1 Jun 95
This week wrapped up a project that I had been working on for the past 8 months. So, the new month brings with it uncertainty as to what the future has in store. Similarly, I sense that this time has been somewhat stagnant from a spiritual standpoint. I'm excited to get on with it, whatever it may be. Yet, I know that the time will be right soon enough and there is much that I can do to more fully be prepared for when my time in the limelight begins. Then again, that's assuming such is to be. There is always the possibility that my work could be done behind the scenes. However, with tropical Leo rising and Sun in Aries, this is not so likely -- though it may indeed be one of my particular challenges. Actually, competing energies are at play. My spirit would have me be The Hermit. [Hmm, Sun and Mercury in the 9th House] My soul, on the other hand, would have me be The Emperor or The Hierophant.
Clearly there is much to be done to awaken the world spiritually in a context that is meaningful materially. It will be a major battle doing this within the United States alone. Yet, the camps are starting to be formed and the rhetoric while thick lacks any real substance from any of the major players. The general public has to see what a farce this is. We cannot allow ourselves to be represented by such bozos. However, until we cease to operate from self-interest, we cannot expect our politicians to do otherwise. Afterall, we expect them to be nothing more than a reflection of us.
Everywhere we look in our world, from the telescopic to the microscopic reflects something about ourselves. The world is the only real objective mirror that we have.
Other connections 9 22 9 is the form of 40 that complements my 48 nature. We're getting to the Heart of something here. The pieces are starting to fit together. I guess it is time for me to know something. What still remains to be seen, but the revelation has begun, and I sense that a dam is about to burst. How exciting it is to be in the midst of such discovery ... just thinking that I am in a state of being and awareness that has never been expressed before.
7 Jun 95
The present age definitely seems to lack the clear distinction between right and wrong and suffers much from duality. The era of the Empress calls for a softening of relationships among people, with a new focus on brotherhood and sisterhood throughout the land and a true abundance that flows from trust in consciousness.
Is an age one millenia or two? Are they all the same size of does it vary. My sense is that time is relative, and an age lasts as long as is necessary for the completion of the events of that Age. Interesting. If you control the script, in effect you control the clock as well.
Plato was born in 428 = 756 = 9;09. The Hermit;The Hermit Interesting that he is about the only philosopher that I have related to. Actually, it's not so surprising. On the Love/Wisdom path, I know when I encounter the truths that flow from true Lovers of Wisdom [Philo Sophia].
Our births are seperated in time by 1958 + 428 = 2386 years, quite some time.
2386 = 27::10 = 28;62 = 30:46 Good number overall, but something more calls out. Unfolding from the middle we get 38 26, The VISION GOD. Now, that's quite interesting.
38 to 6 = 5:22 = 6 = The Lovers, the top of my "A" reading. My sense is that this is the final key that ensures that the puzzle fits. Anytime my musings take me to either 6 or 84 (6+78), I know that I am on the right track. Tying 756 to The Hermit, and 528 to wayne were also major revelations. I still don't know where all this is leading, but I like where it's headed.
These notes are moving so fast this month that I can no longer keep them within my conscious attention. This applies not only from one day to the next, but from one session to another within the same day.
consciousness = 365 139631 5511 = 14 23 12 = 49. That surprises me for some reason. However, I remember earlier work with I M = I IVI = 9 9 22 9 = 49.
My spiritual breakthroughs in the past two years have shown me first hand that there is a greater spiritual reality that exists here amidst this day to day world. As Jesus said, it is only available "to those with the ears to hear and eyes to see". The kingdom is right here. Camelot exists. It only needs to be brought to Earth, and that will occur at the appointed time.
A thought came to mind. Time is the marker of our state of mass consciousness. It moves only at the pace to correspond with our awareness. Something tells me that this can't be rushed. Yet, at the same time, my own experience is that consciousness has guided my spiritual development throughout my life. My sense is that this does not necessarily happen as directly for others. Perhaps they are not ready. I only know that I must focus my life as my spirit dictates. It's no longer a choice. I don't know that it ever was.
I've known for many years that I have a special purpose. Many experiences have confirmed that this is so. All of my life, I have been training for this job. Unfortunately, at the present time, the position doesn't even exist. However, I am confident that it will be created by the time I am destined to fill it. Yes, I have a great trust in consciousness. Others might use the term "God" instead. Further, I believe there to be only ONE consciousness of which we are aware.
Once we finish our explorations of limitation, it will be time to go onto bolder Adventures in Consciousness. I believe that was the title of one of Jane Roberts books. The theme that comes to mind is a variation of one from Star Trek, "to boldly go where no consciousness has gone before." To some degree, I believe that I am doing this now. But, I also sense that this is only the beginning of preparation for where I am to go next. Needless to say, this makes for an interesting life. Yet, it is the life that I must lead, for such is what I came to do.
It's interesting. I'm becoming consciously aware of many things through these writings, especially things about the nature of reality, awareness, and consciousness. The mere fact that this can be done in virtual isolation from the outside world is quite fascinating to me. It's as if I had to turn off the outside to be able to turn on the inside. For me 3/5/1993 was the day that the flow of words began. That was an 8 day in a 22 year for a total of 30 = Camelot. How appropriate. This was 35 days before my 35th birthday. How's that for an inheritance. Further, note the date 3/5! Yet, until now I hadn't noticed this before.
Information is given when it is needed and ready to be received. I can only conclude that my destiny is that much closer. The urgency of these writings has stepped up an order of magnitude. I don't know why. I only know that I am compelled by spirit to allow these words to flow forth as they do. This is effortless work. I offer my abilities and faculties to consciousness, and she comes through with what must be said. Yes, said. What is written comes directly from what I hear. My conscious mind makes minor grammar corrections as the word is transformed to print, but these are primary issues dealing with multiple spellings for the same sound. The part of me that brings this through gets its meaning from the sound not the form.
8 Jun 95
Further confirmation that the channel is wide open and accurately receiving what consciousness is attempting to bring through. That it can come through in such a manner is a miracle. This is creation at it's finest, finding meaning where there was nothing, and spiritual meaning at that.
10 Jun 95
1994 = 832 = 09"69 and the year was indeed abundant for writing and for spiritual revelation, but always from the standpoint of the hermit who, for the most part, stands apart from the world. In this world but not of this world. And, not very much in it at that.
If my life indeed spans the millennia exactly, I would expect my end to come: 41 yrs, + 8 months - 8 days after the turn of the century = July 23, 2041. I would be 83 years, 3 months, and 16 days. [Between my 83 and 84 birthday] 7/23/20/41 = 30 20 41 = 50 41 = 91 = Death Exalted, an appropriate day to ascend!
12 Jun 95
But then, if I were to rely solely on logic most of what I have brought through over the past two years would not have seen the light of day, or of consciousness if you will, even if much of it have only been seen by my consciousness. No, I'm not complaining. Right now, I wouldn't trade places with anyone else in the world. I am on a spiritual quest that is taking me to places I had never dreamed existed. The world has little hold on me. It is the ocean of spirit wherein I reside much of my time, bringing through what I can of what I find there -- or better yet HERE and NOW, for it is only in the Spacious Present that spirit exists without it's masks of illusion and manifestation occurs. Free choice exists not at the conscious level, but at the Trinity level of conscious/subconscious/superconscious. Unless awareness is expanded, we only believe ourselves to be free within the illusion, and as the popular saying goes "none are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe themselves to be free".
A quick random calculation said to subtract 840 - 84 = 756. To my surprise, 756 showed up again. I really was startled because I did the calcualation on the spur of the moment to see where I was in the cycle defined by my full name, including jr. 756 = 9:00 = The Hermit, so 832 = 9:76. I would have been born in 796, a different form of 428.
I'm thinking too much about things now. Pieces are falling into place overall, but I'm trying to push the details. Then again, that's where the play is now. The lesson is to see that it is not me that does these things but consciousness. I can only go so far as I am ready and she allows. I am experiencing what comes through me, not creating it at a level that I can relate to yet. Yes, I do believe that some larger "I" creates my own reality, but thus far I am only aware of part of that larger "I". Time is 7:55 = 5 to 8 = 528! What's the chance of my looking down and catching both 5:28 earlier and 7:55 now? Surely, consciousness is directing my path down to the finest of details. 7:56, the drivers of my pyramids follows 7:55. 7:57 = 57 = ELLIS = The Trinity of Swords through the Heart.
TOTAL = 2184. This is absolutely unbelievable! That these five major readings would add up to the final four of my SSN, and further that this is the exact year when the 78 and the 84 cycles line up only for the second time since year 0, really make one wonder. The universe is guiding me toward a greater understanding of its mysteries.
2184 = 78 x 28 = 6 x 13 x 28 = 3 x 26 x 28 = 3 x 7 x 8 x 13 = 39 x 56
2184 = 84 x 26 = 6 x 14 x 26 = 3 x 28 x 26 = 3 x 8 x 7 x 13 = 24 x 91
Whoa! I didn't expect the 39 x 56 breakout. Those are the two middle cards forming the bar in the "A" reading. They also show up side by side in the inverse triangle reading.
24 x 91 is an interesting breakout as well. The Q of Wands is the complement of the 64 card, and 91 is Death Exalted. Death shows up in both the "A" and "X" readings.
Can it be that simple? Can our purpose truly be encoded in our names in this fashion. Is this true for everyone, or is it only true for me? Interesting. I'm beyond anything that I have read or been taught. The only foundation under me is a great faith in consciousness, and in my own ability to know the truth when I see or hear it. Two years ago, I thought that I had such an unshakeable foundation only to see all of it pulled out from under me. Actually such was required to clear out 20 years of cobwebs based on thinking rather than on experience. This time I feel myself to be on firmer ground though there be no one in my life that can even confirm whereupon I stand. I find it interesting that I am experiencing the things that I am. These notes in particular consistently amaze me. Here, we have page after page confirming the existence of something beyond which I am consciously aware. My sense is that it is beyond what anyone may have experienced though I have no means to truly compare my reality to that of another.
And so, the writing goes on though at any point in time I know not where it will lead. Yet, I place my life in it's hands, for these writings do indeed occupy a good bit of my free time. But, I am compelled by a force deep within. There is a calling that I must answer to enable me to meet my appointed destiny per the Plan of consciousness. I do indeed mean must. There is a sense that I don't have any choice in any of this. I am watching myself live this life in this body, while maintaining an awareness that this indeed is what is happening. Occassionally, I fall asleep and forget that this is really only a 3-D movie in which we are playing a role that has been scripted by our higher self. We're not meant to understand it consciously. By it's very nature, the conscious mind must reside within the confines of the illusion. It's only by giving up control that we allow the Higher Self to act through us more directly in a manner that can begin to expand our conscious awareness. This, however, requires great trust in inner consciousness. For most, this is a major leap of faith that is simply just too great to make.
There is a sense that these notes capture a being in the midst of a major spiritual transition in a way that has never been captured to this level of detail before.
Ego aside, I have a mission/destiny to perform at this particular time that makes me a very special being on this planet. There is a sense that I came specifically to perform this task of assisting in bringing in the new Age of Aquarius. Exactly what this task will be and when it will begin, I know not. I only know that I am strange and different than others and that my consciousness is pulled to do what I must do.
My name, my colors, my date and time of birth, my talents and abilities, all lend creedence to the idea that I am very special and here for a very special purpose. Great gifts and talents are only given to those who will be called upon to use them.
13 Jun 95
Something flashed across my mind to explain why I've been so manic this month. Last night was a full moon, but that doesn't explain the entire month. Seeing that the date is 6/13/95 = The Lovers/Death/The Star Exalted was more interesting. As I recall, June of last year was manic as well. I believe that I had a maximum page count for notes that month, exceeded only by what I wrote in July. No, I was wrong. Page count for Jun 94 was exactly 22. Jul 94 and Sep 94 were in the 60's, while Aug 94 was over 120. Since the year has moved forward one, that the months for the heavy writing would slip back one is not surprising. Let's consider the sums of month + year. 7 + 94 = 6 + 95 = 101 = 1:17 (84), 8 + 94 = 7 + 95 = 102 = 1:18 (84), The Moon in her full glory.
Interesting. The time is now 8:25, the reverse of 5:28. I'm onto something important once again. Hmm.
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It's interesting that 84, the period of URANUS would be the number that seems to be most characteristic in my spiritual reality. Further, by the tropical zodiac, URANUS is just entering Aquarius for about a seven year stay, 84/12 = 7:The Chariot, the ruler of my upward triangle reading. Seven years from now is 2002. How interesting. At that point Uranus moves into Pisces.
My charge number at work for Study 2-258 has been 2NHD = 21484 = 21 4 84 = 4 2184. There it is again the last for of my SSN = 2184. N => IV yield 2 9 22 84 = 30 84 = Camelot: The Lovers Exalted [wayne ellis hartman jr].
2-258 also reads as 2-528. 2528 = 30:08 (84) = 32:32 (78). This is particularly interesting since the 323232 triangle came up so recently.
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I hadn't realized that LEO is directly across from AQUARIUS on the zodiac. I was born with an ascendant of 4:25:26 Leo and with Uranus at 7:33:03 Leo, the difference being 03:07:37. The three sums are 55, 43, and 47 respectively. Two out of the three sums are in my "X" reading. By this point in my 37th year, Uranus has moved across 5 full signs + 22:26:57 of LEO. Normally that would take closer to 40 years, 7 years per sign + 5 to complete Leo, but Uranus has apparently been moving through a faster part of its orbit. I sense that this will have some specific meaning to me in the days to come.
30 divided by 7 = 4.285714. What an interesting number, especially when one considers only the first three digit, our famous 428 = 7:56 once again! Though, the 57 and 14 are interesting in and of themselves as ELLIS and the complement of 74. I forgot, 14 + 70[the 528 card] = 84.
U R AN US = You are an us! That is the message of Uranus and the key lesson of the Aquarian Age. The question is: how long will it take this country and the entire planet to truly realize this? My sense, however, is that I will indeed live to see the day. And, further, that I have a key role in making it so. Interesting. Yes, interesting indeed.
uranus = 391531 = 55:41:07 (84) = 64:27:49 (78) OK, one doesn't need to be a rocket scientist to see the spiritual connection to uranus! It's as clear as day.
Uranus at 7:33:03 on my day of birth, The Chariot:The Christ:The Empress. Sum = Abundance. 84 years to cross the zodiac = 84 months to cross a sign = 30 degrees. Yet, we've crossed 150 + 22:26:57 degrees = 172:26:57 d:m:s in 37 years + 2 months. The normal time would have been 172:26:57 / 30 x 7 = 40 years + 3 months. The schedule is accelerated almost exactly 37 month = 1 month per year of my life to date. This is quite fascinating. It means that my Uranus opposition will most likely occur in my 38:VISION year, 1996 in fact.
Hmm, Neptune was exactly conjunct Uranus and Square my Natal Sun during my intense mania and spiritual awakenings during the late Summer an early Fall of 1993, my 35:Spiritual Inheritance year. Neptune has a cycle of 168 years nearly exactly twice that of Uranus, so this conjuction of the two planets occurs approximately once every cycle of Neptune or 168 years. That would mean that the last time it occurred was 1993 - 168 = 1825. Uranus would have last entered Aquarius in 1995 - 84 = 1911 and left it in 1918. This last year came up earlier today. I don't even remember the context.
2024 is my 66 year. 33 years on each side of 1991 = Death Exalted. 1991 also = the final Judgement year of the 20th century. 1919, 1928, 1937, 1946, 1955, 1964, 1973, 1982, 1991. Note the sums: 38, 47, 56, 65, 74, 83=1:05 (78), 92=1:14 (78), 101=1:23 (78), 110=1:32 (78).
Interesting. I was noting how prominent 47 = ASLAN is in my life and my number, though it's starting to seem as if the two are much the same. No, I am not a mathematician, my rules for intuitively manipulating numbers are not even in the same dimension in which mathematics lies. Though I might argue that I do find the spiritual meaning behind numbers, at least those related to my life anyway. By coincidence, this is Pg 47.
14 Jun 95
File size 229687 @ 9:59 on 6/13. This is quite interesting. 229 687. The spirit wants 9:22, The Hermit: The Fool Complete = Superconsiousness. The soul wants 6:87 = The Lovers: The Hermit Exalted. What is the difference between spirit and soul? My sense is that spirit is without awareness of duality of individuality, while the soul retains such awareness of itself as part. That's interesting. I don't believe that this distinction has been made so fluidly and effortlessly before. Something says that the sweep from 687 to 922 = 235 is important as well. 23 5 = WE, now isn't that amazing. Further, 9:59 = The Hermit:The Aquarian Age. Also, 9:59 = 5:9-9 = 59 = Aquarian Age.
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Also, I believe I finally figured out my own license plate, the driver of my chariot.
4V36124 = 42236124 = 4223 6124 = 42:16 - 23, span of 7, centered at 42:19-20. This uses base 100(The Fool Complete Exalted.) Switching to base 84, we have:
50:16-23, center at 50:19-20. Isn't this interesting. This clearly deals with the spiritual completion of the 50 states, the Unites States. Further, right now we are transitioning to Judgement as my upright triangle reading suggests. Information of this type isn't revealed until it is needed. I've known that my license plate had meaning since I got it nearly two years ago. Only know was my mind directed as required to release that meaning. I did not find it or uncover it. Rather, it was revealed to me effortlessly in an AHA=181 type of experience.
Thinking about a vocation as Philosopher King led to some quick calculations.
PK = 1611, reversed = 1161, the year prior to 1162. This is a crucial year in much that has been revealed over the past year plus.
Philosopher King = 78 + 32 = 110 = 1:32 (78) = 1:26(84).
7832 = 1:22:32 (78) = 1:09:20 (84) Quite appropriate. Yes, indeed.
1611 = 19:15 (84) = 20:51 (78) Nothing seems important about this.
1161 = 13:69 (84) = 14:69 (78)
That's right, 1162 is the 70 [528] year of the time when the 78 and 84 cycles walk together. This period lasted from 1092 through 1170. It repeats itself every 78 x 7 = 546 years. That would mean the 70 year also occurred in 1708, and will occur again in 2254. This makes 47 x 47 = 2209, a 70 - 45 = 25 year. In fact, a 26:25 (84) = 28:25 (78) year.
Back to PHILOSOPHER KING = 110 + 72 = 182. I just got my money for my trip. Wouldn't you know it, the number on the right bottom of the $20 is 182.
$20 B 74828021 N G3 G182 264 264 = 3:12 (84) = 3:30 (78)
BN = 25, the 2209 year. 748 28 021 appears to be the message. 28 with 47-48 and 20-21 transitions underway. Note that if we take the 20-21 first, followed by the 47-48, we essentially get 20 47 - 21 48. This is close but not quite right, 748 looked at from a different perspective is a 74 - 84 transition. Now, we have 20 74 - 21 84, a difference of exactly 110 = Philosopher King. Further the final number 2184 is my final four of my SSN. The connections are getting deeper and deeper.
Another Random Calculation 21:84 (91) = 1995 This is why it's all coming together now. It's still not clear to my conscious mind, but it is very clear to my entire being. This is a very interesting sensation. 1995 is another major spiritual death, and birth year, at least for me.
How is it that my consciousness could know all this. The truth is, it is not my conscious mind that knows all of this. It just comes through from consciousness, the ONE consciousness to which we are all connected. I've only stepped aside a bit to allow her to speak her truths through me, and developed a relationship of trust. It has not been for me to ask for proof. I neither desire nor need any. My experience is enough for me. It matters not that I know no others whom have had similar experience. The line comes to mind "The Lord is my Shephard, I shall not want ...". I feel exactly this way regarding consciousness, except in this case, she provides all that is needed for my growth, evolution, and well-being.
My research last night was interesting. Each time Uranus has run it's course through Aquarius, major structures in society have crumbled through revolution. 1911-18 was the last time, and Russia fell to the Communists. The previous time in the 1827-34, both France and Greece had major revolutions that uprooted both governments. This time should be even more interesting because Neptune joins Uranus as well from 1998 - 2003.
The difference between the Sun = 1935 and the Son = 1965 = 30 = Camelot! Now, 19 + 65 = 84, The Lovers Exalted. Clearly, all of this is more than coincidence. 19 + 91 = 110, the Philosopher King. Assuming my life equally spans this year, my life duration would be 66 years 33 on each side -- interesting, yet somehow it feels right in my heart. This is 57 years + 9 overall = 24 + 9 + 9 + 24 years.
If you consider that I was born when I graduated from High School, my life is split evenly by the millenia and spans 48 years. 24 keeps popping up everywhere. Interesting, I just realized that 24 is the companion to 23 required to reach 47 = ASLAN. Minor manipulation, ASMAN = 48 = ASNAM = NAMAS. This is missing a TE = 25. NAMASTE = 48 + 25 = 73.
We could also have used ATLAN = 48. My ring has a Large "A" with 12 smaller diamonds and a quarter caret diamond at the top = 13. It also has 2 half caret rubies and 4 small emeralds. If "A" stands for Atlan not Aslan, we've just made the 47 => 48 transition. The 74 => 84 transition is from "wayne ellis hartman" to "wayne ellis hartman, jr".
ATLAN begs to be completed with a TIS = 20 9 19 = 48!
ATLANTIS = 96 = 1:12 (84) = 1:18 (78) = 88+8, the sum for the 888 triangle again.
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Looked at the radio clock. Of course, the time was exactly 5:28. It happens so often that I might as well paint it on. It's simply amazing. Yet, as always, it's confirmation that I am indeed faithfully following the path down which consciousness leads me. It's almost scary to think how much of this makes sense, yet how little people are aware of it. In fact, I cannot be sure that even one other soul is aware -- for such has not entered my experience. Not that I've given anyone much of a chance. The Hermit tends to shy away from all but the essential contact with this world. Seeing that the last two times when Uranus went through Aquarius brought major revolution and social change was very promising. Nearly twenty years ago, in my valedictorian address, I told the audience "The time has come for a revolution, an intellectual revolt against present ways of thinking and being." Clearly, I was a man ahead of my times. But, Aries is charged with the role "to lead", and being an 18:Aries, my role was to lead in the area of consciousness. Little did I know where this would take me. Though, not in my wildest imaginings could I have dreamt of where I've been and where I now am.
I'm sure there are many who would diagnose the writer of these words as EGO-MANIC, MANIC, or perhaps just plain crazy. Yet, I know that I am not any of the above. At times, I even question whether I am writer, though I know from observation that I hear a voice in my head that gets translated into the appropriate actions through my fingers to place these words on the screen in front of me. My sensation is that I am speaking the words, but I have no sense of where the words originate. In other words, for the most part these are not conscious musings. They come from a source that my conscious mind has no direct awareness of. Given that I've been writing these notes for over two years, the conscious mind has deduced that this other than conscious part not only exists, but can be quite productive and informative.
MANIC = 13/14/28/37/40 M => IVI and N => IV adds 27 + 17 = 44. Total = 84. Very interesting. I guess they got the diagnosis right after all.
IVIA IVIC, middle = IVIB = 42. Interesting that both halves started with IVI.
BIPOLAR = 2/11/27/42/54/55/73 = NAMASTE and SETON. Interesting as well. However, these each need 11 = Justice to reach 84.
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2024 = 8 x 253 = 2 x 2 x 2 x 11 x 23 = 88 x 23 = 22:88 (88)
THIS IS A MAJOR COMPLETION YEAR!
Prime rib dinner at Denny's. Food total came to $8.24, reversed = 4:28 = 7:56 again! Complete total was $8.88.
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1993, was clearly the transition from my 35 to my 36 year. I sense that 1994 was my 6:01 year. That's when the bulk of the writing started anyway. It was as if a switch was turned on and I transformed from an information absorber to an information generator. I've been in this mode for nearly two years now, and I suspect that I will be for the rest of my life. There is a deep sense of knowingness. It's as if I've tapped into a well that is inexhaustible and knows anything that I could ever need to know. I only have to resign my will, my conscious control to allow it to provide whatever might be needed. I sense that trust is the key. Without it, the mechanism for drawing knowledge from the well does not work. Interesting. I'm in the observer role more and more. Consciously, I'm in the process of constructing models that describe reality in a manner consistent with what I am experiencing. There is some inner need for me to do this. I am compelled. It is as if I truly have no choice, and I really believe that consciously indeed I have none. It's very interesting that this be so, especially given the creativity apparent in these writings. In fact, I'm sure many would consider them fiction, or would think that I, with an MSEE from Stanford must surely be writing in jest. Yet, I assure you such is not the case. What is written here is what consciousness has chosen to express through me, accompanied by my oft-time feeble attempts to consciously understand what spiritual symbols mean. The bottom line is that what is needed will be revealed in it's due time.
I still don't know for sure, that what is true for me is true for all others. However, I sense that this is indeed one of the areas where equality does apply. I know for certain it is not I who lives this life but spirit acting through me. I am part of a Higher Self, a Soul, but all Souls are part of the ONE Spirit, the ONE Consciousness. [Ln 7.56 Pos 5.17] Very interesting.
I'm finding things challenging consciously. I can't count on the same interpretation methods working very long. It's as if the spiritual world refuses to grow stale and predictable except in relatively general terms. Also, if the methods were fixed, one would not have to find superconsciousness to get the key -- and that's the purpose of it all. Know Thyself was written above the door to Plato's school. Nothing has truly changed since that time. It is not at all clear that the masses are any closer to understanding this than the contemporaries of Plato were.
Fixed methods would have been subject to discovery via scientific methods. The problem is that neither scientific nor religious methods have the whole answer. A blending of the two is required and this has not been easy to achieve. The spiritual world will not be revealed so easily. One must have the appropriate "eyes to see, and ears to hear".
Here I go talking as if I'm in the world and circumstances follow there cause/effect paths and we have a means of affecting conscious choice within this reality. I truly do not believe this to be the case though all experience may confirm it. We need to watch how we interpret confirmation in this reality. The blind men and the elephant story comes to mind. Each blind man accurately described what he experienced but only from a larger view could one see that they were all describing different views of the same thing. Also, along this line, whenever multiple people witness the same event, the accounts nearly always differ in very substantial ways. The lesson in this is to be careful of perceptions. Spirit is the true reality, all else is illusion. That doesn't mean that the illusion is not experienced as being real, however. Many things hurt on the physical, emotional, or mental level.
15 Jun 95
AURORA keeps coming up. A town in Colorado on the outskirts of Denver that I stayed in for a night in 1987 or 88, watching two simultaneous thunderstorms in different parts of town as if they were an orchestra. In the movie, "Improptu", George Sands (a female) falls heads over heels in love with Chopin. It turns out that her given name at birth was Aurora. And, now there is a new car from GM (74) advertised with a lengthy introduction of very intriguing music named, none other than, Aurora. 139691= 29. 13 96 91 = 200. 96 13 91 = 18 13 13. The Moon Exalted, Death, and Death Exalted. Quite interesting indeed.
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Back to AURORA = AU RO RA = RO: AURA = 33:41, an interesting combination. OK, now we're getting somewhere. AURORA = 74. AU = 22, RORA = 33+19 = 52. Let's play a little to get AU = 22. ROAR = 33+19 = 52. Now we have Gold Lion. Something on Paul Harvey's "The Rest of the Story" last week dealt with Dante Alliegierri[sp] and Pope Leo X. DA = 41. LEO X = 12 5 15 24 = 56. Even more important is the 5 15 in the middle surrounded by 1224, the sum for the 121212 triangle. 5 15 is on the top row of my reverse triangle reading, the reading with 56 as the driver! 12 is also in that reading in the second row from the bottom, right next to 64, the 88 complement of 24! How curious!
OK, now where does Gold Lion come in? Gold = 76 34 = 110 = 1:26 (84) = 1:32 (78). This was an important sum from yesterday. Also interesting is that this is Pg 56, when I'm uncovering things about my reverse triangle driven by 56.
Lion = 39 65 = 104 = 1:20 (84) = 1:26 (78). Total = 2:46 (84) = 2:58 (78) = Gold Lion
Gold(en) Lion adds 55 = 3:17 (84) = 3:35 (78) The Empress:The Star, and The Empress: Spiritual Inheritance. Now we're getting somewhere.
I think I was supposed to get Lion King out of this. 39 65 25 57. 104 + 82 = 186 = 2:18 (84) = 2:30 (78). Straight sum = 23 + 19 = 42. Appropriate.
GOLD = 7 15 12 4 = 38:VISION LION = 12 9 15 14 = 50:Happily Ever After [US Complete]
GOLD LION = 38 + 50 = 88. AURORA! => AU ROAR A = 89 = Justice Exalted, the center of my "X" reading. This also relates to LEO X. LEO's symbol is a Lion. So we have a direct from Aurora to the X reading. This tie includes Dante Allegierri (DA= 41) as well. The only thing we haven't yet tied in is the book that caused the havoc that allowed the Paul Harvey story to begin with. I believe it was The Inferno = 9 56 59 56 = 9 56 5 9 56. What a curious number this is. 5:The Hierophant with 9:56 on each side. Very curious. 9:56 => 4210. 54210 = 906 = 10:66 (84) = 11:48 (78). I sense that this is where I was meant to reach.
16 Jun 95
Saw 000 M, 111, 222, 222222, 333, 444, 666 twice, 777, 8888, and 999. That was in less than 30 minutes of driving and 30 minutes of walking the dogs. Only the bold 222222 was on a vehicle that I had seen before.
Looking out my window, there is a navy ship, right in the middle of my view. I've only seen one other navy ship in Monterey port. As I recall, that was about two years ago, a bit latter in the summer. At that time the number was a big 25. This time, I had to get my binoculars out to read a smaller white 972 on light grey.
972 = 6 years from 978 (2001) and 16 years from 988 (2011), worldly and spiritual completion of The Hermit. Interesting.
972 = 6:66 (151) 151 = 1:73 (78)
972 = 11:48 (84) = 12:36 (78) I believe this accurately portrays my current state. Projecting forward 2 years however, we reach 9 74 = 11:50 (84) = 12:38 (78). The Benefactor, 10 of Cups and Q of Cups = VISION, all at the same time with the Hermit, Justice, and The Hanged Man. Something tells me "we a'int seen nothing yet".
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I wonder whether others have such tightly interwoven symbolism in their immediate surroundings. Can the world be made such that it is all meaningful? Interesting line of questioning. I'm sure the answer will unfold in it's due time.
17 Jun 95
Rented movies 528 : "The Mission" and 755 : "The Star Chamber". Very interesting titles and how appropriate for these two extra special numbers. "The Mission" takes place in the 1750's and begins with a priest dictating a letter in 1758, exactly 200 years before my birth.
ESKALITH's prime component is Lithium (Li), element 3 with atomic weight = 7. The previous element is Helium (He) with atomic weight = 4. Li = 12 9. He = 8 5 = The Chariot Exalted. 129 = 1:51(78) = 1:45(84) = 1:41(88). Very interesting. Also, 12 9 = The Hanged Man : The Hermit. This captures much of how I've felt over the past two years.
Added a few notes to the numbers above. I'm still trying to unravel what it all means. Clearly there are many strands twisted together in the web and what one gets out depends on ones' point of view. Hmm. Quite interesting.
Li He = elements 3 2 with wts 7 4. 32 and 74 are very important numbers. Interesting.
I sense that I've captured a major discovery in the above, but that I don't yet consciously realize what it is. Not to worry, all will be revealed in good time. That it could come together in the way that it has already is amazing enough. This is the consciousness of 48 in action. Yes, that best describes my present state : The Man in Search of More. What the world offers is not enough. I came to manifest spirit more fully in flesh and to teach others how to do the same. These notes are the documentation of my wanderings during my search. I am as compelled to write as much as to search. It's as if the process of bringing the information through from consciousness onto the screen and printed page is my most effective means of searching. I sense that I've literally entered a "No Man's Land" and while many kindred spirits whom have come before formed the stepping stones from which I departed, I'm now following a path that comes solely from my heart and sole. Consciousness guides every step of my way, and I know that I am absolutely safe in her hands.
18 Jun 95
Another day of insights. Saw 000, 111, 222, 333, 4444, and 555 on various cars during the day. Drove to Big Sur. Followed an Antelope Bus for many miles. The phone number on the back of the bus caught my attention 1-800-266-8421. 2 followed by 66 followed by my the last four of my SSN double digit reversed, 21 84 => 84 21. I believe Antelope is the 37 animal card. Yes, just looked it up. Further, its' keyword is ACTION! Interesting. I had been sensing that it is time for something to happen soon, very soon indeed.
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47 also = Ag: Silver with wt 108 = 1:30(78) = 1:24(84) = 1:20(88) Camelot : Q of Wands : and Judgement. Total = 3:74, The Empress : The Benefactor!
Interesting that my mind would even think to add in this way. Adding numbers in different bases logically is like adding apples and oranges, but the spiritual world does not confine itself to logic. It's primary tenet is faith, as exhibited by trust in the beneficence of consciousness. It is the simple and innocent faith that we have as children that most of us lose in the course of "growing up" only to find again when we really "GROW UP" spiritually.
Know Thyself! It is as simple as that; but, also, as complex as that. Through thousands of years of our history people have been attempting this very thing. Only a few that we know of have truly become Self-Realized. The Buddha and The Christ, being the two prominent examples within the past 3000 years.
Buddha = 23 44 81 = 148 = 1:70(78) = 1:64(84) = 1:60(88)
Christ = 38 99 12 = 149 = 1:71(78) = 1:65(84) = 1:61(88)
Interesting how these two would come out one apart. Further, let's read the meaning in the components of the double sums:
Buddha = King of Wands who became Spiritual Seeker, then became 81, The Empress Exalted (the Enlightened One?)
Christ = Man of Vision who tried to Exalt the World but ended as The Hanged Man. Interesting!
BUDDHA = 2 21 4 4 8 1 = 40. So that's why 40 is so important!
CHRIST = 3 8 18 9 19 20 = 77. Interesting, I don't believe I've broken this out before.
528 = 6:66 (77) based on my calculation a day or two ago.
JESUS = 10 5 19 21 19 = 74. Combining the two, JESUS CHRIST = 74 77 = 151. This begs to be expressed as 5:11, The Hierophant : Justice. However, let us keep with our bases of interest. 151 is two steps forward from the double sum for Christ alone.
151 = 1:73(78) = 1:67(84) = 1:63(88) Requires spiritual sacrifice and recognizing light within.
SIDDHARTHA GAUTAMA = 19 9 4 4 8 1 18 20 8 1 7 1 21 20 1 13 1 = 92 64 = 156. Interesting, another 5 steps forward. This brings us to:
156 = 1:78(78) = 1:72(84) = 1:68(88) Enlightened in the world, but not completely in spirit.
Before I forget, the bill at Trader Joe's came to exactly $21.84, the last four of my SSN! 84 12 on the Antelope Bus, then this total. 84 12 = The Lovers Exalted : The Hanged Man. 12-48 has a sweep of 36, centered at 30:CAMELOT. Further, 8 41 2 begs to be read from the inside out as 4182 = Sum of the 414141 triangle. Also 41:82 = Ace of Cups : The Emperor Exalted.
It's interesting how all of this is coming together. As I said before, faith in consciousness is the key to enlightenment. Only through such faith is one given the ability to use the eyes that can see and the ears that can hear the truth of the spirit. At this very time, we are spiritual beings in the midst of a physical experience. Further, that experience while it feels very real is nothing more than an illusion, a play of light and mirrors designed to enhance the overall awareness of consciousness over whatever amount of time is needed. Realization cannot be forced. It must be gently nurtured over whatever time it takes. Since time is a byproduct of creating the illusion, it matters not to consciousness how long something takes. Pure consciousness is NO THING. It exists outside of space and time. It's thoughtforms are all that exist within the illusion. Don't underestimate this. Just look around you, the complexity of the fabric of existence is quite extensive. But, regardless of the appearance, the bottom line is that the illusion is created by consciousness and what we regard as our selves are but characters in a movie or play. The parts are fully defined by consciousness. The script is written and cannot be altered. However, for the most part, the actors are only give the part of the script required to play their role in the present moment. Most are taught, and feel that they have free will. However, there is no real proof of this, regardless of the appearances. For any decision point, there is always only one branch taken, and we can never be completely sure that consciousness did not make the ultimate choice even though our conscious mind may seem to think that it came to a logical conclusion.
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Tried to find when Neptune finishes it's pass through Pisces and enters Aries. It comes very close [29:54:xx Pisces] on 7/4/2024, then goes retrograde. I was surprised to find that Pluto has entered Aquarius [01:xx:xx] by that same time, though it too goes retrograde and probably heads back into Capricorn for awhile. I'll figure out specific dates later this week since I'm curious and Pluto in Aquarius may be an important time.
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On the way into work, I was thinking about the Maitreya Buddha, the 5th Buddha, who is said to be coming soon to save the world, though it is not clear that such saving is truly needed. We only need to be freed from the illusion, if only for a moment, to see that, as Emerson says "that spiritual is stronger than any material force, that thoughts rule the world."
MAITREYA = 40 1 9 20 18 5 25 1 = 119 + 40 [BUDDHA] = 159 = 2:03[78] = 1:75[84] = 1:71[88]. Very interesting numbers, though the step before would have been interesting as well. Siddhartha Gautama came to 156. In the periodic table 159 brings us to the weight of element 65 = Terbium. 20/25/43/45/54/75/88. Very interesting. 65 is also the complement of 23, The King of Wands = wayne.
The highlighted 119 begs to be reversed to show itself as 911, the number commonly used for HELP in Emergencies. It also partitions into 9 11 = The Hermit : Justice. Interesting.
Pg 74, The Benefactor shows itself here as well. I reached a point where I'm manic but extremely tired at the same time. I'm excited by what has come through this month, yet I'm a bit overwhelmed as well. My fingers keep recording the thoughts that come into my head, trusting that consciousness knows exactly what she is doing, and is revealing what needs to be revealed at the appropriate timing.
19 Jun 95
Just as I was leaving from having dinner I saw a Mercedes Benz with F666 = Quad 6 pull up to a spot within my vision. The next number that struck my attention was a large sign with address 575 = eye = VISION. 575 = 7:29(78) = 6:71(84) = 6:47(88) Very interesting numbers. The Chariot and Spiritual Uncertainty; The Lovers and Building the Cathedral; and The Lovers and The Seven Illusions. Even more interesting, look at the numbers in another three years:
578 = 7:32(78) = 6:74(84) = 6:50(88) Is the message that 575 is the current time. Further, I sense that I've reached 68 and 2184, the other two elements of my SSN as well. The fact that these pieces keep coming up is direct evidence that something is important here and now.
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Be NZ again. Let's unfold this from the outside in. Be nZ. Beryllium Zinc. Interesting. I don't believe these elements combine chemically, but I sense they do numerically.
Be = 4, wt = 9. Zn = 30, wt = 65.37
The Emperor, The Hermit Camelot, K of Pents . K of Cups
Sum of wts = 74.37 = The Benefactor : K of Cups.
Be nZ = 4 03 = 5:13(78) = 4:67(84) = 4:51(88)
benz = 25 58 = Manganese Cesium, weights = 55 + 140 = 195 = 2:39(78) = 2:27(84) = 2:19(88)
Be NZ. The image in my mind is for these two letters to be overlapped. The result is an X with a square box around it such that the endpoint of the X reach the vertices of the box. I don't know what to make of that yet, other than "The selected one". I don't know exactly where that came from, but it came through and as the Rubaiyat says what the moving hand hath once writ, nothing in the heavens can erase. At least, it says something to that effect. I've never said that my memory is any good. It seems to recall what is needed, however.
Be NZ = Be 1426.
1422 = 6:66 (226) 2:70 2:58 2:50 2584 INTERESTING!
1428 = 6:66 (227) 2:71 2:59 2:51 2590 141414 Triangle
226 = Atomic Wt of Radium = Element 88.
The following state = 6:66 (227) where 227 = Wt of Actinium = Element 89. The sense is that the time to ACT is coming very soon. 89 is Justice Exalted, the center of my X reading. It appears that we're on the verge of activating the 141414 Triangle.
It's interesting that the multiple of 6 prior to 1426 = 1422 = 6:66(226) and 226 is the atomic wt of Radium. 226 reversed = 6:22 = 7 = The Chariot. Radium's number is 88, Completion.
RADIUM = 18 1 4 9 21 13 = 18/19/23/32/53/66, the complement of 22.
Fermium, element 100, with wt = 252 is interesting as well.
252 = 3:18(78) = 2:84(84) = 3:00(84) = 2:76(88).
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Pluto enters Aquarius on 27 March 2023, A little over one year and one week before my 66 birthday. It stays there through 26 August 2024, a period of exactly 17 months.
Neptune finally leaves Pisces on 30 March 2025, though I didn't make sure it doesn't take another retrograde run that brings it back to Pisces for awhile.
Along this line, Neptune should have entered Pisces about 14 years earlier. It did. In particular on 4 April 2011, only 4 days before the second time that my birthday falls on Easter Day.
I noticed that Uranus was only a little over a degree into Aries at this time, so we might as well trace back to where it leaves Pisces to enter Aries. This transition occurred between 10 March 2011 and 11 March 2011. Since Uranus moves through one sign per 7 years, it should be easy to track down the Aquarius to Pisces transition as well. 9 March 2003 to 10 March 2003. Note that I had to go back 8 years rather than 7 to get to this transition.
Uranus entered Aquarius for awhile earlier this year. I believe it's back in Capricorn now. I'll do a quick check and see when it enters again for good. [that is until 9 Mar 03 anyway]. This occurs between 11 January 1996 and 12 January 1996.
Neptune follows Uranus into Aquarius in 1998. Since we're in calculation mode, we might as well figure out when. 28 January 1998 is the transition day. I also noticed that Jupiter is aligned with Mars to within 5 degrees on that particular day. Interesting.
Also went back to see that Uranus had an initial voyage into Aquarius from 4/1 through 6/8, a period of 30 + 31 + 8 = 69 days. Interesting that it would be exactly 69 = Ace of Pentacles, expressing the idea that true abundance comes from spirit. The permanent entrance comes 7 months and 3 days after the first sojourn. 30+31+31+30+31+30+31+3 = 217 = 2:61(79) = 2:49(84) = 2:41(88). My sense is that my calculations may be a day off. For some reason it seems that the sum should be:
218 = 2:62 (78) = 2:50 (84) = 2:42 (88) Interesting.
URaNUS = 92 88 9 92 16 = 297 = 3:63 (78) = 3:45 (84) = 3:33 (88)
20 Jun 95
Another day. Another chance for consciousness to express itself in the world. Interesting. I can feel that I am tired. Three weeks of mania is a major strain, yet I am so excited by the connections that are being made. It's as if it took 37 years to reach this point in my life where I'm in a position to allow consciousness to flow through me as she does. Yet, at the same time, I sense it was planned or destined all along. The main question is whether this is true for me alone or true for all beings on the planet. My immediate response is the latter, though there is some very strange stuff going on in many people's lives. Then again, I'm one to talk about life being strange! Clearly, I've lived on the border of sanity for nearly two years, and probably much longer than that. Interesting. Yet, deep within, I know that the reality I experience is closer to the truth than that of most people. Can I prove it? NO! There is, however, an inner knowingness that consciousness herself guides my path, and that within her embrace, I am perfectly safe. No one told me this. It is just something that I know in my heart.
21 Jun 95
So, where is all of this leading? Clearly, the triple and quadruple numbers have even greater meaning know than they did before. However, the further I get into this, the harder I find it to keep my conscious attention focused and my conscious memory apprised of what I am finding. It all goes back to trust. This is not a "conscious" production. It happens, and my conscious mind observes and participates, but by no account is my conscious mind the creator of these writings. It's tough enough just observing what comes through and determining what meaning to apply. Further, very often the material stretches even my beliefs about the nature of Self, Consciousness, Spiritual Reality, and Physical Reality; and my beliefs are far beyond what most people would consider to be sane. Even my wife questions my sanity with respect to all this numbers stuff. My sense is that I am seeing what I need to see, and for the present, it matters not whether anyone else sees the world as I do. The transformations will come soon enough, at which time my work will be seen to have led the way into the wilderness so to speak. Moses comes to mind. However, I don't foresee having to lead a people to the promised land as he did. Though, it may take some strong demonstrations to bring about massive revolution. Ben Hur comes to mind as well, being number 41 as well. Ah, it is the BH = 28 that strikes my attention. Interesting. 12 + 20 = 32, and 21 + 47 = 68 are quite meaningful as well.
The bottom line is faith in consciousness. All my life, everything that I have needed to know just came to me either from internal or external sources. I never had to search for it, nor even ask for it. Overall, the process has been pleasantly surprising leading me to great treasure stores of words that now form the foundation for my understanding of Whom That I Am and how the world works. Very interesting.
Intuition has become the key to allowing the expression of consciousness to blossom through me. These notes continue to be the primary outlet for that expression, though I sense that the time is coming soon when even this will no longer be enough. When that will be and what will be after that remain to be seen, but there is a destiny that I am marching to. And yes, my march is to the "beat of my own drummer" as Thoreau said. But, by such a beat, I am indeed compelled to march. Truly, I have no choice here. I must do what I must do. The Play is written, and I am compelled to act the part that I chose to play (and helped to create) prior to entering this particular existence. Can I prove this. NO. Yet, I know that it is true. There is no doubt about it. I know it in my heart, and my experience has been that I can trust my heart to be right.
Looking through the periodic chart again, the sense is that these elements can be used as symbolic building blocks, not just physical building blocks. Very interesting.
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GOD is not buildable from this set of blocks, neither Buddha nor Jesus. However, I've also seen Jesus written as IASUS, and we can use Maitreya for Buddha. Actually, we'll have to be creative and end Maitreya with an Au. Actually, something about that seems appropriate, since the Buddha is often Golden. Also, interesting is that the chinese restaurant in the Barnyard in Carmel is named Golden Buddha and has a large Golden Buddha inside.
IAsUS = 53 33 92 16 = 194 = 2:40(77) = 2:38(78) = 2:26(84) = 2:18(88) = 2:16(89)
Maitreya = 41 92 95 71 = Nb U Am Lu = 299
This is 13:13(22)! Ultimate Death.
Then again, this could be the ultimate spiritual birth as well. Note the key components.
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I'm still amazed that the periodic chart can tie so easily into the spiritual work that I am doing. By now, you might think that I would simply expect this to be the case. But, I still find it fascinating. I have no idea as to where it all will lead, but I know that it will lead to exactly where it must. Consciousness is in full control in my life. Perhaps this is true of everyone's life, the difference being simply that I am aware that it is so. Looking back, the idea that the periodic chart could contain a spiritual alphabet would probably be considered to be ludicrous by both the scientific and the religious communities. Clearly, I am walking the straight and narrow path, balancing and maintaining my bearing solely by the grace of consciousness. [Actually, perhaps the not-so-straight path.] Quite interesting when you look at it this way. The bottom line is that by the criteria of world, I have crossed the line of sanity. For the past 2 years, I have been of this state of mind. My own understanding is that this state was the result of a spiritual awakening. However, I have no inputs from people in the world that validate this interpretation. My writings make connections that most would consider to be absurd. Yet, consciousness expresses thusly through me, and I find the connections to be highly meaningful to my understanding of Self and of the Nature of Reality.
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I knew that VISION had to have an extremely powerful meaning. Otherwise, it simply could not be such an important part of my mission. OK, I understand how one might think that this statement is coming from Ego; yes, with a big E. However, my sense is that such is not the case. Ego lives for its own glorification. Anyone who has read these notes for any reasonable length of time knows that this is not what motivates me at all. Yes, the Leo rising likes the limelight on occasion, but my primary role is The Hermit, and my sense is that much of my work will always be done in private, just as these notes are done. Here, it is not my will but The Will of consciousness which shall be done. This doesn't mean that I don't have great abilities and talents. However, I have chosen to use them as consciousness directs, not as my personal conscious mind would have me do. This script is not being written in the present, however -- it is only being experienced. I do believe that I, at my Higher Self level, did indeed create the reality that I am now experiencing. The creation occurred outside of time in conjunction with all of consciousness. This part is true of each of us. Those who appear to be able to set goals and take actions to achieve those goals included that within their personal script. This does not mean that those methods work individually or overall. It only means that the script was set up that way. Cause-effect does not apply in the manner that either science or metaphysics suggests. Reality is a game, a consciousness expansion game, period. All that exists is consciousness. Experiencing reality is one of the means that consciousness uses to grow and expand its awareness. Know Thyself is even more important now than it was in Plato's time.
22 Jun 95
We've reached the page corresponding to Radium. Wt = 226, reversed = 622 = 7. That's why 88 is such an inportant base to me. It's amazing how all of these different symbol systems tie together in ways that are beyond what the symbols were supposedly designed and created for. Consciousness does not leave such things to chance. The web is intricately woven, and spirit is imbued in every part of it. We have only to open our eyes and see. Though this also requires removing our blindfolds and faulty beliefs in the process and opening ourselves to the new meaning that can come through. Interesting.
It's as if I've been introduced to a new language. It will be interesting to see what it allows me to say and to realize. My sense is that we are both limited and empowered by the symbol systems that we use. In most cases, symbol systems are not equivalent; so, perfect translations from one to another cannot be made. Further, each system facilitates dealing with particular kinds of information while dealing much less adequately, if at all, with other information.
So, what does my latest discovery offer? What new monitions of consciousness can I now hear that I could not hear before? The answer is: I don't know. I trust that much will be revealed in the days to come, but exactly what I know not. I've become used to having the "unknown" as a major player in my life. I trust consciousness. What I need to know, I will know exactly when it is needed. Beyond that, it doesn't matter. I learn new symbolic tools and languages to provide consciousness more flexibility in expressing through me. In addition, identifying and realizing something as a symbol system has great value on the path towards spiritual realization. These are not small discoveries by any means, but major breakthroughs that tear through the fabric of the web to allow a new reality to be created. For the most part, reality is the meaning we attach to the products/creations of consciousness as expressed via symbol systems. Interesting. This is why "reality" is illusion. Only consciousness is REAL. Everything else is the creation or manifestation of consciousness. Part of whom that I am is a limited version of the ONE consciousness, limited only in term of my awareness of my true nature. As consciousness, I AM whatever my level of realization of Self is. No more, and no less. Interesting. As I write this I am 37 years 2 months and 2 weeks old. This is but half of the number expressed in my name = 74: The Benefactor and the element Wolfram.
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OK, that says I need to keep with my own rules. Use as few elements as necessary to piece together the name or phrase, and don't worry about how much shifting, splitting, reversing or juggling is necessary. Where there is a choice between symbols with the same components, use the one with the correct ordering in terms of how the component parts will be used.
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What makes up AURORA?
Ar U O Ra
18 92 8 88
18/110/118/206 = 2:52(77) = 2:50(78) = 2:38(84) = 2:30(88) = 2:28(89)
JACKPOT !!!!!!! Major Shivers. Look at those numbers! This is why I am here! This is why the commercial on the radio strikes me in the way it does. The time for building foundation is soon to come. Camelot exists. It has for all time. It only needs to be brought down to earth. Further, we live in the time in which this is to happen. Whether this week, this year, this decade, or this century matters not.
Consciousness/spirit is in her native realm, soaring through me into the form of the notes. I bear witness to a process I do not understand yet have given many hours to over the past two years. I find it curious that this would be so. Further, I find it interesting that my path has not yet led to others with similar levels of awareness. Then, who am I to judge how The Play plays itself out. I do what I must do, trusting that others are doing the same and the consciousness is coordinating everything so that the overall Plan for the evolution of consciousness can be achieved. Interesting. All of my life, with the exception of golf, I have never set any goals nor desired any particular outcome. I've always trusted that spirit or consciousness would provide, and I've always known that I came for a particular spiritual task, and that my destiny would be made manifest at the appropriate time.
24 Jun 95
With the exception of 6/3 and 6/4, there have been notes written every day this month. The pace has been roughly 4 pages per day though another few days came in at less than one page. There is no sence that there is a quota of any type. However, it's as if there is something inside me that needs to burst out into these communications. I offer myself unto consciousness, and she passes through whatever I am able to bring forth into the world. This is a mutual endeavor, one that bring great joy and fulfillment to me. Yet, at the same time, there is an incredible loneliness that comes through all of this. Oh, consciousness is always there at my side, but that only addresses the spiritual half. I am spirit in flesh, amidst a sea of brethren spirits in flesh. At some level we are all ONE, but All One is quite close ti Alone. The difference being a single L, The Hanged Man of the Tarot. Very interesting.
25 Jun 95
Couldn't stop thinking about the Art of ALCHEMY, the transmutation of base metals into Gold, and the transmutation of self into SELF.
Lead => Gold = 3514 => 7634. Delta = 4120. The Ace of Cups : Judgement.
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That's how we bring The Empress into the world, we find the way to combine Reality with the Illusion, or to realize that they have been one and the same all along depending on which eyes we chose to look through and which ears we chose to hear with. As I was writing this, the familiar shiver down the spine came through again. We're touching upon some deep truths here, and as we do it's as if the very fabric of the veil of illusion is torn asunder. Interesting. Yet, I know this as surely as I know that I am consciousness expressed in flesh. How wonderful it is to come from this state of absolute knowingness. No, it does not belong to me, but whatever work was necessary to permit my access has apparently been accomplished. I don't control when this state will occur, but I trust that consciousness will put me in the required states and circumstances necessary to accomplish the purpose for which I and, it seems, many others came.
Make a "Heaven on Earth" is the way that the phrase goes. Such is the result of allowing spirit to more fully express in this world. The question is: how do we awaken a people who have been asleep for so long and who seem to (1) not know they are asleep, and (2) not desire to be awakened from their slumbers?
The key answer that comes is to show them what they are missing, to show them what life would be like with spirit as the master, vs the will of man. Something tells me this is not going to be an easy sell. Personal power is one of the buzzwords and hot topics of our times. Here, were saying that's all crap. Personal humility and becoming a servant of The Will of Consciousness [or God/Goddess/All That Is] is the new way of being that leads to great fulfillment and spiritual abundance. Yet, what a Giant step this is. Anthony Robbins book "Awaken The Giant Within" comes to mind. However, this too may serve it's purpose There are bound to be others like me, who say that's nice, but I have no goals that I want to achieve, I have no desire to make any changes that involve any of the tools that you describe so well. There is something missing. There is a spiritual component from which my souls purpose is derived. Nothing in your repertoire has shown me how to get in tough with that.
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97 = 1:20(77) = 1:19(78) = 1:13(84) = 1:09(88) = 1:08(89) = 1:06(91)
102 = 1:25(77) = 1:24(78) = 1:18(84) = 1:14(88) = 1:13(89) = 1:11(91)
Once again, a minor difference between 97 and 102 has such a great impact on the destiny that it bears witness to. Manifesting reality is a matter of finding which interpretations are real versus which are illusion. And here, we cannot rely on the conscious mind to be of much assistance. It's world is that of the illusion. Our inner core is where the truth lies. Since the dawn of time, there alone has it been hidden. People have searched the world over to find it not, for it was there within them all along and they simply could not see it. I am not the first to utter such truths, neither will I be the last. For the time is coming soon when a new dawn arises, and what was before will no longer be, and what remains will be glorious beyond imagination and all will know that spirit has returned into the world; they will feel it coursing through their veins in a manner that they have not experienced before. Many think that such change can only come in centuries, but I say that they will see what they have never seen and will come to know their connection to source, the ONE true consciousness.
S Cr I Be
"S Cr" I be. Interpreted another way, I am "19 38". I also think, I am "16 24" is equally valid. The Sun and VISION, I can easily understand. Similarly, The Tower and The Q of Wands" is not tough either. The K of Wands + Q of Wands = 23+24 = 47. Also, the complement to the Q of Wands is the 64 card, bowing my will to Thy Will.
I Be = 925, reversed = 529 = 8:55 = hew, my initials reversed. 925 = The Hermit:The First Knight as well; an interesting combination.
925 = 12:01(77) = 11:67(78) = 11:01(84) = 10:45(88) = 10:35(89) Expected more.
I Be also = 53 4 = The Hierophant:Spirit Flying
534 = 6:72(77) = 6:66(78) = 6:30(84) = 6:04(88) = 5:87(89) Quite interesting.
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Further, 8437 = 8421 + 16:The Tower. 8421 is the double digit reverse of the last four of my SSN [2184] that I saw on a truck during my drive to Big Sur two weeks ago. Here, the message seems to be that The Tower has struck once again. That would confirm the state of consciousness I've been experiencing this month and why these notes have been so prolific once again. It's interesting how consciousness works in this manner.
I find it extremely curious that consciousness could use something this week as part of a confirmation message that it only showed me a little over a week ago to begin with. Had 8421 not been on a truck that I was following and had consciousness not had me think in terms of double digit reverses (something I had not done before), the pieces would not have been in place to realize the above meaning for a license plate that I happened to notice this morning. It is extremely curious that consciousness can operate in this manner. No, there is nothing logical about it. However, more and more it doesn't matter that logic plays such a limited role in my life now. It is curious that logic's role is so limited, but not surprising. The bottom line is that intuition operates in the realm of direct knowing. Logic's utility as a tool decreases as one's ability to tap source increases. I make it seem as if logic, science, and technology are of minimal importance. Clearly this is not true in the world. Yet, to spirit such things are of little import. They busy the mind and the senses, diverting the self from it's sole task of discovering it SELF. Then, my purpose is not necessarily that of others. Further, the world is unlikely to end in my lifetime though I suspect it will change in major ways. In fact, part of why I am here is to assist in the transformation that is to be. Why? Simply because it is part of The Plan of consciousness.
How can I know this? I don't know, I just do. It's something that my heart knows to be right. It has nothing to do with the brain or with thinking or with logic, or with anything that anyone has ever taught or told me. It is something that I just know.
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As with other things, multiple interpretations are possible in many cases. All that I can do is trust consciousness to guide me to that which is appropriate for the time and the circumstances. You might sense that my faith in consciousness is convenient. Perhaps this is so. However, much of this is based on my personal experience with information being revealed through me which as far as I know is not being revealed in any other way. Further, this information comes through in such a manner that it is clear that I am an active and willing participant in the process but that in no way am I the source of the information that comes through.
The bottom line is that, even at 37, and with over 20 years of metaphysics in my background, I do not yet even know something as simple as the origin of my thoughts. Further, I'm not even sure that it is right to call them my thoughts. Consciousness pulls all the strings, and there is only One Consciousness. It exists beyond space and time creating its own form of worlds of space/time in which to gain experience of its own nature. These worlds of space/time operate as movies, complete at the time they are produced and then spun off to be experienced by audiences of less realized pieces of the one consciousness. The pieces can only exist because knowledge is partitioned and awareness occurs at various levels.
The consciousness that expressed through Emerson and Thoreau, is the same consciousness that expressed through Socrates and Plato, and is the same consciousness that expresses through me now. You may judge me to be highly ego-centric to put myself in such august company. Yet, I don't feel this to be the case. It is by awareness only that one reaches any position. Further, that awareness should be demonstrated in both deeds and words. Thus far, I have come to an understanding that deeds are predetermined at the time we experience them though it does not appear that this is the case as they happen. The key analogy that I like to use is that of movies. As we watch the movie, it appears that the actors make choices and decisions. However, the movie is complete from end to end, before we ever see it. It has been directed, produced, and edited to result in the form that we experience. Similarly, our Higher selves outside of time along with consciousness serve as the producers and creators of our lives, designing it all prior to our entering physical experience. Once we enter, we can only do what has been planned, as it has been planned. In the process, our key task is to develop our awareness and come to know our true self. Know Thyself is as true today as it was in the time of Plato. A scary thought, but it doesn't seem that the mass consciousness has come very far in over two millenium. Then again, there is a sense of readiness for major change, that some sort of a critical mass has been reached. Yes indeed, a New Age is about to Dawn.
Again, you could ask how I can know this. The answer that cries out from my soul is that had this not been the case, I, personally, would not have come to show the New Way. Powerful words, corresponding to a very weighty mission. Yet, had I not come for such a mission, I would neither have the abilities that I do nor would I be experiencing the reality that I am. I hadn't thought about it in these specific terms before, but my sense is that we are only given gifts or talents if there is some task for which we will be called upon to use them. Further, my sense is that further physical incarnation was a specific choice for me at the Self level, that I was not required to make for educational needs as is true for most incarnations. I specifically came because I wanted to play a role in ushering in The Aquarian Age, and I sense a major role at that. Interesting, the time is 11:11. That's a sign that I'm on the right track. For me, it corresponds to a completion time. This year, in particular, it also corresponds to 11/11, the third time I have a direct Pluto square natal Pluto experience this year. There is also an association with a group that talks in terms of building a body of consciousness [a group consciousness] that is capable of propelling itself out to "boldly go where no consciousness has gone before". This is a variation of theme from Star Trek. Yet, it is one that attracts my own consciousness as a magnet to iron. I know that part of my mission lies in that direction. However, there is a more immediate part that I sense to be synchronized with Uranus trek through Aquarius. This part somehow involves revolution on a massive scale, though I sense that much of it will occur peacefully, as a revolution based upon ideas whose time has come.
28 Jun 95
Kim called and left a message. I found it extremely curious that her work number ends in 414141, The Ace of Cups Triangle [41 also = Wayne]. She sounded in good spirits for a change. The sense I got from the number was that things will be great for her their despite the initial hassles and difficulties caused by her boss. Interesting. These triangles are coming up a lot. This particular one, however, has extremely special meaning. Of all the cards in the deck, this one best expresses the abundance available from spirit.
For nearly the first time this month, my mind is a blank slate. There is nothing I desire to know, and nothing appearing on its own. It's as if we've reached an equilibrium of sorts. I'm sure it won't last for long, but it comes with a sense of absolute peace, and with a knowingness that consciousness at any time can reach through to me and provide me with whatever I need to know. This is not something I control. It is an automatic process now. Interesting. I don't thing this was fully true before. My own "abilities" would get in the way -- my own beliefs about what I knew and more importantly what "I controlled". The sense is that now I know I control nothing other than my awareneness and attention, and with attention the control is only partial since much is determined by the task at hand.
30 Jun 95
I have a sense that I've just entered another level in the spirit game, and just as with video games, the rules have changed. What used to work, no longer has any power. The only way forward is complete surrender to the will of consciousness. There are many things that I might like to know that are not necessary for my development or for carrying out my mission. There is no time for delay any longer. Many of the symbols and interpretations have been trinkles to my conscious mind to convince it that this spirit stuff was all right and could be trusted. The time for such is over. The spiritual path is firmly established. I am aware that everything real and imaginary is but the play of consciousness. Further, regardless of how deeply connected we feel to the events that occur in our lives, we are in an elaborate theater observing a movie, and it's only from that observer perspective that we can ever hope to find freedom in this life. The title of Paul Twitchell's biography sums it up best, "In My Soul, I Am Free". And, perhaps, it is only in soul or consiousness where this is true.
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Total = $99 = The World Exalted. If this was a parting means for providing information in this manner, consciousness sure came through with a grand finale. Obviously, there is meaning that I haven't yet begun to express. At the same time, it is no longer clear that it must be expressed. What I need to get I will get. The bottom line is that consciousness is an infinite resource. I don't need to resort to external symbols to get spiritual information. It is there within me anytime it is needed. It is only my views and beliefs about reality that got in the way or this conscious expression. It's like learning to ride a bike. First one uses training wheels, but after awhile this is no longer necessary. My sojourn for the past two years has been like that. Feeling my spiritual wings so to speak with a safety net. But, now, my sense is that I have learned to fly. The Chrysalis has emerged from the cocoon to truly find it was a butterfly. And now I ride the winds of consciousness, going wheresoever she takes me and carrying out my mission to the degree that I am able.
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I'm trying to think back to what I was like at various points in my life, and wondering how receptive I would have been to these ideas that flow forth now. I fear, the bottom line is that I would not have been receptive for I had neither the eyes to see nor ears to hear. The scary part is that compared to much of the planet, I have been extremely open to metaphysical ideas for much of my life. Yet, what I am into now is Beyond what Mind is typically trained to deal with. I speak of consciousness divorced from brain, and mind, and thinking whatsoever. This consciousness preceeds existence and causes though to be. It is so great as to create worlds in which exercise it's own creativity that it can come to know ever more of itself. The world in which we presently exist is one such world. But, there is only one consciousness. And, all that consciousness creates is of its one nature. The perception of many, the experience of duality, while it feels real, can be no more than an illusion. Here, logic prevails. One does not create something out of nothingness, that is unless you want to call consciousness herself, "nothingness" and here we may indeed be starting to address sacred ground.