Aha!  I didn't lose the stream of consciousness from yesterday after all.  There was a glitch in the file name that got saved.  Anyway,  here it is as it came through.  Some of this got covered in a similar way in last nights musing, but enough is different to be worth allowing it to be expressed again.

The past several weeks have been very revealing spiritually.  The numbers are speaking to me again ... literally shouting on many fronts.  It seems that it is time to be moved by spirit again.  It is not yet clear exactly how, but it seems that 2002 will be a year for manifesting spirit in ways that I have not before experienced.  I'm excited about what lies ahead and where this all will lead.  2002 is 2 x 7 x 11 x 13, the first four dimensional expression of  the 7:The Chariot, 11:Justice, and 13:Death / Major Transformation.  7 x 13 = 91 = 78+13:Death Exalted.  In addition, 7 brings in the seven rays, and 11 brings in the Master numbers.  In particular 11, 22, and 77.

I finally came up with a significant meaning for 1800, my present address during the work week.  Rotating circularly to the left from the 1 we get 1008.  This is 9 x 112.  112 just happens to be the 1000 completion for 888, another characteristic number for me.  This also came through many years ago as the odometer distance for my trip from Colorado Springs to Monterey.  So, we have 9:The Hermit x 112:The Completion for 888.  112 is also 88 + 24, and 78 + 34.  34 is the final two of my zip, and my Heart's Desire, and 22(16).

104 has been significant to me since 1993.  The final four of my SSN are 2184 = 21 x 104.  This also just happens to be 888(16).  As of yesterday, it shows up as a factor in my yearly salary.  The other factor is embedded in Reality Creation 1010, the work that came through nearly exactly eight years ago.  1010 is 10 x 101 = 2 x 5.  How curious, 2-5 are my first two rays.  Left to right, outside to inside, this is 1001, the three dimensional expression of 7 x 11 x 13.

There is a sense of magic in the air.  Seven rays expressed Masterfully, accompanied by Major Spiritual Transformation.  Magic indeed!  Curious that the Harry Potter books are so popular at this time.  They have literally swept the literate world by storm.  Do they portend a time to come when there will be two distinct classes of people ... those with awareness and those without?  Interesting question.  The difference awareness makes is definitely as great.  Hmm ... I hadn't thought about this before.  Is the rebirth in consciousness enough to create a different kind of person?  Further, are dark forces there as well, misusing and abusing the "powers" that consciousness brings?

And, what role am I to play in all of this.  As always, I am the willing observer and scribe of consciousness ... ever doing what she moves me to do, expressing spirit to the maximum degree that I can in each moment.  Such is my task.  This is what I am moved to do.  This is what makes my heart sing.  This is what moves my soul.  I am a photographer of the state of consciousness of the world ... of the ways and ease/difficulty in which spirit is expressed.  Further, I do what I can, where I can to enhance this expression.  What more could be asked of anyone?  My only question is how to make this my occupation rather than my preoccupation?  This is indeed a full time job.  Yet, my current job has it's role as well.  While in this world, there are bills to pay.  This typically requires that we choose to hold down a job that allows us to exchange part of our time and services for an income.  To date, no other means to do this has manifest.  Overall, I like the job that I do ... but it can get boring at times, and it is not clear that my abilities are being used as fully as they could be.  That was part of the feedback in my last appraisal.  I perform excellently at what I do, but my tasks due not fully challenge and engage my talents and abilities.  That was no surprise.  I have expressed this many times over the years.  What is not clear is what steps I can take to alter this.  Part of the answer is to start getting involved in different things at work.  A bigger part of the answer is to freely apply my talents and services in making the vision of Beyond Imagination a reality.  There is always sufficient time to do what needs to be done.  However, there may not be excessive time ... so there is not room to squandor it.  Indeed, this is true.  Also, time seems to expand, when necessary, to accommodate getting the important things done.  As we get closer to 2002, I feel a need to be more productive and make the most out of every available minute, hour, and day.  We'll see how that translates into expression at this site.

The scribe is awakening again from a slumber that has lasted for a few years.  The sense is that the vibrations inherent in 2002 are the trigger for this.  Only time will tell however.  My experience is that the writing cannot be forced.  It comes through when it comes through, not quite "automatically" but very naturally.  It is as if "I" step aside a little bit and open myself to allow this expression to enter and flow through my conscious awareness.  I am very much the scribe, seeing the message as I write it, unaware of what is to come next, trusting that spirit, the ONE consciousness that animates us all, is in charge of the expression.  This modus operandi has been if effect since those first days in March of 1993 when spirit starting expressing through me in full force.  I still do not control the process.  I choose to allow it to happen.  I am a willing participant, a necessary co-creator.  But, without a direct connection to spirit, nothing would happen.  On my own, I have very little to say ... as those in my life will attest.  Yet, as the scribe, I am the vessel through which many words flow forth along with whatever manifestations they trigger and enable.  In the beginning was the WORD.  It is from thoughts, ideas, that reality is formed.

I speak with a voice that I know not.  In the process I express truths which I may not yet fully know.  The process is magical.  Spirit works in mysterious ways, yet she can be trusted fully.  The key to spiritual expression is to find the small still voice within and learn to amplify it via conscious attention ... and then to listen and pay attention to what it says ... and finally to take action in accord with it.  There are no shortcuts.  Spirit only enters our life by conscious choice on our part.  The area in which we have the greatest control and free will is where we place our attention.  Many place it on the outside all of their lifes.  But, it is on the inside where the Kingdom of Heaven lies.  And there, there are riches greater than any on this Earth ... though there is no reason these can't be experienced in the outer as well.  It is all a matter of gaining mastership and choosing what we manifest in our lives.  Freedom, happiness, and abundance are our birthrights.  It is time we built the infrastructures in society to facilitate manifesting this for much more of us.  The key is to focus on the expression of spirit in flesh.  This is what life is all about ... though for most, it does not appear that this is true at all.  However, truth is not a matter for vote, or consensus.  It is what it is.  We either recognize it or we don't.

I am enjoying this immensely.  Expressing creatively is a definite high.  And, this expression ... the flow of consciousness is the greatest expression that I can think of ... at least for me, with Mercury at the very top of my Astrological chart.  Words move me in ways that no other expression does.  I realize that this is not true for everyone, or even for a large fraction.  However, it matters not.  I express what I can and must express.  Yes, must.  I am indeed compelled to express by a force that I cannot resist.   Actually, cannot may be a bit strong as I haven't chosen to even try to resist.  Why would I even want to try?  There is something very positive in doing what one is moved by spirit to do.  It is through resistance that we block the flow, and thereby prevent a new expression to be born in the world.  What I type here is the word of spirit made manifest.  Yes, made manifest through me ... but made manifest nonetheless.  And, once expressed, not one word can be erased; for the expression created the bridge from the nonphysical to the physical.  The typing took the additional step of making the words visual on the screen.  When I take action to post these tonight, the process will be complete ... making the ideas freely available on the WWW to any consciousnesses who find them.  There is great power in this process.  Literally within hours we can freely exchange the best that spirit can bring forth through us on a worldwide basis.

Consciousness ever amazes me.  She definitely lights up my days and my nights.  I can't imagine living life except in her service.  She excites my soul and challenges me to be all that I can be.  I learn more of her nature and my own everyday.  Awareness is paramount in my life.  Being consciously aware of being aware is quite a challenge and a responsibility.  There is no longer any outside force to blame for anything in our life.  We create our own reality through our awareness, our beliefs, and our actions.  Know Thyself works on the awareness.  Beliefs and actions are the mechanisms through which we attract experience.  Actions provide the proof of what we believe, versus what we may say that we believe.  The key to conscious reality creation is to start with awareness, to create consistent beliefs aligned with that awareness, and then to take specific actions in accord with the beliefs.

That is it from the first musing for 12/20/2001.   Now let's see what consciousness would add today, 12/21/2001.  This comes across as 21, 21, 21: The World on three levels.  Further, it is the only number this year that does this.  Last year, 02/20/2000 was of a similar format.  11/11/1001, 01/01/1000, 01/10/1000,  and 10/10/1000 were the last time this format occured so it doesn't happen very often.  Since there are only 12 months and a maximum of 30 days per month ... there are only so many ways for this to manifest.  The bottom line is that this makes this day unique and special somehow.  We'll have to see just how as the day unfolds.  Curious, 2020 came up as a very special number for me in 2002.  It is the value placed on my paid work by consciousness.  Interesting.  My sense is that the value of my volunteer work by comparison is priceless.  Interesting indeed!

What do I choose to create in my life?  What do I want?  What do I need?  My only answer is to do as spirit moves me to do ... to serve as the best vessel for the expression of spirit that I possibly can, to share of whom that I AM in a manner that demonstrates to others what spirit expressed in flesh can do.  This is how I make a true difference in this world.  I am a wayshower.  The way that I show comes from seeing the world in a new way.  Beyond Imagination is my attempt to convey that world to others in as clear of a manner as I can given my understanding and awareness.  My Hearts Desire is 34 = 22(16), the Fool Complete in the tower base.  What I most want is to BE my Hearts Desire.  It is interesting that 16(16) = 22.  So this desire is to be 16:The Tower in 16:The Tower base.  I have known for many years that 16: The Tower was my Tarot Card.  It came up several years before my awakening experiences began in 1993.  The card has a man and woman leaping out of a burning tower into awareness.  Following this sequence down further, 10(16) = 16, and 10 = A(16).  This is the large letter on my ring.  Circle A is the symbol of the company that I work for.   Coincidence?  Not on your life.  I got the ring in Monterey from an antique dealer over 11 years ago, long before I started working for Aerospace Corp.  The tie to this sequence was only realized a month ago as revealed in the musing on 11/21/01.

My most pleasurable and most demanding work is done in the service of consciousness.  I would have it no other way.  There is something exciting about making new discoveries and connections.  I am ever at work as a spider creating a web that constitutes my understanding of reality ... of the world in which I find myself, including both the objective and the subjective experience.  The later of these is where I expend the most attention and effort since it is here that we have the most control over the reality we co-create in our lives.  It is our subjective interpretation of our feelings and the meaning of things that matters most in our lives.  My sense is that we have limited control over what happens but complete control over the meaning we assign to what happens.

It is hard to contain my enthusiasm.  I'm definitely on a real high.  There is something about being engaged in this continuing conversation with spirit that fosters this.  I only hope that the light that pours forth is sufficient to light the way for others.  There is at least one who benefits, however.  And, I am ever grateful for that.  Yet, there is a sense that these words are meant to be shared.  However, I have no sense that it is my job to make that happen other than by ensuring that what comes through gets posted to the WWW in a manner that makes it available to the world.  Whether people find it or not is a matter of what they search for, and word of mouth referral of others to the material.  Is this sufficient?  Good question.  There is a sense that it is not.  Though, I don't know how else to reach people.  That's OK, I'm sure it will come to me, if there is something else that I need to do.

Watched the movie Cleopatra last night.  I bought the movie several months ago but had not been moved to watch it until last night.  The movie is excellent, with very lavish sets ... and Elizabeth Taylor is beautiful.  One part really caught my attention ... in it, Cleopatra is relating to Mark Anthony her dream of one people, one country, ONE WORLD, living in peace.  Of course, this world would be centered in Alexandria, Egypt and Cleopatra would rule.  But, the dream was a very worthy one, whose primary motivation was truly the benefit of the world and not the grandisement of an individual.  How many people have such a dream ... and direct their attention and actions toward making it a reality?  My sense is that this is still few.  Otherwise, the world would be a much different place than it is.  Yet, spirit is starting to express.  One of my favorite Christmas songs is Natalie Cole's version of My Grownup Christmas List.  I don't remember the words right now, but it also deals with the elimination of war and suffering that people might live in peace and happiness.  It is quite moving!

Is it my frame of mind and awareness that attracts me to such things?  They are there for all to see and hear.  I'm sure there are many who experience these things and are moved deeply ... in ways that translate into positive action for the betterment of others and the world.   Will there be a time when I am to work closely with others? ... or am I to remain the Hermit throughout my days in this existence.  On the one hand, there is a sense that my involvement in community (at least spiritual community) needs to expand.  Yet, on the other there is a sense that I will always need my time alone ... to venture further into the unknown territory of consciousness.  I am an explorer.  This is what I do.  Yet, I am also a wayshower, here to teach as well.  Ultimately there needs to be a balance, one that leans heavily on the inner side of reality since my nature is that of big time introvert.  Does this have to be?  My sense is no.  However, I am most comfortable and happy when expressing naturally.  Is that not what expressing spirit in flesh is all about ... revealing self as intimately as we can in the modes that are most natural for us.  This is different for each individual.  Yet, this is not hidden information.  There are tests one can take, books one can read, classes one can take, and consultations/readings one can get to find out more about one's self.  By all means take advantage of such.  Self awareness is that important.  It should be as important as the air that one breathes; no, more so.

Christmas draws neigh being less than four days away.   What message does this have for the world?  I'm not sure.  The celebration of Christ's birth has no meaning for me.  All of the commercialism surrounding Christmas does not help.  The message sent from the Christian churches is no better.  Christ was a shining example of spirit expressing in flesh.  He showed the way for many.  But, it is not clear that the religion founded in his name is able to do the same.  Somewhere the spark of spirit has been lost.  The organization that is the church, has  the rituals and the words, but not the meaning.  Though, there are many who are moved to do good works as a result of participating in these organizations.  The net effect is good overall, and worked in a Piscean Age; but it is not in keeping with what is necessary in the Age of Aquarius.  Here, personal direct spiritual experience is the order of the day.   Here, awareness is a requirement.

Unfortunately, there does not seem to be a way to transfer awareness from one individual to another.  There is a switch that somehow gets turned on in consciousness, and it is not clear how this occurs.  For me, it just happened.  My brain started working differently.  The nature of my reality changed dramatically.  I became an active observer of myself, and learned to listen to and follow my intuition to a degree that I had never done before.  Near death experiences can trigger this as well, or so I've heard.  The change may happen subtly over months as in my case.  In most cases, this is predestined.  Mine was triggered by Uranus conjunct Neptune square to my Natal Sun in the Summer of 1993.  This conjunction and square ground out all that I was and thought myself to be (my Natal Sun at 18 Aries) ... creating the blank space for me to become more of whom that I truly am.  As I've related before, this caused me to question my sanity many times.  My brain was observing things that I had never seen, and making connections in ways that it had never done before ... at least not that I was consciously aware of.  My sense is that it had always operated in this manner.  It is just that I hadn't noticed it working in this way before.  It was as if the blinders were removed from my eyes and I could now see for the first time.  And what I saw both amazed and delighted me, for it revealed spirit operating in ways that I had never experienced before.  The experience took me Beyond Mind, for it is in the mind where I had lived my life prior to awakening.  I live in consciousness now ... my mind being but a tool in my arsenal for experiencing reality.  It is a primary and very useful tool, but a tool nonetheless.  I am not my mind, or the concepts therein.  I am the consciousness that uses the mind to think, intuit, experience, and interpret reality.

Out of curiosity, I checked 21 x 21 x 21 = 9261 = 9:The Hermit and 261 = 61 from center right, 62 from center left.  61 and 62 are the two cards immediately under the top of my "A" Tarot reading from 1994.  Just two days ago, my wife's age changed from 61 to 62.  Last week on the way home, these numbers showed up many times as well on license plates.  Also interesting is that the leading 9 is the 180 degree rotation of the 6:The Lovers card that is at the top of the "A" reading.  Further 926 is one of the first key numbers that I started to see in 1993.  To me, it stands for The Hermit: GOD.  It has come up often over the years since then.  GOD is 7 15 4 = 7/22/26.

I was just thinking about one / One / ONE.  These come out to 16/25/34.  34 is the the final 2 of my present zip code.  I hadn't associated it with ONE before.  Indeed this is my Heart's Desire, to get the World to realize that it is ONE, and to get individuals to realize that they are all facets of the same ONE consciousness.   Hmm, just last week I watched the movie The Matrix again.  Keanu Reeves charactor has the nick NEO.  This is ONE circularly rotated left once.  Further, in the film, NEO is The ONE!  In his case, the one who breaks down the mass illusion of the matrix.  Is our reality any different from that?  How would we know?  How do we detect the difference between living in an elaborate simulation, and what is real?  As soul, we have immersed ourselves in a physical body or perhaps even a set of physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies.  Reality is created by how we interpret the information presented to our sensors.  Part of this information is the ideas that we are confronted with.  Individuals focus their awareness on those areas that give them pleasure, and those areas where needs must be addressed.  This starts at the physical, works up through the emotional, to the intellectual, and finally to the spiritual.  We can fulfill needs by controlling and minimizing them, or by doing what it takes to satisfy them as is.  The later is what causes people to get wrapped up in the trappings of material success.  Moderation is a much more practical path ... one that is far easier to tread.  Getting back to the question though, all that we ever experience is illusion.  We have an intimate choice in what that illusion will be, but it is all a play of consciousness.  It is all spirit expressing within the limits and confines of the self and the World(s) in which it exists.  I purposefully used (s) to stress the fact that there are indeed Worlds in which we exist.  At the very least, there is a physical world, and a spiritual world.  The maxim, As above, So below applies to these two.  Depending on how you experience things, you may also live in an emotional world and a mental world.  Appropriate that there would be corresponding worlds for each of the bodies.  Four is just a starting point.  There may be many more than this ... each offering one or more dimensions in which spirit can sing its song in flesh.

The words continue to flow forth.  My heart and emotions soar at experiencing this expression in this manner once again.  There is much to say, much that has not yet been revealed.  There is also much to experience and to realize.  I look forward to what lies ahead.  It seems we are in for an adventure once again.  As in the past, this will be a true trip for the mind, if not the spirit.  I am soaring again.  The mania has kicked in, but it is under control.  There is a fine balance that allows the creative expression to flow forth.  No Fear comes to mind.  That is what it takes to have the courage to allow spirit to do what she will ... or in this case say what she will.  Yes, spirit is she to me.  I experience her as feminine.  It has always been this way for me.  Consciousness is also feminine for me.  In fact, I use the two synonymously.  Spirit is consciousness and vice versa.  It may be that the works of spirit are all done through consciousness.  You shall know them by their works comes to mind.  I don't distinguish between spirit and soul.  Actually, I rarely use the term soul.  Primarily, because there is an individiated association attached to the term soul.  It is a part of spirit with a separate identity of its own.  Ultimately, this independent identity must be shattered to realize the true nature of spirit.  It is curious that I as 9:The Hermit ... live the most individuated of lives yet most desire to be ONE.  Then again, maybe that is not as incongruous as it may appear.  As the Hermit, in the most important of ways, I am already one.  I have a wisdom and deep tie to source, to the ONE, that I rely on to fulfill all my needs and direct my life.

Interesting, I = 9.  As you've no doubt noticed, I use "I" a lot.  Most of my expression comes from firsthand experience with the workings of my own consciousness.  Most of this has not been discussed with others, except in this one way flow on these pages.  My limited interaction with others makes it impossible to know to what degree this applies to others.  All that I know is this is what I have experienced and what I have determined that this experience means.  Hopefully, what I share will have relevence and will be of utility to others.  I trust that spirit has made me her voice, her scribe for a reason.  Regardless, I do it because I must, because this is the very nature of Whom That I Am.  In that regard, that I am witness to this creation is enough.  I have seen spirit express in this fashion.  The expression has indeed been made flesh, physical.  Yet, there is a sense that there should be more; that this expression should result in concrete manifestation that allows spirit to more fully be expressed in flesh.  My sense is that this lies in the creation of a new infrastructure for society in the world.  That is what led to the name BEYOND IMAGINATION:  Creating the Foundations for a New World in the first place.  That is what this is all about.  That is my task.  I've known it since my awakening in 1993.  Actually there were a few hints even earlier than this.  Curious that the initials are B I = be "I".  This brings to mind the answer God gave to Moses when he asked what name to use to address God.  I AM THAT I AM was the reply.  Reversing B I we get I B = I be, another version of I AM.  BI is also 29.  This is the same number as "beyond".  "imagination" is 58 = 2 x 29.  So we have 29 58.  I've expressed this as triangle numbers before.  29 is the Three of Wands: the tenth prime.  29+58 = 77:The Falconer = "CHRIST".  In all caps, this become 65  112.  Isn't that interesting.  65:King of Pentacles = Massive Abundance.  112 is our completion number for 888.  Breaking the code ... to realize 888, I need to experience 2184 and a Tower Experience.  104 came up earlier this week.  21 came up in triplicate TODAY!  My sense is that I'm in the midst of another 16 experience ... I've been in the process for several weeks.  The meaning for 112 came out recently as well.  65 is 5 x 13, another Death experience.  112 + 888 = 1000, the breakthrough into the next (fourth) dimension and to the experience of ONE.  This is also 10 x 10 x 10 = A x A x A, another form of the Triple A club; Awareness, Allowance, Acceptance.

There is a sense that it is all coming together right now.  The present is indeed the point of power.  This is the only moment in which we can experience anything.  So it takes IMAGINATION to complete 888.  The next step is BEYOND IMAGINATION!  There is a tide running through my body once again from my head to my thighs, up and down.  This is always a sign that I am on to something of great importance ... that a major realization has been achieved.  65 is 41(16).  This is "Wayne"!  The pentagon of 13:Death or the fifth major transformation of consciousness.   112 + 65 = 177.  The 999 completion for this is 822, reversed is 228 = 12 x 19, the ALL CAPS number for my name.  Each week, on my way back to work, I cross 8th St, then 22nd St in Banning.  Something says to read this backwards as 771 = 29 to 8 = 2928 = 1 day + 528.  928 is The Hermit: The Man with the World in His Hand.  "To" 928, is a transformation directive.  Since I found it, I assume it is to me.  928(16) = 2344 = "wayne" at 44, my age as of Apr 02.  771 = 9:69(78).  Curious, The Hermit: The Ace of Pentacles.

IMAGINATION = I  MAGI  NATION!  This seems to be tied to the observations earlier about those who are awakened becoming a nation unto their own.  Curious that the Magi are the wise men of the East who follow the Star to bring gifts to the newborn King.  And here we are, just days from the day that we celebrate as the birth of Christ.  Also curious that magic starts with Magi, tying back to the observations about the Harry Potter books from yesterday.   Also, the Little Drummer Boy was playing as I wrote this. 

Hmm ... I  M  A  GI  NATION = Israel, a variation of IS REAL!  GI's are soldiers.  Israel is effectively a military nation having to fight for its continued existence.  This is definitely what we need to get beyond.  In the Aquarian Age, as the song from the 60's says ... that Peace will rule throughout the planet, and Love will rule the Stars.

Also, the admonition is beyond "is real".  Now what could that mean.  We've talked about all that we experience being illusion.  What does it mean to be beyond "is real"?  91  9513 = 10 + 18 = 28: The Man with the World in His Hand.  That's it ... that is indeed what is beyond reality.  91=78+13:Death Exalted.  So we have major transformations surrounding 95:78+17:The Star Exalted.  This is also 513 to 919, span of 406 centered at 716 = The Chariot:The Tower.  Here we go again!

There is a sense that I am still missing something important here.  I've uncovered some of the puzzle pieces and started to put them together, but there is a lot more to go.  Fortunately, there is time as well.  95 is also 5 x 19, the pentagon of 19:The Sun.  So the image we get is of a pentagon with sides = 19,  in parallel between 91:Death Exalted on the left and 13:Death on the right.  That is "is real".  Hmm ... there is a sense that it is me in the middle.  I am that pentagon of 19:The Sun at this very moment.  I am also 228 = 12 x 19, the cube of the Sun.  Further, the sun on my chart is within 1/2 a degree of 19 Aries = 19 degrees.  I have worked for the Air Force and ultimately the Pentagon nearly all of my adult life.  Now, there is a sense that this image is of The Pentagon as well.  9/11 was the first major transformation ... hmm, so what will be the next one?

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne