Musings of a Spiritual Warrior
22 March 2005
Still not up to anything
comparable to what the musings were prior to the latest episode of
mania. Oh well, the expression is what it is. It is not
like I really have any control over it. I sense when it is
"right". But, this process is primarily one of allowing what can
come through to come through as it will. It is interesting.
As I write this, it is raining again. Yes, in the desert.
It is simply amazing. This has been a very unusual year
already. And there is no sign that this is to change anytime
soon. That is OK. Unusual and strange is good. As are
eccentrics. Someone high in management once said that the best
thing that he ever did was to protect the mavericks in his
organization. I definitely consider myself a maverick. It
is not clear that I think in the same manner as anyone else. Then
again, it seems that this may be true for each and every one of us.
What next? I truly do not know. I literally have no
clue. With the exception of an appointment or two, my days are
completely unstructured. I go with the flow, doing the work that
presents itself to be done, taking things one step at a time, and in
very slow steps at that. I expect to be back at work in a little
under a week ... yet, I have no real idea of what to expect when I
return. From a few conversations with my boss, secretary, and a
coworker, it is clear that people miss me. But, it is curious
that in early three weeks, there has not been so much as a card.
Why is that? Clearly, there must be a sense that there is no need
of such. My world is a reflection of whom that I am. Who
communicates with one who considers himself a hermit. Clearly,
consciousness herself ... but who else?
We've made it to the third 22 day of the year. That brings us to
66. However, this is also the 31+28+22 = 81 = 9 x 9 day of the
year. That is a day that only happens once. And, it takes
one day shy of two years to make it to 9 x 9 x 9 = 729 days.
That's an interesting observation. That would indicate that 2
year cycles are somehow significant for me. The beginning of
March marked the end of the sixth such cycle since the Beyond
Imagination expression began. It is also curious that exact
transits with Neptune would be occurring for me this month. That
makes my thinking far more expansive and all-inclusive that it would
otherwise be. That makes it easy for me to see the reality of the
ONE consciousness. Though, I can also see that this is not
embraced by everyone. Many are still asleep. Yet, the time
for awakening is nigh. And, once awakened, we need return to
sleep no longer.
What would I be? How would I live? With whom would I
establish relationships ... and for what purposes? There are many
kinds of relationships ... family, friends, acquaintances, working,
romantic, cooperative, interdependent, etc ... What relationships
would a hermit establish. And, is a hermit what I want to
continue to be? Is this a mask that I choose to continue to
wear? At this point, I know no other way to be. However,
that does not mean that I cannot change. I'm still observing that
spirit is being more fully expressed everywhere that I am moved to
look. It is as if literally overnight, major changes occured that
have ramifications everywhere. That makes observing life quite
interesting. I never know what is going to happen next.
However, whatever it is, I know that it will get connected to many
other relevant things in my mind, with a rapidity that is beyond
anything that I can fathom. It is still not clear what I can will
to occur ... or even whether I can will much of anything to
occur. Many things simply happen. I observe them as I do
them. At the same time, it seems that I have some choice as to
specifically what I do and how I do it .. at least for some things.
Colorado still calls to my soul somehow. The mountains of
Idyllwild are not really the same. There is a sense that my stage
is the whole world. It is not clear that Idyllwild is sufficient
for that ... sufficient for meeting who it is meant for me to interact
with. The thoughts are still quite grandiose. My concept of
whom that I am may be far more elevated than justifiable. Then
again, in a very real way, the world that I live in is Wayne's
World. At least three times that I know of in the past 13 years,
this world has changed dramatically because I underwent a spiritual
awakening. It is not clear how many such experiences are
necessary to finally BE AWAKE. Then again, perhaps we are never
fully awake. There is always more to experience, more to
become. The bottom line is that I will be moved to live as
I need to live, go where I need to go, and do what I need to do when
the time is appropriate to do so and not until.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne
BEYOND
IMAGINATION: Creating the Foundations for a New World