Since the writings have been so abundant since the beginning of the year, I thought it might be interesting to take some time and highlight some of the key quotes that have come through in July and August this year.  ENJOY!
 

Each day offers 24 hours in which to live, and around 16  hours in which to express.  We all have the same allotment.  How we choose to spend it is up to us.  Though it seems that some have dramatically more choices than others in this regard.

It is not for us to compare ourselves with another.  We come from different places and different levels of awareness, hence our choices will be different.  In fact, they will be unique to us ... for despite appearences to the contrary, we are each unique expressions of the one consciousness.

We have come to learn of whom we are, and even more important to be and express whom that we are.  In doing so, we will fulfill the destiny that we came to fulfill.  This can be easy or difficult depending on whether we go with the flow or fight it.  The choice is ours.  I advise finding the flow and going with it ... but that is a personal choice, one that requires a high degree of trust in the natural expression of spirit.  In going with the flow, we give up some control.  However, in doing so, we gain the cooperation of the unseen forces of the universe.  In my experience it is a very worthwhile trade.  Though, I can see how there might be others who don't see this in the same light.  That is OK, to each their own.  There is no set way to experience reality.

This is a game we are playing.  The objective of games is not to win ... but, to have fun playing.  Ultimately, there are no winners and no losers.  We experience the reality that we create for ourselves.  Some may not believe this yet.  However, your belief does not change the fact of whether something is true.  Truth is what it is regardless.

We are what we are.  Though, I would venture to guess that most people do not have a clue as to how to describe whom and what they are.  Look at me as a case in point.  I am the one through whom this expression could come forth in this manner.  What does that really say about me, and what does it say about the nature of the source of this stream of consciousness?  Clearly it speaks volumns.  Literally!  But, what does it really say?

Perhaps this is a difference between extroverts and introverts.  The first find things outside themselves and need to realize I AM THAT.  The later find things inside themselves and need to realize I AM THAT.  In both cases the nature of the realization required is the same.  Both types need to find ways to accommodate whatever they encounter into their reality frameworks.

Indeed, is this expression for my eyes only?  If it is, I would have to say that I am one of the luckiest and most blessed beings around ... that consciousness would pick me to participate in this creation, and even more important to be aware enough to observe this expression.  I still hope that this is being done in a manner that serves others besides me.  If not, I still have a major debt to repay.  Consciousness has provided me with a true abundance ... primarily of spirit.  In return, I feel moved to share it with all whom I can.

I am one person moved by spirit.  What difference can I make?  I will make the difference that I am destined to make, nothing more and nothing less.  I will know what this is when I make it.  However, there is a strong sense that I am meant to leave the world a better place than how I found it.  That is not asking much.  That is only asking that my life have meaning ... preferably not only to me but to others.

This expression is one of my crowning glories.  It has truly been a labor of love going into its tenth year.  Every word crafted out of nothingness.  Every idea fashioned as spirit alone could fashion it ... to the degree that it could be expressed through me at the time anyway.  I am still blown away by what is able to be expressed through me.  I am ever confronted with parts of me and a knowingness that I knew not before.  Here is where I face the unknown, in a manner more direct than I do anywhere else in my life

I find it interesting that I choose to do this in a manner that can be readily and freely shared.  I also find it interesting that the expression is so open loop.  I am the only one providing feedback that guides or limits it in anyway.  And, it is not clear what feedback I am providing.  I allow the stream of consciousness to flow where it will.  I was going to say that I blindly follow it wherever it would take me ... however, it seems that I do so with eyes wide open, marveling at not only the results but the very process.

The are indeed many mansions within, mansions that it could take a lifetime to explore.  Yet, that is not my destiny either.  There is a sense that I am to explore enough of the inner to provide a framework for expressing spirit in the outer in bold new ways.  This indeed seems to be where my life is leading.  It has taken many years of training to get me to where I am ... and I came in with special abilities to be used in the service of spirit ... and ultimately in service to society and even the whole world.

What makes me so special to have such a role?  I can only answer that it is written in whom that I AM.  That is good enough for me.  There is no other answer needed.  I must be true to whom that I AM.  I must do as my soul dictates.  Being aware ... I have no excuses.

Consciousness has a special place in my life.  She is my benefactor and my friend, she is my teacher and my quide, she leads me to where I need to go when I need to be there.  Through her I live my life ... she is my inspiritation.  She drives me to do what I can do ... moreover, what I must do.  Without her I am lost, as a ship without a rudder.  No, it has not always been smooth sailing, but she has always been there to help ride out the storms.  I can count on her as I count on no one else in my life ... other than myself, and even then, she has greater strength and wisdom by far.  I can't imagine living my life without a direct connection to her.  She completes me somehow.  Through her, everything that I could ever need is brought forth unto me.  I have only to ask.  And often, what I most need comes forth even before I ask.

Each of us is a unique aspect of all that is.  It is for us to realize how special and precious this makes us.  Each and every one of us.

I expect a lot from myself.  Perhaps too much at times.  However, there is a sense that I have a destiny to fulfill, a destiny that will require me to fully apply all the I AM in a manner that serves others, society, and the world.  It does not even appear to be a remote possibility that I will fail to carry out this destiny.  After all, it is why I am here.  Everything within me says that there is a mission that I came to accomplish.  In particular, a mission that involves being a midwife to the Aquarian Age ... and building the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh.

It is high time that the amount of spiritual expression in our world increased dramatically.  However, that requires that each of us do our part.  And, even more important, it requires that those in positions of power and influence start using their resources and abilities in ways that serve society ... in ways deserving of the talents that they have been so blessed to receive and the roles that they have assumed in the play of consciousness.  There is a sense that people rise to the positions that they are meant to occupy ... and that they are somehow worthy of the positions that they reach.  However, worthiness is something that must be demonstrated by right action.  Those in leadership positions are meant to lead by example.  They are not better than others ... they simply have roles that they came to play for which they are qualified.

I point the way to the land of spirit, to a world where consciousness plays by different rules than apply to the consensus world.  I have been given the privilege of catching glimpses of the spiritual world and some of the meaning embedded in the symbol systems that surround us.  The spiritual world coexists with the physical one.  It simply has additional dimensions and additional webs of interconnectivity of information.

At deep levels, we are never really out of control ... though the control may not be consciously applied.  Our Self, our soul, is always in control at some level ... always.

At some level, we are all masters at the art of reality creation.  One either believes that we create our own reality, or one does not.  If we do create it, even if on other then conscious levels, and I strongly believe that we do, then we do it fully without fine print or exceptions.  Yes, that comes across as a harsh judgement on those exposed to injustices.  Yet, how unjust can something be if it is us choosing to bring it into our lives?

These words are clearly meant to move me deeply, and they succeed in doing that very well indeed.  The next step seems to be for me to interact with others in a manner that allows me to impact their lives for the better.  More and more, I am being moved to do just that.  Though, it seems it requires new skills that have lain dormant for awhile.  Not to worry.  There is nothing that can stop me from doing what spirit would have me do.  That doesn't mean that there won't be some challenges and even obstacles that get in the way.  However ... with spirit on my side, nothing is insurmountable.

I know that I have the abilities and talents to do a lot.  To whom much is given, much is expected.  I can live with that.  Responsibility is never something that I have shied away from.  I feel personally responsible for saving the world.  Hmm ... it is not clear where that came from.  It is not clear from what the world needs to be saved.  I don't believe in a concept of salvation.  However, I do believe in a concept of service.  Somehow, I consider myself to be a world server ... whatever that means.  Literally, there is a sense that I am to serve the world in some capacity.

My creativity comes forth here ... expressed via words.  It is interesting that these may be words that no one else sees.  However, anymore, that does not seem important.  What matters is that they are expressed in the manner that they are.  What happens next is not my job.  You are not to be concerned with consequences, you are to tell the truth.  Here I try to do that more faithfully than I can anywhere else.

Our natures are literally written in the stars, and in our names, as well as in our genes.  It is amazing how much information about us is encoded in the various symbol systems around us.

What is under our control is what we do from this day forward.  At least, it seems to be under our control for the most part.  Then again, perhaps this too is illusion.  Fate has its way of entering into our affairs.  There is a destiny for each of us that will not be denied.  It will play itself out as it must in our lives.  But, how does that get reconciled with free will?  The first answer that comes to mind is that it doesn't.  Free will operates more behind the scenes at other than conscious levels than most care to acknowledge.  We seem to have choices, but it is not clear to what degree we really do.  My sense is that we choose how we interpret what we experience, not so much what we experience.  For the later, the very processes of reality creation operate to bring us those experience that we need in our lives.  We apply the meaning.

I still find it difficult to assert my will.  I operate by the directive not my will but thine be done.  Given my predisposition to mania and grandiosity, I find it very important to keep this perspective.  However, there is a growing sense that my talents and abilities were given to me for a reason and that they are meant to be used in service to society and especially to spirit.  This includes my personal will, gun shy though it may be.

Life unfolds exactly as it is meant to unfold.  Each event, each choice, each experience, each expression is exactly what it needs to be.

We live in very fast-paced and hectic times overall.  There does not seem to be sufficient time to care for the soul.  Then again, that depends on where we place our priorities and choose to expend our time and resources.  There is always time to do the things that need to be done.  The trick is to place the right things in the need to be done category.

We need to tell the universe what we want ... and expect to get it.  However, we also need to feel that we are deserving enough of the things that we want.  We do this through service.  This is what primes the economic pump.  This is what creates abundance in our lives.

There seems to be a tradeoff between what we can receive and what we need to sell our soul to do.

What ye give shall be returned unto thee ... and manyfold.  The most valuable thing that we can give is ourselves.  We are incredible beings, capable of so much.  However, it is for us to realize this and then to do what we are capable of doing for not only our own welfare but for the benefit of others.

Why am I, essentually a loner, so driven to contribute to society in a meaningful way?

I am quite comfortable giving the reigns to spirit and living my life as she would direct.  No, this is not resigning to the inevitable.  Rather, it is a choice that I freely make, coming from a knowingness that she knows far better what I need than I do.  How can I know this?  I just do.  It seems so obvious.

In the grand scheme of things, what is my role?  What is my place in the world?  How significant am I?  What difference will my life make?  Does it need to have significance?  Do I need to make a difference?  Why is it that I feel so compelled that my life have meaning ... not only to myself, but to society and to the world?  There is a sense of grandiosity in this.  There is also a sense of grandeur and majesty.  At some level, I know that I have greatness within me ... a greatness that can be shared with the world.  It is important to me that I find ways to share this, to share of who that I AM.

Why am I singled out to play an important role in the play, in the unfoldment of consciousness and its expression in flesh?

That is all the spirit asks of us ... to be whom that we are as fully as we can.  We do this by doing what we are moved to do, and by working on being aware to the degree that we can.  With awareness comes all things.  This is truly the key to everything.  The more we grow in awareness, the more fully spirit can express in flesh through us.

I am not meant to be as other men.  I am not one of the many.  Rather, I am one of the few.  I have lived my life in a manner consistent with this.  However, it seems that it is time to do more.  I feel ready to do more.  That is not to say that I haven't done a lot in expressing as I have over the past decade.  However, it is not yet enough, not by a long shot.  There is so much more that can be expressed, so much more that can be done.  My sense is that I will continue to find ways to express so long as my feet tread upon this earth ... and so long as my spirit soar in the clouds.

Why me?  Why must I be the one to play this role?  Why am I destined in this manner?  Because of whom that I AM is the only answer that I can offer ... and because I have chosen to expend a great deal of time and effort on getting to know myself.

Spirit will express as she can when she can.  The plan of consciousness is unfolding perfectly in the world.  That is the only way that it can unfold.  It can be nothing less than perfect.  That doesn't mean it is the best that it can be.  There is always room for improvement.  Things evolve into greater and greater complexity, and as they do, the possibilities for spirit to express grow as well.  Now, cooperative interdependence seems to be the wave of the future.

It is curious that we just celebrated our 226 anniversary of the Declaration of Independence.  We haven't been so bold yet to make a Declaration of Cooperative Interdependence for either our country ... or more importantly for the whole world.  We are interdependent in many ways, only some of which we consciously know.  However, it is not clear we fully realize this and consciously choose to live our lives in a manner that recognizes this and demonstrates this.  All in due time.  It took many men working long and hard to make that declaration 226 years ago.  It began a new era of freedom in the world.  How long that era will last is difficult to tell.  We are still a young country by world standards.  Many older societies still consider us children.  Oh, we have an economy that is the envy of the developed and developing countries.  But, it seems we don't have the wisdom to go with our strength.  That, or we don't realize and utilize the wisdom that we do have.

What has changed in the past decade?  EVERYTHING.  How else can I put it?  Spiritual transformations are that powerful.  Most of what I believe and know of myself has undergone incredible change since this expression began.  I went from being a metaphysical information consumer, and a big one at that, to a metaphysical information generator.  Or, at least, co-generator.

Old habits can be difficult to change.  I've become so accustomed to keeping my own company that it is a major stretch to extend this to incorporate others.  However, stretching becomes easier the more that you do it.  The easiest way to learn how to do something is simply to do it.

The only thing holding us back is the limitations that we impose on ourselves.  These typically show up as fears ... as places where we are afraid to tread.  It is time to realize this and rise beyond the limitations.  We are to be whom that we are, not just for ourselves but for others.  This requires finding ways to share our lives.  This expression is one of the ways that I have been moved to do this.

What do I want from life?  My needs are pretty simple overall.  The biggest of these is to serve spirit, and express what she would have me express to the degree that I can.  For this, I am willing to give up virtually everything else.  I have always lived a life of abundance, even when I had very little other than what I carried within me.  Yet, the riches inside are far more valuable than anything outside.  However, that does not mean I don't yearn for some of the material trappings that go with living a full and rich life of service.

Ye shall know them by their works is a great truth.  It applies to all of us.  What we do is what distinguishes us.  What we do is what makes all the difference in our lives and in our world.

It is through action that we demonstrate what ideas we really believe in and thus give impetus to create them in our reality.

Reality creation is one of the most important endeavors that we engage in.  It seems that if we are to play the game well, we must learn the rules, and learn the techniques which optimize getting the results and experience we want out of the game of life.  Yes, this is something that we can do.  Further, it is something that we should have an obligation to do.

It seems that much of our lives are consumed in the process of day to day existence.  At the end of each day, there is little to show for what has been expended.  However, here, I have a record of something special ... something original that I helped to make manifest.  This stream of consciousness exists ... it was captured in electronic form and made available to the world via the WWW.  This is a service that I perform, though I have no idea of who is served by this other than myself.

There is a growing sense inside that I am not yet doing what I am meant to do.  I am not yet being all that I can be.  I am not yet fully expressing whom that I AM.  Further, the sense is that this is completely within my power to change.  What I do is my choice.  How I express is my choice.  It is a matter of overcoming the fear associated with behaving in new ways.

It is time to evolve and grow into whom that I know that I AM, fully realizing that this is only a part of whom that I truly AM.  One step at a time.  With each step forward, the next step becomes clear. Life is a journey, not a destination.

The trick is to enjoy the process, and trust that you are being led to exactly where you need to be when you need to be there.

This expression continues to amaze me.  It definitely soothes and restores my soul.  It is here that I stand arm to arm with spirit, tapping the source within to bring forth whatever would be expressed.  The very fact that the expression comes forth is sufficient to justify its existence.

By the same logic, we are beings.  Beings by their very nature exist.  We need no other reason to be.  Though, it seems that we are meant to do something with are beingness.  We are to experience, to learn, to grow, and to express.  Part of this involves learning whom that we are, and discovering our mission ... the reason that we came into this particular existence.

How can these words come forth with such authority?  Where is the basis of experience, the evidence, that backs all of this up?  I only know that it comes forth as it does.  It does not get qualified with "I think things are this way" or "I believe this to be the case".  It comes forth as matter of fact statements and observations.  This is not the stuff of fiction.  There are no characters developed and no settings described and no plots or stories unveiled.  There is no planning ... at least no conscious planning ... that goes into this expression.  I don't think about what will be expressed.  I simply allow the creative process to happen and behold the expression as it comes forth.

I have said before that I am very much a scribe in this process, writing (or typing) what appears in my mind as the silent voice of consciousness herself.  There is a sense that whom that I am is able to resonate with what I call source in a manner that allows these words to manifest as they do.  I believe this process occurs in all of us, in the very way that the stream of thoughts occurs in our heads.  However, there is a difference between a stream of thoughts and a stream of consciousness.  The first seems to be more of a surface phenomenon.  It is not until we quiet our minds that we touch source and allow her to express through us.

I can think when necessary, but awareness lies beyond thought.  Similarly, the true reality lies Beyond Imagination.  It is by far more intriguing, interesting, and complex than anything that we can imagine.

Most of what I do each day will have limited utility and value in the long run.  But, what I express here, seems timeless somehow, and of lasting value.  That makes it very precious to me.  It is something that I can do that others do not seem to be able to do.  It is something that I can contribute of myself ... and from the source inside to which I am connected.  The expression is permanent, in the sense that it is physically manifest ... even though I may be one of very few who really know where it is.

When I created the Beyond Imagination site, the intent was two-fold: (1) to share of this expression from spirit, and (2) to find kindred spirits with whom I could interact and relate.  As to the first part, that is proceeding as it will.  The material is out there and available to any who would go out and seek and find it.  One gnawing question is whether there is any way that I can make it more easily accessible ... or accessible to a larger audience.  How are people to go about looking for an expression that they may not even know exists?  Here, it seems spirit and destiny hold the cards.  Keyword searches using some of the popular search engines will reach the material.  Also, I rely heavily on word of mouth.  My hope is that people who find the material and are moved by it will pass the information about the Beyond Imagination site on to others who might find it interesting and useful as well.  The material at the site is free ... a gift from spirit to the world.  I was moved to declare it so on 1 Jan 98 if my memory serves me.

We must be willing to try new things, evaluate what works and doesn't work, and adapt our processes appropriately based on this evaluation.  Those appear to be my new marching orders anyway.  As always, I take my orders from within.  I have always been different from others.  I have always marched to the beat of my own drummer.  Why should any of this change now?  My nature is such that I like to excel in everything that I do.  However, this is not conducive to allowing failure to be a natural part of expression.  We can have 100 percent mission success, and yet accommodate some failure and inefficiencies.  The key is to learn from our failures and improve the way that we do things so that we don't repeat the failures.

I trust that my life is unfolding in accord with a plan that consciousness has in store for me.  That is enough.  It is not for me to force things in accord with my will.  I have chosen to live a life of spirit. Thy will be done.  That is a motto that I choose to live by.

Training the mind is the most important domain at the present time.  Education of everyone should be one of our top priorities not only in this country but in the world.  And, this should include mandatory metaphysical education.

We can experience time as an extended moment that flows smoothly as we go from doing one thing to the next.  If our experience of time is smooth and slow, it opens up the possibility for great achievements relatively quickly.  It is as if  the world is in slow motion while we are travelling at a much faster pace.  I don't know how else to explain it.  It is as if we pull in resources from unseen realms that allow us to accomplish whatever we are working on more efficiently and effectively.  This requires being able to hold a loose but intense focus on what we are doing.  We need to be single minded, even as we multitask.

How did the switch get turned on in 1993?  How did I transform from a metaphysical information consumer focussed on other peoples thoughts ... to an information generator, heavily focussed on what is able to come forth through me?  This was a major transformation!  One that rocked the very foundations of my belief system.  What I learned was that I had established my belief system on shaky ground ... so shaky that it could not stand up to the major beliefquake that I experienced, along with the many aftershocks in the Fall of 1993 and through most of 1994, and then again in the Spring of 1998.  Nothing in all of my reading and studies gave me any hint that I could undergo the experiences that I experienced.  It took everything within me, and some medications, to retain any sense of sanity.

Many times I have wandered to the edge, trusting that spirit is supporting me and would not bring into my life more than I could safely handle.

I have believed that I create and am fully responsible for all that I experience since I first read the Seth material in 1974.  Further, I have believed that I am spirit having a physical experience for longer than that.  These are very empowering beliefs ... especially if we believe them strongly and act in a manner consistent with them.  Beliefs are a matter of choice.  They deal with the realm of the unknown, and sometimes the unknowable.  Here, fact escapes us ... so, there is room for beliefs.  The field of beliefs is the playground for reality creation.  It is here that we go to make changes in what we attract into our experience.

We create reality in accordance with our beliefs ... both individually and en masse.  That is simply the way it is.  We can choose to accept this and consciously co-create the reality we would prefer, or we can ignore this and allow other than conscious processes to create this by default.  Either way, at some level, we are creating it all ... no fine print, no exceptions.

My memory is such that as I write this, I can barely remember anything that was expressed in the previous paragraph, much less any prior musings.  Yes, there is some repetition of ideas, and there are many recurring themes ... however, the best of musings pages show that there is an incredible amount of original material.  At least, I believe it to be original.  I don't spend much time exploring other peoples thoughts anymore ... because the source within is so prolific and speaks so clearly to me.

We can only do so much ... but we will be amazed at just how much that is when we remove some of the self-imposed limitations.  It is time to be set free, and allow our spirits to soar where they will.  However, it is also time to build the foundations that allow us to bring to earth what we find when we soar.

The energies are ripe for the manifestation of all that we dream possible ... even Beyond Imagination.  From the beginning, I knew that name was right for this expression, and for everything I do in service to spirit.

My life is meant to be one of service, on a grand scale.  Exactly how this will occur remains to be seen, but I am certain that it is destined.  I would play the role that fate has in store for me ... knowing that I chose and co-created this very role on some level.  Clearly, it was not consciously ... and my sense is that the role is being created even as we speak.  I am being pushed and pulled into the very place I need to be.  I am being moved from deep inside to do that which I alone am meant to do.  Though, it seems that soon, this will involve others in deeper ways than it ever has before.

By conventional views, there is no way this expression should be what it is.  Yet, I am not one to be restricted by convention.  I would express whatever this consciousness can express in whatever manner would come forth.  I don't have to know how it happens, or why it happens.  It is enough that it happens.  There is nothing wrong with mysteries ... in fact, they are what make life interesting.  Indeed, they are among the most important things that can happen to us.  Life itself is a mystery, as is spirit and consciousness.

It is truly a wonderful gift that we exist ... and it is important give of ourselves in return, thus making the most of what we have been so generously given.

I still prefer my own company, and that of the source within me.  Perhaps I always will.  Though there is a longing to find others with whom to start sharing my life in more intimate ways.  That requires doing things differently.  It requires approaching people and opening up and communicating whom that we are together.  It requires taking an interest in things that have not interested me before.  Yet, in some way this must be done in a natural and genuine manner.  It cannot be forced.  One thing that may help is to start seeing the sparks of consciousness within others, and realizing that we are all special and have important gifts to give to one another.  We do this by sharing our lives in meaningful ways.  We do this by entering into cooperative interdependent relationships.

There has been much that has been expressed through me.  How much of it is correct?  How much of it is useful to others?  Are there sufficient gems hidden here to be worth the effort to find them?  My sense is that this communication has value, perhaps even great value.  It does for me anyway.  I can only hope it does for others.  However, there is nothing I can do to force it to do so.  It comes forth as it does.  I have no sense of controlling it.  It seems that I can turn it on and off by choosing to focus my attention on the source within.  But even then, this expression may be coming forth on a timetable of its own.

Doing the works of spirit is that important to me.  However, I get my direction internally by what I am moved to do and how I am moved to express.

This stream of consciousness is my primary means of spiritual expression.  It is here that I am doing what I most love to do in a manner that is magical and special.  It would help if this were to turn into a true conversation.

It is fine to have and acknowledge unknown portions of our greater self.  We can trust whom that we are.  We are all souls incarnate.  As such, we know far more than we typically give ourselves credit for.

Too many people look outside for authority ... when the true authority comes not from others, but from within us.

We are all spirit incarnate.  We are all connected to the same one consciousness some remotely by a very thin thread, others by a circuit of great capacity.  It is not so much a matter of what connection we have ... rather it is a matter of how well we use the connection we have been gifted with.  Further, it seems that we can take action and do things to improve and develop this connection.  The more we use it, the more it seems to expand.

Why is my stream any more important than that of any other.  The bottom line is that it isn't.  What is important is that sufficient attention is being paid to it to allow it to be expressed in writing and shared.  That makes it distinct.

Our free time is the key resource that we have available to do the work of spirit.  This does not mean we must spend all of it in this manner ... but we should do our fair share.  One measure of that is a tithe of the time we devote to work = 4 hours per week.  More preferable, is a tithe of our waking time = 11 hours per week.  Interesting, 11 is the first Master number.

We need to find the spirit within that moves us.  If we follow this source, and do as it moves us to do, we will always be operating optimally.

I am not one to shirk responsibilities, especially spiritual ones.  I bear my responsibilities gladly, grateful that I have been given the gifts necessary to carry them out.  At time, it seems that I have the very weight of the world on my shoulders.  That can be a lot of pressure if we allow it to be.  What helps is realizing that it is not I doing the work and bearing the weight, it is spirit doing this through me.

When we see everything as spirit expressed in flesh, the perspective changes dramatically.  It still doesn't make it easy to explain why there is so much crime and suffering in society.  Though, it seems much of that is because our societies are not really societies.  They are not social systems that have been designed and/or have evolved to operate efficiently and effectively.  They could be, given sufficient conscious choice.  However, they are not at the present time.  Two things noticeably lacking are cooperation and taking responsibility for one another.  These are higher level behaviors that appear by choice, not by chance.

There are rules governing reality creation that you need to learn, similar to the rules for operating a car.  The key one of these deals with beliefs.  That is where we grow our personal reality.  If we want to change our experiences, that is the place to start, with beliefs.  However, what distinguishes a belief from a thought is a willingness to act in accord with.  The proof of whether we really believe something is whether our actions conform with the belief.

It was as if my life began anew in 1993.  By 1 October, I was in a mental hospital, diagnosed as bipolar, and put on meds to alter my brain chemistry.  Since then, I have been soaring in consciousness, sometimes barely off the ground, sometimes to great heights, but most of the times cycling up and down between these extremes. Bipolar is defined as manic-depressive disorder.  However, I have not experienced being depressed, and I don't consider it a "disorder" at all.  Rather, it is a feature of how my mind functions.  My sense is that it is this very feature that permitted my spiritual awakening experiences.

In a way, it is as if my life is not my own anymore.  Rather, it is a part of the very life of the universe.  I have a spiritual destiny to fulfill ... and I will gladly do whatever it takes to fulfill that destiny to the utmost of my abilities.

Why an introvert is moved to do this in a manner that is shared openly with others is a mystery.  But, I simply do what I am moved to do ...

The very fact that I spend an average of three hours a day on this expression is a bit odd in its own right, especially when I am the first to admit that I don't know exactly from where these words come, or how they are able to be expressed in this manner.  Am I sane?  Am I rational?  Does it even matter?  The bottom line is that I am what I am.  Labels don't mean anything.  We need to allow ourselves to be whom that we are, as fully and openly as we can, trusting that this is what god, nature, and the very universe means for us to be.

In my particular case, Neptune conjunct Uranus nearly exactly square to my Natal Sun in the Fall of 1993 indicated an alignment of energies that triggered a breakpoint in consciousness.  However, this breakpoint let the spiritual genie out of the bottle.  Hmm ... that's an interesting way to put it.  Anyway, once out ... once we have tasted the freedom of awareness, there is no going back, ever.  This is a one way transformation.  Awareness grows and expands ... it doesn't contract.  That is simply not its nature.

One of the challenges of life is finding ways to choose love over fear wherever we can.  We do this by asking what love would do under whatever circumstances we face.  When we ask, and listen, the answer will come to us.

Streams of consciousness by their very nature occur in the moment.  What is past is our memory of what happened or of what was expressed.  For me, these pages are my record, and my memory.  It is rare for me to recall what I have written before.  I know that it is all recorded and that I can find it whenever I need it.  You might say that the technology of browsers and the WWW has extended the natural abilities of my brain.

It still amazes me that this stream of consciousness can come forth through me in the manner that it does.  It is as if I have my daily mystery and miracle to behold.  I know what I experience ... but I have limited knowledge of what anyone else experiences.  The natural thing might be to conclude that human beings have the same types of experiences of reality.  But, I know that this is clearly not the case.  There has been a dramatic difference in my own experience to date between the first 35 years and the past 9 years.  Literally the difference is as between night and day.  I woke up from a deep slumber, into an awareness that I did not even know was possible.  This rocked my foundations to their very core.  It may have even brought them to the ground.  However, in hindsight, this is exactly what I needed.  My castles had been built far too high in the clouds.  Their foundations were all air.  I lived nearly completely in my mind.

My life is a life of spirit.  Consciousness guides me every step of the way.  My focus is on what I can do to serve spirit, and to facilitate the greater expression of spirit in flesh.  That is why I am here.  That is what ultimately gives my life meaning and allows me to be all that I AM.

The bottom line is that I must be whom that I AM, and express as only I can express.  Yes, that is audacious.  But, this expression is my life ... or at least the part of my life that is most important.

The expression comes forth from a place deep within, a place I call source, my direct connection to the one consciousness.  I have the constant challenge of creating a reality construct that is sufficient to account for my experience.  This expression has a way of challenging much of what I believe, and of ensuring that my foundations are built on solid ground.

How is it that I can experience reality as I do, and how can spirit express through me in the manner that she does here?

Here I do what spirit moves me to do.  Here I get to participate in something bigger and grander than I am.  And, here I have the opportunity to learn of whom that I AM, and to express this in ways that I did not imagine possible.  Even after over nine years, it still amazes me that all of this is possible ... and that all of this has been expressed through me.  We're probably talking on the order of 3000 pages times maybe 300 words per page.  That is close to a million words already. I hadn't thought about it like that before.  It has definitely been a productive nine years, especially when you consider the relative dry spell from 1998 to 2001.

How much or how little does not really matter.  Is it any good?  Is it useful?  Can it help people?  Does it help people?  I know for a fact that it has made a great difference in one life, namely my own.  But does it have the power and potential to do this for others as well?

To be free of limitations; first, we must become aware of them; second, we must realize they are of our own making; third, we must know that it within our power to remove them.  Only then can we take the actions necessary to shed them.

When dealing with the unseen realms of consciousness, it helps to have a guide.  Some are meant to be explorers and wayshowers, but most prefer to follow the trails ...or in some cases the roads and even the superhighways.

Each of us is a unique expression of spirit in flesh.  Each of us is here to do something with our life ... something that makes a difference, whether it be to one or one hundred million.  All that we can do is do what we are moved to do, be whom that we are, and express this as best we can.  No more can be asked of anyone.  Spirit asks that we do our best to be the best that we can be.  Our best is always good enough.  Always!

We are all facets of the same one consciousness.  And what do facets do?  They reflect the light, which in our case is the very light of consciousness.  Actually, it goes deeper than this.  We are all precious gems with multiple facets in potential.  However, it seem that many are still rough gems ... they haven't even been polished, much less cut.  Still others have been polished.  Even fewer have been cut professionally.  And, very few have been fully so that they are truly brilliant.  At the extreme are those who like the Sun shine with such a brilliant light that looking on them directly is hazardous to the sight.

We don't seem to do a very good job of defining our processes and measuring how well they work.  For instance, a simple feedback mechanism would be for each individual to assess each day whether their output for the day justified what it costs to employ them.  If the answer is no, it is a sign that something needs to be done differently.  It is understood that we have our ups and downs and may be operating at less than our best some days ... but the average needs to be worth the cost.  Further, we need to judge our organizations in the same way.  Are the services that they provide worth the cost of maintaining the organization?  For large organizations, this may be difficult to tell.

Our information management skills are becoming more and more important in the information rich world in which we live.  To a large degree, these very skills define our worth in the work world ... that is, for those of us who work in information intensive jobs, anyway.

How do we find the information that we need, the information that is of the most value to us?  My sense is that it is by asking with the expectation that we will indeed find what we are asking for.   Further, it is by trusting that we are constantly sending out requests at other than conscious levels that attract the very information we need to experience into our lives.  This is simply the way things are.  This is the natural way that the process works.  It is for us to allow it operate as it will, unhindered by any barriors we might place on it.  The more freedom we give to these natural processes, the more they can do what it takes to facilitate giving our lives the true meaning that we long for.

It is acceptable for me to trust the process and allow my life to unfold as it will.  I have no need to control it or force it to go in any direction.  There is no end state or end goal that I have mind ... or even any intermediate steps as far as I know.  One step after another, trusting that in the moment I will either be guided from within, or will simply know what direction is right for the next step.  I am not a planner.  I don't see an end state and determine what is required to reach that state.  It seems far more effective to live life in the moment.

My preference is still to work in the realm of ideas.  This is where my home is ... where my primary reality exists.

It seems that one should be able to plan ones life.  However, my experience is that I am moved to focus on living in the moment ... and allowing each moment unfold into the next.  One moment after another, such is how a life is constructed.  Some people are able to set goals and generate plans necessary to achieve these goals.  This has not been my way, however.  Whether this may change at some point in the future remains to be seen.  If it does, fine, if not, fine as well.  Either way, I will live my life as I believe.

Our founding fathers considered the pursuit of happiness to be an inalienable right.  Note, they said pursuit of happiness, not happiness itself.  This is a major distinction.  Pursuing does not guarantee that we will find what we are pursuing.  We may, or we may not.  What is important though is finding a way to enjoy the process, as fully as we can.  After all, when we are in joy ... it is very likely that we will also be happy.  Enjoying the process is always a choice that we can make.  Sometimes it is more difficult than at other times.  However, happiness is indeed an attitude that we choose.

We are all related to each other.  Because of this we have a responsibility to one another.  This is a sacred responsibility, spirit to spirit.  I use the term Namaste.  One of its meaning is the spirit within me bows to the spirit within you.  When we do this, it is acknowledgement of that there is indeed spirit within each of us, and that spirit is worthy of our deepest respect.  Not that this did not say I bow to you ... it explicitly calls out the spirit within you.  Further, it doesn't call out I, rather it call out the spirit within me as the entity doing the bowing.

Spirit is in charge of what is expressed here.  Yes, I do my part and contribute by making myself available and by cooperating and co-creating this expression.

Life goes on.  We never know exactly to where we are headed until we get there.  Further, we don't know what we will experience or what meaning we will assign to that experience until it happens.

We no longer live in times of empires ... yet we do live in an information age, an age where ideas have empires of their own ... that is they have minds/people over which they have dominion.

It is the ideals, the beliefs, and even the dreams of the people that are the most powerful resources that we have.  It is through these that we create a better reality, not only for us, but for society and the world.

Yes, beliefs are that powerful.  They are the clay through which we fashion the experiences that we would have in our lives, and even more important the meaning that we apply to those experiences.  We can mold this clay as we will.  We are the sculptors of our own reality.  It is for us to create masterpieces of our lives.  It is always within our ability to do so.  We are all masters ... though clearly some are more masterful at this than others.

What does it take to be a peacemaker?  Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God.  Why is it that hostility, violence, and even war are such prominent parts of history?  Is it truly so difficult to live in peace?  Haven't we learned yet that the costs of war are far more than the benefit gains.  War is generally a lose/lose scenario.  Even the victors are only victorious at a tremendous cost.

We create our own reality both personally and en masse.  That means every aspect of our reality, no fine print, no exceptions.  There are no victims in the world ... everything is a matter of choice, and of the beliefs which drive those choices.

History is the record of the march of the expression of spirit in flesh ... of the unfoldment of the plan of consciousness, of the triumph of ideas over the minds of man, and of the actualization of ideals.

We are spirit enfleshed.  We are spirit having a physical experience.  Because of this, spirit herself will see that we experience exactly what we need to experience.

In a very real way, it is through my expression that you know me.  By their works shalt thou know them is a very powerful truth.

We speak with a voice that comes forth from deep within.  Yet we know not truly what the source of these words are.  Oh, we have names for it ... source, intuition, the voice within, spirit, consciousness.  But, naming something does not mean that we truly understand that thing.  It simply means that we are able to refer to it by name.  Understanding something is a whole other thing, one that requires far more awareness and discipline.

Remaining awake can be difficult at times.  I am grateful for all that I have been blessed to receive in my life.  I am particularly grateful for this expression and all that it has brought into my life.  I can't imagine what the past decade would have been like without this this stream of consciousness that has flowed forth so abundantly.  This expression has been the greatest work of my life, without a doubt.  It is what makes it all worthwhile.

I have chosen to live a life of doing spirits bidding.  It is her will that guides me and directs me.  I am the willing vessel through which she expresses in the world.  I am spirit enfleshed ... not just me, but each and every one of us.  It is a matter of degree, and how much we realize that this is what we are.

We are what we are, pure and simple.  Whether we believe this and realize this or not is a different matter.  It helps if our beliefs are in line with the truth, but quite often they are not.  This doesn't change the nature of the truth.  However, it does change the nature of our experience.

We attract into our lives what we believe that we will experience.  The spiritual laws of reality creation work the same for all ... though, it seems the more aware that we are, the quicker the laws seem to work

For me, personally, egotism can be a problem ... so, bowing to a force greater than myself is a solution that works.

Indeed, that is what we are ...  the creators or our reality, the masters of our fate.  This is an awesome responsibility that we carry.  It is for us to use whom that we are in a manner that serves our selves, our families, our societies, and our world.

We are what we are.  There is no escaping what we are.  The trick is to develop this and to express it as faithfully as we can.

Learning to express whom that we are is much like trying to teach a bird to fly.  The basic skills needed to fly are already within us when we are born.  We simply develop them and then do it.

Learning by doing seems to be one of the best ways for us to learn.  It is amazing in how many areas it seems to apply.  We seem to have an innate capacity to learn in this manner.  It is as if we already know what we are learning ... we are simply rediscovering this fact.

Life is a mystery ... one that confounds us at every turn.

Life has a way of exceeding all of our expectations, and of surprising us in nearly every area in which we endeavor.

We are artists all ... creating and sculpturing our lives.  It is for us to realize that we are masters, and that it is up to us to make of our lives the masterpieces that they could be.

Songs can move us, they can lead the way.  But we have to take the next step and act.  This is always within our power to do.

We all have an inner compass that guides us.  However, to use it consciously, we must find it and then learn how to read and operate it.  Here, there seem to be substantial differences between people.  Some seem to have not only a compass, but a map, and the ability to plan a course of action to get them to a destination.  At the other extreme, some have only an indication of what the next step is, with limited understanding of where they are ultimately headed.  I fall in this later category ... though I also have an abstract vision of where society is ultimately headed and the general role that I am to play in assisting consciousness in getting there.

Here, I am allowed to express more of whom that I AM than I can anywhere else.  Here I am free to be whom that I AM, without restriction, and without judgment except what I would impose on myself.  There is something addicting about giving oneself such liberty.  There is something about this expression that allows me to expose the best that is in me.  It seems important that I expose it to myself.  Yet, it seems equally important that I expose this to others as well.  My sense is that I am to serve as a example, demonstrating what can be done when we allow spirit to express as she will in our lives.

Spirit asks for us to be ourselves, our true selves.  To be this, we need to stop and make the effort to know ourselves.  This can be easy or it can be difficult, depending on how we play the cards that we are dealt.  Remember, at some level, we are the dealer of the cards as well.  More and more, the objective is to play the game of reality creation more consciously ... or at least with greater awareness of what we are doing.

Awareness is extremely important.  You might say that all forms are houses for awareness.  As time progresses ... the forms increase in complexity, permitting the greater embodiment of consciousness.

We are spirit enfleshed, not only as individuals, but as collective organizations.  Our organizations are still in their infancy compared to what can be achieved.  We haven't truly empowed individuals working collectively for the common good.  This will come.  Its time is nigh.  This is what the Aquarian Age is to bring.  It is time for ideals to take hold in ways they have never done before.  The old saying nothing can stop an idea whose time has come is particularly appropriate in this day and age.  We will see just how appropriate very soon.

Service ... a simple word, one that should be a commandment to all.  It is through service that we define whom that we are in the context of others.

We should be able to do what we love to do in a manner that benefits others.  This requires that we first find what we love to do ... and then find a way to do it voluntarily in service to others.  Why is this so important?  Because giving of ourselves is the ultimate gift that we can give.  And giving is what primes the abundance pump.

In the beginning was the Word ... but, who uttered the first words.  Out of what mind did they originate.  One might answer, the very mind of God.  Perhaps, perhaps not.  We can't even know whether God has a mind in anything close to the way we define and experience it.  It has been said that God is omniscient, all-knowing ... and onmipotent, all-powerful ... and many other such things.  Yet, if this is so, why does he allow the atrocities, that he knows will happen, to take place in the world.

I consider spirit as inclusive of whom that I AM, while I consider God as separate from me.  There is a mantrum that I learned in one of the few yoga classes that I took many years ago.

It doesn't mean a lot without a personal concept of God.  Though, I do remember scaring my wife one day in the summer of 1993 when awoke, I jumped up and proclaimed I AM GOD.

My life is meant to be lived in the unknown, in the wilderness of consciousness.  There is no end destination to be reached.  There is only the journey of exploration and the sharing of what I find.

I can report back of what I find and leave markers on the way that others may follow some day.  This very expression is one of the markers that I leave.  It is the record of where one consciousness has gone.  It allows you to walk in my shoes for awhile, or my mind if you will.  By following this stream of consciousness, perhaps you will awaken to a similar stream that lies within you.  My sense is that we all have such a stream and may even have multiple channels to choose from.  Yet, in the world, only a small percentage of the population are explorers.  That is sufficient for doing the exploration that needs to be done.  Once trails are established and roads are build, the vistas found can be opened up to others to experience.  It is in the far country of spirit that my work is to be done.  The sense is that there will always be a far country, no matter how much we discover, no matter how much of what we find we integrate into our daily lives.  Yes, that is the goal ... to integrate as much of the spiritual as we can into our lives.

We are part of one interdependent whole, enmeshed in a web of interconnectivity that is rich and intricate beyond measure.  The sooner that we realize this, the sooner we can start living in a manner consistent with this fact, and start making decisions with a consideration of the benefit to the whole as well as our individual benefit.  This is not meant to force us to sacrifice our individual needs.  Rather, it is meant to allow us to choose how we meet these needs in a manner that serves others as well.

We have been so afraid of losing our independence, that we have failed to realize how interdependent we are.

Allow life to unfold as it will.  Trust in the process.  Spirit knows exactly what she is doing even if we do not.  What makes me believe this?  It just seems obvious.  It is definitely an area where beliefs apply.  It is extremely empowering to believe that there are a host of forces ready to do our bidding, ready to create reality in accord with our beliefs.  They are there whether we believe in them or not.  However, our beliefs empower them to operate more freely

The more we grow in awareness, the more responsibility we seem to have.  These do not have to be experienced as burdons.  They are simply what they are ... the things that we freely choose to be responsible for.  We are all responsible for ourselves, our families, our society, and our world.  Though for the later three we are only partially responsible.  It helps if we accept our responsibilities willingly.  However, in accepting them, we also need to take the appropriate actions to fulfill them.  We will know what these are.  Consciousness will tell us.  All that it takes is for us to look within and ask.

For me, written communication is one such area of gifts from spirit.  Hopefully, that is obvious from what is expressed here.  But, that may or may not be the case.  Further, this communication is different because it is not mine alone.  It is a co-creation that involves an equally important unseen counterpart ...  namely source, the one consciousness herself.

Every moment is a gift from spirit.  It is up to us to return that gift by doing our part to make the most of every moment.

We may think that we live in a world of cause and effect, however, the complexity of nearly every situation is such that we can never be clear about what truly causes what effects.  When we deal in terms of beliefs, and concepts ... the realm is all the more abstract and complex.  Yet, that doesn't make it any less real.  Many of us spend significant amounts of our time in the realm of information and ideas.  This realm is just as real as anything that might be considered physical.  Actually, in the information age that we are in, it may even be more real, because it is where much of our reality is.

There is something about living the mystery that makes life worthwhile.

The source within seems to have the answers to any questions I might ask.  She seems to know what needs to be done, how to do it, and when to do it.  However, she cannot act alone.  It is up to me to serve as the vehicle through which she expresses.  Or, more correctly, through which we express ... for this is truly a co-creation of the highest order.

Hmm ... an interesting way of looking at things, but one that seems correct somehow.

I have been operating at the fringe of what is known since 1974 when my love affair with metaphysics began, and especially since 1993 when the awakening experiences began.  I am at home dealing with the unknown.  It is my home, the place I most like to be.  Yet, it is also a wilderness in which, to date, I have encountered few others.  There is something about Eagles that come to mind ... they don't flock, you find them one at a time.  It seems that explorers of consciousness are no different.  Each is as a lone wolf in the wilderness ... experiencing a reality that is different than all others.

I am touched by spirit ... imbued with an awareness that others do not seem to have.  To whom much is given, much is expected.  I have been given a lot in my life.  There is a strong inner drive to use all that I have been given in service to others, in particular to society and the world.

It is a struggle slowing down to function in the context of a group or a team.  However, there are some benefits that accrue.  When operating properly, the power of synergy comes into play.  We can function more efficiently together as a team than we can as individuals.  Further, we can do things as a team that we can't do as individuals.

To change our reality, we need to alter our beliefs and start doing things differently.  Only fools believe that they will get a different outcome doing the same things in the same ways.

It is our actions which show consciousness what we are serious about.  When we believe something enough to base our actions on the belief ... we empower the belief to do its work in our lives.

I am resigned to do whatever it takes to do those tasks that constitute my mission and purpose for being.  I would live a life or purpose, or I would not live at all.  Yes, it is that important to me.  No, I would not consider taking my own life.  That is simply not an option.  That would be denying my responsibilities in this existence.  There is a destiny that I came to fulfill.  My sense is that it is to be a world server of some type.  Yes, this is a grandiose sense of destiny.  But, grandiose or not, it is what I know my mission to be based on what I know of my abilities.

I will do what I came to do.  It is not clear that I have any choice in the matter.  It seems that I made many of my choices before I came into this existence.  I auditioned for the role and got it, knowing full well what I was up against, and what I would have to do.  I accept my life, wheresoever it will take me.  Whatever happens, happens.  It is for me to do as I am moved to do in each moment, and allow my life to unfold as it will.

There is no way that I could be making all this up.  There are simply too many coincidences.  There is a fabric being revealed.  The very fabric of reality itself.  It seems that it is time for us to take notice of the fabric and start to tailor it to what we would have it be.  Interesting.  We are talking about imposing our will on the fabric of reality and creating a world that is of our choosing.  We have the skills.  We have the technology, not just scientific ... but technology of consciousness.  It is a matter of teaching the best of what is known to as many as we can, and allowing the full force of spirit to be unleashed to do her works in our lives.

Spirit has no power of her own.  She must work through us to get things done in the world.

Awareness is the one thing that we can take from existence to existence.  At some point in each life, we inherit what is rightly due to us based on the level of awareness we have previously achieved.

Know thyself is the strongest directive in existence.  However, it seems that it is felt on subtle planes or vibrational levels that we have to reach before we can progress.

Whatever we need to further develop is there if we sincerely ask for it.  Also, there is an old saying ... when the student is ready, the master will appear.  Interesting, a new meaning for this just came to mind.  Literally the student and the master are one and the same individual.  This is an inside job.  That is why spiritual law can guarantee it.

The Hermit card is one of my favorites in the Tarot deck, one that characterizes what I am pretty well.  No, I'm not the isolated hermit living in a cave in the Himalayas.  However, in a very real way, I live in a cave of my own making that is just as real and just as isolated.

Source is always there ready to interact whenever I look within with a desire to contact her.  Much of this communication is her energy expressed via the words that I give her to work with.  Though it seems that one of my roles in this is to translate the patterns that she sends to me into these very words.

How can I know that there is only one consciousness?  There is something within that knows this to be true.  I need no more than this.  I understand that there are others that need proof.  But, that is not my job to do.  I can only provide the example that I am meant to provide.  It is up to each of you to determine what that example means in your reality framework.  If you can explain how this expression is possible, great ... my hat is off to you.  However, if not, my hope is that this example causes you to stretch your reality framework to include what you find here.

My life is clearly an adventure in consciousness.  That is where I spend a great deal of my free time anyway.  That is where I find value and meaning as I do nowhere else.  As an explorer of consciousness, I love dealing with the realm of the unknown.  However, I also love bringing back and sharing of what I find.  It is not enough for me alone to experience something.  Part of my task is to make more of the unknown known ... to make more of the not I, me.

We have the power of a choice of action in the present, that allows us to create a dramatically different future, and by some accounts a correspondingly different past.  After all, the past is a set of recollections that we have.  If we change the filter of our beliefs, we can literally remember a different past ... one that is just as valid as the prior one.  It is all a matter of focus and interpretation.

The present is extremely powerful.  Even a little change in belief accompanied by a corresponding action can have significant short term impacts and drastic long term impacts.

We need to be committed to do what it takes to know ourselves, and then to be whom the we are to the degree that we can.  This is always enough.  Spirit never asks more than this of anyone.  And, she is happy with whatever resources she is given to do the work that needs to be done.

I prefer to put in my overtime in this expression.  I don't know how or if it will ever be compensated.  Though, I know that when we live a life of spirit, the reward is abundance in all areas of our lives.  No, this doesn't mean we will live in stately mansions, though that is indeed possible.

The nature of consciousness and its expression are the topics that consume my attention.  All else pales by comparison.

Once more the blank page awaits what consciousness would express here.  I never know what is going to come forth in advance.  However, I am always pleasantly surprised.  This is where I make the unmanifest manifest.  This is where the words flow forth from an inner place that I know only as source, the place from which I tap into the energy of consciousness herself.  I have no separate name for this source.  It is of me and not of me at the same time.  That is, it lies at the boundary of what I consciously know to be me.  That is OK.  I am comfortable with an element of the unknown in my life ... and perhaps even the unknowable.

That is a problem with becoming too attached to where we are at ... we become afraid to leave it for something new.  It is better to experience what we know, than to risk the jump to something new which we do not yet know.  However, that is not how explorers of consciousness function.  We are ever ready to take the next step, in whatever direction consciousness leads, because we know that consciousness knows exactly where she is taking us ... and wherever this is is the right place for us to be next.

There is no authority from which it springs other than my connection to spirit herself.

Our states of mind are what they are.  It is for us to find a way to use them that serves both ourselves and others.  Use what comes naturally ... for it is these very abilities that constitute the gifts that we have been blessed with from spirit.  These are our very birthright.

Gifts often have their challenges as well.

Part of the meaning of life comes in how we handle the challenges that we experience.  This includes how we face and come to grips with our demons and our fears.  All of this requires awareness on our part ... in particular, self-awareness.  This is not generally taught in schools, even through most graduate curriculums.  We have to wander off the conventional education paths to find books, classes, and experiences that provide suitable training for our consciousness and our whole self.  Conventional education focuses on the mind and facts.  What we are looking for however is awareness, and a sense of direct knowingness.  We want to experience what our soul knows and to give our souls more room to express in our lives.

The general law is that we get what we focus upon.  It is through our focus that we attract those things that we most desire into our lives.

We get what we believe that we truly deserve, no more and no less.

We might be able to fool ourselves ... but we can never fool our Selves.  Nothing is hidden, no matter how hard we may try to hide it.  Oh, at the surface, we may be able to hide things from others.  But, even that is only partially true.  We broadcast everything that we are in our auras.   This is perceived at inner levels by all those with whom we interact.  It doesn't matter whether we understand the mechanism for how this works or not.

We all have special skills.  We are all unique.  Each of us experiences life in a manner that have never been experienced before.

There is still only a small fraction of the population that have learned to program computers.  It seems that even fewer have learned how to program their own brains.

Intuition is just as important, if not more important, than reason.

We must keep in mind that it is not the brain, but the heart that is the seat of the soul.  The head and the heart do not have to be on different sides.  They can be united in a manner that allows them to work together for a common end.  The greatest benefit comes from applying both in a manner that serves spirit ... and hence self, society, and the world.

There is only one consciousness that animates us all.  We are the portion of that one consciousness experiencing life as we do and expressing in the manner that we do.  One of our tasks is to realize our interconnectedness with others.

Life is meant for our enjoyment .... though, it seems, many find it hard to maintain a state of being in joy.

There is a song that talks about the key to life not being to have the things you want but rather to want the things that you have.  That is a very profound observation.

An attitude of gratitude goes a long way in life.  There is always much to be grateful for.  The very fact that we are alive, and living at such an exciting time in the history of the world is enough.  We need to extend our gratitude to action however.  We need to allow it to move us to action ... action that results in a service to others, that makes the world a better place in some way.  That is the ultimate testament to any of us.  Did we live our lives in such a manner that we served others and had a positive impact on the world?  We should ask this of ourselves often, and then allow it to motivate us to do what it takes to make such a difference.

This body will return ashes to ashes, dust to dust.  But the spirit which animates will return spirit to spirit, like unto like.

We are each unique expressions of the one consciousness, and it is for us to experience reality in the way that is right for us.  It is not for us to judge our experience against that of another.  The only issue is are we being the best that we can be and fully expressing all that we are.

In general, people are doing the best they can with the gifts they have under the circumstances that they find themselves in.  Yes, they are attracting these very circumstances ... so this is not meant to be an escape or rationalization for behavior.

We are responsible for everything that happens in our lives.  We are the authors, the playwrights, the directors.

It is time for us to choose how we will fill our days.  How many of us really do this?  How many of us are the masters of our time ... or our days?

We shouldn't have to sacrifice our lives to earn a living.  Our first priority should be to make a masterpiece of our life.  We do that by finding what we excel at, and then doing it to the maximum of our abilities.

I have no way to know what impact this stream of consciousness will ultimately have.  Clearly, it changes me.  I would guess that it changes any who might read it as well ... though it is not clear whom or how many will be exposed to it.  That is OK.  It will reach those whom it is intended to reach.  That is not for me to decide.  It is not in my hands nor my job jar.  My responsibility is to bring forth the expression and to make it available.  I do this freely without any mental reservation or expectations.

Spiritual law assures that we will reap what we sow.  These words are part of what I am planting in the world.  Whether I am planting on fertile soil remains to be seen ... only time will tell.

Yes, I consider myself special ... perhaps more special than I rightly deserve to be.  However, I also have a strong sense of responsibility that goes with this -- a responsibility that extends to my society and my world.  It seems that there are relatively few who take on such responsibility personally.

My main mission is to serve as a midwife to the Aquarian Age.  Yes, that is a big task.  But, my sense is that the nature of the role is what drove my decision to return and incarnate into physical form again.  I had to volunteer ... this was not a required incarnation for me, as it is for many.  It wasn't driven by a karmic balance.  It was an opportunity for which I was suited by ability and by temperament.  This role allowed me to discover whom that I AM and then express that in a way that I had never been able to do before.

This expression invites you into my world, Wayne's World.  Namaste!  For those of you new to that word, its common meaning is the spirit within me bows to the spirit within you.  Actually, this is easy to do since they are one and the same.  There is but one consciousness that animates us all.

Why are we not taught of whom that we truly are?  Why are we not taught that we are spirit in flesh?  Why are we not taught how our minds function?  Why are we not taught that we create our reality and how we do it?  Why are we not taught the nature of consciousness?  Why are we not taught that there are levels of awareness and what these levels are?  Why are we not taught how special and precious we are?  Why are we not taught that we have a mission to perform and how to accomplish it?  Why are we not taught about the interconnectedness of all things and the importance of cooperative interdependence?

Once we discover whom that we are and why we are here ... all manner of opportunities are opened up for carrying out our missions.

You can teach someone facts, which grow obsolete and useless in time; or you can teach someone whom they are and how to learn, which serve them forever.

You can't take it with you applies to physical possessions ... not to spiritual ones.

Responsibility is an interesting word ... response ability = ability to respond.  What does it take to be able to respond?  First, we have to believe that we are not at the whim of circumstance.  We have to believe that we have power to control our own fate through our conscious choice of action.  We also have to be able to pause, consider, and decide on a response rather than strictly reacting.
 

It still amazes me how much time goes into this expression.  It also amazes me how easy this stream of consciousness pours forth.  I have nothing to account for it, no real way to explain it.  I simply go within to connect to a source from which these words flow.  It is an automatic process, one that just happens in the way that it does.  There is no planning, nor any research that goes into this expression.  That is good, because that is not my way of doing things.  I like to do as I am moved to do in the moment.

What is it about awareness that makes it so difficult to achieve?  Perhaps, because it is not a state of mind, rather a state of consciousness

What we are asking ourself is to become consciously aware of what we are aware, to become aware of our very awareness.  This requires taking a step back and finding the watcher, the observer part of ourself that sees everything that we do.  When we get good at this, we can be aware of being the observer even while we are actively engaged in doing things and experiencing our lives.  The only problem is that this does not seem to be something that we can develop gradually.  It is like an on/off switch.  Either we are aware or we are not.

We alone know when we are doing our best.  However, this may not be obvious at the surface level.  We may have to dig deep to find that place within that knows.  This requires being honest with ourselves ... which may not be such an easy thing to do.  However, do it anyway.

Expressing spirit in flesh is what the game of life is all about.  The more spirit is expressed, the better everything is.

One area that seems lacking in my life is relationships.  I'm working on this area ... opening up and coming out of my shell.  It seems that this is the next step for me.  I've reached some of the limits of what I can do on my own.  The next step seems to be discovering what we can do together.  This expression is one area where I do this, we being spirit and I.  However, it seems it is time to realize what I can do with others as well, whether this be one or many.

Patience is the watchword.  It seems time to simply allow my life to unfold as it will.  It is not for me to force it one way or another.

Some of us are destined to a fate that will not be denied.  We may not know exactly what that fate is.  But, it is there nonetheless.  We can feel it calling us to it.  We know that there is something that we are meant to do, something that we came into this existence to perform ... something that allows us to express the best that we can be.

There is something exciting about being an explorer of consciousness and a wayshower.  This is what I am meant to do.  This is what excites me to my very core.  This is where I have had experiences that send shivers down my spine and throughout my body.  This is where I live my life.  I stand on the edge of the abyss of the unknown ... yet I know full well that I am safe, that I can always count on spirit to guide me as to where to take the next step.

Awareness does that to you.  Once you experience being out of your mind, being beyond mind, there is no going back.  One has made the leap from ignorance to knowledge.  This doesn't happen in ones head, or ones heart.  It happens deeper, in ones very soul.

In the end what will matter is whether I have expressed whom that I AM and whether I have done those things that are mine to do to the best of my ability.

I am here to demonstrate firsthand how spirit can express in flesh ... here and now.  And, for me, this has nothing to do with religion, though it has everything to do with spirituality.

We are the vehicles through which consciousness expresses in flesh ... doing her works in the world.  We are the legs, the feet, the arms, the hands, the eyes, the voice, and even the brain of consciousness.  Everything is spirit.  Yes, including everything that is flesh.  We are spirit incarnate.  As such, it is spirit that animates us.

The body is essentially the same at death and immediately before death.  What is different is that spirit has withdrawn into its own realm.

What am I moved to do next?  Right now, this expression is still my primary outlet ... my primary spiritual work.  This is still what I love to do.  It is where I learn of whom that I AM.  It is also where I learn of the nature of spirit, and spiritual expression ... as well as the nature of consciousness itself.  This is home to me.  This is my sanctuary.  This is where I am in touch with a source inside that is greater than all that I know that I am.  Here is where I touch and face the unknown.  Here is where my journey takes me.  Here is where my destiny unfolds.

Where do we go to discover how consciousness works?  We go within.  Nothing beats firsthand experience.  Words can only guide you.  Awareness is not something that is logical, or even mental.  It is a leap beyond into a realm that many only touch.

We are the creators of our reality, we are the masters of our fate.  What we do, and how we do it makes all the difference.

Some of us are wayshowers, pointing the direction to a new way of being.  We do it because it is within us to do it ... because this is the task that we came into this existence to perform.

I am an explorer of consciousness.  Venturing forth into the unknown and reporting of what I find is what I do.  This is where I can use the skills and talents that are uniquely mine.  This is where I can be all that I can be.

Be whom that you are!  That is the directive of spirit.  And in doing so, be all that you can be!

Our best is always a stretch ... or it should be anyway.  That is what allows us to become more of whom that we are.  We need to strive to perform at this level as much as we can.  That doesn't mean that we need to be perfect.  It is enough to be ourselves, and to express as best we can.

The mind is an incredible tool when we use it skillfully.  This means using all of it ... or as much of it as we can.  And, I don't mean just the rational part.  The intuition is equally if not more important.  It is best if we use all of whom that we are.  After all, that is why we are here ... it is that simple, to discover and to be whom that we are.

It is through our works that our legacy will be established.  The works that we do are what we leave behind, including the impact that we have on the minds, and hearts, and especially the souls of others.

Through their works shall thou know them.  This is indeed a great truth.  It is not so much whom that we are that makes a difference in the world, it is what we do.  It is not for us to compare what we do with what another does.  We must find the works that are ours to do, the works that allow us to leave our unique mark on the world.

Ultimately, what we are looking for are those things that truly excite us, those things that captivate our souls.  We know what we are good at ... or, will know if we make the effort to find out.  We always find whatever we seek.  Maybe not in the moment, but eventually.

I sit here, on the shoulders of giants that have come before me.  Without their works, their words, I would not be anywhere close to where I am.  That is OK.  We are meant to cooperate and learn from one another ... to stand on the peaks where others have taken us and to soar even higher to the unknown realms of spirit.

We are consciousness enfleshed.   It is important that we not lose sight of this.  Consciousness should ever be on the forefront of our minds.  It is through her that we are granted this precious thing called life.  It is our job to make the most of this special gift we have been granted.

It is for us to make a masterpiece of our lives and to live in a manner that make a difference to others, to society, and to the world.  However, we will only do this if we believe that we can do it, if we believe that our live has purpose and meaning, and if we volunteer to do those tasks which are ours to do to the best of our abilities.  Yes, this is a lot to ask.  But, such is what spirit demands from us.  She can be a harsh taskmaster, but she is a loving one ... one with our best interest at heart.

The call to action is indeed strong.  This is what separates ideas from beliefs.  It is not enough to speak for something, we must act for it as well.  It is through our actions that we demonstrate what we truly believe versus which we pay lip service to.

The world is what we make of it.  Reality is whatever we choose to experience it to be.  We have that much power both individually and collectively.

I have said before that my job is to serve as the midwife only ... and to help to establish the foundations necessary for spirit to more fully express in flesh.  The babe, the new age that is to be born has all of its characteristics already inside of it.  They just need to be allowed to come out.  The age will grow and flower as it will.  It needs our help to nourish it ... but it seems that it is poised to teach us far more than we can teach it.

My circle of acquaintances is still relatively small ... probably numbering on the order of 200, of which approximately 30 know of my spiritual work.  That is just how it is.  The opportunity to share of this side of my self with others in a direct way just hasn't presented itself.  It is not for me to force my beliefs or my material on anyone.  I can gently point the way, but it is up to each to choose whether to go in that direction or not ... and if they do go, how far to venture.

My bipolar condition ... in particular, experienced exclusively as mania, colors the way that I see the world.  It is like having a set of glasses for the mind rather than the eyes.  It is a feature of my mind rather than an illness to me.  I look upon it as positive and beneficial.  It is a mark of distinction for me, something that is unique and special.

Yes, I have a need to be special ... to be different from others.  And not just a little special, but extremely special.  Yes, this links to the grandiosity that sometimes expresses here.  However, the issue is if it is warranted or not.  If it is, then it is not really grandiose at all, rather it is simply a statement of what is.  My nature is still to be very quiet, performing my work quietly behind the scenes.  But, there is a part of me that would be grand, not only in my eyes, but in the eyes of the world.

Life is meant to be an exciting adventure.  We are not meant to be ordinary.  We are meant to live extraordinary lives.  It is always within our power to do so.  We don't necessarily have to do any different things, we simply need to do whatever we do with the proper attitude.  An attitude of gratitude clearly helps.  But we also need an attitude of greatness, one that comes from knowing that what we do and how we do it makes a difference.

Yes, making a difference is extremely important.  However, it seems it is not for us to choose what difference we will make.  Rather, we act, and we see what difference results.  If we like the difference, we continue to do what it takes to achieve it.  If not, we do what we are moved to do next.  Then, we see what results from that.  We continue living out life one step at a time, moment by moment.

The record of consciousness in expression that is captured here is highly important somehow ... not just to me, but to consciousness herself.  Why should she care?  Primarily because all such expression provides an indication of the state of the world and its readiness to serve the cosmic plan for the unfolding of the flower of consciousness.

There is a sense that I am still in training for a position that is not yet available to fill ... a position perfectly suited to my abilities, talents, interests, and character.

Something woke me up again in a big way at the beginning of the year.  I've stayed awake since then.  Yes, it has been a very productive year for this expression.  It is still unknown how long it will last ... though, the answer forever comes to mind.  Perhaps, perhaps not.  What will be, will be.  Yes, it may seem that I am not in control of the matter.  And, indeed, that is my sense.  Oh, I am in control at some level, just not consciously.  I trust that the inner parts of me are functioning appropriately to attract the experiences and create the reality that I need to experience.  They do this because this is what they are designed to do.  This is their function, their purpose for existing.  I am comfortable allowing them to perform as they will.  Actually, it goes further than this.  These parts work in interdependent ways.  Our realization of this allows them to function more efficiently and effectively.

It is curious that I have so little to say to other people in my life, but that so many words flow forth here.  Perhaps that is because this is primarily a conversation with myself, meant for my eyes only.

There is no purpose for the expression other than to reveal what consciousness can express through me.

I don't consider myself to be the source of these words.  The sense is more of being a scribe.  Yet, I am more than that.  For the words to flow through me, I must resonate with the source from which they flow.  This resonance occurs based on what I have done, and what I have realized.  Awareness is the vehicle through which this stream of consciousness becomes manifest in the world.  For me, manifesting involves expressing in words.  It is interesting, earlier today I had a class which discussed communication.  One of the facts thrown out was that 55 percent of communication is physical, through gestures, facial expressions and other body language; 38 percent is vocal, in the qualities and characteristics of the voice; and only 7 percent is in the actual words.  Yet here, I employ a medium where all of the communication must be conveyed in the words ... in the 7 percent.

Ye shall know them by their works is a powerful truth.  This is how we become aware of parts of our selves.  We observe and become aware of what works the parts do.  The more observant we are, the more aware of our parts we become.

I have the privilege of having to explain how this expression is even possible.  How can I sit here day after day and express in this way?  What is this thing that I call the source within?  Why me?  Why am I moved to express in this manner?  There is a purpose for everything.  There is nothing that happens that is not meant to happen.  However, at the same time, we create our own reality.  So, everything that we experience is attracted into our lives by us.

What does it mean to be responsible?  The key component is being able to respond.  There is a difference between responding and reacting.  Responding involves taking time to evaluate options and choose between the options, whereas reacting generally involves an automatic action under a particular set of circumstances.

I can be self-reliant and still exist within a circle, a hoop that connects everything and everyone.  This simply requires that I rely on my Self ... in whatever circumstances I find myself.  That does not mean that I cannot interact with others ... for at some level there is only ONE consciousness, one Self of which we all are part.  So, being Self-reliant is more of a recognition that there is a part of spirit within us that can be relied on to carry us through every experience that we have in this existence.

When we come from the perspective of ONE consciousness, we see everyone as cells in a single body that constitutes all humankind and perhaps even all beings.  Just as the cells in the body are separated into organs with particular functions ... so the individuals within society are separated into organizations of various types.  Individuals are members of multiple organizations, some by choice and others by chance.  Within these organizations, we have various roles and responsibilities.

All creative expression is valued and important.  Further, all expression is of spirit.  We are spirit enfleshed, here and now.  That means that our true nature is spiritual.  It always has been and always will be ... at least until we go beyond time at which point always no longer carries any meaning.

It still amazes me that this expression can come forth in this manner.  It is mystical and magical.  The very process involved in generating this expression forces me to touch the unknown ... and experience firsthand connecting to something the true nature of which I may never know except in terms of what it is able to communicate to and through me.

My task here and now is to express what I am moved to express as faithfully as I can ... and to act in a manner that is consistent with what I believe and whom that I AM.  I am meant to be an example for others of what can be.  No, not a model that you are to follow exactly.  Rather, an example that shows you a different perspective ... and offers some insight as to the nature of reality and reality creation.  An example that shows you a different way of being and expressing, one that you may want to learn from.  Not everything that I do will work for you.  Find those things that resonate most strongly, try them, and evaluate their utility in your life.  Use whatever works so long as it serves you and those whom you touch.

As a wayshower, my life is meant to provide an example of what can be.  In particular, it seems that I am supposed to demonstrate how consciousness can express through us ... how we can express spirit more fully in flesh.

We innately know what we need to do with our lives.  However, it seems that many are not in touch with this knowingness ... and instead create walls that prevent their full expression.

Being all that we can be is what it is all about.  This requires learning whom that we are, and then being this.  This is not always easy to do.  In fact, it can be downright difficult at times.  That only makes it that much more of a challenge.  Life doesn't always have to be easy.  It is in the times of our greatest challenges that we find out what we are truly made of, and what we are capable of doing.

If we keep an open mind and take on our challenges to the best of our abilities we will surprise ourselves by what we can do.  We are all capable of incredible things.  We all have the potential for greatness.  We all have the potential to live extraordinary lives.  However, it takes courage to do this.

We are all artists.  Our paints are our beliefs.  Our brush is our actions.  The objective is to make a masterpiece of our life.  This takes effort on our part.  We may have to practice and develop our skills.  And then, we have to be brave enough to take control of our beliefs and choose what we want to express and experience.  In particular, we need to choose how we would serve ... ourselves, our families, our organizations, our society, and our world.

Am I on the razors edge between sanity and insanity ... perhaps.  But if so, it is an edge that I am meant to experience and to express from.  Why?  Simple to provide a reference point ... a marker of where one consciousness has been.  And, where I have been able to go, others can reach as well, hopefully more easily because I have attempted to show the way via this record of where my consciousness has wandered.  Yes, wandered is a good term to use for one who allows a stream of consciousness to express.

Am I so important that consciousness would allow me to experience all that I have experienced and express it in this way for my sole benefit?  My hope is no ... that I would have what I have seen and learned and experienced be expressed in a manner that makes a true difference in society and in the world.

Awareness is not something one learns to do gradually.  It is like being struck by lightning ... the lightning of spirit.

Indeed, this expression might only be for my eyes only.  That would make me a very special being ... that the universe would go to such trouble to allow me to experience life as I do.  Yes, my life is truly blessed.  Oh, there are things that could be better.  There is less joy and happiness in my life than there could be.  However, overall I am following the path that is mine to follow.  That the path is primarily a solitary one just happens to be how it is.

I am the being that can express in this manner.  For those reading this, that is what you know about me ... along with whatever descriptive information you can glimpse from what is contained herein.

I am the first to give credit to the source within as well.  From her springs this expression.  I am the willing instrument, but it is not me that generates all of this.  Consciousness plays me as she will.  And, I gladly serve her in whatever way I can.

Our brains are incredibly complex.  We have only begun to tap what they are truly capable of.  Within the past 60 years, the whole realm of computer programming has opened up.  Effectively, our whole lives are a process of programming our brains.  We are attempting to create the infrastructure for spirit to express in flesh.  I've been thinking in terms of creating organizations, and a social infrastructure.  However, it is not clear that such is necessary for me.  Then again, perhaps it is, perhaps not.  It is convenient to live a solitary life.  It is much more difficult for me to open up and live a life among others.

We are meant to live our lives as if spirit matters.

I give those parts of myself that I consider most spiritual ... namely my intuition, and my inner knowingness, a wide berth in my life.  But, is this enough.  The immediate answer is no.  There is more that I could be doing ... and in particular I could be doing things in a manner that has greater impact on society, and in the world.  There is that brown band in my aura coming through.  I am meant to have world impact.  Right now, this would seem to come from seeing some of the ideas expressed through me at Beyond Imagination become actualized, become realized.

Aquarius is an age of individuals ... occasionally working together for a common purpose.  Aquarius is also a age of ideas and ideals; and of manifesting those to the degree that we can.  The sense is that we will indeed see this starting to happen.  Aquarius is also an age of cooperation, of realizing that we are all connected to one another and interdependent on one another, even though we may be individual and unique.

For me, it is spirit that is the moving force in my life.  In fact, it seems that she has always be so ... even when I was unaware that it was her being actively involved in my life.  She has guided me along the path that I have taken.  She has been there to comfort and solice me ... but also to challenge me to know myself and to be the best that I could be in every endeavor that I have pursued.  I didn't always succeed, but it seems that it is the quality of our efforts that matters more than whether we actually succeed.  Good efforts are nearly always sufficient ... though in some instances great efforts are called for and expected.  However, this is always in areas we these are well within our talents and abilities.

Generally, unless I write something down, there is virtually no chance that I will remember it.  Even then, I have to be careful about where I put what I write.  Yet, here, as if out of the blue, comes word after word, idea after idea.  Further, this does not seem to be the work of a madman.  It is orderly and organized, even if it rambles on and on.  I am amazed by how much of the expression is fresh and new ... or at least expressed in a way that is different from what has come before.  Anymore, this doesn't surprise me; it is simply expected.  And, as usual, reality finds a way to correspond to our expectations for it.

Self discovery is extremely important.  The voyage of self discovery is the major journey of our lives, the one journey that all must make.

Our journeys are just that, our journeys.  It is OK to share them to whatever degree we are moved and to whatever degree others are interested.  However, we are not meant to compete, and compare our experiences to that of others.  There is no better or no worse.  We are all doing that which we need to do, both individually and collectively.

Give people the respect that they are due.  It is not often that we are given the chance to walk in their shoes for awhile.  Until we do so, we have no right to pass judgement.  Actually, even if we walk in their  shoes, it seems that we still have no right to pass judgement.

There is something powerful about operating with an attitute of doing ones best in everything that we do.  It is the stuff of greatness.

The point of power is the present.  That is where our actions have the power to impact our reality and the reality of the larger world.

When we operate with knowingness in the now ... the future will take care of itself naturally.

How many filters do we have that screen the various inputs from the senses to present to us what we want to notice and experience.  We encounter far too many stimuli to pay attention to them all.  We have to decide what is important to us ... what we want to consciously experience.  Our primary means of programming the screening that takes place is through our beliefs.  There is a saying, seeing is believing ... but they got the order wrong.  In many cases, we don't see something until we believe it.  So, in a very real way believing leads to seeing.

If we want to change what we experience, that is the best place to start, with beliefs.  It helps to treat beliefs as a playground for reality creation.  This is where we manifest our experience.  Our beliefs are the constructs through which our reality takes form.  The only test for validity of beliefs is their utility.  Those that serve us and others are good.  Those that don't need work ... either replacement or modification.  Beliefs don't deal in the arena of truth, of fact, or of the known.  If there is no uncertainty, no need for faith, then there is no room for belief.

My preference is to engage my energies and talents on the edge of the unknowns of consciousness, to venture where I can, and to bring back what I find to the degree that I can.

What would I do to make a difference in the world?  I would simply be whom that I AM and express this to the degree that I can.  Further, I would express what spirit would express through me.  I serve in her majesties service.  Interesting.  Also, I serve at the pleasure of spirit.  I am a vessel  through which consciousness does her work.  Yes, I am a being with a consciousness all my own.  But, this is just a compartment of the one consciousness of which we all are part.  I exist as an individual only so long as it serves spirit for me to be so.

I find it quite interesting that the onset of the symptoms of my bipolar disorder coincided with a time of spiritual awakening.

This is all that spirit ever asks of us, to be the vessel for spiritual expression that we can be.  We do this be developing our skills, and by volunteering our services to whatever causes we deem worthy.  For me, that choice is right here.  It is though words, in particular written words, that I feel that I can make the biggest impact on the world.  Of course, I have to act in a manner consistent with what is being expressed, or it is all for naught.  I would live a life of meaning.  Hopefully, it is a life that demonstrates what can be expressed in a new day and age.

You can probably tell by now that I consider myself to be a special individual with a unique set of gifts and talents ... and with a destiny that many might find oppressive and restrictive.  Further, I am definitely out of my mind ... I make no bones about it.  Does that make me crazy?  Perhaps, perhaps not ... it seems to depend on how you define crazy.  It seems that I observe and am conscious of more than most, but that is because this is necessary for me to carry out my mission.  It doesn't make me any better or any worse ... any higher or any lower.  It just makes me different in ways that allow me to see things that others do not seem to see.  That is OK.  That is a big part of why I am here ... first to see such things, and then to share them with others as best I can.

There is indeed one hoop, one richly interconnected web that touches and contains us all.  I would label that entity consciousness ... the one consciousness from which we all spring.  What any one of us experiences, all of us experience.  Though we may have to develop the necessary skills to tap into the source from which we can access these experiences.

It is difficult to accept senseless acts of violence.  It is also difficult to accept all of the poverty and suffering in the world.  Yet, at the same time, it is not clear what can be done to correct the problems.  One thing that comes to mind is a quote from Einstein, I believe, to the effect that problems can never be solved on the level responsible for their creation.  We have to step aside, or above as it were, and see the situation from a whole new perspective to find the solutions that we are seeking ... that is, assuming that we recognize that the problems are indeed our problems, and that we actively engage in seeking solutions.

We are to live our life as if nothing mattered and as if everything mattered.

I experience consciousness firsthand and subjectively.  That is the only way to truly experience consciousness ... except, of course, being asleep.  But, the new age is about awakening to whom that we are and especially to the consciousness within us.

How do we awaken?  This is especially difficult if we don't know that we are asleep.  Yes, this is the first thing we must realize.  To awaken, we must have a desire to cease our slumbers.  To remove the chains that bind us and restrict our freedom, we must see that they are there and then realize that is fully within our power to remove the shackles.  This we can do at any time.  It is a matter of choice, something that we can choose at any moment.

Yes, we are that powerful.  We are truly gods/ goddesses in flesh ... the creators of our reality, the masters of our fate.  But, what is it that is worth creating?  This depends on what moves us, and what we want to experience both individually and en masse.  This is for us to decide ... both individually and collectively.

What if my life doesn't amount to what I believe it should?  What if the destiny I expect never comes?  The bottom line is that it doesn't matter.  Spirit occupies the drivers seat in my life now.  Because of this, I will experience exactly what I need to experience.  My life will unfold exactly as it need to for my mission to be accomplished.  Yes, this requires a deep trust in the universe, in the very nature of consciousness and of spiritual expression.

The experience of participating in this expression is beneficial to me on many levels.  It is as therapy to me ... helping me to integrate and discover whom that I AM, in a way that no other activity which I engage in does.

It pleases me to no end to be of service in this manner ... even if the service is only to spirit.  There is a sense that these words will ultimately have a greater impact somehow, a world impact.  Yes, it is audacious of me to think so.  However it seems just as audacious to think that all of this could be happening simply for my personal benefit.  It seems like such a waste of effort if this expression of consciousness does not reach the mind, hearts, and spirits of others somehow.  Yet, everything in me tells me that this is not a waste ... in fact, that this is the most important activity of my life to date, and perhaps for all time.

Spirit doesn't force us to do anything.  She asks, and she gently nudges ... but it is up to us to choose what we do and how we do it.

Who am I to think that what I do, that what is expressed through me, can have world impact?  Wow, that is a deep question.  It comes down to an inner knowingness that I came into this existence for a purpose ... with a specific mission to perform, a mission that involved building the infrastructures for a completely new way of being ... namely, for the Aquarian Age.  This is a huge task.  But, it seems that indeed, I came in with the necessary abilities and talents to do it, and do it effectively.

I came to be of service.  And, I will be to the degree that I can, so long as I live.  What happens after this life is a whole other matter.  I may have some theories about this, but it doesn't really matter.  We live in the moment.  We are in this existence to be in this existence, and to do what we can do here and now.  There is always a way to make a difference, a beneficial difference.  It is a matter of finding it, and doing it.

I march to the beat of my own drummer ... or perhaps to the drumming of spirit within.  Either way, this sets me apart from others.

Systems have been growing more and more complex at an exponential rate for several decades.  In particular, computer technology and information systems are at the forefront of the information revolution.  The Aquarian Age corresponds with the information age.  Not surprising, since Aquarius is an air sign.  Air signs deal with ideas, ideals, and mental expression.  This very expression is an example of what is possible.  And, this is only the beginning.  My sense is that I have over two decades to grow and evolve this into all that it can be.

What is important is not what we do of our own accord, but what we allow spirit to do through us.

What distinguishes beings is the fact that they exist.  As beings we never cease to be ... we never cease to exist.  That means that our essense ... that part of us which is the being has to be beyond any form that we may take.  We know that the body and the brain cease to be animated at death.  Physically they still exist, essentially as they did the moment before death.  However, the life that animated them ... the consciousness that enabled awareness to be manifest, is no longer connected to the body and the brain.  Our beingness cannot be extinguished, however.  We are eternal and immortal ... at some level of our being.  That makes death not an ending, but rather a transition from one state of awareness to another.  Our ego experiences many such transitions over the course of our lifetime.

We experience exactly what we need (and choose) to experience.  If we want to experience a different reality, we need to make different choices.  The height of stupidity is to continue to do the things that you have been doing in the way that you have been doing them and expecting a different outcome.

Each day provides new opportunities.  What we have done in the past is in the past.  It does not suffice to rest on our laurels.  We must ever prove ourselves by doing what we can do and being all that we can be.  This is our constant challenge.  This is what spirit asks of us.  Further, it is what we should demand of ourselves.  This is not an area for compromise ... for in doing so, we cheat spirit, and moreover we cheat ourselves by not being what we could be.

What you see here is exactly what is expressed in realtime.  There is no filtering or re-writing or rearranging of what comes forth.  I have never been moved to do any of that.  Even when I go back to select best quotes from the expression, these are almost always in chronological order.  There is no reorganization that occurs.  It seems that my time is best expended by bringing forth new monitions of consciousness.

 I have known for some time that communication, especially written communication is extremely important to me.  This is why books have had such a great impact on me.  This is why e-mail is one of my preferred modes of communication with others.  This is why this expression comes forth in the manner that it does.  That is OK.  At least I recognize what comes naturally to me, and find a way to use it effectively both in my work life and my private life.

Thinking along these lines ... these words, these musings, the works at the Beyond Imagination site are my children.  They spring forth from my mind as a result of a union between me and a source that lies within.  As such, they will grow and have a life of their own ... a life just as real as any physical life would be.  Ideas are born, are ingested and experienced, and ultimately impact the reality of those whom they reach.  Ideas can be very powerful, in fact, powerful enough to change the world when properly expressed and disseminated.

I'm very wary of pushing my beliefs and expression on anyone.  I would rather that people remain free to consume what they will.  My sense is that spirit is orchestrating everything, that those who are meant to find this expression and find me, will indeed do so.  It is not for me to force this to happen ... it is for me to simply allow it to happen.

Curious, I would change the world.  Is that foolish courage speaking, or does it indeed come from a place of wisdom where I know what is mine to do?  Yes, I can come across as ego-maniac.  I know that.  And yes, I can come across as grandiose.  But, the question is whether this is the correct expression for me.  Everything that I AM tells me that it is, tells me that I am doing what I am meant to be doing ... not by my own accord, but by spirits.

So, how does a loner change the world?  The bottom line is by allowing spirit to change the world through me.  It starts by changing me.  The world is a reflection of whom that I AM.   As I change, the reflection must change as well.  However, this is not just true for me, it is true for everyone.

I trust the integrity of my being.  I allow my life to flow as it will ... just as I allow this stream of consciousness to flow.  There is someplace within my self that knows exactly why I am here and is creating the reality that allows me to carry out the mission for which I came.  This incarnation isn't so much about enjoying life for me ... though I do experience joy when I am operating at my peak effectiveness whether at work or in this expression.  Also, I do get pleasure from some of the movies and shows that I watch, the books that I read, and some of the interactions that I have with people.  However, the bottom line for me is to live my life in such a manner that I am a wayshower, demonstrating firsthand how spirit can be more fully expressed in flesh.  That, more than anything, is what I am here to do.  This expression is a major part of achieving this.

In the end, the goal is to have lived a life that made a difference ... not just to me, and a few that I may touch personally; but, to society and the world.  Yes, that is a tall order.  But, I expect great things from myself.  The starting point to achieving great things is the belief that we can indeed do them.  This, accompanied by the attitude to do whatever it takes.

How many of us live lives that we would be proud to show to thousands if not millions?  That is an interesting way to look at things.  For indeed, we are all connected ... the experiences of each are felt in very real ways by all.

We each have a destiny of our own to experience.  We each have a number of roles to play.  However, they are not thrust upon us.  They are roles that we chose, roles that we auditioned for, and roles that we are fully prepared to play at some level.  In a very real way, we create our own destiny ... but that means that there is indeed a destiny being played out.

So, what are my hopes and dreams?  It is not clear that I really have any.  That would involve living for tomorrow ... when my reality lies in the present.  Take care of now, and the future will take care of itself.

Ultimately, it is the meaning of things that define reality.  Actually, I do have a dream of someday creating the foundations for spirit to more fully express in flesh.  That is the dream of Beyond Imagination.  Thus far, that has involved expressing what has been expressed here over the past nine plus years.

In virtually every area of human endeavor, we have a bell curve that defines the capability relative to the populous.  A few are horrible, many are mediocre, some are good, and a few are great.

Am I one of the "great" players in the area of the expression of consciousness?  The mania and grandiosity rear their heads again.  Yet these very writings are the proof that I offer that I delve into areas that most do not.  Further, that I am at home in this domain ... that this is where my consciousness soars, that this is where my natural abilities shine.

Part of achieving our destiny is finding what we are great at and doing it.

Increased expression of spirit in flesh is the "better" direction.  Evolution ensures that this takes place; in particular, spiritual evolution.  Note, this has nothing to do with religion.  I don't consider myself to be religious.  I worship no gods.  I do not pray.  I do not belong to any religious organization.  Yet, I consider myself to be highly spiritual.  I speak of the realm of spirit ... and of the connection to spirit ... and of the expression of spirit in flesh.  And, I know that everything is spirit in expression, is consciousness manifest in form.

My path is the path of the transcendentalists ... many of my favorite quotes (other than my own) come from Emerson, Thoreau, and Channing, one of their predecessors.  I believe in a realm beyond the physical one, a spiritual realm where the bulk of the work of reality creation gets done.  I believe that there is ONE consciousness that animates us all, a collective consciousness, if you will, that is aware of and learns from every experience of every individual.

For me, there must be purpose behind everything ... not reason, but purpose.

On an average weekday, I spend roughly 12 hours in front of a computer screen and keyboard.  That is OK.  I am an information worker in an information age. I am doing what I am good at. That is, if you consider what I do here as good.

There is something about this record that is special.  Here, we see a stream of consciousness if all its glory and all its frailty.  Here, I do what I am moved to do.  Here, I answer the call of spirit within me.  Here, I speak with the voice of spirit.  How do I know this?  How do I know that I am not fooling myself into thinking that I have a connection to spirit?  Actually, it does not really matter.  The source is what it is.  If it is of me, it is of spirit anyway ... since everything is spirit.  And, if it is of spirit, above and beyond what I AM, then so be it as well.

This endeavor is definitely the most important of my life.  It is my chief "hobby", the endeavor to which I devote a great deal of my free time.  Why do I do this?  Simply because I must.  I am moved by a force that I find to be irresistable.  Not that I care to resist anyway.

We are not meant to do everything by ourselves.  That is one of the reasons that there are others in our world.  People have different skills and talents.  We are meant to serve one another, freely and openly.  We are meant to cooperate and work together with one another to achieve great things ... things far greater than we can achieve alone.

So, how does one live an extraordinary life?  One lives from the heart, and does what spirit bids one to do.  When we live as if we are spirit manifesting as flesh ... whole new realms of possibilities open up unto us.  We activate a whole host of unseen forces.  We achieve greatness not by doing what we would do ... but by allowing spirit to do what she would do through us.  Of our own, we are capable of only so much.  However, spirit has no such limits.  Her depths are unfathomable.  Her resources are unlimited.  We are only limited to the degree that we act out of selfishness.  When we act from the source within us, we act selflessly, for we are beyond all sense of self that we normally know.

My life belongs to the world, as does this very expression.  Yes, that is a grandiose way of looking at things.  But, I am no ordinary being.  Yet, what it is that makes me special is the very gifts that I have to offer the world.  The one thing that we have that is of the most importance is our very self.  When we use this in service, we give the greatest gift of all.

There is something special about living a life of meaning, especially when the meaning comes forth from within.

It is not enough for me simply to exist and live a solitary life.  I am here to make a difference, and on a grand scale. There is a destiny that I know to be mine.  Yes, I speak in grandiose terms.  But, it is not the mania speaking here.  For me, this is natural.  It comes forth from a realization of whom that I am, and from an acceptance that this indeed is the work that I have come to do.  I feel a great obligation to serve ... to serve spirit, to serve society, and to serve the world.  However, this is not expressed as a desire to serve specific individuals.

Life is lived as a series of moments that ultimately span the years of our lives.

What can I do that others cannot do?  What is uniquely mine to do?  How can I live my life to make the greatest difference to the greatest number?  Is that even what I am meant to do?  Or, is it through a difference to a few that I am ultimately to impact many?  These words are the starting point.  They are my spiritual works, if you will.  Are they enough?  My sense is no, so long as I am living and breathing ... what has come before is never enough.  There is always the next step to take, the next work to do, the next expression of consciousness to manifest.  This is to be my lifelong work.  I would have it no other way.   I have chosen to live a life of spiritual expression.  That is all that truly matters to me.

Ye shall know them by their works.  This definitely applies to the parts of the self.  We find them by encountering what they do ... and then by searching within for a framework that permits us to understand how they work.  We may or may not discover such a framework for understanding.  It may have to suffice that we see these parts doing their works ... and that we simply allow them to do what they will.  That is OK too.  There is nothing that says we have to understand everything.  Often, we only need to know enough the use them and to allow them to operate.  Have faith and accept things for what they are.  We are spirit expressing in flesh now.  We always have been, and always will be.  It is time for us to do so with eyes wide open ... with an awareness of what we are doing and why we are doing it.

I see consciousness as the highest form of expression and experience that we can bring into our reality.

There is much more that I am able to do and meant to do.  I can feel it deep within me.  I have not begun to express to anywhere the degree that I am capable of doing.  Yes, I have done a lot to date.  Perhaps enough to constitute a life's work for some.  But, that is not true for me.  This is only the beginning, the first chapter in the book that is my life.  How can I know this?  I just do!  It strikes a chord within me.  There is a special resonance that occurs when I have encountered truth.  I can feel it inside of me.  That is sufficient confirmation for me to know.

Hmm ... if this is chapter 1, I wonder how many chapters lie ahead.  The bottom line is that it does not really matter.  That will take care of itself as my life unfolds.  It is enough to do in the moment what is to be done in that moment.  The future is of no concern ... or, at least, or limited concern.  What we face here and now is the reality that is confronting us.  That is true for every moment of our lives.  It behooves us to pay attention to this ever present moment as it unfolds.  Here is where we have the power of choice.  Here is where free will reigns.  It is not in any distant future no matter how well planned out it may be.

Know thyself has been a directive to us since at least the time of Plato ... and perhaps much longer than this.  It seems that with the complexity of the times, this has become more difficult to do than it has ever been before.  That is OK.  Our capacity for doing this has grown greatly as well.  Further, we have more free time on our hands overall than most of our predecessors had.  However, we have far more distractions as well.

Whether we are wasting our time is something that we must decide for ourselves.  Ultimately, that is who we are accountable to ... that and spirit, anyway.  But our responsibility to spirit is simple, it is to be whom that we are ... spirit enfleshed; and to express this as fully as we can.  We do this by recognizing that we are indeed spirit, and then by choosing to do what spirit would do, what love would do in each moment.

Since I don't control where this expression comes from ... all that I can do is trust what flows when it flows.

It seems that we can learn of the nature of ourselves and our world by focusing inward, outward, or anywhere in between.  It is obvious that my path has been almost solely an inner one.  It is also obvious that my path is not for everyone.  And, perhaps it is for no one other than me.  Though, I still feel driven to leave this record of where my consciousness has wandered.  I do it in hope that others may benefit from it.  Exactly how this might happen is still unknown.

I still have to wonder if there is sufficient value in this expression to be worth the cost in time and effort that goes into it.  From my choice of continuing to express on a daily basis, I guess the answer is obviously the affirmative.  Day after day, week after week, month after month, I open up Composer and allow this stream of consciousness to flow forth.  My experience is that each time I open Composer the words start to flow and continue to flow so long as I allow it to.  Sometimes they flow faster and at other times slower depending on the quality of the connection.  This is also dependent on my state of consciousness.  At present, this does not seem to be something that I can control.  It simply happens, seemingly in cycles, though I am not aware of what the cycles are.

It seems that there is so little that is known in the realm of consciousness.  My firsthand observation shows that there is much that I am aware of but that I don't really understand how it works or why it is.  I suspect that this is because there is little that is known.  Then again ... that may be presumptuous on my part.  There is much research underway throughout the world.  Perhaps it would help to find out what the latest in brain research and the understanding of consciousness have to offer.  However, I am not one for doing extensive research and working the fine details.  My forte is the general themes and the overall picture.  I like to see how things fit together from the top down.

What is it that I can do that others cannot do?  These are the things were I need to apply myself, my energy, and my talents and abilities.  Spirit seeks to get maximal results for the effort expended.  This only happens when we do what we are designed to do ... and this just happens to be what we are destined to do.  There is a grand plan at play ... a spiritual plan that involves the unfoldment of consciousness and its expression in flesh.

There is a sense that the expression needs to reach someone other than me.  Though, the words for your eyes only still haunt me.  It is though they have been written expressly to warn me of a possible reality.  It could be that all of this is an elaborate training ground for me to learn of whom that I AM so that I can become the best vehicle for the expression of consciousness in flesh that I can be.  If so, it says a lot about the lengths to which the universe will go for the benefit of a single individual.

Each of us are capable of greatness in some area or endeavor.  It is simply a matter of finding what that is and doing it.  This takes courage, the courage to be whom that we truly are ... not what others want us to be, and not even what we might want to show as our mask to the world.  It takes courage to be honest.  It takes courage to operate with complete integrity.  But this is what we must do if we are to lead an authentic life.

We are spirit.  It is high time that we lived our lives as if we truly believed this.

How do we do this?  We start by looking within to discover whom that we truly are.  We develop our intuition, find the still small voice within us, really listen to it, and choose to act on what it tells us.  We find what we are moved to do and we do it, without concern for the consequences.  That doesn't mean that we relinquish responsibility.  On the contrary, we are fully responsible for all that we do and all that we experience.  However, when we do spirit's works, the spirit within us is responsible for what happens as a result ... and she knows what she is doing.

When we operate from spirit, we blur the line of individuality.  We express from a connectivity to the collective.  This is a matter of where our awareness resides.  From my experience, this constantly fluctuates.  However, the overall trend is towards greater awareness, and an increased tie to the collective, to the ONE source, the ONE consciousness that animates us all.  We can influence where on this spectrum we spend our time.

When we allow spirit to work through us, we can do nearly anything.  I qualified this with nearly, as a reminder that we need to get out of the way to the degree that we can so that the work is truly that of spirit versus what we might do out of ego.  I am very wary of giving ego too wide of a berth.  She is a useful tool, or can be when used correctly.  But, ego is not meant to be the master in our lives, though many appear to be locked within its grips.

Hmm ... is this expression effective?  Good question.  That depends on its purpose.  The sole purpose that I have for it is to capture the stream of consciousness that is able to flow through me.  Why the stream flows through me in the manner that it does is not something that I have even questioned before.  I was happy that it was able to come forth as it does.  I gladly and consciously choose to serve spirit as the voice/vessel for this expression.  Yet, why me, and why in this manner are definitely important questions.  As to the first, because I AM whom that I AM and this is part of what I came to do.  As to the second, because this is the most effective means for spirit to express through me at this time.  Convenient answers.  But, I believe in a world of purpose ... of spiritual intent directing what is expressed and experienced both individually and en masse.  Because of this, I am a pawn in the game of life ... or perhaps a king, a bishop, or a knight.

I am moved by an intelligent force from within that I call source or the spirit within.  I would play my role as directed.  But, as a conscious being, I learn firsthand from the awareness that I have as I act out my life, and from the changes in this awareness that occur over time.  I am not whom that I was prior to 1993, nor 1998, nor 2002, nor the preceding moment for that matter.  I picked these years, in particular, because of the magnitude of the transformations of consciousness that occurred.  I have no means of knowing how common or unique my experience truly is.  My sense is that it is quite rare.  Yes, signs of grandiosity again.  But, how else can I explain all that is expressed here?  Where does the wisdom that is imparted come from?  How can I know all of this enough to express it in such a declarative manner?

I've spoken before of a desire to find my spiritual family ... those kindred spirits with whom I can relate.  Yet, at the same my nature is very much that of a loner.  I tolerate people in my life and to some degree enjoy interacting with others at times, but I prefer my own company and my private time.  This is one area where we are equal.  We are each given 24 hours per day in which to accomplish and experience what we will.

Life is definitely a great gift, one not to be squandered.  It is up to us to find something useful to do ... some way to make the life we have been given a gift back to spirit, our society, and our world.  What we choose to do with our life is our gift to the world.  On 1 January 1998, I was moved to announce that all of the work of Beyond Imagination was a gift from spirit to the world.  Nothing has changed that in the 4.5 years since then.

Being genuinely interested in others seems to be something that one is born with rather than develops.  I am concerned with what I can do for the whole world ... but not concerned about what I can do on a smaller scale to help particular individuals.  This seems to be a matter of how I am wired, a matter of how my brain functions, and a matter of where my spirit came to focus.  Here, we are all unique.  What works for one, may or may not work for another.  It is for us to try things and find what works best for us.  Utility is the measure of the value of anything.  Use what works, and be open to adapting how you do things based on the results you see in your reality.

How do I share more of whom that I am with others.  Along with this, how do I receive more from others.  Sharing is a two way process.  It is an exchange of energy.  Thus far, my sharing has been primarily a one way expression ... involving recording a stream of consciousness and making it available on the WWW.  It is an interactive process to the degree that spirit and I are involved.  It has yet to be interactive between me and others.  Do I really desire that it move in this direction?  On the one hand, yes; but on the other hand, I am not so sure.  Though, there is a sense that my reality will indeed move in this direction regardless.  It is simply a matter of when.  And the sense is that it will be sooner rather than later.

I trust that there is some part of me that knows what it is doing and can be trusted.  I am unconsciously competent in the things that I do.  To be consciously competent, I would have to know how I do the things that I do.  For some things, I have this awareness ... but for many other things, I do not.  This is OK as well.  What matters is that we are competent, not whether it is conscious or unconscious.  In fact, it seems that unconscious competence is the better of the two, for then we are doing things on automatic, often without even trying.

Will this expression make a difference?  It already has, even if only for me.  Yet, there is a potential that it will do far more than this.  As a wayshower and explorer of consciousness, being able to record a stream of consciousness is a very important thing.  By recording it in a manner that can be posted to the WWW ... the result is a signpost, a marker, or a candle that can show or light the way for others.

One more day ... one more opportunity for spirit to express in flesh.  Yes, this is true everyday.  But how many of us are at a point where we are satisfied with what we have done with our lives to date.  There is something to be gained by living one's life as if the end were near, not out of fear ... rather as a challenge to be all that we can be; and to not delay until tomorrow what can be accomplished today.

The middle path seems to be to allow what is to unfold in our lives to do so naturally, without undo force being applied one way or another.  Yes, we can make things happen.  However, it is far more important that we allow spirit to make things happen through us.  This makes all the difference in the world.

Egos can be strong forces to deal with.  They are the parts of us responsible for assessing our reality.  However, at times, it seems that they don't realize that they are not the only components of the self that are operating in this existence.  Intuition and inputs from source or spirit must be recognized as well ... and, in my experience, as superior sources of information and guidance.

Our oldest books only go back 2500 years or so (at least in the West).  I don't know how far back such material goes in the East, in particular in India and China.  Also, even where we do have such ancient texts, it is not as if we have libraries ... we only have a few works by a small number of authors.  We are in the midst of an information explosion by comparison.  I don't remember where we are on the exponential curve.  But, it takes a small number of years for the amount of information (fiction and nonfiction) to double.  It is as if there is an ocean of information ... and it is up to us to develop the skills necessary to navigate through it, and to understand the meaning of what we find.  This is the major challenge of the information age.  One doesn't have to sink or swim, however.  It is perfectly fine to acquire watercrafts of various types to propel one to get to where one wants to be.  Further, there are any number of instruments that can be used to navigate and to examine and evaluate what we find.  One of the greatest tools of all is the lump of grey matter that rides in our skull as the vessel through which mind enters into flesh.

I've had several jumps in consciousness, where I was suddenly aware that I was more than I knew myself to be before.  I love such experiences.  They are leaps from the cliff into the outstreached arms of spirit.  In reality, there is no other place to fall.  We are safe.  We are loved.  And, we are meant to do what we can to convey this to others.

Many do not realize the power of beliefs and their importance in creating the reality we experience.  Yes, creating.  Beliefs define what meaning we assign to what we experience ... and in doing so, create the very reality that we experience.

My world is primarily one of meaning.  It is not so much what happens in life that matters, it is the meaning that we assign to the experience.  This meaning is what determines how we will respond, what action we will take next.

Life gives us plenty of opportunity to do things and make choices that ultimately count.  However, in the end what really matters?  What about our lives will live on after we do?  For most, children provide this legacy.  That is not to be the case for me.  My legacy will be the words that I leave and the deeds that I do.  My children will be those spawned by my consciousness.  And, it seems they are not all mine ... they belong to spirit for they spring forth from her.

At some level, everything is spirit.  Yes, everything, including us.  That means that all that we do is spiritual ... is the work, the expression of spirit.  This means when we are at our highs as well as at our lows.  Hmm ... that seems to justify a lot of bad or evil things that people and organizations do.  However, at some level the expression of spirit in flesh is perfect.  It always is and has always been.  The scenes that are played out are just that, scenes in a play.  We are actors all.  And, what we experience is what we experience ... it is not real, but it is the reality that we experience.  Yes, that means that reality is not real.  It is an engaging illusion, one that can engage us for countless lifetimes.

Everything meaningful in my life has a strong metaphysical and thus spiritual component.  More than any other description, I am consciousness having a physical experience.  My mind has been one of my most important tools.  In fact, I lived in my head nearly exclusively for much of my life.  I still live primarily in the realm of thought and ideas ... in the realm of the written word, and primarily metaphysical words at that.

I must change and evolve if I am to continue to serve spirit in this manner.  That is not surprising, change is one thing that is everpresent in life.  It is for us to make the most of it.  Becoming all that we can be requires that we discover whom that we are and that we express this in our lives to the degree that we can.  This is a task that is the same for everyone.  Though, there are many grades and levels.

Consciousness is a very big place to explore.  Awareness is the personal aspect that connection to consciousness brings into our lives.  It helps tremendously if we consciously choose to pursue awareness with all of our heart and soul.  It should be as important to us as the very air that we breathe ... no, even more so.

It is consciousness that animates us, each and every moment.  We are spiritual beings, all.  This is our true nature.  It is a matter of realizing it and acting from this place.  It is a matter of choice, a matter of where and how we choose to express our time and energy.

Numbers haven't been as prevalent in this expression for some time now.  That is OK, I have no sense that anyone else understands my way of interpreting them anyway.  For the meantime, this seems to be a language that is between me and spirit.  However, numerology and gematria have been around a long time.  Long enough that it seems there must be an element of truth to them.  They are tools that help us see aspects of the world and reality in a different manner than our normal viewing.  Yes, this means that they give us different eyes through which to see the world.  That is a different way to look at tools, but effectively such is what they are.

Where would I go to find the answers that I seek.  The standard answer is always ... seek within.  Yet, there is something suggesting that it is time to start seeking on the outside as well.  The two domains are mirrors of one another.  However, that doesn't mean that everything is done in the same manner or with the same ease in both domains.  A spiritual warrior needs a variety of tools in his arsenal.  Further, he should be ready to find truth in the world just as readily as inside himself.

Expectations are a rough area to deal with.  Where we can, we should do what we know is right for us to do without expectation of results.  This does not mean that we cannot enjoy the results that do come.  It just means that we should remain open and allow spirit to determine what results follow from our actions.

The major point is that we should live our lives as if spirit mattered ... for that is exactly what we are spirit expressing in matter.

This thing called life is a precious gift ... every moment of it.  Now is constantly sustained by spirit.  Every moment, life is renewed.  Each moment is a death and a new birth.  Similarly, each night is a death to the waking consciousness, and each morning a rebirth of that consciousness.

My physical body may die, my brain may cease its functioning, my physical life will cease ... but my consciousness shall continue on in whatever manner is appropriate to it.  This manner will be highly dependent on the awareness achieved during life.  That is why the directive know thyself is so important.

What is the purpose of this particular expression of this stream of consciousness.  My hope is that it will serve as a useful example and will be indisputable evidence that one such as me has existed.

In the end, it is what we have given of ourselves out of unconditional love that will make a difference to all those whose lives we touch.

Clearly 1993 was a year of destiny for me, a year of awakening to an awareness of spirit that I had not known was even possible before.  However, this was primarily an inner destiny.  Though, it has resulted in an extensive set of works that spirit has generated through me.  Yes, the works are primarily words ... but in the right minds at the right time, words have the power to do amazing things ... up to and including transforming the world as we know it.

Will the words that have been captured and shared here have such impact?  Only time will tell.  They will if that is the destiny that spirit would choose for them.  Otherwise, they will not.  To date, they have had such impact on me.   Personally, they have changed my world in ways that are Beyond Imagination.

There is a sense that coming here was a choice ... that this was not something that I had to do.  There is a sense that I am complete somehow, in ways that many are not.  Perhaps that is why goals, objectives, and plans are so foreign to me.  All of these require attachment to an outcome.  It is not for me to create particular outcomes, I leave that to spirit.  It is for me to do what I am moved to do as well as I can, and to express all that I AM as fully as I can while doing this.  For me, it is spirit that is the moving force in my life.  It is clear that this is not true for everyone.

While we live in a world of duality such things as good and bad do indeed exist for us ... just as hot and cold, big and small, animate and inanimate, fat and thin, black and white, fast and slow, etc...  It is not wrong that such things exist in our experience of reality.  However, because we experience them as we do doesn't make them necessarily real.  Duality is an illusion, an engaging illusion, but an illusion nonetheless.

Our lives seem to unfold in spite of what we do rather than because of what we do.  This indicates that there is an unseen hand that is pulling the strings and indeed such is the case.  Though, this hand may be an unknown part of ourself.  That does not mean that it is unknowable, though indeed our depths of soul may be unfathomable.

Our Declaration of Independence states that we are endowed by our creator with certain inalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.  It is interesting that it is stated in this manner, as the pursuit of happiness.  This doesn't guarantee that we will ever achieve happiness.  It seems that is up to us ... in how we choose to pursue happiness.

Life should be interesting.  It is far too easy for boredom to set in if we are not careful and include variety in what we do.  Boredom is like death in some ways.  It is dying to life.  In a way, I have been dead to life much of my life.  I have not fully engaged and participated as much as I could.  Perhaps this is right for me, perhaps not.  The very fact that I am thinking about it means that perhaps there is something to consider here.  Perhaps I need to see things in a new light.

That line from a movie just caught my attention.  It was from a book, and was the definition of success.  It is a very good definition of success.  It focuses on having a positive impact on the life of others.

 I care and am concerned about myself deeply and about the spirit within me ... but I have not been deeply concerned about others, except on rare occasions.  Because of this, I have effectively isolated myself in a world of my own.  No, I don't live in a cave completely isolated from others.  I have developed some working relationships with the people that I work with and live with that include some level of personal interaction.  However, the sense is that there needs to be more of this.  How do we get the hermit to come out of his shell?  We start by realizing that the shell is a form that while it had its utility also had its share of limitations as well.  The bottom line are that the limitations now outweigh the utility.  The shell has served its purpose.  It got me here, where I am at this moment.

I stand as an aware being, expressing spirit in flesh to the degree that I can.  That doesn't mean that a new shell isn't required or at least desireable ... it is just that the new shell, if any, should have its own utility.  I don't think this will change my introverted nature.  Though it may not be quite so extreme.  I doubt that I will ever be an extrovert ... but then again, who knows what time will bring?  My sense is that I will always enjoy and prefer my own company ... and the connection to spirit that comes with it.  That seems to be my very nature.  However, that doesn't mean that I can't enjoy my time with others as well.

I've always demanded a lot of myself ... mainly because only I know what I am truly capable of ... and actually, I may not even know this at all.  I know what I have been able to do, and I can project this out to some degree.  However, it seems that what I am truly capable of will be a big surprise even to me.  That is OK.  We need an element of the unknown in our lives to keep things interesting.  Free will serves that purpose as well.  It allows choice to enter the picture and impact our experience of reality.  However, it seems that we are more free than we might believe, yet at the same time have less conscious free will than we might suppose.  The title from a biography of Paul Twitchell comes to mind: In my soul I am free.  That is where to look for freedom, in the spiritual domain rather than in the physical.  It is there that we can fly and soar to heights as far as the wings of awareness can take us.

Yes, awareness is that important ... possibly the most important thing in our lives.  The body will return dust to dust, all of our worldly possessions will remain in the world, but our awareness is the one thing that we get to take with us when we depart this existence.

What would I do to make a difference in the world?  For that is what I expect of myself.  Anything less is simply not living up to my potential, which is unacceptable to me.  That is a standard that I set for myself.  And, I will do whatever it take to achieve it.  For the most part, this requires becoming the best vehicle through which spirit can express that I can.  This stream of consciousness is one of the means that I practice doing this.  So, effectively, if you are reading this ... you are experiencing my practice sessions.  Eventially, our practice is sufficient and we play the game for real or we perform for a live audience.  This will be new for me.  However, I am looking forward to the change.

Does my thinking smack of grandiosity?  Yes, I acknowledge that.  However, is it warranted?  Here, I believe the answer is yes as well.  Though, that is something only I can answer for myself, and only you can answer from your perspective.  Whatever the answer, I must continue to do as I am moved to do.  This is the only way I know how to live my life.  I trust that in doing so, I will live my life as spirit directs and in doing so will maximize my contribution to the world.  Right now, this expression is the contribution that I am moved to make.  Interesting, the following just came from a TV commercial ...

The immediate impression was that this applies to me personally.  What I have to date is words.  Yes, a lot of words, but still only words.  The next step seems to be to act in accord with the words ... that is to generate deeds consistent with all that has been expressed.  That is how I take charge and start to really live my life, rather than stay in the background as an observer.

In the end, there is only ONE, and then the game is over.  Our ego serves as a head to the self.  Each time we cut it off, we experience a quickening in which we integrate ever greater parts of our self.  There is always an ego, a part of us that is responsible for interpreting physical reality.  When one ego dies, another immediately takes its place.

There is a spiritual world embedded in the symbol systems of the physical world.  Actually, there may be several such worlds since many symbol systems are mapped onto the same elements.  That is OK.  All such systems are valid from their own perspective.  Yes, that means there are many spiritual worlds.  As Jesus said, in my fathers house are many mansions.  Each of these symbolic worlds is as a mansion.  It is up to us to choose which, if any, of these mansions we will live within.  Actually, it is not so clear that we choose the mansion(s).  Perhap it or they choose us.  That only seems appropriate.  It is as if we already belong to worlds that we are meant to be part of.  For some, this may only be in potential.  For others, we are already engaged.

Our beliefs and expectations form screens that filter all that we experience.  As a result, reality conforms to our expectations ... at least sometimes anyway.  Often, we have conflicting beliefs or have no expectations, leaving it open as to what we will experience.  The bottom line, however, is that if we want to change our lives, the place to start is with our beliefs.  This is one area where we have complete control, regardless of what we may have been taught in the past.  However, we have to have the courage to take charge of this area of our lives.

For the greatest good of all concerned is the key operating directive.  This requires some level of evaluation of what we do.  If we don't know what impact we have, how can we ever improve and make this better.  Yes, better is a subjective judgment ... but we are subjective beings, and this is a judgment we must make for ourselves.

There is a reason that we are where we are.  We attract those circumstances that we need to learn and grow, and ultimately to be prepared to carry out whatever mission we have come to perform.  Most are not aware of that mission.  It seems that spirit operates on a need to know basis.  She informs us of what we need to know when we are ready, and when we need to know.

Our task is to fully be in the present, and to do what needs to be done here and now.  When we do this, the future will be a natural outcome ... it will take care of itself.  The trick is to do what we are moved by spirit to do.  That requires developing the ability to distinguish and recognize what spirit is asking of us in every situation that we face.

Our natural mode of expression is to serve spirit, and in turn our society as only we can.  Yes, that is asking a lot.  However, it is only asking that we be true to our true nature.  We are spirit in flesh, here and now ... every one of us.  Yes, all 5 plus billion of us on the planet plus the entire animal and plant kingdoms for that matter.

Spirit is all ONE!  She is orchestrating everything.  Those with roles to play will gravitate naturally towards what they need to do when they need to do it.  It is not necessary for any one cell to know everything about the whole.  The whole is the synergistic result of a collective cooperative effort.  Because of this, there are no limits to what it can be and what it can achieve.  However, we must recognize that there is an intelligence, a consciousness that is behind and causes the expression in flesh.  This intelligence is limited in expression only to the degree that the forms are limited.  Because of this, awareness is critical.  Our awareness is the level of consciousness that we have experienced in this lifetime.

There is a sense that my destiny is unfolding exactly as planned ... one step at a time.  No, it is not as I would plan it.  Rather it is as spirit would have it.  I am OK with that. I have resigned to live my life as spirit would direct.  This is a choice that I make.  Some might think that this is the easy way out ... that I have relinquished responsibility for my own life and my own choices.  However, I assure you that this is not the case at all.  I accept complete responsibility for everything that I experience.  When we choose to allow spirit to express through us, when we choose to live a life of destiny ... we are still responsible for our choice and for everything that comes of it.  What has changed is that we now have a helping hand in our corner ... a hand from a source that knows us far more than we know ourselves.

We are all Princes and Kings in our own rights.  It is a matter of  realizing that this is true, and of finding that place where it is true.  Our sovereignty, however, is not so much over others, as it is over ourselves.  We are always in complete control of how we expend our greatest resource, our self and our time.

We each have the same allotment of time each day ... that is until our final day anyway.  Some have more duties to perform than others during that time.  Some have more leisure, and more freedom.  Some have more responsibilities, some less.  However, whatever we have is what we deserve somehow.

We have to move beyond our selfishness to a mode of providing service to spirit and to others with our lives.  How we do this is up to us.  However, we have to move from a me to a we mode of expression.  We have to move from a what is in it for me, to a what is in it for all of us perspective.

My vocation is as a systems engineer in an information age ... and here I am as a scribe, and metaphysical information generator in that same age.  Information, expressed in words consumes a great deal of my time, in fact, a vast majority of it.  It is clearly what I am suited to do.

There is something about this expression that is addictive.  That does not make make it bad in any way.  Some habits are good to have.  This expression is a form of therapy for me.  It allows me to tap the depths of my self on a regular basis.  I never know where it will lead.  But, I trust that it will lead me in exactly the direction that I need to head.  This comes from a deep trust in life, and how it unfolds.  There is a plan that spirit has for us.

There is a divine plan for the unfoldment of consciousness.  From the beginning it has pushed the individual and collective consciousness to ever greater awareness and to ever greater expression of spirit in flesh.  We lie at the crossroads of a new age ... one that has been forecast for many years.  We have been on the threshold of the age since at least the 60's.  It seems though that now the dawn is finally upon this.  A new day and a new age has come.

I can only do my part ... and serve as the scribe for spirit.  What happens from there is up to spirit.  I am but a pebble in the hand of God.  As such, I allow him to throw me where he will.  Interesting.  I don't typically speak of God and his place in my life, yet here we have God operating as a motive force, and throwing me to those circumstances in which I am to do my work.  That work, is prmarily expressing spirit in flesh.

God is the creator, but spirit is the animating force that expresses through us.  My connection is still with consciousness, with the spirit within.  Though, it seems that this may be subject to change as well.  We will see soon enough.