Wow, another four months has passed since I was last moved to muse.  Time certainly flies quickly.  It's simply amazing how quickly sometimes.  Yet, that is no excuse for not writing.  I simply haven't been moved to write.  Oh, there have been a few correspondences, and several hours of chatting at Spirit Web Chat.  However, nothing substantial or regular about it.  I've been quite lethargic overall ... sleeping a lot more than normal.  It's as if I'm in a waiting mode ... awaiting a time when my destiny would play itself out.  Curious, there does not seem to be much that I can do other than wait.  Time marks the state of awareness, and nothing can happen before the time is right.

There are many signs that things are starting to stir, however.  Particular numbers are showing up in many contexts everywhere that I look.  These indications suggest that the time for carrying out my mission is forthcoming soon ... perhaps within months, but definitely within a year.  2184 = 888(16) is a destiny number for me.  It is the final four of my Social Security Number, so it signifies my "job" in this life.  Just yesterday, the total for my grocery bill came to $21.83, one penny short of this number.  887 came up several times just last week.  I realized this morning that 8/4/2001 is a form of 2184, starting from the 2 and moving through the 1 then circularly around to the 8 and 4 at the beginning.  Maybe this is a sign of a job shift in the immediate future.  I guess, we'll know soon enough.  This date is just one month away.  I've also had many signs that 2002 is to be a critical year for me.  Though, I still don't know in what way.  That's OK.  Its always great to be surprised by spirit.

Two people wrote to me last month about becoming students of the School Without Walls ... so the teacher in me is evoked once again.  It has been several years since this Beyond Imagination Foundation has had any activity.  Again, a sign that I and Beyond Imagination are to awaken from our slumbers.  It is about time.  I'm growing more restless with each passing day.  I am most alive when I am engaged in spiritual pursuits and am allowing Spirit to do her works through me.  This is when I am most joyous, and happy.  It is also when I am most aware and awake.  I look forward to whatever tasks Spirit would have me do.  Yes, I still do what I am moved to do.  Typically, I do not act until I am moved to do so.  I have no goals in my life ... only a deep-seated desire to serve Spirit as best I can by expressing spirit in flesh.

Tomorrow is the 4th of July, Independence Day in this country.  Several years ago, I wrote that we needed a Declaration of Cooperative Interdependence as a binding contract for a new society.  My attempts at getting the word out were meager at best, and did not result in the desired support for this new declaration.  Another indication that the time was not right.  For those interested, you can find my cut at this declaration in Issue #9 of The Search for Center newsletter.  Its key point was that Independence and Co-dependence are not viable concepts in a world that is ONE.  Only Cooperative Interdependence can address the needs of a unified world.  It seems the message is still premature.  The world is not yet ready to act as if it is ONE, even though it is ONE.  One simply has to look at the world from space to see how meaningless political boundaries are.  The lines on our maps mean nothing in that realm.

I've been moved to notice how things in the world are working, where they flow smoothly, and where the path is difficult.  It is not yet clear what I can do about any of it ... but the first step is to observe and notice.  I'm curious about things, more than I've been in some time.  I'm not sure where this is leading, but I do it because I must.  There is an irresistable force operating to keep me on the path that I alone must tread.  At least it seems this way to date, as I've been the lone traveller on this path.  Perhaps this is true for each of us ... that we all are unique in the path that we walk.  We can learn from others, but they cannot carry us on the way.  Then again, perhaps carrying is allowed for a time.  At some level, we are ONE.  So, who is the carried and who the carrier?  Interesting question.  What service is provided by our individuality?  Why must the separation that causes the illusion exist?  The answer is simple ... to provide the means for us to experience whom that we are.  Without separation, there are no parts to be experienced, there is simply the whole.

Doing what is mine to do.  That is one of the most challenging parts of existence.  How do I know what is mine to do.  My method has been to wait until I am so moved as to not have any real choice in the matter ... I simply MUST do what I am moved to do.  To date, this has worked well for me; allowing much to be done both in my work environment and in the context that is Beyond Imagination or Wayne's World.  However, there is a sense now that I could be, and should be, doing more.  Exactly what, I am not sure.  But there is a longing for greater creative expression in my life ... for finding a way for spirit to more fully express through me in flesh, HERE and NOW.  This longing comes from deep within.  It is not satisfied with all that I have accomplished to date because it is aware of what I could be, and what I am meant to be in this existence.  I cannot be content with living a common or traditional life.  There is a greatness within me that must see the light of day, and have its impact on the world.  It is not content to operate behind the scenes.  Rather, it would express in the world in a way that is direct.  Grandiosity rearing its head again?  Or, is this a correct assessment of my talents and abilities?  Whose job is it to tell?  Spirit will express as she must.  Such is the Plan of Consciousness.  I am but a player in this Plan, only given enough insight into the play to enact my role.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!

LOVE,

Wayne