The blank page calls out once more to be filled with whatever Spirit would express at this time. I never know what that is going to be. It is always a magical, creative process ... bringing out what is best in me, or more correctly the best that can be brought forth through me. Interesting, even after six years, the process is still the same. It is as if I am on automatic. I am the scribe for an essence and intelligence that is greater than I am consciously aware of. Yet, in a very real way, this essence is still me ... a greater Me, but still me. This is in line with the key technique I employ on my path ... finding what is not me then integrating that into whom that I am.

What more can I say? It seems that whenever it appears that the well has gone dry, a new gusher opens up to fill it. Consciousness supply is endless. Yet, I am only moved to write once in a while. At one time, this was a daily occurance for several hours per day. I'm still amazed at what was able to flow forth. If you haven't seen the writings do take the time to walk in my mind for awhile. Perhaps it will trigger you to enter to similar states that I have be blessed to experience.

Doing what I am moved to do ... that is the prime directive that I have been given. It is spirit that does the moving, and her direction is always best. How do I know this? I just do. Such is my experience, and that in the long run is all that really counts. Experience indeed is the most important part of our reality. It is what defines us. It reflects back to us whom that we are. It is the reality that we are exposed to in this existence. This forms the basis of self understanding and self realization.

Received three requests for exchanging links in the past few days. In all three cases they were worthy sites so I obliged. This is how we create a web. We find kindred sites and then establish links between us. It seems that it is time to spend more effort doing this. In the past I trusted that Spirit would take care of bringing those who were meant to be exposed to this material to my site. But, that doesn't mean that I shouldn't be expending effort to make spirit's job easier. I think the offers for link exchanges were spirit's way of showing me that this is a valid way of bridging out to others. So, anyone else with a kindred site ... I'll be happy to exchange links.

My bill for dinner tonight came to exactly $8.22 = 228 reversed. On Sunday evening a white van passed me and then immediately slowed down to take an offramp to another freeway. It's license plate ended in 888. It was peculiar because I saw it overtaking me on the right. As soon as it got to where I could read the license plate, it slowed down so that it was no longer in front of me. 228 and 888 are two very important numbers to me. That they came up so prominently in such a close time span is remarkable. There is a sense that this indicates a completion of some type is at hand. I can't wait to see what comes next! Then again, I have no choice but to wait.

I still have difficulties with free will, and expressing my will. My wish is to use my will to express Thy will to the degree that I can. At this time, my will directs me to come here, to this place where I can fill the blank page with my words, where I can make the unknown known and express what has not been expressed before. Each opportunity brings with it the challenge of making the Word manifest. And, once expressed, the words cannot be rescinded. They have crossed the bridge from imagination to reality ... even if it be only mental reality at first.

What am I moved to do? Yes, that indeed is the million dollar question. At this point, I simply do not know. Yet, I am ready for my life to take a new direction. I'm open to what this might be, but I'm probably not yet open enough or the change would already have occurred. That offers a new course for action. To see where my energy and my world are blocked and find ways to remove the blockages. There is a sense that I am blocked emotionally. There is very little opportunity in my life to express what I feel. Then again, I'm still very self-critical and fear what others might think. I'm not sure where this comes from. It has been there since my childhood. I experience emotions deeply, but I don't often express them. Thinking about emotions seems to be a completely foreign domain to me. One experiences emotions. They move one ... they don't require thinking about them. At least, such is how I experience emotions. Much of the time my expression is blank. Most of the time, I'm relaxed and somewhat bored by the world. I know, this is my own fault for not filling my life with those things worthy of my excitement. The only thing that truly excites me is the expression of spirit. I haven't found a way to bring this excitement into my work world or to my home world. At present, I live in three worlds ... a work world in LA, a home world in Cathedral City, and a spirit world that is everywhere. I have not found a way to extend my excitement from the spirit world into either my work world or my home world.

There has to be a way. I just haven't found it yet. The worlds overlap. The spirit world is embedded in both the work world and the home world. It shows up everyday in different ways, especially in synchronicities such as the numbers I talked about before. It would be great if my work world, my home world, and the spirit world could be united and made one. My work should be simply that, doing whatever I am moved to do. This includes observing the world and reporting on the greater meaning of what I observe. This would require being paid to be a scribe for consciousness. What is the saying ... do what you love and the money will follow. We've been at this for nearly seven years and are still waiting for the money to follow. Though, my job has had some interesting numbers associated with my compensation. I once wrote that the spiritual job had to be volunteered for or it would not be done at all. Volunteer is associated with done for free in my mind, done for the sheer joy of doing it. Perhaps that is one of the blockages. I've limited how spiritual work can be compensated unneccessarily. It is time for this to change. I'm open to having some corporation or individual pay me to do what I most love to do ... to express spirit in flesh to the greatest degree possible for me in this existence. I offer to give all that I am ... and the best that I can be in exchange for getting sufficient income to get what I need. Right now, I get income sufficient to pay for my material needs. But, this does not satisfy all of my mental, emotional, and spiritual needs.

Perhaps in the days, weeks, or months ahead we'll see this change and I'll be offered a social contract to engage my talents for the good of all mankind rather than for the Air Force that I now serve. The social structure does not presently allow this to happen. It seems that it would take a beneficiary who wanted to fund a social experiment. So be it!

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!

LOVE,

Wayne