Notes from a Soul in the Midst of a Spiritual Awakening
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I am a not-so-humble servant of all that is, still learning what life is truly about. I'm a hermit and a mystic as well, spending as much time alone and by myself as I do in the presence of others. In fact, I've learned ways of being by myself even in the midst of small crowds. It's not too difficult, really; all it takes is minimizing one's output of impact on the others that are present. I'm also an engineer with a Masters in EE from Stanford who worked in the Air Force for 10.5 years, then as a defense contractor for another 4 years.
This year however has been the most special of all. In March, I started writing a series of notes to myself. At various times, I was in clearly altered states of consciousness as I wrote. This did not bug me because I'd been to channels and channeling classes, and I'd read about altered states of various types for nearly 20 years. You could say that I'm not your standard run of the mill engineer. Anyway, I found the messages in the writings amazing, and as the months rolled by the frequency and volume of information grew as well. I didn't know what to do with it, other than read it, be fascinated with it, and act upon it where I could.
The end result is a record of a mind that was in the process of going beyond itself. It stands as a faithful record of an Ego that was to have its very world shattered several times to the point where everything about physical reality became suspect.
Releasing this to the world is not something that is easy for me. It reveals stuff about how I think and feel that I have for years kept closely guarded. Even now, I'm having second thoughts. But, the decision has been made on two accounts. One, to show others that they are not alone in thinking like this or having this kind of experience. Two, in hopes of meeting others like me, who have reached new states of spiritual awareness so that together we can use our new abilities in ways that will benefit society across the entire planet.
To any who read this, I invite your comments and feedback. Also, if you'd like to be on the mailing list for Beyond Imagination, let me know. I hope you enjoy what follows!
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. Be Happy and Create Well! In Peace, Love and Light, Wayne
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There's not a lot I can say to prepare you for what is to follow. I'm not even sure where to begin. I guess the beginning is always the best place.
I was born, Wayne Ellis Hartman, Jr in Honolulu, Hawaii on April 8, 1958. That alone set me up for a life that is very out of the ordinary, and gave me many abilities that are beyond most people. That, also, set me up for some major test and challenges. I have beliefs about where I came from prior to this existence but they aren't pertinent to what follows.
My exposure to metaphysics began in my 16th year, at which time I found the Seth material, and began a love affair with metaphysics that has been one of the most satisfying and positive experiences of my life. Spirit matters more to me than anything, by my very nature; and metaphysics comes the closest to expressing spiritual truths, far closer than religion.
On December 31, 1992 I wrote a set of resolutions for 1993 that would bring great change to my life and would plant me firmly on my spiritual path so that I could fulfill my purpose for being on this planet. I believe that this set of resolutions was the beginning point for the writings that started to come in March and lasted through mid-August.
The following writings are from the original files. The only real editing was that some of my observations about everyday events were removed and spelling errors were cleaned up. Where possible, I wanted to keep the text in the original form that was revealed by my mind and spirit. Typically the words came through directly through my fingers into a word processor. This is a process that I use all the time in my defense work in generating ideas and reports. However, the words that follow are not my usual form of expression. They come from a part of me that I am not normally familiar with, and they speak with an eloquence and wisdom that is beyond what I normally attribute to be me. I now know that I am more than I was, and that it was ME expressing through me all along. But, I also know that each reader has these same parts within themselves. No, not identical, or you would be walking in my shoes; but similar, with an eloquence and wisdom of their own. The other key factor is LOVE. The love that one feels when one connects to these parts of oneself is beyond compare. We get a true experience of being the entities of Love and Light that we truly are.
Well, there's not much more I could tell you to set you up for what is to come. In what follows, you'll find notes arranged in order from March through August. These are followed by a description of what happened from mid-August to 1 October as recalled at the time this was written in early November.
I hope you find the reading entertaining, fascinating, and educational. And, in the process of reading it, I hope you uncover something about yourself -- something wonderful about yourself, for you are a very grand and glorious entity indeed.
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[NOTE: Added 25 Mar 96]
If my writing seems grandiose and highly ego-centered at times, perhaps that is because it was. A lot has changed in three years. I was coping with my experience in the best way that I could at the time it was happening. Yes, my interpretations were in error at times (perhaps even often), but I think it valuable to provide this record of what they were at the time as an example of how a psyche and mind goes beyond itself to find awareness.
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Copyright © 1996, Wayne Hartman, Revised -- (26 Mar 96)