in the moment, based on what it is I am choosing or not choosing to create in my life.  This occurs both at the collective and the individual level.  If I want to experience something different, I need to choose differently.  I need to act differently.  I need to be differently.  All of those things are up to me.  I cannot change another.  They cannot change me.  We can only change ourselves.  And, when we change, it is up to others to reflect what they will and for us to accept that feedback and choose what is most appropriate next.  We may not even know what is appropriate ... only that further change is desired or warranted.  Then we continue to work on changing ourselves and seeing what results until we get something that we like.  Can it be that simple?  Who says it is simple.  It can be if we are open to change.  But, many people are not open.  The very times that you live in are forcing you to deal with change.  Many still fight it but others embrace it.  Personally, you are accepting of some things, but quite resistant to other things.  Communications is a strong case in point.  You simply shy away from verbal communications, much preferring the written forms.  Be careful, my friend, there is room in your life for both.  Choosing to operate with less than your full abilities is downright foolish.  You have gifts and talents in many areas ... many of which you do not yet know.  Be open to allowing these to come forth.  Give yourself the space and the permission that you need to be whom that you are.  Quit judging yourself so harshly.  You are more than deserving of all the pleasures, abundance, and happiness that this world has in store for those who would be kings.  But, remember, your kingdom is not of this world.  It is a spiritual one, from which all that you experience here springs.  Go ever unto the source.  Let that be your guide.  You are indeed the Man in Search of More.  And, ye shall find what ye seek soon enough.  Maybe not as soon as you might like ... but as soon as the world at large is ready to receive what you would find.

Interesting.  There is a sense that we are on a role now.  The pace is good.  I'm feeling alive and more awake than I've felt in some time.  That is wonderful.  Life is good.  It could always be better, but good is good enough for now anyway.  The one area still lacking is that of relationships.  Not surprising for one who experiences life as a hermit.  My primary relationships are with myself and with spirit.  Even then, I don't have a very good relationship with my body.  It is what it is.  I carry about 50 pounds more than I should for my height.  That's about 20 percent of my body weight.  That is a lot of extra baggage to be carrying.  It is high time that I lighten the load.  I know that takes exercise and eating better at the very least.  But, it also takes dealing with the emotions that caused me to create this particular image to begin with.  I'm not used to dealing with emotions.  Typically, these come out in relationships.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne


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