Another busy day. It seems that
they will all be like that for some time. Oh well, sometimes it
is like that. We do what we must and find a way to enjoy the
process. In the end, it is the joy that we put into life that
matters. This will directly impact the joy that we take
out. Interesting. And, being in joy is a very enlightened
way to live. Happiness is a choice that we can make at any
time. It is a relationship that we have with ourself and the
world. It is not dependent on conditions. There are many
who are in dire straights on the planet yet who are happy
nonetheless. Our founding fathers in the US spoke of the
inalienable right to pursue happiness. But, how many achieve
happiness on a regular basis? I know that I don't. Perhaps
that is a trigger for me to be the 48:The Man in Search of More.
If I were fully satisfied and happy with my reality, would I be moved
to continue the search? The bottom line is yes. There is
nothing wrong with being a happy and fulfilled searcher. So, how
do I experience that, at least more fully? What is it that I want
from life? What is it that I need? My first answer was
nothing! Yet, if that is indeed true, why am I where I am right
now? I am a hermit with a strong desire to connect deeply with
others. However, I avoid shallow connections overall so there are
limited opportunities to grow deeper connections. One problem is
that I have little to say to others. I listen, but I don't speak
very often. I much prefer the written world. Perhaps that
is because it is safer for me. Though, I know that in operating
in this manner, over 90 percent of the content of communication is
lost. Words can only do so much. Yet, on the other hand,
words can do a lot. They capture ideas in a way that can be
brought to millions. Will some of the ideas from Beyond
Imagination ever do that? They will if that is what is meant to
be. It is not for me to force the matter. Though Neale
Donald Walsch in
What God Wants
elegantly conveys that God wants nothing! God has everything that
God could possibly want. In particular, God has no Will for
us. Then what does it mean to renounce my little will for Thy
Will? This must be a renouncing of the will of the self to The
Will of the Self. As such, it is still my will, just at a
different level. In this case, an other than conscious
level. Then, what does it take to consciously become involve in
the Will? How do I apply more of whom that I am in service to
spirit, in service to life, in service to the world?
What an interesting line of inquiry. Are there things that I know
that I could will to manifest? Things in line with serving spirit
in more effective ways than I do here? The sense is yes.
There are things that I could be doing. There are connections
that I could be making. There are impacts that I could be making
with different choices. Yet, at the same time, there is still a
sense that it is not for me to force anything. Rather, I am to
allow what would manifest through me to do as it will. However,
there is an expanded awareness now ... a sense that there is far more
that I could be doing, yeah, that I should be doing. I know, no
shoulds. It is all a matter of choice and every choice is right
somehow under the circumstances under which it is made. Hmm ...
that assumes that the conditions of the moment govern such choices, and
clearly, this is not the case. The past and future weigh in here
as well.
There is a sense that I am wasting my life in some respects, that I am
not as prolific and impactful as I could be, that I am not living
fully. The question is what am I willing to do about this?
What am I willing to change to lead a new life? What am I willing
to do differently? What beliefs are constraining my
experience? To overcome the tiredness, I have to find a way to
escape the boredom. I am bored because I am not doing the things
that I was born to do, that I came into this incarnation to
accomplish. Why is that? What can I do to change
this? My enthusiam has cycled on and off over the past 12 years
for reasons that I do not know. Though the cycles have no
consistent period, they are on the order of 4.5 years since 1993.
The years 1993, 1996, 1998, 2002 and 2005 have been highly significant
marking beginnings, endings, and times in the hospital to "recover"
from awakening experiences. 2007 and 2012 fall into this sequence
as well, along with 2009 or 2010. There is a sense that what will
be will be. The cycles are playing themselves out in the manner
that they must. I can only act to the degree that my
understanding allows me to take the next step. No, understanding
is not the right word. Rather, it is intuition and
knowingness. That is what our lives are really based on. We
think that we reason, because we observe our thoughts and believe that
our reasoning influences our choices. But, is this really
true? Are we aware of the emotional and other that rational
components that go into our decisions? It seems that a few are,
but many are not.
What next? What am I moved to do next? There is a three
month transition in my work environment. Perhaps I should use
this same period of time to make a transition in my personal
environment as well. Three months is 92 days. A lot can
happen in that amount of time. That is 23 x 4, the square of
wayne. Hmm ... the suggestion is to use that time to truly get
grounded. That is something that I have never really been.
Interesting. 79635454 = 7/16/
22/25/30/
34/39/43:Three of Cups =
Abundance. The partial sums are interesting as well. My
present zip code is 9
22 34.
All except 9:The Hermit is contained in grounded. Further, of the
8 numbers, 5 reduce to 7 (7,16,25,34,43). Five 7's is a high
order of Jackpot! Hmm ... one way to ground spirit is to add
weight. I've done that far more than is healthy. It is time
for that to change and be replaced by something more powerful and less
restrictive. Yoga come to mind. Integration of body, mind,
and spirit. Perhaps it is time to start thinking about getting
out in the world, taking some classes, and interacting with
folks. Further, perhaps I am too grounded now and need to lighten
up and soar once again.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne
BEYOND
IMAGINATION: Creating the Foundations for a New World