1 Sep 93

Chiropractic adjustment. Finished reading The Alchemist. Watched videotape on Buddhism and realized that I was Buddhist, not in terms of how I worshipped but by how I live my life.

2 Sep 93

Installed new phone (408) 372-7455. Number was specifically chosen using numerology. This was necessary since it was to be the number for Beyond Imagination. It had to be special. Watched the movie Brother Sun, Sister Moon about St Francis of Assisi.

5 Sep 93

Watched the movie Rising Sun. Sean Connery's part was outstanding. Found the movie to be very spiritual.

6 Sep 93

Stuff from Pacific Spirit arrived. Watched Heart of Tibet, Tantra of Gyuto, and Ramakrishna videotapes. Feeling very spiritual. Aware that I was undergoing some very intense spiritual transformations. Couldn't get enough. Videos provided a presence, a way to get in touch with someone who had experienced similar states of consciousness. I didn't know anyone personally who understood and could help explain what I was experiencing.

7 Sep 93

Watched SAI - Universal Teacher. Massage.

10 Sep 93

Spirit/Body integration session with Carol Edwards. Outstanding. Very deep breathing during entire session. Felt very grounded and integrated. This was far better than any massage. Carol is wonderful at what she does.

12 Sep 93

Went to the Unitarian Church, and the to Pacific Coast Church. At the later, I found home. They focused on the Transcendentalists, Emerson, Thoreau, and Whitman; the philosophers that ring most loudly in my Heart. Further, at the end of the service they all hold hands and sing a song about PEACE. Let there be Peace on Earth, and let it begin with me. It was like it was my song -- written for me personally. I went up to Bill Little afterward, told him what I was feeling and mentioned that I would like to meet with him personally later in the week. Called the church offices later in the day and left a message.

14 Sep 93

Aura reading with Geraldine in Capitola. She was blown away. Both of my repressed colors had broken through and further, I had started to go to all colors. She had never seen this happen so quickly to anyone before. Reading verified what I already knew intuitively. Also mentioned that Al Gore was a brother of mine at some level. Al Gore, Tony Robbins, and Ross Perot all have double green, double blue, brown. Interesting, it seems that all the important people that I have felt any close connection with all have similar powerful color combinations. My sense is that we have some work to do together -- all of us, that on some level we are close members of the same spiritual family.

17 Sep 93

Met with Bill Little to discuss my spiritual awakening. Talked incessantly, so didn't leave him any time to say anything. Agreed to meet again the following week. Watched videotape on Krishnamurti. Understood exactly what he said about going Beyond Mind. Here was someone who had experienced what I had just experienced. The video was absolutely fascinating. It was especially interesting that K noted that after 60 years of teaching, he never had met anyone who ever got it -- who experienced the state of being beyond mind.

19 Sep 93

Attended service at Pacific Coast Church. Found it interesting that Bill's talk was about things that I had realized that week. It was as if we were connected to the same consciousness. Watched Secret of Nikola Tesla. Outstanding movie, very metaphysical. Watched Master of Life by Sutphen. Geraldine said he has a purple as the first aura color as well. His video was very different, strange yet fascinating images. I felt very good after watching it.

21 Sep 93

Physical with Dr Franklin. Everything great. He asked, "why did you even come in?"

Watched video on Nostradamus. His predictions were fascinating. It's as if he saw it all in his mind, 400+ years of progress and wars. Much of it had to be encoded however, or his life would have been put in jeopardy. It basically indicates that much of the play is already written. Individuals have some free choice, but much of the cooperative creation is in accord with a PLAN already laid out by consciousness.

Watched Stuart Wilde video on the Super Self. Really understood what he was saying. Didn't agree with some of it metaphysically, but understood how he could come to those conclusions.

Watched Jim Wanless video on the Tarot. Realized that I was every card in the Major Arcana, that I've completed the cycle. This was another confirmation of my level of awareness.

Astrology reading with Ron Pierce. Reconfirmed that I was being hit by some very powerful transformational aspects. Both Neptune and Uranus were square to my natal Sun and that this combination of energies had been there over two months already, and would be there another 6-8 weeks. Rob Ryan had told me this when I saw him a few days prior to my first session with Carol Edwards.

23 Sep 93

Second session with Bill Little. Much more interactive.

24 Sep 93

Saw Dr Adolfo in Santa Cruz. Everything fine -- especially heart. Need another month to rest and recover however. Second spirit/body integration session with Carol Edwards. Once again, a powerful integrative experience. She is outstanding. Talked about exchanging services and maybe working at the center. Believed services among Lightworkers should be exchanged.

26 Sep 93

Attended service at Pacific Coast Church. More confirming evidence that:

29 Sep 93

Met with Rob and Carol to talk about how I might serve the center. Carol had made a special scent for me that was absolutely wonderful. Rob got me a session with Raven, an acupuncturist. Session was excellent. Felt very grounded. Since her services were provided for free and she saw me right away, I thought that she must know I am special. In fact, I thought that all the lightworkers must know and that whatever services I might need would be provided. She gave me some herbs that would help. I was seeing symbols in everything. Stopped at Staff of Life and the soup was Gypsy Stew -- obviously a connection to Gini. It felt like the props were all set up for me, it was my play. Followed instructions on those symbols that struck my consciousness as important. Numbers were very important symbols. Went next door to the furniture store and was attracted to an antique checkwriter that something told me was mine, I had to have it. Remember some comment about being an Angel, like Michael Landon. Tried to write a check using the checkwriter, but that wasn't good enough. The lady wanted me to go to the bank to verify it. Figured that there must be some reason that I had to go to the bank, so walked there and followed the signs that I saw. Couldn't figure out how to get any money and kept trying various things. Finally, the lady from the furniture store came over and said my dog needed water. I figured that I just wasn't reading the signs right, and that the universe would take care of me. I wanted the checkwriter for after 1 Oct when I believed my contract with the universe would start. Why? Because I had declared it so in my resolutions for the year. I would work solely for the universe in exchange for unlimited abundance. Somehow, I figured that the universe would pay for any checks I wrote, and that I'd be responsible and only use them to meet needs. Then I remembered that I was supposed to be focused in the present. BE HERE NOW. Today was only the 29th. My new job with the universe didn't start until 1 Oct.

30 Sep 93

Met with Bill Little. Had several items that I wanted to give him for his church. I believed that they belonged to particular people. He didn't want anything. He said that if I didn't want the items, to take them to a shop across the street that he felt would buy them. Then, whoever wanted the items could purchase them. I only sold one of the items for $20. I had been sure that the other items were to be given away. I didn't think anymore about it, however.

1 Oct 93

Let Foofer take me for a walk. Incredible experience. Everything was symbolic by this time. Everyplace Foofer stopped was significant. She was a robot, guided by All That Is to take me exactly where I needed to be. It was Thy Will which would be done. I would follow willingly and do what I was moved be spirit to do. It seemed as if everything was staged for me. Foofer brought me to a place where I envisioned a waterfall would be. It was a perfect place for walking Foofer. Next we stopped at a homesite that was perfect. I interpreted this to mean that this was where our new home would be build. We walked further to some nice houses and Foofer took me up to the doorways. When she stopped to sniff and wouldn't budge, something told me to ring the doorbell. I did and a stranger came out. I expected that it would be someone I knew for some reason. As we walked by other house, I remember thinking that these would be nice for my family and some of my friends. Something about the design or the cars or the landscaping would trigger an association with a particular person or family. The street was even significant Hermann Way. I associated that with my Dad. Rounded a corner and came to a house that both Gini and I would love. It didn't look like anyone lived there. I felt sure that this was our next house and we'd be there soon, like maybe even later that day. All the yards were big and perfect for the new Mainekoon's we had just found out about.

My sense was that very soon there would be a transformation and people would have the environments around them to live more effectively and harmoniously. After all, this was my creation, and now I was operating in accord with the PLAN. The abundance should appear immediately.

Went through a ritual of releasing my will to Thy Will. Believed that after all, this world was much like a holodeck. Things were just props. I wanted to do whatever it took to completely align my will to Gods Will, so I followed whatever my intuition told me. In particular, I needed to remove my attachment to thing props. Before I started, I laid down in the bed and started the sequence of CDs: The Visit, Enya, The Light of the Spirit, Beyond the Stars, Jonathan Lee.

I breathed deeply and had a wonderful meditative experience, allowing my spirit to soar to new heights. Every so often, my intuition would guide me to get up and ritually throw something off the balcony. My focus was "NOT MY WILL, BUT THINE BE DONE". I ended up throwing out a candle, the cartridge with the five CDs, a part of a stereo, a bronze Buddha head, an amethyst geode, and some clothes. I considered throwing off my dog and jumping off my self, but life was too precious two me. Also, the idea of killing a loving animal is just too much, there is no way I could do it. Putting them to sleep in a humane way is one thing. Dropping them 25 feet is quite another. Further, God would not require that.

After eliminating everything and removing attachment, I put my body in a position that I imagined to be a large grid of beings that were all aligning into a specific pyramidal structure. It was as if I was deciphering the code that allowed the structure to be completed. After all, I was now the Master Numerologist. Who better to unlock a code and allow it to be physically manifest. I was directly open to whatever moved me. My will was completely out of the picture. I was not doing anything that was not driven by something coming from my superconscious. Further, time had no meaning. Everything was HERE and NOW. In each moment, all that mattered was to keep my will suppressed so that The Will could manifest. I believed I was doing some of the most important work on the planet, revealing a code that could become part of the physical mass consciousness.

At some point, people started coming home and I remember voices from the stairway. I didn't want to lose my focus on the task at hand, however so I didn't respond. Eventually the police came and I willingly went along to wherever they were taking me. I didn't care anymore. It was not my will that mattered, only that of All That Is. I trusted that I would be taken to wherever I needed to be to get the help required. It turned out to be a mental hospital where I stayed 10 days.

BE HAPPY AND CREATE WELL! IN PEACE, LOVE AND LIGHT, ... WAYNE.

Copyright © 1996, Wayne Hartman, Revised -- (25 Mar 96)