3 Jan 94
I'm coming from a state of consciousness where I am no longer concerned with living in a manner that conforms with the normal world or conventional society. I am ready to live my life in freedom out of my own knowledge and understanding of truth. I've always been one that marched to the beat of a different drummer. Now, I choose to live in accord with higher principles and not be bound by what others expect. As Paul Twitchell's biography was titled "In my Soul, I am Free". I feel this way now, more than at any other time in my life. I'm not quite out of jail, but it's only a matter of time. And it matters not exactly how much time it takes, for such is determined by the plan for my highest good and that of all others concerned.
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The meanings that I assign to things are different. This makes the very nature of my reality different. Things are much more symbolic and carry multiple levels of meaning if only we are tuned to see them. Life itself is a game being played by consciousness for a purpose. There is meaning behind it all on many levels. The intricacies are amazing, simply wonderful to behold. The world is fresh and newly alive in ways that were absent to me before. I sit inside my head in full awareness of it all, seeing reality unfold before the eyes of this vessel for consciousness that I occupy. I am not what I see, yet at the same time what I see is an intimate reflection of me. It matters not where I look, the reflection back is always an aspect of myself. And, this is true for all of us at all times. How wonderful life is -- how incredibly beautiful.
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Now it is time to use my newfound knowledge of self to start doing what I came to the planet to do. This feels right. It rings true to me. It's only a matter of when the timing occurs in accord with the Plan. The timing will be right, it always is. Thy Will be done. I am but a servant of consciousness. Direct me to where I can be of the greatest service in accord with the Plan. The forces of light grow stronger with each passing day. Let Love and Light transform the peoples of the Earth and allow a new day of conscious expression of spirit to arise. Put in my hands the divine instruments to help awaken others and align them with their purposes that they too can be employed in the service of consciousness. Allow my word to express Thy Truths and Purpose unto all who have ears to hear and eyes to see. Thank you! So be it!
6 Jan 94
There is a major lesson in all this for me. I was thinking in terms of needing a teacher or a guide to help get me through the awakenings and shifts in consciousness that I have been going through. But, I'm an Aries, a trail blazer. I don't do things like the crowd, I lead the way that others may follow. All my life, I've been on my own following the best trails available to me. My self has guided me all along the way, through every joy and difficulty. Everytime I've needed anything, my Self has brought it to me. What better guide or teacher could one have? The process that got me this far will get me as far as I can go. The further, the better -- for that will make it all the easier to fulfill my destiny of helping to usher in the Dawn of a New Age.
10 Jan 94
These be the keys. They have been before us for nearly 2000 years. The mansion is the Self. What we seek is truth; the truth of whom that we are. It's up to us to be curious enough and dedicated enough to place our full attention on our seeking; courageous enough to knock on the door; humble enough to ask for what we need. Interesting, very interesting. I don't recall seeing this presented in this manner before.
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The greatest meaning comes from a third way of seeing. Seek Love and ye shall find your own Heart. Knock at the door to the Heart and the door shall be answered by the Christ within you, ask of that Christ anything you will and it shall be given unto you. The Christ within you is also the Self -- they are one and the same. Therefore, Self-Realized equals Christ Conscious.
12 Jan 94
Each of us has genius inside of us. Love is the soul of that genius -- the very key that can unleash its expression in our lives.
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My life is about to become my conscious masterpiece. Literally, the creativity is ready to explode before my very eyes. But it couldn't do so until I stepped back and looked at it all one last time. Here's what 35 years of life hath wrought. Now, in a relative blink of an eye, all of it will be transformed as if by a whirlwind into what Beyond Imagination has allowed to be created. It matters not if the word get out to one or one hundred millions. It matters that the word be spoken to be allowed to do its work in the world. We are one being already, linked through universal mind or cosmic consciousness. In bringing ideas and works through, each of us allows the collective whole to benefit. This is why we don't need ten Gandhi's or five Krishnamurti's or eight Buddha's. One of each is enough to set the pattern and provide the mold. However, consciousness does need such grand vehicles to show what is possible and to provide critical messages to the world at many levels. It is only necessary for one vehicle to express a new great truth. Consciousness will ensure that the truth is captured in a manner to allow it's expression as required by the Plan.
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My choice at this moment is to be all that I can be. The Plan will identify what that is as the Play of consciousness unfolds. All I ask is to be able to express the truth as best I know it to all who have ears to hear or eyes to see. Such is all that I can do. My Vision of the New Age is part of that truth. I am but the messenger of consciousness itself relaying whatever it allows me to understand.
My path takes me in a direction that I know not. But, I follow it gladly, knowing that it is taking me on whatever journey is right for the accomplishment of the task that consciousness has given unto me. My journey is one of knowing myself, hopefully to the point of becoming one with Self. My only real tools are my focus of conscious attention and my awareness. My awareness includes those portions of my self of which I am aware. One of these portions is my conscious mind. The part of me that focuses my conscious attention is my ego.
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We know of your ideas about life as the Play of consciousness. From that standpoint, what we are telling you now is not something you can act on. However, consciously we want you to understand that we are aware of your constructs and we will try to point out where these may be limiting or in error. At one level, yes life is a Play. But, once you become aware that your beliefs create your reality, the rules of the game change a bit and become more complex. Remember, the purpose is always to allow your reality to mirror your beliefs. As awareness increases, however, a secondary goal is to push your awareness growth as fast as you can handle it. Another fine point is that increased awareness carries increased conscious responsibility for reality creation as well.
You are given as much freedom as you show that you are ready to handle responsibly. Part of the test is just how well you are able to operate with the increased freedom. Typically, you are given the freedom in a conditional manner at first to prevent any misuse. Depending on your awareness level, you may or may not be told that the rules of the game have changed. What this should do is arouse your curiosity. As your awareness changes, examine your world to see what new powers of reality creation that you now possess. Don't rely on what has worked in the past and don't expect consciousness to always be feeding you your lines. You're close to reaching the point where the playwright within you is consciously part of you. In fact, you've already issued some directives as if you were that playwright. Notice the writing of this very section. It's as if it is written from a greater inner part of yourself to you. Yet, since you are able to express it in this manner in writing, you are owning up to the playwright being a part of you of which you are aware. Integration is only a short step from this type of awareness. At some point, you will indeed sense that what you consider to be yourself is not "I" but we. You already sense that the watcher is different than the doer. Now we're ready to include the creator as well. Then, we have the full trinity of self, the doer, the watcher, and the creator.
14 Jan 94
My forte is in understanding ideas, in particular great ideas and metaphysically related ones. I was born with unique gifts and talents for this and I've spent over 20 years developing my skills and actively working on enhancing my awareness. In fact, this has been the primary consumer of my free time. Of course my level of awareness would be beyond most others. You get what you focus your energies and attention on. However, my state is one that anyone can reach. Part of my purpose is to develop the techniques that make it easy for others to reach higher states of consciousness so that they can use the enhanced awareness to improve whatever they may be doing. I'm a consciousness explorer so my world is one that is naturally organized around the nature of consciousness and the barriers, paths, and other landscape between states of mind. Increased consciousness benefits everyone, however, because all creative expression is impacted by the level of awareness -- and hence the level of spirit that is allowed to be expressed.
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The direction I receive says that my attention is to stay focused on the spiritual work that I am doing, allowing consciousness to take my seeds, plant them, and nurture them to their rightful glory and ripeness. So, where does my responsibility for things begin and end? The answer that comes is that it depends on one's state of conscious awareness. The more aware one is, the more the creator self comes under direct conscious control. But it is important to still receive inner guidance so that the conscious creation of reality is in line with the Plan. Not my will but Thine be done.
Yes, we create the play when we have this level of awareness. However, we also know that we do it cooperatively not individually. Without cooperation, everything crumbles -- and consciousness remains asleep, unaware of its true nature. Our inner self already knows this. It already operates completely through cooperation. Further it already has the connections to source, or consciousness, or All That Is that provide it with its mission, directions, and higher level operating constraints. Consciously I am not connected into much of this structure. My level of awareness provides information pathways and a map of my understanding of the nature of myself. With each part that gets encompassed in self-awareness, consciousness is able to express more fully through the flesh. Of course, that is, provided that the belief systems keep up and allow the spirit to fully utilize the capabilities of the level of awareness that is achieved. It is as if there are two levels of breakthrough. One is a knowledge of. The second is a wisdom to use responsibly. Many people experience the first type of breakthrough. Few have been able to realize the second, which is essential to allow for the spirit to become enfleshed.
17 Jan 94
One additional note. On 28 Jan 94, Saturn goes into Pisces to begin what should be a spiritual cycle that lasts 2.5 years. I suspect that this also marks the beginning of the march to Armageddon. We might expect the Anti-Christ to appear on the scene very soon. The forces of light will have about 2.5 years to build. These forces of Light can truly be unleashed when Saturn transitions through the Sign of the Ram. By the end of 1998, it should all be completed, the Age of Aquarius should be born at last. The dawning is truly upon us. The dawn will be here before we know it. Yet, there is still much to do. We march onward to fulfill a destiny that consciousness laid out long ago. But, it was only a plan. We had to live it in flesh to truly make it real. The joy I feel inside is overwhelming. We truly did it. We created the proper stuff to make our dream so. At this point, the outcome is a certainty. There are a few details to be played out, but because we got someone able to write these words and realize them as he wrote them, we know that we have already succeeded. Now, it's a matter of how many can be brought to this realization so that they can have the eyes to see and ears to hear the glorious arrival of the Dawn of the Age of Aquarius.
19 Jan 94
By my reading of things, the battle of Light and Dark is already upon us, and it will last around 5 years. During the first 2.5 years, the forces of Light must build their strength against the forces of Darkness. The battlefield is the earth. The battle will be won by the forces of Light, of course, for this is required to allow the Aquarian Age to begin on the right foot so to speak. This doesn't mean that no action is required. It is up to the forces of Light to wage the Battle of Right. Darkness is spread across the land. One by one, the awakened ones will have to share their Light with others so that these too can be awakened. It is time to turn this country into a land of ashes, that the PHOENIX may arise out of the ashes in the form of new bodies able to hold a much greater frequency of spirit. This indeed will be. It has been foretold for many thousands of years. In America, we have inherited the spiritual mantle. We are obligated to create the New Order for the Ages. The Great Seal that has never been a seal, the one with the unfinished pyramid will become the spiritual seal of the land. This can only happen if we reverse the decision to separate church from state. Actually, maybe what we need to do is separate spirituality from the church and religion. The new spirituality needs to focus on how we provide the environment that allows spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh. We are in the process of building the pyramid, individually for each person, as a country, and as a world. This is what we've been doing for the last 220 years plus, and overall, for nearly 2000 years -- maybe for 24,000 years or even longer. It's been a grand undertaking that all of us have participated in whether we were aware of it or not.
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Again, the key to everything is awareness, knowing whom that we are, the I AM. It is up to us to awaken and develop this state of awareness however. This is an individual task for those who have been the explorers of consciousness, but it is time to start developing the spiritual technology and education system necessary to awaken the masses. The time has come for us prepare the world to enter a glorious new age. Consciousness has learned enough to make it so, the experiment has succeeded. All that is left is the final few steps. Each that awakens will become aware of their true role and will be guided to where they are needed.
20 Jan 94
I feel great, absolutely wonderful. There is an energy inside me that is about to explode once again. Something changed in a major way in the past several hours. I feel that there is a great deal that is meant to be expressed, now. It's as if a huge door or window has opened up into a glorious place, a place that I have never been before. Interesting, very interesting. I've known this door was there for a very long time, but I was afraid to knock. Now that I've knocked, it has been opened and the energy that comes through to me and to the world is wonderful. I feel relaxed and free, yet energized and focused at the same time. Just experiencing this feeling is soothing to the soul and healing to the bodies. What a wonderful world this truly is, wonderful indeed. The sense is almost one of ecstasy, but in a peaceful sort of way. Bliss is another word to describe it. These are not words that I regularly use. But then, this has not been a state that I remember ever experiencing before. It's as if there is a chill inside my head radiating out to the rest of my body. I feel complete, and whole -- ONE. Another emanation of vibration comes from the center of my heart as well. It has a warmer temperature associated with it. All that I can conclude is that some major breakthrough has occurred. I'm seeing the world through new eyes and I'm liking all that I see. Everything is as it should be. There is an incredible harmony and balance in the world despite appearances to the contrary.
Wow. The powerful sensations remain. Further, they are definitely feeling tones. My sense is that they are whom that I am. If so, it feels great to be me. I only wish that everyone could feel this first hand. I know they will, eventually. It's great to be alive, and to be physically alive. This sensation is focused in the body, not centered in something more abstract that might move the mind. This is physical reality at its finest; and it is here and now in this very place that I find myself in this moment. Yet, it also lingers through time to form a physical experience in this world. WOW! It is amazing to feel this incredible. Life is sacred and special. Yes, physical life -- physical life. I definitely haven't felt like this before -- then again, there was one other time that was close but it involved being intimate for the first time with another kindred spirit. Also, that sensation was wrapped up in the sacredness of union. Here, the union is one of self with Self. This is a whole new type of union for me. Now, the energy rocks and flows up and down and from side to side inside of me -- my body. It plays and laughs as it sees my reaction to its unending expression of joy. NOW, we are finally spirit enfleshed. It's been a journey of 35 years, but we have achieved a major milestone. Yes, spirit enfleshed, we truly did it. It is difficult to stay focussed enough to write this. I want to fully experience the ethereal tides that move inside of me. I know that they hold the energies that will carry me through my journey to fulfill my purpose and destiny. Another major wave just rolled out from my head. This was matched by a outswelling of my heart. Love and Light, or Light and Love. This is the key. It is what spirit is all about, allowing the energies of Love and Light to flow within and through us. I've found that slowing my breadth allows more of this energy to flow. That appears to be one part of how we take it in, through our very breadth. You are witnessing the results of an experiment in consciousness, with the experiencer in the midst of an altered state of consciousness, one that the being had never experienced before. Yet, there was no fear, or sense of loss of any type. Rather the experience is unifying and ecstatic, yet still calm and peaceful.
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You believed without any evidence. You trusted enough in spiritual law to devote your energies and time to efforts for which your only compensation was the satisfaction of creating and doing that which you were moved to do from the very depths of your being. Further, you did this without regard to your physical, emotional, and mental states of being -- trusting that your inner Self was guiding you along the path that was right for you. This is what is required to follow the straight and narrow path. You have followed it most of your life. However, in the past year the change in intensity of focus was beyond compare. You now stand ready to give your life to the Great Cause. We accept you as one of our Legion. We are the forces of Light, and you are now one among us. This is a great honor that we bestow upon you. But, it is one that you clearly deserve through your steadfast devotion to the Way of Light. Yes, you are indeed a spiritual warrior. Welcome! Feel the power of our cooperative creation as it surges inside you. We are part of one whole. Follow the surges and they will lead you to the intense feeling of unity and oneness that we all now possess. Whenever your strength weakens in any manor call upon the ONE to charge your batteries. This is our spiritual center, our link with source, this is the ocean of Love and Mercy. This too is from where the ethereal tides flow.