Wow! 7 June already. Another
four days without musing. Heard back regarding transfer.
The other organization got my file. They'll interview me in two
weeks, but it seems like a sure thing. The only question is a
matter of when. For that, it seems that much is up to me.
I'll need to work out something reasonable that is fair to my current
organization. I have a few ongoing tasks that could take as much
as two months to wrap up. After that, everything is
open-ended. Lately, work has been busier, but not as rewarding as
it could be. The sense is that I am not doing the right
things. Further, it is time for that to change. Part of the
problem is being in the same job for so long. Another is
supporting the same organization for so long. And, we're not
talking about a major organization here. It's as if I'm a big
fish in a little pond. I've outgrown my present
environment. There are too many detailed things that I do when my
forte is on the bigger picture things. Now, the opportunity is
here to change this. Though, I don't know much about what I would
be doing in the new job either. Something is right about it
however. I know it. I would not be moved to make this
change now if it were not somehow right, somehow destined. With
each step forward, we plunge further into the unknown. That is
OK, we have become comfortable with that.
The writing is a bit strained today. Don't know why. Just
sense that the connection is not quite there. It's close, but it
is different at the same time. That is OK, we'll take whatever
comes. The only purpose for this expression is to provide a
vessel for a stream of consciousness to come forth. That stream
of consciousness reveals much about me, but even more about the nature
of consciousness, at least as she is able to express through me.
Why are these not one and the same? Good question. From the
beginning there has been the sense that this expression comes through
me but is not of me. That continues to the day. Yes, even
after 4 million plus words in over 12 years. That's a lot of
words. That's also a lot of practice of tapping into the source
within. What can I say? It is what it is. It is not
that I have tried to make it so. I write when I am moved to
write. Sometimes that is long and often. At other times it
is more abbreviated and less frequent. It follows no pattern of
which I am aware. It simply is. And, that is enough.
That is always enough.
To be
is the grandest thing there is.
So, what am I moved to do next? Moving on seems to be the right
thing. Though, I've taken the key step that I can take
already. What more can I do on that front? We could work
harder to make things happen sooner. But, that doesn't feel right
somehow. Two months will pass soon enough. Indeed, far
sooner than any two months in my life to date. We are in for a
challenge as it is. And, I can be sure that uncertainty will rear
its head as well. It always does so in my life anyway. Yet,
at the same time, I don't believe in chance. Conscious
uncertainty is not truly uncertainty. At some level we know and
create all that we experience.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne
BEYOND
IMAGINATION: Creating the Foundations for a New World