Another year draws to a close.  In many ways it has been an uneventful year.  As you can tell from the musings for the year, I wasn't moved to express very much.  I was quieter than I've been at any time since the awakenings began in 1993.  However, there has been a lot going on in the past few weeks.  I'm starting to see the signs that tell me that spirit is on the move in my life once again.  As usual, I don't know exactly where she will carry me ... but I know that the spiritual journey is about to resume.  I'm excited by what lies ahead, more excited than I've been in over two years.  We'll have to see what comes to pass in the days, weeks, and months ahead.

At this time in 1993, I was busy writing Reality Creation 1010.  Can it really be that seven years has passed since then?  It is all such a blur.  I've found myself going back to my earlier writings many times over the past few months.  I am still amazed by the quantity and quality of the material that came through.  In many ways, it is as if I didn't originate it ... though I remember it coming through my mind and fingers into expression.  I find the material familiar, yet foreign at the same time.  It is still a new expression ... containing meaning at multiple levels, even though I've read through it many times.  I find it difficult to understand why I experience it in this fashion.  My memory is good at recalling general themes, but bad at recalling specifics.  In particular, the specific words and sentences that have been expressed through me do not remain locked within my memory ... they fade away even moments after I read them.  You would think by now, I might have memorized some of them, but such is not the case.  Then again, I rarely remember the specific words of anyone that I read.  I enjoy the words in the moment, and make a variety of connections and links to other ideas in my mind; but, I don't remember anything.  Even my favorite quotes have to be written down and posted on the wall or I can't recall them.

This has been how my mind has always functioned.  I trust it to remember what needs to be remembered and to recall what needs to be recalled when it is needed.  I've memorized my social security number, and phone numbers but little else.  Names are very difficult for me to remember ... unless I see people on a regular basis.  Even then, there are boughts of forgetfulness.  I've had limited interactions with others, so I don't really know how their minds work.  I did have a friend with a photographic memory, who literally saw books and pictures in his mind and could recall anything in them.  Such is far from my experience.  Books and movies are almost new each time I read or see them.

The process of writing is one of the most creative ones that I experience.  The words come forth out of nothingness ... with no sense of what will be said in advance.  I sit down to write with an open mind, trusting that the organizing functions will naturally take place to allow for a meaningful expression.  For the most part, I simply allow it to flow forth as it will, making minor corrections as necessary on the spot based on feeling tones of whether the expression is correct.  You might ask, correct in what sense?  There is an inner sense of whether the material is "right".  I've always had the innate sense to know.  It was not something I needed to learn or develop ... it was always there.

There is an inner shiver in my body; a sense that 2001 will be a very eventful year for the expression of spirit.  Even with all the hoopla for 2000, there never was that same sense.  From the middle, we have 00 20 to 00 21.  Hmm ... from 20:Judgement to 21:The World.  2002 is even more interesting.  00 22:The Fool Completed.  This happens to be my heart's desire.  Also, I found out last week that 2002 = 91 x 22 = 22:00(91), That marks the completion of the 22 cycle of 91.  It is also 22:66(88).  This is interesting because 22 and 66 are completion numbers for one another in base 88 and both are master numbers.

1:49 is 11 to 2:00 = 11:22:00.  This date occurred a little over a month ago, 11/22/00.  This is also the time span from 22:00 through 22:11.  In base 91, this occurs from 2002 through 2013.  It is if we have somehow passed a gate that will determine what occurs in the next 12 years.  11 and 22 are the first two Master Numbers, Master and Master Builder.  Overall, the 2200s will be a time of Building the Foundations for a New World, one in which spirit can more fully manifest in flesh.  I'm making this interpretation up as I go ... tying together many puzzle pieces that I have gathered over the years.  I've been wrong about dates in the past, but the shiver down my spine indicates that I'm onto something this time.  11/22/00 has already happened ... yet it reflects itself in the physical from 22:00(91) through 22:11(91).  Base 91 is appropriate because it is 78 + 13: Death Exalted.  This is a major transformational base.

1:49 is important for a variety of reasons.  My middle and last names are ELLIS HARTMAN.  Rearranging the letters we get LL is HEARTMAN.  LL is 12:12.  At the time I realized this, it was 10:23 AM.  10:23 + 1:49 = 12:12.  12:12 is the Hanged Man twice.  The Hanged Man hangs by his foot from a cross.  In seeing the world upside down, he sees the world rightly.  This is linked to another Hanged Man ... Jesus Christ, who also saw the world with a unique set of eyes.

My whole name is wayne ellis hartman jr = 23:21:30:10.  ELLIS and HARTMAN were already used.  The two outside numbers are 23:10, or 10:23 reversed.  Interesting that this corresponds to the exact time that I made the above discovery.  Such is how my life unfolds these days.  Numbers appear in many contexts and are correlated in ways that carry too much meaning to be chance occurrances.  Then again, I don't believe in chance.  Everything happens for a reason.  Everything has embedded spiritual meaning if we learn where to look and are open to allowing our intuition to discover the meaning.

I'm continually amazed at how few symbols are required to convey a large amount of meaning.  Each symbol builds upon the existing symbolic framework that has already been established to add a whole new level of meaning.  Generally, this occurs at multiple levels, so that no matter how you look, there will be some meaning relevent to your state of awareness.

Each of us uses symbols in creating and assigning meaning to our experience of reality.  In a very real way, at our highest level of operating, we are complex symbol systems.  This is the information age.  Symbols are the primary means of conveying and experiencing information.  Yet, few of us are aware of how we use symbols; and in a very real way, how we construct our reality via the interpretation we assign to the events and symbols that we experience.  Everything comes down to meaning ... the meaning we give to symbols in our lives.  This is what we really experience, our interpretation of what things mean.  To change our experience, we must change the meaning we place on things, experiences, and symbols.

Throughout our lives, we train in the art of expression and interpretation of symbols.  Yes, it is very much an art ... though it is not clear that many treat it as such.  As with other arts, it takes practice to become proficient.  In my case, I'm speaking from 20 years of intellectual practice involving metaphysical thought from reading over 1000 books, followed by nearly 8 years of intuitive practice subsequent to an awakening experience.  Yes, that is a lot of time to practice.  But, that is what it took for me to get where I am today.  Some might think that I've gone over the edge ... that I've ventured into never never land.  However, I don't believe that is the case.  I function well as an systems engineer by profession, where my intellect and reasoning skills are in high demand.  Yet, I also venture into the ethers, looking for spiritual meaning wherever I can find it, often embedded in everyday experiences and events.  Thus far, I've been able to keep my perspective in balance ... though I've had two times in my life where I lost my grasp of reality and had to go on extended leaves of absence (3 months and 2 months)  to recover.

Interesting ... I write, but I have no clue as to whom the audience will be.  I'll post this page tonight, but have no idea when or even if anyone will read it.  As always, I express what I am moved to express, trusting that my part is to allow what would come through to be expressed.  I then take the next step of "publishing" the expression to a website to make it available to anyone in the world.  It is then for spirit to guide whoever is to experience reading the work to the appropriate place at the Beyond Imagination website.  I don't advertise, nor do I charge for what I produce for spirit.  In a very real way, this is my volunteer job.  I do it for the sheer joy of doing it.  Also, it keeps me awake and charges my batteries in a way that no other activity in my life can do.  Perhaps that is why this was such an uneventful year.  I didn't "volunteer" enough of my time to do spirit's bidding.  Then again, I wasn't really moved to express in this manner ... with the exception of a few occassions.

That's OK.  What was expressed was what needed to be expressed.  I can only operate in the present.  I am spirit enfleshed now ... to a greater degree than I have ever been before.  I will continue to be spirit enfleshed until this journey in flesh is completed.  Then, I will move on to whatever other adventures are in store for me.  This consciousness, this awareness, will continue to be beyond all expression in flesh.  In a very real way, I AM consciousness experiencing form ... not form expressing consciousness.  There is a difference, a big difference.  I experience what I am.  I AM THAT I AM.  Is that not the name that God gave Moses when Moses asked by what name shall I call you?  A few years ago, I was moved to add THAT YOU ARE to the end of this phrase.  I seem to be the only one, on the internet anyway, using this phrase.  To me this adds the recognition that not only are we God enfleshed as individuals, we are also ONE!

Something from the movie Contact just came to mind, about highly intelligent aliens thinking in multiple dimensions.  This was the key that unlocked the mystery and enabled the humans to find the hidden meaning in all the information they had uncovered.  Without the key, there was no way to organize the information so that one could even begin to find meaning.  The intuition is a lot like that.  It speaks in symbols and connections on many levels.  The symbolic world is there, for anyone with the proper decoder to find.  But, it is the intuition that must be developed to do this decoding.  Actually, it may be more of "allowing" the intuition to do what she naturally knows how to do.

Interesting, it is now 4:28. That is 4 to 8 = 7:56, a very important confirmation number for me.  7 and 56 were the two center numbers of very important Tarot readings for me in 1994.  Whenever I notice it, it confirms that the expression is valid or the experiences that have just occurred have been properly interpreted.  Given that this time only occurs twice a day, and I am usually asleep for one of them ... and that 7:56 only occurs another two times per day.  There are only three minutes out of 1440 = 1 in 500 chance of seeing these numbers.  Then again, I also see numbers on license plates, and serial numbers on bills, and ...

I wonder how "common" my experience is with that of others.  My sense is that it is not very common at all.  Most of what constitutes meaning in my world would not mean anything to others.  Some of the machinations above are a case in point.  I can spend several hours a day involved with finding the meaning of various symbols and numbers that have caught my attention.  Much of this involves making connections where there were none before ... fitting the pieces of a puzzle together.  Such is what I do.  It consumes my attention and much of my free time.  One might say that it is my hobby ... though it is more engaging than my work.  I do it because it excites the fire within me.  It is what I have been programmed to do by my experiences to date.  I do it willingly, as a service to spirit.  In a very real way, it is my purpose for being here.  Further, the finding of meaning embedded in symbols has become as important to me as the air I breathe.  Such is why I exist.  I cannot imagine living without having one foot planted in the spiritual world of symbols.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!

LOVE,

Wayne