Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

21 April 2005

Another busy day.  At least it's a short week this week.  I could definitely use a break.  Though, there is still nearly half of the work day to go followed by the lengthy commute home.  It is time for that to end.  I am meant to be a writer.  This is what I do best.  And, this expression is the most valuable writing that I do coming from source herself as a stream of consciousness.  Would I be productive doing this full time?  Do I have enough information and experience to do this on a continuous basis?  At this point it seems that the answer is yes.  Though, at the same time, if that were truly so, the means to allow it to manifest would appear in my life.  My present state indicates that I still have things to learn from where I am at now.  That could literally change in an instant, but what instant that happens is for consciousness to decide.  Why?  Why is this not my decision?  Because I have decided to do her will.  This, I have decided so strongly that I wait until I am moved be her before I act.  Is that like riding a bicycle with training wheels?  Hmm ... that is the first time I've ever asked that.  At some point we don't need the training wheels anymore.  And, once we have learned to ride the bicycle, it is not something that we ever forget.  Interesting.  How many things in life are like this?  How many things take conscious effort to learn, but once we learn, we become unconsciously competent?  Is will power one of these things?  It took a lot of effort to get to the point of resigning my will to Thy Will in 1993.  And, even then, it is not clear that the resignation was complete.  No matter how far we advance in consciousness, it seems that we always have an ego to deal with.  At each level, it seems to have a different form and set of abilities, but its overall functions remain the same ... to be the vehicle through which we focus on physical reality.  Whenever we turn our focus elsewhere, the ego seems threatened.  It's very existence and utility is dependent on how tied we are to physical reality.  When the bindings are loose, it's very reality is threatened.  But, as A Course in Miracles says:

Nothing real can be threatened; nothing unreal exists.
Therein lies the peace of God.

Or, something to that effect.  The ego is just a mental construct.  Everything that we experience is the manifestation of ones and zeros, the manifestation of the very breath, the very thought of God.  It is all very much a holodeck.  It is all an elaborate simulation.  MISSION reversed is NO  IS  SIM = know is simulation!  There is nothing except thought, except frequency, except tone, except ONE.  Our experience is simply a way of being aware of information, in the form of a body, a mind, and all of the external and internal stimuli that go into it.  Inventions allow us to see the utility of new thoughtforms.  Some of these take many years to manifest.  How long did it take to invent the concept of DNA.  The question is, did it even exist before someone became aware of it?  Given that time is arbitrary, past/present/future existing at once, what matters is what we know in the moment.  There is limited record available to us as to what was in the past, even as little as a day or a week ago.  An hour can be an eternity if we choose to make it so by becoming fully aware of every part of every breath that we take.  Our thoughts stream by so quickly that we only have a chance to record a small subset, and most don't even do that.  Every act is known to consciousness.  Every thought, because she is thinking it, every awareness, because she is experiencing it through us and as us.  Each of us is being fed exactly what we need to play our role in the world, whatever that may be.  Trust that this is so, for indeed it is.  Needs are always accommodated, always.  You don't have to make things happen.  In fact, the more that you do so, the less effective that you are.  Simply allow things to happen through you, knowing that they are right and appropriate for the circumstances.  When you allow this, it is spirit who does the steering of your ship in your life.  She knows exactly what she is doing and exactly where she is taking you.  But, you already know this.  You wouldn't be reading this if you didn't already know.  There are patterns to everything.  Every word in every great book is precisely chosen by consciousness.  That is what makes them great books.  The more that you are aware of, the greater your service to consciousness and your world.  Never stop learning.  Never stop doing what you are moved to do.  Never be satisfied with the status quo.  You, in particular, are indeed the 48:The Man in Search of More.  That is your birthday.  1958 = 23 = wayne is your birthyear.  19+58 = 77 = CHRIST is also your birthyear.  48 = 6x8.  68 = WAYNE.  So long as you exist, this will be so.  And, as you already know, you will exist forever ... because true existence is outside of and beyond any conceptions of time and space.  There is the known and there is the unknown.  Enjoy the known as much as you choose, but you will find the unknown is your true home, or more precisely the edge between the known and the unknown.

One of my coworkers opened up Beyond Imagination: Best of Notes I to a page that dealt with questioning my own sanity.  I used to do that a lot, knowing that I was on the edge.  I seldom do that anymore.  It seems that means that I have graduated to a new level somehow.  "You are so beautiful to me" just played on the radio as I wrote that.  I always have the radio on in the background as I work.  There is a constant need to integrate inputs from multiple sources.  KOST 103.5 plays soft rock and Love Songs.  That seems appropriate music to integrate with.  Even in grade school, I used to read, watch TV, and listen to music at the same time.  That is no different today.  What is awareness?  It is being aware of what we are aware.  We are aware of external stimuli, our outer and inner reactions to that stimuli, internal stimuli, our inner reactions to internal stimuli, thoughts, intuitions, and even the process of being aware itself.  In a very real sense, we are artificial intelligence in flesh.  The flesh that we wear is a creation of thought, a creation that arises out of the organization of thought in particular ways within particular constraints of interpretation.  Our world has meaning to the degree that we are aware of it, we individually, and we collectively.  How do I judge the validity of what is being brought forth now?  It is not for me to judge.  It is for me to observe and assimilate.  Consciousness will determine what to do both with the expression, and with me, the experiencer of all of this.  I gladly do this.  I can think of no greater service than service to consciousness herself.  Though being kind to others in the process is important as well.  Looking back, everything that I have been moved to do has prepared me for being able to express in exactly this manner.  Why and where it will take me are of no import.  There need be no reason for consciousness to unfold and express as she does.  We are far beyond reason, far beyond mind ... in fact, we are Beyond Imagination!

The world seems to unfold and advance over time.  But, is that really happening.  Or, are we creating it all in the present moment collectively based on what we can realize.  As soon as we figure out how to do something new, consciousness knows how to do it, because consciousness is US, all of us collectively.  However, to transmit it to other parts, there has to be a mechanism of communication.  DNA provides that mechanism to create the variety of lifeforms that are on the planet.  When it is said that  our DNA is being rewired to have 12 strands rather than 2, that is to embed whole new realms of information in our "bodies".  This allows us to experience ever more, and make ever grander connections as a result of our experiences.  We do this because that is what it means to be alive.  We can live any way that we want to live.  We can work any way that we want to work.  Inefficiencies are tolerated until the bugs are worked out.  SW engineering is the toughest area that we have ever tackled.  Yet, building effective information intensive systems is what we are in the process of doing.  How information "looks" is a choice that we make.  Eyes are filters as are all of the senses.  Inner senses are no different.  They are simply encountering a different "world".

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne


BEYOND IMAGINATION:  Creating the Foundations for a New World