The 22 day in a 137312 = 17 month in a 7
year for a total of 46. Nothing too auspicious about that.
22 : 17 : 07. 22:17 was 5 years before I was born. That
would have been 1953. Gini would have been 14 at the time.
Still nothing auspicious coming forth. We have a 22 day in a 25
year. 25:22 (78) = 1972. That is the year that The Nature
of Personal Reality was being written. So there is something
tangible here after all. I was 14 at that time! Hmm
... That's 14 twice already. My file names end in YMMDD =
50822. The 228 at the end is hard to miss. It happens twice
per year, once on 2/28 and once in reverse on 8/22.
Took the enneagram sampler test again. The results were
similar. 4:The Individualist and 9:The Peacemaker were my
strongest areas. But 5:The Scholar, 1:The Reformer and 3:The
Achiever were close. 8:The Challenger was weakest, with 6:The
Loyalist and 7:The Enthusiast very low as well. Overall, the
results are not surprising except for having so many characteristics
effectively equal. I didn't know that was possible. Then
again, in most of the other occult arts, tarot, numerology, astrology,
... finding that you are effectively all of the possibilities seems to
be common for old souls.
What would I do next? Why am I even considering staying
here? Would the job be different enough as a Systems Director to
be worth it? What would change? Overall, my sense is that
it would indeed be different. I would be interacting more with my
boss and my Air Force counterpart. Further, I would be
responsible for directing what others do. That seems to be the
kind of training that is in line with what I ultimately want to
do. The opportunity wouldn't have come up if I weren't meant to
consider it. We'll see what happens. What will be will
be. It seems that I have little choice over what that is. I
can only apply for what I want. Then it is for the forces of the
universe to determine whether that will indeed manifest. All in
good time. Everything in my life happens for a reason.
Though, I have to find a way beyond the boredom. That means
finding something more challenging to do. Yet, I do not like the
details either. I've become too bogged down in them of
late. There is no clear picture of how everything fits together,
either at work or in my life. That's just how it is right
now. That could change in a moment, but it seems that it is up to
me to change it.
Life is sort of blah of late. I work, I eat, I watch television,
I sleep, and I start the cycle over again. On weekends, the
routine is different, but is still routine. It is time for a
change, a big change ... one that brings more excitement, one that
allows me to get enthusiastic about life again ... like I was in 1993,
1998, or 2002-2003. Then, I was flying high for extended periods
of time. And, not do to any foreign substances. My mind was
on fire with spirit. I was enthused.
One thing missing from my life is people. I still have no close
friends. Oh, I have acquaintances, but these don't extend outside
of the work environment. Why is that? Am I meant to be a
loner all of my days? Yes, it seems to be natural for me.
But, I do enjoy the company of others at times. To thoroughly
appreciate solitude, one must experience the company of others as
well. Or must one? If not, then why am I not happy?
There is still the sense that something important is missing in my
life. Interesting, I missed the f and the word came out
"lie". Something is missing in my lie. Of course, there is
always something missing in the illusion. It is curious that
"lie" is contained in "life", even in the correct order. lif-e is
a form of "file". Indeed, a life is indeed a record of the
expression of spirit in flesh. But, is it more than that?
I try not to set a quota for this expression. Yet, at the same
time, achievement is important to me. And, I consider this
expression one of my most creative and intimate achievements. It
utilizes a part of me that most others never see. What is
revealed on these pages is the endeavors of a soul in search of
self. Where that search will ultimately lead is as much of a
mystery to me as it is to you reading these words. Literally, I
have no foreknowledge of what word will come next, much less what
thought or idea. It has been such since the beginning of this
expression in 1993. Is it that way for others? I don't
really know. My experience with others is primarily limited to
the books that they have written. Few people have gotten to know
me in that way. Though, I've written and published nine books to
date. It does not do much good if they are not purchased and
read. When I published the books in 2003, something seemed right
about the process and the timing. But, maybe I was fooling
myself. Maybe the material is not meant for mass
consumption. So be it. The feedback from the universe is
what it is. I can accept it or do something different to change
it. However, whatever I do is ultimately up to me.
Ultimately, I would like to make the world a better place for a large
number of beings on the planet, both human and animal. That
requires building the foundations for a new world. I've known
this to be my task for some time. My sense is that it will happen
naturally via my doing what I am moved by spirit to do. That
involves observing the world for what it is, and not judging it, but
noting where it could be better ... and then figuring out what
structures need to exist to allow the improvements to manifest.
At this point, I don't even know whether I will ever see the fruits of
my labors. Interesting. This seems to mirror my working
life and my home life as well. Yes, I live in three worlds that
are very much separated from each other. There is my home world,
my work world, and my spiritual world. The first two occur 120
miles apart. The third seems to be in a whole other dimension.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne
BEYOND
IMAGINATION: Creating the Foundations for a New World