It seems like ages since the last time I was moved to write.  I'm trying to figure out what the next phase of my journey will be.  It is as if I'm stuck in the groove of a record ... unable to continue in my path due to a scratch of some type that keeps me repeating the same day to day and week to week routine.  There is a sense that inertia has set in to keep me doing what I'm doing.  It is time to choose differently so that I can experience life differently.  Maybe that's the problem.  I've been reluctant to choose a direction due to not wanting to exert my will ... and the result is the experience that I've been experiencing.  I sleep 9 hours at night and nap for an hour during lunchtime.  That is too much sleep to need for the body to function.  Then, even when I am awake, I struggle a lot just to stay awake.  This mirrors what my consciousness must do to stay aware.  The sense of aliveness is lacking.  I'm alert, but barely so.  There has to be a better way to live and to express.

Recently, I started taking action to control my food intake so that I eat more nutriciously.  This has resulted in some weight loss, but has not changed my level of energy.  I'm very sedentary, making minimal movements to accomplish the tasks at hand.  I guess this too will need to change.  My metabolism is very slow making it very efficient at using whatever it receives.  There is a sense that I need to find a way to change this and pick up the pace.

I'm still certain that massive change lies immediately before us.  The transition to a new age is just over the horizon.  There is much to do to make it manifest however.  The quality of the change that will be experienced is dependent on our actions now, especially any actions we take to become aware and know ourselves.  The new age brings with it a change in the level of planetary awareness.  I'm not sure exactly what that means, but there is a sense that the level of awareness of the remaining populous must match that of the planet.  It is as if we've shifted a grade level and only those who are ready to go will move on to the next class.

Tomorrow marks my 42nd birthday.  41 was an interesting year, but not a major turning point compared to other years since 1993 when the writings first began.  I'm not as high as I've been.  It is almost as if depression has set in.  I'm not excited about my life, my day to day existence.  Interesting.  I haven't had to deal with this state of mind in some time.  We'll see what the new year brings.  Yes, it is time to exercise my free will and start to DO things differently.  That is the key to manifesting change.  So long as we do things in the same way, we get the same results.  It is by doing new things or by doing old things in a new way that we introduce change into our lives.  This is always within our power to do.  Choosing to write now is a case in point.  It has been nearly two months since I last made that choice.  It is not that I haven't had the time.  I just didn't have the desire.

This writing is one of the few things that I have found can so fully capture my attention that I must stay awake.  It does not matter what comes through ... it is always what needs to be expressed in the moment.  I guess that means that I need to make this a regular practice once again and allow my intuition to bring forth the information that I am most in need of hearing.  Yes, I say hearing because it is a voice in my head that gets expressed through my fingertips on the keyboard.  I hear what is being expressed just prior to seeing it on the screen.  Now, what is it that consciousness would express through me at this moment?

You have been going through a period of adjustment.  The extended sleep is your way of cushioning yourself during the changes.  Others might choose to experience this differently.  You choose sleep as a way to cope.  You're going through a phase where there is not much happening in your neck of the world.  This bores you.  Your work is not as challenging as it could be ... it does not fully use all of your abilities.  However, it pays the bills ... so you must do it until you find another more direct way to meet your obligations.  At some point, this will not suffice.  You will demand more, and the proper circumstances will be created in your world.  This will happen when the time is right.  It is not something you can force.  However, you can do things that make it easier for the appropriate circumstances to manifest.  Of course, one of these is to write more often.  You need to express so that spirit can flow through you into your world.  Thinking is not enough.  Manifesting the words in physical form is crucial.  This is how you do what you are moved to do.  Writing is definitely it for you.  Just see how focussed and awake you are now compared to when you started writing an hour ago.  You can tell what is right for you by how excited and happy it makes you feel.  You cannot contain the elation that comes from spiritual expression.  That's just the way it is.

Don't worry about an audience.  Just allow the expression the freedom to go where it will trusting that what is expressed will indeed have value not only to you but to others who are meant to learn from your example.  But, am I making a difference by my presence in the world?  Indeed, you are ... but, it is not for you to know just how much.  For the meantime, you must trust that you are making the exact difference that you are supposed to make, no more and no less.  Though, this too will change in the times ahead when the feedback will be more direct and you will be allowed to see the results of what you do.  However, it all starts with these words and how you allow them to flow forth through your consciousness.  In many ways, you are still the scribe that you were in Egypt at a time when writing was a skill that very few people possessed.  Interesting, I've always felt a connection to Egypt and the pyramids.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!

In Peace, Love and Light,

Wayne