That is as true now as it was then.  This expression is the work that I love to do.  How do I transform it into something that meets my needs for income?  There must be a way.  It seems that hoping is not enough.  Neither are allowing and expecting.  It seems that there is something more that I must do.  Though, at what point does the universe kick in to take care of the details of manifestation?  Good question.  We don't have to do it all.  We only have to do our parts.  We only have to play our roles to the best of our abilities.  Our success will be determined by how well we do this, and by how well we help others in the process.  Life is about changing lives for the better.  We can do this on an individual or a mass scale.  Though, it is not necessarily the quantity of change that we make that matters, but the quality and magnitude of that change.  Hmm ... as a hermit, how do I affect such change?  Relationships seem to be needed for this.  This is an area that I have avoided for most of my life.  Will it always be thus?  Is this a necessary condition to allow me to see and experience the world as I do?  Perhaps.  However, it seems to be a choice that I am making, a choice that I could choose to make in a different way at any moment.  But, will I choose differently?  Is the status quo so unacceptable as to drive me to a new choice.  I miss having friends.  Actually, I don't know what it would be like to have close friends ... other than what I have seen in how others interact.  Someone once told me:  to have a friend, you must be a friend.  There is no other way.  Am I ready to experience that?  I believe so.  It seems that all of the great beings that I consider kindred spirits have had their share of friends.  Though, many also loved their solitude.  It seems that great thoughts come from a place of deep silence.  They are the beauty of the inner revealing itself.  It has been thus since the dawn of thought and beyond.  Consciousness is ever revealing herself, creatively through all of us, but especially through the greatest artists of the ages.  Artists come in all flavors.  They are musicians, painters, sculptors, architects, actors ... but also athletes, scientists, mathematicians, engineers ... and virtually any discipline of expression available to man.  Remember, great work is that infused with love.  And, it is the love that transforms everything that it encounters for the better.

What next?  That question comes up often in this expression.  We can only take one step at a time in whatever direction we are moved to go next.  What does this moving?  Spirit herself of course.  We are ever on the path of our destiny.  We may not like it.  In fact, we may even hate it.  But, such is life for us, nonetheless.  We can always choose a different interpretation.  We can always choose to see the silver lining in any situation.  We see exactly what we want to see, nothing more and nothing less.  We see what we expect to see.  Though, we can be open to surprises that captivate our vision.  Light can hold many fascinations.  Life can hold many fascinations.  It is for us to look for and see the sparkles.

It is great to be expressing in this manner once again.  There is something about this process that is magical.  Here, consciousness is in rare form ... expressing what can come forth from the very depths of my being.  Or, does it come from my being?  From all that I can tell, it comes through me rather than from me.  This has been true from the beginning.  Then, is that any different from anything that I do?  Is not everything that I do done through me?  I don't consciously know how any of it works.  I just know that I am able to do what I do.  In many cases, I do not remember having to learn how to do things.  Though, in other cases there was clearly a learning process involved.  Writing occured naturally.  It wasn't something that I had to learn how to do.  I know that is not true for many.  I'm curious as to how my brain functions, and, in particular, how this might be similar or dissimilar to the way that others function.  Perhaps part of that curiosity comes from being on some powerful medications that affect my brain chemistry.  I've been on various medications for over 12 years, since I was diagnosed as bipolar.

Enough for that line of enquiry.  Where am I to go next?  What am I to do next?  Who am I to meet, and for what purposes will our paths cross?  There is plenty of time to do the things that ultimately need to be done.  That does not mean there is excessive time.  That does not mean there is time to waste.  Yet, how do we know what constitutes waste?  Every moment, we are influenced by millions of factors that are vying for our attention.  Only a small number of these reach our conscious awareness.  How do we choose which factors get through and which don't?  Beliefs are one way ... the primary way.  The world that we experience, the reality that we experience, is one of our own making.  It has always been thus.  If we want to see more and experience more, we need to open our belief systems to allow this moreness to manifest in our lives.  How do we do this?  How do we open our belief systems to more?  We start by adopting beliefs in the benign nature of the world and in abundance.  This provides the framework for forces to work for our benefit to bring more into our lives.  As the 48:The Man in Search of More, the abundance of the mind and of the senses is not enough for me.  While I don't completely put these aside, I do turn away for significant periods of time and search for what else might be out there.  It is in the realm of the unknown that explorers of consciousness find their playground.  Here is where we are most happy.  Here is where we are doing what we came to do ... bringing forth what had not seen the light of day before.  Yet, what purpose is served by that?  It is for others to find practical applications of what the wayshowers find.  That may mean that I personally never see the real benefit of what I am allowed to discover.  That is OK.  I was never much of one for the practical application of anything anyway.  It is enough to dream of a better world and to do what I am moved to do to help to build its foundations.  Whether I will be around to see its completion or not is another matter entirely.  At this point, my sense is that I won't.  Though, I will be happy with what we collectively have achieved by the time of my departure.  How can I know that for certain?  I just know.  It comes forth through me in the declarative.  Some part of me already knows how all of this will play itself out.  Would I like to be able to access that part?  You bet I would.  And, indeed I will, if such is what I need to know to carry out my role.  We don't necessarily get what we want in life.  However, we always get what we need.  Wants are typically emotional attachments to outcomes.  Needs, on the other hand, are simple and direct.  They are necessary for us to grow and thrive and live productive and useful lives.