While getting gas today an Aerostar van with license plate 2ZQH036 pulled up behind me.  Z, Q, and H are the three 8's in the alphabet so this is a form of 888.  The message is "to 888, 36:Ten of Wands".  This is the first of the 10's that I was looking for near the end of the musing yesterday.

The total at the pump came to 16.044 gallons and $20.20.  The Tower and 44:Four of Cups = present year of my life.  2020 is also my weekly compensation.  I noticed earlier that this is twice 1010, tying it to the Reality Creation 1010 work that came forth from 26 Dec 93 to 4 Jan 94.  This is also of the form x.x, as the bus number 2525 in Speed was yesterday.  There is a sense that we need to add 2525 to 2020 to get 4545. 45 x 45 is 2025, one year past 2024 = 22:88(88).  This is the first year of the 23rd cycle of 88.

Also on the receipt is 1.259, the price per gallon.  This is 2519 = Bear from the middle out.  This is my dogs name.  Also it is the team name for Chicago ... I just looked up and saw it regarding a movie Brian's Song that is about to start.  25 19 is also 44.  There is a sense that this is marking the present time.  Another number on the receipt is 196.  This is The Hermit:The Tower from the inside out.  196 is also 14 x 14 = 2 x 2 x 7 x 7 = 7 x 28 = 6 x 28 + 2 x 14.  Hmm, this seems to have all four suits completely expressing in three dimensions and only Wands and Cups expressing in the spiritual dimension.  The other alternative is that the first seven cards of each suit are expressing in the fourth dimension.  That would put us at the 3's in each suit.  29:Three of Wands, 43:Three of Cups, 57:Three of Swords, and 71:Three of Pentacles.

Brian Piccolo's number was 41:Ace of Cups = Wayne.  In the movie, and in real life, Piccolo got cancer, which in a matter of a few years consumed his life.  Just saw Gale Sayers number ... it was 40:Page of Cup, the 88 completion of 48:The Man in Search of More.  The theme song from the movie has always moved me deeply since I first heard it in the early 70's.  Hmm ... thinking about 40, this comes across as the four 10's of the Tarot.  Just remembered that 40 happens to be my new Personality number.  Interesting that both 40 and 48 would be prominent for me.

How do I recognize the real versus the ideal?  I've lived in my head for so much of my life that it is difficult to differentiate between thought about the way that the world could be and thoughts about the way that the world is.  This is especially difficult since for the most part I live my own life in accord with the ideals that I believe in.  That makes them real for me, even if many in the consensus world don't see it that way.  Then again, it is only the philosophers among us that get into this realm ... and to date I have not met many of these.  It seems that the real can be whatever we choose to make it both individually and collectively.  However, it will only be what we choose to make it.  To be able to choose, however, we need alternatives ... these the philosophers and visionaries can provide us.

Just remembered something about 2020 that I noticed earlier.  This is used to define "perfect" vision.  There is a sense that this is what I am supposed to extract from this ... that my vision is right on now.  This is curious, because in the physical, I am still wearing glasses from over 7 years ago and it is obvious that my eyesight has changed.  Things aren't as clear as they used to be.  It is time to do something about it; to get my eyes tested and get new glasses.  I tend to procrastinate about such things.  As long as the old is still functioning, I generally don't bother to replace it.  There are so many other things that I like to do that can consume my attention.  Now, however, there is a sense that I need to see clearly on all fronts.

The message at the beginning of the musing was "to 888, 36:Ten of Wands".  36 is also four 9's.  There is a sense that 888 is Wayne = 41.  Adding 36 yields 77:Nine of Pentacles = The Falconer = CHRIST.  Hmm ... I have never really related to this expression of the deity that the Christian world calls the Son of God.  Interesting, Son and Sun sound alike.  19 of 704 seems to tie to 1974, the 16:Tower year for me ... the year that I encountered the Seth material and began my love affair with metaphysics.

This is 50:Ten of Cups = Utopia on Earth from the middle out in four directions.  The total is 41 + 77.  21341 = To the Death of 41 requires adding 4 in each direction for an additional total of 16:The Tower.

This has 13:Death from each of the 9's out, 50:Utopia on Earth from the 9's in. 50 is my new Personality number including Jr.  77:The Falconer in the ideal and 16:The Tower in the real.  This has 54:Page of Swords looking in.  This is also LOVE.

Something suggests that the 41 should be split into 22, my old Hearts Desire in the center surrounded by 19:The Sun.

From the 19's, we see 22:The Fool Complete in the center and 13:Death on the outside.  With the 19, that make the sum looking out in each direction 32:Six of Wands = America = "I AM race".  The ideal expression total has increased by 3 x 19 = 57 = Three of Swords = ELLIS.  It is now 22 + 76 + 36 = 134 = 78 + 56 = 22 + 56 + 56 = 22 + 8 x 14.  This is one cycle through the Major Arcana and two cycles through the Minor Arcana.

The ideal part looking out from the 19's is 19 + 9 = 28:The Man with the World in His Hand. From the 9's looking out we see 13 in each direction for a total of 52:Queen of Swords = my Personality Number.

Thinking about my new Heart's Desire = 34 suggests breaking down 41 into 34 + 7.

Nearly everything is the same, except for the sums from the 7 outward which now have an ideal component of 16:The Tower and a real component of 4:The Emperor for a total of 20:Judgement.  Hmm ... the sense is that somehow I am meant to facilitate a 16:Tower experience in the real world.  Just noticed that the total across each arm is 34 + 20 + 20 = 74:The Benefactor.   Appropriate that such would be how God expresses in the world.  The total for the entire figure is 114 = 78 + 36:Ten of Wands Exalted.  We saw 36 earlier today.  This can also be expressed as 56 + 56 + 2, two cycles of the Minor Arcana plus the second card = Queen of Wands.

Linearly out from the center we get 34:Eight of Wands, 41:Ace of Cups, 50:Ten of Cups, and 54:Page of Swords.
Summing out from the center we get 34:Eight of Wands, 62:Eight of Swords = Blindfolded Lady, 98:Judgement Exalted.
Summing both ways from the center we get 34, 48:Eight of Cups, 66:Queen of Pents, 74:Six of Pents = Benefactor.

I don't know that I found everything I was meant to find.  There is a sense that this figure captures in a condensed form the nature of vibrations necessary to bring a 4 x 4 = 16:The Tower experience to the world.  If we take the 4's to be the 4th cards of their respective suits, then these are the Page cards of the Tarot ... 26, 40, 54, and 68.  Hmm, this is how I get beyond 41 to express 68.  Interesting.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne