1 Aug 94
We're in the process of building a body for the greater expression of the US as a true spiritually based society. The directions for what is required for this organization will come directly from spirit to the specific individuals involved. Some will be asked to lead. Others will see that they have no choice but to follow. It does not matter. What must be, will be. Consciousness will do what it takes to ensure that the Plan is executed on earth. We are very close to a very special event for Consciousness on this planet -- an event so important that visitors from other Galaxies and Universes have come to observe what we are to experience. Such is the importance of the changing of this particular age. Why? Because there is an accompanying Self-Realization of Consciousness that happens on a grand scale. The Earth is ready to burst and become a Sun, such will be it's level of spiritual brilliance. As a planet with its blue-green and white colors, it was a rare jewel, appropriate for the grand experiment that was being played out. The experiment rapidly draws to a close, and it is time for a bold new adventure of consciousness to begin. Are we as a species ready for it? Maybe. Maybe not. But, we will be when the time comes. We still have much to learn about our position in the larger scheme of things. The rules change a bit, but, much is the same. We still have the task of knowing ourselves. That never goes away. Yes, we will be freer. However, there still will be restrictions -- some of our world, but most of our own making.
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I sense that I need to be there and build my school. When I've done so, others will come. Just like in the movie, "If you build it, they will come." Deep within me, I have that same voice. They will come because it pulls their hearts and calls to their souls. They will come because there is no other place on the planet that they would rather be. And they will stay because they will have found home in a way that they have never known before. And, before long the City of Light will be born. Airplanes will see strange lights as they pass by. Visitors will come and will be transformed, renewed in spirit. Yeah, verily, these things I see and more.
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Beyond Imagination is to include a school. You already know that. This is indeed part of the Plan. It is through the people attracted to that school that much of your work will be done. And, you will be surprised by some of the people that come. No, not at first. But, once you are established, word of your work will be carried by word of mouth to people of influence and power. You will indeed rub elbows with some of the movers and shakers of your day, and through these contacts you will be able to get your ideas out to the world at large. Because of the rapport you establish, your ideas will carry great weight, yet the ideas will stand on their own merit and this will be why they are implemented. In that time, we see you smiling, knowing that what you did made a difference in your world -- allowing the Age of Aquarius to see the light of day, greeting a people fully prepared for its arrival.
2 Aug 94
As a society, we need to make sure that the right people are being applied to each task. And, in particular, to the greatest and most important of tasks. For, these must be done right or all of society suffers. Other tasks have more leeway, allowing errors to be tolerated, but the critical tasks must be done right from a spiritual standpoint.
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Hard to believe as it is, your path has deep purpose, but it is a purpose that is primarily meaningful to your consciousness. Some of you have accepted greater roles, however, along with their attendant responsibilities. You may be feeling the burden of those responsibilities now, without necessarily enjoying the position that goes with them. Consciousness has this habit of testing us to make sure we are ready for each new step along the way. Where we are not, consciousness arranges for the appropriate education or enlightenment.
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Yes, writing is definitely it for you. Words sing when they come through your mind. There is a natural grace and beauty in such pure expression. You take great pleasure in the process, not attached to the particular words that come out, but hooked on the joy of creative expression. Yes, this is how your spirit expresses itself in it's most intimate way. It is required to be such for you to be the wayshower. For it is your job to show the way for consciousness to become greater than itself. Only words can truly convey what must be conveyed. In the beginning was the Word. How appropriate that consciousness would have to return to its beginnings to find its source. However, it is not that easy. There is not some simple step that results in ONE. Consciousness has taken a long time to weave itself into this web of Light and Dark. It will not find it simple to extricate itself from the illusion. But, then again, that could depend on you, wayshower. The better you do your job, the easier it will be for all consciousness. However, it is not for you to carry others to the light. They must have the initiative to lift themselves up. Given this, they will receive any help they may need.
3 Aug 94
Spiritual law says our birthright is abundance, whatever that may be for us. Further, this is an abundance on all levels: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. So, how do we claim this abundance? The first step is to realize how abundant our lives are already. See the countless blessings that have already been bestowed upon you, and be grateful. Once you have truly experienced the fullness, you will have made room for more to enter your life. Be thankful for that which you already have, and unto you more shall be given. For, the supply is bountiful, indeed without end. It is only your capacity to receive which prevents you from having more. Interesting. So, how do we increase our capacity to receive? By knowing whom that you are, and knowing what you truly deserve. For, you will receive as you believe you are worthy. Argue for limitation to your worth and that will be reflected in your life. And, if I assess my worth to be unlimited, to truly have no price? Then, you shall be a king in this world, and your supply shall be without limit, coming from spirit itself. Can this truly be so easy? Again the question comes up: Am I mad? Is this all a delusion? Can it be this way? What must I do to make it so? Every fiber within me says no. I am sane, as sane as any man alive. Yet, I can imagine an outside observer peering into the workings of my mind as revealed in these notes and coming up with a different conclusion. My sense is that I am walking the fine line between genius and madness. That, to some degree, I've been walking this line most of my life. Yes, I know. Grandiosity again, but what do you expect from someone like me? These notes give you a chance to walk in my shoes for awhile, or better yet, in my brain. It's probably tough walking however, without the frame of reference that I was able to develop over 20 years. I can only hope that enough of a framework is conveyed in these words to give them life and meaning. For, my hope is that I serve as a lit candle, or as a torch, lighting the candles of spirit in others.
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This is why I can be so self-confident, some might say pompous or self-centered. From my point of view, I have abilities and talents that set me apart from others -- specifically so that I can carry out a particular spiritual mission. This does not make me better than anyone. We are all consciousness, and consciousness is all equal. Further, individual consciousnesses merge into the ONE Consciousness. However, our conscious minds operate at very different levels of awareness depending on how much we have come to "know ourself". It is this distinction that makes us suited for different tasks. It also gives us different abilities and talents. Everyone has a role to play, and has been given exactly what was needed to be able to play that role well. Whether they perform well is another matter.
5 Aug 94
We are spirit enfleshed every moment of every day. Then, how does a killer or rapist do their deeds? Is this truly spirit in expression? In truth, it must be, for there is simply nothing else that exists. Nothing. Even what you might call the devil is spirit expressed, not necessarily in physical form, though its expression may indeed impact the actions of those who are in physical form. Contemplate this for awhile. Find a way to integrate the fact that all experience comes from spirit, and then have compassion for all the participants, the perpetrators and the victims. All are playing out their assigned roles just as surely as you are. Further, all are choosing their experiences. Not at a conscious level, but at a spiritual level that knows what is best for them. It is not for you to judge what is right or wrong from this. What you should be seeing is the deficiencies in society that allow or force such expressions to happen. Responsibility operates at many intertwining levels. It is not the individual alone that is responsible as we seem to believe in this country. That may have worked 200 years ago, but even then, I suspect there was a great deal of cooperation among neighbors.
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Take one day at a time. Make each choice when it needs to be made. Don't fret or worry about where it is all leading. Moreover, don't try to force it where you might have it go. No matter how informed you are, there is no way for you to predict or prepare for the changes that lie ahead. They will occur in such a nature and on such a scale that your systems will not be able to cope with them consciously. You're going to have to rely on your own inner sources, in particular the spirit from which you spring that expresses itself physically through you. There is no question about it. This is your rock and your strength, and it knows exactly what guidance you need to take you to the conditions and position that is right for you. It, in turn, gets its direction from the Collective Consciousness which reveals to it your part in the Plan. Words are tricky here. We're into an area where various levels of awareness and information hiding are occurring. I haven't yet mapped these out, nor has consciousness attempted to express them through this channel yet. There is a "need to know" principle in operation. Consciousness only reveals to us what we need to know. Further, even if the words are presented to us, our own consciousness won't let us understand their meaning unless we have a personal need to know.
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We have to find effective ways for spirit to more fully express itself in flesh not just on an individual level, but on group and organizational levels as well. This is what the Aquarian Age is all about. But, we have to go from a ME focus to a WE focus. It's interesting, ME and WE are mirror reflections of one another. I never realized this before. This makes the process easier. It's not completely foreign, it's just a matter of turning it around. In this case, upside down. All it takes is a different point of view.
8 Aug 94
We all experience exactly what we need to experience. Why? Because we are spirit enfleshed and we take care of ourselves. What we have yet to learn is how better to take care of ourselves in the collective whole. It is here where each of us has a responsibility that has never been recognized before. As individuals, we have always been taught that we have a responsibility for ourselves and our families. For the most part it stops here. We never take the next jump and say that collectively we are a community and within that community we have these rights and responsibilities. We haven't done what it takes to empower a community to truly chart its own destiny in a manner that benefits all. This is the dream of Beyond Imagination. This is what makes my heart sing out and my brain tingle from ear to ear. To create a true society, united in light, peace, and brotherhood, as has never been seen on this planet before -- at least not in any history that we are aware of.
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So, why am I so special that I am privy to speaking with consciousness herself? I can only answer that it is because I have taken the time to find the channel within me through which she can speak, and further took the time to listen to what she had to say. I am not special in this regard. There is such a channel within each of us, but it is only by our own efforts that we find it, and then we must listen to it or our efforts to find it will have been for not. Even when we do find it, what comes through will be different for each being depending on what that being needs to know. Compare not your voice within to another. Trust your own, and it will guide you to wherever you need to go and whatever you need to do.
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There is something about making the material physical, putting it in writing that makes all the difference. As thoughts, the words are but flights of the imagination. But when we put them down on paper, or any other medium of expression, we go beyond imagination and make them real. This is reality creation in progress. This is how we change our world, one step at a time, one idea at a time. We only have to bring forth those ideas whose time has come. These will transform the nation and the world in a manner and at a speed that is beyond what anyone has ever dreamed.
9 Aug 94
What I do have is a desire to change things here. In particular, to complete the pyramid that our founding fathers began nearly 220 years ago. Is it really that important? Yes! One might say it is the most important thing in the world at this time. Are others working on this as well? I believe so because of the apparent size of the task, but I do not have firsthand knowledge, so I cannot say for sure. Obviously, many were involved in the founding. My sense is that many will be involved in the completion as well. The founding fathers were some of the greatest men of their day. It is not clear how such would be chosen today. Also, the country at that time consisted of thirteen relatively small states/commonwealths. The population was probably far less than a million, less than half a percent of what it is today. Our current infrastructure doesn't allow us to empower a dozen or two dozen of our best and brightest citizens to refound our country and provide the shining example that it is our destiny to provide to the world.
You say, "we're already doing this, democracy is that shining example". But, is it? We may be free, but we're afraid to go out at night because of the high rates of crime. We have more people per capita in prison than any other nation in the world. Are these the fruits of freedom? Yes, overall we've done well, and for many years we did provide such an example though it never contained the spiritual light needed to make it truly shine. But, for at least 20 years now, in some areas longer, we've been a society in decay in many ways and our problems have grown from small nuisances that we could ignore to cancers that threaten to consume us if we don't find ways to treat and cure them. Education and health care are two areas where fundamental problems are eating us alive. Attention is starting to be applied, but the timeframe is way out of scale. They want solutions to start taking effect around the turn of the century or later. In today's world, we can't take 6 years to address a problem. The patient is hemorrhaging, we either do something now or we let the patient die.
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Writing is an interesting process. It is as if the state of the mind is frozen in the words that are recorded on the paper. Many times I've been through these notes, attempting to create a picture of what it is that could have produced such thoughts, attempting to fathom the very nature of consciousness herself. Each time, I get a little closer. Each time, there are new realizations and discoveries. The explorer inside me goes wild with each new understanding. Yes, I must write. For this is the critical step that allows any of this to occur. If the thoughts just passed fleetingly through my mind, the effect would not be the same. The words capture landscapes within a territory. But without an overall map that provides a context, all we have is pretty snapshots. Wayne is still in the process of formulating the map. When this is done, the notes will have served their purpose and we can move on to other projects. This is but a phase in interpreting and understanding the landscape of the spiritual world.
10 Aug 94
Our nature is spirit, regardless of the limitations of form that we have chosen to wrap ourselves within for whatever periods or time. We are spirit first, then we are in the midst of having a physical experience. Some would have us believe that this spirit stuff is a bunch of crap, that what you see is what you are, that the illusion is the only reality. But, this is pure bunk, regardless of how many people believe it. This is not a matter of consensus. This is not something we can vote on. It is or it is not, pure and simple. Our wanting it to be one way or another only has impact on the illusion, not on the reality. But, how do we know what is reality from what is illusion? Here's where we have to develop a personal relationship with that part of us that is spirit. This is our personal tie to all of consciousness. And, consciousness is the only true reality. What consciousness does and immerses itself within is illusion. It does this to create, learn, and gain experience. All consciousness is engaged in the same basic activity, to come to know itself. And, this makes for a grand adventure, for each step along the way consciousness at all levels finds out that it was more than it could possibly have imagined. Yes, beyond imagination is truly appropriate for describing this process. Yes, indeed.
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Light seeks creative expression in many ways. Spiritual transformation is the process of turning oneself inside out so that spirit may do its work in the world through the flesh. When we live primarily from the conscious mind, we live outside out. We take inputs into the senses and believe that what we perceive of the illusion is real. Don't get me wrong, the conscious mind is a useful tool and ally, but it is not sufficiently aware to be a useful master for the being. For that we need to turn to other parts more intimately connected with expressing spirit in flesh. The superconscious is in the best position to serve as master, but it refuses to force itself on the other parts of self. It works solely via cooperation, gently nudging other parts of self by providing them what they need, and guiding them as to what they need to do. Ever increasing awareness is the point behind everything. Consciousness becoming more and more aware of itself.
11 Aug 94
I wonder just how people would react to my views. Would they call me a communist and let that prevent them from hearing what I have to say? My sense is that this wound runs so deep in our country, from the McCarthy hearings in the 50s, that I would be hard pressed to find anyone in power that would consider communist in even a neutral light. Yet, it all seems so stupid. Why should negative associations prevent the light of truth to shine? We are meant to be a community, not a collection of individuals, and what makes a community out of individuals is one simple principle "from each in accord with their abilities, to each in accord with their needs". Why is this so hard to get across to people? The bottom line is do we trust US to meet the needs of each one of us? Yes, it requires a leap of trust. Also, it requires a collective responsibility to meet the needs of each individual. In the United States, we don't have this. From a spiritual standpoint, this is a definite lack that prevents our expression as a spiritual nation in the world. You say, so what? Unless we can correct this deficiency, we can't fulfill our spiritual destiny and be the shining example for the world that we are meant to be. Actually, this is not a possibility. The Aquarian Age will indeed arrive, and this is a prerequisite event for its arrival. Somehow, the United States will get it's act together and start playing the starring role in the transition of one age to another. It will be interesting to see how the details play themselves out, especially in the critical next few years. But, let's take it one step at a time. It's going to take the people some time to be amenable to being communists. It's hard to imagine anything but a massive disaster forcing such a change. But then, spirit works in mysterious ways, perhaps this hasn't been explained in a way that truly made sense in the west. After all, since the 40s, no one in this country has looked on communist principles as having any validity or applicability to the United States. Prior to that, issues concerning the rights of workers muddied the picture as well. From a spiritual point of view, none of that matters. What does matter is how we get spirit to express more fully in flesh in everyone. The primary way we do this is by meeting the needs of each individual, and finding a way for each individual to use their talents and abilities for the benefits of society. It's that simple. One statement is sufficient to express the contract between individuals and a true society.
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I have the sense that these notes are capturing in writing a process that has never been captured in this way before. Consciousness is recording snapshots of itself, attempting to provide a more complete picture of what it is than it has been able to bring forth before. The scientific method will not work. This is not something one can be objective about. Life is a subjective experience, and consciousness is the engine that animates all life, all reality for that matter.
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I AM what I AM. I am what I think. Interesting. These notes capture much of the later, but it is not clear that they can ever capture the former. My beingness as consciousness goes beyond what I think. Yet, the only things that I can express in words are the thoughts that come into my brain. Interesting. However, there is hope. Thoughts are the observable behavior of consciousness. In engineering, we've found that you can many times tell a lot about the nature of a machine by observing it's outputs. Further, the thoughts themselves are describing or at least attempting to describe consciousness itself. Further still, all is consciousness, so thoughts are just a limited form thereof. Humans as well are consciousness in form.
12 Aug 94
Yet, it all comes back to ONE consciousness being behind it all. This is what we must realize, not that I am the same as you, but that the consciousness in me, the spirit in me, is the same as the consciousness, the spirit in you. We are still individuals in the outer world, but we are one in the inner. Too many of us have forgotten this, if indeed we ever knew it at all. We saw ourselves as the individual fingers of the two hands treating our fellow fingers on the same hand as brethren, but on the opposite hand as foreigners not knowing that the hand they were part of was an extension of the same body. Interesting analogy. In the outer world, we interact as independent fingers or individuals, but beneath the surface there is only one body. One consciousness expressed through individuals, how does this revelation change the way we view the major events in the history of mankind? More importantly, how does this change the way we look at our selves, our thoughts, and our relationships with others? When an individual has a realization, consciousness has that same realization. When a new thought comes through an individual, it is consciousness that has created it. So, where does the distinction between the individual and consciousness happen? And, why does it need to be? Consciousness created the world including all of it's lifeforms for the expression of spirit and to provide the conditions that would allow it to learn of its own nature and grow. As it's parts, we are all endowed with the same characteristics. Yet there never was any separation possible. There wasn't any stuff from which to make anything separate. Regardless of how solid the form may feel, we must be still part of that very one consciousness from which we spring. Nothing else makes sense. It's all an elaborate play, an imagining beyond compare in which consciousness has set up partitions within itself to isolate its parts and via observation and experiment learn of its own nature. Virtual reality shows us that we can do something similar. It allows us to create worlds and experiences that appear very real. It's interesting that this technology would arrive at this time, for consciousness is ready to tell us it's all been a game, and enlist us to cooperatively embark on a new adventure. Our consciousness is learning to become a God of some type. Just as we have roles and responsibilities so too does this one consciousness. As above, so below. It applies here as it does in many other places. To be a God one must have learned to create in one's own image. To move up the hierarchy, one must train one's replacement. It is not clear how high the hierarchy goes. We're generally never aware of more than one level up or down from where we are.
In real terms, how does this change our day to day reality? For me, it makes a big difference. I know now that all of this comes from consciousness, every bit of it. It doesn't come from some separate entity that you might think me to be as an individual. All along, my impression that it just comes through, that I have no sense of generating it in any way, has been right. Consciousness exists independent of our bodies, yet it can use our bodies as vehicles through which to act and to communicate. Further, this consciousness is the same one consciousness for all of us. The consciousness that spoke through Emerson, Thoreau, and Whitman is the very same consciousness that speaks through me. I chose those particular individuals because the Transcendentalists have always deeply touched my soul. I knew myself to be among their kin in spirit. There was simply no doubt about it. Yet, this consciousness also expressed itself through Hitler and Stalin and everyone else who has ever lived.
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What does the one consciousness realization do to the concepts expressed about community? It means that each member springs from the same source, and this is true not only for the country but for the entire world as well. However, the fact that we are connected by one consciousness doesn't mean that our needs in this world go away. Getting people to move from an outward focus to an inner one is not something that is going to happen overnight. Sorry, the outer world is simply too attractive for that to happen. Those who do have the inner connection will find a renewed strength however, for they will know that regardless of their circumstances they have the full force of consciousness behind them. Even though they never meet a kindred spirit face to face, they will know that they are there, as close as there own heart, for the life force that animates any of us animates all of us. We are all ONE. I've been talking about finding my spiritual family as if I need to find other fingers to interact with to do my work. Now, I sense that such came out of a loneliness of not knowing the true nature of consciousness. The works of religious science make more sense now as well. Holmes also talks of there being One Mind, One Consciousness, and we are that.
13 Aug 94
My sense is that I don't have to bring through what others have done, and definitely not in the same way. While repetition works in building a skill, it is not an efficient way to bring the message of spirit through. The number of people conveying the same message has no bearing on its validity. I would prefer the role of explorer and wayshower, venturing forth into the wilderness of spirit and coming back with whatever I can to show others. For me, this venturing is an inward voyage. To some degree, I have been on this voyage most of my life. However, by far, the past year has been the most intense. Yet, with a few minor exceptions, I have thoroughly enjoyed every bit of it. I would not roll back the clock and go back to my life and my awareness as it was. Now, I know from experience things that I only thought that I knew then. And, I'm here to tell you that experience makes all the difference, especially when it comes to spiritual reality. I believe that the expression of this material in this way, and what it shows about the nature of individual consciousness and the one consciousness is unique. Whether it's worth reading hundreds of pages to gain this experience is another matter. As the wayshower, I have bared my soul in the most intimate way that I could to help bring forth spiritual truths about the nature of consciousness. Or have I? For the most part, it is consciousness that brings the material through. I've been through a series of awakenings that I believe were required to open me for this material to be manifested. However, thus far, I'm not really on the line for anything. Yes, I've revealed things about my state of mind that most people keep private. But, I don't feel threatened by this in any way. Ok, you could say I have bared some part of my soul after all, but I do it lovingly, as an example of the level of interaction I would like to see in society. Further, thus far, it has only gone so far as words on paper. Until they are read, there is no risk involved anyway -- and by that time, who knows where my awareness will be?
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My mind keeps wandering back to this reality of ONE consciousness. That is how the cooperation can be so incredible. There is only one entity doing it all. And yet the work has been partitioned within that entity, and laws have been set up to automate portions of the workings of various things. It's much easier to create the basic principles and laws for a world than to create all the detailed behavior first. The forms that consciousness creates are thought forms. Worlds are thought forms. Universes are thought forms. Beings are thought forms. Consciousness creates thought forms, period. That's just what it does. To endow these forms with life, to make them real, consciousness allocates part of itself to these thought forms.
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One consciousness. All one consciousness. Every thought, every idea comes from that same one source. When I see an idea come to me from the outside, through reading it or hearing it, what I'm really experiencing is consciousness sending something out and having it be returned to itself. What allows me to understand anything is consciousness' assessment that I am ready to do so. For, what is understanding? It is giving the conscious whatever is needed to "stand under" the given idea. If the path is open from the conscious to consciousness, this is easy. If not, consciousness may be able to arrange for appropriate experiences to support understanding, assuming that the individual is indeed ready to understand.
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I know not what audience this is being written for. Regardless, it will probably only reach folks who have some connection already established to consciousness. So, seeing these words should allow you to open yourself to more of the one that we are. I am only expressing what you too are capable of expressing except in this case, I have already done it, so you are free to express that which only you are capable of. I ask that you, too, do it with gusto, with everything you have, no, with everything you are, no holds barred. Let this be your example, but find your own way to fully express whom that you are, the one consciousness as it expresses itself through you.
14 Aug 94
The bottom line is that all expression comes from the one consciousness. All expression comes through us, not from us. This applies not only to these notes but to everything that is manifest. There is only ONE consciousness, and it expresses through all of us. Cooperation is easy because it's between the parts of one whole, not between distinct individuals, no matter how distinctly individual that they see themselves to be. It matters not what we appear to be, but what we are. Oh yes, the illusion has an attraction that makes it appear very real indeed. But the appearance is not the reality regardless of how firmly we believe in it. Deep stuff, but extremely important. This also means that I don't have to worry about forcing things to happen. Anyone I am supposed to work with will be drawn to me, or I'll be guided to them when the time is right for us to interact or work together. The same one consciousness guides us both, so we will be moved toward one another. Reality creation works from the inside out. Our level of awareness puts us in a position to be of service. Consciousness then moves us into the situations and circumstances that allow our services to be provided. Interesting. In my concept for society, I want us to take responsibility for doing this ourselves. The bottom line is that this would offload other parts of consciousness from having to take care of these things. Interesting. Maybe there is a possibility that consciousness could split itself and grow the split part into an independent entity. It doesn't seem the right time to deal with this yet. It has to do with the test of Godhood being to create like unto oneself. Consciousness by its very nature creates. But, this is the ultimate test. For, it says to create on the order of yourself.
This concept, no truth, that there is only ONE consciousness keeps filling my mind. One consciousness expressed through all the universe, the earth, nature, animals, and nearly 5 billion humans. Yes, religions have taught for centuries that God created and was omnipresent through all this. Yet, there was an impersonal sense in all of that. Here we're talking about the essence that sends forth these words through this channel, the consciousness that each of us are directly connected to. This isn't some abstract thing. It's here, as close as my fingers moving over a keyboard to bring forth the letters, words, and ideas that are expressed herein. I have no idea how it expresses in your life, but it must. Consciousness always finds a way to express no matter how clogged the channel. My vehicle is writing, but any form of creative expression might be chosen and this might even be applied to areas of life that could be considered mundane. It doesn't matter. Whatever you do, do it with a little more zest and creativity, and allow the inner you to express itself in whatever way seems appropriate or is available. Consciousness herself is not restricting its own expression. In fact, it's doing all that it can to help you. However, it cannot just blast it's way through. That would only burn you out. No, consciousness can guide and gently push at times, but it's up to you to do the self discovery work necessary to allow you to express spirit more fully.
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You don't have to solve it all. You are one person. Only work the part that truly excites you, for that is where your spiritual tasks are. That is also where your abilities and talents have their greatest impact, resulting in the greatest success in your mission. You need to be careful not to take on the work of others. This applies not only to you but to many others who serve the one consciousness as well. Wherever possible, train others and delegate so that you can go on to do even greater tasks in line with your purpose. This is standard operating procedure for those on the path. Find ways to free your time to devote to your higher tasking from consciousness. Your efforts will indeed be rewarded. However, consciousness looks for initiative to be demonstrated on the part of the individual. You do this by choosing where you apply your focus.
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The name of the game is the expression of consciousness, as fully and as clearly as possible in flesh. It has to be through the creations, or it doesn't count. The actual creation is consciousness expressed in flesh. This is what consciousness is creating. We are at the pinnacle of that activity. However, it works two ways. Consciousness has fashioned the clay and breathed life into it. Now, that life needs to stretch back to it's source to allow even more to come through. To do this, it has to realize that there is a source to begin with, that there is a connection to this source, and that there is great benefit to developing this connection and trusting what comes through it. Much of this is against everything that one is taught intellectually in the world today. However, that doesn't matter. What matters is truth, and the truth is that we are consciousness expressing in form, and further that one consciousness expresses through all of us.
15 Aug 94
As always, our advice is simple, do what you are moved to do, when you are moved to do it. At times you will be heavily moved, so much so that it will seem that all of your time is occupied in the endeavors that consciousness would have you involved in. At other times, it will be as if you are on your own, with not even the slightest whisper guiding you. It matters not. Go with the flow. The more you resist, the harder it will be. The more you try, the less you will achieve. When you are with the flow, all heaven comes down to assist you.
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It is in the spiritual arena where consciousness finds its forte. It is in that arena that the work of consciousness is done. The others are the backwater so to speak. It is the spiritual arena where consciousness wages its battle against the shadows of darkness that so prevail in the world at this time. Its only weapon is to shine its Light wherever it can, that the shadows can be seen to be what they are, mere shadows.
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You are consciousness first. Consciousness by its very nature exists. It is the I AM. There is nothing that it can do or that can be done to it that would make it cease to be. Descartes was wrong so many years ago, "Cogito ergo Sum" should have been "Sum ergo Cogito". I AM, therefore I think. For thinking is the major activity that consciousness is engaged in. And the thoughts that consciousness forms have the power to create worlds upon worlds upon worlds, like this very one where we presently find ourselves.
16 Aug 94
We speak through you, yet you know not truly who you are. We are connected to you in the most intimate ways. Without us you could not exist. Without our thoughts you would neither experience nor exist as individual beings. We would tell you that things are not as they seem. Trust not what your eyes and other senses tell you. They reflect to you whatever you would have them reflect, for it is your own thoughts and beliefs that come back to you. We urge you to see this, to know this, and to become detached from the illusion for awhile and find your way to the truth that calls from the center of your being. It has always been there, waiting for you to seek and find it. It had no way to call out to you, except for a small still voice inside. This was the test that one had to pass to find the key to the kingdom. What you see in the world is restriction in action. The true kingdom lies within. That's where the mansions are, mansion's far more stately and elegant than anything conceived on earth. Yet, there is no reason such could not be brought to earth as well. After all, the point for these times is to allow spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh, within the illusion. Why? For the sheer joy of expression, that's why. There need be no other reason.
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Those two areas, questioning and beliefs are the primary interface of spirit to body/mind/ emotions. They are the key mechanism through which reality creation (illusion creation) occurs and through which any spiritual awakening happens. The tools serve both functions, the difference being solely in how they are used, which is primarily for the conscious mind and ego to choose. There is another weaker force at play, a drive to know and experience one's source as spirit. For those reading this, there is nothing weak about this inward drive to know, it is a major force or aspect of your life already.
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The correction for illusion is never more illusion. One doesn't remove chains only to apply more. One removes chains to achieve freedom. And, once one gains freedom, one reverts to chains no more. Wherever there are chains, find a way to understand them for the illusion that they are, and then refuse to allow the illusion into your life anymore. Choose to see from a vantage point where the illusion no longer exists. This doesn't yet sound completely practical. It's all illusion and we're stuck within it. While we're in the game, don't we have to abide by the rules? The bottom line is no you don't. The game has hard rules and soft rules. It's up to you to find out which one's are soft and in what ways you are allowed to break them. However, if you never question any of the rules of the game, you just won't know. In the world, you'll find that for nearly every action, there is a common way to do it, and an uncommon way to do it. The common way is the slow track. The uncommon, the fast track. For you definitely, and for others reading this, we suggest that you find and follow the fast track. Whenever you do, spirit will always be riding along side you. And remember, beliefs and questions can be of great help along the way. Use them! And, do so regularly.
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Are others involved in expressing consciousness or whom that they are in this manner? This is less likely. Some people are workaholics doing things that they are good at. But, most people do not step back as the observer and document the process that their greater consciousness is going through. For one thing, unless one has gone beyond conscious mind and ego, these components aren't there in a manner that can be expressed. So, what are you saying? How rare is this activity that I'm engaged in? How many people in this country are having and documenting these kinds of experiences, awarenesses, and communications from consciousness? My sense is that I am not alone, but we are few in number. Further, no one else is doing it in the same manner. Is that my ego talking? Or, is this truly a unique creation? You will not find any others who have captured notes in this manner. You are the only one with the necessary framework and abilities to allow this to come through like this. Ok, but is it any good? How close is it to the communication spirit intended? That matters not. It was the best that could get through at this time and that is sufficient. Consciousness never asks for more than one's best, though she effectively utilizes every resource she is given. She is given resources by their choice to offer their services. You've made your choice clear in this area many times, and we commend you for it, not just for making it, but for backing it up with action. As the Wayshower, this is extremely important. It is not necessarily what you say that will be convincing to others, it is how you use what you say for the benefit of humanity. You must demonstrate how spiritual principles are to be applied in practical ways in the "real" world.
17 Aug 94
Back again. Consciousness refreshed and ready to express. Yet, what is there to say that has not already been said? That's clearly your conscious talking. Consciousness herself has no such limitation. What she has to say could not be completed in an eternity of your time, yet from another standpoint it can be expressed in but a moment. To your conscious mind that may not make any sense, but there is a part of you that understands it completely. No, this channel is not a hose through which consciousness passes the water of her thought. You are much more intimately connected in the thought transference process. You can only receive what you are ready to receive. Further, what you receive is a projection of what was sent onto your consciousness, a mapping of an energy pattern into something that could be contained within your brain. This is a complex process, but it is also simple in many ways. A similar process takes place whenever you perceive your world.
18 Aug 94
I saw a copy today of Science magazine, I believe, from mid 1992. On the cover were the ten greatest unanswered questions in science. One of these was: what is consciousness? I found it interesting that here I am working on one of the greatest questions / puzzles in the universe, clearly some of the most important work that could be done by man, and I don't even get paid for it.
21Aug 94
Many people appear to have minor problems with their nervous systems and coordination. One can see them in the way they walk. They aren't really disruptive in any way, but they point to slight imperfections in the body/brain mechanisms. I hadn't really noticed this before. It seems that we all have these various things that we have to somehow deal with. In my case, being bipolar is such an imperfection. It causes my emotions to rollercoaster from extreme highs of mania to extreme lows of depression. Interesting that I use that wording "It causes". The bottom line is that it does not cause a damn thing. Consciousness and beliefs cause, not conditions. First the thought, then the reality or more correctly illusion. The emotions in turn impact the way the brain functions.
22 Aug 94
One of the things that keeps life exciting is the unknown. This is especially true for explorers, and explorers of consciousness are no different than other explorers in the history of our country. The risks and dangers are different, but they are there nonetheless.
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These notes stand by themselves as a testament to the nature of consciousness as it comes to a better understanding of itself and the nature of the reality in which it appears to exist. I try not to take anything for granted anymore. Where possible, for truths involving the nature of consciousness and the nature of reality, I want to know these via firsthand experience. One cannot be a wayshower just by repeating what others have said. One must make the voyage and see for oneself, then return to tell about it. This past year has been a major voyage for me, and I have spent a goodly amount of time documenting what I found and what that meant. The voyage continues, however. My sense is that it will continue so long as I remain in this existence. I am on the path which spirit would have me tread now. Spirit herself will guide me throughout the remainder of my days. There is a great happiness in knowing this. It doesn't make the future any less uncertain. But, it does guarantee that there is a loving presence guiding me in all that I do. This presence is consciousness herself, and since this one consciousness animates everything, all interactions with other beings are orchestrated in whatever manner is appropriate for the parties involved.
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Interesting. Everything now has two sides, an outer side which cannot be easily explained except as a battle of dark and light forces, and an inner side where the one consciousness pulls all the strings ensuring that things happen in accord with the Plan. Somehow these two perspectives are but two sides of the same coin. There must be a vantage point from which to see things in this light, and to know that even the battle of dark and light has its place in the perfection of being as consciousness is expressed through form.
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One month prior to your 35th birthday, these writings started -- you allowed spirit to flow forth. And here we are a year and five months later, having gone through a series of experiences, spiritual and otherwise, that have forever changed our knowledge of self, of our world, of reality, and of consciousness herself. Why do I refer to consciousness as herself? Perhaps because she is as a Goddess to me. The gentleness, the love, the empathy that flow are the epitome of feminine qualities. Further, there is a passionate quality about her that is unmistakable. She guides all with enthusiasm as well as a bravery as she takes us into the unknown. Also, her endeavor is to create in her own image, and it is the feminine that gives birth in such fashion.
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One area that neither the religions nor anyone in power is likely to buy is the need to base the community on the essential tenet of communism "from each according to their ability, to each according to their need". Yet, this is the one thing that best expresses how society must function in the Aquarian Age. Many things are up for negotiation. But, on this one, there can be no negotiation. On this tenet rests the creation of societies unlike any that have been seen on this planet. In addition, any societies that we send into space will need the same basic tenet at their foundation. Without it, all our efforts our doomed to fail. We'll only be treating the symptoms while the patient continues to die of cancer. We have to establish a solid core, a foundation on which a society worthy of the name can be built.
23 Aug 94
The I AM is consciousness itself. I KNOW is consciousness expressing itself in thought and reflecting back on the nature of itself via its direct experience, not of the illusion, but of the reality. I THINK is relegated to the conscious mind, though, given appropriate awareness, the thoughts that come forth do themselves create "reality" in the world of illusion. I FEEL is relegated to the heart, where it provides the emotive force needed to intensify thoughts into being. It also gives us the energies of love, sympathy, and compassion that are instrumental in expressing spirit in flesh. I SENSE is the key to everything, most importantly to finding one's way back to the I AM.
These words weave their way through into this reality to express themes that are ancient yet new. Throughout all time consciousness has been spreading her song. In different ways, in different places, but always consciousness has been there to sing and breathe life into all of creation. Consciousness' song was The Word. We and all that exists in our world, and perhaps many other worlds as well, are The Word made flesh. Such is the power of consciousness, that one thought spoken could be sufficient to create all that we know to be and more. As individuated consciousness, our minds reel at such concepts. They are magical and non-scientific. Yet, everyday we are confronted by life and the fact we are alive, and by consciousness and the fact that we are conscious. These too are magical, for science isn't even close to defining what truly constitutes either. Further, were our research to expand and continue for hundreds of years, it is not clear that we would get any closer to defining these elusive characteristics of being.
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Just as in the movies, there are a few major parts, some lessor roles, and potentially many extras and bit parts. At one level, it would seem unjust that some people get major roles while others get almost nothing. However, we must remember that the one consciousness individuated plays all roles simultaneously. Each individuated consciousness has the same two tasks: one, to play it's role to the best of it's ability and two, to come to know itself. Most people err in spending too much time on task one and not enough on task two. Know thyself. It's as simple as that. For over two thousand years, this directive to the conscious mind to find it's source has been there guiding mankind. Yet, how few took the time to do this to virtually any degree. Know thyself. Know thyself. Know thyself. We repeated it three time in hopes that you take us seriously. It is that important.
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I expect that at some point it will feel as if another is looking through these eyes, experiencing through this mind/body, this very conscious seat of awareness. But, I don't know exactly when that time will come. Thus far my experiences have included major spiritual awakenings, but the sense of otherness was not a major part of the transformation. For this experience, I'm specifically looking for what is in essence an entity in its own right to combine with, or possible replace me. I don't know how such events occur. In particular, this deals with the nature of individuated consciousness. What part is in flesh verses what part is outside of flesh but still tied to the overall theme that the individual is playing out? It's as if we have single individuated consciousness and group individuated consciousness. Ah, the single individuated consciousness springs out of the group individuated consciousness which springs out of the ONE consciousness. When I sense my connection to source, it is generally to the group individuated consciousness and occasionally to the one consciousness. The group individuated consciousness is where purpose resides. This purpose in turn can be passed down to individual incarnations or can be spread among the members of an entire spiritual family.
26 Aug 94
The consciousness that has cared for you and guided you all of your life is still there for year. She will not desert you now that you are close to being able to do her work at a greatly accelerated pace/level. You are now an instrument through which spirit can do her work in the world. In this particular case, work that transforms first your country, then the world. We're not expecting much from you, now are we. But remember, it is through you that these great works will be done, not by you. There is a big difference. However, if you were not aware enough to know this difference, you would not be qualified to serve as the vehicle through which this work is done. This writing is this way as well. It could not come through in this manner unless you were of a proper state of awareness to be able to tune to this communication. Your direct experience in this process is that these words are not yours, they do not originate in you, yet they show up in your head and you are able to put them to paper. You are instrumental in the process, but as a partner in league with consciousness herself.
29 Aug 94
I have a higher destiny to fulfill, and I will do what is necessary to fulfill it. "Argue for your limitations, and sure enough they're yours" from Richard Bach is the negative phrasing for a spiritual truth. "Be whom that you are, and providence will guide your hand in fulfilling your destiny." And, when providence guideth, there is never a lack of required abilities.
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How is it that I am different from other men? What distinguishes me? The way I think and the manner in which spirit expresses through me because of my level of consciousness. These are what distinguish me. The lump of clay, the bag of bones, the blood and sinew, all these are much the same. Yeah verily, it is the consciousness and the spirit that expresses through it wherein any major differences are found. And here is where the mystery comes to play. For, this is what animates us and gives us the very life that we find so dear. I am the Fool, the Bag of Wind, stepping down to Earth to manifest. My play is the play of all life. I come to create community -- common unity, that all within the kingdoms may receive what they need in exchange for the services which they have been blessed with the abilities to provide. Do I speak in riddles? If so, it is not to confuse you but to enlighten you a bit.
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On with the dance of life. On with what destiny would unfold before us. And make haste, for the times of change are coming soon, yes, they are nigh upon us. Further, you do have a part to play in all of this. We know of your desire to know about the specifics. However, we can only reveal to you that which you are ready to know in any given moment. Lately, you have started to look for the holes in the illusion. You have no recall of ever seeing the illusion let down it's guard or facade, but you intuitively know that it must. Also, you've found that the world goes away when you close your eyes and still your body. It becomes as if you don't exist in the world at all, and your thoughts and visions take on a heightened intensity. You are getting close to the secret. The key is finding the way to experience yourself as pure consciousness, even for a moment. Over the past year you've had some of these moments. Find a way to re-experience them here and now. Know that all time and space are but illusion, projections of consciousness. There is no time that was 1000 years ago or 200 or even 2. All time is always now. Nothing exists but this infinite moment, and within that moment all creativity unfolds. Similarly, all space is always here. Nothing exists but this single infinite point in which all creativity unfolds. Find a way to step outside of your limited concepts of time and space into here and now. Allow the moment to fully encompass you. BE HERE NOW. You've heard that one before. To be is to experience yourself as the consciousness that you truly are. HERE NOW restricts this expression to whatever place you find yourself now.
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What is important in life is consciousness. The self is consciousness, but there is a greater Self which in turn is tied to the ONE consciousness. The ultimate goal is to realize one's unity with the ONE consciousness while maintaining a thin wall of separation that permits individualization. As with the body, we need the cells functioning as one, but we don't want one blob of a cell. To get the behavior of the organization or entity, consciousness expresses through the structures and abilities that the parts permit. Everywhere, we see consciousness expressing. In the moon and the stars, in the rocks and the trees, in the clouds and the rains, and in every living thing. Consciousness animates it all. Tis consciousness that allows it to be. There is nothing save consciousness. Nothing! Thoughts are the creations of consciousness. All of the world and everything on it came from thought. They are thought expressed, thought congealed into form. Yet, they are still thought, no matter how solid they may appear. Don't be deceived by the appearance. The maya, the illusion have their purpose, but they are not real. They are not consciousness itself, only the play of consciousness. We live in a world constructed of thought, not of earth, stone, water, wind and a variety of physical and natural laws. The world is thought and thought alone. It's only in our minds that we interpret it as we do. It's no wonder that our minds are the last frontier. They are the place from which the thoughts of individuated consciousness spring, and these thoughts in turn come from the one united source consciousness herself.
30 Aug 94
I look to the world expecting that at any moment it will drop its veils and the illusion will vanish. Yet, I suspect that it is me that has these veils, not the world itself. It is up to me to find the place in consciousness where the illusion no longer exists. That there is such a place, I have no doubt. That I can reach it, there is no doubt as well. The only question is when. And the answer to when is always either "when the time is right" or "now". Why is it that I am so consumed by the need to experience this true reality? Be in this world, but not of this world. What we are dealing with here is specifically how to "be not of this world". The importance comes from the need to express the fiery energy of spirit. If we are too much "in this world", we close down the channels through which spirit can flow. Indeed, the very nature of these channels for consciousness are "not of this world". Interesting. This is a very important key. It is to consciousness and its channels for expression that we must look to find the true reality. It is here alone where illusion might not exist. We say might not, because even consciousness can be enmeshed and caught up in the world of illusion to various degrees. Obviously the conscious mind is so enmeshed. Consciousness itself, however, has an easier time not getting trapped and locked into its creations. It's important to realize that consciousness plays the reality/ illusion game for a purpose. Benefit is occurring at every level of organization all the time. The only question is a matter of how much and how fast. But time too is an illusion.
31 Aug 94
My purpose is not simply to entertain, but to be the wayshower who provides the example of how to live in a manner that allows spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh. Hopefully, my notes have captured sufficient detail to allow others to follow my lead. No, this is not at a level that is suited to the masses. However, that is not the first wave of people through which spirit well come forth more fully. At this point in time, all that I can do is stretch my own consciousness one step at a time and report on my experiences. With each realization and awakening, I'll report on what it means and how it impacts the big picture nature of consciousness and nature of reality. Where all this is headed, I do not know. There are no maps. Consciousness guides my way, but my sense is that I am being fed what I need to know when I need to know it. Why it must work this way, I'm not quite sure. But, I trust that consciousness knows what she is doing, and that overall, this is in the best interest of executing the Plan. The transition from the Piscean Age to the Aquarian Age is a momentous occasion, far beyond what any of us have yet dreamed.