1 Feb 94

Wow, another month already. January passed so quickly. It's great to be alive during such a transformational time on the planet. My focus remains on consciousness itself, however. Occasionally, I get a glimmer of information about the "real" world -- but, now I always look for the higher level meaning being conveyed by the illusion. This is a somewhat lonely place to be. I feel like an explorer, traveling on a solitary journey. My journey, however, is one of self in search of Self. It's as if I've found many fragments or pieces, but haven't quite put them all together into one whole puzzle. I desperately desire a unifying integrative experience. Hmm, interesting. I ask for this integration experience to come by the time of the next new moon. I sense that I am not quite ready yet, but that I will be ready soon.

Since it appears that the present work will remain for more than a day or two, it's time to adopt a more empowering attitude towards it. Previously, I had felt it had no value especially in comparison to my true work. However, the Plan keeps me here as well, at least temporarily so there must be some higher purpose to this as well. From some perspective, all work is valued and blessed. In particular, all work done with integrity and Love. It matters not how the job came to be, while you are in it you must give it your best knowing that it is your dharma to do it. If you don't like what you do, do what you can to change it, but don't let this keep you from doing the best that you can.

Observe what the events and situations that come into your experience are telling you, for they will always be attempting to convey higher truths to all who are ready to see and hear. Pay attention to what the universe tells you and adjust your beliefs to incorporate whatever truths that you see expressed. The sooner you do this, the sooner your reality will transform to something more in line with your present desires. Focus on awareness, and realizing the lessons that you are being taught. Remember, you are still in school. You will continue to be so long as you are on the Earth plane. So, make the best of it. Learn as much as you can, as fast as you can, and teach whatever you learn to any who are ready. Don't worry about finding them, they will come to you soon enough. Yes, soon enough, indeed!

More and more, I sense that all that I can really do is stay focused on awareness and bring forth whatever consciousness propels me to bring forth. I am a vehicle through which consciousness sends its message unto the world. Occasionally, it either tells me or helps me to figure out what the next step will be. I am as the Lady on the VIII of Swords card in the Tarot. I faithfully follow wherever my subconscious takes me as expressed through my intuition. I am making my way blindfolded through the unknown. Hmm, it would be so much easier to take the blindfold off and see directly where I am going. However, I trust my inner guidance to lead me on the path that is optimum for my growth and for achieving my mission in accord with the Plan. I have resigned my will to THY WILL. Such will I live all the remaining days of my life. I have chosen a Life of Spirit, that I may achieve my destiny in accord with the Plan, that the Ray of Love/Wisdom might shine brightly throughout the world once again. This be my sacred vow that I will do whatever it takes to succeed in my Self assigned tasks for this existence. I will do whatever I am called to do by the Plan, as it is unveiled to my consciousness.

Life has taken on different characteristics than I have ever known before. Everything is fluid and unformed, waiting to be made manifest. I sit and watch it all, fascinated by what I see, experiencing those things which happen to me. I no longer have the strong sense of doing anything. I just am. I experience and I am aware, but I have no identification with that which causes the doing to happen. All I know is that it is not me. I appear to be doing, but it is all smoke and mirrors, all illusion. Hmm, maybe I've disassociated a little to far from the actor part of me. After all, this is new territory for me. I'm in the process of learning how to work with my consciousness. Now, I understand why I have not moved yet. I still have some lessons to learn about reality creation -- personal reality creation. These lessons are crucial to my next role in the play so I must learn them to move on. Ok, I understand. So, give me whatever it is that I need to experience as rapidly as I am able to handle it. Also, let me know if any of my current beliefs are getting in the way so that I can start removing and replacing them ASAP.

Thank you for revealing this information to me today. I look forward to being able to integrate you within my conscious understanding very soon.

So, how do I get others involved that can walk this path with me or in close proximity? They will be there when the time is right, not before. And what actions should I be taking, what beliefs should I be working on. Remember, we are guiding your every action, in line with your beliefs yes, but you have given us sovereignty over your will. Because of this you will start to find yourself desiring to do things and to adopt empowering beliefs related to accomplishing your purpose in life. When these come, let them come. Your will is now aligned and once this is done, there is no way of separating it again. The good news is that your will is now a tool available for your use. Be wary of allowing your conscious to exert to strong a direction on things, it can be an absolute dictator if you let it. Your intuition is your key and your strength. Allow it to lead your conscious mind. This is not to belittle the conscious mind. It has great powers for physical manifestation. However, it operates best in service to an inner master who can keep it on the straight and narrow path.

Your life is ready to explode, literally on all fronts. Massive change lies immediately ahead, but it is change that is in accord with your desires. The changes will open the vehicle in a manner that allows spirit to be more fully enfleshed. You're already aware of changes to your sense mechanisms and a nearly constant cold feeling at a spot close to your third eye. Your vision has been primarily verbal all your life. This will always be a preferred mode of communication for you. In addition, however, you are close to the point of seeing the VISION as well. You don't have to walk with blinders on for much longer. The sights that you are soon to see will literally blow you away. While you've experienced some exalted altered states of being to this point, thus far you are still but in kindergarten compared to what lies in store.

Wow! I can hardly wait. It does make the day to day living part of this world pale in comparison. Kindergarten still. Hmm. I can't even imagine what lies in store. Of course not, after all it is beyond imagination. We came up with that name for a reason. It conveys a great truth about reality. It is one of the high paths of consciousness that few to this point have tread. We would add that it is also a relatively steep and difficult path unless the traveler has been suitable prepared both in this life and in others. Yet, it is the path you chose, and you do indeed appear to have sufficient past experience and merit to walk it.

At what point will the focus shift to the community that is to be built? Not until sufficient individuals have awakened. Until then the focus will remain on what it takes to awaken and to continue to grow in awareness. You are the proverbial guinea pig, going through one experience after another so that you can put what you experience into words that others might have an example of what is required to have an experience and what awareness results. Many are ready to follow, but they need someone to lead. Those who are meant to follow you are at this moment being prepared to be brought within your circle of influence. You have only to keep focusing on awareness, trust your experience, and capture that experience faithfully on paper. Where this is to go will become obvious to you as the Plan unfolds. Do what you love to do, write and discuss your experiences with those who will listen. As to physical duties, do what your dharma demands. Listen to the voices inside you, they know what is right action for you. After all, remember you are Buddhist -- you know it.

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Just had an invigorating talk with Edwin. It definitely got the mental juices flowing. The topic of conversation was The Play and the nature of reality creation. I wanted to take this opportunity to allow consciousness to express the new understanding that resulted.

Beings operate at frequencies that are based primarily on their level of understanding and awareness and partly on the specific talents and abilities that the being has as expressed in their auras. All thoughts are transmitted from consciousness and can be received by all who are tuned to a particular frequency. The thoughts will be expressed physically, however, in a manner that is in line with the individuals abilities and talents. In my case, the thoughts get translated into words that carry particular kinds of meaning. Others might express via pictures or feelings or physical activity or a variety of other means. Even if another were to express the thoughts in words, they would come out different than mine though the essence of the meaning conveyed would be quite similar. This is why inventors in different parts of the world can make the same discovery at basically the same time. The are tapped into the same universal consciousness and are at similar states of mental awareness.

My focus has always been on spiritual awareness. That is what drives my love for metaphysics. That is what propels me forward on my current path, even though I seem to walk with a blindfold due to a lack of information from outside of my personal experience. The spiritual path requires the trust, devotion, and single-minded faith in the ability of spirit to guide me safely through the unknown. Others may have walked my path, but not in my way, and not with the specific skills that I brought along to document the journey. Does this make me special? No, not really. At least not anymore than anyone else who brought along specific skills and talents to accomplish some mission in this existence. My task happened to take me to explore the very fringes of consciousness and the nature of reality creation. A noble task indeed, and definitely one that suits my temperament. However, I do believe that this particular task was one of the more challenging ones for the times. I don't know to where it will lead, but I sense there is a great deal to accomplish before I have completed what I came to do. Yes, I knew at some level that I signed up for this part, and that at 35 my greater role would be turned on so to speak. I'm still in the midst of finding out just what this means. However, I know that the energies from last year were the ones that activated me. I believe that I am not alone, that there are others who have been activated as well or who will be activated soon. Together we are part of some type of spiritual family who came to pave the way for bringing in the new age.

The Play is illusion, yet it appears perfectly real to those who are lost within it. Who is supposed to stay trapped within the illusion and for how long? It appears that many are not even close to being ready to be rid of their bonds. Yet, at the same time, the Devil card of the Tarot comes to mind. The shackles that bind individuals to the illusion are loose and can be removed at any time. It's simply a matter of consciousness looking at things a different way. Interesting. That's enough to remove the illusion, but then what. We still have a matter of consciousness desiring growth. But here too it's not necessary for every individual to go through every experience. It's enough that a critical mass have an experience to make it accessible to all. Don't think in terms of having to do something to teach the whole world. The difficult parts will be handled by those most prepared to experience them. The rest will be easy.

Wow! Now we're definitely back to the question of what must be done physically vs what can be done by consciousness. Don't worry about it. You'll know when the time is right. Do what you are moved to do by your consciousness -- and let CONSCIOUSNESS worry about how others are moved.

There is no way to tell just how much of this is a play, now is there? It seems that no matter what experiment or test I come up with, the answer is that either explanation Free Will or Play can account for the experience. Perhaps I'm not yet sufficiently in touch with either the Actor or the Playwright. Further, I don't yet appreciate the incredible cooperation required to pull the illusion off at all. Hmm. This is another key. Don't focus on the individuals and their parts. Focus on the experience of the whole, see the larger perspective. Remember, there are no real separations of the self. The apparent ones are there only so long as you remain within the illusion. Can I escape from the illusion consciously. Yes, and you will do so soon enough. And then what? Reality, of course. You'll experience pure consciousness, free from illusion.

Have I experienced that before? Of course, but not since you started this incarnation. And this time, we'll be able to bring this state of awareness into form -- a major achievement for consciousness, one that we've been preparing for over 24,000 years. This is truly a breakthrough, one that beings from many worlds are here to watch. Are there beings on the planet who already possess this awareness. Yes. Not many, but key beings are already in place and activated. However, most came to the planet from this state of awareness to begin with. Some have been supporting the consciousness of the planet for a long time. My sense is that there is a wave of beings that are about to become fully aware and then be unleashed to do their works among the world. They will cooperate and work in parallel to completely reorganize the US infrastructure than the world infrastructure. We're talking within a few years, not decades. This will free people to live peacefully, creatively, and abundantly while they continue to learn their lessons. Physical reality will be the true wonder it was meant to be on this jewel of a planet called Earth.

No matter how exciting and exhilarating the illusion, I don't sense it to be my home any longer, at least much longer. And you're right, you have a second mission after your initial one that carries you on an even greater journey of consciousness into the unknown. This is one of the reasons why your present path has this element within in. You wanted to prepare for an exploration mission that is beyond anything we have any knowledge about. You chose to join with a special group of consciousness in a manner that would allow you to propel not only where you do not know what you will experience, but where WE do not know. It is the boldest of adventures and only the most gifted among us are called to the task.

Whenever you use such flattering words, it makes it seem to others that EGO is coming up. What have you to say about this? To hell with others. We'll use whatever words we please. If they believe we come from ego then such is what they see, so be it. It is not our concern. Besides, time will tell soon enough from where we truly speak.

2 Feb 94

So, now that I'm awakened to some degree, where should I be looking and what should I be doing? Thus far I've been following my intuition as much as I can. I still keep getting this image of the blindfolded lady from the VIII of Swords Tarot card. Also, there is a nearly constant cool spot centered in the middle of my forehead just above my eyebrows and about 2 inches inside my head. The coldness that emanates from this spot fills the entire top half of my head.

What am I to do? What am I to do? What am I to do? Do whatever you are moved to do by the increased level of consciousness that you have achieved. Further, do whatever it is without expectation. Do it for the sheer joy of doing it. When we're on the path we do whatever is required of us. It is not meant for us to know what lies before us. For that, we need to leave the path and move to higher ground that provides a grander view or vista. Why do you cling so tightly to the narrow path? It was necessary to get you here, to this state, but it is no longer required for your further progress -- in fact, it is somewhat of a detriment closing you off from experiences that would greatly benefit you.

You can still TRUST. Follow where your subconscious leads you. But, reexamine your beliefs about the nature of consciousness and get rid of those that cause the tightness and the coldness in your head. Spirit can be felt as warm and loving as well. The problem has something to do with your association of Spirit to high, cold places. Spirit, however, can be found everywhere, even in the very place where you are now. Don't limit the expression of source. Allow it to be whatever it will be. Express whatever you can as fully as you can in your life. Don't confine it to the mental aspect. You are spirit in flesh after all, not just spirit in mind. There is an incredible beauty in physical expression. You had it for awhile, then lost it. It is time for you to find it again. Your service as an instrument of spirit is limited when you do not truly realize the full spirituality of physicality. You are a physical being. BE PHYSICAL. In doing so you will allow spirit to be more fully enfleshed in you. Further, it will be easier for others to relate to your ideas if they are couched in an experience base that they can better relate too.

Don't limit what can be or what you can be. Follow your guidance and take action, trusting that you are being led on the path that is right for you. Don't focus on outcomes, however. Allow the events to flow where they will before you settle on any meaning. See things from the larger perspective as events in a play, and remember that you are not consciously in control. Further, remember that the play is illusion. Trying to substitute one illusion for another is not the work for the awakened ones. Live in this world, fully and completely. But know that you are not of this world. You are here to play a part for awhile, and to learn a few things about consciousness. Enjoy, have fun, be happy, and create well! How else should spirit express in flesh?

Change will come in your physical world. That is where you presently exist and will continue to exist throughout your present span of life. This is where your work must be done as well. There will be no miraculous appearance that changes things over night. It is up to you, you higher Self to orchestrate the manner in which your mission will be carried out. This is how reality works in this illusion. There are no shortcuts. You create in accordance with your beliefs. If you want to change your experience, that is the place to work -- with your beliefs!

You have the key to reality creation in your hands. Do your work directly via beliefs, and follow your intuition where it leads you. Observe reality to get feedback on your beliefs, but don't get too associated with it. Remember your true spiritual nature, be aware and stay awake. You will find others with whom you will work. Give reality time for it to unfold its fruits before you. What matters is that we get to the Aquarian Age with people awakened and prepared as much as they can be. All sorts of forces and circumstances are coming together to make this so. Don't push. There is a proper timing for events, and things will unfold per this timing and not before.

My spirit feels ready to take off at any instant. I know that my body is preparing to receive more light, but it can only receive what it can allow to flow as well. Each vehicle has limited storage capacity but nearly unlimited transfer capacity. The state of awareness determines how much of the Life Force can flow through. I feel ready to burst apart at the seems and reveal a new and larger channel that can accommodate a greater flow of spirit. The dilemma that haunts me is the one of letting go of what I have so that I can attain even more. I didn't realize that this was an issue for me. But, here it is, plain as day. This relates also to staying on the straight and narrow path. My sense is that this has served me so well for so long, that I am reluctant to give up what I know has worked. Yet, forging ahead requires creativity and bold new action. Such is what is required now, and such is what will be done. I ask that my subconscious provide the most appropriate inputs in line with this new direction. Let me know what must be done and I will do it to the best of my abilities. Conscious mind, remove any conflicting beliefs that you can and inform me of any beliefs that require my attention to resolve. It's time to remove the blindfolds and walk the path of Light with all of my eyes fully opened.

That being settled, we can focus on making this life the bold adventure of consciousness that it was meant to be. Though, it has been quite an adventure already. My sense, however, is that thus far we have been dealing with mere child's play. What lies ahead is simply beyond imagination. There is no better term for it. We are exploring the inner world and how it relates to the outer. This is definitely the greatest game around. What more could one ask for?

3 Feb 94

I've been thinking about setting up some sort of training program with an accompanying training curriculum. If I'm going to teach, I need an agenda, lessons, and appropriate training aids. This sounds like the makings of another spinoff book,Agenda for Change: Teachings for the New Age. Maybe I'll start on this tonight.

I've also been thinking about how the society might implement its contract with individuals gradually so that there might be a relatively smooth transition from the present society to a transformed society. The key transition required is to give up some individual autonomy in exchange for some beneficial services from society that increase individual quality of life. This can be responsibly managed if it is left for individuals to ask for what they need and justify their requests in terms that benefit society. Counselors should be available to assist individuals or groups of individuals in stating their needs. Resources and people's time should be considered to be the materials with which the society can fill it's obligations to individuals. It's not Gross National Product that means anything, it's Gross Societal Productivity -- the total amount of work done by the society, especially creative and beneficial work. This is not measured in terms of hours or dollars, but in terms of overall satisfaction and happiness of the workers and society.

Implementing this will require identifying and prioritizing the services required by society and allocating the appropriate resources to fulfill these requirements. Since requirements deal with all aspects of life -- physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual -- and they deal with leisure needs as well as work, they are a relatively complete set. An initial estimate of time required to provide the necessary services / people available to work should yield a number for how many hours per week each individual must work. During the transition period, 40 hours is probably a reasonable target unless individuals choose to do more. My guess is that if we cut out some of the bureaucracy and competitive waste, we can reduce this level substantially and still give everyone a better overall standard of living -- possibly with the exception of the few percent at the top of the wealth scale who already have sufficient income or wealth to do what they want anyway. Money should not be the driver for the economy, the skills and ideas of the labor force are the key ingredient in making the economy work. In nearly every area, if the best and the brightest are hired away, the industry grinds to a halt quickly. This is not so important in areas where the same products are produced over and over for consumption. But, it is especially relevant in areas where creativity is required to come up with new designs or products and to solve technological or complex problems. Also, in service areas, individual initiative can make all the difference in how the customer is treated. Since we, society, are the customer -- we deserve and demand to be treated with dignity and respect. We will not tolerate abuse or neglectful service. We treat each other fairly, and expect that to be the norm in society.

Presently, job security results in a major lack of mobility. This is a great restriction of personal freedom by itself. Further, the idea that 5 days per week x 8 hours are tied up in a particular job for 48-50 weeks per year is a bit confining as well. Some jobs require being at a particular location to do the work. Others clearly don't, yet are set up that way anyway. We need to stop engaging in wasteful practices. It's all a matter of TRUST. The current system is set up as it is because of a basic suspicion of and lack of trust in employees. Society needs to find a way to break this bond for good, and start operating on a basis of trust. Trust is one of the crucial foundations for the Age of Aquarius. It will be interesting to see how this comes about.

4 Feb 94

I did start writing Agenda for Change after all. However, spent much of last evening talking to Edwin again about a variety of things including the how beliefs impact the creation of reality. These exercises in teaching are proving to be very beneficial. They allow me to pay attention to the communication process and observe what is truly happening. I find it amazing. People are very different in how they communicate, very different indeed.

I'm feeling more at ease and at peace -- with myself, with life, with everything. I'm still looking to find others who are aware and want to communicate about their wisdom and experiences. There seems to be something missing in my life, a connection that I need to make. Further I sense this connection will be made soon. It is enough to know that it is coming. It will be here when consciousness decides the that the time is right, though I may need to take action as well.

I've been thinking a lot about the coming transformation, and how it might manifest. There is no real precedent for massive change so quickly. The very nature of people seems to emphasize the routine and maintaining the status quo. It's hard to see internal forces truly driving change. It's almost as if we have to be hit by something like a comet, to get the sluggish momentum to move toward a better world. Interesting. It's not likely that one day everyone's going to wake up and say "we refuse to live the way we always have, from this moment forward we live in peace and harmony and we treat are fellow beings we love, kindness, and respect". No, it's not likely, yet we must wake up and see such a reality is true for us -- this is essential for the dawn to come. We must choose to live as spirit in flesh, and get rid of the bonds of ignorance that have held us for so long. We must see the true reality and not be caught up in the illusion. Yes, it's a wonderful and brilliant illusion, but enough is enough. Let us be who we truly are.

7 Feb 94

I'm feeling much more integrated overall. However, the states that had been so unique and special at first become somewhat routine when they are the norm. The body sensations are continuing to undergo their quirks and I become used to experiencing through my senses in slightly different ways. Today the overall state is somewhat sluggish, as if I never really fully woke up. It's a very difficult state for driving. in particular. The slowness applies mainly to the body however, not to the mind. Although, when one is near the point of falling asleep, the conscious mind is out of it as well. To write requires some focus, however, that only comes from a state of being awake. Yes, focus is the key. However, my experience was that conscious focus must work hard to maintain even sufficient focus to drive when the body state is sluggish.

This leads to an issue of conscious control in the play. What caused my body to behave in such a manor this morning, that an hour and a half drive became such an adventure in consciousness? About the only thing that I can think of that might have helped is stopping for food and something to drink. However, if I'm in the process of becoming a Master, then why can't I control something as simple as the basic physical/mental state. Further, this state has a dramatic impact on how easily and how well various tasks can be accomplished. Hmm. I need to find ways that enable me to manage the body state. In particular, this state should be optimized for handling whatever tasks are to be accomplished. I no longer choose to experience the sluggish state that I have experienced the past few days. Conscious mind, find and remove the beliefs that cause these states to occur. If my attention is required, please inform me of what I need to know or realize in whatever manner is most effective for our growth. Begin this process now.

There is also an issue expressed by the statement "go with the flow". We should plan our actions so they are in line with the natural rhythms of our bodies. If I thought I had a choice this morning and there would have been no impact to me in pay, I would have not come into work today. As it was, I came close to falling asleep at the wheel nearly a dozen times, catching myself with my eyes closed several times. The lesson for me was that conscious control can overcome, but it may be quite a struggle, and in fact quite dangerous to the physical body. The other lesson was that there is incredible cooperation involved in driving. That is the only way there could be such a low accident rate overall. And further, what accidents there are may be due to a consensus belief about the process and rate of accidents. We even have a whole insurance industry that can earn its livelihood from the statistics involving these events. This is how the mass belief reveals itself.

Similarly, we can look at how the economy is structured to see what this means about the beliefs of the mass consciousness. The success of stores like Wal-Mart, K-Mart, and CostCo focus on a low frills, low service method of retail that allows prices to be reduced to a bare minimum. In CostCo's case this is done to an extreme with people shopping in basically a warehouse environment and buying goods in bulk. The message that this sends is that people are so cost- conscious in the country today that service and convenience have become luxuries that the people are unwilling to pay extra for anymore. Interesting, very interesting. However, this is an incredibly efficient way of getting bulk goods to a large neighborhood such as a decent sized town. If people organized properly, they could take this another step and move the goods to a local building where the people in the smaller group could go to get what they need.

Actually, when you think about it, this kind of efficiency makes sense. People may have to drive further to the local CostCo, but because they buy in bulk, they need to go less often. Supermarkets aren't that much more convenient except for their round the clock hours and being able to by individual items in quantities of one.

Overall, the economy needs to move toward the principle of providing people with what they need when they need it. We need a mechanism in place for meeting the contract from each in accord with their abilities, to each in accord with their needs. It should be as efficient of a mechanism as we can make it. However, it should also consider how much of peoples time is involved. Efficient plus high consumer time is not a good solution.

Modifying the current structures to meet the to each clause may not be so difficult. Though, there are many services that are needed that the current structure is not set up to provide because the market either has not recognized the need or the cost was prohibitive or the economics/system didn't really allow the services to be marketed through recognized channels. Part of the problem is that we expect the service provider to find their own clients. It would be far more effective if we had a separate organization responsible for matching service providers with those in need of the services. These would require evaluating the utility and value of each service and identifying the characteristics of those most likely to receive benefit from the service.

Free enterprise and traditional marketing fail to address key issues. Most people are not necessarily aware of what they need or what might benefit them. Further, they may not have sufficient resources to try new services.

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Still feeling the vibrations of the ground in my feet. Actually, throughout my body. I also noticed that I was hearing a low pitched hum that others couldn't here while the vibrations were happening. I'm not sure what is going on, but the senses are correlating with each other anyway. Their is nothing frightening about the experience, it's just interesting. I'm curious about what is happening and what it means so I'm starting to pay more attention to it.

Dropped off copies of my writings at the Thunderbird to see if they want to carry them. I should do the same for East-West as well. This is the only method revealed to me so far for getting the material out to the world. I'll also write an article for Connecting Link magazine. That would expose a much larger audience to Beyond Imagination and to my writings. I'm not sure yet as to whether to write a new article from scratch, or to take an excerpt from Beyond Imagination . Either way, this could be a highly receptive audience to my ideas. With every action of this nature, I keep asking myself whether the decision is based on ego or spirit. I don't want my conscious to get in the way and set up a particular course of action that is not in line with the Plan and the dictates of spirit. At the same time, there is this inner sense that I, including my conscious mind, am already an instrument of spirit. In this case, what my conscious mind generates is part of how spirit expresses through my own flesh. Yet, this questioning has its place as well, at least for now. Soon, however, I expect that TRUST will rule, and all parts of myself will be operating in accord with the Plan. Yes, very soon indeed. In fact, conscious mind, eliminate any beliefs that are detrimental to our being able to operate as a united whole with spirit to achieve our purpose and mission of this lifetime. Let our will be subservient to Spirits Will in all our endeavors. If there are any beliefs that hamper expression in this manner that require my attention, make me aware in whatever manner is optimal for resolution.

I'm still finding it difficult to determine exactly what I am to do physically via my direct action vs what consciousness itself will ensure is done. The saying: "God helps those who help themselves" keeps coming to mind. As human beings, we have incredible capacity for thought, emotion, and action. We are the vehicles through which change can be made manifest in the world. We have only to unleash the sleeping dragon that lies within most of us, and the works that will unfold will be simply spectacular, beyond all our hopes and dreams. We have the energy in potential, and many of the ideas are being generated. The ideas only truly need to take hold for the fireworks of creative change to begin on a major scale. Once the dragon starts to awaken, the Plan will finally be able to proceed towards a new dawn, the start of a new day and a new age. The Age of Aquarius will finally appear. The experiment will have succeeded.

8 Feb 1994

The days keep marching by. There is a sense of urgency within me once again, that says it is time to do something and change my reality NOW. Thus far, I've been limited in terms of potential courses of action by my inflexibility to do anything other than the true task I'm here to do, my spiritual occupation so to speak. Further, the current level of monthly income required to sustain my circumstances is equal to what my current job pays. I haven't figured out how to quit my job and immediately replace its weekly income. I have made two offers of service to people who I believe would greatly benefit from the experience, skills, and talents that I possess -- however, these were unusual enough that I'm just not sure as to how they will be taken. In truth, my preference is to work for myself. However, that requires translating my knowledge and talents into some good or service that is of benefit to others. I'm in the process of doing this, but it seems to be a slow process.

My sense is that when the timing is right, the opportunity will be obvious and I will be moved to act upon it. There is no doubt that this will happen as soon as I am ready and not before. Such is how things always work in my life. I expect they work this way for everyone. It's a basic part of how personal reality is created on this planet. We are always given exactly that which we need for our optimal growth at all times, appearance to the contrary or not. We never experience anything we don't need to experience and at some level choose to experience.

I'm not experiencing as much of the altered states of my senses this week. I feel more grounded in my body. As I'm writing this, my hands contradict me as the sense vibrations coming across the desk. Further as I reached over to touch my computer it felt mushy, and I had a sensation that my left hand actually sunk into the computer case. I had to literally look at it to see that this was not the case. Just one more piece of evidence to keep me wary of believing too much in what my senses tell me about reality. This is becoming an interesting process. I'm to look to reality to confirm that changes in beliefs are valid. Yet, it is not clear that I can trust my senses to give me a clear reading of reality. Interesting. This makes it quite a challenge to work with the processes of reality creation directly. However, this is now my world of action. I'm an alchemist and a metaphysician. I work with transmuting the gross matter into the spiritual on many levels and in a variety of areas. Most of my work is done through my ideas and writings. This is the area in which I shine. However, you don't see many jobs for alchemists, metaphysicians, and world transformers. There just aren't many companies looking for people to do these jobs. They just don't see the market in it. How does it make their products better or help them to increase their market share. And I don't care about their products or market share. I care about making sure people are doing things they are good at, that use their skills and talents and that they get sufficient income to be able to meet their needs.

To get change rolling, we need individuals caring more for themselves, people caring more for people, and the society as a whole caring for everyone because its constituent individuals are caring for one another. Further, caring should come as an expression from the heart, a spiritual activity that one engages in daily and a regular part of expressing spirit in flesh.

It's amazing how quickly problems can be addressed and eliminated if the right resources are brought to bear on the problems. Further, it is in society's best interest to solve major problems once in the right way, and then apply the solution (with modifications as necessary) to wherever the problem appears. Also, big problems do not necessarily require big and costly solutions. The trick is to attack the problems at their root causes and be innovative and flexible. Don't focus an army of resources on dealing with symptoms. Also, make sure the right people are engaged to study and address each problem. Decide which skills are appropriate and get the best individuals for the job.

9 Feb 94

An 11 day in a 23 year. It will be interesting to see what the day has in store for me. I do have a hypnosis\spiritual counseling session scheduled for later this afternoon. We'll see what comes of it. I've been thinking a lot about the specifics of reality creation -- attempting to understand the mechanics of just how it works. I want to activate the Magician within me as well as the Hierophant. Much needs to be created for Beyond Imagination to spread its wings and get off of the ground. I'm still struggling with what tasks that I specifically have to do versus what tasks will be done by others versus what tasks will be done by spirit. Overall, it's quite confusing. One part of me wants to get to the specifics, while another part says, no, my forte is seeing the big picture and taking care of the entire forest, not the individual trees. Further, I see that one person part time is not enough to change the world. Then perhaps it is not for me to do that anyway. If each person were doing their part, working part time to change the world, the amount of labor would be enormous. At even 1/8 time, that is about one hour per day x 120 Million workers in this country alone. That's the equivalent of 15 Million people working full time if the energies can be harnessed and applied in a useful manner. Right now, many people may not have money to spare, but they do have time. That doesn't mean they are willing to give it away. Here's where the need for a compelling reason comes in. Our jobs have been structured in a manner to give many the organizational and people skills necessary to allow them to work with others to get a job done. To this point, we have essentially allowed the economy and industry to decide what needed to be done. There are a few exceptions like the Red Cross, Salvation Army, and various service oriented clubs and organizations that serve mankind, animals, and the environment. This is only a starting point however. We need to take the best ideas from these organizations and figure out how to apply them in a bigger way to the problems that we face today in society. The biggest problem is that individuals have physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual needs and they live in a world that does not even recognize this fact, much less begin to provide for individual needs on all four of these levels. Somehow we need to tap the labor force to provide the required services for free. If services were available when needed, we wouldn't have to hoard them or get them because an opportunity was presented. Compensation and pay get in the way. In our economy and in our lives, it seems that money, not living, has become the central theme. This is a sad state of affairs indeed. We've wrapped ourselves so deep within the illusion that it is difficult to find our way out again. But, such is what we must do to regain our lives and our liberty.

So, how do we organize a massive rebellion within the current system? It's a matter of getting the word out to the right people in a manner that compels them to action in line with an overall plan. The overall plan is The Plan and it is being received by a number of people -- more and more are tapped in each day, in fact. Each sees only those parts for which they have a need to know. This is how consciousness operates. Each of us has a spiritual job just as we have a physical job. The rewards of the spiritual job come in terms that the spiritual part within us understands. Unlike the physical job, which physical circumstances force us to take; the spiritual job must be recognized and volunteered for. It must be done for the sheer joy and love of doing it, or it will not be done at all. Just as in the physical world, the spiritual jobs occur at many levels. The key difference is that you chose at birth the position for which you were most suited, and gave yourself the challenge of reaching it by a particular age that is determined by your birthdate. For me the magic time was at 35 years. I'm in the fourth quarter of my 35th year NOW. Interesting, very interesting indeed. I just can't wait to see what the final two months will bring into my awareness and my experience. Heaven knows the last 11 months or so have been some of the most strange, remarkable, enlightening, and exciting times in my life.

10 Feb 94

I'm feeling very strange today, even more than usual. It's as if I'm on the edge of being in a deep trance. I find myself drifting a lot in consciousness and zoning out to the real world. There is a floating sensation and a feeling of gentle waves of energy rolling all around me. In particular, there is a lot of energy flowing in through the top of my head. It's not clear what all this energy is for, but its presence is unforgettable. It's as if I'm swimming in an ocean of energy. It's clear but I can sense swirls touching me at various places. Overall, the feeling is deeply relaxed and peaceful. I've been so relaxed all day that my mind wanders out and about. I find the process most interesting. Unfortunately, I haven't been in a position to record the information my mind experiences while it's entranced. I've experienced it consciously in the moment all day long, and the insights have been wonderful, but I don't have conscious memory of the specifics.

There is a sense that this marks a period of change again. Looking at the calendar, I see that today is the day of the new moon. It's also the Chinese New Year. In the past two weeks, I asked that some specific changes occur at the next new moon. Hmm. I think it's time to go back and see what I ordered -- for it may just be coming to fruition now.

I found it in the notes from Feb 1.

My journey, however, is one of self in search of Self. It's as if I've found many fragments or pieces, but haven't quite put them all together into one whole puzzle. I desperately desire a unifying integrative experience. Hmm, interesting. I ask for this integration experience to come by the time of the next new moon. I sense that I am not quite ready yet, but that I will be ready soon.

So, I guess what I'm going through is a "unifying integrative experience". The warning about watching what you ask for comes to mind -- something about you just may get it. I don't have any other good explanations for what is going on with me right now. And, I do feel whole, complete, unified, and integrated. It feels as if I am truly one person and all the parts are operating in incredible harmony. However, the deep sense of relaxation, the slowed breathing, and the awake in trance awareness make it a bit tough to focus on physical reality. Yet, this is all being expressed physically through my body at this very moment. What strikes me most is how mobile consciousness is. My focus of attention is free to move wherever it will whenever it so chooses. And where the attention goes, so too goes the consciousness. In typing this, my speed is slower and the actions of my fingers are more deliberate -- but the error rate is reduced.

Effectively, I've been in this state most of the day. It feels very positive, overall, yet I cannot really describe why. There is a sense of Love and of trust, also of expansiveness -- as if I am more now than I have ever been. I sense another ego death is coming soon, to be followed by another birth of a new me. This is becoming so commonplace that I treat it much like going to sleep and awakening refreshed the next morning. Literally, my ego goes to sleep and awakes anew into what is a new reality. This requires constant attention to and assessment of self awareness for the self is really what is undergoing these changes to allow more of the Self that it truly is to be expressed.

I also feel very alone through all this. I am following a path that is directed by my intuition constantly stepping further out into the unknown. Nothing I have read provides guidance on where I am or where I am going, no one I know understands what I am going through or what kind of assistance could help me on my quest. Yet, I cannot turn back. My trust in my Self is sufficient. I know that I am being led through the exact experiences that I need to grow in a manner that allows spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh. At the present time, I see no other way to proceed, though there is a very strong longing to go forward with it all so that I can do what I came to this planet to do. By the time of the next full moon, I desire to have direct experiences that show me firsthand what my purpose and destiny are. I have had hints before, but it is time for a true VISION that I can see in my full sight not just in words and feelings. It is time to see images that provide the next step in the revelation of beyond imagination. My sense is that I have been blindfolded all my life seeing in words and thoughts only, that is, with the exception of nature. It is time to remove the blindfold and open the VISION completely. I sense that all of the energy I've sensed around my third eye has been a preparatory stage for an event that is to come very soon -- perhaps by the next full moon as well.

As I write this, I am very happy, In fact, happier than I've been in a long time. Everything in my world is in its proper place. There are a few challenges here and there, but there is a deep trust that these will be overcome and resolved naturally and beneficially. It's hard to imagine anything that could disturb the sense of calm and peace. Yet, I also sense that there is a lack of action from this space. As if, I must find a different state from which to take action in the world. However, here in the clouds is where my spirit is free to soar. These are the highest states in which consciousness can be expressed and still remain physical. Yes, to see me now you might say this is not very physical. However, it is sufficient to bring this communication through a mind and set of hands to a form which can be distributed far and wide. Further, they provide evidence of the value of experiencing self-induced altered states of consciousness, though in Wayne's case, it might not be appropriate to call these altered anymore. In truth, there are no "normal" states of consciousness. Consciousness is in all sorts of states all of the time. It's a matter of awareness and focus that determines what the physical consciousness will experience. Focus is always yours to address. Awareness is determined by the effort you spend to know yourself. What you experience is literally up to you.

11 Feb 94

Another day, and the end of another work week. It took several hours to fall asleep last night. My body was relaxed, but my mind was wide awake, aware of everything for at least two hours. This seems to happen whenever there is a new or full moon. I need to take more notice of the natural rhythms of things and learn to take advantage of the energies and the tides when they are at their greatest points of influence. Working in harmony with these rhythms will provide added energy that can be used to get Beyond Imagination moving.

Hmm. Just made a connection, the new Chinese New Year is the Year of the Dog. I was born in a Year of the Dog. We'll see what this means. I've been told that 1994 is my year more than once. My sense is that it's going to be one hell of a year indeed. Looking back over the year ten months from now will be quite interesting. I wish I could catch just a glimpse of where I'll be and what I'll be doing at the close of 1994, something that can provide a little extra motivation and vision for getting by day to day and moment to moment. If it be in the best interest of carrying out my part of the Plan, then make it so. Thank you.

14 Feb 94

There comes a time in every persons life when they must make decisions that define the course of their destiny. I sense that the time is coming soon when I will need to make some of these kinds of decisions. I feel as if I'm being kept in suspense a bit, awaiting the critical moment when I too must do as all great men have done and accept the mission that brought me to this planet, to this civilization, and to this country. All my life, I have asked not what others or my country could do for me. Now, I stand ready to offer myself in service to my country and to the entire world. But, will either take me up on my offer. My sense is that I cannot do my work alone. Transforming the country and the world is a monumental undertaking. Key people must already understand that a major transformation is the only way to a better future -- one that takes us boldly into the Aquarian Age. We need to get rid of the barriers to change that prevent new ways of doing things from being accepted quickly. There is no time to waste. Maybe, my sense of urgency is a bit extreme without a firm basis in fact or history. My sense, however, is that we are living in extreme times and that the rapidity with which change is happening not only in this country but on a global scale has taken us beyond anything that history can help us with. It's time for mankind to become aware, spiritually aware, so that we can harness the energies of change and make the entire world one global family.

I've been thinking about my role and how best to accomplish what I know to be my mission -- to create the conditions that allow cosmic consciousness to be more fully expressed in flesh throughout the planet. Yes, it's a big task. Further, it's one that comes with no instructions. This is the first time anything like this has really been attempted. The preparations are now only being completed for an attempt to manifest more than a glimpse of cosmic consciousness. After untold centuries we are almost ready to embark on the greatest of adventures.

This is to be a full time task, not something done after work hours and on weekends. Somehow, there has to be a change, and soon. The Fire in me is ready to be stirred. It's high time I was doing what I truly loved doing -- being of the greatest service to spirit of which I am capable. Yet, here there seems to be a stumbling block. I have not the means to strike out on my own to accomplish my task, nor have I yet found the beings that I am to work with. My attempts at contacting others based on guidance from my intuition have been in earnest, but have not yet fallen on good soil, at least as far as I can tell.

Interesting. My sense is that I am being tested. It's up to me to know what I can do and to come up with the appropriate steps to manifest key pieces of the overall mission. I need to understand what it is that I really want to do, and then start acting in accord with whatever that is. The part of the Plan in which I am involved will be made known to me soon enough, and then I will be expected to make my decision. My date with destiny arrives very soon. So soon, if fact, that there is little time to prepare.

16 Feb 94

I'm feeling a bit out on my own this week. It's as if all parts of myself are no inside of me working out the details of how they can coexist. I no longer sense my intuition as this separate part of myself that I have learned to trust and rely on. Now, it is me, part of my conscious awareness -- an integral part. I'm not used to feeling life as integrated. I've been through close to six months of awakenings in which I realized parts of my Self that were not part of my conscious self. The end result now, is that it is all operating consciously. I am whole and complete so to speak. Rest was in order for a week or two, but now I'm poised for action and have no clear goals or plan in mind. The batteries have just about recharged -- it's time to do something with the new energy and new state of mind. The bottom line is that I want to change the world, or at least be part of the transformation required to prepare for the Aquarian Age. It's not easy to see how this breaks into smaller goals and steps just yet. I've put a couple of feelers out to Al Gore and Anthony Robbins -- either of which could completely change my life and start me doing work that is at least related to what I came to the planet to do. My books have gone out to a few people as well, but it is not clear where to go for a publisher, or, if indeed the material should be published at this time. I have no sense that I'm to do anything to make it so. There is a warning that rings loud within me concerning being too attached to outcomes. This makes setting any outcome goals problematic as well. Yet, I don't know how else to state goals.

So, I remain in a state of relative suspense, taking action when it is suggested jointly by my conscious and subconscious mind, and waiting patiently for signs from the universe to respond to my actions so that the course of action can be altered or adjusted as appropriate. I live my life with my will subordinate to Thy Will, though I'm starting to sense that the subordination process is now a basic part of my being or at least is nearly so. At some point the powers of my own will operating will be called upon to be the active arm of Thy Will. There will be no separation. In the meantime, I stand in a strange state between action and inaction. The material world has lost much of its attraction, yet I will be in it so long as I am part of physical reality. And, if I'm going to be in it, then I'm going to enjoy it fully while I'm here. At the same time, my spiritual nature soars, excited by the promise of change, and the wonderful possibilities that lie ahead. Further, I'm consumed by the challenge of determining what best can be done now to facilitate progress in accord with the Plan. What can I do each day to assist in making spirit more fully enfleshed. That's the key. Keep the end objective always in mind, and look for the opportunities that the universe provides. Every day there will be one or more opportunities. This process will also train me to more automatically be doing exactly what I need to be doing. There will be times for my conscious mind to work things out as well, but much can be done on autopilot so to speak, where the autopilot comes from directly following the path that is established by the superconscious. Allow the basic path to come from the Heart, and let the conscious and subconscious work out the details about this central theme.

There is a fire starting to burn inside of me. As of yet, it's still relatively small, little more than a spark. But, my imagination already sees the engulfing frames that roar not only inside of me, but extending far outside of me as well. There is no fear associated with this image, only a strong sense of spiritual power. After all, I'm a triple fire sign, I should be on fire with spiritual energy. This super calmness that has been my nature for the past four months is not the way that I came to express my energy on this planet. The world caught a glimpse of what I can be during August and September last year. There are still a few blocks in my personality that prevent this full expression. These have to go, and go soon. Conscious mind, look through the beliefs that define who I am and remove those beliefs that obstruct the full expression of my spiritual nature. Where beneficial involve me in this process so that I can consciously be aware of what beliefs have been the most limiting. I am aware that whatever these beliefs were, they served me powerfully in the past. However, I now choose to be all that I can be, and any beliefs that prevent or block the full expression of my spiritual nature are no longer desired or necessary. Act in whatever timing is most in accord with the Plan.

Wow. For my world to change, I must change. Once again, my world is the reflection of what I am. At least, this is a place to start. And, wouldn't you know it would be in the most intimate place possible -- with the very nature of whom that I am. This is becoming a major lesson for me. Everything starts with the self and it's transformation to the Self. Self-realization is what it's all about. Greater awareness, spiritual awakening, and enlightenment are the greatest things we can experience in life, but we must go the next step and ground the experiences in physical life and use them in a manner that allows spirit to more full manifest in flesh on a regular basis not just in a few ecstatic moments. The quote "you are what you experience" comes to mind, but they got the order wrong. The truth is "you experience what you are". Think about that!

22 Feb 94

Wow. It's been nearly a week since I last wrote. The energies have been very sluggish and I've felt quite tired. It's as if I'm in the middle of a deep sleep and am only now starting to awake. Yes, I'm conscious and aware. Yet, at another level I am also asleep. Interesting. It's not my job to pass judgement on experience, not mine nor anyone else's. Experience is to be experienced in all its fullness at the time it happens and then analyzed to find it's meaning. We must live our lives first, then reflect on them. I take this to be a warning that in some way I am not fully living my life. I do sense that something is missing; I don't know what it is, but I know that it is not in my day to day experience. Hmm, we'll have to see what comes up in the next few weeks. I sense that I'm to find something that was lost years ago, in my childhood. Further, it will completely change my outlook on life. Hmm, I wonder what this could be.

Even though there is a sense of tiredness about me, I also feel more integrated than I have for some time. I am one being expressing life through this flesh. The parts of me are no longer obviously distinct. They have merged into the one being that I AM. I was getting used to being able to count on the different parts to do their assigned duties. Now that it is all me again, there is a different sensation to things. I observe the same things but they strike me as very different in many ways. The quality of life is different. At this point, it doesn't yet feel as vibrant as it was in weeks immediately past. I look out and see not the reflection of myself in what I have created but a world with a history and a current status based on that history. I read of the history of consciousness itself and am puzzled by the length of the road necessary for its development and its subsequent unfoldment. Then, I look at myself and ask if I am but a part of this history. My spirit answers NO, I am more than that. The living machine which I inhabit is indeed one that developed and evolved over time. But, the scale of my life is quite different than the scale of evolution of consciousness. I chose to use the present form of the machine through which to express my unique part of spirit. The brain and consciousness are sufficiently developed for the task which I came forth to accomplish.

This feeling is very strange. There is a heaviness associated with my entire body, an overwhelming heaviness. I long for the sheer joy and lightness of being. As I focus on spirit and the nature of my consciousness, my posture straightens and I feel that lightness once again. There is an energy within and surrounding my head that knows that it can free itself from this embodiment and soar. It doesn't take long for the experience and associated awareness to change. We have all facets and types of energy around us at all times. It's what we choose to associate with that we will experience. It's as simple as that. Focus on whatever state you choose at any time and that state will be brought into your reality immediately. Such is how we create our reality and our experience. A simple change of focus was all that was necessary to escape an unbearable heaviness and move into an incredible feeling of freedom and lightness.

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My mind is swimming with possibilities. I've been thinking about where to go from here. In particular, what does spirit wish for me to do next. It has been as if I was on hold for a couple of weeks. I'm even starting to wonder whether anything can really be done at the physical level or if I should stick to working with consciousness itself. Something in me says that we must work with the physical as well. We are to establish the foundations under some of our castles in the air. Note however that this does not specifically say to bring the castles down to earth, it says to build foundations from the earth to the castles. Hmm, I hadn't thought about this distinction before. I've been troubled by an inability to see how to get to the Aquarian Age from our present state of being and expression. I was about to conclude that it is simply impossible, there is no way to get from here to there in a short time. Then, I remembered there are two approaches to take. The first is to change from the outside in by getting every individual to change. The second is to establish the change in the collective consciousness and allow this to change each individual from the inside out. The second approach is much more elegant, and besides, is the only one with even a prayer of working. That realized, the next question is how does one change the pattern in the collective consciousness? The key seems to be to get a critical mass of individuals working together to establish change in accord with a common VISION. I don't know how many are required, but my sense is that something on the order of a dozen will suffice. This changes my focus substantially. My sense is that my writings are for a select few, in particular for the dozen that I am to work with and for various people associated with this group. At least, such is so in the early phases.

I ask that the initial group of people that I am meant to work with be brought into my life as quickly as possible or as soon as the timing is right in accord with the Plan. Further, I ask that each be revealed to me in a manner that is clear and obvious. This work is too important for there to be any questions. I trust that I will know who is to be an intimate part of this group, and that I should base my actions on this knowingness that comes from spirit. Just knowing that this is coming soon allows my spirit to soar. I so long to be working with my brethren in spirit. My path has been one of relative isolation for many years. The prospect of working cooperatively in group is an exciting one. So let it be written, so let it be done! And soon, very soon indeed.

What can I do to ready myself for this change in mode of operation? Nothing more than you have already done. Accept whom that you are as completely as is possible for you. Much of what you will bring forth depends on how fully aware you are of this and how much you have truly accepted and owned. You have a destiny of which you are aware. Know that such is truly your destiny -- for, if you are not convinced, neither will others be. Reality creation works from the kernel of deep and abiding trust or knowingness. There can be no doubt, if the Vision is to be made manifest then Spirit must be trusted completely. Either you know whom that you are, or you don't. We advise that you do whatever it takes for you to know, and do it now.

OK. I get the message. Bring forth whatever conditions are needed to allow all doubt or lack of awareness to be removed and allow me to fully know whom that I am as completely as is possible for me at this time. Conscious mind, search through the beliefs and eliminate any limiting ones that impact my ability to accept and know whom that I am. If necessary, bring these limiting beliefs to my attention for disposition and replacement. Complete these actions by the coming full moon so that we can begin the next phase of our mission. Thank you.

24 Feb 94

The full moon is here tomorrow. It's time for the vision to come of the destiny of Beyond Imagination. Two weeks ago I asked for this sign of what the next step is to be. Thus far, I have not had an experience that brought forth this information in a clear vision. I'm ready for the blindfolds to be lifted. Though, I know that it is Thy timing that is right, always. I'm fighting to keep my will from having too great a role in dictating what and when things will be. Yet, at the same time, I know that I have a primary role to play in taking specific action. On the other hand, I know that those actions in which I must participate will call to me in a manner such that I have no real choice other than to participate.

It's interesting to see how people are prospering and struggling through the current times. Why is it that those who seem to focus most highly on spiritual matters seem to be having the hardest times financially? Perhaps, it's a matter of focus. You get what you concentrate upon. The times we are going through now are one of great testing and tempering to see what beings are ready for what positions. One's awareness lies primarily in one's ability to take in and interpret the variety of experiences that one has during each day. One's power lies in one's ability to focus one's consciousness. You get what you focus on. People are experiencing exactly what is required to learn this key lesson. The question is: what is worthy of one's focus? That is up to each individual to decide for themselves, though the consensus society may provide its inputs.

I'm in an altered state again. The sense is that something is about to happen. I don't know what it is yet, but I sense a major change of some type. I've been thinking about the possibility of a mass dream that would be experienced by everyone. A dream that would change the very nature of the world as we know it. It's as if everyone could be programmed into a new way of being at once. More and more, I sense that the changes required for the Aquarian Age to manifest will happen from the inside out. The current infrastructures of the country and the world seem too set in their ways to be able to make the necessary changes. This may be a copout, but then again, I've always believed in simplicity and elegance. The way should be easy if one stays balanced and goes with the flow of spirit. It will be interesting to see what manifests in the next few weeks. Something is being worked out on inner levels, something very important to the operation of the world as we know it. Further, I sense that I am to be a part of this.

28 Feb 94

Got tuned into the Universal Life Force [Reiki] this weekend. At some level, it feels that this was an important step on my path. Nothing happens by coincidence anymore, the timing of events in my life is elaborately planned. I do feel more connected to All That Is. It's fun knowing that all that I touch is activated by this universal energy. The sense is that we all are tuned into this energy all the time, it's just that the signal through which is flows is weakened by our beliefs. Reiki revitalizes the connection to allow much more energy to be tapped and allows us to activate this energy in others with our hands.

I'm not sure that I've received the vision concerning the next step for beyond imagination that I was looking for by the full moon. Then again, the moon still looks relatively full three days after the fact. Hmm. We'll look again tonight for a vision of what lies ahead in the near future.

It's hard to believe that February passed so fast. Compared to January, it was a month of relative ease and rest. Winter is nearly over, soon to give way to Spring. I'm excited about what March may bring and April after that. Change is expected on many fronts. Also, it is time to start thinking about what to plant this year so that the harvest may be rich in the Fall. For me, the fall will be another time of spiritual awakening, so what I plant in the coming months will become part of whom that I am. That makes it all the more important to plant well. Last year my harvest landed me into a mental hospital for 10 days. Don't worry, however, you are not likely to experience the same energies for change that I am experiencing. Though, those of you born around April 14 or Oct 18 may have an interesting year in store for you. Uranus square your natal sun is the key conjunction that is of importance here.

I'm sensing more and more that work must be done in consciousness first before it is brought forth into physical reality. The vision must be realized in spirit, to give it the impetus to be realized in flesh. It helps if the principles behind the vision are lived daily to provide the pattern from which the life force can activate the material realization. Don't worry about the details of how the manifestation will be accomplished. Dream and imagine what is to be as vividly as you can, then speak and act as if it is already accomplished -- and surely it will be done.

Copyright © 1995, Wayne Hartman, Revised -- (8 Sep 95)