Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

11 November 2005

Finally found time to sit down and write again.  Life is somewhat missing when I stay away from this expression for too long ... whether that be a month, a week, or even a day at times.  This is what allows me to recharge my spiritual batteries.  Though I have started reading metaphysical books again.  It seems that I go through cycles, some long and some short.  Perhaps all of us do.  Though, they don't seem to be regular or predictable cycles.  That is OK.  I'm open to taking life as it comes.  Though, I do question whether I am truly living the life that I was meant to live.  Then, I've wondered about that for some time now.  At times, it seems that I am out of my element ... a stranger in a strange land.  The new management job has given me the opportunity to stretch a lot in the work environment.  That is good.  It seems that I need to stretch in other ways as well.  My body is far more stiff than it should be at my age.  The stiffness and rigidity are signs of something.  No, not of any particular disease necessarily.  Rather, of a state of mind that is less flexible than it could be ... than it should be.  Overall, I consider myself fairly openminded.  But, how do I determine if that is true or not.  "Fairly" suggests a degree of relativity.

Of what would we speak this evening?  As usual, we do what we know how to do.  We allow spirit to express through us as she will.  I know of no other way to express.  In general, I have very little to say.  But the voice that speaks here has communicated volumes.  To date, in excess of 4 million words have flowed forth.  Though of late, the flow has been irregular and infrequent.  With winter fast approaching there is a sense that this will change.  11/11 is an auspicious day.  It will be particularly so in another 6 years on 11/11/11.  That hasn't happened for a millenium.  This marks the 9:The Hermit anniversary at my present company.  There is a sense that I may be working here for some time to come.

Another 17 months and we reach my first Easter birthday.  I anxiously look forward to that.  There is something special that is meant to happen in the five year span between 4/8/07 and 4/8/12, my second Easter birthday.  I've known this since 1972 when I first discovered when my birthday would be on Easter.  At the time, however, the dates were 35-40 years in the future and I was only 14.  Now, I am 47 and we are only 1.5-6.5 years away.  It will be here in no time.  If only I knew what was in store.  What I need to know will be unveiled when I need to know it.  Yet, why was the seed planted over 33 years ago?  Why did I need to know that then?  And what made it so significant that I remembered it.  Actually, for a time I remembered it incorrectly as 2005 and 2011.  Hmm ... it is curious that I would remember that as well.  Easter is a time for resurrection, for rising from the dead after 3 days as Master Jesus did.  Is something like that in store for me?  I've been biding my time for awhile, drifting wherever spirit would have me go.  I have no need to be a master of this world.  I reserve my mastership for other domains, domains that I might call home.  Jesus said "in my Father's house are many mansions, I go to prepare a way for you".  I have no spiritual relationship to a Father God or a Mother Goddess.  Though, spirit to me always seems to have a feminine nature.  That is just how I experience her.  So, what am I here to do?  Surely, there is some difference I would make by being incarnate at this time on this planet.  Somehow, this expression has something to do with that.  I am meant to use this gift in some way that is of great service to a great number.  That can only come through the expression of ideas ... ideas that take root in the minds and hearts of people and thus change lives.  A life changed, never returns to its original self.  A great idea, once accepted, forever changes the recipient.  My tool is writing.  The words that spirit expresses through me are a gift from spirit to the world.  I gladly give up a part of my free time to be a part of this.  So, let the show begin ...

Of what would we speak tonight?  We would sing the praises of spirit.  Why?  Because she is deserving of all the praise that we can give her.  How can I know this?  I just know.  I trust that the magic of the process of consciousness expressing in flesh is truly divine.  What is divine, is also holy ... and sacred.  A spiritual life is indeed worth living.  Yet, it is one that one must awaken to.  There are many still in their slumbers.  They for the most part are not ready or able to awaken, at least not yet.  Though, with patience, they can be shown the way.  That reminds me of a song:

I believe the children are our future.
Teach them well and let them lead the way.

This is not conventional wisdom.  The elders have traditionally been the wise ones.  But, this song turns the tables, putting the children in a place of leadership.  They have the genetic wiring to handle what is to come.  And, what is to come?  It is not clear that this is for me to know.  At least, not yet.  Only time will tell.  What good is it to speak of changes if I know not what they will be or when they will come?  I speak so because I so moved.  Remember, it is not me who speaks, but one who would use this vessel in this manner.  Oh, I am fully conscious of the process.  But, I am somewhat tranced out as well.  How do I describe it?  Here consciously but not here simultaneously.  The doer and the watcher, the creator and the created, the vessel and the consciousness flowing through it.  Of all of these things I am aware.

So, what is it that we choose to be?  How do we choose to live our lives?  Make a difference!  Ensure that the world becomes a better place as a result of your having lived.  Keep trying things and doing things until you succeed.  "children" = 38934955 = 3/11/20/23/27/36/41/46.  I was expecting something else.  46 = Happy Home = 2 x 23.  Hmm ... Six of Cups is indeed appropriate.  The meaning suggests that it will be the children that make the Earth into a Happy Home for all.  That is what the transformation to the new age is all about.  That is why we came at this time.  There is a grand transformation in progress, and we chose to be here at this particular junction in history.  History has been "his story" for far too long.  It is time for the scales to be balanced making this a time for "her story" to be expressed ... and perhaps even "their story".  Hmm ... the ir = 99 story.  I've worked with 78 and 88 for over a dozen years.  99 = 9 x 11, a form of 9-11.  This is 9:The Hermit x 11:Justice.

2005 = 2025(99).  2025 = 45 x 45 = 5x9 x 5x9.

2005(99) = 1985.  That makes 2007(99) = 1987, the year that I married Gini.  2012(99) = 1992, the year that I wrote the resolutions that changed my life completely.  1993 was the year of spiritual fire, the year that I was diagnosed as bipolar.  Hmm ... a simple offset of one number in the base turned future events into significant past events.  This is the first time that this particular transformation has come forth.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE!   Be Happy and Create Well!

LOVE,

Wayne


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