1/19 in reverse is 911, a number we use for emergency help in this country.  So, what does it signify for today? What help am I in need of?  What emergency help are we as a society in need of?  There is a sense that we are in the midst of a spiritual emergency ... that is spirit is emerging within us and through us as it has not been able to do before.  But, who is there that can help with this emergence?  Good question ... none of the traditional disciplines and services seem to have this within their scope, perhaps because it is something new, and something that has typically been left to the domain of religion.

Yet, there is a sense that we have broken into new dimensions of awareness and expression, and that these are now just as real as the physical, emotional, and mental ones.  From my experience, the religious approach is too restrictive to handle this ... though my experience with religions is quite limited.

Hmm 1/1 9/2002 comes across as 11- 9 - 22.  This is 9:The Hermit surrounded by the first two Master Numbers.  This doesn't happen very often, in fact only once this year.  2/29/2002 would be the next potential time, with 22 on each side of 9, however there is no 2/29 this year.  I spoke too soon earlier, 11/9/2002 has the same 11 - 9 - 22 pattern.   It is curious that this is a form of 42:Two of Cups, the number that we ended with yesterday.

Massive change on many fronts still seems to be in store in the coming year.  I can sense it ... there is an inner knowingness, but there is nothing specific I can point to and say here it is and this is what will be.  I've predicted revolutionary change before, however this came out of a strong desire to manifest that change versus out of seeing that the change was indeed upon us.  Now, there is less of an attachment.  I personally don't need the change to happen though I would very much like to play my part in making it happen.  The difference may seem slight, however such is not the case.  I was bored and dissatisfied with my world before, and was personally attached to making a change ... and a dramatic change at that.  In the process, I failed to recognize the key fact that for my world to change, I must change.  And, it seems I was not ready to change in the manner necessary to allow this to happen.  Since then, I have indeed changed in very real ways.  And, if my resolutions are fulfilled, the Hermit is to open up to others in ways that he has not done before.  This is major change ... and its effects will reverberate through my world, and through the world at large.

I accept the world as it is in ways that I never have before.  It is the perfect expression of spirit here and now, no matter how much to the contrary this may appear to be in the world at large.  This does not mean that it does not have its dramas, and plays of good versus evil, challenges of love versus fear, and expressions of many types of limitations.  This is a playground and a schoolhouse for spirit afterall.  It is here that we express and learn of whom that we are through our experiences.  It is here that we advance in awareness so that we can more fully serve as the channels for spiritual expression that we are.

Why don't more people realize this?  Why aren't we taught this is schools or in the churches?  Why don't more people question why they are here ... and whether there is more to life then the grind of day to day existence?  Actually, there are signs that people do realize this and are finding ways to enjoy life more.  But there is more to life than the pleasures and joys of day to day existence as well.  We are here for a purpose, to assist in carrying out a mission.  There are many missions, and the purpose is tailored to the individual.  At least that's how I see it.  Spirit works elegantly, applying exactly the right resources for the tasks at hand.  However, it is up to us to volunteer for our spiritual tasks ... and do the selfwork necessary to connect with the source inside us sufficiently to allow spirit to flow forth in our lives in whatever manner we are moved to express it.

That's easy for you to say ... you have few physical commitments.  You have no children to care for and raise.  Your family life and social life for that matter are highly limited.  No wonder you have time to think and ponder about such things and write. 

Yet, these are choices that I have made.  I've known since I was a teenager that my children would come from my mind rather than from my loins.  There was a sense that my attachments to this world were to be temporary and limited ... that there was something that I was here to do and that I needed to apply myself in doing.  From 1974-1992, this primarily involved reading extensively in metaphysics, while I carried on my outer life in my own limited way.  In hindsight, that is exactly what I needed to do to prepare myself for what was to come.  The preparation must have worked because while I've been blown away by my experiences starting in 1993, even to the point of losing touch with consensus reality a couple of times ... I have been able to recover and integrate my experiences into whom and what I am.  In the process, I have become a much more aware individual and have been able to bring forth vast amounts of information from the connection to source inside of me.  Yet, there is a sense that this is only the beginning.  It is as if we have been riding a bicycle on training wheels ... the time has come to truly soar in new ways.  My spirit rejoices in this communication.  It sings what consciousness would have it sing, loudly and joyously.

It will be interesting to see what manifest in the days ahead.  But, what truly counts is here and now.  This is the only point that ever truly exists.  It is in the moment that reality is created and experienced, though we may expend our energies in planning and imagining what we want it to be; and in replaying and reliving what has already occurred in our memories.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne