Another busy day. It seems like
they are all that way now. You would think that I would be
winding down in my present job with only 8 weeks to go. Yet, the
opposite is happening. More and more is being thrown on my
plate. There is only so much that I can do. I'm excited
about the possibilities that lie ahead in the new job. Though,
there is a sense of uncertainty as well ... I don't specifically know
what I'm getting myself into. However, I do know what it is that
I am leaving behind. And, it is time for a change, and a major
change at that. I don't know whether the tiredness will remedy
itself by a change in job alone. It seems that I am being
challenged to change my state of health as well. I'm far more
stiff and inflexible than I was when I was younger. That is not a
good sign. Yet, being young is truly a state of mind as well as
of body. Besides, if I don't take care of myself, who will?
I create my own reality in this area. We all do. It is all
a matter of choosing what I desire to make so, and then doing what it
takes to make it so. The doing can be tricky however. It is
often easier said than done.
Does the state of the body reflect the state of the mind? Is my
consciousness also stiff and inflexible? I would hope not, but is
that hope valid? Yes, I soar in consciousness, but only in ways
that are somewhat controlled. I consume no alcohol, nor any drugs
other than my bipolar medications. I still don't know what causes
my consciousness to soar. The doctor says that it is due to brain
chemistry being out of whack. Perhaps this is true. Perhaps
not. What I do know is that the two times that I've tried to
eliminate and reduce the medications landed me in the mental
hospital. My soaring can indeed get out of control to the point
where my sense of reality is impaired. Then again, it seems that
my reality is impaired for the most part anyway. I do not live a
normal life by any means. Not that I care to be normal.
I've always prided myself on being different, eccentric, and more
capable than others. In some ways, that equates to better.
However, what matters is not who we are compared to others, but who we
are compared to what we could be. By that standard, I know that I
am gifted. I've seen many of the gifts in operation in my
life. I also know that I am not fully utilizing these
gifts. I am not being all that I could be. Why? What
is stopping me? Inertia for one. There is a tendency to
want to keep doing the same things in the same way. We are truly
creatures of habit. Then there is fear. What if I am not
good enough to succeed? Fear is extremely powerful and
immobilizing. However, it is only powerful if we give it power.
What would I do next? I am here to express what spirit would
express through me. And, I am here to find out who I am in the
process. We learn who we truly are through what we do.
Hopefully, whatever that is will make a difference in the world, a big
difference. In the end, what matters is what we have given of
ourselves to the world. Yet, what does a hermit give to the
world? His attention and focus, that's what. And, that by
definition is enough. We give what we can give and in return we
take what we need. That is how I want my world to work.
That is the basis for community. But, how do we create such a
community intentionally? Where do we go to find like-minded
others / kindred spirits to join in such an adventure? I thought
that bringing these ideas forth and posting them at Beyond Imagination
would do that. But the Beyond Imagination book has been there
since 1995 and not yielded a single comment from its over 2000
visitors. That is OK. Feedback is feedback. Even the
lack of feedback is a type of feedback on its own. Yet, despite
this, I am moved to continue to express in the manner anyway. Why
should that be? What is it that drives me to do this?
For one thing, it seems to be something that I can do that most others
cannot do. That makes it special. And, I've already
indicated that I thrive on being special. However, that is not
the main driver. This is just something that I must do. It
comes from the very core of who I am, consciousness manifest in
flesh. But, what is consciousness? I use that word a
lot. But, do I really know what it means? Not by
definition, but by experience. Consciousness is as consciousness
does. Consciousness is what animates the forms ... it is what
gives them life and identity. I am one of the forms that
consciousness animates ... but then so is each and every one of
you. Each of us is special. Each of us is unique.
Each of us is experiencing life in a way that has never occurred before
and will never occur again.
No regrets. Live life in such a manner that each experience is
appreciated for what it is and such that no experience is denied that
would cause regret. We do this by doing what we are moved by
spirit to do with our lives. We will know what this is. The
moving will occur in a manner that cannot be escaped or denied.
When spirit moves us, we are truly moved. By comparison, when we
move ourselves our direction can be far less than clear.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne
BEYOND
IMAGINATION: Creating the Foundations for a New World