Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

22 July 2005

Time for another musing.  Next week I'll be out of pocket again with a business trip.  That does not seem fair when such trips cut into my personal time.  Oh well, sometimes that is just how it is.  There is always the weekend.  There is always the chance that I could be moved to be more productive with my time.  However, this is not the only way to be productive.  I'm moved to start reading the Seth books once again.  This time, it seems that I am more ready for what they have to offer than I have ever been.  Besides, when I am moved to do something, I do it.  That is just how I choose to live my life.  I first encountered the Seth material in 1974.  That's over 30 years ago.  Wow!  Can it really have been that long ago?

What does the passage of time indicate?  Each day, each minute I grow older, but for what purpose?  At what point will my time in the limelight come?  Or, has it already come and gone?  We had a good run of years starting in 1993.  Is that period in my life over?  Is a new period beginning?  Am I truly ready for a new beginning?  What is it that I would do?  How do I get someone to pay me for what it is that I love to do?  Why is this expression not sufficient to allow me to earn an income?  What is holding the abundance back?  What am I unwilling to face in my life?  What do I fear and why?  And, what do I love ... truly love?  Wow!  We're full of questions tonight.  What experiences do I want to bring into my life?  Am I willing to ask for what I want?  I have believed that consciousness would grant me whatever I needed without my even having to ask.  And indeed such has been so.  But is this enough.  I have a mind, an ego, and a consciousness of my own.  Can I not play a role in determining what I would manifest in my life.  Clearly, I already play this role at other than conscious levels, but what about consciously?

My life still lacks relationships and interactions with others?  What am I doing to change this?  The bottom line is not a whole lot.  Why am I so stubborn and unwilling to change my ways?  There is something about the comfort of habit that attracts me.  Yet, I would rather not be a creature of habit.  My mind needs to think in new ways to encounter new meanings in the experiences that are drawn into my life.  Sound body, sound mind, sound spirit.  I have only focused on the later of these three.  It seems time to start paying attention to the body though.  At this point, this can still be voluntarily ... but it is not clear how long that such will be the case.  Yes, it seems that a breakpoint or crisis point is coming up as far as the body is concerned.  Though, at this time it appears that any crisis can still be avoided.  We must take care of ourselves both individually and collectively.  If we don't, no one will.  It is that simple.  What we do to care for one another is an indicator of the health of our civilization.  Right now, we are sick collectively.  But, we can get better.  We must get better.  The very plans of spirit for its expression in flesh depend on this.  Are we any more than pawns in the chess game of life?  Indeed, we are.  We are the knights, bishops, rooks, queens, and kings as well.  Further, we are the observer of the games being played and all other games for that matter.  Life is indeed a game, and games are meant to be fun to play.  Winning and losing are irrelevant to those who would play for the sheer joy of playing.  There are no failures ... only learning opportunities on the road to success.  If we are persistent, we will indeed succeed.

From where does all of this come?  What allows this stream of consciousness to come forth as it does?  What can I say?  I just allow it to happen and it manifests in my life.  The process is mystical and magical, allowing me to touch deep parts of what I deem to be my Self.  My hope is that this expression would serve as a shining example of spirit expressing in flesh.  Whether it will actually do so for anyone other than me remains to be seen.  However, I can only do what I am moved to do.  And, right now, that includes sharing all that comes forth here.  Yes, that is a decision on my part, a decision that many might be moved to make otherwise.  Sharing is not always easy.  But, it is one thing that we can do that does not cost a lot, especially if what we are sharing is information ... or better yet, ourselves and our experiences.  Yet, what creates the opportunities to do this?  Obviously, that comes from within as well.  We meet with whom we are meant to meet when we are meant to meet.  Yes, that sounds fatalistic, and perhaps it is.  But, what determines all of this?  We are creating our own reality.  What we see in our experience is a reflection of ourselves.  If we like what we see, that is wonderful.  If not, then it is up to us to do something to change things.

The tiredness has overtaken me again.  It comes even in the midst of this expression.  It can be difficult to stay awake at times.  There is a message hidden in that.  Why is this something that I have to fight?  Why can I not simply nap when the urge comes to close my eyes?  What is the utility of the struggle?  Some things we simply train to do.  And, training is usually a type of struggle to learn something new.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne


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