It is strange having so much time off of work.  There is still nearly four days to go.  Yet, I have not found the time to write as often as I may have hoped.  Even at that, I've been writing more often and longer than at any other time in 2001.  This was by far one of the most silent years since my awakening in 1993.  I've had my share of experiences, and have been making many observations ... but I just wasn't moved to write them down as in the past.

I'm excited by the energy that now flows through me.  It is as if the time has come for a new beginning once again.  Stress the word "new".  For that is indeed how it feels right now.  My sense is that I'm about to experience things that I have never experienced before ... in particular, new states of consciousness, only this time more practical in terms of enabling physical manifestation.  It is time to truly build the foundations under the castles in the air.  It is curious that the composite chart for Gini and I has most of the planets together in Aquarius in the 9th house, all air (mind) in the House of Philosophy and Higher Learning.  Curious, perhaps the work is not yet done to build the castles in the air.  My sense is that we will see soon enough.  The new year will unfold as it must in accord with the Plan of Consciousness, as each year does.  Though this coming year seems to be bringing key vibrations together in a special way that will truly be transformational for many and perhaps for the entire world ... or at least that part which uses the Gregorian calendar. The Chinese, a big fraction of the planet, India, the Muslim world, and the Jewish people all have their own calendars.  My sense is that their mass experiences will somehow be in synch with that of the West, if only through the many interfaces that they have economically.

There is a sense that a book or two may be on the horizon for the coming year.  At this point I have no idea of the titles or subjects; but I feel pregnant again ... about ready to burst.  That happened in 1993 to 1995, and I was amazed at the quantity of material that came forth.  Now, I've aged another 6-7 years.  My mind has made so many additional connections in that time that I look forward to what it will be able to express.  There is still so much that is unknown ... that remains to be uncovered as time goes by.  Time indeed marks the collective level of awareness that is to be expressed.   Everything in me tells me this is a special time to be alive; that, spirit will indeed find ways to more fully express in flesh; and that the works she is able to bring forth will be truly beyond imagination.

I sit amazed at the workings of consciousness in my life.  Yet, I know much of this stems from a conscious decision to act in her service.  It is through me, not by me, that things are accomplished.  This is a subtle, yet important, difference.  I continue to do as I am moved to do; primarily, because this is the only way that I have found things work in my life.   My sense is that I will always be moved to do exactly what is right for me to do in the moment.  The future has limited interest too me.  It will take care of itself if we do what must be done here and now.   My observation however is that others are not necessarily moved by the same force.  I have always been different from others, primarily in the way that I think and where I focus my attention.  I am still very much a loner ... highly introverted and intuitive.  My life is still primarily lived from the inside out, with very little out. I still associate strongly with the Hermit card of the Tarot.  Though, I have been married for 14 years, and have two furry children, Daffi and Mr Bear, that I adore.

The writing process is still a mystery to me.  It always has been, and probably always will be.  I adjust my focus and allow the words to pour forth as they will.  Writing continues to occur as a stream of consciousness.  I experience it as I type, seeing each word manifest from the stream.  I don't create or control the stream.  I simply open and allow, trusting that what needs to be expressed will indeed come forth.  That is the key, not forcing the expression, but simply allowing.  Though, it is a bit strange watching this creation as it occurs, for indeed it is an act of creation.  I've know since the time that I was 16 that my children would spring from my mind and not my loins.  This does indeed seem to be the case for me.  At 43, going on 44, there have already been many children.  But, my sense is that "ye ain't seen nothin' yet".  What has come through to date, is but a small taste of what the future holds.  Yet, this all starts with being moved to express in the moment; and allowing each moment to flow into the next and the next ...

The excitement still consumes me.  This is the start of something big.  Exactly what, I don't yet know.  But, I am ready for whatever lies ahead.  I am curious as to where the expression will take me ... and to what degree others will be moved to become involved.  I sense that my Hermit days are somehow numbered; that this is a phase of my life that served me well, but that in the days ahead has its limitations.  There is a sense of needing to open up to others more, in ways that I have not been asked to do before except on these pages in these communications.  To start with, as a resolution for 2002, I resolve to renew my commitment to spirit and focus my energies on the expression that is Beyond Imagination.  Further, I resolve to actively seek out interactions with others of like mind, to pursue what we might co-create together.  It just came to mind that the last time that I made New Years resolutions was on December 31, 1992.  And look at what that brought into my life in 1993!

That is OK.  I'm a very different person now from what I was then.  It would take a lot to surprise me now.  Then again, there is a sense that what is in store for the year will surprise even me.  Curious that this would happen at the beginning of the next cycle of 9. 1993 was a 22 year.  2002 is a 22 year as well though in a much more direct way.  The one before 1993 was 1984, the year specified in George Orwell's book.  Interesting that this would be a significant year as well.  Though, I don't know that it was a particularly meaningful year in my life.  Let's see, it was my 26th year, the year that I began my MSEE at Stanford.  I recall my thinking process when I went off the deep end in 1998.  I had a sense that by going to these schools, CalTech, USC, then Stanford that I was connected to subconsciously to all of the wisdom and knowledge of everyone that had been at these institutions regardless of whether I had met them or not or taken the particular classes.  It was as if by attending these schools, I had tapped into the collective consciousness of these social institutions.  Though, I have not been moved to remain outwardly connected through any alumni organizations or school donations.  Clearly, I was not consciously aware of what I had tapped ... but on the inner, I knew somehow.

1998 was full of making meaningful connections to portions of the collective conscious.  So much so, that I lost my sense of self in the process.  It took many months to recover my "sanity" and presence of mind enough to be able to resume a "normal" life again ... if my life can be called normal at all.  Let's say, enough to be able to focus on and resume work once again.

This time, I feel much more stable and grounded.  My consciousness can still soar, but somehow my feet remain firmly planted on the ground.  This was definitely not the case in 1993 and 1998.  It is as if my air and fire phases of bipolar are complete.  What remains are the water and earth phases.  Both of these will feel much more solid and grounded.  Interesting.  There is still a sense that my triple fire (Sun in Aries, Moon in Sag, Leo Rising) is still to come out and be expressed fully.  Perhaps this will be the year in which that happens.  It will, if I choose to make it so.  Hmm ...  It seems that this time it is up to me to choose.  Given that my will is aligned with spirits now, in a very real way in doing my will I do her will as well.  Making my full abilities available to do spirits work is one choice I can make to maximize what spirit is able to express and manifest through me.  So, it seems that 2002 is a year for being different than I have ever been before as well -- different in self, different in emotional expression, and different in personality.  This too, it seems will come naturally as the year unfolds.

It seems that whom that I am is up for a major facelift.  Interesting expression.  Actually, it is substantially more that a facelift; it is a makeover of the highest order.  Curious, is there a rebirth in store as well?  16:The Tower, 13:Death, and 91:Death Exalted come to mind as significant.  2197 = 13 x 13 x 13 has come up a few times of late.  This seems to indicate that the third death experience / major transformation is about to happen.  256 = 16 x 16 has come up many times as well.  This brings in the third digit in base 16, allowing 888(16) = 2184 to be realized.  There is a cold energy surging through my head and body as I write this.  It is a sign that I have struck an important chord ... that the observation I have made is correct.  Soon comes to mind as to when.  In particular, soon enough!  Interesting.  There is nothing I can do that I have not done to facilitate its coming.  Simply remain open and allow.  That is the key to everything, it seems.

I use "it seems" and "I sense" a lot.  I'm not sure why ... they just naturally come out.  Know, intuit/sense, think, feel, ... there seems to be a hierarchy here.  Sense seems very much tied to the intuition, and not to the five physical senses.  

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne