Another day as the conduit through which spirit can express.  I fill this role gladly.  It is clearly what I am meant to do.   I know because I am truly moved to do it, and because it is such a pleasurable activity.  I've wrote before that the spiritual job is one that we must volunteer for.  Spirit does not force us to do anything.   She prods us gently to do those things that are not only for our own good but the good of all concerned.  Actually, all concerned is somewhat misleading, when in reality there is only ONE!

Looking at the date, my mind moves forward four days to 22 January 2002, when we have 22:The Fool Complete on each side of the month.  The sum is 22 + 22, my age as of 4/8/2002.  It is as if we are reaching a crescendo of some type, though this is the first of twelve days this year that will be of this format.  Interesting.  It's already been a productive year for notes ... exceeding the number and total length of writings for both 2000 and 2001 combined.  In fact, this is probably the best start that I've had for any month since 1995.  It is all a matter of choosing to spend the time to allow this expression to manifest in my life.  It also helps that this is what I have been moved to do.  In my life, I have found that will power is not a sufficient force for doing the work of spirit.  One must wait patiently until one is moved, from the very core of one's being, to act.  At least, this has been true for me.  This is not such an easy thing to do for one with ego issues, emphasized by Leo rising on my astrological chart. Ego is an interesting word.  It is 576 = 24 x 24.  It is also Geo = 756 from the middle out.  The 888 completion is 132 = 11 x 12.  Dropping the "x" we have 1112, the 10000 completion of 8888.  I know, more numbers.  Can't we express connections in a language that is easier to understand?  Actually, math and numbers have always been this way for me.  I excelled in math from my earliest days in school, though I did finally get over my head in some graduate classes at Stanford, in particular, abstract algebra ... I just didn't get it.  Though, I am sure that many in the academic community would find my musing highly amusing ... in fact, the workings of a madman.

So be it.  I make the connections that I am moved to make, based on what I perceive and the magical processing that goes on in my mind.  Whether these be judge to be sane or not is of no import to me.  That doesn't change the fact that the connections were indeed observed and entered my mental framework in a manner that allows them to be applied to my life and the way that I see the world.  This expression is one of the markers that I leave as to where my mind and consciousness have ventured.  My hope is that in doing this I can be of assistance to others who enter this realm of existence and find themselves experiencing similar states.  No, the will not be the same ... because our specific backgrounds have been different.  However, they should be similar enough to have a core in common.

I'm definitely putting in far more than my tithe to spirit of late.  That is OK.  There is a sense that it is indeed time for me to give again on a massive scale.  I consider 15-20 hours per week to be that level of giving.  That's the equivalent of a half-time job.  We'll just have to see how long it persists.  My energy is high, with no sign that it will be dropping any time soon.  There is a sense that I need to take advantage of it and allow whatever can be revealed through my consciousness to be revealed.

This communication is still highly a matter of trust.  In particular, trust in unseen processes, and in the inner workings of consciousness herself in my life.  This trust has been built over many years.  Actually, in a very real way, it was always there as a knowingness that I could innately discern the true from the false, and a faith that consciousness/spirit was looking over me.  Note, I never believed that a God of any type was doing this.  While I went to church until I was 11, I never really bought the stories that they told.  There was always a sense that something was not quite right ... that something was missing.  At 16, I found the Seth Material, and instinctively knew that this indeed was what had been missing.  But even that was primarily mental.  It served me well for nearly 20 years, opening my eyes to vast new horizons of mind.  But the 48:Man in Search of More in me wasn't satisfied with that either.  I knew there had to be something more.  Mind you, I had no clue what that might be ... but I was the seeker, ever searching for something that I knew I would recognize when I found it.  Then, the beyond mind experience propelled me into the world of spirit in a manner that truly caught me by surprise ... shaking my belief system to its very core and beyond.  At that point, Beyond Imagination was born and I began a new life as an awakened being.  Indeed, it was as if I woke up from a deep sleep, and was now suddenly aware of whole new facets of my Self ... facets of which I had no clue even might exist before.  This was clearly a time when my experience shattered rather than conformed to my beliefs.  Actually, that is not quite right.  20 years of metaphysical study had planted a lot of seeds in my mind, allowed these seeds to germinate and sprout, and then grow into trees of there own right.  It seems that I needed a major transformation, a 16:Tower experience to allow these ideas to become beliefs and overcome any conflicting beliefs that were already in place.  When this would happen was literally destined in the stars.  Neptune is dreams and ideals, Uranus is disruption and revolutionary change, the Sun represent the self.  Uranus was conjunct Neptune for much of 1992 and this event was happening at a 90 degree angle to my Natal Sun; triggering massive revolutionary change in my concept of self.  Uranus is in my first house near the ascendant so the nature of self was always highly important to me, and I was eccentric in how I viewed myself.

No wonder these writing are in the first person singular so much.  This indeed is where most of my focus has been all of my life.  Though in realizing that we are all ONE, my concept of SELF is all-inclusive now.  I still distinguish between self, Self, and SELF as the individual, the greater Self or soul, and the ONE.

    self    15 36, this is 1+5+3+6 = 15:The Devil.  It is also 15+36 = 51:King of Swords = 13 - 25 - 13 from yesterday.

    Self    19 5 36, this is 19+5+3+6 = 33:Master Teacher.  On the outside, 1936 was the year my father was born.

    SELF    19  5  12  6 = 19+5   12+6  = 24 18, a variation of 2184.  Also, 4128 from the inside out = math!

Also,  24+18 = 42:Two of Cups which has a man and woman holding their cups together under a Winged Lion above a caduceus.  The later part of this symbol represent one who has the power to interpret knowledge from other worlds.  Curious, I use lion as a nickname ... and is this not what I am actively engaged in doing?  42 expressed in our 13 - x - 13 form is 13 - 16:The Tower - 13.  Isn't that interesting.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne