1 Nov 93
I really do feel that I have experienced states of mind that are much different than most others have experienced. At the same time, I know that I came to be a wayshower; so, I needed these experiences so that I could show others the way. Somebody has to blaze the trail and lead the way. My energies, talents, and abilities were specially chosen to allow me to do this. Further, I have a great deal of experience operating alone -- without others to either confirm or explain my experience. I have never truly had a personal teacher
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We are here to make spirit incarnate, to bring it fully into flesh -- for such is what the Aquarian Age is all about. It cannot be made so except by this means. Spirit must be enfleshed as fully as possible at this time on the planet. All the bodies must be grounded for this transition to occur. However, once it is accomplished, the way is paved for all. Consciousness will ensure that the appropriate replication takes place. However, it must happen once for the pattern to be established. What a wonderful adventure! Many have created the pieces, but it is up to one to put the pieces together in the right manner for enlightenment to be understood physically. Actually, this is not quite correct. Several have started to put sections of the puzzle together and have started to look for other sections that they know extend from their own. This too is not enough. We never build the whole, until there is one with the proper VISION of what that whole is to be. Once the Vision is there, the framework is established for relating the parts. But the whole is more than the sum of the parts.
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You were not born to material riches, only to spiritual ones. If you use them for the good of all, then all that you ever desire will be yours for the asking. But, be wary, focus on the spiritual task first. You will have plenty of time for enjoyment as you traverse the path. However, the world is in need of the services that you have come into this incarnation to provide. You already know that your purpose is to bring forth the VISION that will allow the Aquarian Age to be manifested in flesh. You have a part to play in this birth -- though, you chose not to enjoy much of the fruits of your labors. For, you wanted to be the Way Shower. You wanted to be first, to blaze the path; and you wanted to do it in your own unique way. So be it, you have passed the tests -- go forth and do what you came to do. Write what must be expressed through you -- for this message can only come in this manner through your consciousness. The universe doesn't waste effort, it only does things as many times as necessary for the function to be accomplished. Each person has a unique role to play. All are necessary. Most of the special roles were selected by old souls who had achieved the highest levels of abilities and of wisdom. You are one of these. You've known that for a long time. The toughest roles are given to such beings for they are the only ones that could handle the challenges.
8 Nov 93
This still doesn't change the urge that keeps driving me to BE HERE NOW, beyond mind, beyond imagination, beyond everything. It is in that unlimited point that magic happens -- for out of it, all that we manifest in our reality of time and space pours forth in tune with our beliefs, desires, and fears.
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What about money and finances. Don't worry. You will be taken care of. You will have what you need, as you always have. Do what you know to be right, and all else will be taken care of. The Plan is unfolding in its right timing. You cannot make things happen before that appointed timing. Trust your part in the plan, and allow what you sow to be brought back unto you in the proper manner at the appointed season. And, you are right in your sensing that we will not allow you to make any mistakes. You couldn't, even if you wanted to. But, you already know that in your Heart.
11 Nov 93
It is up to you to define what YOU will do. It is helpful if this comes from your SELF -- for, then it is in full accord with the PLAN. But, even then, much is left to you. It is best if you use your ego to observe, it is the "eye" or "I" of your psyche. Put your needs into your conscious mind, then trust that other agents within you are charged with making them so. Focus your activities on what you can do and what your inner guidance directs. These channels are opened well enough that you can trust them. Do each day that which seems right to you. Worry not about the future. It will take care of itself. Your task is to BE HERE NOW. Allow your entire beingness to flow out of each moment and fill space and time with what is to be. You create in the moment. The point of power is the present. Use your eyes, all of them, to sense what actions are working. Don't force the timing of things. And don't impose your will except when you know it to be in accord with the PLAN. You will KNOW, for you will be so moved to act that it will seem as if there is no choice. There is always choice, but it is you who have chosen to go beyond ego and mind to do that which is necessary for Spirit to be more fully expressed in Flesh at this time.
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When you work in accord with the PLAN, the reward is abundance. You get what you need. Consciousness operates from needs, not wants. WANTS are part of a belief system that says "I do not trust that God, the universe, or All That Is will provide for me". In truth, we always get exactly what we need -- ALWAYS. The lesson is to forego attachment to things, and to money. Focus on living, NOW, and doing that which needs to be done. Further, trust that consciousness will provide for its children. Focus on doing that which spirit moves you to do. As you do so, you will be cared for. WHO YOU ARE counts for a lot, but WHAT YOU DO makes all the difference.
12 Nov 93
Reality creation is one of the most important subjects in metaphysics -- yet I am highly motivated to become a Master at it. We're all masters. I want to make the process conscious, however.
Focus on those things that your unique consciousness is required for. Do the grand stuff. Bring forth the Vision. Many others are there to fill whatever roles are needed. Such is how they find their purpose. Until the dream weavers, the visionaries, do their stuff, not much can happen to bring about change. As you enact your daydreams, reality is given a grand impetus to change. Such is what you are here for, it is your purpose and destiny. See with the eye of your soul, and convey to others what you FORESEE.
15 Nov 93
We need to learn what works and what does not. We need to learn how to do things elegantly, with beauty and optimal use of energy and resources. We need to learn how best to meet individual needs, including what needs society should fill and what needs the individuals must meet on their own or through mutual cooperation with other individuals. The bottom line is that we are creating a new life form, a community, that will enable a greater unity of consciousness to express on Earth than has ever expressed before. We are the cells of that entity, that consciousness. To some degree we are part of that consciousness already. It is what speaks to us through our intuition. It already has the perfect form in mind. It is simply waiting for us to become aware of our roles in manifesting this new idea in physical form on Earth. Many of us are realizing that this is our mission, our purpose in this existence.
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Remember, Vision comes from spirit. It is Vision that allows reality to be created in the physical world. The Plan will be realized on Earth, but only through the collective Visions of individuals attuned to source. Collect these beings around you, let them be part of your circle. You will know them by their works and by the gaze in their eyes. Stay in touch with them with your communications. It is not necessary that you remain in physical proximity, only conscious proximity. As your awareness grows collectively, you will develop the abilities for maintaining a continuous conscious presence. As the work proceeds, such will be necessary.
30 Nov 93
I explored the concept that life is a play that is already written and our free choice only involves how we interpret the events of the play, not what events will occur. Even where individual choices appear to be made these choices too may be part of the play -- already predetermined. Our sensation always makes it appear that we choose, so from within the play we have no real way of knowing whether we do or not. It's a matter of belief. Since our reality is primarily emotional -- how we feel about things, we still create our own reality. However, the event part of life happens much like we speak, automatically. It flows out though we know not how or even where it comes from. It's as if we were actors and our lines come into our minds through a memory that involves a different part of our minds. At some level we know our complete parts. We just don't allow the conscious part to be aware of anything more than is needed for each particular moment in time.