1 Dec 93
The observer within me is active nearly all of the time watching what I think, what I feel, and what I conclude about everything. This I is the ego. The observer or watcher is something beyond the I. It feeds me information and moves me towards where I need to go in accord with some higher purpose or plan which I, the ego, have not yet earned the privilege to be aware of. Along with privileges come responsibilities -- with sacred privileges, sacred responsibilities. These rights must be earned through spiritual awareness and growth. The ego is that part of me that is responsible for behavior in the moment within the physical dimensions. It can take information from any channels to which it has access, and it can act upon this information it whatever manner it chooses. It's primary task however is the formation of a belief system from which to interpret reality and on which to choose its actions.
We are whole entities that exist primarily HERE and NOW, outside of TIME and SPACE. From this whole we split into our creator and actor selves. The creator part stays outside of TIME and SPACE except for a small piece within the actor, an inner voice and watcher of the mind. The Actor self lives in the PLAY, moved to act in accord with the action and events of the play. The actor has two jobs, one is to play out the selected role in accord with the script, the other is do become self-aware and then Self-aware. The creator part has two roles as well, one is to monitor the actor's awareness and needs, the other is to weave and co-create the events of the script together in a manner that brings to the actor whatever is required to meet the actor's needs. The goal is to get all actors to a point where much larger parts of their whole self can be expressed in flesh.
3 Dec 93
I foresee that I chose or earned a major role in the coming transition to the Aquarian Age. Let the Plan unfold. I will gladly play my part to the best of my abilities, with all my Heart and Soul. Please show me what it is that I am to do, and it shall be done -- for I know the Plan to be of the Light, and I AM THAT I AM, an illumined one who came to be a Worker of the Light that the Plan could be brought to fruition on Earth. There is much to do, and little time in which to get it done. The challenges are great, but the rewards are even greater. Allow me to be the vehicle for Light that I came to be.
6 Dec 93
Such is all that can be expected from alchemical training. One asks to experience soul in flesh to a greater degree. This is the highest thing any teaching can provide. It is not sufficient to be a Master of this World -- that requires no spirituality. One must be a true master expressing spirit in flesh to the greatest degree possible at this time on this planet.
15 Dec 93
OK, so you wanted another level. We are that part of your consciousness responsible for maintaining you identity as a unified being. It's been an interesting several months. You've given us a whole lot to deal with that was beyond the limits that we previously knew. You forced us to stretch, just to keep up with the new experiences and realizations that you were undergoing from an Ego standpoint. We welcomed this opportunity, for it allowed us to once again get involved in doing the tasks for which we were defined. Overall, it appears that you have come through everything well. A few uncertainties here and there, but nothing to be concerned about. Congratulations on your awakening. We believe you'll find that staying awake is easier than getting awake to begin with, though there are many forces that pull one toward sleep. Thank you for allowing us to come through, and for reaching a level of awareness that really turned us of in full. We can handle change at whatever speed you take us.
17 Dec 93
My sense is that I'm breaking into new ground from a physical realization standpoint. Many beings have created important pieces that allow me to reach the states I am getting to. It's the cooperative help and push from consciousness that is guiding the way and leading me to the new peaks of awareness. I'm deeply grateful for all who have played their parts so well that I could be given this opportunity. Yet I know that I am to be a step for others as well. What a wonderful journey we are creating and experiencing. I look forward to our joint activity that we may create the way to propel consciousness into entire new realms where the collective consciousness that we are has never gone before. Such is the next step on the grand scale. Just look at the play it required to get us to this stage in the game of Life. No, the game of consciousness.
22 Dec 93
I'm here to make the information something more than ideas in people's heads -- something that is real, physically. The ideas I bring forth are the spiritual blueprints, but these are no good unless they are conveyed in a manner that the sponsors/ financiers/ investors can believe in, and that the architects can turn into physical blueprints that foremen can understand and convey to workers. There is a hierarchy here, where all are engaging different abilities at different levels of understanding. However, all are required to get the job done. Take out any level, and the project fails. I believe it is my task help put together the right people at the top so that jointly we can make the Vision a reality and get consciousness firmly entrenched in Flesh so that the Aquarian Age can begin. I specifically used "the Vision", because there are several who see it. I'm only allowed to catch a glimpse and bring back as much of it as I can.
27 Dec 93
You are learning to focus your awareness. You can focus it on problems, or you can focus it on your true work. We're showing you first hand the results of applying yourself to the task that you came to do. The reward is abundance, on all levels. However, it is not given freely, but must be earned via level of awareness. Be patient, you'll see the changes unfold in the coming months. No, not everything will be easy -- but, any challenges you encounter will be there because you needed them at some level for your own growth. Trust that all will work out for the best of all concerned. After all, it always does. The universe would not have it anyother way. You are not expected to do everything, only that for which your unique talents and abilities make you best suited. You have a mission, a role that is yours to perform. All that you are has been designed with this end in mind.
Do what you love to do! That is the directive of your spirit. No arguments, no hesitations. You already know what that is. So, what is stopping you now? Why do you choose to be less than you know you can be. Free yourself of the limitations and chains that you have around you. All of these are self-imposed, and require your will to give them their power over you. Be done with them, so that you can be free to engage your energies as you see fit. This level of control will not be exerted for you. It is up to you to drop your illusions and see the reality that is truly there. Be done with the darkness and see the light. Awaken from your sleep and rise anew and see the dawning of a glorious new day, as it marks the arrival of a new age, the Age of Aquarius.
29 Dec 93
It's strange being an actor in a play. The sensation is that I am making decisions and taking actions to achieve particular ends -- yet, at the same time, I cannot know what the results of any of these actions might be. I watch what action is taken, then watch some more to see what happens as if the results are caused by my actions. Such is how it appears within the Play. Yet, I know the Play is ultimately designed to convey spiritual truths, and that part of this is conveyed by demonstrating individual responsibility in a cause/ effect manner. This is a game we are playing, hiding from ourselves the fact that we create the events in the game even as we experience them. That is, we create the very reality to which we react. It's all a play of consciousness teaching itself to be more aware of itself. One again, know thyself is the only purpose for the play -- showing consciousness what it truly is.